you never loved me

I hate it when americans or anyone else non german uses german without looking up how or the meaning of the words.

I’ll punch you if you use “ach” like the canadian “eh” its not even the same

I never really saw myself loving anyone. I couldn’t even love myself. I never felt connected to anyone, even as I got older, even though I had my fair share of lovers. I just couldn’t find that connection. I felt isolated. I felt like I didn’t belong, and as hard as I tried to get close to someone, I just never could. I wont deny I hurt a few people in the along the way, but I could not, for the life of me feel like I could be with anyone. I felt alone and I just didn’t feel like wasting my time, or anyone else’s anymore. I didn’t want to hurt anyone else, including myself. So I gave up, and for some time I was doing just fine on my own…Then came you. And you flipped my whole world upside down. You taught me how to love in a way I never imagine I was capable of loving. With you I felt a connection, not only with you but I felt connected to everything around me. You gave me a sense of purpose. You made me feel alive. From our random road trips, to a simple night of looking at the stars. Because of you I learned to love the parts of me I hated most, because of you I saw life with color. I hope you never leave, I hope you stay.

anonymous asked:

do u have any good non-kpop music recommendations? i need more stuff to listen to

can i just tell u just some of di songs i’ve been listening to lately ???

ebony eyes by rick james [real sweet]
portuguese love by teena marie [sultry, real sexy bitch song]
passionfruit by drake [dreamy]
why don’t we fall in love by amerie [upbeat]
never say you love me by rick james [slow-ish]

  • me: they hurt me!! I'm gonna be distant! that'll show them!
  • them: hey
  • me: hey ๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ซ
I hope one day you regret everything and realize things weren’t so bad between us and maybe you realize I did my best for you every single day. However, when that day comes I’ll be gone, and we missed a perfectly good chance to find happiness together.

Why? Does he look more like a “Totalitarian Regime” to you?

I drank Vodka last night,
and it burnt my throat
and set my chest on fire
but then I remembered
the first time
I saw you with her
and compared to that
drinking Vodka felt like
sipping on lukewarm milk
with honey in it.
—  Alcohol is a better lover than you ever were