you guys my heart

I’m screaming

You guys I feel bad about just now realizing this but

Um, we hit 2000 followers a few days ago? That’s insane. And I honestly don’t deserve it because I haven’t posted anything in ages. And I haven’t posted anything in even longer whoops. But!! I am currently working on my write-a-thon fics as you’re reading this, since I decided to do it after all. I have my friends to thank for giving me help and encouragement in my time of need, otherwise I’d probably still be in a slump. 

Anyway, I’m not really good with words and I’m kinda in awe right now but I just want to thank you guys, from the bottom of my heart. You are all so amazing and I love every single one of you <33 

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.