you loved me like a distant star


I’m tired of smut just being porn star worthy, professional, distant fucking

give me fic smut where the characters are new and awkward and ‘oh my god am I doing this right?’ and 'no, oh my fuck you don’t put it there’

give me fic smut where the characters are crying but not like 'that’s good dick’ crying or 'shit that hurts’ crying but rather 'oh my god I love this person more than life and we’re so close right now’ crying, gimme some of that full out bawling

give me fic smut where it’s all a joke and they’re doing anything they can to purposefully kill the mood just to make the other one laugh

give me fic smut where they’re trying things out and maybe things don’t go as planned but they keep going anyway and have a good time

give me fic smut where the characters are literally teasing each other the whole time, but not like sexually teasing but more like insults that are their way of flirting like 'ow you bit my tongue, nice going you clumsy asshole’ and 'fuck you, I made you spaghetti and this is the thanks I get?’

give me fic smut where they laugh, be it because one of them did something funny/embarrassing or because they’re just happy????

like can people in smut fics be more than attracted to each other and not just sex machines with their only priority being fucking???

Pablo Neruda for the Signs
  • Aries: "Everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, lights, metals, where little boats that sail towards those isles of yours that wait for me."
  • Taurus: "I want to fill my mouth with your name."
  • Gemini: "And every wound has the shape of your mouth."
  • Cancer: "Under your skin the moon is alive."
  • Leo: "There were grief and ruins, and you were the miracle."
  • Virgo: "I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
  • in secret, between the shadow and the soul."
  • Libra: "If nothing saves us from death, at least love should save us from life."
  • Scorpio: "You swallowed everything, like distance. Like the sea, like time. In you everything sank."
  • Sagittarius: "But I love your feet only because they walked upon the earth and upon the wind and upon the waters, until they found me."
  • Capricorn: "You are like night, calmed, constellated.
  • Your silence is star-like, as distant, as true."
  • Aquarius: "…I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
  • I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too."
  • Pisces: "I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this."
Bangtan Spells Compilation: Fights and Arguments.

Hello lovelies! It’s been a while since the last compilation, but here we are with one you will surely love. In this one we’ve gathered scenarios in which You and one of the boys are having a fight or an argument. We know you all love some drama, so here it is, enjoy!


  • Borderline: Seokjin’s ex comes back pretending to be pregnant to ruin your relationship and you breakup with him, he tries to convince you of the truth with the help of the boys. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • All that Remains: You break up just before Seokjin is going for tour so you leave things like that despite still loving each other, Jin is afraid of talking to you because he thinks you are mad, so the boys arrange for you to go to his birthday. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Running On Empty: You get jealous of Jin’s screen partner in a drama which winds up in Jin and you having a big fight.
  • Don’t You Remember: Jin and you got into a serious fight, while you try to cool off you take your daughter with you, but scared of a separation she seeks help from BTS to keep her parents together.  Genre: Family / Drama.
  • I Promise You Forever: Seokjin breaks up with you because of work but when you try to move on with another guy he tries to get you back. Genre: Romance / Drama.


  • Stay:  You meet Yoongi at the music shop where you work, since then he goes continuously to be able to see you, you want to be with him but just when your relationship gets serious you might have to go. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Edges You two are heirs of your companies and engaged because of it, there’s a love-hate relationship between you and a lot of tension because you love each other. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Unspoken:  You have a big fight when you tell Yoongi you don’t want children even though he wants a family, later you reveal you are afraid of him being an absent father. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • It Will Rain: Your family don’t approve of your relationship with Yoongi a famous rapper, when you go visit them he can’t stop himself from thinking someday you might not come back. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Let It Snow You want to celebrate Christmas big time but Yoongi isn’t very enthusiastic about it so you have a fight. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Safe Haven: You come from an abusive relationship, one time Yoongi and you are fighting and in the anger he lift his hand and you flinch, Yoongi realizes what is wrong and swears to protect you.
  • Heartstrings : You have a big fight because you feel neglected in the relationship, despite everything you want to be with him but Yoongi thinks he’s not good enough. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • Dead Leaves: Yoongi is wrecked when you say you’re going to leave him because he’s not taking you seriously, later you find out you are pregnant. Genre: Angst / Romance.
  • In A Heartbeat: Yoongi and you were in a relationship but when you got pregnant you leave to not disturb his career, after three years you come back with a boy who looks like Yoongi.  Genre: Family / Drama.
  • Mad About You: Yoongi loses his cool when he gets jealous of one of your friends.
  • Wicked Games: Yoongi is a bad boy that wants you but all you do is argue until he starts to make you jealous with another girl. Genre: Romance.
  • Crash and Burn: You have an ugly fight after you miss a date so you don’t talk to each other for a few days until both of you give in. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Breathe Into Me: You have been keeping secrets from Yoongi, you have a huge fight because Yoongi thinks you are cheating on him, when you go out alone after that and your car breaks you get scared so you call Yoongi who gets very protective even more after hearing the truth of your secret. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Silent Treatment: You two are having a fight when he says something that hurts you so you give him the silent treatment and he tries to make it up. Genre:Romance.
  • Remains Of April: You get into an accident that causes you to forget everything from the past few years and still believe that you are dating Yoongi, he doesn’t remind you about the break up because he thinks this is his chance to start over. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • Love Is Not Over: You are a writer that’s been given the opportunity to go to work to New York, doing that would mean fulfilling your dream, only that you’d have to give up on the love of your life, Yoongi. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Hidden Promises: Yoongi is neglecting you and your daughter because of his work, when he fails to go to the little girl’s ballet recital you decide it’s enough, you leave and decide to not talk to him until he reflects on his actions. Genre Family / Drama.
  • Harder To Breathe:  Yoongi snaps with anger and jealousy when Taehyung gets too touchy with you, afterwards you have a fight because of it. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • I Can’t Let You Go: Your relationship with Yoongi reaches a dead point, and then he gets in an scandal with a girl.  Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Everything To Him: Your ex is back in town and he insists in getting back with you, your boyfriend Yoongi is at first jealous and angry but then gets very protective when he discovers your ex is harassing you. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Two Faced Lovers: Yoongi and you hit it off right away after meeting, after getting pregnant he leaves and you abort, depressed and hopeless you start sleeping around to fill the void.  Genre: Angst / Drama.


  • Sweet Evening: You get jealous of one of his sister’s friends so you fight but it is also your anniversary. Genre: Romance.
  • The Girl Is Mine: You have a fight and break up because Hoseok is too jealous, later he protects you from a guy who was trying to touch you. Genre: Romance / Drama.


  • Worth Changing: Namjoon is always partying and drinking but he decides to change when his daughter is born. Genre: Family / Drama


  • Clarity: You are in the E.R with another male idol, Jimin doesn’t like any of it. Genre Romance / Drama.
  • Leaked: You are doing a risky photoshoot with a male model, when pictures get leaked Jimin isn’t pleased. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Earned It: Jimin gets more than jealous when he sees you doing an overly sexy special dance stage with Hoseok. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Kindhearted: Jimin and you have just moved together when in one of the boxes he finds a photo album with pictures of your ex boyfriend, Jimin gets really jealous and confronts you to discover it not what it seems.
  • Bad Behavior: Jimin is the bad guy at school who wants to date you, but you are always judging him. One day he confesses after school. Genre: Romance. 
  • Come a Little Closer: You have a big fight with Jimin and don’t talk to him for a few days but even if you are upset you can’t spend too much time without talking to each other. Genre:Romance / Drama.


  • 11:11: Your relationship reaches a point where Taehyung makes a harsh decision. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • Only You: Taehyung is jealous of your best friend, Park Jimin. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Severely: Taehyung and you are having trouble as a couple, one time you get home and see him kissing another girl. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • No One Else’s: Werewolf AU. Taehyung and you just found out you are mates, he’s very protective of you and very jealous of all the guys who you could be close with, but because of the past you are in a love-hate relationship with him. Genre: Romance.
  • Against All Odds: You are forced to marry each other, you really love him but he has a girlfriend. Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Don’t Wish Is Over: You meet after two years of your breakup and you ask him to explain why everything ended. Genre: Romance / Drama.


  • Fools: The boys made a bet with Jungkook that he couldn’t date you, Jungkook won the bet and you guys became a couple with real feelings, after some time you find out about the bet. Genre: Romance / Drama
  • Be Mine: You’re best friends who secretly like each other, after an argument Jungkook gets distant and you are upset about no having by your side, until one day at school he pulls you with him and tells you his feelings.   Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • All Of Me: You are in your fourth year anniversary with Jungkook, you love him so you withstand how he neglects you but when he starts hanging out with a new girl you break down. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • Lost Stars: Jungkook and you had a secret affair in school that ended up badly, a few years later you see each other again. Angst / Romance.
  • Still The One: When Jungkook reencounters with his first love he breaks up with you, but then he realizes his true feelings and wants you back. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • Believe In Us: Jungkook is a popular student and you are a shy girl, when the rumor of him sleeping with someone else gets around Jungkook is expectant of your reaction. Romance / Drama.
  • Full OF Regret: Jungkook is having a hard time being a teen dad, one day you hear him saying he regrets meeting you. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • Say Something: You are dating, but you’re so reserved one day he tells you he could be with anyone else because you don’t open up to him. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • If This Isn’t Love: You have a fight when you join the military and Jungkook doesn’t want you to leave. Genre: Angst / Romance.
  • Second Chances: Jungkook goes out to have fun but does something really dumb that he regrets so he tells his pregnant girlfriend.  Genre: Romance / Drama.
  • Pick Up The Pieces: When Jungkook sees you he can’t believe it, later he finds out you have a child and he is the father. Genre: Angst / Drama.
  • Undercover Surprise: Jungkook is secretly filming Masked King and since you love the show he wants his appearance there to be a surprise so he sneaks out for filming but you start to suspect he’s cheating. Genre: Romance.
  • Jumping Into Conclusions: You think he’s cheating with you best friend but it turns out an entirely different thing. Genre: Romance / Drama.

they will not write about us because darling
we’re not in love
and we both know that poems ought to be about lovers
or brothers
not best friends halfway in the middle
god, i’d never kiss you
but our hands fit like puzzle pieces and your smile makes my heart sing and you cried when you said you love me
voice thick with fear and awe and i knew then i could break you and that terrifies me because you deserve better but i would die for you

when i was thirteen my bedroom window looked out on the big dipper every summer and it made me feel safe but if every star in that constellation went out i’d still have your hands smoothing a brush through my hair (your eyes shine brighter than those distant suns anyway)

we are not the stuff of legends in this world where it’s only love if you fuck the stories people want to hear end in a kiss not a high five or a fistbump but if i’ve got you i don’t need to make history

and while you do not kiss away my tears you let them seep into your shirt and to me, that is just as good

—  not every beautiful thing has to be a love story (g.c.r.)
You use to always tease me about why I never loved you, but little did you know that I was head over heels in love with you.
But I didn’t tell you, because we could never be what you wanted or what I wanted.
You like vodka and parties.
I like poetry and flowers.
You like marijuana and making out.
I like looking at the stars and holding your hand.
You use to get angry when I was distant, because you thought I stopped caring.
But in all truth I was so scared of my feelings for you. But I wanted to give you a chance.
Then you stopped answering, started avoiding me.
It didn’t take long to realize why, you got a taste of the good life, with her.
And I was just another dumb girl who fell in love with the wrong guy
—  (Our little love story)
~ FYI for New Simblrs ~

I see a lot of these asks with other Simmers and in the distant past have had a few too. New to the Simblr world and want to start a Simming blog that is popular etc. Now I’m not a hugely popular Simblr, I have around 3600 followers I think. They’re far bigger out there, but the main advice is this;


Whatever you absolutely adore be it Vulcans/Star Trek (like me), Berry Sims like @berrysweetboutique, super hyper colourful aliens like @divadoom, chill Maxis Match like @servobride, loving everything with alpha and Maxis Match like @maimouth or maybe you’re more into Vampires or horror stories or reality TV like @quiddity-jones. Maybe your passion is storytelling, which can be done MANY different ways using the game we all love. Choose what you adore and you can’t go wrong, that will show in your imagery etc.


Can’t say this enough. New to Simblr? Notice how other people tag their posts. It gives your followers a choice to follow some posts and avoid others. Also tags can be used for people being able to find a story or legacy etc super easily on your Tumblr. Lastly, don’t tag anything as a custom content (s4CC) post if it’s not. That’s just begging for people to be pissed off with you.

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Disney Lyric Starters
  • [ Classic, modern, golden days, you name it, i got it. Feel free to change pronouns etc. Also this is a looong post]:
  • "Some day, my prince will come."
  • "Some day, we'll meet again."
  • "Some day when spring is here, we'll find our love anew."
  • "And soon you'll find you're dancing to the tune."
  • "There isn't any let up. I hear them calling, calling."
  • "Every time she/he'd find a minute, that's the time that they begin it."
  • "They always keep her/him hopping."
  • "She/He goes around in circles till she/he's very, very dizzy."
  • "They have stars in their eyes."
  • "Side by side with your loved one, you'll find enchantment here."
  • "The night will weave its magic spell when the one you love is near."
  • "This is the night, and the heavens are right."
  • "Look at this stuff, isn't it neat?"
  • "Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?"
  • "How many wonders can one cavern hold?"
  • "I want to be where the people are."
  • "I want to see, want to see 'em dancing."
  • "Flipping your fins, you don't get too far."
  • "What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?"
  • "Sick of swimming. Ready to stand."
  • "And I'm ready to know what the people know."
  • "When's it my turn?"
  • "I can see what's happening, and they don't have a clue."
  • "With all this romantic atmosphere, disaster's in the air."
  • "She'd turn away from me."
  • "He's holding back. He's hiding."
  • "Why won't he be the king I know he is, the king I see inside?"
  • "Love is where they are."
  • "If there's a prize for rotten judgement, I guess I've already won that."
  • "No man is worth the aggravation."
  • "Honey, we can see right through you."
  • "It's too cliche. I won't say I'm in love."
  • "I thought my heart had learned its lesson."
  • "You keep on denying who you are and how you're feeling."
  • "Get off my case. I won't say it!"
  • "I steal only what I can't afford."
  • "These guys don't appreciate I'm broke."
  • "I can take a hint, gotta face the facts. You're my only friend."
  • "I'd blame parents except he hasn't got 'em."
  • "Tell you all about it when I got the time!"
  • "I think I'll take a stroll around the block."
  • "Let's not be too hasty."
  • "They're quick, but I'm much faster."
  • "Barely even friends, then somebody bends unexpectedly."
  • "Both a little scared, neither one prepared."
  • "Finding you can change, learning you were wrong."
  • "Certain as the sun rising in the east."
  • "There's something sweet and almost kind."
  • "I wonder why I didn't see it there before."
  • "Who'd have ever thought that this could be?"
  • "True he's no "Prince Charming"..."
  • "Who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own?"
  • "We'll wait and see a few days more."
  • "What I love most about rivers is you can't step in the same river twice."
  • "To be safe, we lose our chance of knowing."
  • "Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming?"
  • "Is all my dreaming at an end?"
  • "For a long time we've been marching off to battle."
  • "Our aching feet aren't easy to ignore."
  • "Think of instead, a girl worth fighting for."
  • "I want her paler than the moon with eyes that shine like stars."
  • "It all depends on what she cooks like."
  • "Bet the local girls thought you were quite the charmer."
  • "Yet the only girl who'd love him is his mother."
  • "Whatever you do, I'll do it, too."
  • "Show me everything, and tell me how."
  • "It all means something, yet nothing to me."
  • "It's all so close, and yet so far."
  • "I wanna know. Can you show me?"
  • "I wanna know about these strangers like me."
  • "Why do I have this growing need to be beside her?"
  • "Come with me now to see my world."
  • "Don't you disrespect me, little man!"
  • "You're in my world now, not your world."
  • "And I got friends on the other side."
  • "Sit down on my table, put your minds at ease."
  • "I can read your future. I can change it around some, too."
  • "You come from two long lines of royalty."
  • "I'm a royal myself on my mother's side."
  • "Your lifestyle's high, but your funds are low."
  • "Mom and dad cut you off, huh, playboy?"
  • "You've been pushed around all your life."
  • "Won't you shake the poor sinner's hand?"
  • "I hope you're satisfied, but if you ain't, don't blame me!"
  • "All that time never even knowing just how blind I've been."
  • "At last I see the light, and it's like the fog has lifted."
  • "If she/he's here, it's crystal clear I'm where I'm meant to go."
  • "All at once everything is different now that I see you."
  • "Come on, let's go and play!"
  • "I never see you anymore."
  • "We used to be best buddies, and now we're not."
  • "I've started talking to the pictures on the walls."
  • "It gets a little lonely, all these empty rooms."
  • "People are asking where you've been."
  • "They say "Have courage," and I'm trying to."
  • "We only have each other."
  • "It's just you and me. What are we gonna do?"
  • "Okay, can I just say something crazy?"
  • "I love crazy."
  • "I've been searching my whole life to find my own place."
  • "I've never met someone who thinks so much like me."
  • "Say goodbye to the pain of the past."
  • "We don't have to feel it anymore."
  • "Can I say something even crazier?"
  • "I've been staring at the edge of the water for as long as I can remember."
  • "Every road leads back to the place I know where I cannot go."
  • "It calls me, and no one knows how far it goes."
  • "I can lead with pride. I can make us strong."
  • "I'll be satisfied if I play along."
  • "What is wrong with me?"
  • "But no one knows how deep it goes."
  • "If the wind on my sail on the sea stays behind me, one day I'll know how far I'll go."
  • "Now I know I can be happy as a clam because I'm beautiful, baby."
  • "Scrub the deck and make it look shiny."
  • "I just love free food."
  • "Ouch! What a terrible performance!"
  • "You don't swing it like you used to, man."
  • "Send your armies, but they'll never be enough."
  • "You try to be tough, but your armor's just not hard enough."

She’s the love I never had, but the one I’ve longed for. I never believed that one day the girl I’ve always had a huge crush on, would some day make me feel like the happiest man alive. In a city full of stars, I’ve always admired her more than anyone other. The way she shines in her own light was what I’ve always come to love and admire most about her. She’s the star I’ve always enjoyed watching. And as she dances and glides across the night skies, I realized, she’s the wish in my life that came true ⭐️💕

I Can Be Normal, Watch!

Originally posted by wdtfsklaine

Request: can you write a jerome imagine where he captures the reader and keeps the reader safe and doesnt hurt them because he likes the reader and so then he wants to take her on a date. he tries to act normal but fails like he punches a guy or gets mad and pulls out a knife ALSO I WANTED TO SAY THAT YOU ARE SO PRETTY (im the same age and i look like a toe compared to you fyi) AND SO TALENTED I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH

Request #2: Can you do a Jerome x reader imagine where he hears the reader sing in a bar and is captivated? Maybe some fluff?

Fandom: Jerome Valeska x Reader

Note: I combined two requests together. this contains kidnapping, swearing, violence, weapons, blood, and fluff. gif isn’t mine but i wanted to use it because it made me laugh.

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anonymous asked:

Hi. So, I've been feeling pretty stressed out and overwhelmed. Do you have any super angsty sheith fic recs so I can cry my emotions out?

oh no!! i’m sorry to hear you’ve been stressed :( i really hope you feel better soon! i just woke up so i’m trying to gather this little sheith-angst-care-package-post as fast as possible for you ❤️

my right-hand man by felldragons: CLASSIC SHEITH ANGST. I swear everybody knows this fic by now and probably thought about it at the end of S4. Character death warning, but tbh, I’ll always remember this fic by that really poetic line about Ganymede.

lightspeed by nein: This fic was based off Voices of a Distant Star and let me tell you… despite the good ending this fic made me SOB. I was just. Lying on the floor afterwards like. What the fuck. But it’s so beautifully written and I loved every bit of it.

The beautiful marks by watermelloon (linumlea): this one is short but just… so sad. Soulmate AU with ANGSTTTT

The next few I haven’t read but they were rec’ed to me as angst. Some have a good ending and others don’t.

hope this is good enough! HOPE YOUR DAY GETS BETTER MY LOVE

i was going to submit this for the reverse bang but i didn’t finish it in time so! have a headcanon post

modern urban witch louis keeps old rum and whisky bottles when he’s done with them to store his herbs and keeps his new spell ideas in a note in his phone. he has to wear shoes around his flat because he’s always got lines of salt on the floor he forgot to sweep up, and more than once he’s done a one-handed tarot reading with his other hand stuck in a bag of crisps, TV playing loudly in the background. he has a shitty office job to pay the bills but on the side he sells potions and spells to a few trusted people – he can’t do anything major, just things like protection and safety sigils when lottie wants to go on holiday to majorca and pain relief solutions when his roommate niall has a headache, but it’s what makes him happiest.

when harry stumbles into his life, it’s because niall bragged about louis’ skills to his friend liam from work, who told his friend harry that there might actually be a solution to the insomnia that’s been plaguing him for months. harry’s tried everything – sleeping pills, therapy, home remedies, hypnotism, you name it – but nothing has worked. normally louis doesn’t do his magic for just anyone: it’s a secret for a reason, and he doesn’t want to be be bombarded by random distant acquaintances begging for magical relief to their own problems, and he’s debating sending harry away. but then harry shows up on louis and niall’s doorstep with deep dark circles under his eyes and the most pathetic look on his face louis has ever seen, and he folds like a stack of tarots.

louis brews up a quick sleep solution (ground smoky quartz crystal for stress, valerian root for a hypnotic, passionflower for anxiety, and 100 proof vodka to make it go down) and pretends he doesn’t notice the green of harry’s eyes or the wide set of his shoulders (all while harry is trying not to gape at this actual witch, who not only is not green-skinned and warty like he expected but actually, um, really fucking attractive). harry thanks louis profusely when he leaves, takes the solution when he gets home, and sleeps for almost fifteen hours.

he shows up again the next day to shower louis in more effusive thanks and to get more of the solution, and louis valiantly tries to control the blush that heats his cheeks when harry declares him “the greatest person on the planet in the history of ever, i’m pretty sure.”

then harry turns up the next day as well, this time on the excuse that he stubbed his toe and he was pretty sure he’d never be able to walk again. louis tucked his smile away, called harry a drama queen, and gave him a pain relief potion. 

and then the next day he was back again, claiming he didn’t feel bad yet but he was pretty sure he was about to come down with something, like a cold or maybe ebola.

and then it’s like he’s there every day on flimsier and flimsier excuses. (”louis, i’m being serious, i think i have gout. or, like, scurvy.” “harry, you walked in eating an orange, i think you’re fine.”) harry’s favorite thing to do is to sit and watch louis as he goes about his normal business, brewing special teas for his sisters and reading tarot cards for niall, who likes to be prepared for the coming week. niall, who got used to the magic business a long time ago, sits and keeps harry from sticking his fingers into anything he shouldn’t, or from accidentally knocking over the bottle of home-grown nightshade.

luckily, louis doesn’t mind one bit.

eventually, harry adds louis-designed protection sigils to his already extensive tattoo collection, and has learned to avoid the strategic piles of salt scattered around louis’ flat. their first date is a midnight picnic on the roof of harry’s building, picking distant star patterns out of the sky and sharing tentative, sweet kisses. 

for their first anniversary, louis carves the rune for true love into a jade pendant and blushes wildly when he tells harry what it means.

“it’s um. it means true love.”

harry pulls louis close, wide-eyed and starstruck, “aw, lou. i love you too.” and then he leans back, grinning wildly. “looks like you’ve got me under your spell.”

harry’s still laughing when louis pinches him in the side for the terrible pun, but he stops quick enough when louis gives him something else to do with his mouth instead.

‘You can’t love someone unless you love yourself first’ Bullshit. I have never loved myself. But you… Oh God, I love you so much I forgot what hating myself feels like
Because all I want is you by my side

I want to see your face
I want to hear your voice
I want to be in your arms
I want to kiss your lips
But distance is keeping us apart
Im crying and hurting
I’m breaking
I feel my heart ripping apart
I’m just missing my other half
I hate the distance its ripping me in half

Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the end of love
Touch me with a bouquet of mermaids eyes
Kiss me until vampire lips melt
Like a crimson string on a violin
Make vagabond love to me
Dance me to the end of love
Let the nightingales decipher
With gracious feathers my features
Teach me how to protect you
Teach me how to make seraphim love to you
Teach me how to listen your serenades
Write a dead sonnet on my skin
Dance me to the end of love
Impale silken music on my wings
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me until I forget I ever had a broken heart
Dance me until I forget you’re from a distant star
Dance me until I feel only love and hope
And dismiss with a morbid gesture my faults
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me until I forget I ever had a broken heart
Dance me until I forget you’re from a distant star

Fire Emblem: Fates Confessions
  • “I’m so glad I didn’t mess this up. I love you.”
  • “Please forgive my many faults, and promise to stay with me forever.”
  • “I finally know what true happiness is." 
  • "No matter what happens, dear love, I will always be with you.”
  • “I somehow feel that I have always loved you.”
  • “Together, we will save this world." 
  • "Please, never let me go.”
  • “I love you. The flame in my heart will never die.” 
  • “Thanks to you, I now know what true love is.”
  • “I’ve never felt this way before. My heart is beating so fast.”
  • “I promise to be a great wife! I love you more than anything ever!”
  • “I’m so glad you told me so! I love you too." 
  • "We’ll be the best couple in the world.”
  • “Nothing is stronger than my love for you. Except my biceps.”
  • “I knew we’d wind up together, even before I met you. I read it in the cards.”
  • “Somehow, you always saw who I really was behind my veil of darkness. I had forgotten what love felt like. But this is it. This is love. Thank you.”
  • “You never left my mind since the day you’ve been gone.”
  • “We’re a real family now. And I love my family more than anything.”
  • “We will always be happy, so long as we’re together.”
  • “You’re lucky to be marrying me. Just don’t screw it up.”
  • “I wish I loved the world as much as you do. Please, stay with me until then.”
  • “This warm, cozy feeling… is this happiness? I only now realize that I love you.”
  • “To tell you the truth, I love you too. I’ll never be a traditional wife, but I’ll keep you safe for the rest of our lives.”
  • “I know nothing will ever come between us! Because I’ll eviscerate anyone who tries.”
  • “I love you, darling. I’ve always dreamed of this moment. I did think there would be more golden things around, though…”
  • “It’s wonderful to know that you love me too. It feels like a dream. We must go tell everyone at once.”
  • “it’s just wonderful to finally know how you feel.”
  • “I love you, and I’ll spend the rest of my life with you. Even if your proposal is pretty weak..”
  • “You’ve opened up a whole new world to me. Let’s explore it together.”
  • “I love you! I’m sure you, me, and your children will make a perfect family!”
  • “True love is so sweet. Like the sweetest thing ever. Except maybe a box of chocolate…”
  • “Aw, you’re the best! Get ready for a love tackle!”
  • “I knew you were special when I saw how much daddy respects you!”
  • “How can it be that at the happiest moment of my life, I cannot think of a haiku?”
  • “Fate has chosen us. The moon and the stars bless our union. The constellations celebrate our love. You and I, forever into eternity.”
  • “Our love is eternal. Somehow I just know it. If we cross paths again in a distant future, dear love, promise you’ll remember me. Promise.”
  • “I love you more than all the cute things in the world combined! This is kind of embarrassing, but stay with me forever… promise?”
  • “I’ve got you right where I want you. And I’m never going to let go.”
  • “My wildest dreams are coming to life! Let’s see what the future holds.”
  • “Being with you makes me feel like nice things will keep coming. Is it ok I still love money a little more than you?”
  • “I love you. I was always afraid to say it, but from now on I will tell you every single day.”
  • “My liege– My love. I… adore you with all my being. I promise to treasure you forever, and to keep you in my heart always.”
  • “I’ve always cherished you as my best friend, but now you’re so much more. I love you, and I’m honored to be your partner in this life.”
  • “Darling, you’re the very picture of perfection, and we’re so perfect together.”
  • “Your love is as sweet as the sweet, sweet smell of justice. I love you more than anything. But don’t tell justice I said so!”
  • “I guess I can’t be shy around you anymore.”
  • “The stars shall go dark before my devotion to you fades! I mean– I love you.”
  • “I’m so happy to have found you on this plane of existence! Nirvana awaits.”
  • “Do you have any idea what you’re getting into? I sure hope not.”
  • “Let’s write the next chapter of our lives together.”
  • “I love you and only you. Your smile makes life worth living. I promise to keep you safe.”
  • “Please don’t ever go away! I really love you, you know? I will make sure to keep you safe, my one and only princess!”
  • “The only thing that scares me is how much I love you.”
  • “If you were aiming for my heart, you’ve struck true.”
  • “I’ve hidden my feelings for so long. I can’t believe you felt the same way all this time.”
  • “My love is as pretty as a diamond and twice as eternal. Even if you get sick me, I’ll always love you. I mean it. Always, and forever.”
  • “You’re my greatest treasure of all, and you smell the nicest. Hope you’re ready to be really happy. From now on, I’m keeping you all to myself.”
  • “Our past may be broken, but our future is stronger than iron.”
  • “I love you truly. I’ve been meaning to tell you for so long." 
  • "You are my precious wife now. It is my honor and duty to keep you safe at all costs.”
  • “This dream was built to last. No matter where the future takes us.”
  • “We were destined to be together I’m not even making that up.”
  • “We will make new memories together every day.”
  • “You are a remarkable human being. Let us be joined forever.”
  • “Of all the songs I know, none of them can capture how deeply I love you. No sound is sweeter than your voice.”
  • “I don’t lift a finger for just anyone, but I would do anything in the world for you.”
  • “I’m stronger with you at my side. Stay with me forever.”
  • “I’m still full of shortcomings, but I promise that someday I’ll be a man worthy of your company. I can do anything if it’s for you, my love.”
  • “Guess I’m not the only archer around here. You got me right through the heart, you know? And I couldn’t be happier.”
  • “I love you for who you are as I know you love me. What a lovely pair we make! May love always triumph over ignorance.”
  • “You’re sweeter than sweets, my sweet! Let’s celebrate our delicious love with a giant wedding cake! I’m serious. Biggest. Cake. Ever.”
  • “I used to be afraid of commitment. And then I met you.”
  • “Our love is stronger than the world’s most pungent pickle. Won’t you dive into the brine with me?”
  • “Oh, gosh. I really am lucky! I get to marry you and ride a dragon every day?”
Novaturient: Part One (Bucky Barnes)

(adj.) desiring or seeking powerful change in one’s life, behavior, or situation

Authors Note: Hi! So this is the first part of my newest series, the soulmate series. It’s the first story I’m posting about Bucky and Marvel, actually. I haven’t been writing a lot recently, so please, if there is any mistakes, private message me to tell me. Also, please send feedback and tell me what you like about it/or what you don’t like. And tell me what you hope to see, I always love suggestions. LASTLY, if you want to be tagged in future parts, just shoot me a message(please off anon) and I will add you to my list☺️☺️

Warnings: angst, swearing, assault/violence, attempted sexual assault, terrible writing lmao it’s just the beginning it will get better

Word Count: 3379

Originally posted by sassyelf-mage

3650: 19: 34: 14

“Her condition is very unique.” Dr. Garrison spoke in a quiet voice,“It’s nothing like I’ve ever seen or heard of.”

“That’s the problem, Dr.Garrison. She..she isn’t normal, and I need her to be. I need you to fix it.” Her father murmured.

(Y/N) shook her head at the whispered conversation in the other room. She hated this. The crippling anxiety and shame flooding over her had now become the norm. She wasn’t broken, was she?

“Please, Doctor. Anything to fix her.” Her mother begged,“I have all the money you could want. I don’t even care if it’s some untested experiment, I’ll sign the papers. As long as in end, I don’t have a lunatic for a daughter.”

It was silent for a moment before Dr. Garrison replied,“Mrs. (Y/L/N), I’m afraid there isn’t any treatments like you speak of. I can keep seeing her if you like, it may help her get a grip on reality. But as for, ‘fixing her’, there isn’t an immediate fix.”

“I can’t have a freak for a daughter.” Her father murmured, something that only he was supposed to hear, but (Y/N) heard everything.

She was only 15, what could he possibly want to do with her? Abandon her? The thought made (Y/N) cringe. They couldn’t do that, they wouldn’t. She was their child…

(Y/N) traced the edges of the timer on her left wrist, watching the seconds count down. It was only 3650 days till she would meet the one person who would probably ever love a freak like her. That timer, that hope, that person was the only thing that gave her a sense of hope.

2555: 5 : 45 : 15

Three years of therapy did nothing, but leave (Y/N) neglected and alone. Her father refused to let her out in public as “the voices” got worse. She couldn’t control it, and she knew she wasn’t making it up. She knew the voices. It was her father in the kitchen, or her brother in the game room. It was real. She wasn’t crazy.

The worst part of the isolation was when her father’s movie premieres came. Her whole family would get all dressed up, and one time when she was 16, she had gotten all dolled up for one of his premieres. Only to be ridiculed and screamed at for even thinking that they could be seen out with a girl who was clearly going crazy.

Today wasn’t much of difference in the house, but (Y/N) had recently graduated and her parents just…stopped caring completely. She guessed because she was an adult, they no longer had to care.

“I’m leaving.” She murmured when she got to the end of the grand stairwell of the luxury mansion.

She knew they didn’t care, no emotions were shown. There was this weird thing about her, she could just sense the mood of the room. She thought maybe her mother would feel at least a little upset, but nothing but relief filled the room.

“But you clearly don’t care. You’ve actually been waiting for this since I was 8, so I guess we can just call this an earlier Christmas present from me.” She told them, throwing her bag over her shoulder.

Her father stood up abruptly,“Insuggest you speak with respect, young lady.” He snapped, but she just shook her head.

“Oh yeah? Why should I give respect to a man I call a stranger? Because you’re some super star and everyone loves you?” She snarled,“Here’s the thing, father. I know you, and I can tell you right now, you are not what people like. Everything about you, aura screams cold, bitter, and distant. You are good like everyone thinks you are.”

“Get. Out.” He growled through gritted teeth, and that’s exactly what she did.

Maybe it wasn’t a good idea, but it was best for her. She didn’t need to be in a house where she would be treated like a mental patient. No, she wanted to be out in the world and it didn’t matter where she was going because her destination was going to be the same no matter what. And that the arms of the person her timer was counting down to. Only 2555 days left. She could make it that long.

2554: 23: 58 : 12

2:02 A.M., (Y/N) walked the streets of New York City alone and in the cold of the morning. Her bag seemed to be a thousand pound by the way her shoulder now had a uncomfortable ache spreading through her.

She wandered the sidewalks that were lit up by different bars and neon lights. She just needed to find a motel, which was hard in the city. But she knew that there should be one in a few more miles.

Everything was fine until the raspy mutters filled her mind clearly.

“What about her?” The raspy one questioned.

“Oh, now that’s a good one. Pretty too.” The deep one replied,“Bet she has ton of money on her.”

(Y/N) gulped and clung to her back, eyes darting around the dark for the men these voices belonged to.

It was when she got closer to the dark alley when she was hit with a feeling of hormones and fogginess around her. That’s when she knew exactly what was about to happen.

She quickly turned out, facing two men who were twice her size. One of the men was a bulky guy, wearing just a stained white tank top and jeans. The other was a cleaner man, dressed in a suit with disheveled hair and a 5-o clock shadow. The bulky man pushed her down, making her stumble and crash into the concrete.

She flinched at the scrap that formed on her arm, kicking her legs at the guy trying to pin her down.

(Y/N) was overcome with fear and panic, glancing around to find anything that could help.

The clean man just snickered,“Oh sweetheart, you aren’t gonna find anything, you can’t even see, now can you?”

She furrowed her eyebrows, not sure what he meant. It was the dark of the night, but she could zero in on anything she wanted./!3 never had trouble adjusting to the dark.

She grasped on to one of the pieces of wood near the dumpster they had her by and swung it into the guy.

“Don’t touch me.” She stated in trembling voice.

“Oh where’s the fun in that?” The men laughed, and it triggered this deep rage inside her. She was more than tired of being pushed around, and as the man in the suit grabbed her wrists to keep her front fighting, he screamed in agony.

She wanted him to feel pain, wanted him to feel hopeless and panic like he had made her feel.

The man’s knee hit the pavement as his shouts echoed. First, went his sight, and then suddenly he was trembling with his hands covering his ears.

“Make it stop!” He shrieked, falling into a fetal position. It was enough to get the other guy to run in fear when the man in the suit stopped moving. His hands fell from his ears, only to reveal the blood coming out of them.

(Y/N) stood there in shock without a clue what just happened, but she knew one thing.

She did this.

1095: 15 : 28 :11

(Y/N) stared at the the red numbers on her wrist. It wasn’t an easy decision, but then again neither was the decision that got her here.

She remembered it vaguely. The night Black Widow broke into her apartment to tell her that she knew about the incident on the street.

(Y/N) had tried to put it all behind her, despite the image of the bloody ears and how her thoughts effected him in such a way.

Natasha Romanoff had come to recruit her that day. She hadn’t understood why at the time because she was just a psychology major who hear voices and could see at night. Oh, and make people have some weird deaths. But that was all.

Apparently, Shield had taken an interest in her when she was 15 when their agent, Josh Garrison filed a request to get her looked into. A possible mutant.

Natasha had gone into such detail about what they had observed her “powers” to be. It was that moment she made her decision. If they could understand what was happening, then they could help her understand.

That was two years ago. Now, she had graduated from Shield Academy’s Operations unit, and was starting to gain the control over her powers.

It was based around the senses. She could feel people’s emotions, and eventually, they thinks she could even manipulate them. All her senses were enhanced, explaining why she had all those voices in her head. She as starting to control that one really well. There was one however, she didn’t know very well. Which was the sensory manipulation, what she did to that man. How she changed what he could hear, see, and feel. She had only done it once, and she never wanted to do it again.

(Y/N) used these powers now to earn her new status as a field agents in Shield. She was new to it all, but it was official now as she had her first mission starting soon. There was just one thing she had to do.

The timer. It was a distraction to any agent, but Shield didn’t require you to have it removed. Luckily, Modern Technology had developed a surgery that would keep the timer intact and working.

The timer is powered by a person’s heart beat, so when it is removed, these doctors create a bracelet out of the time that takes a person’s heartbeat. When a person takes off the timer, the countdown pauses. It makes it to where your time is extended.

In theory, your soulmates timer has the actual time you will meet while yours is shorter because of the pauses.

“I must warn you, Ms. (Y/L/N), there have been instances where people have met their soulmates while the timer was off. But, when you put the timer back on, it will start counting down to the moment you see them again.” The Doctor explained while putting his surgically gloves on.“It will not keep you from meeting your soulmate, if that’s what worries you.”

She just shook her head,“Oh no, it’s not that. It’s just…"She watched the little numbers ticking down,“It’s always been something to remind me that I had someone out there that wasn’t against me, I guess. It’s helped me through some really tough times. It’s just hard to..know I won’t have it anymore.”

The Doctor nodded,“Well, as soon as you put the bracelet on, it will be right there. I swear. Now, if you can, please remain still. It will hurt a lot, but I’m afraid I cannot put you under or we might risk the timer malfunctioning.”

It was two hours until the wound from the timer being removed was stitched up and she had the bracelet around her wrist, counting down.

“Now, that wasn’t so bad, was it?” Natasha smirked as (Y/N) came out.“C'mon, the jet is waiting for us. We got bitches to take down.”

And that was the beginning of (Y/N) career as Shield Agent.

00: 8 : 56 : 12

That was the time she had left when she had to take the timer off last time. It was six months ago that she was called and assigned to a secret operation to take down one of the remaining Hydra agents. She had been so distraught when she was got the phone call, but she knew better than to argue.

Let fate do it’s job, Natasha reminded her constantly.

Six months. She only had 8 hours left, and she was sent on a six month mission in Bulgaria.

But it was over now, and she wanted nothing more to put on that timer and wait for 8 hours, 56 minutes and 12 seconds to meet her soulmate.

As she entered the Avengers Headquarters, she is hit with a variety of emotions. Upstairs she can sense the peacefulness of sleep that her team feel. She was technically back early from her mission, so no wonder no one stayed up.

The other emotion was an unfamiliar one. She had known her team for so long that she could figure out who was feeling was, but this emotion was new. It was anger, shame, and panic all in one.

She stopped just at the door, zeroing in on the building and seeking out any sounds she could hear. Aside from the sleep talking from Sam and the snores from Steve, the only thing she could hear were grunts and huffs from one of the rooms on the top floor.

(Y/N) stealthily crept upstairs all the way to the top floor. She was good at being quiet, and if anything, she could manipulate it to where the unknown person couldn’t hear.

She furrowed her brow as she observed all the lights were off, glancing around in the dark as she approached the door of the sparring room.

The man had three knives as he turned towards to face her, and she couldn’t help but act on impulse when he lifted his left hand.

She didn’t even realize what she was doing when she had grasped his wrist and flipped until he was laying on the floor. She had grabbed the knives and held on to this guy’s throat while she held down the..metal arm?

“What the fuck?” The guy snarled, his long locks in his face as he tried to comprehend what just happened.

“Who are you? And what do you want?” (Y/N) snapped.

“I could ask you the same thing. How the hell did you even get in here?” He retorted,“I didn’t hear anyone come in, so how the fuck did you do it?”

“You are not the one to be asking questions, intruder.” She informed him.

“I live here!”

“No, you don’t! I would know if you lived here cause I fucking live here!” She exclaimed, pressing the knife under his chin.

“I’ve been here for 4 months and never once have seen you, so clearly you don’t.” He commented,“Let. Me. Up.”

“That’s because I have been on a mission, because that’s my job, you dumbass. Now, who the hell are you?”

“You really don’t know who I am?” He shot back.

“You’d think my look of confused and the knife to your throat would have answered that for you.”

“I’m James Barnes, now get out off of me before I throw you across the room, little girl.”

“Fuck off.”

She didn’t even register what happened until she was half across the room, wincing from the pain of being thrown and crashing into the floor.

“I suggest you fuck off.” He snapped,“Now, if you don’t mind I would like to continue training with out being bothered.”

(Y/N) stared at him before picking herself up off the ground and marching off to Natasha’s room. She practically pulling the redhead out of bed and into her room so she could unpack.

“Who the fuck is this Barnes guy?” She asked without even greeting her.

“Hi, I’m fine. And I missed you too.” Natasha replied sarcastically.

She just rolled her eyes,“Seriously, I come home and there is this…guy with metal arm throwing fucking knives at 2 AM in the morning.”

Natasha yawned,“He’s Steve’s best friend from the war. Winter Soldier, and all.”

That’s when it clicked.“Winter Soldier. Shit, that the guy the Hydra agent was talking about before I took him down.” She mumbled, sitting on the bed.“That was him?”

Natasha nodded,“Yeah. Been through a lot too. You should probably give him time to adjust to you, be nice in all. He’s not very open, and he doesn’t really like people prying into his life. But I think you guys will understand each other a lot.”

“Yeah…I don’t know about that.” She whispered,“Seeing as I just attacked him..”

Natasha gave her a look of “why the fuck would you do that”. (Y/N) just smiled innocently.

“You know what?” Natasha said,“We’ll deal with this in the morning, okay? I’m too tired to deal with it now.” She got up from the bed and headed for the door.

“Hey, Nat?” (Y/N) called out before she was out the door.


“I missed you too.”

Natasha smiled at her,“Get some sleep, and put your timer back on. Eight hours, remember?”

(Y/N) broke out in a grin as Natasha left, and she immediately went to get the bracelet out of her bedside drawer.

She slipped it on, and clicked the back so it would start to take her heart beat.

Once she was settled in bed, she glanced at the timer. 00: 08 : 50 : 34 .

She was gonna find him tomorrow, and nothing could ruin that.

00: 00 : 49 : 01

The sun filled the room, but the numbers on the timer filled (Y/N) with excitement. She had never gotten out of bed so fast, and headed to the shower.

The last thing she wanted was to look like a complete and utter disaster when she met her perfect match.

So, she cleaned herself and dressed in the cutest but casual thing she could wear. It was black skinny jeans, combat boots, and a red unbutton flannel with a tank top under it. She let her hair down into his natural look, and she didn’t touch her makeup.

She took a deep breath and did want she always did in the morning, which was listen in to the conversation in the entertainment room.

“Buck, I think you need to calm down. She was still running of the adrenaline of her mission, and she saw you as a threat-”

“But I’m not a threat, Steve!” Bucky insisted.

“Be quiet!” Natasha whispered-yelled,“If she hears us making noise, she might try to listen in and the last thing you want is for her to pissed at you, Bucky.”

“I don’t care how she feeling about me. I don’t like her, Natasha. She’s rude, impulsive, and she seems like a control freak.”

She stopped listening after that, glancing down at the timer reading 00: 00: 07: 59. It made her smile, filling her with the same hope it always did.

She ventured outside her room, finding her way to the kitchen to make herself a bowel of cereal. (Y/N) finished up her ridiculously full bowel of cereal and went to go into one of the other rooms to sit on the couch.

But when she turned the corner, she collided with someone taller than her. They sent her cereal and milk went flying, seeping into their clothes. The aura wasn’t not a positive one. She was invaded with a sense of anger and annoyance.

To make matters worse, she looked up to meet those icy blue eyes of Bucky Barnes and suddenly the clock hit zero and this little happy beep went off.

The whole room went silent and the sound seemed to echo off the walls as Bucky huffed out in annoyance. It wasn’t until then that (Y/N) had realized how attractive Bucky was, with his bulging biceps and pretty eyes. He was really fucking hot, especially when he was angry but that’s not the point. He also happened to hate (Y/N) as of right now.

She was also confused. She only heard one beep, her eyes darting to his left arm and suddenly she remembered the stories. Bucky Barnes…fallen off the train and his arm had been completely ripped from him. She never realized that it was his left. The metal arm. He didn’t have a timer. He had no idea.

“What the hell is that sound?” Bucky questioned with his brows furrowed and his lip pulled into a tight, frustrated frown.

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Through the Night (밤편지)

Hello guys! this is a long fic ever I’ve written in my second language. After I finised with 1837 word counts, I was like omg, what lawlu fandom did to me, how did I write it?

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SUMMARY:: I asked him how can we know when we love someone, and this is how Torao answered.

“Why don’t you wake up at 2 AM.  Go to the deck. Watch the stars and the moon, to appreciate how amazing the night sky can be even though they are unreachable.”

“I know the sky with the moon and the shining stars are beautiful, but how does that answer my question, stupid Torao!”

“Because.” Torao said calmly, “When you love someone, you are going to feel like you’re gazing at a distant star when you look in his eyes. So bright that you don’t know if the stars exist anymore, because every goddamn star is in his eyes, more real to you than anything you’ve ever seen.”

                                    Through the Night (밤편지) 


I’m hungry.

Even though we had just finished a party in the evening, and because today gave me a feeling that we should hold a party for whatever reason, I didn’t care but I am a captain so everyone had to do what I said. I ate and (tried to) steal my friend’s food a lot, drank Torao’s beer because that man was sick so he couldn’t join the party. Instead, he had to sleep in the infirmary room. I felt sad for him that he missed the party- our party with meat! If I were him, I would never skip it. Torao is a serious man who believes that the only thing I do is making trouble or do some-funny-stupid-things. I disagreed- because what is the point to enjoy your life if you’re always serious with everything?

Life is a mixed-meat buffet and we won’t know which kind of meat is good or worse, so that’s the reason why we shouldn’t use our heads too much. In the end, we still have to eat it, because to throw the meat away is a crime. I can’t forgive anyone who would do that! (Except for if they give it to me, which only Torao would do. No way in hell Nami, Zoro or Sanji would give meat to me, they always complained about how I ate too much!)

Before I went to the party. I had been trying to convince Torao to stay with me on the deck so I could have looked after him because who the hell knows if Torao would behave well, stay in his bed or eat pills that Chopper ordered him to eat. Nevertheless, Robin told me that Torao was a doctor so I had no need to worry about him, and yes, stupid Torao had to agree with her, offering his meal to me because he didn’t want to eat anything. Yeah, it should have been like that but I couldn’t help myself from worrying about him.

Why couldn’t the smart ones like Robin and Torao see my point?  Yet, they considered themselves the smart ones- especially Torao whom I could easily recall was making his face for when he looked at me like I’m an idiot. No, mister, sometimes you were as stupid as me.Plus, with his over thinking habit, he was destroying himself to the point that his smile was rarer than gold. Rarely did I see his smile. I knew for the first time that his smile was the best!

Oh god, I was thinking about Torao too much. I needed to stop now before I got lost in Toraoland again. I decided to ignore his grumpy face that showed up in my mind and walked on tiptoes to the kitchen. After that, I pulled the refrigerator handle to open it, but it was locked! How!? That surprised me because I had hidden the lock in the gym so confidently that Sanji had no chance to find it. If I remembered right, Sanji had only one lock. Then how could he find it? Did Zoro help him? I was going to ask him tomorrow. Zoro should know better, that we can’t live without food, so why the hell did he do this to me!  

Fuck you, Zoro. I swore by tomorrow every sake bottle would be gone.

I was really pissed off now that I wanted to kick Zoro’s ass but my stomach was growling hard. I didn’t have enough energy. I was dying of hunger.

“Oh my god,” I mumbled to myself, “why doesn’t Torao wake up now so he can use his power to open this damn refrigerator! I’m so hungry…”

I did the math in my head. What should I do next with empty stomach? A moment passed to the conclusion that maybe, I should watch the night sky so I could forget the hunger.

I had walked to the front deck before I froze. My body couldn’t do anything. Even breathing became so hard and my eyes couldn’t look any other way except at that wonderful thing - the thing I didn’t expect to see.

 In the night sky that should make us apart, there existed the moon which was shining through by its light, covering the surface of the endless sea. But only the showing path isn’t enough to confront us. We need a little more hope to tell us that tomorrow will come. There they were, the countless stars which embraced the lonely moon.

He was standing there under the moonlight which was sharpening the features of his body. His wide shoulders in the long white t-shirt, his dark hair color that has a hint of blue, and his tall body. Despite the fact that I could see only his back, my heart was racing so fast that I was afraid he could notice me because of the heart’s beating sound. Well, I didn’t know how someone could look as good as if he had just walked out of the fairy tale book I’d seen one, but now he was there, on my ship, watching the night sky alone.

One memory popped up in my brain out of the blue. It was the day before yesterday. Torao read a drama fiction to me due to his reason that he couldn’t ignore my stubborn ‘play with me Torao’ mode so he had decided to read for me. It was quite a surprise that I found his fiction book was more interesting than I had thought, however, there was one thing I couldn’t understand clearly so I asked him -

“Why do they (the main characters) kiss so much? It’s going to piss me off!”

Torao stared at me, then his lips curved a bit into a small smile.

A deep thought inside me wanted to make him smile more, every time, with me, me alone. Never did I know how selfish I could become until Torao had walked into my life and I had no idea why.

“Because they love each other, and kissing is one of many ways to show how much you love someone, but sometimes you don’t have to love someone enough to kiss him.”

“It sounds complicated… Does it mean Zoro and Sanji are a couple because I’ve seen them kiss one time before.”

Torao’s face became red as if somebody had painted his cheeks with tomato juice while his golden eyes turned the other way.

“I don’t know, but I think there is something going on between them. Maybe there is, maybe there isn’t. You should ask them by yourself. I’m sure they will tell you.”

“Then how do you know when you love someone, Torao?”

“Why do you ask me, Straw Hat-ya? Go to ask Blackleg-ya!”

I bit my lip. Something told me this question must be resolved by his answer, not Sanji who is the love professional. I stared into his eyes and he did the same. We stared at each other a while until he was the first one to break it. Torao sighed heavily, looking at me like he didn’t know what to do with me anymore. He didn’t have to think about it. It was stupid, just do it! I don’t mind as long as Torao was the one who did!

“Why don’t you wake up at 2 AM.  Go to the deck. Watch the stars and the moon, to appreciate how amazing the night sky can be even though they are unreachable.”

“I know the sky with moon and shining stars are beautiful, but how does it answer my question, stupid Torao!”

“Because.” Torao said calmly, “When you love someone, you are going to feel like you’re gazing at a distant star in his eyes. So bright that you don’t know if the stars exist because every goddamn star is in his eyes, more real to you than anything you’ve ever seen.”



I asked. Then he turned his back to face me. It was Torao, but why? Shouldn’t he have been sleeping now? He was sick! He should have been asleep now, absolutely not to standing here, alone, at 2 AM.

"What’re you doing here?”

I walked faster to him than I meant to because my legs wouldn’t listen to my brain then, stopping automatically in front of the other. When I saw him clearly, I couldn’t breathe for a moment. I knew Torao was a handsome looking man with his tall body, the rebellion earrings, the black ink tattoos, and also that I’m cool and I don’t give a fuck about you face. But the problem was this: to be too god-damn good in this thin shirt was too much, I couldn’t accept it! I didn’t want him to wear the white t-shirt again, and please don’t look at me with those dangerous eyes. I could have screamed out, waking everybody out of the blue because of it!

His golden eyes were shining like his piercing earrings.

"The stars.”

I blurted out.


“The stars…”

I could see the sparkling stars in his eyes, it was too bright and so fantastic. It took me a lot of effort to take my eyes off of him. So hard, it was so hard to look somewhere else except his eyes but I needed to prove one thing. Then I watched the stars in the night sky, wondering why they weren’t as bright as those I saw in Torao’s eyes.

Nami told me once the stars were real, no faking one. If we were lost, we should look for the brightest star in the north. I tried to look for the brightest star in the enormous sky but it was nowhere.

Then I looked into Torao’s eyes again.

Oh, I found it.

It was there.

The brightest star was there in his golden eyes.

“Straw Hat-ya?”

Because of his voice, every single piece that had been up in the air was putting itself back together into the picture that I never knew it was before.

The stars were too bright and unreachable. I didn’t know what was real anymore.

I pulled him to me, then kissed him.

Kissing was neither as hard nor as bad as I thought. Instead, it was like cotton candy, coffee, a winter kiss, a sea wind, being mixed up into a drug.

When I used my tongue in his mouth. I knew instantly that everything I’d been looking for was lying here.

Was it real?

Am I real?

Is he real?

Did he kiss me back?

I don’t want to know anymore.

I pulled him away then pushed him hard onto his back, kissing him over and over again until I found out where the real stars existed.

Title: Romeo and Cinderella [ 4 ]

Fandom: Mystic Messenger
Genre: Angst
Characters|Pairing: Zen (Ryu Hyun) x MC/Reader/You

Find part 3 here.

a|n yay!! i finally updated lololol we all move fast. i am fairly in love with liam payne’s strip that down that’s why i borrowed the lyrics of his song. let’s all sing and dance, shall we? lololol.

You know, I’ve been taking some time
And I’ve been keeping to myself (self)

Your eyes were carefully trained on the television in front of you as you memorized every move and steps he was making while performing. GD Entertainment just released the very latest music video of their top selling artist for the year. Your ears were absorbing every words and lyrics he was singing as he danced and performed on the music video.

I had my eyes up on the prize
Ain’t watching anybody else 

You bit your lip as you watched how he grind his body and swayed to the rhythm he was singing. His voice, his eyes, his jawline, his nose and everything about him were screaming gorgeous and hot. You watched at how he was intently looking at the camera as his hands roamed the body of the woman he was with in the music video.

But your love, it hit me hard, girl
Yeah, you’re bad for my health 

He moved at her back and wrapped his arms on her waist as he leaned in on the crook of her neck, the woman tilting her head to the side to give him access. His eyes were blazing with desire and passion as he flicked himself off of her and started dancing inanimately. He was kicking his feet to the ground and his movements were fast. This was a side of Zen you didn’t know existed. You knew he was good in everything but to be able to dance this sexily and make every possible person want him more and more was just beyond the roof.

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