you know you want the same thing

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“I love you” means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you even when you’re in a bad mood, or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. “I love you” means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping you feel the same way for me.” - Jonathan Safran Foer

lieutenantsarcasmscat  asked:

Hi there! Ever since I found your blog, my eyes have been opened. I'm almost obsessed with the animal husbandry info you put out, and I get excited whenever I see a post of yours. Do you know of any other animal blogs that post animal-related things that aren't misinterpreted and don't show bad animal care/interactions? I'm hoping to become a vet some day, and I want to learn as much as possible about animals. Thanks for your time, and I love your blog! ^_^

@wheremyscalesslither is a good snake blog that calls out misinterpretation and bad management. 

@kaijutegu is a good reptile blog in the same vein. 

@drferox is a great resource for people interested in becoming a vet, in terms of covering unique topics I’ve never heard other vets tell interested folk. 

@bigcatawareness is on hiatus but has an archive full of everything exotic cats and calls out misinterpretation and abuse. 

anonymous asked:

do you think weiss likes playing Videogames with ruby?

I don’t think she likes to play them but she loves to watch. She’ll sit with Ruby and watch the stories or chime in with help 

Weiss: go get that health!

Ruby: I’m fine!

Weiss: Go get it! You’ll need it later! This is the same thing I tell you in our real fights!

And Ruby goes and gets the health and turns out she DID need it. 

Weiss has her favorite characters too and she’s slowly trying to figure out how to tell Ruby she wants to cosplay them. Not because she thinks Ruby will laugh at her - because she knows Ruby will freak out with excitement and they’ll become THAT couple lol

anonymous asked:

Could you do the rfa+minor trio with an MAC who really likes cars??

A/N: Sometimes i wish i would have taken another year of auto body in high school but i didnt *sigh* also i have a huge lady boner for classic cars so idk if i’ll play on that sorry not sorry ~Admin 404

*YOOSUNG:

           -Knows nothing about cars, new or old

           -But he’s seen you and Saeyoung talk about some of his cars and you seemed so passionate about it!

           -He really just wanted to impress you, and like the same things as you!

           -So he literally pulls out a random car manual when you come around the next time

           -“Ah, I see! That’s a really nice looking…. trans…mission. And wow would you look at those… uh… *Brings book closer to face* …windshield wipers.”

           - yoosung what even

           -“I’m sorry!! You just look really happy when you talk about cars with Saeyoung and I just thought maybe you’d like me more if I knew cars but I really have no interest in them at all! Look at how complicated they are!! WHAT DOES A TRANSMISSION EVEN DO???”

           -He throws the book down onto the table, his face following close behind it

           -You run your hand through his hair and when you laugh he shoots his head back up to look at you

           -“Yoosung, you don’t have to be into cars like I am for me to like you?? Just be yourself, ya big dork! I like you for your animal-loving, LOLOL-playing self<3” and i swear to god he turned to putty in your hands. Completely attached himself to you for the rest of the day but it was honestly kinda cute???

*ZEN:

           -You’re into cars??? He’s into bikes!!!

           -While he thought that would be amazing, he was wrong

           -The two of you have very strong feelings on which is better

           -“Just try driving my car once! ONCE! It’ll be fine!”

           -“FINE, MC, FINE, BUT YOU CAN BET THAT I WON’T LIKE IT”

           -So he tried driving your car in an empty parking lot. He killed it. Multiple times

           -“You need to SHIFT” “I TRIED. I’M HITTING THE PEDAL. IT ISN’T DOING IT” “YOU GOTTA PUSH THAT IN AND CHANGE GEARS WHAT THE HELL ZEN”

           -He doesn’t like it

           -Prefers the two of you take his bike instead unless you’re driving the car

           -“But MC! You look really hot on my bike! Are you sure you want to take the car? What do you mean you love the car? But not as much as me though, right? Right?? MC!”

*JAEHEE:

           -Here’s the extent of Jaehee’s car knowledge: Something feels wrong with car –> Take car to auto shop

           -Okay I’m not giving her enough credit, I’m sure she knows how to change her oil and at least how to change a tire

           -When the two of you are talking about interests and you mentioned cars, she’s internally cheering

           -SOMEONE WHO CAN FIX MY CAR WITHOUT ME HAVING TO GO THE SHOP, THANK YOU LORD, AMEN

           -She really likes learning though, so she asks you to help her learn different aspects of the engine, and how to do a few quick fixes

           -Watched you change one of her headlights once and spent hours trying to change the other one on her own

           -Denied all offers for help, she wanted to LEARN on her OWN, GET AWAY FROM ME MC

           -Once she got it, you praised her like crazy and she felt great?? Like she learned how to fix something and you’re giving her all this recognition and just, it’s an amazing feeling

           -Always out there to help you fix something, one time she brought a notepad and some pens and took notes

           - shes so cute omg

*JUMIN:

           -“MC, get in your car. I have a date planned for us- I’ll drive”

           -“Stay the fuck away from of my car”

           -He’ll try to buy you literally ANY car you want

           -Old, new, restored, a fixer-upper, whatever you want

           -Pouts every time you won’t let him drive them though

           -“I’m a great driver, MC” “I’VE SEEN WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO SAEYOUNG’S CARS. STAY AWAY FROM MY BABIES”

           -So he tries to spoil you with the newest and coolest car parts

           -That new engine you’ve been eyeing? He’ll get it for you. Fuck, he’ll get you SEVEN of them

           -He actually really admires your love for cars though?? Like he lowkey wishes he knew how to do something so hands-on and mechanical

           -When you’re under one of your cars on a dolly (and he’s sure that you won’t get hurt), he’ll push the dolly out from under the other side of the car and pretend he didn’t see you there and practically bug you for attention because you’ve been under there all day

*SAEYOUNG:

           -CAR-LOVIN’ POWER (STEERING) COUPLE

           -The first time he sent a photo of his babies to you, you freaked out

           -You started naming them, spitting out their stats left and right, ranking which one you thought was the best and which one wasn’t as good as the rest

           -HE’S IN LOVE AND HE’S NEVER BEEN SO SURE IN HIS LIFE

           -The two of you go for rides at least once a day

           -The two of you are always spoiling them. Always buying a ton of accessories, washing them- he’s caught you hugging some of them lovingly once totally did not join you

           -Saeran has found the two of you sleeping in a few of them sometimes

           -Y'all communicate by honking sometimes. Completely pisses Saeran off. Then the two of you just honk every time he tries to tell you off. Saeyoung thinks it’s the funniest thing but his brother vows to get back at the two of you

           -“Let’s take this one today!” “Are you kidding???? No!! This one needs more love!” “SHIT YOU’RE RIGHT”

           -He seriously has to get you your own garage down the road though because your love for cars rivals his

*V:

           -Your passion is what really gets him in all honesty

           -The way your face lights up, the sparkle in your eyes, he just loves it all so much, MC

           -ALSO LOVES THE AESTHETIC BEAUTY OF ALL YOUR OLD CARS??? MC WHAT, THESE ARE BEAUTIFUL

           -“Pose on top of that car”

           -“You want me to what?”

           -He takes amazing photos of your babies so you can frame them and show them off (when you aren’t driving them)

           -But he also takes those sexy car model-type photos of you and the cars so he can keep them for himself

           -What did you expect MC? You’re amazing, and so are your cars, he wants the two to intermingle

           -Also has tons of photos of you with a dirty face after working on your babies because you’re just! So! Cute!

           -He’ll put the camera down to help you every now and then though! You want a wrench! He’ll hand it to you! v sweetheart that’s the wrong tool, i need that one. no not that one. yes that one. no not that size

*SAERAN:

           -Oh no

           -You’ve got a car obsession like his brother? Shit.

           -He’s been sucked into races between you and his brother and he hATES THE BOTH OF YOU

           -“MC WHAT ARE YOU DOING SLOW DOWN! IS THAT SAEYOUNG? *Leans out of window and flips him off* STOP TRYING TO RACE MY MC YOU FUCKING IDIOT”

           - says he hates the both of you for racing but the adrenaline rush actually hits him pretty hard, he likes it

           -There have been times that he has to physically pry you off of your car because you’ve been clinging to it

           -If you’re working on something under the hood, he’ll mess with you by honking the horn

           -“IT WASN’T ME. Maybe you touched something!! Don’t fuck up the car!” you lil bitch i know i didn’t touch anything

           -He does admit that some of the classic cars are his favourite to look at. Like a 1967 Chevy Impala? BEAUTIFUL. 1971 Pontiac Firebird Trans Am? Y E S

           - mc lets fuck in every single one of your backseats

anonymous asked:

I really love my girlfriend I really do and that's the problem, we're in a long distance relationship and we don't get too see each other very often and I'm just fucking hurting I feel like the only way to stop hurting is letting her go but at the same time I know that I cannot live without her I dont know what to do why does love hurt so much

if you love her, just hold on. you can make things work if you really want to. i know things might not be great right now, but just dropping everything leaves you lonely and with no chance. it doesn’t fix anything.

get creative with ways to spend time. try watching movies together online, playing games, facetiming or skyping, etc.

hang on, and eventually when a visit is possible or you’re both adults, things will be so much easier. it will be worth it.

and above all, tell her how you’re feeling. burying and hiding your feelings helps no one.

The Sure Symbol Of God’s Love

Romans 5:8
8But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Imagine this scenario: Your car tire blows and you are late for work. At the office, you find out that someone else got the promotion you had been hoping for. Then, you receive a call from home informing you that your kitchen pipes are leaking again. Before long, you hear a voice telling you, “If God loves you so much, how come all these things are happening to you?”

Perhaps you are asking the same question today and wondering if God really loves you. Well, I want you to know that you must never judge God’s love for you based on your circumstances. No, look at the cross instead! The cross is the sure symbol of God’s love for you. It is at the cross that “God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us”.

A teenager learnt that the cross indeed spoke of how much God loves her. At one point in her life, she was contemplating suicide as the only way out of her health problems. She had intended to take some Panadol tablets with a bottle of vodka. She was all ready to die when she started clicking aimlessly on some MP3 songs in her computer. And of all the songs that were on her screen, she picked a beautiful song written by one of our church musicians.

The lyrics of the song, sung by one of our church vocalists, spoke of being held by God’s love and being treasured in His sight. They touched this teenager. Sensing that an awesome God with His amazing love was reaching out to her, she abandoned her plan to kill herself. Not long after that, she wrote to our church and even met the worship leader who had sung the song. The worship leader counseled her and she came to know how much God loves her and how He has demonstrated His love for her through the cross.

Beloved, when you look at your life and find yourself wondering if God really loves you, look to the cross and see God’s outstretched arms. It will remind and reassure you of how much He loves you!

Thought For The Day
Look to the cross and see God’s outstretched arms — that is how much He loves you!

- by Joesph Prince

anonymous asked:

I'm looking to start watching gundam, but I cannot for the life of me figure out the chronological releases of the series and stuff, could you help me out with what series's I should watch first? 0079 is the 'first' one, right?

Alrighty, the thing with Gundam is that most of it can be divided into “Universal Century” or “everything else.” The non-UC shows are usually self-contained universes - you can watch any one of them without knowing anything else about the franchise and you won’t be lost (Turn A and G-Reco are technically in the same timeline as UC, but they’re so far in the future that they’re effectively self-contained). They’re probably the best starting point if you want to get a taste for the franchise - Wing, 00, and Iron-Blooded Orphans are all solid first picks.

The Universal Century timeline is the stuff in the same universe as the original series. There’s a lot of material here, but I think a good way to look at it is like Star Wars - you’ve got several consecutive shows that tell an overarching story (the original series, Zeta, ZZ, and Victory) in the same way that the numbered Star Wars movies do. Then you’ve got side material within the Universal Century which explores the impact of these events on other characters and locations - these are kinda like Rogue One, in that they’re technically self-contained stories that flesh out the world. If you want to get into UC stuff, you can either start with the original show and work through it that way, or dive in through the side stories and build up the context little by little. If you’re doing the latter, I’d personally recommend War in the Pocket or the Gundam Thunderbolt OVAs

Last but not least, there’s Build Fighters and its sequel Build Fighters Try. These are more like Yu-Gi-Oh or similar game-based shonen series, only using Gundam models instead of cards or tops or whatever. Plot-wise, there’s nothing stopping you from jumping in here, but half the appeal lies in its shoutouts and references to other Gundam series, so your enjoyment of it will increase the longer you wait.

But yeah, with 30+ years of material, there are a ton of ways to get into the franchise. I think the easiest way to get a feel for what it’s all about is to pick one of the self-contained series and just dive right in, and then wade deeper in if you like what you see. And even then, with so much material, there’s a lot of variety in tone and content (you’ve got everything from wartime drama to batshit-crazy super-robot martial arts to… whatever the fuck was going on in G-Reco), so look around and see if something sounds interesting, or if a particular show’s mobile suit designs catch your eye, and start from there.

Beauty and the Beast: Stop your Bullshit Tumblr

I was wondering why Beauty and the Beast was so long (two hours and ten minutes exactly), and now that I’ve seen it, I know: they fixed all the plot holes. Which means it’s not carbon copy of the one from 1991; the story is quite the same of course, but they did try to put actual character development in here, and shed light on things we knew nothing about or had no explanation for until then. So yeah, if you finally want some answers, I recommend seeing it. Of course it doesn’t stray far from the animated movie, so yeah, you’ll have some of the same songs, the most iconic ones, not all of them, and some new, so I’m sorry if you’re allergic to all the singing, it stays a Disney movie…

As for the rest? You have POC characters, not a whole lot but there are here, and not in the background if you please, so that’s a yes as well.

Now, about Lefou.

I saw some very vindictive posts on this website about how his character was homophobic.

I disagree. You see, it’s true that he’s mannered, but it’s barely. It’s not exaggerated like I was expecting, it’s there but to be honest, every single character is exaggerating in their manners. He’s not more mannered than the others. Also, he’s not the mindless, stupid fool from the first movie anymore. He’s quite clever in fact, and is perfectly able to see when Gaston is doing something wrong, and he’s always trying to better his ways; he’s always suggesting another way to do things so Gaston changes his mind about doing what he was initially planning to do (which is like, always bad). When he does follow him in his bad ways, it’s because he’s pressured by Gaston and by his attraction to him, like we saw it a thousand times before when some character (mostly girls) help the villain despite being conflicted about it because they love him. Because Lefou is conflicted, he doesn’t want to displease Gaston because he doesn’t want him to hate him, but at the same time, he doesn’t like his actions and is always trying to stop him using subtlety and negotiation, because he knows it’s useless to disagree with him upfront, as Gaston doesn’t hesitate to get violent when things don’t go his way. Lefou is like the good conscience of Gaston, well he tries to be, and even better: he doesn’t fall with him at the end. He’s able to free himself from the toxic influence and person that is Gaston, he doesn’t cling to him until the very end like the cliché ending we saw far too much in this kind of relationship dynamics. And in that aspect, Lefou becomes his very own character.

So I’m sorry, but Lefou is a very well written character, with way more depth than those posts I’ve seen seemed to imply. As a matter of fact, none of these posts were explaining exactly why the depiction of Lefou was homophobic in this movie; they didn’t give even one precise example, which is very telling, really.

So be mindful of what you read, people, and go see things for yourselves, especially if you wanted to before seeing heinous posts like this.

why i, an actual conversion therapy survivor, don’t like the term “sga”

as an actual conversion therapy survivor, i get so angry seeing posts (by people who are not conversion therapy survivors) that say “sga” is a conversion therapy term. like there are actual survivors saying that “sga” isn’t. “ssa” is, but that is not the same thing. 

you know what conversion therapists say? they don’t say “sga”. they say “queer”, “homosexual”, “transsexual”, “ssa”. sometimes they just say “abomination”, “heathen”, “sinner”, “perversion of nature”. 

they don’t use “sga” or “asg”. they don’t use “gay” or “lesbian” or “transgender”. 

even if there are actual conversion therapists who have used sga, it would still be a term that could be reclaimed. the therapists try to make sga a bad thing that you want to get rid of, so identifying as sga would be reclaiming that power. 

which is why i’m honestly kind of hesitant to say sga is a requirement to being lgbtpn. not that the concept is inaccurate, but the wording can be kinda iffy. “asg” is a perfectly reasonable replacement. 

this is why i prefer “asg” (attracted to a similar gender) over “sga”. “sga” is often used as a noun, where people say you “have sga”. which can be a little too close to “ssa” imo. but “asg” is literally just a shorter way of saying something that asg people say all the time and cannot be used as something you “have”. which is why i either say “asg” or i say someone “experiences sga” or “is sga” (is same-gender attracted) instead of “have sga”. 

“asg” has no possible negative history the way one could argue “sga” could. it’s really just a quicker way to write something that we say all the time.

(this is ok to reblog, but please don’t try to start shit with me about this. this is my own opinion based on my past with an abusive, homophobic church and a reparative therapist. don’t try to discourse with me about this if you aren’t also a conversion therapy survivor. thanks)

We can't go back into space until Logan Masterson dies

That’s pretty much the long and short of it. Personally, I think that this whole thing will be the end of manned spaceflight. It was already dying, and now this? Talk about a PR-nightmare.

Plus, morally, the murders were pretty bad too.

Unsurprisingly, it began with lust. Masterson was aboard the ISS with Mizuki Katayama, a brilliant Japanese mission-specialist. He loved her, or more accurately he wanted her, and she’d politely turned him down.

The same scenario happens on Earth every day. The only thing remarkable about this murder was its location.

If you admit to watching the Broadcasts, then you know how he killed her and what he did to her afterward. But I’d rather not get into that.

After killing Katayama, Masterson was alone on the ISS with Anton Vitaly. Saying the cosmonaut was in the wrong place at the wrong time would be an understatement. Masterson made short work of Vitaly as well.

But again, I’d rather not go into details.

You have to remember that, at this point, nobody on Earth was clued in. All we saw was that the cameras on the station had stopped transmitting, and that the personnel weren’t responding.

It’s during this period when Masterson must have fully embraced his psychosis. He blacked out the station’s windows. He diligently severed all outside controls. Then he waited.

These first days and weeks were panicky for NASA, JAXA, and Roscosmos. Eventually a mission was sent up to investigate the ISS. The next three Astronauts and Cosmonauts in the queue for residence were sent up with tools and supplies.

Masterson, of course, knew they were coming. He listened to Earth communications, and still had access to the external cameras. It was a relatively simple matter to sabotage the airlock and depressurize one of the station’s segments.

From what little we know, it’s assumed that all three died instantly. Or maybe that’s just wishful thinking.

It was at this point that the Broadcasts began.

Attempts to stop his outgoing messages were pathetically ineffective. All Masterson had to do was slap an old-fashioned broadcast antenna on ISS and—presto! The whole world was his audience.

Nobody is supposed to watch, but I’d bet that everybody has at least once. The Broadcasts were sickening and fascinating at the same time. A psychotic murderer, completely out of reach of civilization—with a broadcast antenna.

Most were horrified. Countries banned viewing the broadcasts. But some segments of the internet loved it.

Everyone pretends they don’t watch, but all of Masterson’s performances are easily accessible online.

Months passed and people began to wonder how he was still alive. Then someone pointed out that Masterson has a water-recycler and about five corpses-worth of meat.

Still, he can’t last forever. So we’re waiting him out. A few politicians and world-leaders have threatened to launch missiles at the ISS. But that’s just bluster.

So, just go to sleep. Don’t even think about the fact that there’s a psychotic killer out there, passing overhead every 92 minutes.

so we as admins are very excited for everything we have in store for this group. we just want to make a note of a few things, so please like once you have read this and if you have any questions never hestate to ask!

gossip blog: this will be an extension of the main so we can keep an eye on things and make sure nothing overly rude is posted. if at any time, you feel like your character is being attacked/targeted, please let us know, whether it be on the main or any of our character accounts. this is meant to be fun, and we don’t want anyone feeling this way. the gb will be addressing people in posts. blasts as their labels, so that is why not two labels can be the same, because it would be hella confusing

meme mondays: starting this monday, we will have meme mondays. every monday, you can send each other memes and all that jazz. however, the last ask is to be sent at 11:59 pm cst monday night, but you can answer them throughout the week.

ooc game night: starting next saturday will be ooc game night. it will be any game that can be played online with more than 2 or 3 people allowed into the room at a time. whether that be a cards against humanity simulation or a card game or whatever. we will spend the week of trying to find a game to play and we will try and do a time that works for everyone here.

starter call sundays: on starter call sundays, we will make a post on the main with every starter having less than 15 notes. we don’t want anyone feeling left out because we love all of you. this will probably be started next sunday or the sunday after.

honesty fridays: starting next friday, this is a day to do honesty hours and what not. though unlike meme mondays, these can only be answered on fridays. if you got any left to answer, after 11:59 pm (your timezone), keep them in the inbox until the next friday

Hi, hello! This is just to let you all know that I’m closing the anon feature for a while. I understand that there are people who feel reluctant to ask or talk with their blog names open, and I totally respect that. However, due to some current anon trouble, I’m not keeping the option open for a while. You are most welcome to ask from your blogs and if you do feel uncomfortable with me answering or replying by posting for all, I will definitely stick to private replies. I have no problems with you wanting to feel secure and keep certain things private. At the same time, I would also like to preserve my sanity and not entertain disturbing messages that affect me badly. I hope you understand. Thank you for your support and involvement in making Tumblr an enjoyable place. As for those who ignite trouble on anonymous mode, I’d rather not give you the power of exposure than entertain any conversation with you. I hope you find another outlet for your negativity. Cheers!

@markiplier

Hey man, just watched you late night vlog as well as your prt2 to that. Just wanted to let ya know that we´re all here for you. Know that a lot of peeps have probably said the same thing, but you don’t have to work yourself to the brink of exhaustion for the sake of our acceptance. We love whatever you create and just want you to enjoy it as much as we do.

At least for me, I want you to enjoy and be inspired just as we are. Like you give and we give something in return? I don’t know I’m just rambling at this point.

Keep your head up and keep smiling man. You got this.

anonymous asked:

Reyna scrutinized him for a moment before saying, "If we're thinking of the same thing, then yes, I know," she said slowly. She seemed to be trying to figure out what to say. She wasn't sure if Will knew that Nico was trans or if he was talking about the fact that Nico was gay. Either way, it wasn't right for her to say anything about it if Will didn't know. "What is it that you're thinking?" she asked finally, figuring it would be better to just ask him.

“Do you know who Nico is?” Will was still dancing around the question, but he really didn’t want to say something that would ruin his relationship with Nico. Whatever that relationship was, at this point. He needed to be careful, since Nico was shifting in his sleep and groaning softly. Will figured he was probably going to wake up soon. He didn’t necessarily want Nico to wake up and find him talking to Reyna about private things that he shouldn’t be talking about. Will tried to convince himself that it was for medical reasons. Will tried to elaborate, “who Nico really is, I mean.”

anonymous asked:

What do you like about the guy you're dating? I wish I had a man, I feel like I'm going to be forever alone 😭

I was going to type out a long response to this because there’s so much that I love about him, but I want to be the only one who knows about his little quirks and what made me fall so hard for him. I love my man. He’s full of respect, honesty, and compassion. I’m so blessed to finally be able to share my life with him.

Lmao, I used to think the same exact thing. Then out of the blue things just fell into place. Trust me, wherever you’re at now is exactly where you need to be. Don’t sweat it!

The thing I hate about blocking someone’s number is that they won’t know you blocked them. They are still able to send you messages and they will appear as delivered on their phone, I just don’t receive them in my inbox. They can still call you and my phone will ring or go straight to voicemail which is also annoying as fuck. Kind of the same bullshit as how the Tumblr blocking system works.
I don’t want them to think I’m just ignoring them, I want them to know that I blocked them and they should leave me alone.

anonymous asked:

I feel horrible about this, but I need to get this off my chest. My abuser was an immigrant from Mexico. He scarred me for life and I cannot stand any Hispanic male and I feel like shit because of it. I'm literally a blonde haired blue eyed white girl and he's Hispanic. Im terrified to tell my therapist or anyone because I don't want them to think I'm racist or something, but I really can't stand to be around anyone that resembles him. What do I do?

i am not judging you at all. i am glad you are getting this off of your chest because i want this to be a safe place for people to share things like you’re sharing. because i really do feel for you. i know how awful you must feel. but your “racism” is the result of trauma. it’s like saying that someone is sexist for feeling fear when encountering the opposite sex after they were abused. or for not wanting to talk to people with the same name as their ex because it brings back bad memories (which has happened to me). unfortunately, your trigger deals with race and i know how touchy of a subject that can be. but you are not a bad person. you are a victim of abuse dealing with a trigger. please tell your therapist so that you can work through this.

the year of letting go, of understanding loss. grace. of the word ‘no’ and also being able to say ‘you are not kind’. the year of humanity/humility. when the whole world couldn’t get out of bed. everyone i’ve met this year, says the same thing ‘you are so easy to be around, how do you do that?’. the year i broke open and dug out all the rot with own hands. the year i learnt small talk. and how to smile at strangers. the year i understood that i am my best when i reach out and ask ‘do you want to be my friend?’. the year of sugar, everywhere. softness. sweetness. honey honey. the year of being alone, and learning how much i like it. the year of hugging people i don’t know, because i want to know them. the year i made peace and love, right here.
—  Warsan Shire
the elevator scene analysis

so here’s my over-analysis on the elevator scene that nobody asked for. i hope you’re ready for Keith being a pining little shit

so Lance decides to check out the pool. of course he would! he grew up on the beach and is the guardian spirit of water. that’s totally something he’d be all over. he loves swimming.

so it’s kinda interesting that Keith of all people would also want to go swimming. he’s the polar opposite of Lance, he’s the fire paladin. water isn’t really his thing tbh? (doesn’t mean he can’t enjoy swimming though, but you get what i mean)

while it could just be coincidental that he decided to go check out the pool at the same time Lance did, i get the feeling Keith found out Lance was going swimming and wanted to join him but pretended that he didn’t know what Lance was doing ‘cause he doesn’t wanna make it obvious that there’s something else he wants to check out

what do you mean “what do you think you’re doing?” Keith??? he’s wearing swim trunks and a towel and is on the same elevator as you how can you not make the obvious conclusion that he’s going swimming???? you’re a terrible liar 

okay look, i know how i get when i have a crush on somebody. i will find literally any excuse to be around them, but will try to downplay it and make it seem like i totally don’t care. i’d recognize that kinda behavior anywhere. and Keith? totally trying to downplay it right now. “i just so happened to want to go swimming at the same time my crush did and stopped him in the elevator before he could go without me but pffsh i totally am NOT trying to find an excuse to be around him. i’ll prove it by making sure he knows we will be on opposite ends of the pool and i’m totally not interested in being around him!”

okay Keith, i think we get the point ;D (the way he says this line sounds so forced like he’s trying not to make things awkward oh my god)

if you go back and watch this scene, Keith looks over at Lance first. probably because he just realized he got stuck in an elevator, with his crush, while wearing bathing suits. the first thing running through his mind right now is probably “hHOL YSsHIT”

Lance looks over at Keith like “are you fucking kidding me right now” 

and Keith is like “shit gotta keep acting like this is the opposite of the best day of my life”

so anyways we cut back to this scene after a brief moment with Pidge and Hunk, and while i bet Keith would come up with any excuse to get close to Lance, i like to think it was Lance’s idea to crawl up the elevator shaft like this. he’s the kind of person who would come up with crazy ideas like this if he was that determined to get to the pool. i have absolutely no doubt Keith was internally screaming the whole time.

he proceeds to bicker with Lance like usual and they shove each other. if you look closely after Keith shoves Lance back though, you’ll notice he keeps leaning against Lance more than before. probably ‘cause he’s secretly enjoying the physical contact

lmao

poor Lance, he just wants to go swimming. let the dolphin boy swim

Keith: this is literally one of the best things that has ever happened to me don’t ruin it

Keith spots the vent shaft and they finally get out of there

listen, i don’t know if it was just intentional but it seriously looks like these two aren’t looking in the same direction. Lance is looking up at the vent shaft like “finally, thank god” whereas Keith looks like he’s just staring at nothing in particular, probably thinking to himself “well this was exciting but now we get to go swimming which is gonna be even better. nice”

tl;dr: Keith found out Lance was going swimming so he wanted to as well but pretended like it was just a coincidence, and totally was secretly enjoying the fact that he got trapped in an elevator with his crush. and based on all the pining!Keith evidence we have so far, i don’t see why this can’t be the case.