you don't understand i'm so bored

shadow side pfff
  • aries 7th house: just!! let me!! do what i want!!! i'm!!! not!!! mad!!! i'm just trying to keep the peace, hunty!!!
  • taurus 7th house: a highkey foodie who won't stop touching everything and i don't understand why others are navigated by the materials in life
  • gemini 7th house: gossipy, easily bored, and is two people at all times but can't understand why people act fake
  • cancer 7th house: a playground full of mood swings and needs constant reassurance but guys, i'm so boss and got my shit together
  • leo 7th house: always needs attention yet hates it because they're their own person and i'm an outcast but ughhh come back and stroke my eg- haha jk...well i mean unless you want to..haha...plz
  • virgo 7th house: criticizes everyone else because of their own inability to face themselves objectively
  • libra 7th house: gives vague replies to any question because i don't have to explain myself to you because i know who i am...clearly
  • scorpio 7th house: pulls crazy stunts out of spite but i swear i'm such a stable person, ya know?
  • sagittarius 7th house: has this huge will to live and explore but can't focus on one thing long enough to do anything
  • capricorn 7th house: highkey wants to be the most established and respected person of all time but won't stop being temperamental for 5 seconds
  • aquarius 7th house: won't stop talking about how everything they do is original and likes things because 'its different'
  • pisces 7th house: is in their own little world at all times and is always confused when someone calls them out
Melodrama sentence starters
  • "I know about what you did and I wanna scream the truth."
  • "You're such a damn liar."
  • "Thought you said that you would always be in love, but you're not in love no more."
  • "Did it frighten you how we kissed when we danced on the light up floor?"
  • "Honey, I'll be seein' you wherever I go."
  • "I'm waiting for it, that green light, I want it."
  • "I'll come get my things, but I can't let go."
  • "Played it so nonchalant, it's time we danced with the truth."
  • "I'm acting like I don't see."
  • "My hips have missed your hips."
  • "Will you sway with me?"
  • "We're King and Queen of the weekend."
  • "Ain't a pill that could touch our rush."
  • "But what will we do when we're sober?"
  • "These are the games of the weekend."
  • "We pretend that we just don't care."
  • "I know you're feeling it, too."
  • "Don't know you super well, but I think that you might be the same as me."
  • "Let's let things come out of the woodwork."
  • "I'll give you my best side, tell you all my best lies."
  • "Know I think you're awesome, right?"
  • "Blowing shit up with homemade dynamite."
  • "Might get your friend to drive, but he can hardly see."
  • "I guess we're partying."
  • "You know it's really gonna blow."
  • "Half of my wardrobe is on your bedroom floor."
  • "I am your sweetheart psychopathic crush."
  • "I overthink your punctuation use."
  • "A rush at the beginning, I get caught up, just for a minute."
  • "Lover, you're the one to blame, all that you're doing."
  • "Can you hear the violence?"
  • "Blow all my friendships to sit in hell with you."
  • "We're the greatest, they'll hang us in the Louvre, down the back, but who cares - still the Louvre."
  • "You are not my type, still I fall."
  • "I'm just the sucker who let you fill her mind."
  • "Baby really hurt me."
  • "He don't wanna know me, says he made the big mistake of dancing in my storm, says it was poison."
  • "I guess I'll go home."
  • "I'll go home into the arms of the girl that I love."
  • "She's so hard to please, but she's a forest fire."
  • "You're a little much for me."
  • "You're a liability, you're a little much for me."
  • "The truth is I am a toy that people enjoy 'til all of the tricks don't work anymore and then they are bored of me."
  • "Better on my own."
  • "I understand, I'm a liability."
  • "Get you wild, make you leave."
  • "I'm a little much for everyone."
  • "You're all gonna watch me disappear into the sun."
  • "Please could you be tender, and I will sit close to you."
  • "Let's give it a minute before we admit that we're through."
  • "I remember the rush when forever was us, before all of the winds of regret and mistrust."
  • "Our love is a ghost."
  • "Well I guess I should go."
  • "Alone with the hard feelings of love."
  • "God I wish I believed you when you told me this was my home."
  • "I light all the candles, cut flowers for all my rooms. I care for myself the way I used to care about you."
  • "I care for myself the way I used to care about you."
  • "These days, we kiss and we keep busy."
  • "Three years, loved you every single day."
  • "It was real for me."
  • "Now I'll fake it every single day 'til I don't need fantasy."
  • "I still remember everything, how we'd drift buying groceries, how you'd dance for me."
  • "I'll start letting go of little things 'til I'm so far away from you."
  • "Bet you wanna rip my heart out."
  • "Bet you wanna skip my calls now."
  • "Well guess what? I like that."
  • "I'm gonna mess your life up, gonna wanna tape my mouth shut."
  • "We're a loveless generation."
  • "We're a loveless generation; all fuckin' with our lover's heads."
  • "Know you won't remember in the morning."
  • "All the glamour, and the trauma, and the fucking melodrama."
  • "They'll talk about us, all the lovers, how we kissed and killed each other."
  • "We told you this was melodrama."
  • "You're walking out to be a good man for someone else."
  • "Sorry I was never good like you."
  • "Hated hearing my name on the lips of a crowd."
  • "Did my best to exist just for you."
  • "Bet you rue the day you kissed a writer in the dark."
  • "She's gonna play and sing and lock you in her heart."
  • "I'll love you 'til my breathing stops."
  • "I'll love you 'til you call the cops on me."
  • "I'll find a way to be without you, babe."
  • "I still feel you, now and then."
  • "When you see me, will you say I've changed?"
  • "I love it here since I've stopped needing you."
  • "I am my mother's child."
  • "We keep trying to talk about us."
  • "I'm someone you maybe might love."
  • "I'll be your quiet afternoon crush, be your violent overnight rush."
  • "I fall into continents and cars, all the stages and the stars."
  • "In my head, I do everything right."
  • "When you call, I'll forgive and not fight."
  • "Ours are the moments I play in the dark."
  • "We were wild and fluorescent, come home to my heart."
  • "Maybe all this is the party, maybe we just do it violently."
  • "You're not what you thought you were."
  • "Every night, I live and die."
  • "It's just another graceless night."
  • "I hate the headlines and the weather."
  • "I'm 19 and I'm on fire."
  • "When we're dancing, I'm alright."
  • "This is how we get notorious."
  • "We are young and we're ashamed."
  • "All of our heroes fading."
  • "I can't stand to be alone."
  • "Let's go to perfect places."
  • "Let's kiss and then take off our clothes."
  • "All the nights spent off our faces."
  • "What the fuck are perfect places anyway?"
  • "All the nights spent off our faces, trying to find these perfect places."

anonymous asked:

Let's say America, England, Prussia, Germany, and Romano were out with their S/O one day, and they saw a not-good person from their S/O's past, (bully, parent, sibling, relative ex SO, ex friend, etc) and they try to approach them, causing the S/o to panic. What would the country do? (I'm so sorry for this long / possibly boring ask! And if you don't want to answer it then I understand.)

Oh hun I don’t think this ask is boring at all! Of course I’ll do it, thanks a lot for sending it in! So for this ask, I just went off the assumption that the countries don’t know why their s/o is so upset, because they’re not aware of the history. I hope that’s alright dear and that my response brings some cheer to your day~!


America: The moment Alfred sees how upset his s/o is at this person from their past coming close, he’ll become very protective of his s/o. He’s the Hero after all, he’s not going to leave his s/o defenseless! If his s/o is really panicking bad, he’ll pull them away from the situation because he doesn’t want them even near this person that’s freaking them out so much. After they’re at a safe spot, he’ll do his best to calm them down, probably by buying them something to nibble on and cracking jokes to distract them. Once they’re alright, he’ll definitely want to know why they reacted the way that they did. Did that person ever hurt them? If so, his s/o might have a problem with Alfred trying to get up and go hunt down that person, but he would at least take his s/o home before that because they’re his first priority.

England: Even though Arthur doesn’t understand what’s happening, he doesn’t need to. What’s important to him is that his s/o is really upset right now and he needs to change that. He definitely wouldn’t even bother with this person coming over, just walk away with his s/o as if they don’t even exist. They’re clearly not worth his time and energy anyway. His main goal will be taking his s/o home (unless they don’t want to) and making sure that they’re okay. He’ll make them some calming tea and drink it with them, occasionally squeezing his s/o’s hand reassuringly. He recognizes that it was a bit of an extreme reaction, so he’ll want to know why his s/o got so upset. He won’t push them to talk about it if they don’t want to though, because he’s just happy nothing bad happened.

Prussia: Gilbert’s immediate reaction to seeing how panicked and frightened his s/o is would be to step in front of them to block the person. If they try to go around him or confront him about why he’s not letting them near his s/o, he’ll get super rude with them. Either way though, he’d be confident in his ability to keep his s/o safe and after sending a nasty glare the person’s way, he’d try to bring his s/o’s attention to something else. They’d walk away and he’d take them to do something fun, whatever they want! Meanwhile, as his s/o is calming down, he’d be keeping a wary eye out for the person trying to approach again, even if they’re in a completely new location. Once the day is over and they’re home, he’d let his s/o know they can talk to him about it if they want. Also, do they need him to beat anybody up because he can do that for them easily. He’d be happy to just spend the night chilling with his s/o too though.

South Italy: He’d be a bit unsure how to handle the situation at first. He doesn’t know the story behind his s/o’s fear and he’s not exactly the best at confronting potentially dangerous situations. However, Romano does have quite an attitude so when he realizes his s/o is really upset, he’ll snap at the person coming close. He’ll tell them to back off, probably cursing at them or throwing an insult and then hurry away with his s/o as fast as possible. He’d definitely just want to get out of there, whatever they were doing can wait till tomorrow. His s/o is more important anyway. Once they’re home, he’d again be a bit worried because he’s not sure how to go about making them feel better. In the end, he’ll just get stressed out himself and pull them in for a hug, rubbing their back until they’ve calmed down. If they want to talk, he’s fine with that because he’s there for them, as long as they feel better. 

Germany: He’s honestly caught being aggressive towards this person and immediately helping out his s/o. Ludwig definitely doesn’t like that just this person’s presence can upset his s/o this much, it will make him suspect something deeper. He would decide to just leave with his s/o, but if this person tries to talk to them at all, all he’ll need to do is glare to get them to back off. He’ll take his s/o home and bring his dogs all in for a massive cuddle with his s/o, to cheer them up and calm them down. As they’re playing and petting the dogs, he’d keep wondering to himself why that person made his s/o react the way they did. He’s very worried for them and so he’ll ask them about it, plain and simple. He’ll end up being extra cautious whenever they go out in the future, though he’ll try not to let his s/o know. He just really wants to make sure that doesn’t happen again and that his s/o is happy.

-Mod Lily

anonymous asked:

Could you explain how boredom works with ADHD? I don't understand how I could get bored during e.g. car journeys - the view outside changes all the time from signs to read, trees to marvel at, etc, I'm probably singing a Christmas carol in my head, planning my birthday party and wondering how to make lemon meringue pie. How could I be bored when there's so much going on inside my head? But when there's many activities I could do I'll often get bored because none of them seems interesting enough.

Sometimes “bored” means “I can’t move enough and scenery is scenery, you’ve seen one tree you’ve seen them all”; sometimes it means “I don’t know what to do right now”; and sometimes it means “doing stuff is hard even when I want to do something.” From what I can tell, the neurotypical definition of “bored” is different from the ADHD definition, because our experience of what we can do that is actually interesting is vastly different.

-J

nobodies-hippie  asked:

I wish I hadn't been discouraged from drawing animals, I used to love drawing horses and dogs and dragony things but I got told by my art teacher that it was too "twee" and I wouldnt get taken seriously. Your art is wonderful and you're still in school so its obviously something you can put your all into and looking through your blog always makes me think "what if" you know. I'm still proud of the art I make but I don't love it in the same way :/ sorry for moping, I'm proud of your art

I’m glad you dig my art dude, thank you so much! And pfft, I say your art teacher is the one who should not be taken seriously. What kind of educator puts their student down like that? I’d understand if their point was that instead of drawing nothing but animals, you should practice different techniques and draw from life and all that “”boring”” stuff, but that doesn’t mean you have to spend all of your time studying the fundamentals of art. It’s important to keep that fire inside of you burning and allow yourself to draw whatever the hell you want every now and again. I’m so sorry the things your teacher said caused you to feel bad about drawing stuff you enjoy making art of. I genuinely hope you’ll manage to find that passion for art once again

(I’m not in school actually, I have a non-art related job but I do study at home and sacrifice most of my free time for art!)

anonymous asked:

Do you agree with what many showrunners fear re: the Moonlighting curse -- that once a pair is together, it's boring? Even Eliza said it would be boring to have Bellarke bc 'they'd be happy and then what'? As shippers we want them happy, but as storytellers, is it boring especially in this genre of tv? This show is a tragedy/angst-fest, so I wonder if making a happy couple of your leads is considered stale from a writer's POV - like they don't find it exciting to write? I'm curious to understand

Hmmm, I agree to a certain extent. Some couples are kind of boring to watch after they get together. But I don’t blame that on any sort of curse - to do so is a writer’s cop-out. It more-so lies in an issue with the way the writer’s are choosing to develop their romantic relationships in the long-term versus pursuing actual canon relationships themselves.

We have to ask ourselves these questions:

a) Is the relationship dependent on the will-they-won’t-they trope in order to function?

For this one, I think of Ross and Rachel from Friends as being a prime example. For ten seasons, the question of whether or not they would get together in the end was one of the largest focuses on the show. In fact, I’d say a significant portion of Ross’s storyline as a character (and Rachel as well, although I think her storyline actually had more to it) revolved around the journey and evolution of his relationship to Rachel. Say they got together in Season 6. For real this time, no more “breaks” or complications … Then what?

Would Ross and Rachel be considered the iconic pairing that many believe it to be (regardless of your personal feelings on the pair, I’m not a huge fan of them myself but)? Probably not.

It’s important to note, however, that it has more to do with a conscious decision on the writer’s part to drag out the ship and constantly have Ross and Rachel struggle with their feelings and milk the hell out of the will-they-won’t-they trope in order to best entertain their viewers. In the case of Ross and Rachel, the entire relationship pretty much depended on them never becoming full-out canon until the very end of the show for that story to work.

To apply this situation to Bellarke, I don’t think we need to worry too much. Because, as much as the media likes to refer to Bellarke as a will-they-won’t-they ship, the narrative itself has never actively strung the readers along in the same way. Mostly because the show itself and Bellamy and Clarke’s respective character arc’s don’t actually revolve around each other. Which means that they can still have an interesting relationship (and an interesting story) without relying on the potential romantic aspect of their relationship to carry them. Obviously, the question on whether they’ll become romantic or not is still there (and there are still many narrative reasons to suggest that it will), but the relationship itself doesn’t function only because of the will-they-won’t-they trope.

Basically, what that means is that Bellarke can develop in any way and their story can still continue. Unlike with Ross and Rachel, it doesn’t depend on the question of their feelings for each other in order to function.

b) Does the story itself end when the romantic pairing gets together (aka. an ultimate resolution to whatever the conflict in the show/book/piece of literature is)?

This is more specific to the romance genre, which quite literally revolves around the romantic couple itself. In a lot of romantic stories, the story ends when the couple finds a way to finally be happy together. And that’s it. And if you think about it, wouldn’t The Notebook be kind of boring if Noah and Allie just got together and instead of focusing on the conflict in their relationship, just let them be happy and carry on? Not much of a story to tell, is there?

But that’s the nature of the genre. It’s interesting to me that you mentioned that perhaps the sci-fi genre makes canon romantic couples especially boring. I actually disagree. Because the plot doesn’t revolve around/depend on romantic couples in order to continue, I think that actually makes it a lot easier for writers to have canon relationships that are still interesting. Those relationships don’t have to move the plot like they do in the romance genre, so it’s possible for them to exist and the story to still be suspenseful and intriguing.

So contrary to what you say, I think that the fact that Bellarke exists in a plot that is constantly moving and changing, even without their relationship, actually bodes quite well. It means that there is opportunity for that relationship to develop romantically and yet never become boring, because of the nature of the story (where stuff is ALWAYS happening and changing, which means that our characters/relationships are always changing too).

c) Will all conflict within a relationship be resolved by making it romantic, thus making it relatively uneventful and “boring”?

This is more specific to relationships where the main focus/conflict in their relationship is that they’re NOT together. Whether it’s because they’re struggling with their feelings for each other, or because they’re part of a love triangle (in some cases) or some other instance where any issues in their relationship that can be resolved by finally becoming canon - that’s what this question is specific to. I think that a lot of couples that are commonly referred to as slowburns fall under this section. Think Chuck and Blair in Gossip Girl. They hooked up and they tried having a relationship but it was never really some solid thing until the end of the series. And then there was nowhere else to run with it, right? The conflict was resolved (and oh my was there a lot of conflict in Chuck and Blair’s relationship :/) so the relationship wasn’t interesting anymore. It literally depended on the constant angst and denial of feelings and fighting and etc, etc.

Again, to bring it back to Bellarke, I really don’t think this situation applies to them because the conflict in their relationship has never been about them struggling with their romantic feelings for each other. It has always been about something else, so if they became romantic, it wouldn’t be a barrier to any interesting conflict/resolution the writers intend to pursue in the relationship. Therefore, their relationship wouldn’t automatically become “boring” just because they’re in an established relationship.

d) Is there room for the relationship to continue developing after becoming canonically romantic?

This is probably the most important question of all of them, and the one I was mostly referring to when I said that I don’t really believe in the moonlighting curse versus poor writing decisions. When writers are writing a slow burn, and they only focus on the lead-up to that relationship becoming romantic but NEVER consider what will happen after they finally reach that point … that’s where they run into troubles. THAT’S when it becomes boring. Why?

Because the relationship has already reached it’s endgame. It’s developed to the highest possible point that the writers ever planned for. They didn’t think about where they wanted that relationship to go after it became canonically romantic; therefore, it stops developing and becomes stagnant.

It has nothing to do with the couple or the characters themselves, and everything to do with the writer and their lack of vision beyond the ultimate goal (a kiss/love confession/established relationship/whatever it is).

This the question we’re currently facing with Bellarke, and here’s what we need to consider:

Is there room for Bellarke to develop after they become romantic? And the answer is this: yes, absolutely. There is ALWAYS room for development. It just depends on how committed to the relationship the writers are, and if they can continue to think of ways to keep the couple interesting and develop it.

In the case of The 100, it’s not as concerning, because the show has typically focused on the development and conflict between characters in relationships that are not necessarily romantic in nature. What this means is that the conflicts they’re used to telling don’t typically revolve around the transition from a non-romantic couple to romantic couple itself. Which means that any relationship probably won’t remain stagnant even after becoming romantic, so long as it gets sufficient focus. For more minor characters, their relationships won’t be developed as much. But since we already know that Bellamy and Clarke are the core of the show (confirmed by Jason Rothenberg himself), it’s pretty safe to say that the writers will never just let that relationship become stagnant. It’s essential to the story that it is constantly changing and evolving.

This is basically my extremely long-winded way of saying that I don’t think it’s really likely (or even possible??) for Bellarke’s relationship to ever become completely stagnant and boring because of the nature of the show, and their significance to the plot.

You brought up a quote from Eliza that she said and I’m not quite sure if it was a recent one or a different one I’m thinking of from back during Season 1. If it’s the latter, that was a long time ago and she said that she thinks it would be better to draw the relationship out a bit more. This is because slow burns are typically more interesting to viewers AND writers and are a lot more satisfying to watch. It doesn’t mean that the couple will never get together, it just means that it’s going to be a long journey. What I think Eliza was referring to is when a pair gets together almost right away and then it just feels … kind of pointless? Personally, I agree that those relationships are boring. They don’t do it for me. I like to see the characters grow and develop with each other first, and then become romantic.

A well-done slow burn (like Eliza was talking about) and a ship that’s been drawn on way past the point of natural development are two very different things.

To be honest, I think it’s also important to point out that Eliza can’t spoil anything to do with Bellarke and she was most likely deflecting that question to some extent. Cast interviews/panels should always be taken with a grain of salt.

also just because two characters get together it doesn’t mean that they’ll necessarily be “happy” right away which means that there is still story to tell

I’m rambling a bit now so I’m going to stop, let me know if you wanted more clarification in a certain area or if I didn’t quite interpret your question properly!

anonymous asked:

+ and it's getting on my nerves. like. she got everything wrong. not a single thing. i tried correcting her but apparently she feels like she's a psychologist who can see through people so she just doesn't believe me. i'm getting tired, and bored. i'm trying to see her less frequently but i don't want to act like a snake and hurt her, even tho i'd be really happy to meet new people... (and she thinks i'm antisocial so it's hard around her. well.) any advices?

Part 2/2

Okay so, all your problems are very relatable. You have to understand that ENTPs are more towards ambiverts rather than plain extroverts or introverts. So, people getting confused on that is normal. Hell, even I get confused sometimes.
As an entp, I know how easy it is to get “bored” of things/people, I keep getting over my friends all the time (yeah I’m an asshole lol). But you have to look at things from their point of view. You don’t have to continue friendship with someone who annoys you, but for the sake of friendship you can give it a shot. Put in some effort
And if things still don’t seem to work, slowly edge away from the friendship. Just try not to be a jerk about it, we’re already pretty infamous about that.

  • Sam in ROTF: omg guys just leave me alone i wanna be a normal independent boring whiny brat
  • Optimus: :(
  • Sam in ROTF: Bee you're my BFF
  • Sam in ROTF: omg get back in that tiny ass garage
  • Sam in ROTF: p.s. i'm leavin for school lol k bye see u maybe
  • Bumblebee: :(
  • -------: -------
  • Sam in DOTM: omg guys why don't you talk to me anymore or invite me on your cool missions and stuff
  • Optimus: .......
  • Sam in DOTM: omg Bee you just leave on your missions and never come see me
  • Sam in DOTM: don't you wanna hang out i thought we were BFFs yo
  • Bumblebee: .......

anonymous asked:

Oh hello! I just wanna say that I really.. REALLY adore your blog. It feels like I'm "talking" to an open minded person and honestly, I love this kind of people. Seriously. Also, personally, I never get bored over a conversation with someone like that. Is just, amazing. Sooo, I just want to wish you good luck with this blog. Now, if I may, can you make a sweet scenario with our dear Fyodor with his s/o who was, in the past, his childhood best friend? (it's ok if you don't want to, I understand)

Ahh thank you so much! I’m glad that you get the impression that I’m open minded haha, since I do try to be. If you ever do want to actually talk to me about anything I’m always open for chats too. Whether it be about BSD or anything else.

I actually did make a scenario a while back about Fyodor’s childhood friend confessing to him, so this one can act as a continuation. Part 1 is here.

You can hear the water ebb and flow beneath you and the wind moving through the trees. It’s a cool Spring night, to be expected this time of year.

He’s told you before that he likes this temperature the most. He can still wear his much loved fur hat and coat, and he doesn’t run the risk of getting frostbite.

In the Winter he would always come home with slightly reddened cheeks and snow covered eyelashes. This is why Winter was not sad for you; there were things to look forward to.

You were grateful for so much. Neither of you had been fortunate in your early years, but in finding each other things had changed.

You had been sensitive back then, like many children were. It made you quite the target. In grade school you were called annoying by various children, and chased around the field by some as they insulted you. Crying just resulted in you being labelled as a crybaby. It escalated from there, and resulted in you becoming withdrawn and quiet. When you couldn’t hold your words back, the teasing continued.

You still wondered why this had begun in the first place. Children have a knack for picking out the weakest link it seemed. 

When you first met him he had transferred to your school a few years in. He was tall for his age, and quite expressionless. You were drawn to him from the moment you saw him. A part of you realized your opportunity. If you got to him first, perhaps he wouldn’t start teasing you like the others.

However, the boy avoided you as he did most everyone else. Many children, including you, attempted to speak with him. He would either walk away or never respond. Sometimes while playing outside, you would turn to find him staring at you from a few metres away, as if he wanted to approach you. You would wave, and he would walk away.

He finally spoke to you at a very strange time.

You had been pressing your hands into the ground. It felt like a sponge, as moisture from the rainfall was still imbued within it. A small pink worm popped out of the ground, and you eased it out with your fingers, staring at it as it wriggled in your palm.

“I’ll call you Mr. Wormy,” you said to it, “if that boy Fyodor won’t be my friend, I’ll just have to stick with you.”

“What are you doing?” you jumped at the sudden utterance, almost dropping the worm. Fyodor was standing beside you.

“I found a worm!” you said, holding your hand out to the boy.

He knelt down beside you. “It looks like a rat’s tail,” he said. “Can I hold it?”

You nodded, holding your hand closer. Fyodor picked up the worm, and watched it wriggle in his hand for a few moments.

“Can you be my friend instead of the worm?” you asked suddenly. “I mean, worms can’t speak. So they won’t bully me, but we also can’t talk about things.”

“They die quick too,” he responded. You nodded.

“We need to stick together, or else everyone will keep calling us weird.” you huffed.

“They call me weird?” he asked, seemingly unfazed.

“Yes! When you’re not around they call you all sorts of mean things. They’re scared of you, so they won’t call you that in person. Nobody’s scared of me, I cry too easily.” you exclaimed.

“So will you be my friend?” you repeated. “I’ll be your’s too. I don’t have to talk if you think I’m annoying. As long as you let me sit with you at lunch and recess. That way we won’t look strange for not having any friends.”

“I guess it’s fine,” Fyodor replied.

“Yay!” you said happily, “can I hug you?”

“No, I don’t like hugs.”

You pouted at his reply, but were still overjoyed that you had finally made your first friend.

You had stuck together since then, always the odd ones out. Now, you had been dating for a few months. Something you had dreamed of for years.

It wasn’t uncommon for the two of you to go on late night walks. Fyodor enjoyed the city the most when other people weren’t around. You enjoyed staring up at the moon and watching the lights in old Soviet era apartment blocks flicker on and off.

The sprawl of an empty city brought with it mixed feelings of wonder and sobering isolation. Yet as you became lost within the dark spots of the street his fingers fit between your’s and tethered you to reality. For to tug was to find him there.

His eyes had an ethereal quality at night. They were as dark as the water beneath you.

Your arms rested on the rail of the bridge, with your chin on top. Fyodor had his head on his hand.

Most of these strolls were full of silent contemplation. This had been one of those moments.

“Do you think that you’ll ever tire of me?” Fyodor broke the silence, eyes still fixed on the darkened horizon.

“No. Fedya, you’re probably the most interesting person in the world. At least to me.” you reply, slightly confused by his question.

He hums in response.

“If anyone got tired of the other, I’m sure you would get tired of me.” you continue.

“I’ve never once found you boring,” he replies. “Well, sometimes you talk about boring things, but that doesn’t make you boring.”

You let out a small laugh. “I’m surprised.”

“You shouldn’t be. I’ve told you many times, I wouldn’t have spent this much time around you if I found you boring and unlikable. I have very little personal relationships, and I should probably value them more than I do.”

Hearing him acknowledge his own faults was practically unheard of. But there was always more to him. You knew that you would never know him entirely, and yet you hoped you could someday.

“That’s because you value the whole, right? You’ll make the world a better place, and in bettering the whole, you’ll bring your loved ones joy. Am I wrong?”

There was no response, often the case with Fyodor. You would offer your analysis of his behaviour and thoughts, and he would make no reply. You never knew if your thoughts were correct, but you figured if you were on the mark it would show how much you cared for him.

You turn away from the water to examine his face. It’s neutral as usual, unreadable.

“I love you, and I think I always will. Just remember that.” you say.

He turned after you said this, cracking a small smile.

“I feel the same.” he says.

“Can I get a hug because you didn’t say ‘I love you’?” you say playfully.

“No. I can write it down on a piece of paper if you want, then you can look at it whenever you want me to say it to you.”

You shake your head. “Why do you always insist on not hugging? We’ve done things now that are way more intimate than that.”

“Hugs are strangely uncomfortable. Though I suppose I can grant you one,” he sighs, like it’s a big deal.

You smile, quickly wrapping your arms around him and resting your head against his chest.

“Hug me back please.” you say.

Fyodor slowly wraps his arms around you.

He’s told you once that he doesn’t see much value in hugs. However, some hugs can be quite valuable. As you listen to Fyodor’s heartbeat, it gives him a moment to look at you openly. Too guarded to display emotions when anyone is looking, he stares at you lovingly, momentarily completely enthralled.

anonymous asked:

I was wondering, do you feel like INTJs are intimidating? If so why? I'm a female INTJ who is only about 5'3" but I've had almost all my friends tell me that I've intimidated them many times. I just don't understand it honestly

Intimidation sometimes has nothing to do with size. It has to do with how you carry yourself, how you speak to others. INTJs tend to be very blunt– they don’t play games, and they’ll be real with you. Many of them don’t mess with all those social niceties (smiling emphatically at a boring story, nodding their head sympathetically at someone’s troubles) that others do to make a good rapport. This causes many people to be uncomfortable. They feel like an INTJ might hurt them with their words– that’s intimidation.

feroluce  asked:

18, 19, 20, and 30!

18. what’s your patronus?

Every test has given me dog. I hate and fear dogs with all my heart so that’s not going to do it. Maybe a fox? What determines the shape of your patronus?

19. which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?

Pottermore says Gryffindor, my heart says plain and simple muggle. I’m not that special.

20. would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?

Hogwarts sounds like the best of the three, but still not exactly ideal. I like proper education, absence of favoritism and also being alive. My pick remains our world with a bit more supernatural to it, though, be it magic or something else.

30. pick one of your favorite quotes.

Damnit.
Honestly, every single thing uncle Iroh has ever said.

kankar-deactivated20141209  asked:

Oh gosh I really love your art! Um - I hope you don't mind- can I ask you a question? I've been drawing seriously since 6th grade, so about 5 years now, and I'm having a lot of trouble, especially with understanding 3d forms and how to draw things and people in different poses because I simply don't understand it that well. You seem to really understand this concept, so if you don't mind me asking - can you give me some tips as an experienced artist? Thank you!!

Thank you very much! Drawing from real life might be a boring tip, but its very helpful in creating believable poses and actually seing the shape of things. Look up life drawing classes! if you can’t find any or don’t want to spend money you can draw ppl on the subway, in cafés, at the park, draw your friends, find some of those old nude statues and draw them from different angles (?) etc . I’ve personally found nude life drawing helpful in understanding the 3d shape of the body, fat and muscles and so on, but drawing people in their everyday is more helpul in making natural poses (and clothes…).

A thing I got from animation is to not draw a single still image but rather think about how the character got into this pose and where are they going next. Try paus/slowplay movies and draw the actors/characters to understand movement (and get an idea about action-poses)

And lastly, draw quick! as quick as you can! challange yourself to draw even quicker! Practice is about understanding, not making beautiful sketches. And you’ll understand more the more you draw. Being fast allows you to draw more! (when drawing a real piece spend as much time as you want - these tips are for learning, these sketches are for putting away when you’re done, not for showing others (unless you really want to))

I’d love to give more helpful tips but its kinda hard to do that in text, and unfortunately I don’t have time to make a tutorial (might make one later sometime?). But there are some good tutorials out there that you can google for!

I’ve found looking at Tracys Lackadaisy comic very helpful, because she really knows how to make characters look three dimensional! She also has a few great and funny tutourials that you can look at 

P.S. Draw stripes on ppl sometimes! (this is super sloppy but you get the idea)

anonymous asked:

Hey! I was wondering what exactly is gouche used for? I know it's a paint but is it like in between acrylic and watercolor? How do you use it and what is it usually used to for? Thanks!

Hello friend, 

I do not know. 

jk (except not really)

According to Liana Hee ((WHO WAS NICE ENOUGH TO REPLY ON MY INSTAGRAM POST HOLY SHIT)) gouache is pretty much opaque watercolor. It’s supposedly similar to acrylic, opaque-wise, but since acrylic is plastic based it cannot be reactivated with water. 

Literally the only reason I bought gouache paints is because I saw a bunch of my fav artist use it. I didn’t even bother learning about it tbh, I just straight up used it (I heavily advise you don’t this btw cause I’ve wasted so much paint in the process and that shit ain’t cheap) 

tl:dr I’m dumb and reckless and I know nothing about art. 

You by Jack Harries.

Hi there! My name is Jack, and I guess I’m what you call a ‘content creator’ on YouTube.

There’s one simple reason why I’m able to call myself a creator on YouTube, and that reason’s in the name of the platform. It’s you.

You see as a creator on YouTube, you start like everyone else.

A voice amongst millions, uttering a word, with a somewhat absurd assumption that you might just be heard.

Perhaps you have big ambitions for your place in this space, or perhaps your reason here are not all that clear.

Regardless of your reason, your desire is the same.

And neat passion to connect and build your own name.

‘Cause really, if you think about it, isn’t that the aim?

To communicate and inspire? Regardless of how vain and an aim of how some consider this game.

You see to be successful on YouTube: Two things are required,

A combination of luck and a deep burning desire.

You see no one gets anywhere without the good will of others,

a kinsfolk, a community, a band of cyber-brothers.

We rely on you, to give us our start,

and once that’s done, it’s our turn to play part.

You see, no one gets anywhere without hard-work and dedication,

a fact that’s often missed by these mainstream media publications.

You see YouTube is a democracy. Laughing in the face of media’s monopoly,

They think we won this like sort of of lottery.

And as a result, they write about us with an error of mockery.

But don’t for a second, imagine that as creators we are complicit,

about how lucky we are to be in situation.

Having said that, let me make clear,

that there are some individuals who simply don’t belong here.

You see for some, a level of influence seems to lead to an inexcusable ignorance.

You see there are certain characters who’ve recently made the news,

Those who use their power to abuse.

But, believe me when I say, their names will soon fade away.

You see, the creators that I admire, are those who have the desire,

to push and reach another level higher,

those who attempt to break free from the norm,

to challenge the often repetitive form.

But, don’t think for a second, that they forgotten their roots.

Those initial subscribers who supported their pursuits.

You see as a creator, I am grateful and humbled,

but please bear with me as I haphazardly stumble,

whilst it might look like I understand what I do… Allow me to confidant you and say I haven’t a clue.

As this website expands and evolves, content-creators appear and dissolve,

Trends will come and go,

and over while, the website will grow.

But one thing stays the same,

and will continue to do so.

And the reason the website grew all those years ago,

Is in the name of the website and it won’t go away.

The reason why I do what I do today…

Is you.

-

(P.S: I know some words won’t make sense. I couldn’t spell/understand some of the words he stated.)

Is this ok…. Cus I was just thinking what kind of tags would be running through Kankri’s mind while that highish blood troll went all force pale on him during toastyhat’s comic No Red Sweaters because I get bored that way. And I really wanted to draw cool hair so there you go. (This actually took a week to build enough confidence to post this wow)

anonymous asked:

Thank you for succinctly explaining your feelings re: Martin/John, I feel quite similarly. John is my favorite character on the show and some people don't understand because he's not a flashy character, he's more steadfast and solid (and not the least boring). I think some people just don't appreciate the way Martin acts because he is so real in his performances so they downplay his talent. That authenticity is important. I'm not explaining myself well but feel you understand me.

I totally agree, he isn’t the flashy character, but he is the heart of the show.