Thinking back, I never really understood why my friends and classmates had crushes on celebrities. Hell, back then one of my classmates even broke up with her boyfriend because she liked Justin Bieber so much. It was really confusing to me.
The same thing with some people having a new partner every couple weeks. Like what? You just were dating Lutz and then John and now Marco? How can you even have so many crushes so fast one after another?
I guess these were early signs for me that I am demisexual and demiromantic. It’s always interesting for me to look back and see the signs of me being a demigod appearing in my past :P
Hi, everyone! Believe it or not, it’s my birthday again. This past year has involved a lot of change for me. When l look at what’s different in my life, it makes me think about my long-term goals and the prospect of growth.
I feel less certain about what I want my future to look like than ever before. I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t feel discouraged at many points during this past year. I’ve been battling a lot of “I’ll never” thoughts– “I’ll never be able to do this” and “I’ll never have that”, etc.
But when I think about how much has changed since my last birthday, it reminds me of all the things I’ve done and all the things I have that used to be “I’ll never"s. Things that I’ve accomplished and attained purely by living my life and experiencing new things and continuing to try, one day at a time.
I don’t think anyone, at any age, should look at themselves and conclude that by this point in their lives they know the ultimate limit of their capabilities with certainty. Even when my mind is full of "I’ll never"s, it comforts me to think that the things I struggle with now will one day fail to impede me, so long as I continue to try and be better. I know that my biggest, most daunting goals for the far future aren’t going to sneak up on me. On my way there I’ll become a person with the skill, experience, discipline, and stability to achieve them.
My life is better than it was a year ago. I’m a better person than I was on my last birthday. I’ve done more and I have more. I’m proud, and grateful, and excited.
I’m looking forward to the next one. And that’s all I wanted to say. Thank you.
Adele - “Hello” AlunaGeorge and DJ Snake - “You Know You Like It” Andy Grammer - “Honey, I’m Good.” Ariana Grande feat. The Weeknd - “Love Me Harder” Big Sean feat. E-40 - “I Don’t F**k With You” David Guetta feat. Nicki Minaj & Afrojack - “Hey Mama” Demi Lovato - “Cool For The Summer” Drake - “Hotline Bling” Ed Sheeran - “Photograph” Ed Sheeran - “Thinking Out Loud” Ellie Goulding - “Love Me Like You Do” Fall Out Boy - “Centuries” Fetty Wap - “Trap Queen” Fetty Wap feat. Remy Boyz - “679” Fifth Harmony feat. Kid Ink - “Worth It” Flo Rida feat. Sage The Gemini - “GDFR” Jason Derulo - “Want To Want Me” Justin Bieber - “Sorry” Justin Bieber - “What Do You Mean” Major Lazer feat. MO & DJ Snake - “Lean On” Mark Ronson feat. Bruno Mars - “Uptown Funk” Maroon 5 - “Sugar” Meghan Trainor - “Lips Are Movin” Meghan Trainor feat. John Legend - “Like I’m Gonna Lose You” Natalie La Rose feat. Jeremih - “Somebody” Nick Jonas - “Jealous” Nicki Minaj feat. Drake & Lil Wayne - “Truffle Butter” Omarion feat. Chris Brown & Jhene Aiko - “Post To Be” OMI - “Cheerleader (Felix Jaehn Remix)” One Direction - “Drag Me Down” Pitbull feat. Ne-Yo - “Time Of Our Lives” R. City feat. Adam Levine - “Locked Away” Rachel Platten - “Fight Song” Rihanna - “Bitch Better Have My Money” Rihanna feat. Kanye West & Paul McCartney - “FourFiveSeconds” Sam Smith - “I’m Not The Only One” Selena Gomez feat. A$AP Rocky - “Good For You” Shawn Mendes - “Stitches” SIlento - “Watch Me” Skrillex & Diplo feat. Justin Bieber - “Where Are U Now” Taylor Swift - “Blank Space” Taylor Swift - “Style” Taylor Swift - “Bad Blood” Taylor Swift - “Wildest Dreams” Tove Lo - “Talking Body” Walk The Moon - “Shut Up And Dance” Wiz Khalifa feat. Charlie Puth - “See You Again” The Weeknd - “Earned It” The Weeknd - “The Hills” The Weeknd - “Can’t Feel My Face”
“Babe!” Justin yells from the room, so that I can hear him downstairs.
“Coming Daddy”, I say back to him as I jog up the stairs.
“Yeah, J?” I say out of breath.
“I want some lovin’”, Justin says with a little pout.
“I love it when you are clingy, Justin.” I walk towards our bed and climb in with him.
“Y/N, I’m so glad that we get a chance to hangout today. You know with my busy schedule?” He says while gazing at me with his hazel eyes. I swear when he does that he sure gets my juices flowing. I lay closer to him.
“I’m happy, too. Justin I miss you when you are away. It feels good to be in your arms.” I smile while snuggling up near him.
“Y/N, I’m gonna write a song about you girl. You’re gonna love it. It’s gonna be about your little nose and your pink toes. Boy, I love everything about you.” He sighs while looking up at the ceiling.
“ I wonder what it’s going to be like in 10 years. Maybe we will have some children, and we can move to a different state and it will just be about you and I, Y/N” I love when Justin talks to me about the future he makes our relationship feel even more secure and hopeful.
“Wait, we aren’t gonna have a dog? Haha I want a dog, Justin.” I say looking up at him while laughing.
He snickers, “Oh, I forgot and we will have a dog. Maybe we can have a little farm, also. Name one of the horse, Y/N”
“You play too much, Justin. You are so silly.”, I say while tracing his tattoos.
“And you are beautiful. I hope we do get to have that farm, though. The kids will love it. ” Justin says while poking my dimple and smelling my hair.
“You’re beautiful, too. My sweet hazeled eye boy. ” I say while cheesing and getting in his face.
“ Oh stop it.” He says while playfully acting bashful. Then he leans in and licks my face. I swear he is too much.
A/N for more just send me an ask requesting what you want. I’m always here ✨💕
Imagine: you and Justin broke up a while ago and after getting a call from one of his friends you decide to show up to one of his concerts and see how he is doing.
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Taking a deep breath you shoved your phone into your purse, leaning slightly against the side of the car as it sped down the streets of Miami.
As the arena came into view your stomach turned, clenching slightly in the reality of what you were about to do. It had been months since you had talked to Justin and for all you know he may not even want to talk to you.
Pushing all fear aside you paid the driver and stepped out into the brisk night time air, taking out the pass khalil had gave you, you walked around to the back of the building and up to the guard standing outside the big metal doors.
Smiling shyly you handed him the pass which he check closely before moving to the side and opening the door, muttering a small thank you, you slipped inside relieved when a warm burst of air met your skin.
Walking down the hallway you chewed on your bottom lip anxiously, the look on your face was one of fear and anxiety.
“Y/N?” A voice spoke from behind you, spinning around you saw Scooter and Yael walking towards you “Hey.” You smiled warmly giving a brief hug to the both of them
“What are you doing here?” Scooter spoke up “Oh um well I just came to see Justin, we haven’t talked since- well you know so I just thought I would stop by.” You rambled shifting from foot to foot
“Um yea- well he should just be getting done with rehearsal, the stage is down this hallway and to the left, see you later.” He and Yael both smiled before walking the opposite way
Following his directions you reached the stage, peaking out slightly you saw Justin next to his dancers talking and drinking a bottle of water, you caught the eye of one of his dancers whose eyes widened.
“Hey guys lets go run it over again in the other room.” She announced to everyone frantically dragging them off the stage, Justin had yet to notice you, his back still to you.
Walking slowly you approached him “Everyone went to the other room to rehearse so- Y/N?” He turned realising you weren’t one of his dancers, offering a cheeky smile you waved slightly “Hey Justin.”
“What are you doing here? We haven’t spoke in months.” He cleared his throat still shocked, pulling on a shirt which was discarded off to the side
“Yea well I was in town and thought I would stop by, I hope you don’t mind I can g-” He interrupted quickly “No, no I don’t mind at all i’m just surprised, come sit.” He beckoned to the edge of the stage
Taking a seat next to him he was silent for a moment before speaking “So how have you been?”
“Good, I graduated from college finally,” You laughed tucking a stray hair behind your ear “Still have yet to figure out what I want to do.”
“You were always ambitious, so hardworking I love that about you.” He smiled running a hand through his hair “I’m happy for you, I know how much it meant to you to graduate.”
“Yea.” You chuckled “So how have you been?”
“Good, I mean better than I was before.” He trailed off “I miss you.” He added quickly
“I miss you too, I really do.”
“I intended to spend my life with you Y/N, it really was serious even if I didn’t treat it like it was, I now realise how stupid I was to let you go and I pray to god everyday that he will bring the women I was supposed to marry back into my life.” YouI looked at him briefly taking it what he said “I still haven’t met someone that makes me feel the way you made me feel, and I want that feeling back.”