I was in love with you then and i have been this whole time. I worship you, you are a absolutely beautiful imperfect being that if i ever get any chance with you I’m happy. For all the years i have known you my infatuation never subsides. Even when we parted i said i love you. And if anytime any place i could go for you to say it again i would. I would run a thousand miles. I would do any thing. I am not worthy of your time or your presence but you let me. You come back again and again for reasons i dont know. Even when i say go away you come back. And for that i am forever grateful. You do not even know how much time i have spent thinking about you. Even when i thought i hated you, my absolutely adoration never went away. Even when you showed me your worst! When we both made mistakes we both kept coming back.
I am utterly madly and forever in love with you
And you deserve more than the world at this point
You deserve everything that anything has to offer.
You have etched a permanent mark on my life and how i am as a person. Even if all of this is for nothing. I learnt so much from you and what happened about myself and you then i could ever learn from someone telling me.
Ok I’m done now i just wanted to rant