I know Gon’s alright now, but I’m still not over the fact that he purposely wanted to kill himself. I won’t ever be over it.
This adorable kid
Who always had the brightest smile
Who always seemed like he didn’t have a single worry at all
Had so many dark demons he kept locked up inside
it took losing someone he admired to finally break him, and I’m pretty sure he was holding up pent up emotions for years but always felt the need to hide it behind a smile.
Which is why, again, people should appreciate how realistic Gon’s emotions during the CA arc are. No, he’s not a toxic character. He’s a boy who has many guilt issues, and is always quick to blame himself before blaming anyone else. Even when he met Ging, he said ‘’I should’ve been the one who died instead!’’ because he felt SO guilty about what happened.