I know im probaby sharing too much info here but its hard lvl 999 having feelings for someone who’s bad for you and someone you can’t have because the people you consider as friends can no longer tolerate it and would just say the exact same thing like, he’s not worth it, you deserve so much better than that i mean, do you srsly think i dont know that already? Like I dont need advice. I just need someone to be here with me and just listen and know that they dont necessarily need to say something and would understand the fact that i cant just turn off my feelings like a switch, because if can, i wouldve done that ages ago. And im mad at the world because i thought i have real friends already but didnt and at him for making me feel this way. For approaching me first. I was happy and contented with my life 3 months ago. Why do you have to ruin everything? I know, its my fault too but you knew youd never risk a fucking dime for me and that you would never, ever in your fucking existence, would give me a second thought if you were to choose between me and them? then why do you have to fucking do and say all those things knowing the fact that i might fall for it? Did you really just do all that to get into my pants? Maybe i was right. Maybe you are nothing but the most selfish and manipulative person ever. Oh my god. Like holy mother of shit. Why did it took me this fucking long to realize it? Hahaha. So stupid and naive of me right? Tangina. Tangina lang talaga. How funny i must have looked believing all the things you said. Too funny i guess. Cant blame myself though. You were so good at it. Those sorry eyes, that sencere voice, you couldve win an oscar for that you know.
Ooo y’all are going to watch birthdays with Shion? That’s pretty cool! I can see you all with your cameras and hats and binoculars really getting into it because of Shion