you make me feel inadequate

a thank you letter to the boy who didn’t treat me right,
thank you for teaching me a very valuable lesson. thank you for making me realize how beautiful, deserving, and lovable i am. these realizations of course were not because you made me feel these things (don’t flatter yourself) but because i came out of this relationship with a much deeper understanding of just how valuable i really am. how dare you make me feel inadequate, not worthy of being loved, and unsure of myself. im not sure i will ever understand how a human can be so cruel to another the way that you were with me, but i am at peace with it now. i am coming to terms with all that has happened, and i am ready now more than ever to close this chapter and rid myself of you completely. i will no longer let your words or actions stain me the way i let them before.

Dad i wish you would put that bottle down
i wish you would tell me you loved me without reeking of
alcohol

you missed my school performances, you forgot to tell me you
were proud of me

dad im tired of making excuses for you, my friends cant
come over because your passed out on the couch too drunk to remember your name

i cant study because your knocking things over,
im missing school because im too scared to get in a car with you
my room has become my sanctuary because you have tarnished
every inch of this house

sometimes i feel as if your death would lift this burden
you make me feel guilty, you make me feel inadequate
dad i hate you for forgetting to be my dad

—  B.D.

anonymous asked:

All your goals reblogs are dudes with super defined abs. You've got a long way to go, even with the crossfit and working out so much😂 abs are made in the kitchen ya know. Better step your game up, give up the alcohol and eating out so often. Just reblogging what you want won't get you there.

I never eat out and eat super healthy actually. Sorry those men have had testosterone their whole lives, I’m playing a little bit of catch up 🤷🏻‍♂️ does picking on me make you feel less inadequate? you better step up your game.

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character/ship aesthetic meme: ma-121 requested: roxas

“if there is something in there—inside us— then we’d feel it, wouldn’t we?”

i will never be impressed by anything the jenner girls do… they’ve had literally everything handed to them… i saw a news article that was like “kylie jenner just bought a $2.7 million house. what were YOU doing when you were 17?” like what why are you trying to make me feel inadequate i am going to school!!! i am getting an education!!! i’m just trying to live my life!!! leave me alone!!! 

Things I’ve noticed about the signs based on people I know

Aries- generosity, knowing you are wrong in an argument but still saying you are right, fishing for compliments, making friends easily, inside jokes, being very passionate about everything


Taurus- making sounds of delight while eating, nice teeth, even nicer smile, cutie pie that everyone likes, not participating in a gossipy conversation, watching Netflix late at night


Gemini- not telling you everything, teacher’s pet, awkward sounding laughs, difficult hair, making me feel inadequate with your immense knowledge of all things, being fussy


Cancer- looking for approval, kind eyes that want to know if you are ok, trying to look nonchalant about things they care about a lot, being gullible, being weird in a cute way


Leo- appearing as if bored by us little mortals, not caring what that bitch said, being the new kid everyone wants to be friends with, saying an elaborate joke that doesn’t make anyone laugh


Virgo- asking “so how’s life?”, the ones you see as strong but really they are very sad inside most of the times, being successful in everything they do, being very mature and wise and clean


Libra- shamelessly liking corny pop music, making everyone around them cry from laughter, being straight forward to the point of being mean, doesn’t know how to fist bump properly


Scorpio- making people confuse on why they find you attractive, usually the butt of every jokes, having a weird sense of style, being nice to people when they least expect it, raising eyebrows


Sagittarius- being quiet in class, having a reputation of being a badass, selflessness, sly grins, dark thoughts, going to a lot of parties, not doing what people expect of you, being sweet


Capricorn- making everything more complicated than it already is, laughing at literally everything your best friend says, working very very hard, being stoic in urgent situations


Aquarius- people asking you for advices, being the one everyone trusts with their secrets, always questioning others actions and attitudes on your behalf, confident but careful, has a lot of issues


Pisces- pure kindness, oblivious to all evil, complimenting people on the little things that matter, not liking when your friends fight, copying your best friend’s style, shy eyes, lots of laughs


*I know I’m not original, but I really think this is a great idea and wanted to make my own sorry

I’ll write you a love poem,
as soon as I learn
how to
control the flow of words –
like you do.

As soon as my vocabulary
compares to yours,
and I’ve learned to use it,
like you do.

I want to let you know,
how you make me yearn for
more –
than your body alone,
and that no one stirs me
the way you do.

But until I find a way how to,
silence and secrecy
be my name.
These blunt words;
these utterly flawed poems
will never do,
for someone as gifted as you.

You make me feel so inadequate,
but it keeps me in place,
it’s what I need;
the reason
why I love
you.

Maybe you’ll never know - M.A. Tempels © 2015