you don't want to know where the hell i was going with this thing when i was 16

powerovernothing  asked:

First off, let me tell you, your fan fiction literally made my entire night and I just have it tucked away on my computer to reread because it was written SO DAMN WELL and IN CHARACTER AND OH MAN. I LOVED IT SO MUCH. YONDU'S WORRY WAS SO GOOD! UGH. But if you're still wanting prompts. How about -- Peter and Yondu get into a massive fight and they say things they don't mean, and they have to deal with the messy emotions afterward; as well as the awkward attempts to fix it.

Hey-o! Got that second one coming right up! :P

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He’s 16 when he tells Yondu that he hates him. Of course, he hasn’t ever exactly been ‘fond’ of the centurian, but he’d never said that he hated him outright until now.

The crew had just come back from an on-world raid, where Peter decided to disobey a direct order, and in doing so, botched the whole operation, but ended up saving Yondu’s life in the process. They got into a fight about it pretty badly when they docked for the night to check into a hotel.

“That was COMPLETELY unnecessary, Quill! You damned near got every one of us killed out there! The hell were you thinking, tryin'a cut the trip wire!?” Yondu cinched the ties around Peter’s bedroll a bit too tightly, absolutely fuming. By this point he was too angry to weave around the subject of their heist to any listening ears.

“I only tried to cut it because I KNEW you wouldn’t have made the jump! You would ended up pulling it yourself and getting hurt or worse if I hadn’t!” Peter raged in retaliation.

A few remaining crew members grabbing their supplies listened in on the fight for a moment, but then quickly moved on, lest they inquire the captain’s wrath. The only ones left in the docking hangar were Peter and Yondu.

“Boy, you need to learn to listen when you’re told not to do something that serious! Because out there, in the real world, there ain’t second tries, and when YOU screw somethin’ up, it’s YOUR FAULT.” Yondu threw Peter’s bedroll at him and stomped off towards the bunks of the ship.

“Where are you going??” He shouted in exasperation at the centurian. Their argument was far from over.

“I’M SLEEPIN’ ON MY SHIP! THAT WAY I DON’T HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU. GOD, I SHOULD HAVE JUST DONE WHAT I WAS HIRED TO DO WHEN YOU WERE A KID AND DUMPED YOUR ASS!”

It was completely in the heat of the moment, but even then, Yondu realized he shouldn’t have said that. He didn’t mean it. Quill was like a son to him. He’d saved him by keeping him, against orders. But he couldn’t turn around to face the young man. Not now.

He couldn’t see it, but he could just..feel Peter’s frustration.

“I..-” The boy huffed out. He sounded like he was crying. Or trying to hide it.

“I hate you.” And all it took were three words to wound Yondu as deeply as his words had struck the boy.

He didn’t turn around until he heard the teenager’s footfalls exit the craft.

All he could get out was a whisper.

“The hell have you done, Udonta..”

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It was late in the night when Kraglin came back to the ship. Yondu had just finally drifted off when the man came strolling into his room, taking a seat in the chair in the room’s opposite corner.

“Why you here? You forget somethin’?

“Just checking on ya, Cap'n. Sounds like you and Pete got into it pretty bad earlier.”

Yondu sighed and nodded sullenly, sitting up in the bed. He winced when he moved his bruised shoulder the wrong way.

“Kid’s pretty upset. He cried until he passed out. Must’ve been serious.”

“Said some things I regret, Krag.”

Kraglin nodded, listening at his captain spoke.

“Things like that happen, Cap'n. We’ve all done it.”

Yondu struggled with his next words, reliving the moment they were said in painful detail.

“I was just..I was so damned angry..I just couldn’t look at ‘im. He-..He said he hated me.”

“I’m sure he didn’t mean it none. He seemed like he was feelin’ pretty bad about it.” Kraglin rose from his seat and started towards the door.

“Kraglin, you think I messed it up with the kid? I don’t..I’m not exactly…father figure material.”

Kraglin paused, unsure of how to reassure his captain for a moment. But then he smiled, and spoke one last time as he walked out the door.

“Just talk to him in the morning. It’ll work out.”

Alone again, and now fully awake, Yondu was left to ponder his thoughts once more. Maybe think of a good apology while he was at it.

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He had the chance to make use of the apology he’d come up with at breakfast the next morning.

Peter sat by himself when they all went back to the ship to eat. He laid over the edge of the table, his bowl completely forgotten in front of him, even though it was full.

Yondu sat with some of his fellow Ravagers to eat, and then went and joined Quill after he’d cleared his dishes.

“What’s eatin’ ya, kid?” The Ravager king asked, his tone of voice gentle. Peter had been avoiding him all morning.

“Not the crew..yet.” The boy replied somberly, not even looking up.

“Hey, listen. I didn’t mean none of them things I said yesterday. I was angry, and scared..and stupid.”

Peter gave a short glance in Yondu’s direction.

“I was scared cuz I was afraid we were gonna get hurt when that charge went off from the trip wire. I was afraid you’d get yourself hurt. You were right there when it blew.”

Peter finally sat up and Yondu reached to put a hand on his shoulder.

“I’m sorry, boy.”

Peter sat silently a moment, taking a deep breath before he answered.

“I don’t..I didn’t mean..I don’t hate you. I’m sorry I said I did.”

“I know. I know. It’s ok, Quill.”

1. You have made it so far. You’re now 19 and you’re so strong babe. You have dealt with so much shit and you will continually have to deal with that kind of stuff but you’ve made it.

2. Your sex life does not reflect who you are as a person, it does not make you unclean or dirty and it should not be anyone’s business except yours.

3. He’s just a boy, I promise you’ll be okay. I know the way he kisses you now makes you feel like you’re in love, hell you may be getting there, but he’s just one boy and you’ll be okay when it ends.

4. You are a whole being. I know some days are really hard, but that doesn’t make you an unhappy person. It doesn’t make you depressed or bipolar, so stop trying to diagnose yourself. It’s just a hard day, week, month. It will be better.

5. Trust yourself. I can’t stress this one enough. You know what you’re doing. Listen to advice from others but it’s your life and you’re the one in charge. They’re not wrong for their opinions but you’re not either.

6. Find friends who make you feel happy. Simple as that. It’s going to be hard, and you’re going to have to put yourself out there but it will be so worth it. Don’t be around people who constantly bring you down. You deserve better than that.

7. College will be some of the best years of your life, so keep having fun. 

8. College is fun but remember why you’re there. You are there to grow and to expand your knowledge, you’re there to do the best you can so you can provide for yourself when the time is right. 

9. Stop procrastinating. Seriously, stop it. 

10. Take care of your body. I know getting up early to work out sucks but won’t it be worth it when you not only look good but feel good too? This is important.

11. You are growing and you’re becoming. Don’t rush it but also don’t fight it.

12. Not everyone is going to love you and not everyone is going to want to be your best friend. That’s okay. I promise you it is. You will find where you fit in. 

13. Call your parents and call your sister. They miss you. I know it’s not always happy times but they love you so much. 

14. Back to this boy. He’s lovely isn’t he? But don’t forget what kind of relationship you deserve. If at the end of January or beginning of February he doesn’t want to commit, you need to get out of it, we don’t need an Anthony 2.0. If he wakes up and tells you he’s not interested anymore you gotta know that it’s not you, you gave him so much love and he just doesn’t think he needs it. I know that it’ll hurt so fucking bad but you will be okay.

15. Don’t start a new relationship this year. It’s nice to feel wanted but you don’t need another person to make you feel that way.

16. Practice self love, this is probably the most important thing on this list. You are worthy of love and happiness but it needs to start inside first. You can’t rely on another person to make you feel that way.

—  16 things I want to remember in 2016

commutingtoreality  asked:

Thanks for taking prompts! Should I not be too late for this meme and if it please you, could I ask for a 16 RaphxCasey? I love when you make those two work hard, and nothing says "self-conscious turtle & boyfriend" more than quiet sweetness. Alternately, Apritello 17? If you already have your fill of requests, don't worry: I'll take my popcorn and enjoy with gusto the other prompts you choose to write! :)

16. when one person’s face is scrunched up, and the other one kisses their lips/nose/forehead 

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Raph’s known Casey for ten years, and in that time, Casey’s had twenty-seven jobs. They all start the same way: Casey comes slamming into the lair or April’s apartment, wherever everyone’s hanging out that night, and yells “My dudes! Guess who’s gainfully employed!”. Then he flexes for a while, invades someone’s personal space – usually Donnie’s, sometimes Leo’s – till someone bites the bullet and asks for the full story. 

Twenty-seven times Raph’s done this rodeo, and he knows exactly where it’s going to end. Maybe in three days, maybe in six months, but there’s only one place Casey ever ends up: fired. 

(”Does it ever bug you?” Raph asked him once, right after Casey was very politely asked to get the hell out of PetSmart and to please never come back. “Like, when April got fired from Trader Joe’s, she punched a hole in the wall.” 

Casey just shrugged. “I mean, yeah, it sucks, but I get it. Not many places are gonna be pumped about a cashier comin’ in with bruises all the time. Kinda scares the customers.” 

Both of them knew there was no way Casey was gonna stop what gave him the bruises, because Casey Jones is Lawful Stupid and would be till the day he died.) 

It’s different this time. Raph swings through the living room window, six pack under his arm and ready to huddle under a blanket to watch the game, just to find the living room empty. 

“Case?” he calls. “You there?” 

Something rattles in the kitchen. Raph heads in that direction, after a backwards look to make sure April’s door is good and closed. Not that he minds having April around, but he’d just rather not have her around being a turd about how the Rangers are going to crap out, again. Casey’s already enough of a headcase about them as it is. 

But April’s door is closed, and the only light in the apartment is coming from the kitchen. Raph walks inside to find Casey at the stove, glaring into a pot of boiling water, tapping a metal spoon against the side. 

“I’m here.” Raph drops the beers on the table and sits down in his usual seat. “What’s for dinner?” 

Casey ignores him to keep tapping the spoon against the pot. From what Raph can see through the heavy sweep of his hair, Casey’s scowling, face all creased up, like Donnie’s when some experiment dares to betray him by not succeeding immediately. 

“Hey,” says Raph, kicking Casey in the leg. “Anybody home?” 

“Jesus, Raph, I’m right here.” Casey shifts away. “And pasta, we’re doin’ pasta.” 

“Whoa, what crawled up your ass and died?” Raph reaches for a beer, because it’s obviously going to be that kind of night, and he might as well get started now. “I was just asking –” 

“Yeah, I know, and I answered.” Casey glares at him, brows low and mouth tugged down in a hard curve. “Or did you want me to read you the ingredients while I was at it?” 

Raph avoids feelings, talking about feelings, thinking about feelings, and having feelings as much as possible; that kind of stuff slows you down in a fight, when all you should be thinking about is how to take the bad guys down hard enough so that they don’t get up again. Do your job, do your best, and things will work out. 

He’s got feelings, he just doesn’t deal with them. But sometimes he makes an exception for Casey, because there’s a soft gooey center under all that hair gel and ego, and something in Raph – something just as soft, that he’s never going to admit to having – wants to make sure that nothing keeps Casey down for good. 

“You okay?” he asks, popping the cap off another beer and holding it out to Casey. “Because if you’re not, you should…talk to April.” 

Critical miss! yells Donnie inside Raph’s head. 

“Yeah, because talking to Little Miss Perfect’s gonna make everything all better. Thanks for that, Raph.” Casey takes the beer and drains half of it in a gulp. 

“Or you could talk to me,” Raph says in a rush, before he can stop himself. He scratches the back of his neck, not looking at Casey, and silently sighs in relief when Casey drops into the seat across from him. 

“I got fired,” Casey says, once he’s finished his beer. “Go ahead, I think it’s your turn for the I told you so.” 

Normally, Raph would be all over that, but Casey’s usually the one to start making fun of himself once the inevitable hits. He doesn’t try to boil spaghetti water with his brain, and he doesn’t shit on April. And this job had meant something to Casey. Raph’s a dick, but he’s not an asshole. “I’ll pass,” he says. “What happened?” 

Casey’s scowl deepens, hard lines on either side of his mouth and at his eyes. “Came in late and beat up one too many times, same as always,” he says. “Can’t have the kiddos seeing their coach all beat to hell. Bad example. Or that’s what the school board said.” 

There’s a beat of quiet, then Casey drops his forehead to the table. “Fuck,” he says, muffled by the wood. “Just this once, I thought I was doin’ something good.”

Raph squirms in his seat. It sucks for Casey, more than anyone can say, but he’s got no idea how to handle this. How pathetic is this, that Casey’s his boyfriend but even Donnie could handle this better? 

Casey stays facedown on the table, his hands clenched in his hair, till Raph feels the irresistible impulse to stand up, lean over the table, and lift Casey up by the shoulders. 

“You were doing something good,” he says, the words nearly choking him. “They’re assholes. I’m sorry.” 

And then, because Casey’s still scowling and Raph has no idea what to do next, he kisses Casey on the forehead, like he’s seen April do whenever Donnie gets into a funk. 

There’s another beat, and then Casey snickers. “Oh my god,” he says. “That’s so sweet. You been takin’ lessons?” 

Raph pulls away so he won’t strangle Casey with his own bandanna, and grabs the beer. “You’re the worst,” he says, stalking back toward the living room. “I try to do one thing –” 

“It was just really heterosexual!” Casey yells, following him and grinning like an asshole now. “I’m not used to –” 

Raph tackles him to the floor and starts punching for his kidneys, but Casey is laughing, and hey, at least now he’s dealt with feelings for the next year or so, right? 

Right. 

anonymous asked:

Hi! I'm sorry to bother you, but I saw you reblogged a post about the general election and I was wondering why you thought May funding more grammar schools was a bad thing? I've heard a lot from both sides of the argument, but i don't have much experience with the state sector (I've spent my life at private schools) and I just wanted to ask your opinion. Thanks!

Hi anon! You’re no bother at all, don’t be afraid to ask questions.

I mean really it’s quite a complex topic, cos you gotta look at every aspect of British secondary education and class divides, but here goes…

So I didn’t go to public school for most of my life either. I was educated until I was 16 and finished my GCSEs at a small, independent faith school. The fees weren’t expensive, they were based on income, and I didn’t get a fantastic education, nor was anything about that school to be described as “posh” or “rich”. But it was a private school nonetheless.

There were lots of things that were terrible about this school, but on the whole I’m incredibly grateful for my education. I was educated in a very relaxed environment, in classes no larger than 15 at most (usually around 5-10 students), by teachers who knew me personally and honestly, actually cared about my well being.

I know for a fact I would not be able to say the same thing had gone to a comp school. Not least because, no matter how lucky I got with regards to having caring teachers, or stellar teaching, the law simply wouldn’t allow for most of the things I loved about my education. State school class sizes regularly push 30, sometimes even 35. Because of large numbers, state school classes are split up into sets, with the brightest, highest achieving kids in set 1, and the lowest achieving in set 3 (some schools have set 4 I think? depending on how many kids they have, but I’m not 100% sure. It doesn’t really matter either way…). It can get pretty demoralizing for kids who don’t respond well to the ‘one-size-fits-all’ approach the system provides.

A brief history of grammar schools goes something like this:

They’ve existed since the 1600s, but they really became what they are today during the 1940s when education beyond the age of 14 became free. There were two types of schools for secondary education (age 11-16/High School) which consisted of grammar schools and secondary modern schools.

Grammar schools focused on academic subjects, with the intention that pupils would go on to University, whereas secondary modern schools focused on getting children prepared for the workforce in trade. Here, the 11+ was introduced. The 11+ is an exam sat by pupils when they’re 11 years old, which determines if they’re intelligent enough to be educated at a grammar school.

In the 60s, the Labour Party was adamant that this system just furthered class divisions, so began phasing out grammar schools, and introducing Comprehensive Schools, which educate everyone at secondary school age. Aaand voila! That’s pretty much the education system we have for secondary school now. Everybody has a local comp. …but they’re usually pretty undesirable places.

So… grammar schools, class, and the 11+

As well as being privately educated, I also happen to have grown up one street away from one of only a handful remaining grammar schools in the UK, where my brother went to sixth-form (16-18yrs education, which at the time wasn’t compulsory), so I was blissfully unaware until a few years ago that they’re almost extinct in the UK.

And I mean I joked about it a lot as a teen, but the class difference has always been painstakingly obvious. Between the hours of 8-9am and 3-4pm our street would always fill up with really nice, expensive cars, because parents would park in our street to go pick up their kids from school. You could always tell which cars belonged to residents, and which belonged to parents, because nobody who lives on our street could afford a BMW. More to the point, nobody who could afford a BMW would live on our street!

And you only have to look next-door to see how class plays a part in making it into a grammar school. Right next to the grammar school is a prep school. A primary school literally designed to prepare children for entry into the grammar school. Who do you think gets accepted into that primary school? I can tell you it ain’t working class kids!

So the children who end up going to grammar schools are by no means more intelligent than those who go to comp. They’re just privileged enough to have had a very good (often private) education that helps them to pass the 11+. What usually happens is that parents pay private tutors to come prepare their kid for the exam from an early age, so that they’re far more likely to pass than a kid who’s come from comp education without tutoring, despite not necessarily being any more intelligent.

So in conclusion…?

Essentially, grammar schools are a remnant of an old education system that in theory separated the higher and lower achieving students, but in practice all it really does is allow children from more privileged background access to even more privilege through a better education.

I mean essentially what it boils down to with education, is that same thing that everything comes down to under capitalism:

Whatever the state provides - hell, whatever anyone provides - if you pay lots of money, you can get a better version.

Bought an event ticket? If you pay lots more money, you can skip all of the queues, get front row seats, and spend quality time with the celebs. Need a medical procedure? If you pay lots more money, you can skip all the waiting lists and go to private hospital to get it done immediately, by people who have the time to actually deliver quality patient care. Want an education? If you pay lots more money, you can get one-on-one quality tutoring or teaching from the most highly educated people around, and guarantee that you’ll get into University.

Rich people always get better things, and everybody else is always left with the “standard” which in the case of state-funded things are underfunded, understaffed, underqualified or sub-par. Rich people get better; not because they’re more deserving, or more intelligent, or more qualified. They’ve just been able to pay for more access to better resources that enable them to climb higher.

Political party stances

So currently there is a ban on grammar schools, meaning that no more grammar schools can be opened or set up. What Theresa May wants to do is repeal that ban, and fund 70,000 new places in 140 new schools with £320million, and she’s stipulated that those schools will be free to be selective. ie. they’ll be publicly funding the opening of new grammar schools.

Personally, I don’t care for grammar schools, for all of the reasons listed above. However, I’m not going to be campaigning for their imminent closure anytime soon. They’re a symptom of a system of elitism under capitalism that I don’t support, and honestly I’ve got bigger concerns about education, and about capitalism and elitism on my mind, to be honest.

However, I am adamantly opposed to May’s proposal, which would use public money to fund the set up of yet more grammar schools.

We know the system doesn’t work. All of the evidence points to the fact that they don’t do much for working class kids. They continue to serve an elitist system whereby people with more money get better education.

More money > better education > top university > better paying jobs > more money.

The government should be funding comprehensive schools better, so that the education which everyone has access to is a better quality education. That’s not going to happen unless teachers are paid better, the education and training of teachers is funded better, the class sizes are smaller, and the system shifts to make room for children who don’t fit this ridiculous ‘one size fits all’ approach we currently have.

Furthermore, I can’t say that I trust the education system to the Tory party’s hands at all (although admittedly there isn’t really anything I can think of to be honest that I would trust them with!). Their track record with education is honestly appalling - just look at the absolute joke that was Michael Gove as Education Secretary, and then Nicky Morgan. Neither of them have ever had any experience in education aside from being a child in school, and neither of them have ever listened to what teachers have had to say about the effects of legislation. They’re slashing funding for the arts, placing priority on STEM subjects over everything else, increasing the stress on teachers through horrendous amounts of paperwork required, increasing the class sizes, and increasing the number of tests that children take, even at primary age and foundation phase.

Schools in impoverished areas always receive less funding, thus are unable to provide a better quality education due simply to a lack of resources. And thanks to our ridiculous league table system, all of the emphasis in schools is put on churning out as many GCSEs grade C and above as is humanly possible, rather than actually providing a holistic and quality education. So schools are often forced into demoralizing cycles where they don’t produce enough A*-C GCSE results, receive less funding, have less means to provide a good education, get less A*-C redults etc. etc.

Funding more grammar schools isn’t going to change that. It’s only going to widen the gap between working class kids and middle and upper class kids, who have parents with enough money to afford better opportunities for them.

TLDR;

Grammar schools in theory help kids from low-income backgrounds get better educations, but in practice they really don’t. Public funding should focus on making state education better, through more funding and better legislation, rather than pumping money into an elitist system that only serves to continue the trend of rich kids being high achievers, and poor kids being low achievers, because they’re not given the same opportunities. The Tories also have terrible policy on education generally, but this is a new low.

anonymous asked:

i'm very curious because i don't watch Skam but i always see Noora being hailed by the fandom as a social justice heroine and flawless angel -could you elaborate to which extent she's homophobic and a performative activist? I hardly ever see fans discuss this and it's a bit offputting

Hi anon!

To preface this answer, I want it to be clear that I love Noora. I love her as a character, I love her in ships (I ship her with… three different people? Like? If that’s not love idk what it is) and I relate to her a lot. Like when I was her age, I was a mix between Noora and Jonas, no joking. When I was her age, I was also A Shithead, and I think that a lot of her problems stem from her being 16.

That said. (Under a readmore because it’s image-heavy!)

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anonymous asked:

I have a prompt based on my own insecurities. I've never related more to a character than I have with Maggie. I have depression and I deal with feeling like I'm not good enough or I'm always a burden to talk to.. maybe one where Maggie feels that way and Alex being amazing? It's okay if you don't wanna write it?

First of all I’m so sorry you deal with this kind of pain. I get it, and it’s definitely not fun. I hope I did this a little bit of justice.

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Maggie Sawyer had a dark side.

A sad side.

A side Alex had yet to see.

They had been dating for 4 months, and Maggie hadn’t had one episode. She was just so happy. She was blissfully happy. But that 4 month mark is where things usually start to change in her head. Because after 4 months she either finds a reason to leave, or they find a reason to leave her. All of her most recent relationships hadn’t made it much past 4 months, and the ones that had were just unhealthy.

But 4 months in and Maggie couldn’t find a flaw in Alex Danvers system. The flaws Alex had were manageable. They were things Maggie understood and could deal with. But, for the most part, Alex Danvers was an untouchable angel. She was perfect. And that was when Maggie began to find her out. Nothing was wrong with Alex, and everything was wrong with her, and she didn’t deserve a woman like her. She didn’t deserve her kindness, and her warmth, and her joy.

Because if she knew, if she really knew how Maggie got, Alex would run. They all ran.

She was having one of her bad days. Her really bad days where the only thoughts in her head were negative. She tried the exercises her therapist taught her, she tried her happy music playlist, she tried running, she tried distractions, but none of it worked. Nothing worked, so she dug herself into her hole and let herself get buried by the negativity, the sadness, the anxiety. The depression.

But Alex still existed. And Alex called. And called. And kept calling. And Maggie kept not answering because she couldn’t hide this. She knew Alex would hear it in her voice. Maggie couldn’t even bother to lift her hand to send a text. What would she even say? So she let it ring. And she blocked out Alex, because soon enough Alex would block her out.

But that’s not Alex. When Maggie heard the knock on the door she knew who it was. She knew it was her girlfriend. Her perfect. Compassionate. Loving as hell, girlfriend. She stayed quiet.

“Maggie, babe I know you’re in there.” Alex spoke through the door. “I can hear your music.”

Maggie didn’t reply. She stayed still. She stayed silent. But her heart beat a bit faster than it had at all that day, and that was something.

“Baby please open up.”

Nothing.

“Maggie Sawyer open this goddamn door, you’re scaring me.”

Maggie heard the sound of the knob jingling. She still didn’t move. She was molded to the couch. She wanted to yell at Alex to leave, to never come back, to save herself from the pitfall that is Maggie’s fucked up head. But something stopped her. A small small part of her wanted Alex to bust through the door and hold her.

And that’s exactly what Alex did.

She picked the lock. She threw open the door. She found Maggie on the couch. And she held her.

Maggie was numb. She wasn’t crying like she did sometimes. Those times were usually good because it meant she was feeling something. But no, this time she just felt numb and cold, but Alex’s arms warmed her up.

After god knows how long, Maggie finally spoke, for the first time in almost 24 hours. “Alex you should go.”

“No.” Alex replied.

“You should leave.”

“No Maggie, I don’t know what this is but I’m not leaving.”

Maggie sat up and looked at Alex. She felt tired, like you would if you took a sleeping pill but never fell asleep. “This is me Alex, and you deserve better than this.”

“Maggie talk to me.” Maggie felt the emotion seeping out of Alex’s eyes and her mouth. “Please talk to me.”

“They’re called depressive episodes.” Maggie sighed. “It started at 16. They were frequent and so horrible I couldn’t move sometimes. I was put on medication at 17 for depression. It helped sometimes but I still have my days. My really bad days.”

“Mags.” Alex grabbed her hand. “I’m here fo-”

“You need to leave Alex.”

“Maggie, nothing you say is going to get me to leave.”

“Please, I don’t want you to see me like this.” Maggie could feel it, the emotion entering back into her body. It felt like shame, disappointment, sadness, but it was feeling nonetheless. She felt the tears prick her eyes.

“Maggie this is nothing to be ashamed of. We all have something.” Alex squeezed her hand.

Maggie felt the tears begin to fall from her eyes. “But this is a bad something Alex. This is a dark, sad, depressing something that I don’t want to pull you into. You’re too good for this Alex.”

“Maggie look at me.” Alex said lifting Maggie’s head with her finger. “I am not to good for this. I have my things too.”

“Not like this.”

“I’ve been on medication for PTSD and extreme anxiety for the past 8 years.” Alex admitted. “And I mean crippling anxiety Maggie. Can’t move my body, panic attacks that feel like heart attacks, kind of anxiety. I get it Maggie.”

“But this is different-”

“It’s not Maggie. I get the shame, and I get the loneliness, but I’m here for you.” Alex said holding Maggie’s face in her hands. “I’m going to sit here with you until you feel better. Until you’re bad thoughts so away. Until you understand that I’m never leaving you, especially not like this, because that’s what I’d want you to do for me.”

“And if they don’t…go away?” Maggie asked, because most of the time they did pass but every time these episodes came her biggest fear was that it would just be an episode this time. That it would last, and it wouldn’t just go away.

“Than I guess I should make myself pretty comfortable on this couch huh?” Alex smiled a bit. “They will go away Maggie. They will.”

She hugged Maggie into her chest. Maggie’s ear rested right where Alex’s heart was changed behind her breast. She could hear it’s beating, steady and rhythmic. Maggie focused on that sound. She forced herself to listen to that heartbeat until it drowned all her bad thoughts. This was something she had never tried before, but it seemed to work. She had never tried it because no one ever held her like this, when she was like this. No one stayed. They all just called her crazy. They all just got freaked out, or ran. But Alex held her, and stroked her hair.

Soon Maggie was sitting up and hugging Alex back. Maggie kissed her, and thanked her, and cried on her shoulder. Not exactly a sad or shameful cry, but a thankful, grateful cry. Alex made her coffee and cuddled up with her on the couch where they watched dumb movies. It didn’t fix Maggie but it helped.

Alex helped.

For the first time someone helped.

And she still felt like this woman was too good for her, but this time Maggie refused to push this one away. She refused to push Alex away.

anonymous asked:

Hey, can you recommend me some good malec fanfics? Don't care if it's fluff or smut (i heard you are a fan of botton!alec 😉 ) just tell me if there's anything good

MALEC FIC RECS #1 

Hello! Thank you for coming to me for this. I have lots of Malec recommendations! Right now I’m just going to give you some of the one’s I have in my new phone but maybe later I will add the one’s I have in my previous phones.

-This fanfics are a mix of a lot of things: fluff, angst, smut (yes, I’m a fan of bottom!Alec :D), some AUs, and some are very dark.

-I put some Notes to express my opinions and other stuff (they are kinda lame :p sorry haha) 

-Just click in the title to open the fic and if there’s an issue with the link just let me know. 

-I put how many chapters each story has and where is posted next to the title.

-They are not in order of how I like them or whatever, it was just how I found them, I put them here.

-Also I put a (*) before the fic title for the one’s I think you should really read!! The one’s I really loved the most of this list.

-I’m sorry if there’s some mistakes in my English, it’s not my native language.

Good Things Come To Those (Who Stutter In Front Of Their Crush) (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: Alec is fairly popular, he has his friends and his brother and sister, and no one seems to mind that he doesn’t talk that much. He’s not exactly shy, he’s just awkward and gets nervous around strangers.

Magnus is a senior, a year above Alec, and he’s quite possibly the most beautiful person Alec has ever laid eyes upon. The problem isn’t that he’s a year older, however. It’s that he has a girlfriend.

And, of course, if Alec ever was to start a conversation with Magnus, he’d probably trip over his own feet, stumble over his words, and faceplant into the ground … or something.

The embarrassment just isn’t worth it. Or is it?

Notes: This is a really sweet AU with a cute Alec with glasses.

* Reminiscent (33/33) (Ao3) 

Summary: I’m trivial. I’ve always believed I’m trivial. But he says that’s not true. He says I’m a lot more than trivial. He says I’ll always be more to him. He told me I’m his first of safe and risks. He told me I’m his first in his mind which shouts important and unnecessary recollections. He told me I’m his first of anything but trivial. And I can’t help but wanting to believe him.

Notes: This has a lot of angst, I’m serious. You suffer with this but like I love angst, wow, it was amazing. And the end… well, it ends with angst but also in a good way (?)

Religious Obligations (16/?) (Ao3) 

Summary: The Lightwoods have long since been cursed with corruptibility. In the year of the Angel 1645, Robert made a deal with the devil himself. In exchange for the security of his position, he took an oath to give one of his children. Now the Prince of Hell has come to collect.

Notes: I haven’t read the last chapters, I think I’m in chapter 13 but this story is so good! It has a lot of potential and the plot is really good and unique.

* Tale of Wolves (2/2) (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: Alec was an Omega. And he had never expected his Alpha, Magnus, would pick him as mating partner. Warnings: Altered ABO, sexual content. A two-part story.

Notes: This is an Alpha/Beta/Omega dynamic fanfic, with mpreg mentioned. Smut. *spoiler* But also how Alec starts to get over his insecurities.

* The Moon wants to shine but the Sun is too bright (14/16) (Ao3) 

Summary: “I don’t like it”, said Magnus.

Alec looked at him with perplexity.

“You don’t like what ?”

“I don’t like it when people are touching my things !” he answered angrily.

Alec frowned, did someone touch Chairman Meow ? He didn’t notice the possessive glare of Magnus focused on him.

Notes: oKaY THIS STORY IS AMAZING! The summary doesn’t make justice to what the story is really about!! It’s amazing!!!! Right now everything is getting solved and I’m impatient for the next chapters!! Oh and angst hehe.

* Five Times Magnus Isn’t a Good Boyfriend And One Time He Is (1/1) (Ao3)

Summary: Being a high profile celebrity makes it difficult for Magnus to find enough time for his personal life. Alec’s feeling lonely after spending yet another night alone.

Or, in which Magnus is spending too much time at work, Alec confides in Chairman Meow, and Magnus tries to make everything better.

Notes: Slight angst but has a sweet end.

* Under Nobody’s Wings (23/?) (Fanfiction.net)  

Summary: The Circle which led by Jonathan Morgenstern was hunting Downworlders. Jonathan’s lover, Alec Ligthwood, suddenly showed up and asked Magnus for help with a baby in his arms. Said Warlock never expected the pain and love followed. Through their way to redemption, something developed between them. *Hints of abuse, sexual content and Mpreg

Notes: amazing plot!!!

Feeling Alive (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: Alec has one job and he intends to complete it.

Notes: zombie!au but I’m warning that is tragic. This author’s fics are really angsty but I love them. 

* Satellite (6/6) (Ao3) 

Summary: All Alec wanted was for his family to be safe. Unfortunately, a dangerous mutant ability and a terrifying mistake can’t–won’t–leave him and his siblings alone. If he wants his loved ones to survive, he’s going to have to face his fears, and worse, himself.

Notes: Xmen Universe AU. Again, wonderful plot! This is going to have a second part but it’s not posted yet. This First is finished. This author’s fics are really angsty but I love them. 

* In which Alec regrets wearing black (5/?) (Ao3) 

Summary: Alec is a ballet dancer with a permanent scowl

Magnus is a glittering fashion designer with a knack for gift buying

They meet and misunderstandings take place. This is their story.

*All characters apart from my own belong to the genius that is Cassie Clare*

Notes: oHmYgOd I’m in love with this!!! Ballet dancer!Alec is everything!! So cute and also kind of stalker!Magnus. The author changed slightly Alec’s appearance but I’m ok with it <3. And the chapter are so long!

darling tonight, i’ve got you in my sights (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: _

Magnus nips at Alec’s perspiring, over heated flesh with an enthusiastic mouth, tongue flicking out to lap at the subtle rivulets of sweat and his groan reverberates through Alec, deep and intoxicating. His agile fingers stray under the hem of Alec’s shirt, sweeping blistering trails of fire across his abdomen, muscles quivering and tensing under the numbing ministrations. The pure skin on skin contact is devastatingly stunning, by the Angel, and Alec clenches his teeth to smother his cry, head tumbling back onto Magnus’ shoulder.

_

(clubbing and some sexy dancing leads to some hot, rather filthy sex.)

Notes: yeess smut but it’s well written.

Intimacy (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: “Here, take what you want, what you need.” the warlock whispered, moving his hands to Alec’s to lace them together.

-=*=-=*=-

Or five times Magnus and Alec failed at having intimate moments and the one time they didn’t.

Notes: It’s literally what the summary says, and powerbottom!alec.

Too Much Of A Good Thing Won’t Be Good For Long (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: Boxing AU

Notes: short but so good!!

Bullseye (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: When Alec Lightwood is approached by Magnus Bane as a recruitment effort for a mysterious cause, he most definitely doesn’t expect the series of events that follow.

Notes: This includes experiments, if I remember well. A clandestine organization.

Magnus Bane’s School for Young Warlocks (20/25) (Ao3) 

Summary: Alec had never dreamt he’d be a father by the age of 25, let alone the father of a Warlock. He’s sure he can handle it alone, though. He doesn’t need anyone and neither do his kids.

(Or: Alec takes Max to Warlock School and finds himself falling fast for his teacher).

Notes: I haven’t finished reading the last updates but has angst and denial from Alec’s part.

* Counting Lies (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: 49. Superhero and Villain AU

The city was torn apart by the fight between the mob families and the vigilantes, but Alec and Magnus were far away from all that. They were just two normal guys in a normal relationship.

Number of lies: 3

Notes: AMAZING!! AND HAS A LOT OF PLOT TWISTS!!!!! Everyone should read this. WOW.

Let’s Put That Mouth To Good Use (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: Magnus and Alec discuss their sex life via Cosmo quiz. Sort of.

Notes: This is good smut. I’m just saying that. Hehe.

In the Name of Promise (15/15) (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: Years ago the Lightwoods asked Magnus for help: sending their only child Alexander to a mundane family and being raised like one. 17 years later Magnus received a call and he had no choice but rescue Alec, both physically and psychologically. *Warnings inside. Malec, AU.

Notes: This story deals with dark topics and Malec’s relationship develops slowly (at least the romantic one).

* Better Angels (10/10) (Ao3) 

Summary: When there’s only one active Shadowhunter in the whole crazy mess that is New York City, it’s bad.

When that one Shadowhunter is living with three adults who are cursed to never leave the Institute’s grounds, two of which hate each other, it’s very bad.

When that Shadowhunter’s happiness and even mental stability is sacrificed in the pursuit of perfection, it’s monstrous.

When that one, fourteen year old Shadowhunter is found crying in an alley by the High Warlock of Brooklyn, it’s a matter of life and death.

Notes: This story also deals with dark and sensitive topics too, like self-harm. Author’s tumblr: @witchlightsands

* Home Wrecker (93/93) (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: Ever since his Father got caught with another woman and thrown out of the house, cheaters have disgusted Alexander Lightwood. So what is he to do when he falls in love with one? / AU, more chapters to come.

Notes: This a LARGE story, well it has a lot of chapters but they are not that long. I read the story in like 3 days? And it’s good, I mean, I wouldn’t have read it if it wasn’t great. Somethings are kind of… off. But I loved it. ALSO it has age-gap. Magnus is 30 and Alec 18 then 19, I think.

* Take Me Back to the Basics (39/?) (Ao3) 

Summary: Modern Malec AU where you can see every color but the color of your soulmates eyes.

Soulmates are a lost romance that have been shrouded over with fear of abandonment or fear of love, but sometimes lost romances can be brought back. Sometimes all it takes is a color. Maybe the color gold.

Alexander Lightwood thought he was normal. He has a normal family, a normal school, a normal life. But when his parents decide to move him and his two siblings from Chicago to New York, Alec’s would is turned upside down. Between meeting his somewhat famous soulmate and his parents’ demanding an mysterious job, Alec realizes that his life is far more complicated than he thought.

Notes: AMAZING STORY! This is a soulmates AU but also deals with other topics and right now one of the main plots is starting to reveal itself.

BlindSpot (4/?)  (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: Malec orphanage AU: Magnus has lived there since he’d been nine years old, and now one year before he has to leave the Institute, a new kid comes along. Alec Lightwood hates orphanages, hates foster families. He just wants to be left alone with his anger at the world. Two worlds clash like thunder and lightning and both guys are in for an interesting year.

Notes: This amazing story is written by one of my favorite Tumblr users: @freakypumpkin Also check her other stories in her fanfiction profile, they are awesome! (also check her opinions of the TMI books on her Tumblr, omg <3)

Something Old Something New Something Red (18/?) (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: The man with the cat eyes spoke, “Alexander?” Alec froze, all the memories, all the dreams that he’d had with this man came flooding back to him. This was his soulmate, his soulmate that he hasn’t seen in much to long.

Notes: Sometimes confusing and sometimes frustrating when some things happen (I’m not going to say them because spoiler) but is good.

* Learning to Be (26/26) (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: When Alec was 13, he stopped speaking for almost a year. Five years later, Alec is forced to deal with the trauma of his past while learning to accept and love himself. Malec, Alec/Jace friendship and Lightwood family dynamics. See warnings inside.

Notes: Deals with dark topics and has a lot of angst. There’s a second part for this story and you can check it on the author’s profile.

The curse of love (18/?) (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: While out on a hunt, Alec is cornered by a shapeless demon that seeks to use him to have his revenge against the warlock Magnus Bane. The demon casts a curse making it so that if Alec and Magnus do not vow and prove to love each other forever, the shadowhunter will die, the catch? Alec and Magnus are broken up! loosely based in the song “Sweet curse” by Floor Jansen.

Notes: this curse omg. I’m waiting for the next chapter like crazy because somethings have happened and maybe it’s gonna be over soon.

The heart inside (9/10) (Ao3) 

Summary: “The good thing, it’s that I will get some paid vacations to Los Angeles, and that I am convinced that Alexander Lightwood has a lot to hide. And I will find out every little dirty secret he might have and show it to the world to let them know that their golden boy it’s nothing more than a fake.” I let out and evil laugh. This was going to be fun.

Notes: Interesting story and there’s just one chapter left that the author hasn’t posted and maybe she or he would never post but chapters 8 and 9 wow yay.

* I Won’t Let You Fall (4/?) (Ao3) 

Summary: Alec Lightwood is the most beautiful and talented classically trained ballet dancer at the New York Arts Institute. He’s pressured by everyone in his life to carry the honor of the Lightwood name in the New York performing arts world, he feels trapped in a box. Magnus Bane is the most liked, respected, gorgeous, and innately talented hip-hop freestyle dancer who was accepted to the Institute on scholarship. He puts on the happy face for everyone around him, but inside he is broken and badly scarred by his past. When Alec finds himself wanting to branch out and add free movement to his final senior piece he seeks the help of the one person he’s been secretly drawn to for years. The one person he knows lives very much outside of the box.

Notes: I just read this a few days ago but omg I’m in love with ballet dancer!Alec and I want more!!

* Malec Alphabet Soup (21/26) (Ao3) 

Summary: Twenty six (from A-Z), stand-alone one-shots about Magnus and Alec.

Chapter 1: Anniversary (mpreg)

Chapter 2: Birthday

Chapter 3: Cuddle

Chapter 4: Dork

Chapter 5: Everyday

Chapter 6: Family (part 1 of the Bane-Lightwood Family Series)/(mpreg)

Chapter 7: Goodbye (character death)

Chapter 8: Hand

Chapter 9: Injured (part 2 of the Bane-Lightwood Family Series)

Chapter 10: Jealousy

Chapter 11: Kiss (mpreg)

Chapter 12: Late (part 3 of the Bane-Lightwood Family Series)/(mpreg)

Chapter 13: Mortality

Chapter 14: Neglected (smut)

Chapter 15: Opposite (part 4 of the Bane-Lightwood Family Series)

Chapter 16: Pregnant (Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamic)/ (mpreg)

Chapter 17: Quality (Time) (part 5 of the Bane-Lightwood Family Series)

Chapter 18: Rape (Aftermath) (mentions of rape)

Chapter 19: Surprise (mpreg)

Chapter 20: Timing (spoiler: Tales from the Shadowhunter Academy)/ (smut)

Chapter 21: Upset (Mpreg)

Notes: I just love this. And the mpregs are amazing if you like mpregs. Chapter 21 is a roller coaster of emotions D:

The Babysitter (28/?) (Fanfiction.net) 

Summary: AU story: Alec Lightwood is a freshman at college looking for a job. Magnus Bane is a single parent looking for a babysitter. Magnus thought it would be simple getting a babysitter, and it was. Though it’s not so easy to keep his hands to himself from this sexy freshman… Age-gap, M-Rate later, kinks, smut and other sexiness.

Notes: This story has a lot of smut! Like A LOT!! I’m serious, and like it says it has age-gap for like 6 years? More or less.

Mortal Embarrassment and Other Flirting Techniques (32/32) (inkitt.com) 

Summary: Magnus is at the top of the social ladder, and Alec is the anti-social new kid. Plus there’s a little issue with Hodge and his serious psychosis. High School AU, all human.

Notes: The story is sweet, obviously has its own plot with climax like the Hodge thing and some stuff Magnus does (also another character that I won’t mention…)

Let me love you (1/1) (Ao3) 

Summary: “What?” Magnus said but was soon surprised of the fact that Alec practically ripped his shirt apart throwing it onto the ground of the warlocks loft.

Notes: one word to describe this? PowerBottom!Alec. Huh… I don’t know if that’s one word but whatever.

I hope you like at least one of them <33 I’ll add more later, I don’t know when but I enjoyed doing this. 

Ways to Cheer Yourself Up (When wanting to be alone) - 50 top things to do
  • 1. Go ON Tumblr, believe it or not, we don't care where you're from, what you do, how you're being you, as long as you are being you, you're pretty much welcomed on here. That's why i love it. Unless of course you are homophobic or judgemental or ignorant - then the people will speak for themselves, we look out for each other here.
  • 2. Read Books; escapism is a wonderful thing
  • 3. Listen to music; and no - not the sad, 'ALL BY MYSELF' type music, but the kickass songs like 'I will Survive' or 'Loser Like Me' just celebrate yourself for being awesome, because we know you are; even if others don't; especially then actually.
  • 4. Become your own superhero. Every single one of you have a talent or a dream. Follow up on that talent/dream. YOU ARE WORTH IT, and you can be whoever you want to be.
  • 5. DISNEY MOVIES. Unless you absolutely hate bursting out into song - better cut of highschool musical and glee while were at this, then Disney is the best pick me up ever.
  • 6. Watch your favourite TV shows. Remind yourself why life can be awesome. Watching your fav characters usually means you can relate to them.
  • 7. Go on walks - it's very pretty outside, and sometimes our heads can be overloaded with information or stress, I advise calming music and a nice walk outside in comfortable clothes.
  • 8. Have a diary. A friend of mine recently bought me one, and it's a godsend because all the anger, or emotions I feel, I try to put in the diary rather than putting it out on others. It also calms you down. I feel better when I write.
  • 9. Speaking of writing...if you enjoy it- WRITE. Writing is a wonderful way to escape. You can put all your emotions into your characters and they just come to life. I tend to do that when I'm stressed.
  • 10. If writing is not your thing then bake. I've actually ironically read in a fan fiction where a character would bake when stressed and try out new recipes, this character tried making butterbeer; maybe be adventurous; have a food blog or something to keep you occupied.
  • 11. Be With Your Pets - Pets are loyal creatures, and they love you, even when you're being a pain in the ass, and I hear they're very good listeners.
  • 12. Now I don't know about you, but I LOVE Musicals. If you are a musical fanatic like me and you're feeling a little down, my dears; listen to those awesome voices, because sometimes we just - need - a break (Also, if you haven't watched RENT, watch it - NODAYBUT TODAY...or Starkid...Starkid make the most funniest musical parodies, even if you don't like musicals I suggest it, and if you're not enjoying their YouTube Channel, then I'll eat my own hat).
  • 13. ASK ME ANYTHING. If you really want to talk to somebody but you don't want to talk to people you know and you just want to get things out, my ASK box is always open.
  • 14. Find a hobby. If you don't really want to talk to anybody, that's okay, sometimes we need to just have some 'me time'. In my me times, I usually deactivate from Facebook, and just focus on things that make me happy. Like; Puzzles, Sudoku, Games, writing, cooking, singing, whatever it is...travelling even. Enjoy yourself.
  • 15. Travel. Maybe being stuck in the same place is the problem, maybe you're head wants to be in a place where it can ACTUALLY THINK.
  • 16. Go Hiking. I suppose Hiking is similar to walking but if you're an outdoor person, this is a great way to clear your head and to feel fresh.
  • 17. Hit The Gym. Or even do your own exercises. I like to walk - do crunches, and I love Zumba. I love dancing. If you love being active, this is also another way to clear your mind from negative things.
  • 18. GO SEE A MOVIE!!! When was the last time you had fun? Even if it's just by yourself. You're allowed to treat yourself. Go, enjoy, be surrounded by people, even if they're strangers.
  • 19. If you like coffee, treat yourself for one at a local cafe. Who knows, you might meet your coffee soulmate in a cafe one day.
  • 20. STOP thinking Negative. Have a Pros/Cons List. Try not to outweight the Pros list with the Cons. Please?
  • You are good enough.
  • 21. Write down a bucket List, and start ticking them off. Having goals and dreams is healthy. If you have dreams, then you have a direction of where you're going.
  • 22. Get help. It's okay, if you're head is in a really bad place to reach out to people. It really is okay.
  • 23. Help others. If you're not sure what to do with yourself at all, be useful to other people less fortunate than you. Volunteer! Work with Charity, Feed the homeless, help the guide dogs association.
  • 24. Smile more. It looks good on you, believe me. Spend time with your guilty pleasures, my guilty pleasure is binge watching glee
  • 25. Please DO NOT go to a pub to drink to ease your mind, if you are going to do that, do it with a friend, or somebody close.
  • 26. Eat Chocolate. Okay yes while society says NO DON'T EAT THE FATTY FOOD. Hey; screw them. If you feel better eating a bit of junk go for it. There's nothing wrong with eating a whole pizza or tub of ben and jerry ice cream when feeling upset - just try not to make TOO much of a habit : p
  • 27. REBLOG YOUR FOLLOWERS POSTS, you might be surprised that you aren't the only one feeling the way you're feeling, you might be surprised by how much you're forgetting that hey - it's gonna be alright.
  • 28. Do something nice for your neighbour. Ah who knows, have you ever actually talked to them? Maybe they might be lonely too.
  • 29. Have a GAMES Night. A very good friend of mine loves Games. If You LOVE Games, then hell have a marathon of them. Play the sims, be in control.
  • 30. Speaking of marathons...dun dun dun - MOVIE MARATHON, I Don't Know About You Guys, But Having A Harry Potter Movie Marathon always cheers me Up. WITH FOOD Of course, and good company, but this is about cheering yourself up, so if you don't want company, that's okay.
  • 31. Draw. I love drawing too. I suppose I'm more of the creative person. There are a lot of different types of people out there, maybe you like solving things - do those fancy cube things Idk what they're called. If you are like my brother and you love Maths, then maybe you can tutor someone. On one hand you're helping someone, and doing something you like doing, just like I'm drawing because I like drawing.
  • 32.Be with kids. believe it or not, kids are the most innocent little munchkins, and they honestly don't care what you look like, if you play hide and seek with them they'll be thrilled, so long as you're nice to them, they're generally nice to you... but be warned, they tell it how it is too. I talk a bit different. The most popular thing they've said to me was "Is that why you talk funny, because of the things in your teeth?" (They've also never really seen braces before) I even had one kid determined to get me to sing 'Everything is awesome' I'll never forget that because this kid clearly didn't care how I sounded, and just wanted me to sing with her. I felt great.
  • 33. If you're into Fairy Tales, Please Please Read Chris Colfer's The Land Of Stories series 1-4. It's an amazing series, and you almost forget what world you're in once you start reading. Plus, there's more coming (I'm a little excited)
  • 34. Watch Pixar Movies. You can't go wrong.
  • 35. GO TO HOGWARTS. Harry Potter Fan? Visit - Platform 9 3/4s in London, or go to the Harry Potter World, or if you can't actually visit these sites, go on Pottermore.
  • 36. Read Fan Fiction, you might not be a harry potter fan, but whatever fandom you are in, believe me sometimes Fan Fictfion Cheer me up. I adore Glee *Don't Judge Me* and Dalton is the best thing ever. Or Little Numbers...or Both. They cheer me up big time.
  • 37. Role play. If you like superheroes or characters, go be with the crowd. I believe they have events like Comic Con, and on Facebook they even have Events for such things, go be with strangers! So long as it's safe of course.
  • 38. Write a letter to the person who inspires you most and send it. You might be surprised by an answer.
  • 39. Pick up your instrument. Don't ignore your musical talent if you do have a musical talent. Remember, you're worth it. I don't care what you've done. Pick, It Up.
  • 40. Maybe go visit your family? I know this is about 'quality me time' but if you haven't seen your family in such a long time or are at a distance. Maybe being surrounded by something familiar is what you need.
  • 41. Change Careers. If you're not enjoying what you're doing or studying, change it. I remember in highschool a teacher said you might change your job 10 - 12 times before getting it right. It'okay, you just haven't found where you're meant to be yet.
  • 42. Enter a competition - Who knows what will come from it, take risks.
  • 43. If you're a risk-taker, challenge yourself. IDK how you're going to do that, but google has some pretty good answers. Even ask your tumblr followers, they follow you for a reason after all.
  • 44. Go on a boat. Go Fishing! I don't know, it's not my thing, but if you like fishing, then hell - go out there and fish.
  • 45. Find time for yourself, are you working too much? Maybe you are working too much. You know life doesn't stop for nobody, and if you keep pushing yourself so hard, time will go so fast and you won't realise how much of that time you could have spent on your own self.
  • The world is not going to end if you treat yourself.
  • 46. You ARE Good Enough. Listen to my words. Sometimes encouragement is all we need, when people feel hopeless, or like everything's gone wrong. It's gonna be okay. I promise, just hang in there.
  • 47. Write Down Quotes that Inspire You. I have a wall of these, and of people that inspire me too, and it reminds me of the good things in life when I'm in a crappy mood.
  • 48. Find something to do. If you're not doing anything, go take up a course, research things that interest you, you might be surprised by what comes from it. Join a community that enjoys doing things you do.
  • 49. Go To The Beach - If you live in Australia like me, visiting the beach is actually really calming and me and my best friend always would go on a random drive, and drive up to a beach or a look out, and it was always calming. Enchanting too sometimes. Maybe we forget about the place we live in, and what's exciting about the place. If you're in New York, visit Broadway or The Statue Of Liberty, or if you're in London, go to the London Bridge, or the Eye, visit the Eiffel Tower if you're in Paris...just go Anywhere.
  • 50. Take a random journey. Go on a train to somewhere new, go on a road trip. You never know what's around the corner.

anonymous asked:

Wasn't that question of keigo where he was asking ichigo 'Don't You miss her?' a wrong translation? I thought the quote was something about keigo wanting to if ichigo missed his days as a shinigami.

The most accurate fan translations I know of are by cnet (since they come out a week later and the translator can take their time), and this is what they wrote about 424 (relevant parts bolded):

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Keigo: Hey, have you decided what you’re gonna do? // Like, in the future?
Ichigo: You mean, like careers and stuff?
Keigo: “Careers and stuff”, he says! / What else d'you think I mean?!
Ichigo: I dunno, does it really matter?
Keigo: We have careers sessions at the end of term, you know! / You gotta start thinking about these things soon. // I mean, your grades were pretty good back when you started here, but they’ve got worse ever since the second half of first year…
Ichigo: Ah, shaddup. You know I was busy back then, so what was I meant to do? / Besides, I’m still above-average.
Keigo: …I wonder what Rukia-chan’s doing now.

15
Ichigo: What’s Rukia got to do with anything?
Keigo: Well, you know…! She could at least stop by and say hi once in a while, couldn’t she?! / She hasn’t come back even once since you-know-when! Isn’t that kinda cold?
Ichigo: ‘Course it isn’t. // She’s not responsible for Karakura Town any more, remember? There’s no reason why she should come back here.
Keigo: …Don’t you get lonely?
Ichigo: Why the hell would I be lonely?

16
Ichigo: It took me 16 long years to finally find myself an ordinary life! // I just wanna live it out peacefully ‘til the day I die.
Keigo: …Well, I guess. / It’s not like I want to go through any scary stuff like that again, either.

[Text: That’s right. // It’s not like I ever felt superior to anyone else because I could see ghosts. / And I never planned to take it up as a profession. // Hell, I never even felt the need to use my ability to help others. // All I ever wanted… / …was the normal life I couldn’t have. // I’ve finally achieved what I always wanted.]

Japanese is a context-heavy language, which is one of the reasons why there are often mistranslations.  I think this makes it clear Keigo is still talking about Rukia when he asks if Ichigo gets lonely.  Ichigo spends plenty of time with his friends as shown in the next few chapters; there’s no reason for Keigo to ask this question unless he’s referring to Ichigo missing someone in particular, which makes the “Don’t you miss her?” translation as accurate as this.

You’re Etched In Me Like Stone

Part of the amnesia au which I keep saying is finished but man it is a great au that I just can’t quit. First of all, thanks to @novelty-night for suggesting this story line. Secondly, HUGE thanks to @spooky-son-of-rome for writing this with me over text. Dan, you are a gift. A gift that continuously gives angst and sadness and pain. Cheers to you, friend. xxx

  • Percy walked down the street, hands in his jean pockets, as the crisp fall air sent a shiver through his body 
  • his right hand played with Riptide’s cap as his mind raced with what he was about to do– say a final goodbye to Annabeth
  • it had become clear to Percy that what he really needed was closure. To see her alive and well and know that he without a doubt made the right choice by staying away for all of these years  
  • the closer he got, the stranger the air felt and Percy could tell something was off 
  • as soon as he turned the corner, he saw it– a manticore slowly padding around the perimeter of Annabeth’s front yard

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GILMORE GIRLS: A YEAR IN THE LIFE REVIEW

[SPOILER ALERT]

First things first. 1) I’m writing this after I’ve watched the four episodes, so I’m probably going to forget something and things won’t necessarily be in the right order. 2) I’m brazilian, so english isn’t my first language, sorry for the mistakes. 3) This post will have a lot of anti Logan and pro Jess, so if you are not a Literati sipper, you should probably skip it. Ok, let’s do this!

1) I wanted to see the opening credits and the theme song, I already knew that there was not going to be an opening like the one in the series, but I wanted the song to be there at some point (when Carole King sang and played the piano or maybe on the last scene).


2) I’m so pissed at the way they treat cheating on this show! Like it’s ok and normal! Rory is cheating on Paul (was that his name? Can’t remember hahaha jk) with Logan (and he is cheating on his fiancée) and she doesn’t even feel bad or guilty about it. C’mob, girl!!! You cheated on Dean with Jess, on Logan with Jess, on Paul with Logan and slept with married Dean! Where is the famous character development here? Her only worry was that Logan was going to spend time with Odette. This really drove me nuts.

3) Queen Paris Geller is here. I’ve missed you! I’ve never imagined that Paris would be working with in vitro fertilization, but it was nice to see her working

4) Michel is gay!!! I’m so glad! This show was in desperate need of some LGBT representation! Team Michel and Patrick!

5) Hep Alien!!!! 

6) First episode is over and no sign of Jess????

7) I can’t believe Paris and Doyle are getting a divorce. I have no hope anymore. 2016 is definitely the worst year for couples

8) Rory is in New York! She is going to bump into Jess in a library, I can feel it!

9) Rory is in a vinyl record store! She is going to bump into Jess there, I can feel it!

10) Ok, no sign of Jess yet.

11) I really wanted Chad Michael Murray to be playing Tristan again. And I wanted him to ask Paris out only to have her say no

12) Where are Madeline and Louise?

13) It was so good to see Paris again! But I kind of wanted her to be more crazy-Paris!

14) Rory and Logan are still doing the whole cheating thing and being ok with it.

15) I can’t stand this musical anymore. Why the hell is it this long?? It’s not even funny!!! This time could be used to…hum… I don’t know… show Paris, or Jess, or Kirk or ANYONE!

16) I just love Kirk’s movies

17) I wasn’t that into the therapy storyline too

18) Yeah, Spring wasn’t my favorite episode

19) So…. Rory is going crazy which means Jess will be here soon to save the day

20) What did I say? Hello, Jess!

21) Yesssss, Rory, you should write that book and name it Gilmore Girls!!

22) No Paris this episode?

23) Emily is dating someone?? I don’t know why, but this seems odd, a little bit ooc

24) Ooh, there is Jason. I haven’t missed you, but it was nice to see an old face. I just hope they don’t bring Mr. Boring Man (aka Max Medina) back too

25) I’m loving Berta! and I think it was really clever to have Emily stick with this one maid that brings her whole family to the mansion other than have her change maids every episode, It says a lot about the difficult time she is having

26) We finally got to meet Lane’s father!!!

27) I really wanted a scene inside Kim’s Antiques

28) And Lorelai is still treating Jess like trash… Right now he is the most down to earth character, give him some respect

29) I’ve never been a really big fan of the Life and Death Brigade, but it was fun to watch those scenes

30) Ugh, Logan is back and him and Rory are acting like a couple again

31) I guess this means I’m supposed to stop rooting for Literati, because it’s not happening

32) Finally they broke up! Bye Logan

33) I cried so much during Lorelai’s story about Richard! It was so full of feelings and just sincere

34) Yayyyy, JavaJunkie wedding is happening people!!!!

35) The book is happening! And it is called “Gilmore Girls”, shocker!! But it’s nice though

36) SOOKIE!!! Melissa’s voice has changed A LOT!!!

37) My Literati feels are back! What if they share a beautiful dance on the wedding and then head to the lake and just spend the rest of the nigh talking? I would be ok with it!

38) OMG, Jess is so in love with her!! That window scene just killed me! They are so getting together!

39) Eloping is the option that best suits Lorelai and Luke, but there are some people missing in this wedding! Lane is there, but no Liz (I don’t even like her, but it’s her brother!) and no Jess? 

40) Ok, still waiting for Jess to show up and share that beautiful dance with Rory

41) Fine, he is not showing up

42) Lorelai: “You will find someone too”

      Rory: “Maybe I already have” (Jess appears)

      That’s what I wanted to happen

43) Mom, I’m pregnant????? ARE YOU FUCKING JOKING WITH ME ASP??? Why????? What?????? ARE YOU REALLY GOING TO LEAVE THINGS LIKE THAT? Am I just supposed to assume that Logan is the father and that Jess and Rory are going to raise the child????? I AM NOT OKAY WITH THIS. AMY, YOU COME RIGHT BACK HERE AND WRITE ANOTHER ENDING, PREFERABLY WITH ALL THE TOWNSFOLK SINGING WHERE YOU LEAD IN THE TIME SQUARE AFTER THE JAVAJUNKIE WEDDING!!!!!

megmerilees  asked:

Hi, I'm a hairstylist (and I'm also autistic, though I don't have a paper diagnosis) and I've seen lots of posts from autistic people about how getting a haircut is sensory hell. I was wondering if you or any other autistic people would be willing to offer up any advice on how I could make it a less traumatic and triggering experience for autistic people? I know that there are some things that are unavoidable, but having the tools to improve the experience would be really great.

This is a really good idea!

If my mum took me for a haircut when I was little I would have a meltdown. It was mainly because of the sensory issues, and unfamiliarity, and certain things that didn’t make sense to me. For example, someone making my hair wet when I was otherwise dry and fully clothed (I associated wet hair with being completely wet in a bath or swimming pool), and going into the building and not knowing where I would have to go and sit and there being too many chairs and people and smells and noises. I wouldn’t even make it into the chair, and my mum used to get really angry with me. I didn’t get a proper haircut until I was about 16 because of this and I still put it off or even end up trimming my hair myself rather than having to go through the ordeal of booking and getting a haircut. When I do, the same person has to do it every time and if they’re not available I just won’t get my hair cut. I also get a bit confused about whether to tip and how much to tip but I’m not sure how that could be fixed without it just being like you’re upping the price of the haircut (by specifying a reasonable amount).

The following might have helped me, and would still help me now especially if getting my hair cut in a new place:

- Being able to do a virtual tour.
- Being able to book an appointment online or by email, but still know who it’s with.
- Maybe having some example videos of what happens during a haircut (examples of clippers being used, scissors being used, to show what’s happening and also to help prepare for the noises).
- Being able to see photos of different areas and the staff and maybe examples of haircuts they’ve done.
- Quieter periods for autistic customers to get hair cuts (or perhaps booking autistic customers at the beginning of the day before things start to get busy, noisy, smelly).
- Some kind of timer to show when the haircut or when aspects of the haircut should be finished. Even if it’s impossible to say, a limit before being able to take a break might help (for example if someone hates the sound of the scissors, only using them for a few minutes and letting the person have a break to move around if they need to). This might also mean that an autistic person needs a longer appointment time to accommodate any breaks they might need to have.
- Encouraging the use of any aids that might help someone with sensory difficulties (such as earplugs, etc., just to make sure that all your customers are aware that they can use them without judgement, and to help them remember to bring them).
- Limiting the smells/amount of product used on certain days to avoid sensory overload from the smells.
- Radio on/off optional, or letting the customer bring music to put on or choose music (there might be legal issues with this, I suppose).
- Asking if they like to talk or prefer not to talk, and if not don’t ask questions or chat to them needlessly but perhaps stick to just explaining what’s happening as you are doing it.
- Be prepared to use pictures to explain things or to give options, and it might also be helpful to give the person time to think about the choice even if it seems like a fairly simple one (which might involve giving a choice and then leaving them alone for a little while to be able to think without any pressure). 
- Allow the person’s companion to sit with them, so that there’s a familiar person nearby to help with communication and to be a calming presence. 
- Using forms instead of verbal communication if preferred (so the person can specify anything they know they want (a trim, for example) and can also specify whether they’d like a drink and can choose from whatever is available.
- Make a note of what the customer had done, so that next time they can use that as a reference point (to have the same thing done, or to pick and choose which bits they liked, and to know whether they need to ask for it to be a little bit different (longer, shorter, etc).

Followers, any suggestions?

- Ben

Baby Faced

Request:  Isaac gets de-aged (to around 6ish) and Derek has no idea what to do, so he calls Stiles for help. But tiny Isaac doesn’t really trust Stiles that much.


“Stiles, get to the loft, now,” a gruff voice said in Stiles’s ear. And before Stiles could even ask what the hell was going on, Derek hung up.

“Rude,” he mumbled to himself. But, Derek never really called and was always hesitant to ask for help so Stiles knew he had to go. Just a quick text to Scott, to make sure his friend knew where he’d be in case he went missing. They didn’t really trust Derek but considering that they were still up against the Kanima and now that Kate’s dad was in town, they needed to band together. Just… just as long as Derek isn’t going to ask him to sever a limb again- Stiles had gross dreams for a week after that! He scooped up his keys and climbed into the Jeep, hoping that this didn’t take too long, he still had homework after all.

When he opened the door to the loft, Stiles didn’t immediately register what was wrong, although Isaac must have something to do with it since Derek was calling his name.

“Isaac, where are you? Come out now please,” he pleaded, crouching down to look under the table in the kitchen.

“Dude, why is Isaac hiding… wait, why would he be under the table? And why don’t you just… you know… Wolf-y senses…? Can’t be that hard to find him when he’s the only other beating heart in the loft…” Stiles asked, dumbfounded by seeing Derek so out of sorts.

“Close the door before he runs out!”

Stiles jumped at the harsh tone but quickly closed the loft door, just as he heard the pitter patter of bare feet running across the wooden floors. It wasn’t like Isaac couldn’t just bowl him over and open the door himself right? Just then, a young boy leapt over the back of the couch, curly hair bouncing. “Oh shi- is that Isaac?!”

At the sound of his voice, Isaac slid to a stop and looked up at him, eyes glowing amber. “Stranger!” he shrieked, growling and shifting.

“Isaac, no! We don’t hurt Humans,” Derek admonished, grabbing the little boy around his waist and lifting him into the air.

“I… what?” was all Stiles could say, his brain actually failing him for once. There was no doubt that the struggling child in Derek’s hands was Isaac but… “How?”

“I have no idea, we were in here training and all of a sudden, poof, Isaac is small…”

“Poof as in there was a cloud of smoke?”

Derek rolled his eyes, “No, nothing so dramatic. He kinda clutched his stomach and said he felt really funny, then he collapsed onto the floor, passed out. Just like that, he started shrinking! I’ve never seen this happen before… I have no idea…”

“Did he remember you at all? I mean, how come he thinks I’m a stranger but he’s okay with you?” This wasn’t even fair… well okay… maybe he and regular sized Isaac weren’t on the best of terms but there was no reason for kid Isaac to hate him… Kids usually loved him! “And more importantly, does he remember that he’s supposed to be… bigger?”

“Well, kind of… obviously he was just… physically de-aged because he’s still a Werewolf, because he didn’t revert back to being a Human, he hasn’t actually been forced into his own past self. And no he doens’t re- will you stop squirming?!” Derek growled out all of a sudden.

“Stranger!” Isaac said again, howling out for the rest of his Pack. They needed to get the interloper out of their den!

“Stop, Erica and Boyd aren’t here right now! And he’s not a stranger, his name is Stiles, he’s- um, a friend,” Derek explained. He’d almost called him Pack, but that would have been lie and Stiles would have probably denied it anyways. Which would have only confused Isaac even more.

Isaac wrinkled his nose, finally holding still, “St…Stiles?”

“Oh come on, it isn’t that weird- you should hear my real name if you think Stiles is bad,” he muttered to himself. “Derek, why the hell did you call me?! I thought you didn’t need my help with anything…”

“I can't… get a hold of Erica and Boyd… and Scott ignores all my calls anyways. I don't… I can’t take care of a kid! I don’t know what I’m doing…” Isaac had resumed his struggle to get away from Derek and the Alpha was obviously afraid of hurting the small Beta… but that meant his grip wasn’t firm and he’d just about dropped him on his head once already. Wow, little children certainly were agile, especially Were children. Certainly he hadn’t been this bad when he was small.

Stiles was about to tell the Alpha he could stick it where the sun doesn’t shine but then he noticed the absolute look of desperation on Derek’s face and he sighed. “Has he even eaten anything, is he hungry?”

“I don't… are you hungry Isaac? If I put you down, are you going to be nice?”

“Food!”

“That’s a yes. Now what does baby Isaac like…” Stiles wondered to himself, heading into the kitchen. “Better question… what does Derek even have to eat…”

“I have food!” Derek scoffed, setting his Beta down.

“I’m not a baby!” Isaac growled, flashing his amber eyes again.

“Sorry, toddler Isaac then,” Stiles amended while looking through the fridge. “Dude, do you have cereal? Is this milk still good? How does cereal sound Isaac?”

Isaac crossed his arms and refused to answer. Stiles was a stranger, regardless of what Alpha said and Isaac wasn’t supposed to talk to strangers. Besides, he’d just called Isaac a baby, so obviously he wasn’t to be trusted!

Derek reached over and slapped the back of Isaac’s head which promptly made Isaac cry. . He looked on, surprised, when Isaac crouched down in fear and scooted towards Stiles. Didn’t he not trust Stiles?

“Why’d you hit him?! Dude, not cool, he’s like… 6! C'mere Isaac,” Stiles called out, crouching down. Isaac took a few steps towards him and then remembered that he wasn’t Pack and froze, uncertain, with tears streaming down his cheeks. “It’s okay, I’m not going to hurt you, Derek is the one that hits children apparently,” he commented, glaring up at the Alpha.

Isaac hiccupped and wiped his face, amazed that Stiles wasn’t afraid of the Alpha. Cautiously he took a few more steps towards Stiles. Alphas were scary when they were mad and Isaac didn’t want to get punished… was Stiles really a safer choice though? The fear of getting smacked again outweighed his fear of a stranger, especially when he heard the Alpha shifting behind him. So he ran into Stiles’s arms.

“I didn’t even…. It was barely a tap… I… ugh,” Derek huffed. This is why he’d called someone- he didn’t know how to handle kids! His Betas were old enough to understand a light cuff on the back of the head, and he’d automatically did the same to this younger version of Isaac. Clearly that had been a mistake.

Stiles ignored him though, turning to Isaac, “So, is cereal okay? I found some Frosted Flakes.”

“Okay,” Isaac mumbled, still nervous about being this close to a non Packmate. When Stiles reached out to ruffle his hair, Isaac growled lightly and ducked away before going pale and looking at the ground, scared again. He wasn’t supposed to be mean to the Human and Stiles had said he wouldn’t hurt him at all so growling was probably bad.

Carefully Stiles reached out and ruffled Isaac’s curls, just to show him what he’d been planning to do. After the gentle touch, the little boy looked up at him, surprised. Stiles smiled to himself at the change in attitude. Tiny Isaac was exactly the same as big Isaac, tough on the outside but scared and nervous on the inside, not used to a gentle touch. He led Isaac over to the table and set a bowl down for him as he climbed into a chair. Then he poured out some cereal and checked the milk before adding it. “Let me know if you want more okay, don’t be afraid to ask for seconds.”

“Th-thank you,” Isaac mumbled, scooping some cereal into his mouth. Were… were Humans okay? His Wolf bristled because he didn’t smell like Pack but Alpha said he was a friend and even though he’d just growled at him, Stiles hadn’t hit him. He really wasn’t sure how to feel right now but he was hungry so he ate his cereal.

Derek stood there quietly, amazed that Stiles had adapted to this situation so quickly. It had taken him a full 20 minutes to say anything to Isaac (who had been crying then too, probably out of confusion), unsure what to expect. Thankfully he recognized that Derek was his Alpha, and that he knew he had two other Packmates but, that was about it. It was weird that, while Isaac remained a Wolf, instead of reverting back to his old self… he was still a child mentally. He didn’t remember Scott or Stiles, he didn’t remember he was really 16, he acted and spoke like he was really 6 right now. He’d never seen or heard anything like it.

Now that Isaac was eating, Stiles went back over to Derek, “So, options?”

“Only thing I can think of is a Witch, but I have no idea how or why… we haven’t seen any in Beacon Hills and I know Isaac couldn’t have come across one on his own. So why was he targeted?”

“What about Faeries? They are known to cause mischief, right? They’d have less of a reason for picking Isaac specifically.”

“I haven’t heard of any Faeries in town either… that’s the thing… I have no idea how this happened so I have no idea how to fix it…”

“Let’s take him to Deaton then,” Stiles offered. Deaton was supposed to be the expert here.

“NO! Don’t take me away!” Isaac screamed out, leaping from his chair to attack Stiles’s knees. “Alpha, don’t let him take me!” he cried, slapping and scratching Stiles’s legs. Humans weren’t to be trusted after all!

“Ow, stop it you little knee-biter! Ow! OWW! Get him offff!” Stiles yelled, stumbling backwards. Those little claws were sharp!

“Isaac calm down, he wasn’t going to take you away, Deaton is a friend too. He’s a doctor, and he’d make sure that you are okay.” Derek had tried to grab Isaac but the little toddler had scooted out of reach.

“Okay? Why wouldn’t I be okay?” he asked, backing away further. Isaac didn’t feel sick, why would he need to see a doctor? He whimpered as he noticed the blood on his fingertips and the slashes in Stiles’s pants. Afraid that the Alpha would punish him, Isaac ran up the spiral stairs and stuffed himself under the bed.

“Oh… dammit!” Derek growled, hurrying up after him.

“Wow that stings…” Stiles sighed, rolling up his jeans to get a look at his shins. “Derek you owe me a pair of pants, he’s your Beta!”

“Not now Stiles!”

The teen made a mock face and went back into the kitchen, wetting a clean dish towel so he could dab at his legs.

Upstairs, Derek was down on his stomach, trying to coax Isaac out from under the bed, “Come on, you’re okay.”

“I hurt him… and you’re mad!”

“Yes, well no… I’m not mad, I’m frustrated, it’s different. And you were scared, you thought he was talking about taking you away from me, your Alpha. But Stiles isn’t seriously hurt-”

“How would you know, you didn’t even check on me!” Stiles stated, coming up the stairs, still wiping his legs. “For all I know they won’t be able to save my legs from the extensive damage and they’re gonna have to chop them off!”

Derek rolled his eyes and clenched his jaw, “Stiles, be quiet!”

Isaac whimpered, hearing the anger in the Alpha’s voice.

“Oh calm down, I was just kidding, I mean, I’m bleeding a bit but that should stop soon enough. My pants took most of the damage anyways. Come on out bud, I’ll make sure Derek doesn’t punish you, it was an honest mistake. But next time, can we not attack the fragile Human please?”

“Y-y-you aren’t mad?” Isaac asked in a whisper.

“No, I was mostly just surprised. It hurts but I’ve had worse, and I’ll heal eventually. Derek, stop glaring, how is the poor kid supposed to believe me that he’s not in trouble when you’re looking at him like that?!”

“What? I’m not glaring… I just… this is my face!” Derek huffed and got up off of the floor. “There, I’m not ‘glaring’ at him anymore.”

“Dude, I understand that your face just does that… aggressive look,” Stiles said, gesturing to all of Derek’s face. “But remember, you’re dealing with a kid right now and your face looks super harsh. Plus… you did hit him-”

“Not even that hard, like I said, I didn’t think… I won’t do that again.”

Stiles smiled and crouched down, looking under the bed, “Hear that? He said he wasn’t going to do that anymore, so it’s okay to come out now. Why not go back downstairs and finish your cereal, okay?”

Slowly, Isaac scooted closer to the edge of the bed and crawled out, nervously looking between the two adults.

“Go on and finish your lunch Isaac,” Derek told him. They watched as he scurried back down to the kitchen and quietly sat at the table, finishing what was in his bowl.

“Seriously, until this is fixed, you can’t be a Sourwolf around him, alright? I know you might have a hard time but, gentle touches, okay? No loud voices, no snarling. You’re just gonna make the kid scared of you. Can you do that?”

“Wait, are you leaving already?!” Derek asked, eyes widening in fear.

Stiles held up a hand, “I just need to go see Deaton, see if he has any books on this. If Isaac is too nervous to leave the loft, I’ll bring the research here instead. I’ll only be like… an hour, tops. Trust me, no way am I leaving tiny Isaac in your hands… you almost dropped him on his head earlier!”

“He wouldn’t stop squirming! It isn’t my fault I don’t know how to hold a kid….”

“Well then you better learn, don’t you think? There is no telling how long he might be stuck like this,” Stiles stated, hands on his hips. “Think you can handle him for an hour?”

Derek rolled his eyes, “Yea, we’ll be fine, just hurry. And here… buy some kid snacks or whatever- for Isaac, not you!” Derek reached into his pocket, fishing some money out of his wallet for Stiles.

“I would never!” Stiles shrieked, looking offended. “Accusing me of taking food from a child’s mouth, rude!”

As the two of them went back downstairs and Stiles said a quick goodbye to Isaac, the small Beta turned to Derek. “He’s weird…” Isaac had no idea how to feel about the strange Human coming in their den but… he had been nice at least.

Derek smiled, “You don’t know how right you are kid.”

how to have a Really Good Summer

summer is great and you look forward to it all year right?? then how does it always seem like when the week before school hits you feel like you didnt do anything you wanted to do????? here is a list of things to make you feel better at the end of the summer

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anonymous asked:

I was never smart enough as a child to realize the awesomeness of comic books and now I don't have any time to read them. From the little I have read, I am not that impressed with MJ. I really want to like her though -- would you mind telling me about her better qualities?

O.o You want me to talk about MJ?? 

I never thought I would get to talk about her! Not because someone asked, at least!

MJ isn’t exactly an easy character. She’s wonderfully flawed. But few people address where those flaws actually come through. And, to be honest, my love for MJ might be more because I relate to her struggles. 

MJ’s father was an alcoholic (as was my step-father), who married too young, had children too young, and moved his family around a lot because of his own failures. (My mom was the one who moved us around, but I can still relate.) 

To hide how much she was going through at home, MJ became the class clown and the life of her party. No one knew what was going on at home, because she never let it show. Her mother put up with his bitterness, right up until the point he hit MJ’s older sister Gayle because of how much her ballet lessons cost.

Her mother got nothing in the divorce, so they were shuffled around from relative to relative. Still moving around. MJ still pretending that everything was fine, even though the people they lived with were always resentful. When she was 13 they finally settled in with an uncle who wasn’t the easiest person to get along with, but it was still some stability. 

This was also the first time she saw Peter, when she went to visit the aunt who lived next door to the Parkers. May and Anna were always talking about trying to set them up, but MJ avoided it. 

Her sister got married when she was 18 (following her mother’s mistakes). And he - just like MJ’s father - resented being stuck with a wife and a child at such a young age. When Gayle got pregnant a second time, he walked out. 

And MJ saw it coming, because she could see the same caged expression in him that she saw in her father. So she kept pretending everything was fine, even though she knew she wanted so much more than what she had in life. She was already taking acting classes. 

It was also about this time that, when she was staying with her aunt, she saw Spider-Man climb out Peter Parker’s window the night his uncle was killed. A secret she kept for YEARS, never telling anyone. Not even letting Peter know that she knew until he was ready. 

She was already fascinated with Spidey at this point, because she felt she related to him. They both had a mask to hide behind, and she thought he was like her in being determined to enjoy life. (Peter might not agree with that, but it helped MJ.)

When her mom died, Gayle made it clear she expected MJ to stay and help raise her two children. Considering she was barely 16, can you really blame her for running away? 

For a while she stayed with her aunt, but she get jobs waiting tables, dancing at disco clubs, and finally put down the payment to get her own apartment. 

When she and Peter do finally meet for the first time, while they talk, he asks if she wants to be an actress, based on what she had said. She tells him “I am an actress. It’s just a matter of time before this big, bouncing blue world notices.” 

This is a girl who has been through hell. Add on the fact that, as she tells Peter much later, all her life people have come up to her and told her things they would never tell anyone else. (I’m sure we all want to pretend that Gwen Stacy’s twins never happened, but it did, and MJ had to keep that secret on top of everything else.) It’s something else I can relate to, since I’ve had people do the same with me. (When I was 18 my sister’s teacher asked my advice on whether or not she should give up teaching and do something else.)

In addition: she and Gwen Stacey were best friends, before Gwen - you know - DIED. And despite her own grief, MJ was the one who helped Peter get through that. She has dealt with disappointments in her acting career (which never really took off, and, when she finally came close, it was during Civil War, when the “wife of Spider-Man” thing cut it short.) 

She has been loyal to Peter, even during the darkest times of their relationships. She has been, arguably, the light of his life. 

She has had friends die, overdoes on drugs, and turn evil and try to kill her. 

She has been kidnapped, threatened, and held hostage, both by her own fans, and because of Peter. 

Again, this is a girl who has been to hell and back multiple times. But she still maintains a positive attitude. She still keeps moving forward. 

Does she have flaws? Yes, absolutely. But I think that’s what makes her such an amazing character to me. (There’s also the fact she and I are both redheads.) 

Admittedly, I am still in denial over everything that has happened… well, since House of M, actually. I’m still furious over the end of her and Peter’s marriage, but I won’t get started on that. 

…I think that’s everything? 

I’m still seething that the movies just cannot seem to get MJ right. It’s like they just look at the surface - red haired super model with a rough childhood - without giving any thought to just how much depth her character actually has! Even the comics do this sometimes, and that makes me mad too. 

A while back Marvel released a treasury called Mary Jane: Face It Tiger, You Just Hit the Jackpot, which contains all the most important issues about MJ and her relationship with Peter. Including their walk through central park when she finally told him her backstory. 

I’m not very good at organizing my thoughts, so hopefully I’ve managed to convey some of what I love about this character. Or in not - at least why she is the way she is.

anonymous asked:

When would you tell an artist to give up on what they are doing even if it's they're lifelong dream? Would it be when it's clear they have no chance in hell of achieving it, don't have talent, or what?

I wouldn’t. That’s ridiculous, short sighted, and cruel.

What I would tell someone, if they were struggling and things weren’t working out, is to take a self-reflective look at why they’re struggling. There are a lot of questions you have to ask yourself about your work to make sure it’s the best work it can be. Here are only a few examples:

  • Why are you making artwork? Are you doing it to make money (hint: if you say yes, you’re going to fail)? Are you doing it because you love it?
  • What is driving you to make this work? Do you have an internal desire to create? Why? Is it because you have a need to see alien worlds? A need to see fantastical characters? A desire to show the mood you’re feeling when you look at a landscape? Do you hate your parents and you want to show those feelings to the world? Are you trying to challenge other people’s idea of what art even is? Are you trying to shock the world out of complacency by depicting an atrocity that is happening right under their nose? Do you just enjoy making cool mugs to drink out of?
  • What are your goals with your art? Do you want to become a world famous photographer? Do you want to do illustration work for magazines? Do you want a comic in the local paper? Do you despise the local paper and want your comic in some weird indie magazine about the punk scene? Do you want to own your own gallery where you can put up your own art, but also have other artists join in? Do you want to do character design for a television show? Do you want to do costume design for a movie? Do you want to see your work being worn by people at ren fairs?
  • Who are you making this for? Are you making it for someone else? Are you making it for yourself? If you’re making work for others, are you making it for the right people? What is the market for your work? Who would buy the sort of thing that you’re making? Are you making things that you yourself can be proud of and enjoy making and that it’s something those people would want? Are you making it for people who would actually appreciate what you’ve made?
  • To whom are you comparing yourself? Are you a 16 year old kid who’s been drawing since they were two comparing themselves to a 46 year old person who’s been drawing since they were two? Are you comparing your sketches and napkin drawings to someone else’s finished work?
  • Where are you selling your work? Are you in a trailer on a ranch in Kansas selling artwork off your porch and wondering why people aren’t buying oil paintings of fairies? Are you growing up in the most conservative district in Minnesota and annoyed that people aren’t into your pictures of robots? (I’ve been there…)
  • Where are you making your work? Is it in a safe environment that is conducive to making art or is it the school cafeteria where people call you a fag and a loner for drawing in the corner?
  • How are you working on it? Do you stop working on it before it’s done and move on to some other idea or piece? Are you not even finishing the art that you have?
  • How are you advertising your art? Are you ever actually taking the time to go out and try to sell your work and show it to people or are you hoping that one day someone is just going to walk up to you and somehow know that you make amazing art and you should be famous?
  • When are you spending the time to make your art? When are you practicing? Are you doing it at night for 5-10 minutes before bed? Are you making art once a month? Are you drawing every day? Are you doodling half a doodle and then wondering why your stuff isn’t looking better? Are you taking classes? Are you taking the time to draw from life? Are you reading books about art? Are you reading tutorials by your favorite artists? Are you a part of any local art community to help you improve? What are you doing to be proactive about your work?

So all in all, I wouldn’t tell someone to give up, but I certainly would tell someone to be realistic about their goals. If you’re someone who is sitting at home, not drawing every day, not putting their all into improving their work, and hoping that maybe someday someone will notice your art on deviant art and try to hire you, I’d say you’re being extremely unrealistic. However, I’ve never met someone who did all the work to achieve success in their art, that hasn’t achieved some level of it.

It’s extremely hard work. You can go ahead and try to give up, but you won’t be able to because you’re an artist. You’re gonna keep making shit no matter what. So you might as well figure out what the problems are so you can fix them and start doing something about it. I mean what’s better for your life overall? Taking a little time to be self-reflective, critical, and proactive now, or wallowing in self-pity and hoping it’ll all work out somehow?

anonymous asked:

Would you still be supportive of Harry if he came out but his boyfriend was someone other than Louis ? No hate, but as time goes on it looks so unlikely that Louis and Harry are together. Still believe they are friends, just can't see anything romantic. Plus we all change so much from when we are 16/19. I know you don't agree and that's fine, but do you ever have ANY doubts? How would you feel seeing Harry in love with someone else/ not Louis?

I appreciate this being written civilly, but you can couch this in carefully polite hypotheticals as much as you want, it’s still clear as day that you’re yet another Hazoff anon, here to poke the bear because no one supports your OTP.  

Sorry, but ‘as time goes on it looks so unlikely that Louis and Harry are together’ is total crap. Total absolute crap. We have mountains of evidence that they’re together and literally nothing to indicate that they’ve broken up.

Just because Harry is publicly spending time with a friend (who, I might remind you, is straight), doesn’t mean that he’s fucking them or dating them and to assume otherwise is to buy into the repulsive media narrative that Harry cannot and will not be friends with anyone without putting his dick in them. 

I’m telling you, as an adult with a brain in my head, a good sense of critical analysis and as someone who puts a hell of a lot of research into things before I believe them, that I literally have no doubts (count them - zero, zip, nada) that Harry and Louis are together. That’s not hyperbole, that’s not bravado or bluster, that’s me stating the complete and honest truth - I believe, hell, I know down to my bones that Harry and Louis are togetherYou’re more than welcome to think that me and mine are crazy, or desperate or deluded or clinging to the past; it’s only fitting given that I think you and yours are unobservant, kinda gullible and have terribly short attention spans. 

So to answer your entirely hypothetical question - if (in an alternative universe where either Louis doesn’t exist or where he and Harry had never met) Harry had a different boyfriend, would I support him? Absolutely

I would always be delighted to watch Harry Styles fall in love with someone who was going love and cherish him, grow with him, learn and love all of the little details and idiosyncrasies that make up his personality, laugh at his terrible jokes and buy him headscarves and glitterboots and running shoes, just because. Someone who values him as a person and is amazed by his kind, sweet nature and routinely shocked and delighted by just how filthy his mind can be. Someone who Harry can be domestic with, who he can show he cares by cooking for and looking after; someone he can build a life and a home with and one day, start a family with.

Of course I would want to see that and would be 100% supportive. Lucky for me, all of that is exactly what I’ve had a chance to witness Harry experience during my time in this fandom; with Louis.

That other guy, that falling in love with/dating/fucking people who aren’t Louis Tomlinson version of Harry Styles? That’s AU Harry, that’s fanfiction Harry, that’s official 1DHQ narrative Harry, that’s tabloid magazine Harry; he doesn’t exist. 

And the only ‘other people’ we’re going to see Harry fall in love with are his and Louis’ kids the day they’re born. 

yay questions ~
  • 1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? - I think I wanna date this one kid but idk man
  • 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? - nope
  • 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? - I would be happy
  • 4: Do you find it easy to trust others? - nope
  • 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? - I was at a concert
  • 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? - probably my friend B
  • 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? - I'd cry and then probably punch the person who cheated on me
  • 8: Are you close with your dad? - nope
  • 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? - no :(
  • 10: What are you listening to? - my brother and my friend C talking
  • 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? - water
  • 12: Do you like hickeys? - I like them as long as they're not insanely visible because my parents get pissy
  • 13: What time do you go to bed? - depends, mostly around midnight
  • 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? - yeah
  • 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? - not quite
  • 16: Do you always answer your texts? - yeah I feel bad if I don't
  • 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? - no because I haven't gotten over him yet
  • 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? - a minute ago
  • 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? - yeah, C
  • 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? - I set my alarm
  • 21: Is anyone else in the room with you? - not anymore but a second ago it was my friend C and my brother
  • 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? - I don't know really
  • 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? - yeah
  • 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? - yeah
  • 25: In the past week, have you cried? - yeah I cried ten minutes ago because my mum was being mean
  • 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? - light purple
  • 27: Do people ever call you by your last name? - no
  • 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?- yeah actually
  • 29: Do you have a best friend? - I think so yep
  • 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? - it is currently hard, because he's dating someone and they fucking make out and grope right next to me
  • 31: Who was your last call/text message from? - my nana
  • 32: Are you mad at anyone? - yeah
  • 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? - yeah everyone I've kissed has been older than me
  • 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? - uhh he just turned 16 in october so he'd be 17
  • 35: How many more days until your birthday? - 283
  • 36: Do you have any summer plans yet? - nope
  • 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? - yeah
  • 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? - yep
  • 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? - yeah
  • 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - yeah
  • 41: Do you think age matters in relationships? - not unless it's either illegal or a super huge gap
  • 42: Are you available? - yeah
  • 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? - I'm still in high school
  • 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? - belly button, I want one sooo bad. And I want a nose piercing
  • 45: Do you believe exes can be friends? - yeah I'm really good friends with an ex now
  • 46: Do you regret anything? - hell yeah
  • 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? - going to sleep
  • 48: Did you ever lose a best friend? - yeah
  • 49: Was your last kiss a mistake? - no
  • 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? - because he's my best friend and I don't wanna fuck that up like I did last time
  • 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? - yeah
  • 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? - yeah, but it's weird now. We're trying to work it out
  • 53: What was the last thing you ate? - a rolo
  • 54: Did you get any compliments today? - yeah about my hair
  • 55: Where are you going on your next vacation? - february
  • 56: Do you own anything from other countries? - yeah, I have a bracelet from Afghanistan, a scarf and some jewelry from Spain, a bracelet from France, a scarf and a few shirts from Canada, a hat and dress from Aruba, and a bunch of dresses and shirts from St. Maarten
  • 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? - most are guys
  • 58: Where have you lived most of your life? - I've lived in America my whole life
  • 59: When was the last time you took a long drive? - earlier tonight we visited my nana which is an hour away
  • 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? - no
  • 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? - no
  • 62: Who do you text the most? - either J or C
  • 63: What was the last movie you saw? - Star Trek
  • 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? - I'm single
  • 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? - one
  • 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? - no, older
  • 67: Do you curse around your parents? - yeah, everything except for fuck and cunt
  • 68: Are you happy with where you live? - for now
  • 69: Picture of yourself? - nah
  • 70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? - monogamous
  • 71: Have you ever been dumped? - yeah
  • 72: What do you most like about making out? - hearing the other person make those little sounds
  • 73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? - no
  • 74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? - other person
  • 75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? - depends on the person and gender. For guys I really like jawbones and eyes. For girls I really like lips and eyes.
  • 76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? - C
  • 77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? - no
  • 78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? - no
  • 79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? - C
  • 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? - depends on when and how I'm doing in life
  • 81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? - yeah
  • 82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? - no
  • 83: Do you miss your last sweetie? - yeah
  • 84: Last time you slow danced with someone? - over the summer
  • 85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? - no
  • 86: How can I win your heart? - cuddles
  • 87: What is your astrological sign? - Virgo
  • 88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? - I was at a concert
  • 89: Do you cook? - yep
  • 90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? - um no
  • 91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? - yeah
  • 92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? - monogamous relationships
  • 93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? - pretty eyes... uh I prefer not super skinny people
  • 94: Name four things that you wish you had! - love, happiness, unlimited concert tickets, unlimited hippie clothing
  • 95: Are you a player? - no
  • 96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? - no
  • 97: Are you a tease? - not for real
  • 98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? - no
  • 99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? - yeah
  • 100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? - yeah
  • 101: Hugs or Kisses? - both? If I have to choose then hugs
  • 102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? - most of the time
  • 103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? - generally hair
  • 104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? - if I want them too then yes
  • 105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? - no
  • 106: Do you flirt a lot? - yeah
  • 107: Your last kiss? - like two months ago with J
  • 108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? - no
  • 109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? - no
  • 110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? - C
  • 111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? - hopefully it's who I want
  • 112: Does someone like you currently? - I think so
  • 113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? - yeah
  • 114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? - serious relationships
  • 115: Ever made out with just a friend? - no
  • 116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? - in a relationship
  • 117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.

widowgaycer  asked:

I need armour help, I don't know if you do that but I thought I'd ask. Basically, one of my characters has feathered wings growing from her back. They're big and can't be removed. She gets into fights a lot, and so she needs some kind of protective armour, but the issue is finding armour I can work around those wings. She lives in the modern day, and since she's Chinese and kind of traditional, I was thinking some kind of Chinese armour, but I can't make it work. Thanks in advance!

Okay, so, two or three problems here.

Traditional Armor; I’m going to go out on a limb here and assume you mean historical armor. There’s a reason why you don’t see people busting out kendo gear or fencing armor outside of the sports that call for them. It’s the same reason that soldiers don’t go into combat in football/rugby gear. It’s not going to protect you from the threats your facing.

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