you have no idea how hard it is to edit her tho

Truth May Vary

Yes, hi, excuse me, passing through, dropping crap all over the fandom. 

Hi. So, I did the prompt! @pink-paladin-lance hope you like it, tho I didn’t made it as angsty bc I craved fluffiness and well, …yeah. Hope you like it anyways!

Ps. Long Post. So yeah! No warnings? Just mean aliens, psh. 

Nothing much to say? Enjoy! 

Disclaimer: Voltron doesn’t belong to me and the idea come from @pink-paladin-lance (:

Edit: ….Did i fixed it the damn problem or? 


“Alright! Another win for Voltron!” Hunk shouts animatedly as he wraps an arm around Keith’s shoulder, shaking him as he cheers, “Did you guys see how Keith dodged that laser beam when one of the Galras tried to sneak up on him? Keith, buddy, that was amazing! You totally flipped them!”

Keith laughs as he takes off his helmet and brushes Hunk’s praise off. “What? No, come on! Are you kidding? Were you even present when your Lion completely crushed that rock and saved the entire village? Because I was and it was out of this planet, man.”

“Okay, guys, but I think I speak for everyone that the best part was when we formed Voltron and we completely destroyed that Robeast because Shiro’s plan was on point!” Pidge cuts in, grinning behind her shoulder to meet their leader, “If it hadn’t been for your quick thinking, the battle would have taken a lot longer.”

Shiro chuckles from his place besides Allura and waves the compliments off with a hand. “No way. The plan was a success because your plants held the Robeast long enough for us to make a move, Pidge. You have been improving a lot since the day we found of about your Lion’s power.”

Lance watches from the sidelines as he stands besides Coran, a few feet away from the team. He smiles fondly as he hears them cheer and praise each other, their adrenaline and enthusiasm that always come from a winning battle still running through their blood.

“Wait, wait, but did you guys notice when Lance –” Keith’s sentence is suddenly cut off when the Prince of the Royal Family from the Kingdom they just saved clears his throat abruptly, catching everyone’s attention and making Keith’s proud grin to dim, replacing it with a frown.

“On behalf of my people and my Mother, I would like to express our gratitude towards the brave Paladins of Voltron who saved us today and forevermore, for it is their duty to defend and serve this Universe from the claws of evil.” The Prince says, voice high and powerful.

He stares into each of the Paladin’s eyes before they fall on Allura. “Princess Allura, please, as a thank you, allow us to escort you and the entire team to our Castle in order to present you an exquisite and well deserved banquet in your honor.”

Allura smiles and opens her mouth to respond but Lance’s voice beats her to it.

“Sure, dude!” He shouts happily, walking a few steps until he’s standing beside Allura and Shiro. “A banquet is always appreciated! I mean, Voltron really kicked some serious ass today if you know what I mean.” Lance can hear the way his team groan and chuckle at his words, too used to Lance’s cocky facade and he can feel Allura’s playful smack of her hand on his ribs.

Lance’s grin fades when the Price stares down at him unamused and something inside him drops unpleasantly.

“Blue…Paladin, of course.” The Prince says, a bore and uninterested tone on the back of his tone as he forces a rigid polite smile, “While I agree with you on the fact that Voltron surely won this battle by their own hands, I have to ask…”

He pauses, letting his words linger in the air as he takes a step towards Lance and clicks his tongue.

“Why are you on the team? I’m sure that your … talents, if you even have some, can be of much assistance back in the Castle.”

Lance’s smile falls and he hears the way someone behind him takes a sharp intake of breath but Lance doesn’t bother to turn around to found out who exactly.

“Well, I am the Blue Paladin. I have to be where the team is, of course.” Lance says, mouth twitching in what he hopes to be a smile but ends up being a grimace.

The Prince clicks his tongue once again and shakes his head as if in disappointment. “Ah, my apologies, Blue Paladin. I had just assumed that you were just filling the spot for the time being until the true Blue Paladin claimed the title.”

Lance doesn’t need to turn around to know what’s happening behind his back. He can feel the tense air that has settled on the team. He can hear the hard shallow pants from Hunk’s end as the Yellow Paladin tries to suppress the urge to lunge at the Prince. He can hear the soft faint sound of Shiro’s arm activating itself along with Keith’s bayard. He can even feel Pidge’s deathly glare that goes through him to get to their target that is the Prince.

He feels the grip of Allura’s hand on his suit tighten and the way Coran’s hand find its way until it’s resting on his shoulder.

But the Prince doesn’t. He doesn’t see, feel or sense any of what Lance does because they are not his team, they are Lance’s.

The Prince continues.

“No offense, Blue Paladin, but I had actually thought that Princess Allura here was the rightful Paladin for the Blue Lion. Having her leadership and power aside, she seems to be such a good fit for the title.”

Lance doesn’t disagree.

“Of course, I might be wrong. After all, there must be a reason why you are fighting besides Voltron itself. I speak out only because I believe your talents have been blurred by being surrounded by such powerful people and I’m merely concerned about the efficiency in future battles, thinking that your efforts may not be good enough –”

Lance can’t even come up with a response because suddenly there’s a body rushing past him and then Keith is standing there, pressing his Marmora Blade against the Prince’s neck.

“Would you like to say that again? Just to make sure I have the right motive to make you regret those words?” Keith hisses, face inches away from the Prince’s.

“Keith.” Coran calls, sharp and with a hidden warning, “Step back from the Prince, right now, Young Paladin.”

“But Coran –!”

Right now.

Keith growls but ends up taking a step back, his scowl deep in his face as he glares at the Prince from a distance.

“Prince Yult,” Allura says, voice tight and on edge as she releases Lance’s suit and takes a step forward, “While we appreciate your hospitality, you have no right to –”

“Princess Allura, if I may?” Lance cuts off, quiet but firm as he raises his chin high, staring at her evenly.

Allura stares right back, eyebrows furrowed in confusion before she nods.

“Prince Yult.” Lance addresses respectfully and waits until the royal nods at him before he continues, “I can understand your confusion about my position as a Paladin and your concern around the topic. My team’s talent and power is unmeasured and it’s not something anyone can live up to.”

“Lance…” Keith mumbles behind him but Lance continues.

“Which is why I must ask of you, not to doubt my team’s efficiency based on their one weakness that is me.”

“Lance, that’s enough.” Shiro snaps, low and dangerous but Lance doesn’t stop.

“Rest reassured, your highness.” Lance smiles, tight and forced, “That Voltron shall continue winning more battles and I will not be a liability to the team.”

“Buddy, come on, stop –”

“Now, if you excuse me, your highness.” Lance says, cutting Hunk’s plead short, “I shall take my leave. I’m sure the rest of the team would love to meet the Queen, but I sadly need to go back to the Castle and stand guard.”

Lance doesn’t wait for an answer. He turns around, ignoring the way Keith reaches out to him and how the rest of the team calls his name.

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Disappear like Smoke

is my writing still shit? yes. will i stop? no. will i ever edit my writing? probably not. warning for nsfw implied (also i promise this is hernst even tho there is melchior x ernst stick with me okay)

Everyone knew that Melchior Gabor smoked cigarettes. His clothes had the smell ingrained in them and his parents were never home to smell it. Not many people knew that Ernst Robel also sat on his bedroom’s window seat with him and smoked.

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galway girl [jacksepticeye x reader]

a/n; this is my first ever song fic and i can proudly say i had NO IDEA what i was doing…still hope you like it tho!!! <3

warnings; alcohol usage (heavy ups)

words; 2,415

prompt; Can you please please do a jacksepticeye x reader based on Ed sheerens song Galway girl and perfect. Plus they’re already together. Pretty please. Xx  ( anon )

MASTERLIST. KO-FI.

She played the fiddle in an Irish band
But she fell in love with an English man
Kissed her on the neck and then I took her by the hand
Said, “baby, I just want to dance”

He really needed a break, he kept telling himself. Really really needed a break. This whole Youtube business proved time and time again just how ridiculously stressful it can be and Sean felt like the walls of his office had started to close in on him. Pushing himself away from editing, he somehow managed to slip on his hat and rush out the door to greet the sunset before it faded into the horizon. The air was still pleasantly warm when he stepped outside, inhaling a greedy breath and immediately feeling much better. Taking a few more leisure steps down the pavement he suddenly remembered that he forgot to lock the door and had to go back.

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Gruvia and how to fix it

WARNING!! TAKE THIS POST WITH A SPOON FULL OF SALT BECAUSE SEEING FLAWS IN YOUR OTP DOES STING LIKE HELL.

Okay, as you all should know, Gruvia is my former OTP die hard ship. In recent months, I’ve realized that it’s not that great after all. I realized that the gruvia I love is not the one in Fairy Tail, but rather the one depicted in fanfics and fanart. I realized that the ship in canon is extremely one sided, damages ½ of the characters involved and is very forced.  A part of me will probably take this ship to the grave since I still can’t keep a straight face whenever they have a moment.

See, about 80% of Juvia’s current character is developed to gruvia or Gray in general which is not good for such a major character. Levy can get by with being attached to Gajeel because she’s not a major character, but not Juvia. AND practically all of the ship seems to favor her and only her in story. There isn’t any indication that Gray is getting anything from their close companionship besides discomfort in story for a long while. All of that equals a forced ship.

Before you read further, keep in mind that I’m not trying to bash gruvia or its supporters. I’m bashing Mashima’s writing and stating what I think would have made the progression of this ship smoother. In no way is this trying to disregard what happened in canon, I already know its too late to change anything. 

Now about how to improve it.

  • Give Juvia back her personality, relationships and character from Fantasia and Tower of Heaven arc. Have her function without Gray being in the equation somewhere. Show her having close relationships besides Gray, so that her crush on him is more of a character quirk rather than most of her character. (I would say that she has Meredy, but they get so little screen time together I don’t even know what their relationship is. ESPECIALLY Meredy because Mashima dedicated like 150 pages to jerza but couldn’t have more than 2 panels of Meredy and Juvia interacting??? Ditto for Gajeel. This is an element of Mashima’s poor writing style, unfortunately. It’s like how Lucy and Levy are supposedly best friends but almost never talk.) In turn, this will scale back the creep factor that’s ever present in this ship and will balance it out with character weight. You know when she was all shy and embarrassed to give him that lunch she made for him? That was the perfect balance. 
  • Scale down the obsessiveness and have it develop more like a relationship upgrade rather than Gray just giving up and settling because Juvia won’t leave him alone. If it’s supposed to be that Gray is slowly warming up to Juvia, then show it. Have him go from a blunt “no thanks, not interested” to a more tsundere attitude. Him bluntly telling her no then her persisting anyway is just her not having enough respect to listen to his opinions despite being in love which makes her affection seem a whole lot more shallow and ,surprise, one sided.
  • Go into detail about the relationship. Have them reflect on how the other person has helped them. Here, I’ll even give an example on the fly; Juvia loves and appreciates Gray for being her prince charming for taking her rain away because it made her depressed and isolated for the rest of her life. Gray appreciates Juvia because he knows she’s one of the people he can fall back on, she can lighten his mood when his thoughts get too morbid or he’s going through a tough time and generally makes him more cheerful/quirky. Seeing as Mashima has put so much effort into the ball of sexual tension and angst that is Jerza, he’s clearly capable of developing these things for relationships. He just…doesn’t for his other pairings.
  • Just let them talk. Have Juvia chill out for like 5 minutes and genuinely listen to what Gray thinks of her and her tendencies. And have Juvia explain exactly why she’s so devoted to Gray and how much it means to her. Because he has no idea what her thought process is and to him she’s just been this creepy stalker who won’t leave him alone and “loves” him. If she would do this, then that would explain why he could grow more receptive towards her affection.
  • When she starts getting close to him (say, Tenrou), have Juvia calm down with her obsession. Seriously. Tone it down from “obsessive and unable to function without him in her life” to “clingy” .
  • Honestly, Juvia’s character is like 75% of the problem with this ship. She’s like Sakura Haruno gone horribly wrong. Yes, Sakura chased Sasuke to the ends of the Earth despite him literally trying to kill her, but at least she 1) grew out of the puppy love stage and eventually genuinely wanted to save him from himself like Naruto and it showed 2) Had her own personality and relationships and was able to function without him there 3) Made an effort to search for him when he went missing //cough cough did it ever occur to her to go to sabertooth and ask for help? or to look for any of her former FT guildmates at all to help her?? like, a group manhunt is the next logical step up from looking by yourself, cmon-
  • I mean, she’s not even a yandere. At least yanderes are known for the badass and crazy lengths they go to for their love. At least yanderes has psychological layers and depth that many authors explore. Yet she’s not the love sick puppy character either. I wish she was one or the other instead of being stuck in this barely thicker than cardboard state.
  • Gruvia just seems to be an unfortunate victim of bad writing of all things. I’m not sure if there are major ft ships that are safe from this tho. 

EDIT: OK, so it seems that my passiveness for Levy has been taken the wrong way. And yikes this post has blown up. 

If you must know, no I don’t support the way Levy’s character has gone because of Gajevy. As opposed to Juvia who’s character seemed to become more revolved around her ship, Levy just kinda…slowly merges her existence with her ship. This problem is just a product of Mashima’s bad writing more than anything else tbh. It’s like…she keeps her personality and all that but now all of her major appearances come with Gajeel like they’re a pair set? I also noticed the strange, unintentional implication that she seems to be actively rejecting her own team in favor of Gajeel? (Why didn’t she go with them during the one year timeskip? They just had 7 years apart too?? And how much screentime does she spent with them vs with Gajeel?) The whole thing is really weird, especially since all the ship tease for gajevy came way before the fact that their first meeting was Gajeel kicking her ass and pinning her to a tree(?) was addressed. I like that it was addressed, but it really should have been so WAY earlier. That said, I don’t have many fucks to give about Levy, so other than those obvious faults, I don’t really care. 

Also, I don’t think this is anti gruvia…? I’m not hating on it or anything? It’s more like constructive criticism which DOES NOT equal hate. 

the best part about being a monster is not caring what happens to myself

Summary: In which Phil has synesthesia - an ability to “see” sounds and “smell” colours. However Dan has a secret, which is an eating disorder.
Genre: fluff & angst
Word count: 6.7k
TWs: swearing, vomiting, eating disorder
A/N: Huge shout out to @ohmygoyouguys​ !!! This fic wouldn’t exist if it was’t for her!

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why tog is shit

bc apparently there are still ppl trying to defend this series, here’s a list of just a few reasons why tog sucks (( ps: i am not hating on sjm ok?? calm urself i have n o t h i n g against her,,, just the books ))

edit: THIS POST IS A MESS. i wasnt gonna post it bc 98% of it is probably unintelligible, but so im sorry if u wanted an actual solid argument and not me just hella salty. my intentions aren’t to offend or shame anyone into having a certain opinion, these r just my thoughts n feelings on certain distasteful aspects of the books. this list is very unorganized as i suck at putting my thoughts into words & i didnt think anyone was actually gonna read it. so keep that in mind. thanks!

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theorilliaorange  asked:

(I'm sorry, I have like. 3000 questions for you) Your writing is so lively and vivid, what kind of things do you try to do/avoid to keep from getting too bogged down/being too descriptive/not descriptive enough? Do you have any recommendations for someone feeling like they're in a rut with their writing? Are there any authors/books that inspire you, particularly when it comes to writing smut?

Thank you, what a wonderful comment. I have to laugh though because I just spent my whole morning going “oh god there’s too much exposition in this scene, why, why can’t I just make this concise and aptly descriptive and move on with my life, whyyyyyy I am the woooooorst” and smacking my head off the keyboard.

So i guess in answer to your first question is “idk lol?”

I do tend to read things out loud though, it helps me find the rhythm of the words and cut out anything that sounds jarring or too fiddly. Sometimes I hate it to do it too because I really love a turn of phrase, but if it sounds out of place when reading aloud, then it has to go. I will keep it to one side however, in case there’s another time when I might use it. I have a whole word document that’s just filled with clever things I’m saving for rainy days.

As for being descriptive enough, I like to play with things like that because my inclination is to always gush about small details, even though I know it’s not always good for the narrative. So for instance in my current novel I have two main characters Vlad and Nathan. Vlad tends to be much more detail orientated than Nathan is, so if I want to go off and a spiel about how something looks, such as room furnishings or someone’s attire, I indulge in that through Vlad’s POV.

Nathan for instance, would never notice that Lady Katherine’s gown had pearl buttons at the cuffs, merely that she was wearing a blue dress and it suited her. He’d be more inclined to notice the brightness of a person’s smile over the polish of their shoes.

Vlad on the other hand might describe it as a confection of sky blue silks with a dazzling assortment of adornments, from the pearl buttons at her lace cuffs, to the blue sapphire brooch pinned to her bodice in a tasteful display of style and wealth. He might also note that the cut of the gown was several seasons out of date, but seen as how he’s wearing an eclectic mix of his favorite styles from the last century he’s hardly one to judge.

Doing it this way allows me to play more with my levels of description, without foisting a lot of descriptive narrative onto the reader all the time. It also serves to give the POVs a little more diversity and realness to them, as I often find when you get the same narrative focus from multiple different characters, it can be a little…well unbelievable I suppose. There’s no way Mister Darcy would look at a dress and see the same thing as Elizabeth would, what he might call frippery she might assess to be delicate. So play around with it, try to make it a part of your character narrative and not just you narrating descriptors at your reader, if that makes sense…

As for what to do in a rut, I’ve been severely depressed for months—everything has been a rut.

The way I coped with it creatively was to take my characters out of their established world and drop them somewhere new, or to go off on a tangent like I’m three books in and we’re all good and old. Basically I was writing fanfic of my own work. There’s a different sort of feeling to fanfic compared to the “pressure” of original content, which I am not sure if everyone else gets that feeling, but I used to feel horribly overwhelmed by the thought of “I’ll never compare to XYZ with my own work so I should just stay in this already nicely built playground and share it with friends”. So I’ve just stopped thinking of how much work I need to put into things in terms of world building, and act as though it’s already done. I write the characters like they’re well established and loved characters with many years of world building behind them. It seems to work in that it tricks my brain into thinking “this is still hard work but we’re not terrified to do this”.

One of my other favorite things to do is take characters on a lunch date, drop them somewhere nice like a cafe where they can people watch and do simple things like savor the rich taste of fresh coffee and indulge in internal monologuing which would otherwise bog down by proper narrative. I find doing this helps me to flesh them out more and I come back to my work with a better understanding of who and what I want my characters to be. I do this with places too, take a scene and describe at dawn, noon, afternoon, dusk and midnight. It lets me dilly dally and play with words until my brain clicks on something it likes and once that happens I just keep following that tangent until I find my way back in my narrative. Sort of like a shortcut on a map that ends up taking you the scenic route.

if I’m really struggling I put my work away for anywhere from a day to a month and come back to it with fresh eyes. I go do something else, either I work on something else or I spend my time reading and doing things I enjoy. Creative burn out is a very real thing, and while some people might be able to keep working through it and just keep pushing until they break through, some of us do need time to recharge. So don’t berate yourself for not always working on something. Sometimes the brain just needs to rest and reset.

As for smut, although I edited a lot of professional smut, I still find some of the best smut writers are fanfic writers. Probably because they do it for the genuine love of it and not “for easy money” which sadly a lot of published erotica writers do. There’s a lot of people who think it’s “easy” or like it’s cheapening to their “skills”—which frankly if you feel the need to degrade certain types of genres but you’re still willing to do it for the money, your skill probably isn’t as great as you think it is.

For published small time(ish) writers whose work I enjoy still, Tanith Davenport is a lot of fun sometimes, as is Sierra Cartwright who apparently now has a tumblr: http://devilsden-mastered.tumblr.com/.

Another writer I like to promote was Paige Turner but I currently can’t seem to find her work anywhere :( which is a shame because gay archeologists in the Victorian era was incredibly fun to read and edit.

As for fanfic writers whose smut I enjoy, I’m currently really enjoying @blustersquall‘s “What Lies Behind the Throne” a Dragon Age AU.

@bettydays fanfic and original work is frankly some of my favorite things at the moment, it’s very self aware and refreshing as well as packing an emotional punch of catharsis.

And @canistakahari ’s “here comes the spark” remains my firmest go to happy fic with smut. Like, it’s that one fic if I’m feeling down I just start reading it again and all is right with the world for a little while.

That said I don’t actually read a lot of smut, (perhaps because so much of it bothers me (dear god use lube, USE LUBE) after several years of editing and not being able to resist the urge to want to “fix” things.) instead I prefer to open up a conversation tab and harass either @renegadecupcake, @outsidershrine @jeneelestrange and occasionally @thehuxdeluxe on snapchat and inflict my own thoughts on them until they respond with something just as equally depraved and delightful. That’s always a fun diversion. Some of my best ideas have come from conversations that have started with me going “what if” and the other person going “oh no :)”

So if you struggle with writing smutty ideas, I’d highly suggest getting yourself a group of like minded people who don’t mind getting a text message in the middle of the night that says “how do we feel about gratuitous boot grinding and oral sex?” who may then reply “JOY IT’S THREE AM” followed by “what kind of boots are we talking about tho?”

I hope this helps? I never know if I’m giving useful advice or not, but I hope you’ll find some of it useful <3

tttickingcrocodile  asked:

Andreil prompt. Okay, so loads of people are in to Nicky making videos for YouTube or Instagram or just a video diary to send to Erik so what if he had been videoing but he hadn't gotten the hang of remembering to turn of the camera yet so when he was showing the foxes what he'd filmed he was about to turn it off since the video now just showed an empty room when Neil and Andrew came on screen. The foxes see a private moment between them accidentally filmed 💜

YAS! YAAAAS! SLAY ME! As soon as I read this, @a-la-krem​ and I had a long conversation that ended with both of us starry eyed and internally squealing. It’s not as fluffy as I thought it would be but massages are always fun ;) What I wouldn’t give to be in the room with them!

picture this:

  • Dan and Matt are coming to terms with the inevitable: Graduation.
  • Matt still has a year, but Dan is leaving in a few months
  • it’s not like they’ve never been separated before, but not really for this amount of time
  • they’re kind of bummed out and they go to Nicky

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anonymous asked:

Hello, it's the anon who sent the Sakura Trick opinion ask (I'm sorry again for sending it two times)... Thank you for providing a detailed opinion of it! I'm curious about which anime/animes (not even sure if that's the correct plural form) you think are a better representation of wlw.

lol you’re fine, i would’ve sent it again too if i wasn’t sure it sent. 

to answer your question, like i said, i’ll be the first to admit that there isn’t a whole lot to choose from with yuri in general, so when you wanna start adding in actual good rep and idk… morals.. to the checklist, the results are even slimmer so bear with me here. it is anime we’re talking about. 

like this might be a meme, but it isn’t a lie lol. 

so here’s the best i can do in no particular order (i’ll put it under the cut so this isn’t as long):

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My (very spoilery) Thoughts on Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice:

Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice a different movie. It’s emotionally heavy, it’s thematically dark. It’s daring and bold. Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice is important.

This is a movie about reality, about the consequences of actions, about seeking justice, and most of all, about hope; about the hope that inspires the characters to do good, and how that hope is taken away and given back, instilling the ideal for something greater. This idea is carried over from Man of Steel, but illuminated in such a different light.

SPOILERS below:

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aqua-kid  asked:

Im trying so hard to be a good person but fucking m u t u a l a b u s e. R e a l l y. U can like Jasper and admit she was abusive to Lapis lmao. :^) the next person that calls their relationship "mutual abuse" is getting punched into the ocean. :^)

((let me know if this isn’t okay to post, but i feel really strongly on this too. also wow…this got long…))

yeah exactly!! i feel the same way my dude. i really don’t have a beef with people who like jasper. like i get it, she’s a villain with a cool design and some of yall want her to step on you. it’s totally fine to be a fan of jasper, the problem only arises when people try to defend or excuse her actions instead of just saying “yeah, jasper abused lapis. i recognize that, and i still enjoy her as a character/hope she might get redeemed.” instead people are reaching so hard they injure their shoulders and pulling out every excuse under the sun to say that jasper is a good person, or that lapis was the abuser, or that they both abused each other. that just leaves a disgusting taste in my mouth, like they aren’t even willing to acknowledge that a character they idolize could have done something wrong. that’s so immature and childish, IMO.

there’s also the fact that “mutual abuse”, “two way abuse” and anything else you want to call it, doesn’t exist. it is not real. here’s some quotes about mutual abuse, from websites, etc. designed to help real life people recognize and escape abuse. bolded lines emphasized by me.

domesticshelters.org: “But the truth is, true mutual abuse is extremely rare—many experts don’t even believe it exists. And perpetuating the myth of mutual abuse is at best irresponsible and at worst dangerous.To say partners are mutually abusive or equal in abuse puts undue blame on the survivor… Acting in self-defense is sometimes mistaken for mutual abuse by outsiders.”

loveisrespect.org:  “The excuse of “mutual abuse” also allows the abusive partner to shift blame…One way to recognize the difference between an abuser and the person they’re hurting is the willingness to seek change. Admitting to unhealthy or abusive behavior, committing to stopping, reaching out for help and asking about the process of change are things that abusive people rarely do.” 

^ this one is particularly significant. in alone at sea, lapis talked about the bad things she’d done, such as stealing the ocean and breaking greg’s leg, showed remorse, and apologized. jasper didn’t do any of these things and didn’t even acknowledge her abuse towards lapis, instead trying to blame it on her.

stoprelationshipabuse.org:  “ The idea that lesbian couples are “mutually abusive” is one of the myths most dangerous to victims. It colludes with what an abusive woman is already telling her partner – that the violence is the responsibility of the victim. Abusive persons have an uncanny ability to frame themselves with charm and certainty as the true victims, and they pull others into that fraudulent reality. Without proper investigation, attempts to regain stolen power (self defensive behaviors) on the part of survivors can appear “mutually abusive.” But when a victim seeks help and is told that she is in any way (even equally) responsible for the violence, she hears that the abuser is right. The message is that she is to blame, therefore has the power to fix the violence, and she returns to her critical self-dissection which is encouraged by her partner. This keeps her more deeply trapped in the relationship, and consequently increases the risk of lethality. In addition, telling an abusive woman that her partner is equally abusive releases the abuser from responsibility, and eliminates any hope for accountability. She believes not only that she need do nothing to improve her behaviors, but also her sense of herself as victim is fortified.

^ sorry this one is so long, i didn’t cut any of it, but i felt it was important to include all of it because it fits jasper and lapis exactly. jasper blames malachite’s problems on lapis, making it seem as though lapis is the violent, monstrous force that jasper keeps a handle on. “i’m the only one who can handle your kind of power!” all of what this last paragraph says describes jasper to a T. she hasn’t acknowledged any of what she did to force lapis to fuse with her, and continued the same behavior, showing that she hasn’t changed in that regard. the part about the victim believing she can change the violence is also significant- “it can be better this time! you’ve changed me!” 

edit: the part with “attempts to regain stolen power (self defensive behaviors) on the part of survivors can appear ‘mutually abusive’” is also really important since a LOT of people have been claiming for a long-ass time that lapis trapping jasper in a fusion was abuse. it was not abuse- lapis was exercising the only means of control she had over the situation. jasper took power from her by forcing her to fuse, so lapis tried to take her power back by dictating how long they would be in that fusion. this doesn’t mean that lapis was right to do that, but it does mean that it was not abuse towards jasper, but self defense. and as i said earlier, lapis has since talked about this and acknowledged that it was wrong of her to do so. so jaspis shippers and jasper stans need to stop using that as an excuse.

jesus christo this is really long, sorry ryan for making your ask into this monster of a post. i hope this is helpful to some people tho, that it helps explain why people are so vocal about jaspis, and why it’s so dangerous to ship it or falsely claim mutual abuse even if it’s “just a cartoon”.

have a good day yall ^^

Something I noticed of Adam...

When Blake asked what was wrong, he said it was nothing and told her to prep up for the train raid.

When the lieutenant told Adam that they will find Blake, he tells him to forget about it and changes the subject.

It seems like Adam has a tendency to avoid the subject of when something is wrong or when something bad has happened. Like he’s always hiding something or not being honest.


UPDATE/EDIT: (During RWBY Volume 3)

Holy shit! I just realize something! If this does tend to be a thing with Adam,what if he does it again when he and Blake reunite? This might lead to his downfall or a major breakdown.

Like he and Blake meet up, and Blake knows there’s some shit going on in White Fang, and Adam tries to hide it and say nothing is wrong, because he is ashamed of what has happened and what it has become. But Blake doesn’t realize this and they get into a fight and maybe an emotional argument. And Blake’s totally gonna feel hurt again, but Adam probably feels worst

That he is just letting everyone down, that he let some random chick take over the White Fang, that a lot of White Fang members had to follow some human and get killed in a tunnel, that his men got hurt/killed(oh god does he know of Tukson’s fate!?!), that he failed his partner and is hated/disappointed by her, that he became weak and shit went down again. And he just too ashamed to ask for help. That pretty much, he FUCKED up everything. and he just breaks down and suffers for it. 

 Oh god….MAYBE THAT’S WHY HE TURNS AWAY FROM THE WHITE FANG AND BLAKE IN THE  VOL 3 OPENING! MAYBE THAT’S WHY HE LOOKS SO ASHAMED!!!! THAT HE CAN’T EVEN FACE THEM BECAUSE OF WHAT HE HAS DONE!!! Poor Adam!

ohmygod what is wrong with me?!?! why did I update this?!/!? aaarrggghhhh!!!!

UPDATE/EDIT : (After RWBY Volume 3 )

(Note: This update will be very long and wordy, so sorry if you get confused along the way. I have a hard time organizing ideas and putting them into words that make sense. I may have even made some mistake while making this XD. So if I made a mistake or something doesn’t make sense, please tell me so I can clarify and edit it. Hope you like this and Thank you@animemes420​ , Sorry it took so long! XD)

I would recommend reading the reblog comments of @the-stray-liger (as Damnian-wayne) and @tumnificent on this post. Read to understand the rest of what I’m gonna say as I continue with this.

They explain it/this post better than I can. What I was trying to say was along the lines of Adam being inexpressive. And more likely to keep things in rather than let others know about it/less likely to share it with others. Keep it repressed/under control, etc. that kind of character type. Almost like a lone wolf. One who deals with their problems without the help of others—either by confronting them or escaping from them, in their own way.

Anyways, this update is pretty much about how this characteristic is still relevant to Adam and how it ties to what I think happened to him (as of Volume 3).

If I was originally going to continue updating with this post during Volume 3,but I kinda got busy :P, I would’ve added a line that Blake said in episode 8, which supports this character aspect/tendency of Adam:

“I had someone very dear to me change, it wasn’t in an instant, it was gradual. Little choices that began to pile up. He told me not to worry.”

This sounds very similar to the actions he was doing in episode 7. Him doing exactly what Tumnificent and Stray said in their reblogs:

He thought he could handle whatever he was dealing with by himself without getting those he cares about involved or worried. He tries to solve it through his own way. He won’t admit that he isn’t in control of the situation or that it’s not going as he wanted it to go. He’s stubborn and refuses to reach out for help and it bottles up inside/piles up until he can’t handle it anymore (or until he finds a solution). ( the “bottling up until he can’t” part came from Stray-Liger’s reblog and the8thsphynx’s reblog). While it may not have been the best/right choice for Adam to make, he did it anyways because either he cares too much, is too confident/stubborn, or a little of both. etc. etc.

(I mean, this guy has some sort of leader/authority role in the White Fang, and he was Blake’s mentor/teacher, so that would give him a kind of sense of duty, responsibility, and overprotective mindset. A role to lead and protect his people. So it’s not like it’s out of the ordinary for him to do stuff like that. (Even in Vol. 2 episode 10, Blake said that Adam would always assure her that what they were doing was alright. To not worry and that everything was gonna be okay, etc.)

(I also have another idea to add on for why he does this tendency, but maybe I’ll make another post about it or should I add it to the update? idk do u guys/ @animemes420 want to hear it?)

I believe that he became the way that he currently(as of Vol.3) is through a long and gradual process. He’s too stubborn to change too fast.

Adam tried to stay control of the situation and of his feelings.

1.Being abandoned by Blake.

2. Being betrayed by Blake.

But it just kept piling up and was becoming too much and it was hurting so much. Episode 11 shows the repressed emotions and thoughts Adam felt.

You and I were going to change the world, (remember.)”

This could’ve been our day, (can’t you see that?)”

“All I want is you, Blake.” | “What you want is impossible. (But I understand.)”

“Why must you hurt me, Blake?”

When Blake abandoned Adam. While he was hurt, it wasn’t enough to motivate him to go after her. He didn’t have any plans to bring her back right away or to even go after her. And his reasons for that choice could vary. (Maybe he couldn’t accept the reality that she was gone and just buried himself in work so he wouldn’t have time to think about it and how it made him feel. Or maybe he was going to go after her eventually or he had hoped for her to return. Who knows). What matters is that Adam was upset when Blake left him for good, but it was not to the extent that he was in episode 11. It was only one contributing factor.

When Blake betrayed and came back as an enemy to them. She and Team RWBY attacked the White Fang, in Volume 1 at the docks and in Volume 2 with the train. They attacked them. Considering whatever role of authority he is in the White Fang, Adam cares for his White Fang comrades too. Blake is against something(the White Fang) she was once part of (against theirpeople),against people who also matter to Adam. Adam has to lead/defend his White Fang against those who oppress them. I think he was at least disconcerted, distraught, or conflicted, not just because they couldn’t handle them, even tho it’s true that Team RWBY whipped some White Fang ass, it was because this was personal. Blake was involved with these attacks. And he may have taken this to heart: That she was okay with attacking people she once knew and grew up with, that she would be okay with hurting him. It probably felt more humiliating and hurtful than anything a stranger human could ever do to them. Because that kind of pain doesn’t come from enemies, it comes from those you love. And he still loved her).

(If he had hoped she would have returned then all that hope is gone. If he was going to go after her later, then it would have been pointless now.)

He’s upset that they can’t be together again because of her betrayal. He understands that it’s hopeless, but he can’t help himself that he still yearns to be with her. Which gives off/causes him this bitter longing and tension, another possible factor he is trying to deal with.

He’s angry because he couldn’t let her go, he didn’t want her to leave. He couldn’t move on from her like she did with him. He reached out for her.

Adam is frustrated and angry because he still has feelings for Blake. He is frustrated because he cares for both his White Fang comrades and for Blake. But he can’t have them both.

(And if u noticed, most of these problems are coming from Blake and the White Fang and have little to nothing to do with Cinder and the other bad guys. Sure they may have contributed, but not as much as Blake was. )

(Now I’m also sure that Cinder had some involvement with this on a certain level too. But Cinder is another contributing variable to consider in this mess, and I don’t want to get into that until we have more evidence to back it up. Well I mean, she already does, with her coming back to coerce Adam and the White Fang to work for her. So maybe he’s pissed at that too and that things aren’t going the way they should have gone).

(Now this part is pretty speculative and I’m not 110% sure for this but i’ve written possibilities for it)

When he asks why Blake betrayed them, it could have been a genuine question.

Adam most likely knew that was Blake’s Semblance. After all he has been with her and fought alongside her for a long time. He should know that. He was also pretty slow when he was going to decapitate her head. So it’s possible he expected her to run. Or hoped for it to be a shadow clone. He wants to hurt her not kill her, for now.

If the case was that Adam knew it wasn’t Blake (her semblance clone), maybe he wasn’t really asking her and he said it to himself. Which is relevant to this characteristic of not sharing it with anyone but himself.

If the case was that maybe after a long time he just wants to know. To hear the truth from her voice, like he has given up. When she didn’t respond he didn’t want to see her again. And again maybe expected her to run.

(Or maybe he lost control of himself and didn’t mean to kill her. Like in the heat of the moment.)

Okay summary time.

Because of his tendency, he kept them all in and didn’t share/express it with anyone but himself. Adam was consumed by these problems and emotions so much, it was what hurt him even more. They just piled up/bottled up inside until he couldn’t take it anymore. 

He was too reliant on that unhealthy tendency and mindset.

(And that’s all I have. Hope this was okay. ^ _ ^)

(And as for that last update, it (the emotional breakdown) could possibly happen in Volume 4 or a future volume. Shame is when you look back at what you did and feel humiliated by doing such foolish and wrong actions that you did. And I think Adam hasn’t gotten there yet, he hasn’t realized how much he has screwed up.(Or he knows that what he is doing is wrong but he can’t do anything about it. So if this was the case, he is just hiding it or maybe it hasn’t ‘broke’ him fully yet Or maybe he thinks he can still solve it, idk). However it seems that the writers aren’t going to do it yet. They seem to be making Adam do more stuff that he’s eventually going to feel ashamed of later. On top of things he has done in the past.) Right now he is angry and upset, and that could add on to his shame/breakdown, if it will ever happen. Perhaps later on, he’ll eventually wake up, realized how far he has fallen, and become regretful, and it could still work. He needs to feel what Blake feels and be regretful of his actions. Which hasn’t come out of him yet. Also Adam has only gotten back into the series present, and as of now, anything can happen. He may or he may not. We’ll have to wait and see.)

Intentional SQ: 12. Designated Love interest

Boyfriends Edition: Hood

“A character in a story who, despite being presented as the One True Love of a central character, doesn’t seem to have much of a relationship with said character at all. The catalyst for the relationship appeared off-screen before the series began, and save for maybe an occasional over-the-top gesture, never really appears to manifest. This isn’t a matter of their love being subtle — it’s more like they just kind of know each other but since he’s a dude and she’s a chick, they must have some sort of romantic attachment to each other because it’s a law of the universe that opposite-sex-characters are always involved in romantic entanglements. Ultimately, this is a romance of necessity, not in the literal sense, but because of the assumption that the story needs a romantic plot or sub-plot to move forward.”
 -http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/DesignatedLoveInterest

(#ship and let ship   #my take on Hood+Reg)

That paragraph sums it up. I believe OQ to be a “romance of necessity”  which side-effects include having it come off as  Shallow   to the viewers. They “needed” Regina to grasp once again her “happy ending” only to take it from her. (that’s what inspired this show: the long-life struggle/idea/conflict that:  No matter what an evil queen does, she can’t obtain happiness.)
That’s Robin’s only function in the Grand Scheme of the show! To sort of dangle this embodied idea of happiness in front of her, in a physical form; An obtainable form, and see her squirm.  Sadly, that doesn’t make this relationship any more real or palpable to the audience. It doesn’t have dimensions. They just met.  I can only see the relationship through the eyes of Regina, since she’s the character I know.

While i do want her to be happy and any scene of Regina kissing AnyThing is “A-okay-fine-by-me-keep-it-coming-two-thumbs-up” a “Good”scene! 
As a swen i have a better contender for Regina’s heart in mind. 
I have a better relationship in mind, one with: ups and downs and breath taking moments: 
with triumphs.  And battles.  
With a devotion, i’ve personally experienced, watching them
a teamwork they’ve struggled with
with sacrifices
A “contender” who Validated regina, when they weren’t even in friendly terms
Who both have been selfless
who have formed a familiar bond
and have developed a support system, within each other.
Who Found in each other something they both thought they’d never have:  A companion.
In a person they initially despised, they found someone to trust.  
(Im so gay!!!! i feel so many butterflies writing fluff)
While I Was THERE, right along with them, sheering them on.
And all because, a little boy, brought them together, and so both their journeys began….
And the list goes on and on and on and on
(It’s hard to compete with that. No matter how many penises you have)

The most “famous/engaging/developed” story in Ouat is Regina’s happiness/redemption arc. People are meticulously looking out the outcome of this 4-season-long story. (Some Reg fans ship OQ cuz a happy reg = content fans)  (Others actually like robin.) (Others opposed robin cuz he’s not good enough. “Regina deserves better”)

A Shallow Designated Love Interest for regina presents a problem, to the show as a whole. Since it might not satisfy the audiences long stretched anticipation of reg’s resolution. 

(Now, that i think about it I’d hate for them to dangle emma back and forth as reg’s idea of happiness, as they have with robin. I’m really exited to have lived their journey. And savour every moment and subtle changes/stepping stones in their relationship. i admit i enjoy the slow burn, i’d prefer a canon slow burn but thats off topic.)

To see her lay all her hopes of happiness in the “oh, so happy life” she is to live with a Stranger, it’s kind of insulting. Tho, i understand her desperation; I’d much rather see her discover that the happiness she strives for, she already has, as she continues to forge her love with emma and have the consequential familial unison/bliss their love will extend to with their son. Im smiling like a fool

Ouat, have Reg be happy off the fruit of her labors, off something she actively worked for, not pixie dust.

Hook and Hood (or as i like to call them “the penis” and “the other penis”) make it very easy for SQ to find reasons against them, cuz they are minor characters. While their window-display version of “love” comes off as flat and sterile. Swen, as an audience, sees a bigger picture within the story, one without the limitations of heteronormativity. One where this “i have a penis, please love me” justification for true love, just doesn’t cut it anymore…

Not after “You’ve worked too hard to have your happiness destroyed” is what emma gives her life for.

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So.. I basically reached the 500 followers mark, and I’m??? I don’t even understand why y’all are even following me?? Like, I’m barely here because I’m a busy as fuck mun?? Ahhh T_T I wish I could roleplay with all of you.. Like any other person, I have my mood swings and just sometimes don’t want to come online to roleplay. It’s just a hobby, right? I feel like Caleb’s developing more and more thanks to all of you! I feel really comfortable roleplaying him, even though there are times in which I could just slap the fuck outta this boy- but don’t we all wanna do it sometimes? I’m sure as hell I ain’t the only one feeling this urge. I wanna thank you guys for giving me an amazing roleplay experience. I hope my writing doesn’t confuse you, though- I’m an ESL mun, obviously still learning English, and I wish to improve my writing skills! I hope you guys help me with my wish~ ANYWAYS, below are people that have made my stay amazing and/or are close to Caleb!

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She.: Part 2 (Harry Styles Imagine)

She.: Part 2                    

Part 1

Because…

IfY/N closed her eyes, rested her head back and just focused on Harry’s steadybreathing, she could almost forget what happened not even an hour previous. But then she would get flashbacks of Harry’s soft eyes peering into her own as he held her up by her shoulders and everything comes back to her.

Because this is what she remembers.

“Y/N darlin’, ya’tired love, y’don’t know what ya doin. It’s all right lovely, y’drank a lot too. Its OK darlin’”

His forehead is still resting on hers and she didn’t want to open her eyes yet because it would make it real. It would make the rejection real. He had managed to pry her hands off his face and grip her wrists together tightly, pressing them to his chest so she could feel his heartbeat. She can also recall that it hurt knowing it wasn’t beating for her  

She wanted to scream ‘I’m not tired at all and I knew what I was doing, nothing is alright and nothing is fucking OK’

 But she knew; she had already done enough tonight.

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