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So Comes Snow After Fire: Chapter 26
"Fresh As May"
By Organization for Transformative Works

“Is it like you imagined?”

Tauriel surveyed the stone fireplace behind Kíli. To either side of it, Erebor’s green marble had been intricately carved into the forms of two trees; their trunks framed the sides of the fireplace, and their branches wove together above it.

“It’s even better,” Tauriel pronounced. “The one in Thranduil’s palace is carved in much shallower relief.”

Kíli smiled, proud. “Well, I wanted it to cast proper shadows when the fire is lit. It will look best in the firelight; then you’ll hardly be able to tell where the stonemason’s work ends and mine begins.”

Tauriel studied the leftmost tree, following Kíli’s gesture. “I cannot see even now.”

“Come now; you can tell me. I shan’t be embarrassed. I know I’m not a sculptor.”

“It’s true, Kíli; I cannot see any difference. The carving all looks beautiful to me.”

Kíli laughed. “I think the difference must still be obvious to any dwarf who walks into the room, but if you are happy, that is approval enough for me.”

“I will agree with you in one respect,” Tauriel returned. “I shall find the room all the more beautiful with a fire upon the hearth and a husband beside me.”

So last week, for the humble price of $17, I ordered a copy of the original script of The Room from Tommy Wiseau’s website, which was a thing I did not know existed until like… a week ago, and anyway, it came today.

I knew TW wouldn’t let this kind of thing get out the door without some kind of personal touch, but I had no idea just how far he’d go.

For those of you who might be having a tough time reading it, it says: “to: Kraig, May all your dreams come true, love: Tommy Wiseau.”

He even went so far as to date it, BUT WE’RE NOT DONE.

He also included a shirtless headshot as soon as you open the thing up.

And last but not least, a pair of underwear with his name emblazoned on the waistband.

I cannot even begin to process all of this but yeah if you ever want to get the original, even more absurd script of The Room now you know what you’re getting into.

Your identity is a slur

I’ve been really preoccupied mentally with this ‘queer is a slur’ thing going around. I’ve seen a lot of ppl explaining the histories behind queer and its reclamation by queer folks, but I wanted to riff a little bit about the reasons, for me, that reclamation makes sense as a reaction in the first place.

When I was a young gay, growing up in Birmingham, Alabama, I remember there being one slur I heard a lot that I don’t really hear anymore. I don’t know if this was just an Alabama thing, but pretty much every gay person I knew had heard or used this word at some point and lots of str8 folks used it too: flamer. 

It was short for ‘flamboyant’–used primarily to describe gay men. I cannot even begin to describe to you my loathing for this word. Not only did I just fundamentally think it sounded stupid, I hated that: (1) it was consistently used to gender-police gay men, because of course acting flamboyant was all about not being sufficiently masculine; (2) the idea that to be acceptable queer folks need to hide their queer ways and act like str8s is distasteful; (3) str8 ppl would sometimes mis-define by claiming that it was because “gay people would burn in hell”; (4) gay men used it against each other as much as str8 ppl used it against gay men.

One of my best friends back then was a guy named Josh. Big, cuddly, sweet, I-dare-you-to-no- love-this-guy Josh. There was nothing particularly effete about Josh’s appearance, but he was not remotely interested in the trappings of masculinity; one of his many affectionately given nick-names was “Spirit Sparkles.” Josh often referred to himself as a flamer–he took a lot of pride and pleasure in the term. Sometimes he would introduce himself that way to other gay kids we met. It was a really aggressive stance, because it flipped the tables on anyone who wanted to use the term pejoratively. 

What I mean to say is that in a situation where one person called another a flamer as a derogatory term, you’d have to pick the term apart and point out all the things wrong with it: “Hey, you shouldn’t use that word because it implies that there’s something wrong with acting gay and anyway how does someone act gay that doesn’t make any sense, and also it sort of implies that men who have feminine attributes are wrong and that’s gross.” On the other hand, to embrace the term was to signal that everything deemed ‘bad’ by its use as a slur was in fact a source of pride. Moreover, it put the other person in the position of having to say what was wrong with being flamboyant. In this way, this act of reclamation was a Gordian knot solution–rather than untangle the term, reclamation allowed Josh to cut through all the bullshit.

One of the persistent problems with terminology in the queer community is that there are no words for us that haven’t been at one time or another a slur because for an enormous chunk of our history in Western culture the dictionary definition of who we are was itself imbued with negativity. Even the word homosexual was a pathologized medical term for a psychological disorder until 1974. In this context, reclaiming slurs as markers of pride is one of the only courses of action open to us: and, in fact, this is one of the key concepts in Pride parades. They sprung up in the wake of the 1969 Christopher Street Riots as an explicit way of saying to str8 communities: these people you denigrate the most (drag queens, transgender individuals, POC) in the gay community are a source of pride for us. We’re here, we’re queer, we’re not going anywhere. 

My identity is a slur. What I do and what I am are offensive to people. I cannot escape this, but I can embrace it. I can take pride in the very aspects of myself that others find perverse. I can–and I do.

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Please don’t let anything happen to him.

You. are. enough. You are ENOUGH. You are so enough you can’t even fathom it at this point. I love you. You are divinity, divinity in motion. Decide right now to be all that the entire Universe created you to be. You have nothing to prove. You are the most beautiful thing that’s ever been created. You are so infinite. I cannot even begin to articulate the love that exists inside you. You are not your past. You are not your conditioning. I know it’s been hard, but you’re not that. You matter.
Imagine Sam and Dean introducing you to Castiel for the first time.

“This is Castiel.” Said Dean.

“Castiel?”

“Yeah, he’s an…” began Sam.

“Angel. He’s an angel.” You finished Sam’s sentence.

“Yeah… how did you know?” Asked Dean, confused.

You turned towards Castiel before replying softly, “I can see your wings.”

Both Sam and Dean just stare at each other in shock. “What!?” They both shout.

“How is that even possible,” begins Dean. “Humans can’t see an angels’ wings.”

“That is correct,” says Castiel. “But there is an exception to that statement.”

“An exception? Really?” Asks Dean.

“Yes, humans cannot see an angels’ wings unless…”

“Of course,” shouts Sam, interrupting Castiel. “The myth about guardian angels!”

You and Dean turn to stare at Sam.

“Yes,” continues Castiel. "Humans can’t see a typical angels’ wings but they can see their guardian angels’ wings. Think of it as a… like a “bonding thing” between the human and their angel.“

“So, you’re my guardian angel?” You ask as Castiel nods. “I have my very own angel!” You shout excitedly with a smile.

Season 12 Wishlist

Okay so now that the season finale has aired and we have all had at least a little bit of time to think it through, I decided to start this positivity post for Season 12 because I don’t know about you guys but I am SO EXCITED about Season 12 I cannot even begin to describe how excited I am. So I’m writing a wishlist instead which anyone is free to add onto:

1. Castiel gets his emotional arc resolved - This is a big one. As a Cas girl I was left unsatisfied with Castiel’s arc this season, HOWEVER, we KNOW from previous Dabb episodes that he loves to explore Castiel’s emotional story and I have no doubt that this will continue into season 12. Our angel still has a story ahead of him (hopefully ending in the love of a certain green eyed hunter.)

2. SUPERBRITISH - I am not going to stop going on about this. This is my land, My green and (fairly) pleasant land. The British are coming to Supernatural and I cannot stop being excited about it. Can I please have ALL the TFW in London head canons please? From traffic jams and silly accents to discovering the glory that is a bacon roll from Gregs on a Sunday morning whilst suffering a horrendous hangover.

3. Awesome female characters continuing to kick ass - I adored the use of female characters in the finale. They all lived, no one female was a sexy lamp (sadly that role was given to Castiel) and no one got forced into unnecessary make out sessions. The women are smart, sarcastic badass queens who will RULE this show come October, and I for one, cannot wait. 

4. Men of Letters vs Grand Coven - Yes this is a big one and I am hoping is the main story arc going forward into season 12. I want to see more of the Grand Coven of witches and their European battle with the Men of Letters. I am expecting more awesome women kicking ass thanks to this potential storyline.

5. Mother Mary and family time - Mary’s reveal was pretty amazing especially since I think we were all expecting it to just be her ghost or a vision or something, but nope, Mummy Winchester is back on the scene and I can’t even begin to imagine what they are planning to do with this. All I am hoping for is that Mary’s influence will help Dean to accept certain parts of him that he loves to keep repressed (effeminophobia and his bisexuality being the big ones). Mary coming back will hopefully start to truly break down and destroy John Winchester’s toxic influence over his sons. I also really really want her to meet Cas and say the words “Thank you for watching over my son.” YES.

6. Sam gets some distance from Dean, some other friends, maybe a girl, and definitely a dog - I think it is safe to say that Sam isn’t dead. Probably just shot in the arm or leg or something. I want him to be taken to England by Lady T and face the Men of Letters. I hope that they will warm to Sam (and his wonderful moose charms) and that Sam will get to bond with his British companions away from Dean (because Dean always steals the side characters away and bonds with them more than Sam ever does - except for Eileen). Maybe there could even be love in the future for Sam - either by bringing back Eileen or developing a decent and believable relationship between Sam and Lady T (I don’t want her forced into the love interest role, I think she is far too good for that already, but if she becomes a regular throughout the season like Rowena is then potentially a relationship could blossom slowly between them. It could work. I have been hoping for love for Sam for some time now and I can see the potential in this).

7. Lady T is a well developed, fully rounded, likeable character and not a sexy lamp or boring love interest - I already love her. I want to know more about her, her motivations, her back story, how she became a woman of letters, I want her to be a worthy adversary to the Winchesters before becoming a trustworthy ally. I want her to continue to take none of their shit, to put them in their place and therefore earn their respect. I also really want to see her face of with Rowena. That would be awesome. England vs Scotland right there! Potentially I would accept her becoming a love interest to Sam only if it was done right. If it was done in the subtext throughout the season and is only a very very tiny part of the storyline. It would have to be major slow burn. No forced kisses like in CACW (did you guys see that? what the fuck was that?). Only then, would I accept any sort of romantic sub-plot between characters.

8. More screen time for Dean and Cas = DESTIEL - Well obviously. It wouldn’t be a proper supernatural wishlist if it didn’t have Destiel written in big letters somewhere now would it? After all the build up in Season 11 in the subtext I am still convinced that this is going somewhere. The season finale has NOT destroyed my positivity at all. In fact it has only added to it. (come ask me about it if you want more info). At the end of the day, Dean and Cas are going to have to save Sam. This means spending time together trying to FIND Sam in a completely unknown city (hence my excitement over them renting a car and getting stuck on the M25 before ending up lost in somewhere like Surrey… Oh the fanfiction potential! I can practically taste it! I have faith in Dabb to bring us more destiel moments. he has always been good to us.

9. Following on from the above… HUNTER CAS - Dabb brought us the wonderful episode Hunteri Heroci which had Cas try out his hunting skills (and save the day I might add). We know Dabb loves Cas. I have every reason to believe that Cas will get more time as a Hunter. I want him in MOTW episodes. He will be soooo good in MOTW episodes please please PLEASE let this happen! (especially if the MOTW episodes are set in BRITAIN because the boys are still out there dealing with the MOL and the Grand Coven…. I see them dealing with ghosts that are 1000 years old and haunting freaking castles… it will be glorious.)

10. More funny episodes - So this scene: 

(Gif by @cassammydean)

Makes me want more witches doing ridiculous things to the boys. Give me ACTUAL MOOSE SAM WINCHESTER PLEASE! Give me the kind of silly witch stories we have been reading about in fanfics for far too long… come on show, its season 12! What have you got to loose?

11. Beach Episode - This is purely for @elizabethrobertajones. Maybe once they are done in Britain, they’ll head off to the med for a true European beach experience… They’ll be fine as long as they have Cas with them. He speaks all the languages. He can order the cocktails and ice creams. ;-)

Feel free to add onto the wishlist! I would love to know what everyone else is hoping for in the new season!!

I have recieved a few worried messages about Trump’s presidency from people who are part of the LGBT community. I am from the UK, so I cannot even begin to understand how scared you must all be feeling, espciecally after Mike Pence’s statement. I cannot promise that everything will be okay, and I think you all know that the future is definitely looking uncertain in terms of LGBT rights.

We all need to come together now, no matter where you are in the world. We need to unite and stand together even more than we have before. We need to link up with other opressed groups; blacks, latinas, hispanics, muslims, disabled and all the others, to tackle this together. Together we are stronger.

As Chad Griffin (Human Rights Campaigner) has said; “To every LGBTQ person across this nation feeling stunned and disheartened, and questioning if they have a place in our country today, I say this: You do. Don’t ever let anybody tell you otherwise. Be bold, be strong, and continue to stand up for the principles that have always made America great.”

#HesNotMyPresident

This is how you know when you love her.


It might come slowly at first. You might not even realize it in the beginning; but it hits you eventually, maybe so strong that you can’t breathe for a moment, or maybe slowly and surely until your mind is filled to the brim with emotions you cannot find the words for. You will feel it in the way her skin trembles under the tips of your fingers when you run them across her arms, and the way she looks at you with eyes full of hope and desire and a million other things you can’t help but fall for. 


You’ll feel it in the way she holds your hand first when you’re alone together, her fingers timidly intertwining with yours then grasping them lightly when you hold onto them. You’ll feel it in the way she sometimes dozes off and lays her head on your shoulder, careful not to press too hard just in case you’ll be bothered. You’ll feel all the love surging through your blood when she sometimes catches you looking at her like she is the most beautiful girl in the room, and blood rises to her cheeks but she tries to cover it up. 


Those are all the beautiful moments when you’ll feel the love towards her. But you’ll also know that you’re in love when her eyes are flooded with tears that she cannot stop at 3am, and you’re the only person there to hold her close and kiss her hair. You’ll know it when she throws things out of anger at no place in particular then slam the door and refuse to come out for hours. You’ll know when she is sick and lonely and is lying in bed all day long without talking to you although you have so much to tell her about your day.


You’ll know it when you feel it - a sudden surge of love flowing through your blood is inextinguishable, unstoppable. A flutter of the heart, a trail of kisses, an entanglement of limbs; and that, is how you know when you love her.

—  how you know you love her // #2 in the ‘how’ series
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WOW!

I cannot begin to thank you all enough for all of the love and support you have given me! This has been a crazy and wild ride and I can’t believe it! You have given me so much confidence and continue to inspire me each and every passing day. I wouldn’t be where I am now without you, so thank you!

I’ve said it before, but I truly have been blessed with the most kind, interesting, creative, talented and hilarious followers. I am so lucky to know you, even if anonymously. I look forward to your messages, your tags crack me up, your prompts give me ideas and insight I would have never thought of on my own, and you are the reason why I manage to draw everyday :) Thank you, thank you, thank you! I love you so much!

okay but why does no one talk about how much of a masterpiece “Come Back, Be Here” is??? the lyrics are FANTASTIC

I told myself don’t get attatched, but in my mind I play it back spinning faster than the plane that took you” 

“this is falling in love in the cruelest way, this is falling for you when you are worlds away

and the one that really gets me “THE DELICATE BEGINNING RUSH THE FEELING YOU CAN KNOW SO MUCH WITHOUT KNOWING ANYTHING AT ALL” 

like are you kidding me THIS SONG IS TOO GOOD I CANNOT EVEN DEAL TAYLOR SLAYS ME

The LSAT: Study Tips from a Law Student.

Disclaimer: The LSAT is not a proper measure of your intelligence. But there are some things you can do to increase your score!

1. Start studying months in advance.

THIS IS A MAJOR KEY TO SUCCESS🔑🔑🔑 You cannot start studying for the exam a month in advance. You need AT LEAST 3 months to prepare. A dean of admissions at a law school in NY even suggested 6 months of preparation. The earlier you begin studying, the more time you have to learn the nuances of the exam (and eventually learn different techniques for doing well).

2. Prep class vs. Self-Study.

Again, it’s important to know yourself. Do you have the discipline to force yourself to study on your own? Or would a prep class give you the structure you need to study? 

PREP CLASS:

I chose to take a prep class. 

I’m a huge proponent of prep classes because it gives you access to an instructor (who did well on the exam) that can answer any questions you may have. I took a prep class with Kaplan. There were only 9 other students in the class so my instructor knew all of our strengths and weaknesses. She was able to identify my areas of opportunity and give me techniques to increase my score. The classes were actually fun (Despite them being four hours every day of the week…except the weekend). 

A prep class can be costly but the companies will have promotions. Also, do your research: there are scholarships that will help pay for the cost of a class! 

SELF-STUDY: 

I know some people who studied on their own. One of my mentors got a 170 on the LSAT by purchasing study aids from a local bookstore and creating a study schedule for herself. She started three months in advance and studied Sunday through Friday. On Saturdays, she would take an exam. (I didn’t have this level of discipline, though, hence my prep class enrollment lol).

3. Do your Research.

Like I said, the LSAT is not a measure of your intelligence. However, you definitely want to know the LSAT range at the schools you want to apply to. I’m saying this with a huge grain of salt, though. I currently attend a T25 law school and my LSAT score did not match the median LSAT score of the previous year. APPLY TO YOUR DREAM SCHOOL REGARDLESS OF YOUR SCORE! 

4. Discover Law program.

This program simulates your first year of law school in four weeks. Each week, you take a different first-year class with an LSAT session each day. Many law schools have this program and each has a different structure but the purpose of the program remains the same. The program I attended featured field trips to a federal court house and a medium-security prison. Also, at the end of the program, I received a fee waiver for the law school’s applications (which add up very quickly). 

5. Helpful Websites.

  • discoverlaw.org (they have a quiz you can take to introduce you to an area of law based on your interests!)
  • lsac.org

****I just want to stress again that your score is not a reflection of your intelligence. Remember that other application materials are equally as important! Check out my other post for tips about studying for your classes!

How Asexuals Experience Oppression

Before I begin, I just want to let the majority of my followers, who are writers and readers, know that I will be putting out a post tomorrow about including symbolism in your writing.

So a few Anons were insulted that I suggested asexuals could experience oppression (Could? They do!) because words themselves are oppressive. In order to back up my words, I did some research into the matter, because unless you actually are asexual, you cannot know the asexual experience.

Plus, apparently to these Anons, individual experiences don’t even matter. How damning is that? This is why I had to do research so that way I could back up the oppression aces can face.

Let us begin with a 2012 article I found on Psychology Today that discusses prejudice against asexuals. I will list pertinent quotes in bullets.

Reading this article made me mad because of the assumptions those Anons made about asexuals, one who was an asexual themselves! I’ve mostly come across oppressive words since I came out. Even so, where I live, many of my friends who are homosexuals have told me they’ve never come across any violence. Just oppressive words. Augusta, even though part of the Bible Belt, has an openly gay community with fervent allies who would stone you if you so much as uttered a slur. But I know there are plenty of people in the LGBTQ community who do experience violence. My point is that you can’t assume asexuals don’t experience violence because of their lack of sexuality. You naturally assume this because of the erasure we experience, so we’re not part of any discourse about violence toward sexual minorities.

Now on to the bullet points!

  • “It likely comes as no surprise that we do not know a great deal, scientifically, about asexuality, and we know even less about prejudices toward asexuals.” Because asexuals are such a tiny percentage, not much research has been done on our sexuality–or lack thereof, for that matter. So to those who felt insulted that I said we experience oppression, thank you for erasing us by denying our experiences because we are such a tiny minority where not much is known about us. Thank you. Thank you so much for that. You didn’t even realize you were doing it, but you did. And I am bitter because I received a lot of messages saying the same, tiresome thing.
  • “…humans have a tremendous “capacity” for outgroup dislike. After all, atheists and vegetarians/vegans are frequently targets of discrimination despite these groups also being characterized by an absence (of a belief in God or of animal consumption/exploitation, respectively.)” I know atheists do have a history of being oppressed by fervent Bible thumpers, and were killed for their lack of belief in a god. I can’t say anything about vegetarians/vegans, though.
  • “Relative to heterosexuals, and even relative to homosexuals and bisexuals, heterosexuals: (a) expressed more negative attitudes toward asexuals (i.e., prejudice); (b) desired less contact with asexuals; and © were less willing to rent an apartment to (or hire) an asexual applicant (i.e., discrimination).” I was surprised upon finding this. But then maybe I shouldn’t be. Human nonsexuality is still an anomaly. And people are naturally disgusted by anomalies.
  • “Moreover, of all the sexual minority groups studied, asexuals were the most dehumanized (i.e., represented as “less human”).” Unfortunately, this isn’t that surprising to me. After all, people dehumanize what they don’t understand, and asexuals are misunderstood/erased from society. Erasure is a part of oppression, because it marginalizes minority groups and categorizes them into stereotypes. Asexuals are seen as frigid and unfeeling–robotic, essentially. Before I read this article, I only knew that asexuals experienced erasure, which isn’t the end all be all of oppression, but it IS a part of it. And corrective rape, too. Can’t forget that.
  • “Intriguingly, heterosexuals dehumanized asexuals in two ways. Given their lack of sexual interest, widely considered a universal interest, it might not surprise you to learn that asexuals were characterized as “machine-like” (i.e., mechanistically dehumanized). But, oddly enough, asexuals were also seen as “animal-like” (i.e., animalistically dehumanized). Yes, asexuals were seen as relatively cold and emotionless and unrestrained, impulsive, and less sophisticated.” This basically backs up what I said above.
  • “Specifically, those disliking one social group (e.g., women) also tend to dislike other social groups (e.g., homosexuals; Asians). In our recent paper (MacInnis & Hodson, in press), we found that those who disliked homosexuals also disliked bisexuals and asexuals.”
  • “In other words, these prejudices are correlated. Heterosexuals who dislike one sexual minority, therefore, also dislike other sexual minorities, even though some of these groups are characterized by their sexual interest and activity and others by their lack of sexual interest and activity.” No surprise there. Bigotry for one group often manifests itself for other groups. Lots of homophobes I know are also racists and sexists.
  • “By deviating from the typical, average, or normal sexual interests, sexual minorities are considered substandard and thus easy targets for disdain and prejudice. Contrary to conventional folk wisdom, prejudice against sexual minorities may not therefore have much to do with sexual activity at all. There is even evidence, for instance, that religious fundamentalists are prejudiced against homosexuals even when they are celibate.” Gasp! How shocking.
  • “Together, such findings point to a bias against “others”, especially different others, who are seen as substandard and deficient (and literally “less human”).” So, why are we surprised that asexuals would experience oppression? Or even just a tiny bit of it (because erasure is a part of that!)? For me, it’s common sense to know that anything that deviates from the norm is going to experience some sort of prejudice or oppression or what have you.

Please keep reading. It doesn’t end here. It only gets worse.

Keep reading

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Richard Starkey
July 7th, 1940 -

Happy birthday to the one and only Ringo Starr - the drummer, the singer, the musician, the photographer, the actor, the activist, and, above all else, the spreader of peace and love. We love you, Ringo!

The Poem I am Unable to Write

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There is a poem I am unable to write,

even though I know where it begins

and how it ends. However, I have

learned over the years that if a poem

doesn’t come naturally to me then

it probably means I am not a good

enough poet yet and therefore I have

no business writing it.

Of course, that still doesn’t prevent

me from trying; after all, how will I ever

be good enough if I don’t put in the time.

But, in truth, a part of me likes to think

that I will never be good enough because,

like I said, I know how the poem ends.

I feel so lucky to have been in this fandom when One Direction was in it’s prime. The band is never going to be the same without Zayn - no one knows what the future will hold for the other four but I wish Zayn all the best. We can’t be mad at Zayn for this - we all know that he struggled with the fame the most out of everyone. He was the one that got the most shit from outside the world. There were cheating rumors almost every week - which put a strain on his relationship with Perrie (where you believe it to be real or not). He was picked apart and judged for his religion, he experienced Islamophobia on a level that most people cannot even begin to comprehend - not only for Zayn himself but for his family as well which I’m sure came with a lot of guilt. He was constantly being accused of using drugs even though nothing more than weed was ever confirmed and yet on one of the biggest morning talk shows in America he was called out for using drugs when he wasn’t even there. Zayn received more hate for who he was as a person than any other member of One Direction did and really all he wanted in the beginning was to get confirmation that he could actually sing - not to be world famous.  

We got a glimpse at what appeared to be happy Zayn at the beginning of this tour. Think about how much you enjoyed seeing him like that and think about how he is going to be like that ALL THE TIME now. Zayn can do whatever he wants now. He can focus on his art, hell maybe you’ll get the chance to own one of his pieces in the future. He is only twenty-two he has his whole life ahead of him and the best thing that you can do is to wish him happiness. 

And think of it like this, at least Zayn ended on a good note. There were no crazy public fights with the other four, they’re still his best friends, his brothers. He can still hang out with them and see them and you know that he will. It’s clear to me that this was not an easy decision for him to make. But don’t be selfish, you don’t know the whole story or exactly what Zayn was dealing with when he left. Mental health is very important and if leaving is what Zayn needs then that’s what he needs to do and we all need to support his decision. 

So reblog all of your favorite pictures of him, Youtube the crap out of Zayn’s Funnies/Cutest Moments, and read all of your favorite Zayn fanfics. Just whatever you do support him, don’t be mad him, and support Niall, Harry, Liam, and Louis because their lives just changed big time today too. 

And make sure to tell the Bradford Bad Boi that you love him. 

Preferences: When You're Sick

Castiel:

When it comes to human ailments and illnesses, Castiel is totally clueless; however, he still tries his very hardest to make you feel more comfortable. 

Cas instantly appears at your side when you come down with a virus such as the flu… or something as minor as a headache, for that matter. He gingerly presses the pads of his fingers to your forehead, wanting to remove some of your pain; even though his angel-mojo cannot cure a virus or infection. 

When you ask if you can use his lean body as a pillow, Cas quickly agrees, his cobalt eyes twinkling and a bright smile appearing on his face. He even thinks to remove his suit jacket and trench coat, laying them over your bodies to create a makeshift blanket. 

You snuggle into his chest, closing your eyes when his fingers begin to gingerly comb through your hair. 

“It kills me to know that I am unable to help you further, [Y/N].” he’d sheepishly murmur into your ear, encircling you in his arms. “I hope you feel better soon.”

x

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Sam:

Sam Winchester is a man who likes to prepare for what ever ‘life’ throws his way; including viruses that seem to plague you during the absolute worst of times. 

Sam keeps medication stocked within the bunker, and always makes sure to bring some along on hunts, knowing that the hectic schedule of a hunter is bound to have an ill affect on an immune system.

At the first sign of an ailment, Sam is by your side, holding your hair when you vomit, handing you tissues when you get the sniffles, and giving you pain-killers for your head and muscle aches. He pulls you to the couch for a weekend spent watching movies of your choice, making sure you drink plenty of water, and that you stay warm within his tight embrace. 

Not wanting to clash with your stubborn personality, Sam doesn’t force anything, such as food, onto you. Instead, he keeps quiet, allowing you to rest your head on his shoulder and snuggle within a pair of his baggy pajama pants.

You apologize, knowing that his schedule normally does not allow 'sick days’; however, he just shrugs his broad shoulders and flashes you one of his gleaming smiles.

“I don’t mind, [Y/N]. This isn’t your fault.” he’d tell you, lightly rubbing your arm. “Besides, I’d much rather be cuddling on the couch with you, than dealing with some rogue angel.”

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Dean:

When you have been struck with a nasty virus, Dean Winchester quickly jumps into action.

Dean believes that old-fashioned remedies are the best way to cure an illness. He caters to you, bringing endless amounts of chicken noodle soup, orange juice, and lemonade to your bedside

…and though he is against it, he even gives you pain-killers, at your request. 

As your fever spikes… and Dean notices your shivers, the muscular man pulls off his shirt and climbs into your bed, his bare skin warming you immensely. He lovingly wraps you in his arms, stroking your back and shoulders until you begin to doze off. 

You try to convince Dean into sleeping within his own bedroom, not wanting him to catch your illness; however he just shakes his head disapprovingly.

“I’m not leaving you here alone, [Y/N].” he’d murmur determinedly, squirming when he felt your warm breath against the crook of his neck. “It’s my job to make sure that you’re alright; and if that entails you getting me sick…? So be it.”

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