you hold it and hold it inside


When you smiled, the world caught fire, in yellow and orange and red.
When you smiled I melted inside and fireworks filled my head.
When you smiled, my heart took charge and beat back my frightened brain.
For when you smiled, I was transformed, never to return again.

But when you frowned the world turned cold; dark, ominous and gray.
When you frowned I tried to hold on, not let you slip away.
When you frowned I yearned for you, to hold you, rescue you.
For when you frowned, the world upended, and I was tossed up too.

When you smiled the world was righted, the glowing warmth returned.
When you smiled you shone like the sun; you radiated, you burned.
When you smiled, so did I, for nothing filled me with such joy,
As seeing you happy once again, my beautiful amazing boy.

But when you frowned, you retreated in, and I reached after you.
When you frowned, I was lost, unsure of what to do.
For when you frowned, all I wanted was to see your smile.
So when you frowned, it became my goal to bring it back for a while.

I know I can’t stop every frown. I can’t cause every smile.
I know I that I am a world away, and won’t see you for a while.
But I will always do my part to keep the frowns at bay.
And fill your life with beautiful smiles, every single day.


lmao I forgot I made this so I finished it.
this was just a little inside joke I was discussing about sugar daddy Viktor being extra af

Soothing a Venus
  • Venus in Aries: Wrap your hands around their head, 'relax darling'
  • Venus in Taurus: Let them feel your whole body in embrace
  • Venus in Gemini: 'Take a deep breath. Now tell me everything you want to say'
  • Venus in Cancer: 'Have you eaten properly?'
  • Venus in Leo: 'I am so proud of you'
  • Venus in Virgo: Take their hands into yours and gently hold them to ease the tremors
  • Venus in Libra: 'I want your opinion though. Your's is equally valid'
  • Venus in Scorpio: Hold them close in the darkness until they can feel the soothing soul
  • Venus in Sagittarius: Go for a walk towards the sun, let them speak as they move their legs
  • Venus in Capricorn: 'You have nothing to prove to me, you have already proven your brilliance'
  • Venus in Aquarius: 'Bring your feet back to the ground next to mine, now tell me what's going on inside there'
  • Venus in Pisces: Hold them on your chest so they can hear your heartbeat, it sounds like a shell from the ocean
Water Scrying

Water scrying is the art and practice of gazing into water to see the future or receive a vision. Water scrying is a great way for clairvoyants to develop their skills, but can also be done by anyone. -Mod J

  1. To start, you are going to need a bowl or something that holds water. Preferably the bowl or water holding object should be a solid color inside so you don’t get distracted by patterns. Black, white, or a metal bowl are ideal because these are colors that are easy to gaze at for extended periods but any solid color should work.
  2. Fill the bowl with water
  3. Now set up your space. It helps to turn off the lights and have a candle or a few around the bowl giving some light but not close enough that you see the reflection in the water.
  4. Now this is the hardest part, gaze into the water in the bowl and let your eye lose focus. Your vision might get a little blurry but try to fight the urge to look around and refocus your vision. After a while of doing this you might be able to correct the blurriness without losing focus on the water. Around this point when your gaze softens some kind of vision should appear in the water.
    It’s important to understand that what you see might be a real depiction of what your scrying for/about but it’s more common for you see symbolic images instead. Learning to translate these symbols takes some time and practice so keep working at it.

    Another thing to note is that you might feel like your mind is just making you see things in the water that isn’t there, and i guess on some level that is correct. The water it’s self isn’t what’s producing the vision, you are receiving because you asked to, and are using the water and bowl as tools to help perceive it.

Here are ways to help enhance your water scrying that i know of:

  • You can charge your bowl over night with tea made from certain herbs. I like to steep some mugwort and lavender in my bowl to charge it while i sleep and empty it in the morning.
  • You can a few drops of essential oils to your bowl while scrying, or before to help charge the bowl and water’s energy. The oily surface can also help keep you from getting distracted and gives your eyes something to focus on.
  • Another way to prevent distraction is to put a small crystal at the bottom of the bowl around the center. It gives you a fixed point to look at, but I’ve noticed for me that is often cut off some of the vision and everything will move around the crystal rather then appearing in the whole bowl.
  • Using your bowl for offerings. I find this helps charge and enhance my scrying bowl’s energy by putting offering in it when i work with other spirits and deities.
  • Sometimes it can also help to instead of building up the energy in the bowl do a cleansing and put some salt water in the bowl to soak.
  • You can also use moon water, sun water, or any magically enhanced water that might be specific to the type of reading you are doing. I find moon water is always good for all water scrying.

If you try water scrying and find it doesn’t work for you that’s alright. It’s not for everyone, and even those who do it regularly have off days where they can’t get anything to come through. So give it a few tries before you decide if it’s something for you. Good luck with your scrying! -Mod J

Simple Water Spell to Dispel Anxiety

Really, it will dispel whatever you need it to. 


  • A large shell capable of holding water (can be subsituted for a bowl, though shell is recommended) 
  • A glass of water 

  • Black salt 


  • Pour a bit of black salt into your left hand. Once you have, take a moment to hold it and close your eyes, slowing your breath and visualizing that whatever anxious thoughts you might have are rough water, splashing and crashing inside of you. 
  • Visualize that the rough water is flowing from your head down into your chest and up into your left hand, leaving behind only stillness and peace where it once was. Feel that energy be drawn into the salt that you hold. 
  • Open your eyes and hold your left hand over the shell. With your right hand, pick up the glass of water and pour it over the salt, letting it wash off of your hand and into the shell. Continue to pour the water until no salt or black stain is on your hand. 
  • Look down into the dark water inside of the shell and feel that all of your anxiety is contained within it. It is separated from you, leaving you a feeling of pleasant stillness. 
  • Take a few breaths to relax yourself further, focusing on that feeling of peace. 
  • Dispose of the water (preferably down a drain or somewhere where it won’t harm any plants). 
  • Repeat as needed.

A few years ago we had a cozy little gang that got together every other week. As such, we often forgot what had happened in previous sessions. In one of our adventures, the rogue found a Bag of Holding and proceeded to stuff a live alligator inside. 

Cut to a few weeks later, during a boss fight:

DM: It’s looking bad. 12 damage to the paladin.

Rogue: I know it’s my turn, hold on, there’s got to be something I can use -

Cleric: The alligator! Unleash the alligator!

Rogue: Oh my god. I do it. I open my Bag and release the alligator.

Table, chanting: Alligator! Alligator! Alligator!

DM: …. a bloated, slimy, alligator corpse slips out onto the dungeon floor. I hope you’re happy.

Rogue: It’s dead???

DM: You kept it in a bag for weeks with no food or water, what did you expect?

We died.

You press your lips against mine and I call this acceptance,

But you kiss like regret,

Because the only name that’s getting gagged in your throat is hers

And the only one that misses you is mine.

When you hold me tight inside your palms,

Spill words never meant to be mine,

I feel distance between us

Because even when your hands cling to mine 

Your heart travels eternities as it suffers.

You press your lips against mine and I call this acceptance,

But you regret this decision,

You hold me like it’s all gone to be fixed,
I know she caused a little trouble,
Left you shattered in pieces,

I know you stick by me to make it,

But she is a mistake you never understood.

You kiss like regret,

feel sorrow for the lies you said,

and I’m your home when she is a mistake,

although, she is the one you love when I am your mistake.

—  inspired by @loveserum. Regret is what you live with. 12:40 pt1 of fake love.

I’s married now! 😍
My best friend
College sweetheart
Ruby (Steven universe reference 😂)
My Swiffer (insider) ….

You know it’s real when someone expands your heart in ways you never imagined . I remember us pushing each other to study during finals week. We never had much but we’ve alwsys had each other. We continue Holding each other through heartbreak. Learning and growing together. Becoming better people for ourselves and each other.
Our spiritual partnership is one that mirrors . Holding each other accountable in love and compassion.

You get on one nerve that no one else knows about lmao . But you make me laugh. You helped me understand what love looks and feels like. In the words of Zora Neale Hurston

“Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place ”

Thanks for choosing me this lifetime 😍😍😍😍

Date the girl who is super shy but really loud when she’s drunk
Date the girl who likes smithsonian dates more than dinner or movie dates
Date the girl who gives you the chance you’ve been waiting for
Date the girl that recites random facts to you and stops half way because she thinks she’s being “too nerdy” because i guarentee that she will tell you loud and proud what she thinks of you and hold your hand better than she holds her beer, she’ll look at you like you’re better than anything she’s seen pinned inside a museum, and she’ll write about you in her english papers that are due the next morning.
—  Date THAT girl - LAE

intimidation by scorpio can be experienced by those who have not become aware and/or accepted the wildness and the darkness inside them. scorpios hold a mirror up to the unconscious complexes that trigger your anguish and the demons you refuse to confront, in their hands they hold an invitation to the sort of glory that is unspeakable, because they know how to mend on phoenix wings, no other sign can do this, but people are afraid to touch hands that burn them

sometimes your heart will hurt. sometimes your smile will ache. sometimes your light will dim. sometimes your spirit will break. sometimes your entire world will come crashing down with no warning, and no signs.. but no matter how destroyed you feel - you have to be willing to dig deep inside of yourself to find some ambition to get you back right. you have to look out for you. you have to let go. you have to place your focus primarily on YOU. nothing about losing what’s familiar feels good.. but uncomfortable places can be beautiful. growth is beautiful. you are beautiful. you shouldn’t have to wait around and pray for someone to love you. you should love you. you should let go - because nothing worth holding onto will ever destroy you. and holding on is destroying you. trying to love someone into loving you - is destroying you. let go because you have to get a hold of you. you have to retrace your steps and figure out where you let YOU go. you have to take time to yourself to reflect on when and where you lost yourself. you have to let go of what no longer is - and accept what may have never been.. then you have to pick yourself back up. you have to release any negativity clouding your mind and you have to rid yourself of hopeful feelings. cleanse your soul. listen to your intuition. learn yourself. let go of any bad habits you’ve picked up along your journey. and start over. no matter how bad or how much it hurts.. let go and start over. holding on is destroying you.
—  Reyna Biddy
Date someone who is interested in you. I don’t mean someone who thinks you’re cute or funny. I mean someone who wants to know every insignificant detail about you. Someone who wants to read every word you write. Someone who wants hear every note of your favourite song, and watch every scene of your favourite movie. Someone wants to find every scar upon your body, and learn where each one came from. Someone who wants to know your favourite brand of toothpaste, and which quotes resonate deep inside your bones when you hear them. There is a difference between attraction and interest. Find the person who wants to learn every aspect of who you are.
—  Anonymous
the day Tanaka noticed that everyone is gay
  • Tanaka: *arrives at the club's room* *see daichi and suga kissing*
  • Tanaka:
  • Tanaka: ARE YOU GUYS GAYS?!!
  • Daichi: Oh, hey Tanaka. Yes. We are.*confused*
  • Tanaka: SINCE WHEN?!
  • Suga: Since 5 months.
  • Daichi: We thought you knew it, you know, i even proposed Suga in front of everyone.
  • Tanaka: *outside* oh...yes. I'm joking guys. *inside* WHAT?!
  • Suga: Oh, there is, the rest of the couples.
  • Tanaka: *inside* REST?!
  • Kagehina: holding hands
  • Asanoya: Hugging
  • Tsukkiyama: holding hands
  • Noya: Are you okay?
  • Tanaka: i need a...
  • Yamaguchi: air?
  • Tanaka: a men


roasting marshmallows, getting drunk, standing near the edge at the top of a building, laughing so hard your stomach hurts, feeling the bass of a song shake your whole body, truth or dare, the feeling of your heart pounding, the smell of gasoline


bear hugs, sunny afternoons, defending a friend, sleepovers, holding hands, platonic love, kissing your friend’s cheek, holding the door open for someone, bright colors, inside jokes, making friends


kissing in the rain, the rush of pride you get when you accomplish something, finishing a project, hushed whispers, being acknowledged, warming up after being in the cold , getting what you want, buying something new


the smell of old books, the sound of pen on paper, finally getting through a creative block, getting an A+, staying up late to study, writing poems, checking books out at a library, watching someone talk about what they are passionate about, classical music

  • Me: *inhales*
  • Me: I lo-
  • Anyone who has spent five seconds around me ever: yes, you love Anchan, we know, you love Anchan so much, she's the light of your life, you love her so much, you just love Anchan, we KNOW, you love Anchan you fudging love Anchan ok we know, we get it, YOU LOVE ANCHAN. WE GET IT.
There’s something incredibly fascinating and terrifying about having someone in your life for a while, and all of a sudden your relationship changes. Your best friend could be your boyfriend with one kiss, and now everything in your life is matching up. You can see why your heart was shattered your freshman year, and why you couldn’t hold back those tears in the hallway. You get why you had to fail that test, and why you would always hold open a door for a stranger, and it’s not because it’s the nice thing. Something inside you made you make that choice. Event after event, good and bad, memorable and distant has added up to this moment. I’m not saying I believe in fate, and destiny may as well be synonymous with a fairytale, but my God, this has to mean something.
—  Everything makes sense with you here

Zen is rEADY TO FIGHT NO ONE CAN HOLD HIM DOWN someone is going to catch These Fists ™ because you’re his damnit get away from my angel but he ends up just confronting the dude and telling him to back u p and nothing violent goes down thank god

Jumin is calm about it and just takes you and walks away but on the inside he is holding himself back from sending that man to a hospital he is 👌🏼👌🏼 this close

also will lowkey get that guy fired and make it hell for him to ever get a job again

Yoosung gets beat up because he tries to square df up and he has a black eye now poor baby he feels bad because he couldn’t protect you but then the guy gets arrested for assault so he’s chill about it but he’s still a small angry bean ready to fight ( and probably fail )

Seven and you look at each other then turn back to the dude and scream at the same time like a high pitched super loud scream and it scared the shit out of the dude and he’s out of there asap and you and Seven just high five it out for your diy cat-caller repellent but then the police get called because of that scream and you guys have to explain the situation and the police officer tells you to never do that again lmao