you didnt want to be alone

PSA: DON’T USE FLASH!!!! TO TAKE PHOTOS!!!!! IN MUSEUMS OR GALLERIES!!!!!!!

so i was in front of Van Gogh’s Starry Night at the moma yesterday and this girl in front of me took a picture with the flash on (WHICH YOU DONT DO!!! EVER!!! BECAUSE FLASH IS TERRIBLE FOR PAINTINGS!!!! THERE WERE SIGNS EVERYWHERE SAYING NOT TO USE IT!!!!) 

so i said “hey, dont use flash” 

AND THIS MOLDY ASSBABY turns around, gives me the dirtiest look, takes ANOTHER photo WITH HER FLASH ON and fucking!!!! walks!!!! away!!!!!! and ive never come so close to beating the ever living shit out of someone before in my life.

Starry NIght is one of the most important, beloved works of art IN THE WORLD and youre such a entitled piece of shit that you risk damaging it just to get a fucking photo??????? and you know what? it doesnt even matter that it was starry night, ANY piece of art deserves to be shown safetly. just because an artist isnt famous doesnt mean you get to put their work in jeopardy. art is so fucking imporant to our histories and cultures, to our very humanity, and it makes me furious when people dont respect it. 

this has been a psa from an angry art history student thank you and remember to turn off your flash 

EDIT: I’m adding this because if I get one more ask about how im a fucking pretentious art student who shouldnt assume everyone knows about this im gonna rip my hair out. even though I’ve added it before, I didnt know that it wasn’t common knowledge not to use flash, so sorry for assuming, even tho its a rule at almost every art museum in the world, whatever.

Also while im at it, im now aware that the exact amount of damage is debated. didnt know when i posted this. im not taking any fucking chances on it, but go ahead if you want to, im not your mother.

now just leave me the fuck alone.

i support girls anger. i support girls who yell. i support girls who get called bitches and cunts at parties because they’ll swear at guys who won’t leave them alone. i support girls who don’t believe in second chances and cut off people who hurt them. i support girls who say no the first time and flip you off if you ask them again. i support girls who will never allow themselves to be pushovers and constantly get shit for it. you’re fucking incredible. 

5 reasons why maggie sawyer deserves the world

how is maggie sawyer such a good human being??? i mean
1. ‘i didnt want to scare you’ - the fact that she never, not once, said anything about her experience because there’s nothing good about it, just pain, and that’s the last thing she wants alex to feel so she hid how she really was outed so alex won’t be afraid to come out and think this is not okay

2.
‘this is the biggest thing that’s ever happened to you, and you shouldn’t have to do it alone’ - THIS. NOW READ THIS KNOWING MAGGIE’S ACTUAL EXPERIENCE

3.
‘you did? how did she take it?’ - she was just so happy about alex coming out to her mom & being accepted for who she was, even if it reminded her that this is the kind of love and support she never had

4.
 ‘its not for me to say’ - with jonn saying those words, maggie’s horrible memories of how she never got the chance to come out by herself probably resurfaced

5.
maggie sawyer is so tough, protective and caring, but there are wounds that cleary didn’t heal and probaby never will (which is normal when youre kicked out of your own house at 14) but she faced them and despite all the shit she’s been through she’s finally happy with the woman she loves and this is the biggest revenge on life she could’ve asked for

Imagine a jinn just chilling with you and laughing at your memes and you didn’t even know it

honestly lately i’ve been wondering if i really liked season 1 as much as i did–season 2 has just been so bad overall, with a few shining moments but overrall: tedious

and then we had that scene, with cat and kara.

(and yes i’m still dying at “it just feels like this pain isn’t going to go away” “well, that’s what i said about childbirth” i’ve found a quip that beats should i call your mother a car? no, she can take her broom)

talking about emotions, talking about how kara has been feeling, how one of the reasons she started dating mon-el was because everyone in her life was in a relationship and she wanted that, for the first time all fucking season we got to hear kara, the protagonist’s view, on her relationship and why she was ever in one when she never seemed to like her boyfriend in the first place

and making a very profound moment, about emotion, about vulnerability, going into depth why this can be a strength, with something that isn’t just a cheesy line–this was something that i had to think about after hearing. and the entire time it was about kara, about dealing with pain and loss and for once this season something that i would want young girls to consider, to think about, great advice for anyone getting out of a relationship, especially with someone they maybe dont even really like, but just don’t want to be single, and all delivered so very well by the brilliant calista flockhart

this scene was all about kara. and so very little this season has been about the titular character. sure, cat talked about her own life–but that was to give kara context for what she was experiencing, to know that she wasn’t alone–the exact opposite of the isolation they’ve had kara go through the majority this season, with only monel to turn to even if she didnt really want to.

this scene reminded me of why i would stay awake until 3 am last semester abroad in ireland to watch this show, why i loved it in the first place–all with only a day and a half of filming from calista.

tl;dr calista your husband is a pilot please have him fly to you to filming every other week for a day trip or two we love you and miss you and melissa probably misses you more she got to be a protagonist again for the first time in ages

Originally posted by keltop

Anonymous said Headcanons on how the S boys sleep alone and how they sleep with their S/O? Like sleeping positions

 A: hiya! I honestly feel like this will be a bit comedic (maybe) I hope you enjoy!

 Shuu: {alone}: laying on his back, arms behind his head, kind of simple. 

 {with s/o}: he’s still laying on his back (creature of habit) but you’re laying on his chest. His arms cage you in so there’s no chance of escape. You can hear his slow breathing, and the rise and fall of his chest lulls you to sleep. 


 Reiji: {alone}: he lays on his side, one arm behind the head, the other to his side.

 {with s/o}: typically, you laying in the spooning position. He’s at your back, and there’s barely any space between you two


. Ayato: {alone}: he kinda lays there on his stomach, head to the side, drools on the pillow, snores loudly.

{with s/o}: You know how he’s super possessive when you’re awake? OOOOH BOY hes got you pulled so close that youre often pushing yourself off of him because its so swEATY, even though you get away it doesnt last for long because he reels you back in. 


Laito: {alone}: he cuddles EVERYTHING, typically whines in his sleep, not because of sexual dreams, no laito has extreme night terrors and struggles with them often. he wakes up 2 or 3 times a night and has a hard time falling asleep. 

{with s/o}: usually it starts out with casual cuddling, but as the night goes on he holds you tighter and tighter. This is rare but often times he wakes up crying, its typically silent, but you can still manage to hear the sniffles and you take him in your arms and rub circles into his back to help him fall asleep.

Kanato: {alone}: restless, hot, sweaty, “GOD DAMN IT TEDDY FUCK OFF ITS TOO HOT I DONT WANT TO CUDDLE”, He never really sleeps, he mostly just lays there or walks around the mansion.

{with s/o}: i still dont think he would sleep much. he would pretty much be the same alone as he would with an s/o. although he would stay with you to make sure you didnt leave in the night.

Subaru: {alone}: perfectly calm, sleeps like a rock, has a lot of wet dreams, can sleep all night long 

{with s/o}: this was a bad idea, really really bad idea, YOUR ELBOW IS IN HIS FACE, YOU ACCIDENTALLY KNEE HIM IN HIS FAMILY JEWELS MULTIPLE TIMES, COFFIN SLEEPING IS NOT AS EASY AS IT LOOKS.

Stargazing and controlling mothers JugheadXCooper!Reader Oneshot

Originally posted by dailyriverdale

Fandom: Riverdale

Warnings: Does Alice Coopers existence count? 

notes: Lmao sorry for the long wait but I got hella busy and also sick. what can you do :/ anyways enjoy my PG fluff.



You stared at the ceiling, lost in thought. You were supposed to be doing math homework, but the glow in the dark star stickers that you had superglued to your ceiling in 4th grade were much more interesting. So you stared at your makeshift night sky and thought about everything.

You thought about your sister Polly, and how much you missed her.
You thought about Jason Blossom’s death, and how you didn’t miss him.
And you thought about your boyfriend, Jughead Jones, and how you really missed him. Your disapproving mother didn’t exactly know you were dating him, and you hadn’t been able to sneak off to see him in the past couple weeks. Everyone else knew, and you wished you could share that part of your life with your mom, but there was no way in hell she’d be okay with you dating the son of a Southside Serpent.

“(y/n)? Are you still awake?” Your sister Betty’s voice came from the other side of your door.

You tore your eyes away from the ceiling and ruffled a hand through your hair, “Yeah Betts, I’m still up. Come on in.” Your door creaked open and Betty walked in. She closed the door behind her and crossed the room to stand next to you.
You sat up and nodded, “So, what’s up?” you asked.

Betty smiled sadly before taking a deep breath, “I’ve just been thinking about Polly lately. I mean, I know Mom won’t let us see her. And even if she did, Polly might not even be herself. But I really wish we could, I really miss her.”


You flopped back on your bed, letting out a long sigh. “Yeah I know what you mean. Sometimes I feel like Mom’s trying to erase Polly, She won’t talk about her, won’t let us see her, and I hate it. I hate the whole thing. I miss her. I miss the way things used to be.”
Betty laid down next to you, the both of you staring at the star covered ceiling. You sat in silence for awhile. But after a few minutes Betty broke it with a complete subject change. “So, how’s Jughead?”

You grinned, “Good as far as I know. With your recent cheer-bellion Mom’s been cracking down on me with little errands for the newspaper. Trying to keep me busy, I think, so I don’t get any ideas about following in the scandalous footsteps of my sisters.”

Betty laughed lightly, “cheer-bellion?”
“Yeah. You know, Cheering-rebellion.”
Betty just laughed again.

_______

The next morning you woke up before your alarm and rolled out of bed, your (e/c) eyes still bleary from sleep.  
You got ready for school quickly and threw your stuff in your bag. You climbed down the stairs and wandered into the kitchen. Betty was eating an apple and studying her history textbook at the kitchen table when you walked in.

“Are you studying at seven am?”
“Yes.”
“Do you have a test today?”
“No.”
“You terrify me.”
You shuddered jokingly and went to steal a sip of Betty’s orange juice, but she slapped your hand away. “Get your own (y/n)." 

You huffed as you grabbed a muffin from the box on the counter. "Nah, gotta get to school. Meeting…people.” Just as you had bit into your muffin, your mom walked in, already dressed for the day and chatting on the phone.
“Bye mo

m, I’m heading to school.” You waved before turning to walk out of the room. But Your mother’s voice stopped you.

“Where are you going, Sweetie? School doesn’t start for another hour.”
“I’m going early to work in the library for a bit.” You lied easily. You were meeting Jughead early today because you hadn’t been able to see him (other than the short lunch period) for weeks.

You grabbed your bag, muffin in hand, and walked out the front door. You walked to the school with a dorky smile on your face. There was a definite lovestruck idiot vibe coming from you.
____

When you arrived at the school, Jughead was waiting for you at the front doors. There were very few people hanging around the building, most teenagers didn’t show up an hour early to school.

When he spotted you he smiled. “Hey–” Before he could get out a greeting, you gave him a chaste kiss. When you pulled back he had a faint blush on his face, bringing a grin to your face. “I know you have a no PDA rule, but there’s barely any people around so. I feel like it shouldn’t count.”
He smirked, “I’ll let it slide this time.”

“Hey, guess who doesnt have newspaper things to do tonight!” You switched the topic to your evening of freedom from your mother’s incessant errands.
“Is it some unattainable version of you?” Jughead asked jokingly, but you sensed a tiny hint of sadness behind the teasing tone.
“Sorry to disappoint, but it’s just regular me. Shocker, right?”
He grinned, “So does this mean I can actually see you tonight?”
You nodded while smiling broadly.

You and Jughead sat and chatted for about half an hour until the school was overrun with your classmates.
You stood up to head inside, “I’ll see you at lunch?” Jughead asked. You grinned and nodded in confirmation. Then you went inside and headed towards your locker.
____

Later that day you opened your front door, immediately heading for your room, But before you could get even to the stairs, your mom stopped you. And she did not look happy.

“(y/n), are you dating the Jones boy?”

You froze and internally cursed. “What?” you asked, blindsided by her question.
Your mother held up Betty’s Diary and fixed you with a stern glare. Dammit. You knew she had been reading that fucking thing.
“You are aren’t you? You know how I feel about him! (y/n), I don’t think you should see him anymore.“

"I am not going to stop seeing my boyfriend just because you can’t get past who his father is!” Your temper was flaring. You crossed your arms, giving her a defiant glare.
She rubbed her temples. “(y/n), I just want what’s best for you–”
You cut her off, “No, you want what’s best for you.” Your tone was cold and clipped. 

She could control everything else, you didn’t care. You would not let her control this. Alice Cooper was not going to stop you from seeing Jughead Jones.
You readjusted your bag on your shoulder and stormed back out the front door.
____

You showed up at the Twilight Drive, completely pissed and on the verge of tears. You knew Jughead was working that night and he was the only person you wanted to see right now.

You knocked on the door to the little projector building, tears threatening to spill from your (e/c) eyes. Jughead opened the door, looking somewhat annoyed. His face immediately softening when he saw it was you, and not some unhappy drive-in patron. You didn’t say anything and just wrapped your arms around him, burying your face into his shoulder. Your breathing was shaky and unsteady from the overwhelming wave of emotions you were experiencing. Jughead put his arms around your waist slowly.
“(y/n)? What are you doing here?” Jughead asked you, his voice laced with concern. You mumbled something into his shoulder, nearly impossible for him to understand.

You untangled yourself from Jughead’s arms and looked up at him. “She said she didn’t want me to see you anymore.”
Jughead sighed. “We both knew that was coming.”
“Yeah, well…it’s not like I ever had any intention of listening. She can control whatever else she likes, but not this. Not us.” You closed your eyes and exhaled heavily. You didnt want to fight with your mom, didn’t want to wish she was someone else, but that’s just how it was. “Can I hang out here for a bit? I don’t really want to go home right now.”


Jugheads lips quirked up a bit at the corners and he nodded. You smiled and climbed up the chain link fence before twisting and pulling yourself onto the roof of the pink projector building. Jughead’s eyebrows shot up in surprise. Even he had never thought of doing that.

He followed you up and sat next to you, the movie screen illuminating the whole lot. There were a few scattered cars around, but most people didn’t see movies on weekdays.
“So, where’d you learn to do that?” Jughead asked as you leaned back, staring at the stars overhead.
You grinned.

“When I was 9, I had no friends other than Betty and Polly. This was around the time Betty had a bit of a phase about her little sister hanging around. Although, I think that was ‘cuz she didnt want me tagging along with her and Archie. And Polly had her own friends. So I was alone most of the time. So I got bored a lot and used to sneak over the fence and onto the roof here so I could watch whatever was playing without being caught. Mom wouldn’t pay for me to come here whenever anything she deemed inappropriate was playing, which was pretty much everything. So I had to get creative.”

Jughead snorted, “I guess we were both pretty adept at getting in here without being caught.” There was a trace of bitterness in his words. He got that whenever he talked about anything even remotely relating to his family.
You put your hand on top of his in an attempt to comfort him.

Jughead shook his head slightly as the movie credits rolled in the distance. “I’m okay. I just need to go take the reel out of the projector.” He lowered himself of the roof as you watched the people in cars pack up and drive off.  You heard the chain link fence rattling as Jughead appeared back on the roof, laying down next to you.  You put your head on his chest and stared up at the night sky.
“Don’t you have to go home?” Jughead asked, his chest rising and falling steadily beneath you.

You closed your eyes and smiled, “Probably.” But you didn’t move. You didn’t want to go home, not yet anyways.
You couldn’t say how long you and Jughead stayed like that, just watching the stars in comfortable silence. And pretty soon you fell asleep, your hands intertwined and your head still on his chest.
___

The next morning you were woken up by someone calling your name. “(Y/N)!?” you sat bolt upright and glanced around, Betty was wandering around the drive in calling your name. You almost had a heart attack when you realized it was morning.
You stood up and waved your arms to get bettys attention. “Betty! hey!” Jughead stirred at the sound of your voice, While Betty headed towards the building.

“What’s happening?” Jughead asked groggily.
“I’m going to die. That’s what’s happening.” You ran a hand through your hair and laughed ruefully. Your mother may actually kill you.

You and Jughead climbed down the fence and Betty grabbed you in a bear hug. “No one knew where you were and no one could get ahold of you! We thought you were dead! There’s a murderer running around!” Betty scolded you angrily.
You checked your phone and the screen was black, signalling it was dead.
“Oops?” You offered sheepishly.

Jughead leaned against the building and watched Betty scold you.
“Oops?! Mom is ACTUALLY going to kill you this time!” Betty grabbed your hand and tried to drag you while texting with her other hand, letting everyone know you were okay. You tugged your hand out of her grasp and walked back to where Jughead was standing.

“If this is truly my end, I love you Jughead Jones the Third.” You grinned, an overly dramatic tone in your voice. You kissed his cheek and ran back to where Betty was standing. He was frozen with shock. That was the first time either of you had said I love you.

“What?” You asked innocently.
Betty laughed lightly, even though she was still beyond angry with you. Your mom’s car pulled up and Betty leaned over to you. “Any last words?”

You would’ve laughed if you weren’t so terrified.
Totally Worth it.”

Bucky’s Plan

Note: the title sucks, but you know. I try. hi thanks for the request! I hope you like it! feedback is welcome! .c

Request: I’d like to request one where you and Bucky are together not necessarily publicly where the team knows but definitely a thing, and Bucky gets it in his head that’d be a great idea to dance with another woman at a party with the intention of making you jealous and leading to angry jealous sex but instead it upsets you making you think he doesn’t consider the two of you to be exclusive and that he doesn’t really care about you? Fluffy ending though after Bucky works for it a little? - @the-one-and-only-vampcake (im so sorry i just realized i didnt tag you in this!)

Originally posted by gliceria


As soon as Tony announced he wanted the team dressed and ready to go to the new nightclub his friend was opening up, you all but bounced in your seat. You were ready for a night out, having been on missions every day for the past few months. It was rare to see 9pm sometimes; your energy was completely gone by the time you got home.

Nights out with the team were always fun and you felt like you’d be able to let loose tonight, enjoy your time with your friends, and maybe even have some alone time with Bucky while everyone was in their own little world or maybe with them around.

You and Bucky have been together secretly for about 3 months and you felt safe to say you love him. But you understand him wanting to keep it hidden from the team. He was still getting through everything, but you were totally okay with taking your time. Or so you thought.

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Rika’s back and MC gets left P. 5

Rika is back and MC gets sick at the same time she feels abandoned. Part 1 (x) | Part 2 (x) | Part 3 (x) | Part 4 (x) | Part 5 (x)

Some say that people experience 3 different loves throughout their lifetime

The first: the young, idealistic kind of love that looks right but may not feel right

The second: the hard love; where lessons are learned and the kind of unbalanced love where making it work is more important that if is actually should work

The love we wished was right

And finally

The third: the wrecking ball; the one we never see coming and teaches us why the rest didnt work out

Looks wrong; but feels right and lasts

Not always will each be experienced in close age gaps following another; some never experience all three

Others are fortuante and only experience one or two

and others believe they have experienced all three in another life

But sometimes love is only a concept and not real for some people in the sense that love only has to be sexual or romantic  and not familial

Whatever the case you need to acknowledge the different loves

Because love is more than just romantic or classified;

Not always will they be romantic or have enough power in them to stir a storm in you, but there is always a level of light within each love

Sometimes, it can be hard to realize, accept, and even move on from; but sometimes it’s best to move on from them, even if they are your family

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  • You don’t think you can move
  • The sounds of blades ripping through the air make your ears hurt and pop
  • Someone is caressing your head
  • and someone else is gripping your hand
  • You don’t know where you are or why
  • But you don’t feel like you should be there
  • The voices are distant and unlike anything you can understand
  • Sometime later the loud blades stop and you’re being lowered by a few people and wheeled away
  • You hear people arguing and yelling and you still can’t open your eyes
  • Why can’t I see?
  • You can’t move either
  • You feel needles entering you
  • Machines all around
  • And feel nice, clean oxygen enter your nose through tubes
  • Am I in trouble?
  • You still cant hear well
  • But you can feel
  • You feel someone squeeze your hand and someone kiss your cheek
  • You don’t know where they went but after a few minutes they all left

— Jahee —

  • She can’t believe it
  • She doesn’t
  • Not at first, not until V explains
  • He explains that Rika had always been sick
  • that she needed to save everyone and help in anyway she could to feel needed and loved
  • V explained how she could only help them by hurting them and by making MC the middle person
  • But he didn’t think she would hurt MC
  • Not in a way that would kill her way at least
  • By the request of Mr. Han
  • Jahee had both lawyers and psychologist at the standby ready
  • But her main concern was MC
  • She thought MC was gone, that she left without goodbye and was hurt
  • But no; she was wrong
  • MC was the victim
  • What will become of her, she didn’t know
  • She wondered if anyone felt like she did bc no one seemed to think that Rika and V needed to be held accountable
  • It was a game of pointing fingers and “If MC dies what then?”
  • She needed something more awakening and filling than coffee atm
  • She needed MC to be okay

— Yoosung —-

  • He was livid
  • How could V blame everything on Rika? She would never do this!
  • After he saw the messages he threw his phone
  • He went to Zen to be caught up and both went with Jahee to the hospital where Jumin and Seven were waiting for MC
  • He needed to see Rika though
  • Neither Jahee nor Zen complied
  • He asked Jumin to take him to see Rika but Jumin just looked at him with an unreadable expression and if he asked Seven, Seven wouldnt have answered since he’d have been busy on his laptop
  • He almost gave up but then saw Rika in a separate room with V
  • He couldn’t stand V
  • V did this; by allowing this to continue he hurt MC and RIka
  • He would never ever forgive him

—- Zen —-

  • The surgery was long and tiring
  • He canceled everything and stayed in the waiting room Jumin had set up for them rich kid problems
  • He really had a need just to smoke all his stress away but didnt want to knowing that MC wasnt a fan of the smell and he didnt want her to say that when she woke up from the surgery
  • He had it all planned out
  • “Forget Rika and the rest, let’s go and travel without responsibilities MC”
  • And he hoped she’d agree and maybe even offer to take them all to visit her home and family and
  • he was excited that the pet she had was a dog and not a cat bc poor bby cant sneeze and have fun at the same time
  • But he knew he just needed to ask for trust fund over there for some help and once MC was out of here hed propose the idea to her and the other members
  • BUt first he’d need to know how they found her and everything because V was vague and it irritated him how they kept secrets
  • He thought they were all family; is this how a family should be?
  • He really just needed a smoke

—- Seven —-

  • It’s an endless nightmare for him
  • Hacking into the system worked up until he couldn’t continue to watch her stats drop
  • He didnt want to imagine what damage would befall onto MC
  • AFter flatlining a few times, he was sure that the doctors would call her time of death but they kept at it
  • Until finally MC stabilized
  • When the doctors told the rest the news he didnt think he could breathe until he saw for himself that MC was okay and not taken away again by an occult-following quack of a doctor
  • So he kept an eye on her through the video
  • He read on the reports the doctors and nurses were inputting into the system but all he could think about was who Unknown was
  • V would know, but he didnt trust himself to go to V to get answers
  • Not at the moment anyways
  • They must have been good to have helped MC
  • And isn’t there some saying that if a dog likes a person, it’s because they are good?

-

  • You can hear and feel and think
  • But you can’t see
  • Am i even moving?
  • You being to wonder where you have come to that you don’t understand anything anyone is saying
  • You panic because you feel people touch you,
  • but you can’t see anyone or anything and it scares you because they cant hear you to know to stop
  • You try to hear out for your mom or dad
  • You feel hands on your face and you panic because you dont want anyone touching you there; you cant stand anyone touching you anywhere
  • You feel something cold run up your arm and then you fall back to calmness…

—- Jumin —-

  • He couldnt look at her let alone hug her
  • He wanted to know that she would forgive him
  • BUt at the moment he really wanted to know that she would overcome this and wake up and smile
  • Just to see her smile would make everything else fall into a prefecture of being able to breath easy
  • The doctors said that she would have to continue on the medication and get on a clinical trial that can possibly help her we all know Jumin pushed for her to be in one
  • But Jumin didnt think everything would ever be the same
  • They wrapped her face becasue of the medication that Rika gave her, that caused some deformities in her eyes
  • They got to her in time to save her eyes, but she won’t be able to see for a few days until she fully recovered
  • They said she would be groggy when waking up and even confused, which should go away in time
  • They gave her a sedative to relax her so she wouldnt further injure herself 
  • But it made him confused that she didnt understand them at all or know who was talking
  • Or how she was feeling all over herself, which caused her to think someone else was touching her and which caused her to panic even more
  • He knew he should go and see Rika and V but he couldn’t atm, not while MC was like this
  • Jahee left to get coffee and to make sure the lawyers were ready for whatever was to come:
  • Either RIka and V are held accountable or not, or if MC decides to leave everyone and order a restraining order- whatever she wanted, he was sure to deliver

— Rika —

  • “It was all for the sake of everyone”
  • she chanted over and over, not knowing that she was mumbling to herself as V and her cousin stood by watching her from the doorway 
  • Some time had passed, not knowing what day it was, or what happened after the girl… the one with the sin… after that sinful girl was taken it all went blank for Rika 
  • She tried to remember but she couldn’t push past the hazy clouds of incoherent memories she didn’t trust anymore 
  • There was one doctor she liked that she saw 
  • He was a man of his word and talked to her about religion and even let her explain how that sinful girl made her way into hurting everyone 
  • and how it was only possible becuase she and how it was only possible becuase she let it happen
  • If it had not been for Rika, no one would have met MC
  • No one would have been saved! 
  • No one would have been liberated from the tribulations and trials and suffering that came with life had it not been for Rika allowing MC into the RFA
  • And the doctor understood that. 
  • Rika didnt ask for updates on the sinful girl bc she wanted to know that it was all worth it in the end to save everyone 
  • “She woke up and scared everyone when she didnt understand them” V talked to Rika as she continued to mumble her chant 
  • Thankfully Jumin is fluent in English and was able to talk to MC for the few moments she didn’t remember Hangul” 
  • Rika slightly upset that she failed 
  • Hearing the angels mock her as she sat there listening to V talk about that sinful girl made her angry 
  • She didnt want to be mocked by the angels anymore 

— V —

  • He felt guilty in ways that he knew were sick and twisted 
  • He shouldnt have defended Rika or he should have gone to seek help for her
  • He let Rika’s condition continue and grow until she no longer was the same Rika he first met at the gallery all those years ago 
  • He was too scared to meet everyone face to face after all that had happened; he didn’t want to see anyone out of fear and shame 
  • MC woke up confused and only understandable through English
  • The only thing that kept V sane was the small conversations Jumin would have with him
  • granted they were mainly one-sided, he felt warm and almost forgiven when Jumin talked to him 
  • He didn’t know if he would ever recieve forgiveness from MC
  • at this point, he wasnt sure he even deserved it 
  • But to know that MC would turn out fine despite all he had done and let Rika do would give him comfort for the rest of his days 

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  • Jumin calmly explained how you were not in America anymore and that you were in South Korea 
  • He helped you remember things you already knew but you didn’t want them to know you knew 
  • You figured it would make things easier if you let them think you forgot the majority of everything 
  • From them abandoning you to the drugs and to the now; you wanted them all to think you forgot the major events 
  • You did, however, let them know that you did not forget Paco poor bby was sad until he saw you 
  • You found it hard to lie to them for the first day and then went to slowly ‘remembering’ Hangul
  • It was not hard to pretend to be weary around them bc they did abandon you and thought you left them without having known you better 
  • You wanted to forgive them for having left you and forgotten about you 
  • but you couldnt find it in you to forgive them 
  • Try as they might, you could not go back to before Rika resurfaced
  • Zen offered a trip to the States to visit your family, and Jumin ofc said he would pay for the trip for everyone 
  • Jahee provided a lot of amazing coffee for you to indulge in such the coffee whore you ever are
  • Yoosung would stop by and cry for a few seconds each visit and then leave the room in an uncomfortable manner 
  • and then there was Seven 
  • You dont know why but you couldn’t find it in you to ever stay mad at him
  • You did want to ask him about Saeran, bc you weren’t sure if you should expose Unknown’s identity to a hacker who works for bosses that dont seem to be the best runner-ups for ‘Boss-of-the-year-award’ 

Would he get in trouble? What if by exposing his name, I’d get him in trouble? I don’t want Saeran to be involved. He shouldn’t have to hide either. Where did he go? Would Seven keep this a secret if I asked him to? 

— Unknown —

  • He watched MC convey confusion and watched how she reacted towards everyone 
  • How she was at ease with Saeyoung and Jumin the most out of all the RFA 
  • How she smiled when the secretary would give her coffee and when the red-eyed boy would smile back at her after he would helplessly flirt 
  • Or how she would tense up when the young blonde boy walked in sad and left sad, but how she would fondly smile at the boy when he was not apologizing
  • Saeran felt like he was part to blame for what happened to her 
  • Maybe one day he will come back and see how things would work out if he could find out more about Saeyoung 
  • He felt like he was making all the right choices and for all the right reasons, that is until MC and Paco became his mission, making him loose the game and goal he set out to win 
  • His primary concern was how to come back to face Saeyoung without malicious intent 
  • until then, he figured he would go to America and see how things were for a few weeks how convenient that it would be during their trip to visiting MC’s home town 

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  • You didnt know if Yoosung would ever look at you the same
  • it bothered you slightly how the one person who you thought would have stayed by your side would leave you a lot more than the rest 
  • But you knew 
  • you knew how this must have all been confusing for him to have discovered what mental issues his cousin was dealing with 
  • You just wished that he didn’t blame V for everything 
  • bc it wasnt V, it was all Rika 
  • You know you should forgive and forget but you couldnt 
  • It didnt feel right to lie to Seven and Jumin 
  • but you got the sense that they knew you knew 
  • Somehow it a silent agreement between the 3 of you to pretend that you dindt remember most of the past few weeks 
  • You were scared of leaving teh hospital because you didnt want to be alone anymore 
  • but you were scared of the hospital from the beginning since most of everything started with the hospital 
  • Jumin offered you the best lawyers and doctors and space as an apology 
  • while Seven kept you company and when he thought you slept, you could hear him profusely apologize 
  • You agreed to Zen’s idea of a vacation only after V admitted Rika into the psychiatric ward 
  • Yoosung wouldnt talk to you for days or to anyone, but you felt like maybe he needed to take time to re-evaluate his thoughts 
  • You enjoyed it when Jahee would bring in a good cup of coffee and talk to you like you used to before 
  • No one mentioned the illness you had or the Rika events 
  • It made you happy to not think about the stress or heartbreaking moments 
  • but it made you sad too because it was your life 
  • and no one was acknowledging it at all 
  • You did, however, receive only one letter from Unknown who asked you to keep his real name a secret until the next time you would meet 
  • He reminded you that you could still talk to Paco about the part of your life everyone was okay with omitting 
  • And you understood why they wanted to omit that bit of your life, but omitting it doesn't completely mask the fact that it happened 
  • Maybe this will all catch up and resurface some day to where everyone would come to terms with it all 
  • and maybe then Rika would be back to how everyone said she was but you found it hard to believe and less thrilling to picture
  • But until then you figured out to slowly let them into your heart instead of you into theirs, things could be different 
  • Maybe you would learn to forgive them and learn to trust them as they did to you before Rika 
  • But you figured it would take time 
  • A person can only hold out so much before they crumble after having pieces of them chipped and filled away to make space for other people to fit with them
  • Maybe if you had stayed home instead of venturing for adventure, you wouldnt have become terrified of the dark, needles, and strangers so much 
  • Maybe if you didn’t answer those messages you wouldnt have become so traumitized by a group of people you considered family 
  • But maybe if Rika didn’t go crazy on you, you wouldn’t have formed such bonds with people 
  • And you know that there was still a lot of more to discover of each member of the RFA before you could ever think of leaving your family 
  • For the moment you would settle with: Rika staying far away from you,
  • everyone hovering including the ever so distant smoll angry Yoosung,
  • the constant suppression of events you wanted to make everyone feel guilty about but couldnt bc they did that on their own, 
  • and the knowledge that this dysfunctional group of misfits would be your final, unforeseen, and third love.

multifandomexplorer  asked:

I know you did Punk!Nico and Jock!Will but would you maybe do the reverse? Or with Nerd!Nico? Or Jock and Nerd Au?...

  • nico is a super shy nerd who basically doesn’t talk to anyone and is closeted bc he figures if anyone ever finds out hes gay then he’ll get beat up every single day and is not about that
  • he has a huge crush on will solace who is basically the school’s bad boy who looks really good in black and is openly bisexual which for some reason adds to the whole bad boy idea which nico doesnt understand??? why does being bi make him cooler but being gay might get nico killed????
  • so one day nico’s eating lunch in the library where he always is when someone slams a backpack down on the table across from nico and drops into the open seat and nico flinches at first and then completely shies away from will solace bc that’s who’s across from him now
    • will’s like “ur a nerd right?? i mean, youre smart?? i need some help” and nicos like “im not doing your homework for you and would like you to leave me alone thanks” and will goes “i just want someone to proofread a paper for me but i nobody i know is smart enough for that so what do you say?”
  • nico with his giant crush cant say no and tells will to come back tomorrow after nico reads his paper and its??? pretty good??? he didnt realize that will was actually smart???? sure theres a few grammatical errors but the content is really solid??? and when will comes back the next day to pick up his edited paper nico tells him that he’d be happy to proofread will’s other papers if he needs it
    • ofc will absolutely comes back but this time instead of dropping off a paper and leaving he sits down and tries to talk to nico but nicos like “i need to finish this before lunch ends” and gets back to his math homework so will digs an apple out of his backpack and starts eating and watches nico finish his homework
    • will finishes his apple and tosses the core into a trash can thats like 10ft away and then leans forward on the table and goes “youre really cute u know that?? i think its the glasses. not everybody looks good with thick frames like those but u do”
    • nico immediately assumes that will’s messing with him and is real blunt when he asks what will wants from him and wills just like “dude the only thing i want is a date maybe but if youre not into that then whatever” and nicos like??? isnt dating me gonna ruin your reputation or whatever??? but will says “do i look like someone who cares about a reputation???”
  • obviously people find out pretty quick after they start dating that nico’s gay but nico doesnt care anymore bc if someone gives him a hard time then his boyfriend will protect him
    • also???? nico in will’s leather jacket???? its like 2 sizes too big and adorable

thank u for the suggestion!!! i hope you liked it!!!

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BTS reaction- Finding out about your depression

Anon asked:  “ Can I request a BTS reaction to finding out you go to therapy for depression & suicidal thoughts”

A/N: I am going to tweak it just a little bit and only mention depression as one of the themes as I am not comfortable talking about anything suicide related.Also I made it so that they didnt know about the depression to begin with. I am sorry anon and I hope that its okay for you :)

If you are reading this and you do struggle with depression I want you to know that you can do it. I want to tell you that you can get through it because you are stronger than your mind. You are stronger than all the negative emotions. Please don’t give up. Keep fighting because I know you can. If anyone ever needs to talk please do message me. Don’t struggle alone and shoulder this by yourself. I struggle with anxiety so I can understand. You are not as alone as you think. Stay strong. <3

WARNING: May be triggering. 

*gifs not mine. Credit to owners*


MASTERLIST

Jin

I believe Jin would be very very very shocked. He expects a lot from himself and somewhere he prides himself on being a caring person. So I think he would blame himself for not taking care of you sooner. I imagine he would beat himself up over it. 

He accidentally overheard you talking to your therapist on the phone, and that’s how he found out you went to therapy. He didn’t really know how to react and how to ask you because he felt like he failed you. He came behind you and wrapped his arms around your shoulder. “I am sorry” he whispered. You were puzzled by his reaction. Before you could speak he continued on “Why didn’t you tell me y/n? You know I would have helped you right?” You could feel his tears spilling on your shoulder. “I am sorry too. I didn’t want to burden you” you replied in a raspy voice. “Lets be together babe. Forever. Let me take care of you okay?” he kissed your shoulder. 

Yoongi

I think he would be hurt the most and he would understand it the best. He would be like Jin in the sense that he would feel he failed but not for the same reason. Because has been though depression I think he would even hate himself to an extent for not figuring it out sooner. 

The moment you told him you had depression and went to therapy for it he would break down. He would apologize to you again and again. “I am so sorry for having been such a bad boyfriend” he would cry and wrap you tightly in his arms, afraid that you would vanish from before his eyes if he didn’t. “Yoongi dont..” he cut you off. before you could continue “No y/n you dont understand. I should have known because I have been through it. I should have seen it” he berated himself. “You have me y/n. You will always have me. Lets get through it together okay? Please be strong for me because I cant lose you” he kissed your forehead while one of his arms was still wrapped around your shoulders.

Namjoon

He is a very rational guy, so I think he would be the calmest out of them all. But that doesn’t mean he wont be hurting. I think for your sake he would keep a cool and calm front. But he would be very sad on the inside. 

Namjoon listened to you as you told him about your depression and that you had been seeking help for it. “I am so proud of you. You know that?” he smiled at you while holding your hands in his as a gesture of his understanding and support. He would move closer to you and embrace you. “My baby is very strong. I am so so so proud of you for being so brave. It makes me respect you and love you even more” he said while trying to blink away the tears. You couldn’t see his face but he was hurting just as much as you were. “I am here with you. Come to me anytime, and I will help you. Dont hide from me anymore please” he softly said. “Thank you” you replied. He tightened his arms around you even more and rocked you both back and forth. 

Hoseok

He is very emotional and he cares too deep so I think he would most likely cry.He would be very hurt and sad that you had to go through something like that. I don’t think he would let you out of his sight after finding out. 

Tears were pouring down his face as you let out all your feelings. “Y/n” he choked out your name and he opened his arms. He motioned for you to come to him and he cried on your shoulder. “I am never letting you out of my sight. For your next appointment you are taking me with you. Promise?” he asked you as he wiped his tears. “Thank you Hoseok. For caring so much” you avoided his gaze. “No. Thank you y/n. For telling me. I love you and I am going to love you so much more that your heart will be filled with nothing but me” he said as he kissed you all over your face. “I am never letting you be sad again. You have to promise me that no matter what happens, you will come to me first.” he said as he gazed into your eyes. “Please trust me.” he said in a raspy voice.

Jimin

I think Jimin would be a mix of Yoongi, Namjoon and Hoseok. At first he would be too shocked to respond, but as your words sunk in he would realize that he needed to be there for you and that he needed to take care of you even more.  

Jimin had no idea that you were depressed to begin with and when you sat him down and told him he went very silent. “Jimin” you had to shake him to get him to respond. “Baby how long? Why did I never…” the questions were more for him than you. As you told him your story, tears started building up in his eyes. He kind of sat shocked, but at the same time he felt angry at himself for not being able to see that behind every laugh, every smile, every word of yours was a lot of suffering. “You aren’t alone anymore. You are not going to be sad anymore because I am going make sure that every moment you spend is a happy one” he brought you close to him and held you there silently. He looked into your eyes and all he hoped for you to see was the love he had for you.

Taehyung

I think Taehyung would be very understanding and supportive. Contrary to what a lot of people think, he wouldn’t be confused. I think he would really understand you and offer his full support and love to you. Behind all the silliness, is a very deeply emotional guy, so he would know the right things to say.

Taehyung was very calm as you told him about your depression struggles. After a moment of silence he brought your hands in his and kissed each of your fingers. “You have always been the light in dark for me y/n. But now let me the happiness in your sad times. Let me do everything for you. Let me take care of you.” he genuinely smiled at you. You nodded your head as tears fell from your eyes. He cupped your face and kissed your tears away. He brought his lips over yours and kissed you softly but deeply. It took your breath away. “Tae I don’t know how to thank you” you said meekly. “Shh.” he shook his head and sat you on his lap while whispering soothing words to you.

Jungkook

I think he has grown up a lot so he will be able to handle the situation. He would quietly listen to you, but somewhere he would be angry at himself. He would be angry because he didn’t meet you sooner to help you through the tough times. He felt bad and guilty for not being able to protect you when all he wanted to do was keep you safe.

His hands were balled into fists on his knees. He was trying hard to control the anger he was feeling at himself. “I am sorry for not being able to protect you, not just from the world but from yourself.” he mumbled as he tried to choke back the tears. He took a deep breath and spoke in a more smoother voice. “You don’t know this but I swore that I would always be there for you. I swore to myself that I would always love you. So please y/n let me love you and be there for you.” You nodded in response and he continued. “We’re going to get through this together. This is my problem too now. I’ll be your shoulder to cry on, like I always should have been. So come to me anytime. Please” he pleaded . He pulled you into his chest and softly hummed to you. 


*please excuse any spelling errors*

I hope you like this anon! I also made this vey gender neutral as you requested! Have a lovely day ahead everyone

Stay Happy. Stay Healthy. Stay Beautiful 

Love

Gia

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Anxiety: logan fck i rcewed up its alle my fauly

mr serious: Anxiety? Are you alright?

Anxiety: i dint fuxkinf know crap logic prinde hayes me i sctewed up

mr serious: Where are you? It’s five in morning, you’re obviously not okay. I’m coming to get you, and then you can explain.

Anxiety: ni just let mf fucking rot here okat i dony deserve yoi

mr serious: You’re worrying me. Tell me where you are or I’ll get the others to help me look.

Anxiety: im fune altight?? perfwctky fien. i jusy need you to use your dimb logic or whatevet to talk me out ot this dumh attack

mr serious: You’re having an attack?! If you don’t want to tell me where you are, can you call me?

Anxiety: ni too harf to breathe lrt alone tslk

mr serious: Alright. Then tell me how this happened. I think you mentioned Prince? Did Roman say something?

Anxiety: princet didnt ssy anything. i messed uo and didnt help him hwen he needed me and i dont even deserve your help right now

mr serious: What do you mean?

Anxiety: i got upsetbbevause he didnt want me as a friend and thsys stupud i know but then i was already freaking out and then he tells me hes been having nightmared and nust wanted to talk to me and logann i messed up

mr serious: Would it help you if I checked up on Roman, since you won’t tell me where you are? Also, I know I’m not the best with understanding and interpreting emotions but it’s easy to tell that Roman is fond of you.

Anxiety: yes please and why would he like me

Anxiety: i mesn im literally the worst person alive so like ??

mr serious: We talked about this, Anxiety. You need to learn that your negative thoughts aren’t based on fact.

Anxiety: im sorry.

mr serious: If it would make you feel better and ease your mind, we can check on him together?

Anxiety: what if he doesnt want to see me

mr serious: Then we’ll find out together.

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logan!!: Anxiety and most likely Roman are in distress. I know it’s early but when you wake up, can you please make them breakfast? There are things they need to sort out.

Pat: of course!! I’ll get on it right away. what’s up with them?

logan!!: Anx texted me earlier saying that he screwed up, and I finally managed to get a little bit of the story out of him. He’s a bit incomprehensible right now. I’ll keep you updated.

Pat: thank you!!

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Tie Guy: Anxiety and I are outside your door. I know I’m probably not the one you’d want knowing about your nightmares but Anxiety’s a mess. He needs you, Roman.
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one of my favourite things to think about is even and isak riding their bicycles. 

that even rides his bike over to isak’s place in the mornings to go to school together and isak always speeds up as they get closer to school because he likes being early to school while even just likes to arrive just as the bell rings 

and sometimes when they’re riding into school, jonas shows up on his bike too, and even and jonas tries to do wheelies and/or get into arguments about the greatest 80s movies of all time and isak just rolls his eyes at them and rides ahead leaving the two behind to fend for themselves in the wild streets of oslo

that even and isak like to make it a competition when they’re cycling together, “last one to the kebab shop is buying!” shouts even before he speeds off, leaving isak behind trying to catch up

that they like to take their bikes out at night, and cruise around the neighbourhood, cold air breezing while they chat about everything and nothing, making comments as they pass by buildings or people, laughing at inside jokes, annoying each other

that one day, they ride past the house with the swimming pool and isak turns and asks even “did you plan to come here during halloween?” and even shrugs and says “i didnt think of it, i just wanted to be alone with you” and isak looks away and beams, and rides a little in front of even so that he doesn’t see him smiling, but even so knows that isak is secretly pleased

that they would go out on one bike, isak would always insist to be the one who cycles but even always complain loudly that his long giraffe legs kept hitting the road, and isak would stop abruptly and say “well, you cycle then!” a little grumpily. and even gets up, delighted that he annoyed isak enough to let him cycle, gives him a kiss on the forehead and a gentle side hug and a “oh come on babe” and well, isak pretends to stay grumpy but we all know he loves it, the boy’s whipped

and that when isak has had a shitty day, even would ride his bike over unannounced, call up to the flat and tell isak to come down. isak comes down and even says “i have food, let’s go somewhere” and isak hops on the backseat and they ride to a nearby park with a nice view and sit down and talk, and it makes isak feel a lot better, and it’s something isak does as well when even is feeling down

basically, there’s a lot of bike action going on

Addiction theme on NBC Family drama THIS IS US

This is us is about family. Is about peoples virtues and flaws. But also is very recurrent the addiction theme. 

Confirmed ones :

Addiction for drink /alchool Jack

Addiction for food Kate

Addiction for perfection Randall

Addiciton for drugs William


 my theories:

Addiction for attention Kevin 

Kevin´s life choices are always based in getting attention because when he was a kid and a teen he felt ignored by his parents and felt randall stole the parents attention - he became a model, than a actor, in school he was popular and a Jock, he cheated on Sophie. When he appears in Randalls hes always trying to be the central piece always talking a lot and moving around like it is his own house. This is all based in seeking attention.

Addicton (fear of being alone) to have company/someone


I think Rebecca have fear of being alone because she at first didnt want kids and marriage life, but stayed with Jack knowing he wanted this kind of life, she married Miguel after Jacks death, she saw how alone and miserable her mother was because the dad didnt pay attention to her and her mother , she wanted fame and being a singer, fame is like a way of not being alone because everyone wants to be with you when you are famous and finaly she was scared to death of loosing randall.

[ sneak preview of skinny dipping, or: the first of arguably too many summer camp fics ]


He snags lifeguard duty for that whole first week.

“Are you even certified?” Hermione demands when she sees him sitting in the second deck chair. She’s wearing a bright red one-piece and a pair of white denim cut-offs, a gleaming silver whistle around her neck and a hilariously oversized first-aid kit in her arms.  

“Like, for lifeguarding?” Cormac asks.

“Like, for anything,” she retorts, producing a tube of SPF 150 from an interior pocket in her bag. He tells himself he’s not going to watch her put it on, but that’s probably a lie.  

“Dunno,” he says innocently, spreading his legs and slouching farther down in his seat, “why don’t you test me?”

“Test you on what? Keg stands?”

“Babe, you don’t have to get me drunk to—”

“Do not finish that sentence,” she interjects, reaching up to tie her hair into a surprisingly messy bun.

Cormac winks. “Not in front of the kids, I get it.”

She sighs. “I really don’t think you do.”

“Anyway,” he goes on, undeterred, “of course I’m certified for—stuff. Like CPR. I’m certified for that.”

She turns—very, very slowly—to look at him. “CPR,” she repeats, something like disbelief coloring her voice. “Is that what you wanted me to test you on?”

He smirks. “You know it.”

Hermione clenches and unclenches her jaw, a dollop of sunscreen streaking the length of her right arm, and he can’t help but notice that her skin is already a deep, dark bronze in the late morning light. Smooth. Silky.  

“Look,” she snaps, “I don't—I’m not here to hook up, okay?”

Cormac considers that for a second. “So, like…you want me to take you to dinner first?”

Her eyes narrow. “I want you to leave me alone.”

“Oh,” he says, kind of nonplussed. “Okay. But—just to be, like, clear or whatever—you’re not playing hard to get?”


In hindsight, he doesn’t know why he’s so shocked when she pushes him into the lake.


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Pairing: Seth Rollins X Reader

Summary:

 For poor baby Seth because he’s hurt and needs to be out of action and i feel like he needs some loving and TLC. (no, not tables, ladders, and chairs) Also for my lovely @lunatichuganomics I hope you like it babes!

These were always the moments you looked forward to. You didnt care that it was the middle of the night, the cold night air making you shiver as you walked into the airport to greet your love.

He had given you all the details to his flight per your request. He wouldve rather had you not wait for him in the middle of an empty airport by yourself, knowing how much of freeze baby you were and also the whole ‘alone’ part but you refused, him knowing you just wanted to see him as soon he got home after being away for so long.

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“Actually, I came to see if you were okay about Jean. It’s hit us all pretty hard, but you and she had something special…”

Femslash February (1/?) - Jean Grey/Ororo Munroe

The Paladins Losing a Bet-Causing Them To Confess

@ anon 

-honestly i texted my friend about this bc its just so great

Shiro:

-He was drunk ok leave the soldier boy alone he didnt want this

-Ok so basically, him and Pidge bet on something dumb like

“oh I bet you can’t go a day without talking to them”

-again, he was drunk 

-the day he was gonna do it-he kinda chickened out so Lance literally pushed him into you

-and he’s like “I’m so sorry!”

-all the Paladins are chuckling in the background.

-He’s so stuttery you dont even know what the poor boy is saying

Lance:

-oh no

-Probably bet he could beat Shiro in training w/o any weapons

-he’s so dumb but gotta love him

-Now to the punishment- of course he over compensates

-Probably does the whole *points to nearby object then puts arm around your shoulders*

-what a swoony boy

-he probably tells jokes to lighten the situation for himself

-he’s so smiley please say yes

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