you have emotional problems

su crit: *points out legitimate problems of the show like the ignorance about framing a human zoo as a utopia, the disregard of characters like Bismuth and the Rubies, the over coddling of Pearl, how the Diamonds are being framed as sympathetic despite being tyrants, the dissolving characterization, etc etc*

su stans:

su crit: lol Lapis’ color scheme is bright. Also I didn’t like this one episode because-

su stans: WOW look how petty this wannabe crit is if you don’t like the Best Show then stop watching l m a o

anonymous asked:

I like Mary. I think she's awesome. I don't see why she has to be evil.

Oh, boy, okay.

Listen you can like Mary all you want – I loved her too before the fucked up her entire story arc – but her entire arc was building up to be a villain, and a badass one that was going to go down with a fight. 

I’m REALLY not trying to be pedantic here, Nonny, but asks like this force me to pull out receipts, all of which I’m sure you’re not going to read, because who likes to be proved wrong, but I digress. I always end up sounding more harsh than I am when all I want to do is educate you on my perspective and what the narrative is teaching us.

THAT’S Why she’s a villain. When a character kills the title character of a show, they are coded as the bad guy unless they do a redemption arc that actually is a redemption.

Mary had NO redemption arc AT ALL. Even in S4, Mary is STILL manipulating and emotionally abusing Sherlock and John against each other with her fucking creepy-assed DVDs and her belittling of John in T6T. She still runs off to go do her little assassin things and still lied and manipulated everyone. And I know the argument is going to come up, but Mary’s gunshot was NOT a redemption. A redemption arc has the ex-villain doing a good deed and being genuinely sorry for their past actions. Not ONCE Mary has ever apologized for any of the shit she put everyone through. All of it was a plan, especially if she had creepy DVDs made FAIRLY RECENTLY (you can tell because of the hair style) to send out to people. Also:

YOU ARE EVIL IF YOU ACTIVELY OR POSTHUMOUSLY TELL SOMEONE TO GO KILL THEMSELVES.

That and Mary’s entire death scene was RIDICULOUS and completely contradicted EVERY rule that was established in this universe only 2 episodes prior on how characters die.

Nonny, Mary’s character arc is one I have been passionate about for many years, even before I was a Johnlocker, because her character was fascinating to me, and helped me understand the psychology and make sense of events that were happening in my life at the time. Right up until TAB, Mary was being coded as the next Moriarty. For some reason or another, Mofftiss decided to turn her into an “assassin with an heart of gold” and failed spectacularly.

If Mary truly was good, she WOULD HAVE TOLD JOHN FROM THE BEGINNING WHO SHE WAS, OR AT LEAST TOLD SHERLOCK SHE NEEDED HELP. HLV would have not played out as it did. Instead deciding that killing Sherlock was her only option so that she could continue to manipulate John, since she knew he was most malleable when he was grieving Sherlock.

You can read Mary’s character however you want, I could care less… well okay apparently I do because of this reply… But please, seriously consider that what became of her character really made no goddamned sense to the narrative arc the built for her and quite frankly really lazy writing. Just because she is a woman, doesn’t mean that she is nice and sweet and not abusive. Excusing her of her brand of emotional abuse and manipulation is really sexist.

People thought my mother was a nice person, too.

INFJ with Emotions
  • INFJ: oh yeah, I'm a very emotional person. Discussing emotions is very interesting to me and I think it's healthy and important to sort through emotions and talk them out when you have problems going on that are making you stressed, nervous, or anxious.
  • Negative Emotions: *show up*
  • INFJ: conceal don't feel don't let them know

Hello everyone. I hope you’re having a good day, and honestly? I hope you’ve no need of this spell, but I’m sharing it anyways, just in case! 

This spell is designed to be used in situations where you are overwhelmed with negative emotions, but are not in a position to process them just yet. I’ve done this a few times over the years, and it can be very helpful in managing your emotions and getting things done in times of severe stress!

The goal of this spell is not to bind yourself or permanently cut yourself off from your emotions. Rather, the goal (and effect) is to chill yourself and your emotions a bit for a temporary period so that you can solve problems. Then, when the time is right, the chill thaws, and the emotions flow back in gradually so you can process them.

The best thing about this spell, though, is that it’s great quick magick to do when the need arises, and doesn’t require fancy tools. It relies solely on visualization. While you could bring materials into it (more about that soon!), the core of it is visualization and feeling energy, so it’s very easy to do discreetly and when necessary.

The only material I’d recommend using would be a small bit of ice. The ice can help with the visualization and channeling the forces involved, but it isn’t necessary. 

If you are using ice, begin by touching it, feeling it, and putting the image of the ice strongly in your head. If you’re not doing that, do the same from memory, conjuring up images of cold, snow, ice cubes, and other elements of winter and freezing. 

Hold those images in your head. It’s actually pretty important in this to localize the sensations and images to your head to begin with, and to not let them completely permeate your entire being. Just imagine that your head is a sort of ice block, or filled with snow, or other cold substances.

Then, when you have the image fixed strongly in your mind, begin to gently (very, very gently - I must stress this) flow the ice energy downwards from your head, so that it sweeps down through you chest and into your heart. 

Don’t just dump it there - gently flow. You do not want to shock you system, but you do want to feel the flow of cold and coolness spreading through your chest.

 There’s no need to pull it further than your chest. After the power has saturated your heart area, you should feel a bit calmer, and your emotions should be more in-check, less overwhelming. 

When you’ve reached a safe point where you’re no longer forced to be in crisis mode, you can perform the same visualization, but with fire and heat instead of cold. Again, gently flow the energy down into your chest (again, very gently) and the emotions will “melt,” allowing you to slowly process them.

Weirdly, this spell does occasionally have unintended consequences, and seems to be actually able to alter weather patterns/temperature in you environment. Both of the most recent times I performed this spell were followed quickly by a cold snap here in the city. Just keep that in mind if you’re doing this!

I hope this spell is useful to you, but obviously I do hope you don’t often have cause to use it. I realize the concept of the spell (freezing yourself for a bit) seems scary, but think of it like cryogenic sleep for that part of yourself. 

It can be quite helpful, and is especially useful to do right before falling asleep if your worries and concerns are preventing you from resting. Mostly, though, I recommend it when your emotions are in turmoil, but you have work/problem-solving to do! 

Thanks for reading! Blessings to all who wish for them!

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btvs + aesthetic | watcher & slayer

Wesley:  I didn't say you had emotional problems. 
I said you have *an* emotional problem. It’s quite different.Giles:  My 'attachment' to the Slayer is not a problem. 

✯ ——— FIGHT CLUB SENTENCE STARTERS.

’ Lose an hour, gain an hour. ’
’ This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time. ’
’ Do you hear me now? ’
’ Okay, I got it. Shit, I lost it. ’
’ Fuck off with your sofa units and strine green stripe patterns. ’
’ Guys, what would you wish you’d done before you died? ’
’ What are you doing? ’
’ Fight Club was the beginning. ’
’ Turn the wheel now, come on! ’
’ You have to know the answer to this question! ’
’ If you died right now, how would you feel about your life? ’
’ I wouldn’t feel anything good about my life, is that what you want to hear me say? ’
’ Now, a question of etiquette - as I pass, do I give you the ass or the crotch? ’
’ I didn’t create some loser alter-ego to make myself feel better. ’
’ Hey, you created me. ’
’  Take some responsibility! ’
’ This is it - ground zero. ’
’ Would you like to say a few words to mark the occasion? ’
’ People are always asking me if I know, _______. ’
’ With a gun barrel between your teeth, you speak only in vowels. ’
’ I can’t think of anything. ’
’ I wonder how clean that gun is. ’
’ Ah… flashback humor. ’
’ This is crazy… ’
’ People do it everyday, they talk to themselves… ’
’ Fuck damnation, man! Fuck redemption! ’
’ Listen, you can run water over your hand and make it worse… ’
’ Look at me… or you can use vinegar and neutralize the burn. ’
’ First you have to give up, first you have to know… not fear… ’
’ Candy-stripe a cancer ward. It’s not my problem. ’
’ You know why they put oxygen masks on planes? ’
’ In a catastrophic emergency, you’re taking giant panicked breaths. ’
’ That’s, um… That’s an interesting theory. ’
‘ I’ve got a stomachful of Xanax. ’
’ I took what was left of a bottle. It might have been too much. ’
’ Your whacked out bald freaks hit me with a fucking broom! ’
’ It’s getting exciting now, two and one-half. ’
’ I ask you for one thing, one simple thing. ’
’ Now answer me, why do people think that I’m you. ’
’ Why do people think that I’m you? Answer me! ’
’ Why would anyone possibly confuse you with me? ’
’ My God. I haven’t been fucked like that since grade school. ’
’ I am Jack’s smirking revenge. ’
’ Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who’ve ever lived. ’
’ I see all this potential, and I see squandering. ’
’ All the ways you wish you could be, that’s me. ’
’ I look like you wanna look, I fuck like you wanna fuck. ’
’ I am free in all the ways that you are not. ’
’ They’re gonna have to open my pecs again to drain the fluid. ’
’ It’s only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything. ’
’ What’s the smell? ’
’ Is that your blood? ’
’ Oh, it’s late. Hey, thanks for the beer. ’
’ I should find a hotel. ’
’ Three pitchers of beer, and you still can’t ask. ’
’ You call me because you need a place to stay. ’
’ Yes, you did. So just ask. Cut the foreplay and just ask. ’
’ Would - would that be a problem? ’
’ Can I stay at your place? ’
’ Is it a problem for you to ask? ’
’ You’ll wear leather clothes that will last you the rest of your life. ’
’ I felt like destroying something beautiful. ’
’ You’re not how much money you have in the bank. ’
’ You’re not the contents of your wallet. You’re not your fucking khakis. ’
’ You’re the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world. ’
’ When you have insomnia, you’re never really asleep… ’
’ Listen up, maggots. You are not special. ’
’ You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. ’
’ You’re the same decaying organic matter as everything else. ’
’ On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero. ’
’ The first rule of Fight Club is: you do not talk about Fight Club. ’
’ Man, you’ve got some fucked up friends, I’m tellin’ ya. ’
’ The things you own end up owning you. ’
’ Well, what do you want me to do? You just want me to hit you? ’
’ C'mon, do me this one favor. ’
’ How much can you know about yourself, you’ve never been in a fight? ’
’ I don’t wanna die without any scars. ’
’ So come on; hit me before I lose my nerve. ’
’ Who gives a shit? No one’s watching. What do you care? ’
’ Whoa, wait, this is crazy. You want me to hit you? ’
’ Motherfucker! You hit me in the ear! ’
’ Strangers with this kind of honesty make me go a big rubbery one. ’
’ God Damn! We just had a near-life experience, fellas. ’
’ Like a monkey, ready to be shot into space. Space monkey!  ’
’ Ready to sacrifice himself for the greater good. ’
’ Are there a lot of these kinds of accidents? ’
’ One could make all kinds of explosives, using simple household items. ’
’ How’s that working out for you? ’
’ You have a kind of sick desperation in your laugh. ’
’ This is not the worst thing that can happen. ’
’ There are things about you that I like. ’
’ Yeah, you’re sorry, I’m sorry, everybody’s sorry. ’
’  I can’t do this anymore. I can’t. And I won’t. I’m gone. ’
’ You’re smart, you’re funny, you’re… spectacular in bed… But you’re intolerable! ’
’ You have very serious emotional problems. ’
’ Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken. ’
’ You’re not getting this back. I consider it asshole tax. ’
’ Why? So you can pretend like you’re interested? ’
’ Do not watch. I cannot go when you watch. ’
’ I’ve got some good news: I no longer have any fear of death. ’
’ I ran until my muscles burned and my veins pumped battery acid. ’
’ After fighting, everything else in your life got the volume turned down. ’
’ Well, technically, I have more of a right to be there than you. ’
’ It’s cheaper than a movie, and there’s free coffee. ’
’ Look, nobody takes this more seriously than me. ’
’ You need to forget about what you know, that’s your problem. ’
’ You met me at a very strange time in my life. ’
’ Life insurance pays off triple if you die on a business trip. ’
’ Yes, these are bruises from fighting. ’
’ I got this dress at a thrift store for one dollar. ’
’ Someone loved it intensely for one day, and then tossed it. ’
’ The ability to let that which does not matter truly slide. ’
’ You don’t know where I’ve been. ’
’ You’re the worst thing that’s ever happened to me. ’
’ Would you excuse me? I need to take this. ’
’ Uh, well… You’re not gonna believe this… ’
’ I know it seems like I have more than one side sometimes… ’
’ I’ll carry you - kicking and screaming - and in the end you’ll thank me. ’
’ Every evening I died, and every evening I was born again, resurrected. ’
’ When people think you’re dying, they really, really listen to you, instead of just… waiting for their turn to speak. ’
When you’re in an ill mood, learn to pass it off as simply that: an unavoidable human condition that will pass with time, if you leave it alone. A low mood is not the time to analyze your life. To do so is emotional suicide. If you have a legitimate problem, it will still be there when your state of mind improves. The trick is to be grateful for our good moods and graceful in our low moods - not taking them too seriously. The next time you feel low, for whatever reason, remind yourself ‘This too shall pass’. It will.
—  Richard Carlson
(Request) Ours

Title: Ours

Characters: Daryl Dixon x You/Reader

Requested by: @hey-douchepool

Can you do a Daryl one shot, where Daryl and Y/N were together before the apocalypse and like Daryl is being distant and Y/N has a flashback of a fluffy moment between them before the apocalypse and she gets sad and he assures her that just because things are different doesn’t mean that their relationship is different. Love you and your blog

No warnings! Totally SFW :)

Note: This reminded me how I’ve always loved writing fics for Daryl! I love me some Daryl fluff. Enjoy reading! xoxo

And oh, if anyone wants to be tagged in future Daryl fics just drop by my ask. :)

Italicized paragraphs are flashbacks.

It had been an exhausting day for you since you went on a half-day run with everyone else, but you still came back feeling giddy. You had come across a bar and found a case of your and Daryl’s favorite beer and it was little things as such that somehow made you forget about the end of the world. After organizing all the supplies that you and the rest have gathered, you quickly took two bottles of beer and looked for Daryl.

You found Daryl just outside the house you shared, cleaning up his motorcycle in all his sweaty glory. You bit your lip and blushed when you remembered your first meeting with him. It also happened on a scorching hot afternoon, your car broke down and was towed into the nearest auto shop where Daryl happened to work at. You spotted him almost immediately, clad in a sleeveless plaid button down and work pants, his eyes focused on the bike he was working on. You chuckled to yourself, it almost felt like déjà vu.

Keep reading

send me one (part one).
  • 001: name your favorite television/movie character.
  • 002: what was the last emoji you used?
  • 003: if you had to makeout with the last person you interacted with via your phone, would you?
  • 004: do you prefer to be hot or cold?
  • 005: do you always sleep with a fan on?
  • 006: what's your favorite brand of water?
  • 007: do you watch grey's anatomy?
  • 008: name a song lyric that will always speak volumes to you.
  • 009: do you have a problem talking about feelings/showing emotion?
  • 010: how do you arrange your contacts in your phone?
  • 011: what's your zodiac sign, and do you think it fits your personality?
  • 012: what was your dream job as a kid, and what is it now?
  • 013: do you think you could survive during a zombie apocalypse?
  • 014: did you ever go through a "phase" ?
  • 015: have you ever struggled with your sexuality, and have you come to terms with it now?
  • 016: would you prefer someone to answer you with "yes", or "yeah"?
  • 017: if you had to pick a holiday to have been born on, which would it be?
  • 018: what's your opinion on body art?
  • 019: do you have a lot of friends, or do you wish you did?
  • 020: what's your favorite swear word?
  • 021: tell us the best advice someone ever gave to you.
  • 022: do you get car sick?
  • 023: what is your ideal date?
  • 024: would you dare go cliff diving?
  • 025: dogs or cats?
  • 026: are you allergic to anything? if you are, what are you allergic to?
  • 027: if you could change one thing in the world, what would it be and why?
  • 028: if you were a fictional character, which one would you be?
  • 029: has there ever been a time that you went through that you can now look back on and smile because you made it through it?
  • 030: rate your self-confidence on a scale of one to ten.
  • 031: do you believe that therapy is a thing that can actually help someone?
  • 032: what's your opinion on naps?
  • 033: do you know who alecia moore is without googling her?
  • 034: are you the type of person that can say "fuck it" or do you stress?
  • 035: what's your favorite out of the three: aliens, ghosts, or serial killers?
  • 036: what part of the world are you from, and what part of the world do you want to visit?
  • 037: do you know what 'cerulean' is? without googling it.
  • 038: do you believe in relationships, or would you rather hit it and quit it?
  • 039: are you fake-friends with anyone?
  • 040: do you lie a lot? are you a good liar?
  • 041: what's your favorite hex code color?
  • 042: do you have any siblings? are you close with them? or do you wish you had some?
  • 043: did you ever do that thing where you put glue all over your hands and then pull it off?
  • 044: do you have any habits, bad or good?
  • 045: does having red hair automatically make you not have a soul?
  • 046: do doctors scare you?
  • 047: have you ever had a moment where your life flashed before your eyes?
  • 048: what's your everyday outfit like?
  • 049: kissing or no kissing on the first date?
  • 050: what's your dream vehicle?
Being married to Halfdan the Black would include :

(Woooo more Vikings prompts! Aawwww Halfdan :3 Hope it is as requested and you all like it :3 Gif not mine/found it on google/credit to the original)

-Him still being nervous about holding your hand when you are both alone because he feels you are so delicate, but having no problem during feasts where everyone can see you both

-Him loving all the attention you pay to him since you both got married, especially the morning kisses

-Him keeping you to his side, even sitting you on his lap, during feasts with the others as he wants them to know that you’re taken

-Him opening himself up to you and having no problems with having emotions and feelings as you hold him in your arms

-Him keeping you safe during fights and always telling you that no matter what he loves you, in fear he might not make it back

-Rough sex, passionate sex and anything you would want from him because he just loves you too much

-Him having no problem telling his brother to keep his eyes off of you and sometimes even getting into a fight for it

-Him trying to do sweet and romantic gestures just to see your smile and how happy you are, as well as to get a hug from you

-Him telling you how beautiful you are to him every time you would lay on his chest as he strokes your hair, making you look up at him and everyone who would walk pass your tent to laugh

-Him admitting to you that he wasn’t sure of having kids but that since he has met you, he would want just as many that would make you happy

Healing/Energy Reading: Energy System Checks

An energy system check is what an advanced healer does when healing. This involves looking at the energetic points and pathways/flowpaths in your body to assess where blockages/anomalies are. This is just about checking/reading the system; actually performing healing will be detailed in another article.

Pre-requisite/related info:

You will need: decent energy sensing skills, and your intuition.

1. Have something that aids in the visualization of their energetic system: Of course, if they’re physically right in front of you then that serves as the best visual aid. However, when doing this from a distance, you may need something that can help you visualize it so you can focus. I find that the best method is through a drawing of a generic energy system map, as shown above. Cleanse the map beforehand, then “copy+paste*” a portion of the person’s energy onto the map, into the Heart Point**. This makes the map represent the person, and you will be able to do the sensing through it, lowering the amount of energy and concentration the healing will require (you will still need both of those of course, but not the massive amount that it takes to visualize the map in your head the entire time.) Example of a map is above.

2. Gaze at the map; feel it and use your intuition to find out what doesn’t “feel right”. You might not see anything on the map with your physical eyes, and in fact you don’t need to. Take your fingers and lay them on whatever portion of the system you want to check on, and then “feel” for what’s there; again you will need to use your gut/intuition for this. Something HEALTHY should feel like energy is flowing smoothly, and not too slowly or quickly; it may feel like a river or flowing water to the touch. Something UNHEALTHY will feel abnormal, to both your intuition and to touch. Some examples would be feeling no energy flowing at all, itchy feelings, rock/completely solid things. Again, you will need to use your intuition because there could be exceptions, but those are some basics.

3. Talk with the person; tell them what you sense. If you are correct, 9/10 times what you describe will make sense to the person, even if they don’t really understand energy systems too well. Be transparent and detailed about what you describe; “I think there’s a rock in your Heart Point. This could mean you’re holding onto a grudge, or having some other problems with emotion that you have trouble letting go of.” Most of the time, if you explain it well, they will agree- which means you are most likely correct in your intuition. To be able to interpret and describe, know what the basic meanings of each point/flowpath are, and think logically- rocks are hard to remove, and they take a lot of time to form, which could equal a grudge/general stubbornness in moving on from that issue.

4. When finished, cleanse the map/other representation you used for this healing. This is so that your current person’s energy doesn’t affect the next energy system reading you do. You don’t need to throw away the map and draw a new one each time, just cleansing it will do. 

*To copy+paste energy, grab onto and take small portion of that person’s energy (with their permission of course), then place that small orb of energy onto the Heart Point** of the map. You can grab on through any active representation of them; I find that their icon in a recently used instant-message system (such as tumblr IMs or Discord) tend to work very well.  

**Because the Heart Point is the most central of the points, and where all energy flows through to circulate through the rest of the body.

This is just a how-to on the reading portion; I will detail healing in another article. And of course, you will need to practice, practice, practice, to git gud at this. We need more healers in this community, so I hope this was able to help and inspire a few of you!

Request: Bts reaction to you being able to change your mood really quick. Like you were loud and hyper but suddenly became all serious or smth like that. Pretty please


Namjoon: He’d understand that you can change your moods quite often. Namjoon would sometimes get frustrated because of it, but, at the end of the day he’d understand.

Originally posted by pjkook

Yoongi/Suga: Usually when you ended up getting pissed off, he would get pissed off. If you were sad, he would get sad. It would just be a trail of the same emotions literally all day.

Originally posted by jeonbase

Jin: Being the sweet boyfriend he is, he’d do anything to earn that smile from you again. “Want a box of chocolate, jagi? I can also make you your favorite soup.” 

Originally posted by jinjks

Hoseok/Jhope: When you were happy one second and mad the next, he wouldn’t understand what to do. He’d admit some of your emotions were very confusing. But, he loved you either way.

Originally posted by jeonsshi

Jimin: Most of the time he’d get concerned as to why you’d do that. He think to himself if you have some condition or problem when it comes to your emotions. He’d be entirely confused.

Originally posted by kths

Taehyung/V: “Does jagi need a hug?” Tae would happily ask as you were storming around your shared apartment completely stressed out and pissed. When you came into his arms he’d have a huge grin. 

Originally posted by kths

Jungkook: He would understand your emotions just like Namjoon, but instead he wouldn’t know what to say or do. He thought if he said the wrong thing he’d make you more mad. 

Originally posted by sugutie

cr to the owners of the gifs. Guys JJ is back on track today and will be posting quite some few stuff. Send in your requests! 

-JJ

His Dirty Little Secret

Chapter 18

“Because of us”

Warning;sexual content…

Luke’s Pov

i stood in the background of the party just watching.

Mikey was grinding against a girl i’ve seen him with before, i think her name is crystal she’s older than us.

i lost Cal 5 minutes in till the party when i arrived.

he’s either fucking some girl or laying sleeping somewhere drunk.

Ashton is somewhere around here.

he usually doesn’t get drunk at theses party but he is the sociable one, we can always count on him being the one who gets us home.

i know i brought my bike but i can just collect it tomorrow before school, this party isn’t far from where i live.

i’ve just finished my 5th drink and i’m starting to feel it.

i walked back into the kitchen for a refill when i felt someone touch my arm.

“Hey Luke” the girl said

oh i know who that is..

“Ashleigh what are you doing here?” i asked her as i refilled my drink

i didn’t need to turn around to talk to her, she is probably wearing a really short dress.

“i got an invite just like everyone else.. why don’t you come dance with me?” she said trying to pull me around

i pushed her hand of me and turned around and said “ no, go dance with someone else”

i turned back around and took a sip of my drink then she spoke again

“what’s going on with you lately? you never turn down a dance and i know your not sober” she said

i rolled my eyes as i turned around and yes i was correct she is wearing a very short dress, i’m not impressed.

“nothing is wrong with me, i just don’t feel like dancing right now” i said then i walked past her and outside the back

i found Ashton so i walked over to him and to who ever he was talking to.

i don’t think i’m going to stay here much longer.

“Hey Luke” Ashton said as i approached him

whoever he was talking to walked away and it was just me and him now

“Hey bro” i said

he looked at me weirdly and then asked “What’s wrong?”

“nothing” i said to him trying to play it cool but it’s hard to do that because Ashton knows when i’m talking crap.

“somethings up, it’s not hard to tell your not you’re self” he said

maybe telling someone will help and he doesn’t go to our school so he won’t know who she is.

but what the fuck do i say? how do i explain what’s going on..

“it’s nothing man” i said

he will never understand, i don’t even fucking understand.

“are you sure?” he said

ugh okay i’ll tell him.

“okay but you can’t mention this to Mikey or Cal alright” i said to him

he nodded his head so i began to tell him all what’s going on..

“your not serious?” he said

i thought he was going to be on my side..

“This is why i didn’t want to tell you, you wouldn’t understand” i said to him

i threw my red plastic cup on the ground and went to walk away but Ashton stopped me

“it’s not that i don’t understand man, i just can’t get over you telling her that you used her when you clearly like her, fuck what other people think if you like this girl who for it” he said

i was going to speak but he continued talking

“to be honest i’m surprised you like a girl at all”

the fuck?

“what’s that suppose to mean?” i said to him

he looked like he was going to laugh which was starting to piss me off then he started speaking

“i know i haven’t known you that long but even i know you have a problem with emotions, i mean when we met you had already fucked 3 girls before you came to practice” Ashton said

i rolled my eyes at him and said “well i hate to admit it i’ve changed, before tonight i hadn’t had sex or fucked a girl in weeks”

he smiled at me making me feel uncomfortable then he spoke

“i’m proud of you man, i really want to meet this girl who has got Luke hemmings wrapped around her little finger” he said smirking

he’s right Hailey really has me wrapped around her little finger and i’ve fucked everything up.

i said bye to Ashton and i left the party sober.

i had enough of that party.

….

thank god i don’t have a hangover because my bike wouldn’t fucking start this morning and if i had a hangover i think i would have broke it.

i had to walk to school but luckily i got there before 9 o'clock.

of course my mum did offer to help but i was in to much of a bad mood that’s why i decided to walk to school.

i really wanted to go over to Hailey’s and offer to walk her to school but after last night i thought that would be a bad idea.

after that talk with Ashton i have decided i’m just going to try to distract myself with girls today to take my mind away from her.

maybe give her some space for a while even though i don’t want to.

she probably won’t show up because of me, because i am such a dickhead and lied to her.

ugh why did i have to lie to her.

“i thought you would have dying this morning” Cal said as i stood beside him and the others outside of school,we were all having a smoke before the bell rang and i was just standing out here to see if Hailey was coming to school.

i’ve smoked 2 cigarettes and she still hasn’t showed up..fuck!

“Looking for someone Luke?”

yes.

Hailey’s Pov

“As a date…” i stuttered

i couldn’t believe he’s asking me out.

this has never happened before, yeah a month ago i would have been going crazy but everything with Luke

do i even want to go out with Neil?

but then i remembered exactly what Luke told me last night

“yeah would you like to go on a date with me?” Neil asked

i could tell he was nervous and i knew the whole class was listening

i think i’m going to cry.

i turned to see that yes everyone was watching including Luke, he looked like he could murder someone

he isn’t jealous is he?

i turned back to Neil and said “i would love to”

i walked into Art class with every eye on me, this is so awkward!

i sat down in my seat i sat in earlier, i wasn’t going to sit near Luke or Calum at all.

i thought that maybe they wouldn’t say anything but of course 15 minutes into class the teacher said that she was just popping out for a minute and of course Calum spoke

“So little virgin has a date” he said as he walked over to where i was sitting

ugh why now!

i turned around to see Luke behind him and he didn’t look happy but right now i didn’t care.

“So what?” i said to Calum

he smirked and then he leaned against my desk as if he can just do whatever he wants

is he forgetting what happened in the bathroom?

Luke doesn’t know about that still.

“i’m surprised Neil wants to date someone who is so fridget” he said

oh now i’m pissed

“oh so is that why you kissed me 2 days ago because i’m so fridget?” i said back to him

his eyes widened but Luke looked even more pissed

opps.

“WHAT?” Luke said loudly he was looking at Calum who for one had nothing to say

“Mr Hemmings and Mr Hood sit back in your seats” the teacher said as she came back into the room

i smirked at both Luke and Calum as they sat back down.

that felt so good.

Luke’s Pov

she can’t be foreal!!

she can’t seriously want to go on a date with him.

she’s mine.

fuck! Luke no she isn’t!

she will be mine.

i shouldn’t have lied to her last night, maybe i will try to talk to her later at Lunch and get her back..

what the hell am i saying??

oh fuck it!

she walked in and sat in the seat from earlier, why the hell is she sitting away over there.

she’s too far away.

i know i hurt her but really? does she need to stay away from me this much.

i rolled my eyes as Cal got up i knew where he was going, ugh why did the teacher have to leave?

“So little virgin has a date” Cal said loudly making everyone stop what they were doing including Hailey.

i followed Cal over to her and she turned to look at us, she could see i didn’t look happy because she gave me a weird look and i’m not happy.

she shouldn’t have agreed to go on a date with him.

she’s mine.

“So what?” she said to Cal

he leaned against her desk and i just stood beside him staring at her, she hasn’t looked at me she’s only focusing on him.

“i’m surprised Neil wants to date someone who is so fridget” Cal said

i wanted to laugh but i didn’t.

i really wanted to say she wasn’t a fridget at all especially after last night.

fuck i can feel my jeans tighten at the thought of her moaning my name again.

“oh so is that why you kissed me 2 days ago because i’m so fridget?” Hailey said

what the hell?

what is she talking about??

“WHAT?"i said out loudly, i couldn’t help it i was confused as fuck and Calum stood there saying fuck all

so is it true?

did he really kiss her?

fuck! why am i only finding out now?

"Mr Hemmings and Mr Hood sit back in your seats” the teacher said

fuck i didn’t even hear her come in.

me and Cal turned and walked back to our seats but i wasn’t going to let this go.

the bell rang meaning Art was over, Hailey rushed out of class i bet so i wouldn’t talk to her but i was going to leave that to later i want to find out from Cal what happened.

we walked out of class and off to our next class which was History and he’s awful quiet.

does he like her?

i hope to fuck not.

she’s mine.

“so Cal did you kiss her?” i asked him as we walked to history class

he looked around to see if anyone was listening, what the hell?

“i regret it okay it was a spare of the moment thing” he said

i still need more.

“when was this?” i asked casually trying not to seem bothered by it because i really was.

i wanted to hit him.

“Just leave it man,why do you care if i kissed her anyway?” Cal said as he got to class

he walked into class annoyed,i can’t tell him why i care so i just shook my head and walked in and sat down.

it’s going to be a long day.

i need to talk to Hailey badly.

Hailey’s pov

Finally it was lunch time and i could finally eat.

although i know Lauren and Sophie are going to grill me for answers about last night so i took my time walking to the canteen.

i made my way to the bathroom first and i just walked in when someone else came in behind me, i thought nothing of it until i heard the door lock

i turned around quickly to see Luke standing by the door.

ugh i thought he would leave me alone from now on since he just “used” me.

“ come to use me some more?” i said to him as i looked at him

he didn’t say anything for a minute and then he moved towards me but i didn’t move back because i wasn’t going to show him i’m scared.

i’m done playing this game with him.

done.

“when did Cal kiss you?” he asked as he stood in front me of

i couldn’t help but smirk, i knew he would be bothered by that.

but why didn’t he ask Calum himself?

“why do you care?” i asked him

he moved closer making me strain my neck to look at him

“tell me Hailey” he said sternly

okay well he asked.

“it was right here, he came into the girls toilets after me and he pushed me up against this sink and kissed me..hard!” i said slowly and smirking

Luke looked disgusted, i don’t know why though he used me so..

he backed away from me finally and then he spoke

“I’m going to kill him”

i screwed my face up at him, i don’t understand why he’s reacting like this..

“What for? he used me just like you have” i said then i turned and went to walk into a stall and i just made it and managed to lock the stall before Luke could stop me

“open the door Hailey” he said

i made no such movement.

“Let me explain okay” he continued

ugh

“explain what? you told me all what you needed to say last night,just leave me alone” i said

he banged on the door making me jump fuck!

“i lied” he said

i stopped breathing.. what did he say?

he lied?

i don’t believe him

“Lied about what?” i said quietly

i heard him sigh and then he spoke “ okay yes at the start my intentions were to use you but things changed”

i don’t believe him

“how do things just change?” i asked him

i feel like crying right now

“because i got to know you” he said

i unlocked the door and pushed it open to find Luke staring at me then things just happened so fast.

Luke grabbed my face and pushed me against the wall and kissed me but he pulled away too quick

“do you regret last night?” he asked

i just shook my head because i didn’t trust my voice right now

he leaned his head against mine and then he kissed me again hard

“you drive me crazy, you are mine and no one else’s got it” he said

All I could do was nod.

his hands gripped my hips and my breath got quicker as we kissed then his hands moved up more then soon he gripped my top and pulled it over my head resulting in us breaking away from one another.

we locked eyes but I couldn’t take it no more when I looked in his eyes I saw how much he wanted me and that was enough for me to grab his neck and bring his lips down to mine again.

I loved kissing him.

I loved the feel of his hands on me, I wanted no one else but him.

I was going to make sure he knew I wanted him and only him.

He pinned me up against the wall more and licked my bottom lip begging for an entrance which i granted.

“ i need you so bad” He said

I wanted to fuck him really badly,Luke detached his lips from me which I was sad about because I didn’t want to stop kissing him.

He smirked at me and I said “ What are you going to do about it Hemmings?”

I moved my hand down his body until I got to his pants and I grabbed his growing bulge.

“ I want to fuck you right here so bad” Luke moaned while I massaged his bulge.

I leaned in and our lips almost touched and then I said

“ Then fuck me” and then I leaned back.

He smirked and said “ Oh dont worry baby I plan too” he went to unbutton his jeans and then I stopped him and then I bent down and said

“ Let me help with that”

I pulled down his jeans along with his underwear making his erect cock spring out of his boxers.

FUCK! I never wanted him more.

I loved seeing Luke like this.

I wanted to see him like this everyday.

I massaged his cock while I stood up.

“Hailey what if someone catches us?” Luke breathed

I couldn’t care less if someone saw I wanted him now.

"You locked the door remember but we need to make this quick” i said

he smirked at me and he grabbed both my boobs over my material of my bra in his hands hard, it didn’t hurt it just turned me on so much so i tighten my grip on his erection

“ I am going to make you feel so fucking good baby” Luke moaned.

He stopped touching my boobs and then he unbuttoned my jeans and pulled them down along with my pants but not off, this needs to be quick.

A cold breeze hit my legs but I didn’t care I knew I was going to get warmed up soon.

Luke bent down and he started licking my Vagina.

Fuck me.

My hands went in his hair, gripping and pulling because FUCK ME this felt good.

Luke took more one lick before he stood up.

“ Jump" he said.

I jumped on him wrapping my legs around his waist.

His hands went to my ass, he grabbed my ass and spanked me.

I could feel how wet I was.

” Hurry up and fuck me hemmings" I moaned.

He positioned his dick and at my entrance and we locked eyes.

He pushed in while staring at me, I couldn’t help but moan his name.. “ Luke…Shit…”

Once he was in me, he began to thrust into me.

I bit my lip because fuck me it felt like fireworks were going off inside of me. It felt better than the first time. I never wanted this to end.

“ Harder” I moaned

Luke ran his tongue down my neck and started to suck making goosebumps appear.

“ Fuck me harder Hemmings” i moaned again

i needed more. I needed more. I wanted more.

He started speeding up thrusting harder “ Fuck” he moaned as he kept going.

“ Fuck Hailey ” Luke moaned while I was digging my nails into his back.

“ I’m gonna cum” I said

“ Shit me too” Luke said

He thrusted harder and harder and then I couldn’t hold it in any longer.

“ I’m cumming” I yelled

Fuckkkkkkkk!

“ Fuck Hailey I’m gonna cum” Luke said while I was coming down from my high

I kissed him and said “ Cum for me Luke” he came when I finished saying that.

“FUCKKK”! He moaned….

We were both breathing heavily trying to calm down. I was still wrapped around Luke, his arms were around my neck and my arms were clinging onto him while he was still inside me.

the bell rang meaning lunch was over.

fuck sake!

i know my friends are going to kill me and i’m sure people have been wondering why the girls toilets are locked, i’m surprised we haven’t heard any knocking.

Luke let me down and it suddenly got awkward, we started putting our clothes back on and i didn’t know what to say until Luke spoke which i was happy about.

“your not actually going on this date with Neil are you?” he said

i wasn’t expecting him to say that

i turned around as i put my top on then i spoke

“why wouldn’t i be?” i asked

he screwed his face up and i almost laughed i love seeing him jealous.

“because of us?” he said as if we are together which we aren’t

“we aren’t together Luke, if your aloud to do what you want then so am i” i said then i turned around and unlocked the toilet stall door and walked out over to the sinks and started washing my hands.

i looked up after i finished to see Luke standing behind me through the mirror,we locked eyes and then he spoke

“please don’t go on this date” he said


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anonymous asked:

Ok here is my request! Headcanon for the boys + Leiftan to realize they fell in love with Guardienne? And do they give her hints?

Hi sweet anon I really do not understand the part of “Do you give her hints?” But I will try to at least write the first request. I am sorry! English, English … The first big challenge you gave me! Haha <3

Nevra.

• Be really behind you EVERY time. And if he knows that you have forgiven him after a situation full of bad blood. Yes, do not breathe because it does not see you. It’s for your sake.

• Be loyal to you in any situation.
• “What do you need? ”“How you feel?”
• You may miss some dialogue known from memory to another girl outside you, causing you jealousy. But let’s agree that it is sure to be your cousin or an old friend.
• A very spicy cinnamon roll.
• Tell you what you ask, always leaving you with the doubt, anyway.
• Hysteria in jealousy, beware of the great bum nevra bum walks on the acres.

Ezarel.

•  WHY

• Sleepless nights and nights thinking that you can not carry the weight of-be so wonderful-be a leader on guard, take care of you, and also have a greater weight on your emotional problems revolving around you

• DO NOT
• The whim of feeling nothing to you is insurmountable
• If you are in the same room as your platonic love and you get closer to talking better disappears if you do not want to stay outside the CG
• An idiot and abusive jokes all the time.
• Alone alone will seek to have a little of your approval without being on the defensive.
• It is love through actions and cold details.

Valkyon.

• “Would my body alone be enough?” OK no
• If you fancy many invitations to walk outside, with the excuse of some response to your question - just spend time with you.
• Touching and rubbing all the time, that man can not keep his hands still. - especially in public -
• Details made by hands and not. Many.
• Maybe you can draw a picture, or show him notebook, but that is a matter of great trust and loyalty -hhhm, lysandro-
• Comparisons to you almost always, can not hold a conversation without naming you.
• Very proud, anyway.

Leiftan.

• Busy man, many gifts.
• A thousand ways to tell you that you appreciate every time you see.
• Kisses and cheesy scenes down the aisles. -The thing has to be quick, before then touch, marriage?
• “Get a room!”
• Fantasies with you about the future you want to have with you.
• “Do not go” “I’m sorry…”
• Insecurity for moments not lived.
• Many appointments on the beach, and especially under the moon.
• Spending the day doing productive things together is normal.
• He loves having you close to her job. Miiko will have to adapt.
• At night, dancing in the gardens does not sound too bad.