you don't even know how much i love that character

I know Gon’s alright now, but I’m still not over the fact that he purposely wanted to kill himself. I won’t ever be over it. 

This adorable kid

Who always had the brightest smile

Who always seemed like he didn’t have a single worry at all

Had so many dark demons he kept locked up inside

it took losing someone he admired to finally break him, and I’m pretty sure he was holding up pent up emotions for years but always felt the need to hide it behind a smile.

Which is why, again, people should appreciate how realistic Gon’s emotions during the CA arc are. No, he’s not a toxic character. He’s a boy who has many guilt issues, and is always quick to blame himself before blaming anyone else. Even when he met Ging, he said ‘’I should’ve been the one who died instead!’’ because he felt SO guilty about what happened. 

snugsbunnyfluff  asked:

Hello, I hope you're well. I'd like to ask you about conflict! I've read lots in writing books about conflict. I know conflict is needed in a story and for the characters. But, my problem is, even though I kind of understand conflict I don't know how best to use it. I was wondering if you could provide breakdowns, maybe from your stories or other published stories. Sometimes seeing things spelled out helps me. It's okay if this is not possible. Thank you for your time, and for this fab blog í ½

Aww, thank you so much, love!  This is a great question.  In the writing community, we talk a lot about conflict without really defining what it is – and further, what types of conflict there are.  So I’ll list and explain them, as well as give some examples.


Types of Conflict (and Their Strengths)

There are five main types of conflict in fiction:

  1. Man vs. Man – Situational or relationship conflict between two or more characters.  (Think The Dark Knight or Beauty and the Beast.)
  2. Man vs. Self – Otherwise known as “internal conflict”.  Conflict between a character’s opposing feelings.  (Think Revenge of the Sith or Silver Linings Playbook.)
  3. Man vs. Nature – Conflict between the main character/s and the elements – providing for the self or defending against animals, weather, or illness.  (Think Life of Pi or Robinson Crusoe.)
  4. Man vs. Society – Conflict between the main characters and the “system” – the government or ruling majority.  (Think The Hunger Games or Hidden Figures.)
  5. Man vs. Technology/Supernatural – Conflict between the main character and a non-human force.  (Think 2001: A Space Odyssey or Gremlins.)

Like the different tenses or POVs, none of these options are inherently better than the others – but they do work better for different stories, so it’s important to know what they are and how to make the most of them.

I’ll now outline each style briefly, save for #5, which is fairly self-explanatory.  If you have a question about this style for any reason, though, let me know and I can make a separate post.


1. Man vs. Man

Man vs. Man conflict is the most easily recognizable conflict in fiction, because your characters are always aware of it happening.  There are three types of this conflict:

  1. Situational M-vs-M – Two characters have opposing desires or responsibilities, but only one of them can get what they want.  Leslie wants to build her park, but Ben wants to cut funding.  Wreck-It Ralph wants a medal, but Vanellope wants to use it to qualify for racing.
  2. Moral M-vs-M – Characters have a moral disagreement that must be resolved in order to maintain a relationship or make an important decision.  Luke wants to change Vader for good, but Vader wants to change Luke for evil.  Tony feels the government should keep the Avengers in check, but Steve thinks they should maintain individual control.
  3. Personal M-vs-M – Characters in a relationship, romantic or platonic, disagree on some issue or hurt each other in a way that threatens their relationship.  Noah wants to be with Allie, but Allie feels a commitment to Lon.  Rayna wants to marry Deacon, but Deacon can’t overcome his alcoholism.

Man vs. Man conflict is most popular in romance stories, as well as Good vs. Evil stories involving heroes and villains.  It’s best for stories that are character-driven, or employ themes of battling ideals.  This conflict is shown through arguments, escalating to Big Decisions with long-term consequences.  Here is a post on how to resolve interpersonal conflict.


2. Man vs. Nature

This kind of conflict is relatively straightforward, although it covers a variety of plots:

  1. Survival – The main character/s are left to the elements and must keep themselves fed, sheltered, and defended against anything that would harm them.  This is one of multiple conflicts in The Hunger Games, most prominent when Katniss and the tributes are in the arena – and during this time, Man vs. Man and Man vs. Society are also present.
  2. Illness – The main character/s are ill and must battle their illness – if treatable, battling for survival, and if terminal, coping with the inevitable.  This is a primary conflict in The Fault in Our Stars.
  3. Beast – This is kinda like Man vs. Man in that it is very singular, based on a conflict between two forces: a human and some sort of “beast.”  Of course, this beast doesn’t have to be an animal – it could also be a natural disaster, like a storm, or a spreading disease.  Anything from a white whale to a pandemic qualifies as “the beast”.

Man vs. Nature conflict is often coupled with Man vs. Self to create the best survival stories, facing topics of vulnerability, isolation, and fatality.  This conflict is best shown in sequences of varying “wins” and “losses” to Mother Nature, each one increasingly strengthening the character, as well as teaching them something about themselves or life.


3. Man vs. Self

This is one of my favorite styles of conflict, because it requires the deepest character development and provokes more philosophical questions.  The most common internal conflicts:

  1. Head vs. Heart – A tale as old as time: your MC’s heart is telling them what they want, but their mind is telling them the opposite.  This is sparked by an inciting incident (e.g. a new opportunity or love interest), which is battled back and forth internally until a decision is reached.  Typically the heart is painted as the right decision, but it can really go either way.
  2. Self vs. Self-Image – In this style, your character battles with themselves over their very idea of self – who they believe they should be versus who they instinctively are.  This is also perpetuated by outside forces, such as family members or love interests, who offer their input and confuse the MC.
  3. Faith vs. Science – This title is figurative, not literal.  Basically, this is a conflict in which your MC struggles with their beliefs (political, religious, etc.) when new information is introduced.  Life-changing events spark a question, which the character at first avoids, then assesses, until they arrive at a new conclusion or identity.

Man vs. Self is best for stories that tackle social, political, or moral issues.  It is often couples with Man vs. Nature or Man vs. Man, as a character’s other conflicts cause them to reassess their own beliefs, desires, or identity.  I believe, personally, that all stories should include some kind of Man vs. Self conflict, since the MC should be changed by the end of any novel.


4. Man vs. Society

This is a popular conflict in modern literature, especially with the rise of dystopia (and the state of unrest in social politics today).  There are two different portrayals of this conflict:

  1. Individual Conflict – In this conflict, one character, by some new circumstances, is put into a new role that “separates” them from society (e.g. they become disabled or discover a disability, they experience their first instance of victimhood or discrimination, etc.) and find a new moral position alternative to society.  This conflict is used in Mean Girls, as Cady Heron finds herself on multiple tiers of the social hierarchy at school and must decide where she aligns herself.
  2. Organized Conflict – This is the Man vs. Society we recognize from Star Wars, The Hunger Games, Divergent, and other “Us vs. Them” stories.  This can be led by Man vs. Man conflict between the leaders, such as with Harry and Voldemort, or Gandalf and Saruman.

Man vs. Society is great for high fantasy, dystopia, or any story central on social conflict.  This conflict drives most antiheroes or spy/assassin characters with no fitted role in the system.


So your first step is to decide on one or a few types of conflict to include in your story – not so few that the story idles, but not so many that there are no “resting points” in the novel.  Once you’ve picked them out, take some time to outline how they’ll develop.  Write it down and keep it as a reference for later, as you’re working through the story.

That’s all I have for now!  If you have any further questions, hit me up and I’ll respond shortly ♥️️  Happy writing!


If you need advice on general writing or fanfiction, you should maybe ask me!

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The snake and its hands

anonymous asked:

"It has shown no intention of agreeing to make the characters gay—nor should it." i mean 1. the staff literally promised they'd explore sexuality in an interview, not going through with that and letting down lgbt fans desperate for representation would be a Dick Move, and 2. love that tone that implies that they just, shouldn't have gay characters, they're bad. honestly don't trust that shitty site, they're heavily "anti-sjw" and don't even know what's actually going on

don’t you just LOVE how they pretty much said a cartoon having gay romance is asking for way too much? love it! LOVE the homophobia! A+ site!

anonymous asked:

I dunno your thoughts, but I feel like SU has been so... MUSICALLY absent as well. You know what made Season 1 so good? The writing, characters (that aren't Pearl!), the art design, but most importantly the music. It gave SOO much life to have the ambient background music that was so endearing I can't help but still listen to it now. I don't even hear any background music anymore. This show feels like it wants to be put out of its own misery.

Oh gosh yeah. I never noticed how empty the music feels. It’s like static noise to me now. I can never remember or even acknowledge it.

I remember loving the cluster theme and yellow diamond’s theme and the music in strawberry fields. But now I just. I can’t remember anything in season 4

I can’t give the show too much shit for it but it’s a shame that nearly everything on the show is just worse now

anonymous asked:

I could use a little advice, if possible. I very much want to get into cosplay, but I don't even know where to begin. There are characters I love, but I don't understand how to convincingly pull off these characters, so have no idea how to choose one. I can't make anything because my skillset doesn't go farther than the most basic repair work, and the premade stuff I've found is pretty expensive. I see makeup tutorials and end up completely baffled, so I'm kind of lost.

Hello there!

First of all, you don’t have to choose a character because you think you can pull it off, regardless of what you mean by that. Want to do an outfit but don’t have sewing skills? You can always learn and practice (or put off the costume until you’ve built up your skills more). Think you don’t look like a character? You don’t have to look like the character. If you want to wear the outfit but don’t look like them, then ignore that. The only time it matter is your personal comfort – if you don’t feel right doing a character you don’t look like, you should let your comfort take priority, but if you don’t want to do a character because you aren’t as thin, attractive, pale, whatever else as them, don’t worry about those things. this isn’t a lookalike contest, it’s cosplay. It’s for fun. 
(Examples of being personally uncomfortable would be things like how I recently did a fem version of a character because I knew I’d be uncomfortable with the fact that I wouldn’t pass as a teenage boy in spandex – still did the character, but I changed some things so I’d be comfortable with it. But if I did cosplay, let’s say, a beefy man like Joseph Joestar, and was comfortable with it and enjoyed it, despite being scrawny, no one should have a problem with that. Your own feelings about your cosplay are what matters. If I did that and someone said something about my size and apparent gender not matching the character’s? That’s not someone I’d want in my life. their opinion doesn’t matter. As long as you aren’t outright being a jerk and harming others, no one has any right to tell you that you are having fun wrong, and you always have the power of the block button if they do.)

The thing with a hobby like cosplay is that we all have to start somewhere. No one is going to go from not being able to sew to pulling out masters-level costumes overnight. Building up a lot of these skills involves a lot of practice and dedication.

That said, you don’t have to make your costumes. You always start somewhere. Are there any characters where you can modify storebought or thrifted items? That’s a great way to get started with cosplay, and you can still dress in costume, but you don’t have to worry about making some complicated. Do you want to learn to sew? Choosing a simple outfit that you can find a pattern for (things like schoolgirl uniforms are great for this) can really help, since it gives you instructions on how to make the item, and you can build up your skills with easier garments and work your way up. If you have money for premade or commissions, that’s great, but if you don’t, you can do a lot on your own for very cheap if you know how to shop sales or can get items at a thrift store. With luck, a good eye for sales, using items from your closet (shoes are the big expense here), and often a little bit of skill (such as dyeing a piece or cutting and rehemming a piece or adding some decoration), you can make an entire cosplay for $15. I’ve done it. 

For building up your skillset, it’s all about practice. Find a very basic makeup tutorial and try following it, step by step. Do it every day, or twice a day, until you master the techniques. Try another one. A lot of tutorials assume that you have at least some basic skills in the area that the tutorial is for, but you can find tutorials that explain every step. For sewing, start with something very simple, like a pillowcase, if you need to. You don’t /need/ these skills, though, unless you /want/ to make your cosplays. Often, however, due to cost and availability (or costumes, of sizes, etc.), you end up needing to make something yourself if you want it at all, or else pay a commissioner. It sounds like making is the path you want to go down, though, and this can include both making from scratch and altering pre-existing items.

It’s hard, but don’t compare yourself to anyone but yourself when it comes to this kind of thing. You just started, you don’t need to be an expert yet. No one was born an expert, which is why things like tutorials exist – people are often more than willing to share their knowledge. If you don’t understand a step in a tutorial, ask. Don’t compare yourself with someone who has been cosplaying for 15 years and works in the costuming industry and has the free time, money, and experience to pull out amazing costume after amazing costume. Do you know what they were doing 15 years ago? Probably starting on their first project, like a simple skirt or a pillowcase or a plush toy. Certainly messing up. Certainly learning from those mistakes as they went. You have the advantage of building on a lot of that knowledge that is now being shared in the community (and so many more materials and resources!), but there’s no substitute for trying something yourself and learning from that. Don’t be afraid to fail. You often learn more from mistakes than from successes. 

As for how to start on costumes, it really helps to take things step by step, a little bit at a time. Look at one item first, rather than the overwhelming whole. Look at one part of that item. Start there. You’ll be far less baffled if you think of it as one small piece, rather than an entire costume. For tutorials, break them down as well. What are they doing in this step, exactly? Can you mimic that? Try it, over and over. 

I also have a Powerpoint on how to choose and plan cosplays here.

Cosplay is a hobby. It should be fun, not an overwhelming stress. I would say to take it slow, choose something simple at first, build up whatever skills you are trying to build (whether that is sewing, armor, makeup, or even bargain shopping), take your time with your projects, and enjoy wearing them, even if they aren’t something that’s going to be winning a contest any time soon. Be proud that you made that. Be proud that you can show off your fandom in that way. Meet new fans. Build up your skills. And keep having fun with it. There’s no wrong way to be a fan.

I hope that helps! :]

Fabrickind / Q&A Staff

15.04.17 - Do you ever see a character design so cute you must draw fanart for it? Because it happened to me. Meet Pam the pansexual fairy. She is @milkybel ’s character, and I love Pamela very, very much. She is so incredibly cute! Thanks for letting me draw her! 💙💛💓

anonymous asked:

Why does someone who simply wanted to do her job over a man a bad thing? Isn't that what people have been asking for in movie relationships? And I mean, even though she loved her job so much she still helped him in the end so I don't get all the hate for Tina. #MoreLove4Tina

#ProtectTinaGoldstein

I know what you mean - if she just followed after Newt like a guppy they’d complain that she’s “boring” or “a weak female character” like make your mind up.

Tina, I feel, has some of the best subtle development in FBAWTFT and I can’t wait to see how she continues to develop in the future movies!

Originally posted by hardyness

anonymous asked:

ALLIE CAN U BELIEVE YOUR ICONIC HQ DRAWING IS !! FUCKING !! ICONIC !! JUST LIKE YOU AND YOUR PERSONALITY OKAY FFS IM ALREADY EMOTIONAL I'M GONNA START CRYING IF I TYPE OUT HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. CRAP. lajsdl i don't even make proper sentences anymore when i'm messaging you can u believe it's gonna be our 7 month anniversary soon? As always, keep a lookout my angel, you never know what i might spring onto you one fine day <3 I LOVE YOU AND WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU TAKE CARE -your Jiminnie

❤❤❤ GAAAAH my personality?????? man kpop fandom has been stressing me out lately so slowly assimilating back into animu has been such a good stress reliever i used to be so free, interpreting the characters, ships and AUs.. so thankyou for feeling the same nostalgia i do for my active haikyuu days jiminnie :’)

passingtimeintheattic  asked:

(@fangirlintheattic here) How do you feel about Sydney's dramatic 'transformation'? I think I was so in love with her character in S3 that I was really bummed when she came back looking more, dare I say, 'basic'. I liked the metaphor of losing her glasses and all, but she just seemed TOO different. Like I don't even recognize her as the same person, you know? Her whole demeanor changed. People do change when they come out but that much in that short amount of time? Or is it just me?

Hello! That is… a very interesting question. I did notice the change, but to be honest didn’t think too much into or about it. So let me do so now.

If we follow the Hope Zion universe’s timeline (which I haven’t scrutinised with a nit comb so it’s probably not watertight if we think about it too much ha), taking what Maggie said in 5x10: they’ve known each other for three years. Key events in Sydney’s life in that time: 

  • Got engaged 
  • Realised she was gay
  • Came out as gay
  • Slept with a woman for the first time (possibly any person for the first time)
  • Moved overseas
  • Entered a relationship with a woman

Three years on its own is a long time for someone in their 20s NOT doing all of that. Sydney went through at least three life-changing events in that space of time (depending on how you define them). I think it would be fair to argue that she would be completely different to s3 Sydney. A lot of Sydney’s growth that we’ve seen has been a maturity growth; a perspective growth; growth as a person—in my view, all of these are qualitative changes and almost impossible to show in a visual medium.

So, visually, Sydney’s transformation works because we can contrast how she was in s3 to s5. It’s TV shorthand to say, “Hey, this is how much she’s changed; this is how she was, and this is who she is now. The difference is striking—here’s how much her character grew while she was away/off-screen.” By putting a “before” and “after” photo of s3 Sydney to s5 Sydney, you can immediately tell how—and how much—her character has changed. 

It’s hard when you have key plot threads to deal with per episode without adding in all that exposition, so they literally show it through her demeanour and transformation, as you say. Can you say it’s a little clunky? Sure. But Sydney’s a supporting character to a supporting character (Maggie) so trying to shoehorn in all of that characterisation whilst tackling her burgeoning relationship with Maggie in like 10 mins tops of screen time per episode… In that sense, I appreciate it for what it is, and I think they’ve done it well.

Thinking about the actual change between “Very Jewish” Sydney and “basic” Sydney… I think the way I would think about this is that: s3 Sydney defined herself as an Orthodox Jew. Everything she looked at was through her religion—everything she did, thought she needed to do, her opinions, how she interpreted the news/people/events—that was who she was. So how would the writers show that contrast between the other characters and especially Maggie? By immediately putting her and Maggie at visual odds. Her wardrobe was conservative. Her spectacle frames were not in line with the current trend. Her hair was different to how others wore theirs. And etc.

The trajectory of her character arc was that Maggie was the catalyst for her to come to that realisation of who her “true self” was, and then accepting that. The key here is that she was out of place in the world of the TV show. Even in s3 we can see how her costuming changed towards the season finale.

So now in s5, Sydney has almost… fallen in line, you could say, with the world that is Hope Zion. And looking at it from 5x10 which is the latest episode for me, even her back in scrubs has certified her not just as HZ staff, but stamped her as belonging in the actual universe now. Is that basic? Yeah, you can say that. Because you’re right—why would you want to watch a character who was so different and striking before who has now become the same as everyone else? But in the context of the show, this is how they’ve chosen to show that Sydney is ready to be with Maggie. She’s embraced being in the world she is in. She fits in now—visually and otherwise. 

A good thing to note is that the show constantly reminds us that Sydney is Jewish and that her Orthodox beliefs are still important to her. It still colours her temperament and her interpretation of the world around her. But for the purposes of her storyline in s5 (entering a relationship with Maggie) as opposed to her storyline in s3 (accepting that she is gay), the shorthand we need now is: how will she and Maggie move forward as a couple? Are they two people on the same page moving forward in life together? Visually, I can tell they are more aligned than they used to be. For me, their conflict used to be their personalities and how different they were as people and what their values were, to build a lasting relationship. Now, their conflict potentially is whether Sydney will stay in one place long enough for them to have that relationship. 

So. tL;DR. How do I feel about Sydney’s transformation? Overall I’m neutral. But I can see why the writers/staff have chosen to do what they did, and I would say that it has worked. Whether we notice it consciously or not, all of it helps to colour in a character who may not get as much screen-time to be fully fleshed out, and the visual shorthand helps us get on with the story at hand.

Of course you can also argue that Stacey Farber just rocked up as her gorgeous self and everyone was like, “Let’s not tamper with perfection,” and exit stage left. 

the-awkward-orca  asked:

I WATCHED SPIDER-MAN IT WAS GREAT I HAD VERY HIGH EXPECTATIONS AND IT WAS SO GOOD AND I??? CARE SO MUCH???? ABOUT PETER!!! I DON'T GENERALLY GET PROTECTIVE OVER CHARACTERS BUT I LOVE HIM AND WANNA HUG HIM SO MUCH HE TRIES SO HARD

NOW YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I LOVE PETER PARKER WITH ALL MY HEART.

anonymous asked:

I currently have your bellydancer!Otabek as my phone wallpaper, hope you don't mind! I love your style and your art. I describe it as the "cozy high quality bright colours" in my mind... I seriously love it and sometimes I use your drawings as references when I am practicing my drawing skills. I can't even fully put in this message how much I love your art. You are one of my favs, even when you draw characters I don't know!!!!! Love ya

ASKL;SFA;JJS thank you so sosoos os much <3333333 

“cozy high quality bright colours” is all i ever want for my art BLESS and oh goshhh it means SO MUCH to know that you still like my art even if you don’t know the characters asjs;aldadjs;alk 

I LOVE YOU TOO AND GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR OWN ART!!! <333333

Letter to the TWD Fandom

I am fucking ASHAMED of what this entire fandom has become. I don’t understand what goes through peoples heads when they decide to fucking bodyshame/harass an actor or actress on social media. That shit is unacceptable and quite frankly vile. Like I’m fucking FURIOUS that anyone would consider bullying an actor/actress on social media. They’re the reason TWD exists and no matter how much you dislike their character they deserve to be respected as human beings. Luckily a big chunk of people agree with this. 

So yeah. FUCK YOU. I sincerely hope Alanna and Josh know that there are people who love them and truly appreciate the work they put into TWD. Actors like them are the reason I even considered pursuing performing arts as a career.

So yeah. Fuck ya’ll. 

Originally posted by fuckyeahthenotoriousbig

writingwithcatears  asked:

Hi,I'm writing a steampunky modern fantasy novel but I don't have any ideas of how to write steampunk even though I love it. Any ideas?

I’m going to be honest here: I know very little about steampunk other than the basic definition of what it is. I think it’s very cool though, and I’ve seen some steampunk art that inspires and haunts me at the same time, so I have much respect and appreciation for the genre. Having said that, my advice would be ill informed.

So I will quickly link you to a Writer’s Digest article that covers many aspects of writing steampunk fiction:

Writing Steampunk: Plots, Characters, Settings and More

But a general recommendation I like to give to someone that is passionate about a genre/sub genre or a basic story concept is to choose one you absolutely love and try to replicate it using your own characters, as a means of practice. And don’t get me wrong, even though I’m calling it practice, it doesn’t mean it can’t someday become a legitimate project that you could one day publish. Stories change and evolve as we work on them, so it might become something completely different.

For example, if I love Harry Potter, and I find the magical education sub genre fascinating, I might start out by creating a school where kids go to learn about magic. I’d write about the professors, the classes, and I might even split the students into four groups, who live together and attend classes together.

Yes, this sounds like plagiarism, and if I tried to publish it, it would definitely be met with a lot of criticism and potentially legal action (depending on how close to HP it was). But I’m not publishing this. I’m writing it because the setup inspires me, and I’m just trying to have some fun here. It’s helping me understand the genre on an intimate level.

But maybe as I’m writing, I come up with the idea for some higher power to close the school. “Magical education is dangerous, and it’s no longer feasible to fund a school where magic is taught.” So then you start thinking about what these practitioners of magic have to do to learn their craft. Secret societies? Homeschooling? Or does magic ultimately disappear?

This concept starts to move away from Harry Potter, especially if your characters grew up with magic, and none of them lost their parents as a baby to a dark evil wizard.

So it’s worth your time to replicate stories that inspire you. Too many times we struggle with trying to make something original that we stop having fun creating it, and we stop. You could spend 6 months trying to plot out an original story, or you could spend 6 months working on an unoriginal story that you’re passionate about. With the latter, you end up with a lot of material to work with, and as I mentioned earlier, the unoriginal idea could evolve into something original as you’re writing it. 

Write what you want. The writing process is not cut and dry - it’s abstract, and it’s subjective to each individual writer, and it can be long. If you don’t know what to write, choose a story you love, and write it your way with your own characters. 

Just have fun and keep writing!

-Rebekah

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[[ considering the fact that Sharp’s canon is The Protomen, I really haven’t done very much at all with him in Protoverse. i’ve focused more on moving his story beyond that point, and it’d be a huge deal for his character development if he were to get to go back home now.

but i love protoverse! and i’d love to do more with canon Protoman :D

that being said, you protoverse blogs out there, would you prefer to interact with Wily’s General (mid Act 1, before Megaman), or with Sharp as he is freshly rebuilt (post Act 1, probably before Act 3 since we don’t know for sure what’s going to happen there)?

i haven’t really explored it since Sharp hasn’t gone back home, but i do know who rebuilt him and why. so i could do some work with that storyline, if possible. as for the General, that’d just be him being a jerk and trying to keep the peace in The City :3 

or should i make them both AU verses for people to interact with as they choose? (would that be too confusing?) which would you guys prefer? feel free to reply to this post or send me an ask or IM, anon is fine too! ^^b ]]

I really envy anyone who can get fully immersed in self-insert or character/reader with a favorite character. I hate how hard I have to fight my own brain to be able to enjoy these sometimes. It gets so exhausting to keep shouting down the mean inner voice that insists the character would not love or even like me very much, because I am not lovable or likable.