Turns out there’s a reason they call it falling in love, because when it happens - really happens - that’s exactly how it feels. There’s no doing or trying, you just let go and hope that someone’s going to be there to catch you.
How do you make the corners of your bias tape so clean? Im drooling over how good they look!
Thank you!! I’m pretty proud of them because this time last year I had only recently learned to use bias tape properly at all, and I only learned the mitered corners some months ago, aaaand I’m amazed at how easy it is now that I know how to do it.
To learn it, I deferred to quilters! Quilters are the goddesses of these things. I find in the cosplay community there’s a tendency to look for “cosplay tutorials” when really, quilters, crafters and home sewers’ blogs are great resources.
I’ll stitch myself back together. Thread by thread. Learning who I am with each stitch. Pulling myself together without him. Letting the memories go. Letting the memories go. Oh please let the memories go. He doesn’t love you. He doesn’t want you. Let the memories go.
Skye came from nothing? She grew up believing she’d been abandoned. The nuns were cruel but she managed to come out of that with the belief that God is love and love is what holds us all together. She had her heart broken when she was rejected by a family she desperately wanted but instead of her heart turning cold she found strength in it.
She never stopped searching for the truth and along the way tried to fight for the greater good and when it became clear she’d gone about it the wrong way she didn’t make excuses, she just threw herself into working for the good guys. She brings joy and strength and light to the people around her. She sees the good in everything. She inspires others to do the same.
When she found out the truth it didn’t break her, it gave her purpose. She chose to find the good in her situation. She could have been angry but she chose to be like ‘no, you know what, S.H.I.E.L.D. kept me alive, they are my family, I am dedicated to being here for them’.
Even when she’s scared she puts on a brave face. She is capable of playing people but she doesn’t because she’s compassionate and sweet and there is an amazing strength in that. She’s smart but she doesn’t show it off. She and Jemma are genuine girlfriends, there’s no petty bullshit. Even with May who was sleeping with the man Skye is in love with there was no jealousy, she just let it go.
Skye is just amazing and people don’t like her I just…how?
So heey, the chapter is finally here! i’m so sorry for the delay, i really didn't have enough time to write, sorry, anyway, i hope you like it, byee
I grunted as I turned around to turn the alarm clock off. I stood up and before I could actually open both of my eyes, the depression hit me once more. I sighed as I stormed down the stairs. Monday again, I had begged my mother to stay home today with the excuse that I was ‘sick’ but of course, thank to her mother instinct or something, she could detect my lie. Sunday was depressive actually, Isaac and Jen kept calling me but I ignored their calls. Even Gilinsky and Johnson called me, but there was no trail of Sam. I spent most of the day in my bed, the covers up to my nose, crying and eating, basically. And although Tyler had asked several times what was wrong, I kept brushing it off.
“How are you darling?” my mother asked as she served a dish of eggs and toast in front of me.
“Fine, my headache is still here though, and you won’t let me miss school for one freaking day”
“It can’t be that bad honey, you will feel better later”
“Sure I will” I rolled my eyes.
I stepped inside school and I was hoping so hard not to meet anyone, especially Sam but I knew that was mostly impossible given the fact that we shared several classes. I looked trashed, I had bags under my eyes that I wasn’t able to cover completely with makeup and my eyes were puffy and red.
I grabbed some books out of my locker and headed to my first class. I was one of the first ones there so I picked one of the last seats in the room; it felt like my first day again. As I waited the bell to ring, I kept overthinking and analyzing the conversation.
“Why are you mad anyway? Its not like I cheated on you, after all we are not dating or something, right?” he almost shouted, my eyes filling with water again. Why was he acting like that?
I rubbed my eyes and tried to understand my situation. All I had been doing these days was to figure out how could I have prevented all these. All the things I could have done differently.
The bell suddenly rang and the classroom started filling up with people, I sighed as I opened my book. I felt as someone sat next to me.
“What’s your problem? I’ve been so worried about you, you haven’t answered any of my calls or text by the way” Jenn exhaled quickly, “I didn’t think you would be coming today, but Johnson told me he saw you getting some thing out of your locker, so I…”
“Hi Jenn” I said not wanting to talk to anyone really.
“Ok, y/n listen to me honey, we are going to figure this out, ok?”
“I don’t want to figure this out Jenn! The harm is done, and I just want to forget about it”
“Sam hasn’t been so good, actually”
“What do you mean?”
“He has been… sad?” she exclaimed, I opened my eyes. He felt bad about this? He couldn’t, he was the one who decided to go and make out with some slut. And I knew I was the one who broke up with him, but the one who had to be ‘sad’ didn’t have to be me supposedly?
“Isn’t he mad with me?” I asked now in a whisper given the fact the teacher had just entered the room.
“I don’t think so, I mean he must be at least a bit angry but I think he is kinda hurt” I sighed and hit my head against the desk. This sucked.
Jenn told me afterwards, that she was in my side because she didn’t approve what Sam had done and that I hadn’t done anything wrong, and she always was on the side of justice.
I sat in an empty table with Jenn for lunch, and some minutes later, Sam and the boys sat on the table right beside us. I didn’t know if they did it because they wanted to or because the other table available was the one next to Isaac and his friends, including my brother. I sighed and I could feel myself blushing as a knot started forming in my throat. I looked at Jenn with the hope she would do something but she just leaned in and whispered to ‘act normal and look at her all the time’. I looked at Sam slightly, trying not to get him to notice me staring. He did looked out of usual.
“So, is it true you brother got himself a girlfriend?” she asked trying to change topic.
“I don’t know really” I laughed, “He is not a relationship type of guy but whatever”
“They are whispering it’s Tricia Marshall, she is a good person though”
“I don’t know her” I shrugged and just then Johnson sat next to us in the table. He looked at the table in which he was previously sitting on and the Gilinsky and Scoot were looking at us too, while Sam kept his sight on his food.
“Ok, we really need to fix this y/n” he finally said
“You and Sam”
“What for?” I tried to act the colder I could, I didn’t know why I did that really, but it felt like the right thing to do.
“Come on, you had one little fight, it doesn’t mean you are completely over, and anyway you were like my OTP guys and we obviously have to take Sam’s side but you are our friend y/n”
I sighed because I realized it was true. After all, it was a stupid thing we fought over, but it wasn’t that I didn’t want to fix it, I just didn’t know how.
“So what are you proposing Jack?” Jenn asked curiously.
“You will start by apologizing and talking in a civilized way. And then I don’t know really, you should click back”
“He doesn’t want to talk to me” I said
“Yes he does, he really wants to fix this”
“I told you gurl” Jenn exclaimed resting her hand on my shoulder.
“He feels bad about what he did, really” Jack said sadly
“I do feel bad to”
“That’s why you should go back together!” Jenn almost shouted, “Come on y/n make the effort”
“The only problem I think, is both of them damn dignities” Jack sighed and Jenn nodded.
I was about to answer to that, when I heard shouts and claps from beside us. I quickly turned around and saw how a circle of people was gathered around something. I quickly headed there and for my surprise I saw a bloody Sam on the floor being punched but nobody else than my brother.