i realllly want to be tattooed and i have for years, but i have pretty bad anxiety. im afraid of pain, but im also afraid of permanence and choosing the wrong placement or choosing the wrong thing. did you ever worry about that, and do you have any advice? love you
in my life i’ve had two tattoos that lead to an anxiety attack, and I can tell you they were awful experiences that I wouldn’t want to relive for any reason. After the dust settles, I can say that i always recover, but I also never know when they’re going to happen, and like I said, I would do anything in the world to make sure i never relive the experence. I’ve also been in high levels of pain, where I mentally shame myself into never getting tattooed again. A few years ago I was hospitalised, and the entire time I kept repeating to myself, “I never want to feel this again, I never want to feel this again, I never want to feel this again,” meaning, I never want to subject myself to voluntary pain.
then two years later I got my scarification.
So I don’t know.
You risk SO much knowing that you are subject to panic attacks and anxiety, and I don’t have any good advice other than, you roll the dice and put yourself at so much risk.
I have dozens of tattoos and body mods that never triggered anything, but it’s the two that did, and the pain I couldn’t withstand that keep me afraid of something else happening again, but I DO keep that fear very dormant in my thoughts, and plan to continue to get tattooed.