you need to stop man

Shit I've learned in the City:

1. Lie to people.
IE, the very sweet old man on the bus who kept insisting I ‘come over and cuddle’ with him. (I said maybe some other time.)

2. Accept a compliment and move on.
IE, the very kind man who said I looked cute, like little red riding hood with my basket. (It was full of animal bones. I said thank you)

3. Don’t talk about your hobbies.
(Accidentally mentioned that my rubber gloves weren’t meant for dishes.)

4. Not everyone is excited about the same local events.
(The dead crow outside my local chirch was in excellent condition)

5. Sometimes you need to be an asshole. (A man at the bus stop asked to marry me. I have him a peach instead. He told me he was gonna follow me home so I told him if he tried I’d throw him under the bus and wave as his corpse rolled by)

6. Keep in contact with family.
(I forgot to call my parents for like 4 months and when I came back to visit they were divorced, my mom had moved out, I had two new siblings and my brother was fluent in French)

7. You have limited space. Use it wisely.
(I have 5 hubcaps in my sink, all from different manufacturers)

8. Sometimes cats are raccoons

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.