you taught me forgiveness

My favorite thing about the new episode was Malia acting as Lydia’s bodyguard but also her friend.

Because Lydia is breaking down into pieces and she deserves to be surrounded by people that care about her.

And if you try and tell me Malia still doesn’t care about Lydia Martin, I’m gonna need you to leave.

Others will always inspire you, but can you learn to inspire yourself too? A transcendent brilliant teacher lies within you. It’s the you of the past, it’s the you right now, it’s the you at your best and it’s the you at your worst. So when you look back on some of the times you’ve labeled “bad” days, you can instead remember them as “good” days this inner teacher was providing you. Good days of growth, lessons and evolution. And then you will look at those days and say ‘Thank you for my heartbreak, because it taught me forgiveness. Thank you for my mistakes, because it taught me humility. Thank you for my greed, because it taught me gratitude. Thank you for my flaws, because it taught me acceptance. Thank you for my anger, because it taught me compassion’.
—  Caitlin Japa


How long will you burry me deep inside?
Do you not know I’m the thorn in your side?
You’ve been taught to forgive and forget
Until you acknowledge and release me you’ll live in fret.

I know it happened long ago
But you buried and hid me instead of letting me go.
Now when others get you upset
It’s not them it’s me that’s your biggest threat.

I’m not you enemy I’m your friend
I’m the hurt little child you hid within.
How long will you hide me and bury me away?
I kick, I scream, there must be a better way.

We are not separate we are as one
I’m the part you hate that’s why we don’t have fun.
Embrace me, accept me, and set me free
Once we integrate you will love all of me.

I didn’t enjoy it, it was no fun
It wasn’t my fault, I wasn’t the one.
Yes you was hurt I was too
Why did you disown me? What did I do?

I can help you live and have fun
Just accept me and forgive me so we can become one.
I am a part of your purpose and destiny
Let’s heal each other and set others free.

How often are you going to take the same test?
Fear and insecurity keeps us from being our best.
Please accept me and set me free
When you do you will see how much peace this life can be.

Dear Mom

Dear Mom, I hope you know how important you are.

You taught me to make up songs for everything

Because life is always better with a little music in it

You showed me Disney movies and how to put on makeup

What to do with boys who love me and boys who love my body and how to tell the difference.

Dear Mom, you taught me how to be a lady

With hands folded and legs crossed

But always reminded me to feed the lions in my chest and hold them at the ready.

You taught me to be the type to catch bullets in my teeth

And never to fear the guns pointed in my face

Because I’m a lady, yes, but that doesn’t mean I can’t take my pretty sparkly heels off and send those boys running.

Dear Mom, you taught me things like strength

And the power women could wield

Like sword forged in fire clenched between unwavering palms.

Dear Mom, you taught me to be brave.

You are strong, also because you know how to love.

You taught me passion and forgiveness, when to fight and when it’s okay to walk away

You taught me to always keep laughter in my life.

You taught me that love should build you up and make you stronger

That my heart could handle anything, as long as I never gave up hope

And that this pounding behind my rib cage means that I am alive

That I have a purpose for being here.

Dear Mom,

I don’t have the words.

Thank you.

~A.N.S. (I love you.)

In Praise of Bad Girls

You flashed that lovely bad girl smile
hotter than a year of summer nights
then overwhelmed me with your guile
promising exotic hedonistic delights

What happened then I dare not tell
some secrets simply can’t be shared
you guided me to heaven through hell
with not the slightest kinkiness spared

And that special little thing you taught
forgive me please, but I had to gasp
how could you form so evil a thought
and what’s up with that cowgirl grasp

I’ll never encounter such a night again
as I relearned all that I thought I knew
and now I have joined the many men
singing the praises of bad girls like you


In celebration of my one year anniversary of being on tumblr, I’d like to say thank you to all the people who have made it so fantastic. So much has happened to me in the past year because of this ridiculous website and I’m so grateful for all of it. Not only is it the reason I feel closer to Taylor than I ever have, but it’s the reason I have so many incredible friends (and almost 7k followers??) who mean the absolute world to me. I love you all so much. I don’t know how I got so lucky.

This is going to be a long list but I make no apologies.

@taylorswift - My love. I don’t know what I did to deserve you. You have given me so much happiness over the years, not just through surreal experiences like getting to dance in your kitchen and seeing you pop up in my notifications, but by teaching me how to find it on my own. You’ve taught me how to forgive and that it’s okay to hurt. You are the reason I am who I am, the reason I’m still standing today, and I will spend the rest of my life trying to thank you for that. I love you to the moon and back.

@swiftmeharder - My darling Alice, where would I even be without you? You know everything about me and for some reason still love me anyway. I can talk to you about anything at all, you’re always there for me when I need advice or just anything really. Even if we never get to actually hang out, I’m still so lucky to have such a smart, mature and hilarious friend in my life. Love you always.

@lov-eswift - Sometimes I forget that we’re friends because of tumblr because it feels like I’ve known you for years. Our friendship is completely ridiculous but there is no one I’d rather facetime for hours or have incoherent conversations with about anything (but mostly candy corn). You’re also my only tumblr friend on a texting basis with my mom so there’s that. Lov-e you Sof #bbrb

@innocehnt - Meagan my love, you light up my life. Despite the 14 hour time difference you are one of my closest friends and I don’t know what I would do without you. Whenever I need advice you always make me feel better and you’re one of the funniest people I’ve ever known without ever trying. There is no one I’d rather geek out over our favorite geek with (except maybe @theaustralianswiftie, the other Australian-criminal-minds-obsessed love of my life). Love you babe (and Dani obviously). 

@iknowplacesclean - LEJ! You were my first tumblr friend and a year later you’re still one of my favorite people in the world. You’re always there to make me feel better when I’m upset or nervous or to freak out with me when I’m excited, you are as close to literal sunshine as they come and you deserve nothing but the best. Love you so much.

@givingoutchances - The reason we became friends is because we both think we’re funnier than we are and that pretty much sums up our entire friendship (which is great because it’s really nice when someone else thinks I’m as funny as I do). You are such an amazing, smart, kind person and I’m so lucky to have you in my life. Love you so much Ash.  

@gotdatgoodgirlfaith - Michelle my sweet, you’re easily one of the most humble, kind, thoughtful and adorable people I know and talking to you always makes my day brighter. You are an amazing friend and never fail to put a smile on my face. Never stop being you. Love you so much darling.

@andwellsinghallelujah - Emma dearest, my precious little bundle of sunshine. It’s still crazy to me that if we didn’t have each other’s missing polaroids then I wouldn’t have you in my life to repeatedly make me smile (and Taylor might not have followed you??wtf??) love you so much. 

@un-par-al-leled - You are the one and only person in my life outside of the Taylor Swift fandom that I trust with my blog. I hope you understand what a true honor this is and remember, with great power comes great responsibility. This is my sanctuary, treat it with respect. And also come visit me I’ll buy you chocolate. -Asweckswiss 


A-D: @adorkablepenguins // @afirstglancefeeling // @alexandergold // @allaroundtaylor // @allofthestarlight // @all-too-well-13 // @anawfulmess // @apenandanoldnapkin // @bae-tay // @bakecookiesyo // @bllankspace// @befearlessandstaybeautiful // @breakrinalikeapromise // @but-im-still-trying-to-find-it // @causedarlingiamanightmare // @colldasyou // @cuzustilldontknowwhatineversaid // @daddysaidstayaway // @dancetothisbeatforever // @dancinroundthekitchen // @demonsandarling // @detectiveswift // @dlovestaylor // @dreamingincastles // @drunkonnjealousy // @drunkswifts 

E-L: @eyesopen // @feariess // @finallyyyclean // @finnswift // @flawfulbelle // @goodgirlfaith // @hellamaleswiftie // @herhopeistreacherous // @heypay // @hiswildeyesontheroad // @ikeepcruising // @iknowispouringrain // @iknowplaces13 // @incrediblethangs // @intheeighties // @ivebeengivingoutchances // @ivegotablankspace // @jtmaster13 // @julyninths // @katyandcal // @karliekloss // @krplaster // @laurenlovestay89 // @lightning-on-my-feet // @longlive88 // @lovelovelove1989 // @lskbe // @lyyssaaaa13 

M-R: @madeofstarlight // @merliviaswift // @memorize-me // @messofadreamr13 // @messofadreamxr // @mhmusic44 // @milkshakeitoff // @monica-geller // @mydistayste // @myhappylittletroyler // @nzswiftie1 // @ocean-sprayed-hair // @ofbeinghonests // @ohsoswiftly // @on-swifts-side // @onehandfeel // @oohiremember // @outofthewoods // @outsofthewoods // @palegingerbabies // @phillyswift // @protectingswift // @put-my-name-on-the-topofyourlist // @recordsasyou // @regretinghimwaslike // @rememberyourbarefeet // @rideyourownwhitehorse 

S-T: @seeyouinmywildestdreamsts // @shadesofwrong // @slightlyparis // @speakwow // @swifternet // @swiftlyawarrior // @swiftstrong // @taketheirshots // @taylormermaidcat // @taylorslobster // @taylorswiftstyle // @thatjulythirteenth // @thatsocaroline15 // @thanksforsayingthat // @the-foxesthatrun // @the-newromantics // @theblameisonme // @themomentiknew-taylor // @thelifeofswift // @thirteenlegohouses // @thisloveisglowing // @tree-paine // @torturedloves // @ts-zoe13 

U-Z:  @urineluv // @whyisntketchupasmoothie // @wildetsdreams // @wxndxriand // @welcome-to-new-swift // @we-couldnt-quite-forget // @xloveswift // @x-forever-and-a-day-x // @13swiftiesfortay 


You knew nothing about being a single parent and you knew even less about raising a girl, but you learned and I am forever grateful, in-debt, and proud of you. You taught me how to be strong, independent, loving, and forgiving. You taught me that working hard pays off but most importantly you taught me to love myself. I know it wasn’t easy raising me simple because there were lessons you couldn’t teach me but you made sure I was prepared for them. I will never forget when I first got my period I think you freaked out more then I did. I remember when I told you a white classmate of mine told me I wasn’t Black enough to be Black or Korean enough to be Korean, that was the first time I saw you break down and cry and right after your tears dried you told me that I was enough to be equally both. The day after I found books about Black History and Korean History sitting on my bed. You told me I was a Queen and I should know where I came from, and that even though we had come a long way we have even further to go. So on the day you turn 60 I stand before you proud to call you daddy. Happy Birthday Dad 💙💙💙💙💙

Hi Taylor!
Im Mehmet. Im 16 and i’ve been a fan of yours for 3 years now. I live in Turkey. I tried so long using Tumblr but could only got around to actually using it last summer.

I tried so hard to get noticed by you yesterday, you went online but you didn’t see any of my posts. You liked 15 people’s posts. I’d give everything to be one of them. Im writing songs because of you. You guide me. You taught me to be forgiving, kind and nice to people.

I only have one wish other than that. If you notice me, send me some of the stuff that you sent to your fans last Christmas. Because
does not deliver to our country. I can only buy your albums with my money. And the reason i want those presents are because i’ll never be able to see you or sing along with you in concerts. I hope you see this and make my dreams come true.

Cause im tired of photoshopping people photos with you to make it look like i had a picture with you. But i never get tired of loving you or tring to reach you. I love you with all my heart. Please notice me, please like my photos. Please my my dreams come to life.

When other people are taking pictures with you or sittig next to you in cafès or get into Loft'89 all i can do is photoshop those pictures.

With all best wishes, i really hope not to photoshop any more pictures.


Virtue of Love💖💞💙💞💖✝💚 
Loving Jesus, sweetness of my heart, Your magnetic love draws me to You. You taught me the meaning of true love By mercifully forgiving all my sins And dying on the Cross for my salvation. Teach me to embrace such Divine love, that my actions be the fruits of Your Spirit. Transform my soul into pure abounding love, enabling me to always walk in righteousness. Your gift of Love is priceless; Being sought out by all living souls. Surround me with Your Love. Thank You. Amen. 💖💞💙💞💖✝💚💐🌹🌴

If someone hurts my feelings I go straight in prayer to God. I don’t focus on my hurt feeling so thay fester and poison my heart make me bitter and build a wall over my heart no. Because I learned and experienced that hurting people hurt people. So I know I don’t need to linger there I need to Go and tell God my concerns so he can quickly heal me. God gives me understanding that people don’t normal try hurt your feeling on purpose maybe they was having a bad day or someone hurt them so taking out on you without realising. God taught me even when people hurt me I forgive and still love them even more because they need love the most. When I pray about my hurts I become better not bitter. We all need to give our hurts to God so He can replace that hurt with more of His love..
—  Things I experienced at age 24
I swore to the moon and the journal that I’d never let the pen spit another word of ink about you, but I am in love with the sky and it watched me dissolve under the cloudy canopy last wednesday when i saw your name on a street sign or how the sunlight in the puddles blinded me when I woke up drunk and dizzy with a parched tongue. The sky taught me to forgive. However I’d rather hate you than to be reminded that I can’t forget the sweetness of what we had.
—  I cried and wrote