you make me feel things!

su92  asked:

How do you share your joy for your everyday work with your family and friends when you have to keep the confidentiality? It seems like it would be hard to talk about it she frustrating that you can't.

My family cares more about how things make me feel than the details. If I’m excited, the excitement is what makes them happy for me not the details of why I’m excited.

What is this feeling? You make me feel so many things I don’t understand. Tears fill my eyes, but I don’t know what is causing them. I feel sad, happy, and affectionate all at once. How is this possible? What the hell is this feeling? I feel hurt and tired, but I wouldn’t stop caring about you if my life depended on it. I want you, but I’m terrified of what would happen once I had you. I want to run to you, throw my arms around you, and never let go, but I want to do everything I can to hide my feelings for you so no one else sees. I care about you so much that I would give up my life for you, but I almost hate you because of all the time I’ve spent and the hurt I’ve gone through. I want you more than anyone I’ve ever known. I feel such compassion for you that I would take all of your burdens on even without you asking. I would do anything to protect you. The feelings I have for you are stronger than anything I’ve ever felt. Is this love? I think it could be, but I know love is something that most people my age can’t understand. Is this love? Have I just found it at a young age or is this just a big misunderstanding? I’m not even sure I know what love is. What the hell is this?

i cant get these thoughts out of my head so im just gonna vent and say what id say if i were allowed to talk about it to em

i understand youre , hurt and needing space and time. i totally get that trust me

i dont mind it at all really, and im perfectly content being friends with you, youre already a really great friend to me. i value you so much

the last thing id ever want, is to make you feel bad or burden you with something like a stupid fucking crush when youre obviously not looking for anything like that

but i do have a crush on you, and it does make me feel things. mostly, you purposefully distancing yourself from me and, saying it so bluntly really. hurt

i get your reasoning but, the way i am it just. i dont know how to put it into words…

someone i care deeply about, not wanting to be….around me? not wanting..things from me when im. so willing to give, unconditionally, with no motive other than its you and i want to?

it hurts, i feel, rejected, and not in the i was turned down for a relationship rejected

a different kind, bpd kind.
it really hurts, ,,….

anonymous asked:

If you feel like it, please respond with five things that make you happy when you get this. Then, send to the last ten people in your notifications anonymously. You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity! 🌼

I’ve already done this buuuuuttt…

1. the fact that i got into my first choice grad school

2. the fact that i finish classes in a week

3. Getting hugs from my mama

4. talking to my babe @thefoxandhersimblr

5. My bf <3

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

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senshiofmom  asked:

Top 10 sailor Moon Monster of the week

10. Screaming violin woman (093)

9. Pegasus hits the gym (143)

8. WHAT the ACTUAL HELL (151)

7. An 80s stripper who also happens to be a shoe (106)

6. Me (114)

5. The animation department had a lot of extra pink paint (174)

4. An elephant vacuum cleaner, but like in a sexy way (094)

3. My breasts are two small screaming snowmen (038)

2. Ball Family (132, 140, 146)

1. A straight-up, actual volcano (067)

Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.