you love me and you know it!!

Lonely hearts have a tendency to stick their veins out, in hope of connecting to someone else’s blood vessels. The only problem is that the bearers of those hearts have reached a point where they feel like they don’t know how to do that anymore. They’ve been put down too many times, told that they’re abnormal so often, to the point of nearly believing it themselves. They tell themselves that they just aren’t meant to be around anyone else, that they were born to love infinitely and to never be loved the same.
—  🖤

crazy-madness  asked:

Hey Craig, question if you ever have free time what do you usually do? Also have you met anyone new? If so did you befriend them?

PETER: Alright, settle down, knuckleheads.
PETER: I’m gonna cover for Mr. Cough Syrup while he retakes his finals.
PETER: I’ve heard him do this a bunch from the bathroom, so I think I got it down.
PETER: Also, this question is really funny, cause this guy does so much. He’s really quiet, so you wouldn’t think so?
PETER: He’s always either out with someone or being way busy in here. Spends hours on his computer, spends hours at someone else’s dorm, you name it. Nuts.
PETER: Like, so busy to the point where we don’t even talk that much. That’s crazy busy!
PETER: That’s cool, though. I get it. Dude’s got stuff, I got stuff. We kinda got to know each other the first week, so it all worked out.


Prompt from the-beauty-of-imagination

Lance knew he was clingy and annoying and sometimes he wondered why Keith even bothers spending time with him. It’s not like he’s interesting like Keith or talented like Keith is or anything as good as Keith. But Keith still lets him be a part of his life, so Lance is going to do everything he can to keep from messing this up.

This went from giving Keith gifts as often as he thought he could without being too strange, letting him choose what most of their activities were when they went out, and most of all, he wouldn’t ever push for kisses unless Keith initiated them.

He was often told he was overly affectionate, which had at times pushed certain people away. Keith wasn’t that affectionate of a person so he couldn’t push his boundaries with hugs and kisses unless Keith wanted them.

To him, it was the perfect plan to make this last and keep Keith from turning away from him- as most people did at some point. At least, anyone he was ever romantically interested in.

“How do I look?” he inquired to Hunk. They had taken a small break at a peaceful planet to gather supplies, leaving them with a few hours away from being paladin’s of Voltron to just relax and enjoy themselves.

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- five -

“There are a million reasons why this shouldn’t work…but there is only one reason why is should…” 

20 weeks

The buzz of my phone woke me up out of a dead sleep, the first decent sleep I had gotten in a full week and with an overly frustrated grumble, I reached over to my nightstand to blindly grab at my phone.

My stare was still blurry, infused with irritation as I blinked out the sleep but it didn’t take me more than a split second before my body was shooting up in my bed. All the air forced its way out of my slackened mouth in a gasp as I froze; my wide eyes glazing over as they read his texts again and again. No, I thought to myself, oh God please no.

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Another good prompt @rowendarkholme! What came to my mind with this AU was teen!lock. Hope that works for you! ;)

“You’re such a baby,” Eurus groaned with a roll of her eyes as she shoved her brother. “I see the way you stare at Molly like an idiot every time she comes over to study.”

“I do not,” Sherlock whispered between gritted teeth, obviously terrified his sister’s friend would hear, seeing as she was only a few meters away, reading under a tree. “Besides, isn’t Jim Moriaty-”

“He’s not the one who makes her blush and forget how to speak coherently,” Eurus cut in with weary laugh. “Leave Jim to me, stop listening to Mycroft, get out of your own head, and go ask her out!”

Sherlock stared at his sister, and then over at Molly, and then back at his sister. “Alright, fine,” he spat out and jumped up, propelled by sibling peer pressure, which Eurus always did excell at.

Eurus smiled proudly to herself as she watched him approach an instantly smiley Molly Hooper. “Thank God, finally! Was beginning to think I’d have to lock them up together in a cement room or something…”


I actually had an anon ask if I had a favorite subject 18. My 18, will always be my love. When I first made her there was like I dunno 2 other 18s I saw. And they didn’t use the name subject 18. I love my baby girl. No other 18 will beat her in my eyes.
She’s my little genius. Who is gonna burn Aperture.

A kiss never forgotten

*Chap 1: A drunken night*

*Chap 2: A blurred night*

*Chap 3: The bath house*

*Chap 4: A Thousand pieces*

*Chap 5: Heart beat*

*Chap 6: Surprise*

*Chap 7: Sunsets, trees and you*

*Chap 8: What now?*

*Chap 9: Healing the unfixable*

*Chap 10: So, this is it?*

*Chap 11: What now?*

*Chap 12: Kids and kisses*

Chap 13: Its time

Naruto was excited but hesitant towards today. He woke in the morning with a strange queasy feeling within his stomach. His hands clenched into a tight fist whilst his stomach convulsed in the strangest ways.

He looked down to see Sasuke’s hands limp on his stomach, lying there lifeless as he slept. He was enormously tempted to kiss it awake but he didn’t want Sasuke to murder him, so he decided best not.

Today was the day. The day he was excited to get over and done with. Tonight, after work he was meeting with Sakura and Hinata to finally tell them about his relationship with Sasuke.

He wasn’t sure how they would take it, but it had been 3 months since the divorce and he didn’t want to stretch it out anymore. On top of that Kakashi was draining them of their money to keep his mouth shut, which was starting to have a heavy toll on Naruto’s bank account.

Naruto looked over to Sasuke slowly bent down and kissed his warm cheek, earning him a mumbled grunt. He slipped out of bed and headed for his daily morning shower.

As he walked down the grey corridor that lead him to his shower he started liking the colour of the blank grey walls. He wasn’t sure if the colour had grown on him or if it was due to him moving out next week with Sasuke which made him feel sad of letting go of this shitty apartment.

He entered the bathroom, hissing as his feet hit the cold tiled floors. He reached for the water tap turning it on, making sure that it was going to be blistering hot when he got in.  He turned around to find his towel whist simultaneously ripping off his clothes.

As he stepped into the shower he knew he was no longer alone.

“Sasuke, you do know I am not a private peep show?” “Well you certainly are a sight to look at.” Naruto chuckled lightly. He loved this. He loved waking up with Sasuke, talking to him in the morning, being with him through every mundane daily morning routine.

“Well are you going to just look at me you perv? Or are you coming in the shower?

“Tch, like you even need to ask.”


Naruto made two coffees to go, pouring 5 times the amount of sugar in one and leaving the other as bitter as possible. He handed Sasuke his dark coffee and grabbed the house keys and hurried his sleepy boyfriend out the door.

Sasuke had yet accustomed to Naruto’s morning time, but seeming as he refused to let Naruto go to work alone he had to face the pain of waking up before the sun rose.

It surprised Naruto how normal it felt to have Sasuke in his life, it felt more natural than anything else his ever done. The mundane task at home didn’t seem so boring anymore, going grocery shopping turned into balls of laughter and staying home on the weekends had become his most treasured past times.

Naruto was happy, after so many years he finally reached happiness. His heart had been filled with joy over the past few months, something it wasn’t very used to.

Naruto and Sasuke walked in silence, each blissfully happy in each other’s company. Naruto looked over to Sasuke never truly being satisfied with a glance, wishing he could stare for hours and get away with no one noticing.

He had never seen Sasuke so at ease before, he usually had a smirk on his face when they were together which made every part of Naruto warm up like he had just taken a sip of hot tea.

Naruto was not only glad for his own happiness but it brought him joy seeing Sasuke finally opening up, being kinder and happier instead of dark and moody all the time. Naruto started giggling to himself thinking about how much Sasuke has changed over the last few months.

“What are you laughing about dobe?”

“Oh, nothing.”

“What? Tell me, or I might have to chidori your ass.”

“Hm, I just think your becoming soft Uchiha I don’t think he have threatened to kill anyone in the last month.”


“Oh, I know you’re not.”

“Gross, get your head out of the gutters.”

Naruto and Sasuke spent the entire time laughing about Sasuke becoming soft. But in reality Naruto knew Sasuke was changing for the better and he was beyond happy that Sasuke also found his happy place.

Before Naruto and Sasuke reached the door that lead into the Hokage tower Naruto stopped.

This was the same place were Sasuke and himself confessed everything, that night was seared into Naruto’s brain. He remembered Sasuke standing where he was and himself at the door trying to convince himself to not be happy. He was thankful to that night, if it weren’t for 20 plus drinks he wouldn’t be standing here today looking at his boyfriend.

“Hey teme!”


“I love you.”

Sasuke was obviously trying to hide his smile. But the Sasuke who stood here today no longer needed a reason to suppress his feelings, so he decided to let it out.

Naruto was hit with a sight of pure perfection, Sasuke smiling amongst glistening stars which brightly sparkled around Sasuke, illuminating him against the rest of the world. He could never stop loving that man and no matter how long they were together he knew he would fall for that smile every time.


Naruto entered his office with Sasuke not far behind. It was strange that his happiness had flowed into work. He no longer found the long nights and the overbearing paper work so hard and the reason was walking in right now with the most beautiful smile he has ever seen.

Since he started dating Sasuke he found he couldn’t get rid of him, nor did he want to. Sasuke spent most days helping Naruto if he didn’t have to be with his chunin team which Naruto never heard the end off.

Sasuke would constantly whine that he hated baby sitting and as much as Naruto tried to convince him that he was modelling the future generation, Sasuke still showed no sign of actually giving a crap.

Every other night Naruto would go spend time with his kids, he always had some crazy adventures planned for the evening and each night was a new night. Naruto didn’t let Sasuke off the hook for being literally one of the worst dads in existent, so Sakura was met with a big surprised when she saw Sasuke at her door after a night of Naruto pushing him to go. It seemed like everything was working out for the best with Naruto and Sasuke together.

Not only is Naruto getting his work done quicker and was ten times more productive at work with Sasuke around. He also spent more time with his children and was developing a tighter bond with both of them. Sasuke in the other hand was also improving in the father department, surprisingly going to see Sarada and Sakura more than once in a week now.

Naruto had been glowing in the past months and people started to notice his change of behaviour and nature. The village was more surprised to find out Sasuke had a heart and his change in nature was being well received by pretty much everyone besides close friends who were wildly suspicious about his calm and nearly gentle nature. The only one who wasn’t suspicious was Kakashi because he knew exactly why both of them where in such high spirits.


Naruto looked out his window, the day was beautiful, the sky crystal blue with a few scattered clouds. The streets where beginning to burst back to life with bakers and chefs starting up their ovens. A few ninja’s and early risers where wondering the streets greeting each other amongst the village.

Naruto felt a loving warm sensation caress him, weaving his arms around his lower stomach. A gentle kiss stroked his cheek.

“Sasuke you know Kakashi will be here in literally 2 minutes?”

“So? Torture him a little bit, why not?”

“Your evil, you know that?” Sasuke let out a deep chuckle.

Naruto turned around and kissed Sasuke deeply, bitting his lower lip to tease to tease him a little.

“Hey, calm down. Don’t tease me like that baka.”

“What you can’t handle me Uchiha?”

Sasuke let out a low growl. “I hate you.”

Naruto couldn’t handle how much he loved this man in every possible way. “I love you too.”

Naruto picked up Sasuke and lowered him onto the Hokage table. Steadily wrapping his hands around his darkened locks.

He brought Sasuke an inch away from his lips and whispered “I will never let you go again, you know that?”

“Hmph”, Sasuke grumbled in the midst of bighting back Naruto’s lips.

Naruto harshly pushed his lips onto Sasuke’s wanting to taste everything he could, he was started to lose control.

“Ahem…If I wanted a porno I would have stayed at home.”

Both Naruto and Sasuke let out a chuckle. They loved torturing Kakashi seeming as they were still paying him to keep his mouth shut. Recently they had been juicing the fact that Kakashi can’t tell and every morning they would purposely try and act raunchy to piss him off.

“Hey Kakashi, you’re so early, I was about to pound Uchiha hard on the table. Shame.”

Sasuke’s eyes widened looking at Naruto with confusion. “You where?”

“No Baka, unless you want me to?”

Kakashi walked towards them and slammed him palm on the table. “NO! I will kill you two.”

“Okay, okay sensei.” Naruto winked at Kakashi and let Sasuke get down from the table.

“Okay team, let’s get to it. We have a lot of work to do and me and Sasuke have to be out of here by 7.”

Kakashi raised a questioning eyebrow “what for?”

“Well let’s just say after tonight you can no longer bride us.”

“GOD DAMMIT! But there is a new book I want.”

Sasuke answered dryly “what a shame.”


The clock had seemed like it was going 5 times the speed, Naruto wanted time to rehearse what he was going to say to Hinata and Sakura, but before he knew it the clock was already reaching 7pm.

“Okay good job team! Let’s pack up or me and Sasuke are going to be late.”

Kakashi yawned and slowly started moving the packs of paper back to the table “but if you go, that means I won’t be able to bribe you anymore, so I am going to move slowly.”

Sasuke darkly chuckled, “oh Kakashi this is going to be fun, no more bribing bullshit.”

Naruto looked over to the two bickering children and questioned how both these men where over 12 years old.

Naruto made 5 clones which got the job done in 2 seconds, “you guys kept acting like children and weren’t actually doing anything about cleaning up, so I just did it for you.”

Naruto raised his eyebrows in annoyance and folded his arms in the best father figure position possible.

“Okay Sasuke if you are done arguing with Kakashi we have somewhere to be.”


Kakashi laughed at Sasuke, whilst pulling out a book.

“I would kill you if it were up to me” Sasuke hissed back at Kakashi’s childish laughter.

“Okay, off we go. Bye Kakashi, oh and be here at 6 am to start the paper work as punishment for being mean to my boyfriend.”

“Hey! That’s not fair!”

“UH! Hokage orders.”

Sasuke was mildly amused by this whole scene, “Sasuke I will kick you in the face next time.”

“Come get me grandpa” Sasuke taunted back.

Naruto pushed Sasuke out and left Kakashi standing in the Hokage’s room threating to ninja kick the shit out of Sasuke. As Naruto closed the door he let out an irritated sigh.

“You two act like your 12, next time I’m going to kick the both of you.”

“Hah, like you can take me on.”

Naruto looked at Sasuke with a cheeky and challenging look, “next week? Training grounds, let’s do it.”

“Oh, it is on Uzumaki.”

“For now, let’s think about our plan of attack for this dinner.”

“Oh yer. What about I’m gay I have the hots for your ex-husband and we have been together for 3 months. Sound good?”

Naruto just let out a frustrated sigh, he knew this was going to be all on him. Passive and effective communication was something Sasuke never mastered and from that dismal answer he was still shit at it.

“You know what, let me do the talking.”

“Haha, sounds perfect.”

Sasuke stuck out his tongue cheekily at Naruto and then grabbed Naruto’s hand down the hallway. From today onwards they have no reason to hide their relationship and Sasuke was going to use this freedom to show the entire world Naruto was finally his.

“Teme are you going to hold my hand the whole way there?”


“Alrighty then, prepare for stares galore.”


Naruto’s premonition was correct, on their way to dinner everyone who saw Naruto and Sasuke holding hands had either started crying, screaming or their faces looked like they had unnaturally contorted to allow their jaws to fall to the ground.

Some people had enough courage to come up to both of them and ask what was going on, once they heard the news they congratulated both of them and gave Natuto a big hug.

No one came near Sasuke unless it was a slight tap of congratulations on the shoulder. Half the village was still scared of him and were still afraid of getting beaten up. Most of the village women and teens ended up crying over the fact Naruto was taken again, which Sasuke evilly snickered at.

Naruto let go of Sasuke’s hands as soon as the restaurant was in sight, “sorry teme, but I don’t think we should go in holding hands.”

“Tch, your right. Alright let’s do this.”

Naruto nodded his head looked at Sasuke lovingly and walked forward with his head held high.


Naruto and Sasuke where sitting on one side of the table whilst Hinata and Sakura were sitting on the other. They decided to not talk about anything serious until the meal was over and everyone had gone through at least 2 rounds of drinks.

Both Hinata and Sakura had confused and worried looks when Naruto said they had big news but they were going to wait till the end of the meal to tell them.

After everyone had finished there second round of drinks Sakura couldn’t hold it in anymore.

“Okay, if you don’t tell us what this news is now I am going to explode, what the hell is happening?”

Naruto looked at Sasuke, steadied his breathe. He tried to calm his heart which was echoing in his ear drums.

“Well, um…”

Naruto struggled to express the words he was trying to say. He felt a loving hand wrap around his knee and saw Sasuke’s firm hand supporting his every breath.

“Well, this is going to be quite difficult to process and I really want you two to have an open mind.”

Both Sakura and Hinata nodded with worried creases covering their foreheads.

“Me and Sasuke are actually dating and we have been for a while now, we kind of feel in love. I know this might be strange, but both of us can’t stop the way we feel towards each other.”

Naruto took in another breath feeling is adams apple burn from the level of stress he felt.

“I Love him so much and I’m finally so happy, I just…”

“Please don’t hate us, we want all of us to be happy and ultimately I would love to join both of our families together so we can be happy all together.”

Naruto waited for something, anything. But the room was dead quiet, all that could be heard was the noise from the restaurant outside their private room. The hurrying feet of waitresses and the chatter and laughter from dinners echoed into their rooms.


Sakura had an astonished look on her face, tears started to fill her eyes.

“Wow! Guys, I am so happy for you.”

A huge wave of relief washed over Naruto’s shoulders. Sakura got up and went to hug Sasuke tightly.


Naruto was trying to see Hinata behind Sakura who was coming closer for a hug. All he could see was her face completely red, her eyes swelling up. Her facial expression seemed like it had just seen death, she barely looked like she was breathing or blinking for the matter.

Hinata got up quickly, “if you please excuse me”.

Hinata ran out and slammed the door behind her. Naruto felt like the tightness come back to his chest and shoulders.

He looked at Sasuke who had a worried look glazed over his face.

“Should I?”

Naruto stood up “no let me.”

He felt a hot liquid fill his heart, he hadn’t felt this sensation in a while. This overbearing feeling of sadness and pain, he thought he wouldn’t have to face it again. As he walked out the door, he heard Sakura energetically talking to Sasuke about him, he wished it could have been this easy with Hinata.

In the back of his mind he knew it wasn’t going to be, Sakura has known for years Sasuke was gay, Hinata in the other hand had a husband who she assumed was straight till right now.

Naruto quickly ran out the restaurant, looking up and down the street. Tears now filling his eyes, muscles clenching harshly within his chest. His breathe was unsteady, his pulse unbalanced. “HINATA!!!!”

Thank you for the 700!



AHHHHHHH I can’t believe it *squealing*
Thank you to everyone who puts up with my craziness, my randomness, my incessant reblogs, gifs and idiocy filled tags- I LOVE YOU ALL!

P.S. Juju makes an appearance because he was meant to be my 600 thank you but I never got around to making one… also big shoutout to the hubs @alter-dna for drawing this up. I swear, one day he’ll spend more than 20 minutes making this stuff up for me and you’ll see his true talent!! But dang they’re still cute *squealing intensifies*

Get a Little Witchy Questionnaire

Tagged by @bronzewitchhazel (Thank you Bronzy! You’re the best! ❤️)

1. Are you a religious witch? Which religion?  I’m secular in my witchcraft. I do devote myself to both Hades and Persephone. 

2. What is your preferred herb? Lavender

3. What is your preferred gem? Amethyst or Rose Quartz

4. Do you do divination? Which kind? I’m just started working with my pendulum

5. Favorite Tarot card? I’m don’t know a lot about tarot so sadly can’t answer this.

6. To Curse or not to Curse? Curse all the way. I haven’t done what yet but I’m planning to one before I go off to college in August.

7. Do you have a familiar? We haven’t crossed paths yet. Maybe one day

8. Favorite candle color? White

9. Favorite rune? I haven’t started working with runes yet

10. Do you celebrate the solstices, full moons, etc? I try to but sometimes I don’t have enough energy to.

11. Do you wear a pentacle? Nope but I might have to get one

12. Do you have a broom? No

13. Do you have a pendulum? Yep. Mine is made out of sodalite

14. Do you have an athame? I just use a pocket knife at the moment

15. How often do you meditate? Once a week. I want to try it more often though.

16. Do you do yoga? I only do it when it’s in the park and it’s free. So during the spring and summer mostly. I hope to do it more in college.

17. Whats your favorite herbal tea? This raspberry tea that I’ve loved since I was a child

18. Do you support manipulation magic? I support people doing what they want with their magick. I will only do it for situations not people because of past experiences.

19. How many altars do you have? None but I hope to put up one soon

20. Do you do magic outside often? No but I’d like to try.

21. Can you read palms, or tea leaves? This is another thing that I’d like to learn 

22. Would you ever open your own metaphysics shop? Maybe sometime after college. I think it would be fun.

23. Is your third eye open? Not yet. 

24. Do you like Astrology? Whats your sign? I’m Gemini and that’s all I know about it

25. Favorite flower? Or Tree? Carnations and Azaleas

26. Do you have an animal guide? Nope

27. Whats your favorite kind of magic? Probably kitchen magick because yummy food and drinks

28. What time do you feel most like a witch? Right after I do a spell, When baking, When using my Ouija board

29. Are you out of the broom closet? Not officially. My family just accepts that I like buying crystals and using incense among other things.

30. Are you a hereditary witch? Or self discovered? Self discovered and taught

31. Are you in a coven? Or solitary? Solitary all day

32. Do you want to be in a coven? How big? Maybe one day. Smallish because big groups freak me out

33. When did you become a witch? I did a few things in the past but I didn’t start for real until this past January

34. Do you make your own spells? Yep and I post them on here too

35. Do you make your own sigils? I do but not as often as I would like

36. Why did you choose this path? Because it just feels right and homey

37. Whats your favorite element? Fire because I’m a little bit of a pyromaniac 

38. Do you do any misc. magic? I don’t think so?!?!?

39. Magic or things you will never do? Blood magick because I’m anemic

40. Strangest way a spell backfired? I’ve only done 2 spells so far and thankfully it hasn’t happened yet.

I’m tagging:

@aminimalistwitch    @circee     @orriculum   @witchy-oates     @celestinewiitch @herb-pepper-witch    @starborn-witch     @theepagangrace     @thewitchofthenorse    @minimoongalaxy    @thecrossstitchwitch     @stonesandsigils   @spaceglitterwitch   @bricklebee    @cloverfaerie

top 10 girl group songs! ♡

ok so i got tagged by the lovely @jjongspink (thank you!) to do this challenge but i just want to point out that they are in no particular order

1. dracula by f(x)
2. don’t wanna drive by exid
3. meow meow by clc
4. kill bill by brown eyed girls
5. cream by exid
6. wonder woman by t-ara, davichi & seeya
7. a-ing (listen to my word) by oh my girl
8. secret by wjsn
9. fingertip by gfriend
10. cold rain by 4minute

there’s more but that’s all i’m allowed to write ;o so, you who i tag, feel free to do this and feel free to not ♡ and tag 10 people!

i tag: @stoooooopppppp @nctbh @feelingsfades @nazguhl @a-ninja-in-training @violoom @imsupergay669 @seokjinie-studies @jjongsta and @jaagaimo  ♡

*stumbles onto the internet* hello I played Zelda all day again lol (after completing some minor homework so I don’t feel COMPLETELY awful about it because by now I’m VERY aware this game will suck me in for long periods of time ^^;;; )

For today, I managed to find more memories (the one around the horse statue, and the one with the frog… both very cute :’D ) so now I have…2 more to go? Wowie. There are other missing memories I know, but for the pictures in Zelda’s camera, I’m almost done!

I also found Zelda’s horse!! He’s beauuutiful and with awesome stats, but WHAT A PAIN TO CATCH, GOSH. I named him Teruki! …yes, from MP100…it’s fitting, leave me alone :P I even got his mane cut short when he started being nice lololol he’s a really good horse~ Hopefully I can upload a picture soon!

Lessee I also completed recovering the ENTIRE Hyrule map! Doesn’t stop me from getting lost chasing after things (today…it was a dragon again. Very lost but I got a scale from it. So.) but it certainly helps X’D

I also managed to defeat my first Lynell!! :’’’D It was painful and took forever but I did it *falls over* thank you @nebulousneko and friends for the tips, they really helped!!

Oh, and I finished the Divine Beast Vah Rudania (the…lizard one…that for SOME reason I thought was an octopus in the trailers???? oops)!! What interesting mechanics for that dungeon, I really enjoyed myself there~ It was a tough but good challenge X’D I did have some trouble figuring out how to beat the boss tho O.o;;;; 

ALSO YUNOBO IS ADORABLE, why aren’t more people talking about him??? A precious Goron child with anxiety but trying his best, 10/10 would adopt :’D

Stars can’t shine without darkness.

- @markiplier : We love you so much. It’s okay to feel lost. It’s all apart of life. You’ll be okay, even if you aren’t okay all the time. As you always tell us: Believe in yourself. You can do anything you put your mind too. xx ❤-

auripondus  asked:

hc + drinking

send me hc + a word & i will write a headcanon about that word.

alcohol is something sam enjoys a lot. he will and can drink anything ( but he really hates horrible beer — so nathan, get the good beer OR ELSE!! ) he likes to go out and grab a drink at the bar, every now and again. he would drink with rafe A LOT!! like rafe was his ultimate drinking buddy while they were partnered up - i’m just saying - this needed to be stated before i wrote the complete headcanon.  

drinking isn’t something he is addicted to but he does drink, as often as he can. more often than not he indulges in alcohol to keep himself from dwelling on personal responsibilities and problems. sam doesn’t take responsibilities for his actions - he is very child-like in that manner ; instead he avoids it - and at times he can be very manipulative, thinking his problems are bigger than nathans ( referring to the part when he goes on about what he put on the line as if it is bigger than what nathan did - all because he knows that his brother will feel the surviors guilt he once felt before. )

first. it was shown that he drank when at the auction. the conversation is very much OPTIONAL!!! but if you do have the optional conversation with sam he will tell nathan about his worries of getting caught when stealing the cross ( he’s literally sweating bullets ). worried about what might happen to them. later you can see him drinking during the auction while nathan swipes the key card ( though they did that a lot in the past it had been 15 years since they last saw each other, one would excuse him if he believed they would end up getting caught )

second. he was seen drinking again after they successfully stole the cross — victor mentioned elena. nathans wife who nathan had been lying to ( sam didn’t tell nathan to lie to her , and he wouldn’t have told him to lie to her , he stayed out of their relationship ) but the whole situation brought the fact that sam was currently lying to his younger brother back to the front of his mind… and he took yet another drink… trying to convince victor - or more-so.. himself that nathan was ‘meant for this life’ this was something he truly believed ( yet had been doubtful due to seeing how happy his brother was previously. )  not thinking this whole ‘marriage’ thing could last. not for people like them. 

third. once again the whole ‘marriage’ and ‘lying’ takes place in this — sam tries to use the alcohol as a distraction - handing his brother a cold beer ( after nathans argument with elena ) and attempts to remind him of how far they’ve come ; knowing damn good and well that he was lying to his brother and that had he told him the truth from the beginning his brothers life wouldnt be in shambles, though… sam didn’t feel bad about what he had done. maybe somewhere? but FOR THE MOST PART sam is stuck in the past !! thinking he and nathan only need each other and will only ever need each other — this, of course, does change by the end of the game, but sam does miss the old day because he’s still partially stuck in the past ( it’s something he had to learn to get used to. )

this isn’t to say sam doesn’t drink unless he’s nervous, or anxious, it just means that when he becomes nervous, anxious, or is attempting to avoid personal responsiblities he will drink a lot more often.

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