you said you loved me guess that was a lie to

six-word sentences.
  • frankly speaking, i wanna give up.
  • they love me cause i’m hot.   
  • just try to guess the answer.
  • everyone here knows you don’t care.
  • fine, do things your way.
  • i want to be in love.
  • no, i would rather make money.
  • shut up already, i’m not going.
  • because you said that, fuck you!
  • i hate you more than anything.
  • just sit down? let me explain?
  • can i be a little nasty?
  • there’s nothing wrong with being sexual.
  • i want you to like me.
  • don’t you dare lie to me.
  •  i’m way too scared to fall.
  • terrified of my love for you?
  • we were both afraid, shut up.
  • it wasn’t anyone’s fault. not really.
  • life’s too short to care anymore.
  • i dreamt about you last night.
  • really? what did you dream about?
  • i dreamt you chose me instead.
  • how did you become like this?
  • this isn’t any of your business.
  • i’m losing my mind, losing control.
  • you weren’t there! i needed you!
  • please don’t start with me, okay?
  •  why do you always leave me? 
  • this is all we have left.
  • i turned around. you were gone.
  • all i can think about is you.
  • wow, you look like shit today.
  • i called and you didn’t answer.
  • i wanna be a child forever.
  • today, my love is in mourning.  
  • your words felt like sharp knives.
  • “ say something nice or don’t speak. 
six-word sentences.

blueneighbcrhood:

  • frankly speaking, i wanna give up.
  • they love me cause i’m hot.   
  • just try to guess the answer.
  • everyone here knows you don’t care.
  • fine, do things your way.
  • i want to be in love.
  • no, i would rather make money.
  • shut up already, i’m not going.
  • because you said that, fuck you!
  • i hate you more than anything.
  • just sit down? let me explain?
  • can i be a little nasty?
  • there’s nothing wrong with being sexual.
  • i want you to like me.
  • don’t you dare lie to me.
  •  i’m way too scared to fall.
  • terrified of my love for you?
  • we were both afraid, shut up.
  • it wasn’t anyone’s fault. not really.
  • life’s too short to care anymore.
  • i dreamt about you last night.
  • really? what did you dream about?
  • i dreamt you chose me instead.
  • how did you become like this?
  • this isn’t any of your business.
  • i’m losing my mind, losing control.
  • you weren’t there! i needed you!
  • please don’t start with me, okay?
  •  why do you always leave me? 
  • this is all we have left.
  • i turned around. you were gone.
  • all i can think about is you.
  • wow, you look like shit today.
  • i called and you didn’t answer.
  • i wanna be a child forever.
  • today, my love is in mourning.  
  • your words felt like sharp knives.
  • “ say something nice or don’t speak. 
  • A skeleton told me a lie once. I said “you can’t fool me! I see right through you.”
  • Who won the skeleton beauty contest? No body.
  • What do skeletons say before they begin dining? Bone appetite!
  • Why didn’t the skeleton cross the road? He didn’t have the guts.
  • How do skeletons call their friends on Halloween? They use the telebone.
  • Skeletons are always so calm. I guess it’s because nothing ever gets under their skin.

I think I’ll be going to my friend’s party as a skeleton. I’ll be going without a date though. Hopefully, I can pick up somebody.

Happy Halloween everyone! Please be safe out there. <3

I’m not gonna lie
when the snap streak ended, it hurt.
I know you said we needed time but we worked for a long time to keep that shit.
Now here I am staring at nothing because you left
us with ashes from which I’m supposed to either rebuild or sift
but here I sit, listening to Flyleaf acoustic rifts reminding me that I’m so sick
despite what came from your lips saying you burned this but why does it feel like I’m the one covered in soot while indifference floods your veins? Why am I feeling responsible for the flame that sent the embers flailing into the ashen eve?
I guess it was symbolic that the flame would leave since as it seems you want me to erase the we and let what we were float into aerial effervescence
I wish I could overdose on analgesic to make this ventricle fracture go away but that won’t change the fact that I need you.
Or I think I do.
I’m still covered in ashes, lying here, staring at what was and trying to piece together how combustion alters what
could
only
manifest
being
us
together
into
officious
nirvana
but yet here I sit, not knowing what to do with the cremation.
But I guess that’s what’s the space was for. To erase flames and start pure.
—  “12:05 a.m. on a leather couch”
~Theeforvendetta~
everytime i try explaining to people why i left you i just keep repeating the same thing, that i didn’t want you, that we weren’t going anywhere, that i was tired of kissing and fucking you. but holy fuck i lie through my teeth, i left you because i’ve never loved someone like i love you, it’s not a sick obsession, i dont stop my world to love you, i dont cry every night but when im doing something i imagine you being there doing it with me or when im scared i think of what you would say to me if i called you but i never pick up the phone or when i have good news it almost seems useless because i cant share it with you. i left you because i was too scared to tell you that everytime i said you’re my best friend i really meant i love you and everytime i got mad or jealous was because i wanted you to be mine but i guess i felt like you’d never be mine because why would someone as perfect as you ever want me. i wanted to give you the world but i felt like even if i did you still would never love me and she would still be prettier and i’d still just be your best friend. i didnt fuck you i made love to you and maybe for you i was just another number but to me you made me feel important like i was different and somehow better. every single time someone called me fat i remember how you loved every single roll on my body and everytime someone called me hot i remember how you’d call me beautiful with that fucking smile on your face fuck what im trying to say is when you say i left you, i didnt leave you i was just tired of falling asleep crying because i wanted you next to me and i was tired of having to pretend i never loved you. i cover up everything with my 15 year old boyfriend because it’s easier that way, since i met you i forgot what he even looks like. people ask me how i got over him and i say it took time but honestly it was that night we were coming home from our first night at that motel and i remember when we were driving back and i looked out the window and for the first time i felt love for someone and thats how i knew id probably love you forever but i was never going to let you kill me like he did, i was not going to be weak enough for you to take control of me so i put up a wall just incase you decided to leave so i wouldnt be as hurt as the first time around. i left you for the simple reason that i love you and i didnt want to tell you because i was scared of how you’d react and fuck i didnt want to hear you say you didnt love me back or maybe you did but you didnt want to tell me i dont fucking know. just know i never left you i was trying to say i love you so fucking much in the most fucked up way. i was scared i was so fucking scared of losing you and getting hurt that i left because when i knew how much love i had for you i didnt want to lose you so i thought if you lost me it wouldnt hurt as much. but im the one who lost the most i lost the one guy i’ll probably always love.
—  one year ago today
Oh wow hello

- lemme ramble for a minute, skip further down if you’re not interested in what happened and why I went awol -

A little while ago (I’m actually not sure when it was now), I logged off tumblr and most of my social media linked to this, deleting friends left and right just because.

Well, the reason was my deteriorating mental health, but I didn’t realise that until I went to see a doctor.

It wasn’t even exam season and I was so overwhelmed with people and attention and expectations that I felt that friends I had made here hated me, didn’t need me despite anything they said and I lied to make them feel that I was the bitch who was going to leave for no reason. Well, I mean I was and I guess I still am, but the no reason was a lie.

I didn’t want pity or people offering help. I’m independent and I like taking care of myself in the way that I don’t need others to help me. I decided that was what would be best for me.

I’m sure you’re familiar with my pack.

I am the heartless piece of shit who just up and left without a goodbye, who decided that I needed a break and didn’t consult with anyone.

On top of that, my phone also broke so even if I wanted to I couldn’t come back on here or anything.

I love every single person I just left, I just couldn’t understand what was going on with me and fight or flight kicked in and flight it was. I’m so sorry to everyone. Especially the pack.

- real talk, stuff you need to read -

I disappeared because of mental health issues but I am back on a part time basis.

I am going to be answering questions and stuff, all asks in my inbox, and I will try to reconnect with you all as possible.

I apologise for disappearing without a word. However, I will not be as active as I once was, I am going to finish my last year of school and then gonna start all over again. I will finish the Halsey series finally, BUT

I AM AFRAID I WILL BE ABANDONING ANY PAST REQUESTS. PLEASE SEND THEM IN TO TALENTED WRITERS SUCH AS ELLIE OR ANYONE PART OF THE PACK OR WHOEVER I DO NOT MIND BUT IF YOU SENT ME A REQUEST THAT I HAVE NOT WRITTEN I WILL NOT BE WRITING IT.

I will post a full list of all requests I will e abandoning this week sometime.

I am going to university in September, and I am going to start another blog, which will be multi-fandom. I will leave this blog up with a link to my master list and to my new blog.

I just need to start this cluttered mess again tbh.

Once again, I apologise for leaving, I don’t care what I get in my inbox tbh, but I will be restarting things to clear my plate. I’ll keep you updated.

Halsey series will hopefully be finished by May, but I cannot say for sure. I have so many deadlines I’m quite dead rn tbh, I just missed having you all here tbh.

I love you all, thank you for sticking with me, there are things coming soon I promise.

anonymous asked:

I've been going out with my bf for 4 months and he's one of my best friends and i think I'm in love with him ????????? Is 4 months too short of a time period ?? we've been friends a little longer than our relationship. i think he feels the same way about me but none of us have rlly said "I love you". but tbh I feel it radiating off of him so I don't even need to hear it. I've never met anyone like him. I guess there isn't a time limit for love but is too soon ..."too soon"???

i’ve fallen in love in a day there’s really no such thing as “too soon” for me but i also don’t consider myself a very practical or factual person, so i guess it just depends on who you’re asking! feelings don’t lie though so don’t worry about how it may seem

goatkibble  asked:

🍑 Tell me how great I am! :D

It’s against my moral fiber to lie 😇

…or it would be if I could find said morality. Buuuut, truth be told… you scare me & you’re.. alright I guess. And by that I obviously mean your stories are legit fanfuckingtastic, I adore your sims, Toby is sex on pixel legs & Leah is my sim girlfriend even if she doesn’t know it yet… sorry poodle! Yadda yadda thanks for being insane with me & supporting and/or adding to my horrific ideas. You’ve basically become my simblr partner in crime & something about friendship & love & other mushy vomit-worthy feels!

anonymous asked:

What's your favorite trait of Mark Lee?

WELL! IM SO GLAD YOU ASKED!
I love everything, just everything. He’s so damn hardworking, even Teayong has said how he’s the most hardworking member who trains the most. He’s constantly working and has he ever complained? No. He’s even said that he doesn’t get tired but we all know that’s a lie. My favorite trait idek what you would call it but when people put everything before themselves. Selfless, I guess? He takes care of the dream members, he’s always learning new choreo and worrying about the members and he has his rapping. Yet never has he ever complained or even though to worry the members about his issues. He is so talented and it so overworked it makes me so sad to even begin to think how stressed he really is because he deserves so much better. I’m so proud of him for being able to achieve his dream and have such a great opportunity but I also hope that he can be able to rest. I also hope he knows how much we will support him even no matter what. Mark Lee is a beautiful person with such a beautiful heart and I love and cherish him dearly.

I don’t mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn’t and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn’t be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it’s good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night I sing this song

anonymous asked:

"I missed you." Taehyung broke the silence and you rolled your eyes, "You definitely showed how much you missed me when you didn't call or even send a text." Taehyung laughed, "I guess I deserve this. I don't want to lie and tell you that I think about you everyday because I don't. I genuinely forgot." That hurt you but you knew Tae was just being honest. "Great." You said. "But that doesn't mean I never stopped feeling what I felt for you. I still love you, Dijah."

7

‘i still love you’ i’m going to COMMIT

not gonna lie if someone said that to me i would respond with ‘uh’ and then probably sprint the opposite direction bc i’m awful and can’t deal with emotions like this ahaaaa fuck

“He was right, your voice changed and it was very noticeable.” He said.

“I don’t know what you guys are talking about, I’m not angry.. I have no right to be angry.” She responded.

“Don’t you dare lie to me, you know you can’t lie to me… your voice changed and it was very noticeable. You sounded sad and disappointed.” He said.

For the longest time, she sat there, unable to respond to him. She finally whispered “I wasn’t angry.. I’m not angry.. I could never be angry with him.. I guess.. It just hit me.. really hard.. that I am in love with a man who can never love me. There’s just no place for me in his heart. The truth is, I’ve always known someone like him could never love someone like me.

He’s so perfect and I’m flawed. He’s gorgeous and look at me. I don’t deserve to have him in my life. He deserves perfection because he is perfection. I’ve never felt worthy of him, of the person he is. He’s such an amazing man and there’s not a day that goes by.. when I don’t think to myself.. that he deserves someone better than me.. and I guess.. he realized it too. It’s okay though.. I’ve always known that he could never love me.

I’m not angry at him, I swear. And maybe I was a little disappointed.. but that’s not his fault. I was disappointed in myself.. that once again.. I am in love with a man who will never feel the same way about me. And you know what? That’s okay. Maybe I’m just one of those people who was born to give more love than they will ever receive in life and I wouldn’t change a thing. If I had to choose.. he’s the one I would always choose to give all my love to.” She whispered fully aware that there was no was possible that he could hear her. So she just said “I’m tired.. I’m going to go… I’ll see you later.”

— 

~Excerpts from the book I’ll never write #159

02/21/2015

6:23 am

BARE IT ALL (Part 6) Jack Gilinsky

PREVIOUS PARTS⬇️⬇️⬇️⬇️
http://camerondallasbutt.tumblr.com/post/118836046363/bare-it-all-jack-gilinsky-part-5

“Here the ice might help” Jack said handing me an ice pack.
I can’t lie, I miss him, I miss how we used to be, how happy he made.
**flashback**
“God I love you” Jack said holding me on top of him.
“Jack?” I asked.
“Hmmm”
“Promise you’ll always love me?”
“Y/n. I can’t imagine a world without you.”
*flashback over*
I guess once you treasure the memories more than the person you made it with, you know it’s over.
“Jack can I borrow you’re phone to call Cam?”
“Yeah here” Jack said handing me his phone.
“Hello?” Cameron answered.
“Hey Cam, it’s y/n.” I paused. “Long story short… I twisted my ankle and know I’m at Gilinsky’s house.”
“Babe I’m on set right now but don’t worry I’ll be there in 15 minute.
"Cam! No stay on set I can survive a few hours here.” I said trying to stop him from coming.
“No… I’ll be there in 30 minutes.” Cam hanged up before I could say anything else.
“Cam is coming in 30 minutes, I think I’ll wait outside” I said handing him the ice pack.
“No stay, I feel like we need to talk.”
“What do you want to talk about Jack” I rolled my eyes “you know we’re going to end up fighting”
“I just don’t like the fact that you hate me.”
“Jack how could I not!” I said. “I don’t hate you because you’re with Madison”
“Then why?”
“Because you took away the most precious thing I had on this universe” I paused. “You took away my happiness… You made me feel like I could never trust anybody again. You said you loved, I never thought you would make me so miserable.”
“Y/n I’m sorry” Jack said.
“Jack I forgive you” Jack sighed, like a thousand weights were lifted off his shoulder. “But I could never forget” I said standing up, limping to the door.
I sat down on the porch waiting for Cam.
I wished I could just forget everything… Never meeting Jack. I wouldn’t have to go through so much heart ache.
“Hey babe, ready to go?” Cam asked as he pulled up in the driveway.
“Yeah”
JACK POV
I saw her stand up to the porch and walking over to Cam. It just made me feel so angry, I couldn’t explain. I wanted something from both Madison and Y/n.
I decided to call Madison.
“Madison?” I asked
“Yeah”
“Get ready for dinner at eight I have a surprise for you.” I said before saying goodbye and hanging up on her.
I grabbed Y/n’s promise ring, and decided to get dressed.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A/N: SORRY FOR POSTPONING FOR SO LONG…. I just need to feel inspired to write and when I’m forced I feel like my writing is just blah… But yeah part 7 out tomorrow plus my new fanfic.

six-word sentences.

blueneighbcrhood:

  • frankly speaking, i wanna give up.
  • they love me cause i’m hot.   
  • just try to guess the answer.
  • everyone here knows you don’t care.
  • fine, do things your way.
  • i want to be in love.
  • no, i would rather make money.
  • shut up already, i’m not going.
  • because you said that, fuck you!
  • i hate you more than anything.
  • just sit down? let me explain?
  • can i be a little nasty?
  • there’s nothing wrong with being sexual.
  • i want you to like me.
  • don’t you dare lie to me.
  •  i’m way too scared to fall.
  • terrified of my love for you?
  • we were both afraid, shut up.
  • it wasn’t anyone’s fault. not really.
  • life’s too short to care anymore.
  • i dreamt about you last night.
  • really? what did you dream about?
  • i dreamt you chose me instead.
  • how did you become like this?
  • this isn’t any of your business.
  • i’m losing my mind, losing control.
  • you weren’t there! i needed you!
  • please don’t start with me, okay?
  •  why do you always leave me? 
  • this is all we have left.
  • i turned around. you were gone.
  • all i can think about is you.
  • wow, you look like shit today.
  • i called and you didn’t answer.
  • i wanna be a child forever.
  • today, my love is in mourning.  
  • your words felt like sharp knives.
  • “ say something nice or don’t speak. 
I remember being happy. And I can’t say I’m not happy now, because I am. But my heart hasn’t been beating as quick as it used to, and my mind isn’t as fearless as it used to be. I miss you. You were the reason I smiled, the reason I laughed, I let you become everything to me. I kissed you, you kissed me, I couldn’t count how many times you kissed me, or the times you said you loved me, but I can count how many times I was that happy - once. I don’t know why I let you in. Now you say it was all a lie. How can you say that to the person you said “I will always love you” too? The person who would have followed you everywhere and done anything for you. Don’t pretend like nothing happened, because I remember it like it was yesterday, and I guess you don’t want to.
So yes, I am happy. But my happiness is accompanied by the pain of missing you. And maybe that isn’t even happiness at all.
—  I want to tell you this but I just can’t, so I’m telling other people instead.

I seen you at a party. It had been a week since we broke up. I can’t help that our friends are the same and I’ll be damned if I let them go because of you. I’ll admit that it hurt seeing you with her. The skinny, pretty little blond that is the complete opposite of me. But I stood my ground like everyone told me to and hid the pain that I was feeling. I wouldn’t let you see how much it hurt me, how much it tore me up inside. So I smiled and pretend to have fun. But I still love you. 

The funny thing is, is that you told me you loved me to, forever. It’s pathetic how those three words are thrown around these days. They have no meaning any more. And stupidly, I really thought you had meant them. 

4

HEY TAYLOR IT’S DAKOTA AND GUESS WHAT!! IT’S MY 17th BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!

I think these pictures describe today perfectly:

I’m so happy that I have finally found amazing friends both online and in school. I’m also so blessed to look up to someone like you. Someone who has given me everything: friends, love, memories, adventures, happiness, strength, and courage. For that I am forever grateful.

With that being said, I TAKE MY DRIVING TEST TOMORROW. Not gonna lie I’m a little nervous for the parallel parking. So if you’re ever in Jersey I advise you to stay off the roads.

All I want for my birthday is for you to know how thankful I am that you’ve allowed me and millions of others into your life. I miss you so much t💕 (p.s give mama a huge hug for me I miss that lady a lot) @taylorswift

4

[previous]

Celine appears in the doorway. She glances between Roy and Amos.
Roy: It’s okay, Celine. Amos was just leaving.
Amos waves goodbye and saunters out the door. Roy gives the back of his head the finger. Celine purses her lips.
Celine: Your father-in-law’s here to see you. I know you’ve got a meeting with Nike in 15 minutes but he said it’s urgent. What do you want me to do?
Roy: Jesus. What did you tell him?
Celine: I said I’d see if you were available.
Roy: Gah. Fuckshitcockpiss.
If he knows Sonia, she’ll have avoided telling her parents anything about their separation. She has no backbone at all when it comes to telling her parents things they don’t want to hear. He’s guessing Frank is here because he’s heard the rumours and wants Roy to level with him, man to man. Roy doesn’t want to lie to Frank. Besides, the whole world should know that he’s in love with Naomi! It ought to be there on a news ticker when people turn on their TVs, running along the bottom of the screen. Just in…..Roy Goddard officially in love with Naomi Patel….Details to follow…..
But Sonia deserves to be told first.
Roy: Tell him…tell him I’ve got back to back meetings all day but I’ll schedule lunch with him sometime later in the week. Can you check my diary? Thanks, gorgeous. I owe you big time.
Celine gives him another one of her death stares and he blows her a kiss as she marches out of the room. He’ll buy her something nice from Tiffany’s for her birthday. She’s a treasure.
Sonia isn’t answering her phone. It goes straight to voicemail after one ring. Before the advent of Naomi he probably would have spent an hour obsessing about whether Sonia’s got her phone turned off or whether she’s blocked him, but now he can’t be bothered caring one way or another. He’s having some trouble remembering what Sonia even looks like. He suspects she’s blocked him though, especially if she too saw the photo in the paper of he and Naomi. He allows himself to indulge in a 30 second orgy of imagining Sonia’s jealousy when confronted by Naomi’s beauty radiating out at her from the pages of the newspaper then shakes his shoulders and decides he’ll just go round after work. He needs to see the children too, his twinges of guilt  about neglecting them getting sharper by the hour. Like Sonia sniped at him the other week, it’s his house, he doesn’t need her permission to visit his own house, for God’s sake.

Anonymous said:

dramatic question in reverse time! Tony, if you were forced to choose between saving Steve’s life but letting hundreds of people die, or saving the people and watching Steve die, what would you chose?

(follows this question)

“Somehow I had a feeling someone would ask this sooner or later. I guess there is only one way for me to answer it - I would take Steve’s place.”

“Like if I would let you do that.”

“Of course, you wouldn’t. But it wouldn’t be your decision, but mine. We both know that my life is not worth the half your is–”

“That’s not true, Tony.”

“– and that you didn’t answer your question truthfully. Captain America finally learned to lie.”

“What do you mean?”

“I know you would save these people. It’s the way you are. And it’s okay, I love you for that. You just said what I wanted to hear. My whole life people were giving up on me - my parents gave up on me by sending me away to boarding school, a person who was supposed to take care of me after their death wanted to get rid off me, even my own country gave up on me when I was held in Afghanistan and only Rhodey believed that I was still out there, somewhere, alive. I couldn’t have anyone else giving up on me, that would break me. You said what was the best for me.”

“Don’t tell me what I would do and what I wouldn’t do, Tony! It’s your safety that is my priority now! I won’t ever again let anyone take you into captivity, you hear that?! No one ever again will point a gun at your head!! Never again!!”

“Steve.. It-it was just a question.. It won’t happen.”

“… I.. ”

“It won’t, Steve. I have you now.”