you are worthy of love and belonging

To all the young trans girls who need to read this message,

Hating your body and wishing you were cis does not make you more or less of a woman.

You were a woman all along, and you still will be, regardless of your relationship with your skin.

Please be kind to yourself, because you deserve it.

Please be patient, because every problem has a solution, even if at this very moment it is out of reach.

Remember most of all that the cruelty of the world around you does not belong to you. It is they who are wrong, and not you.

And most of all, remember this:

You are worthy of love.

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you.
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do.

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for.

—  Sleeping At Last (Turning Page)

When we wake up tomorrow, we are going to fight. You are all worthy of love and belonging, no matter your skin colour, race, religion, gender or sexuality. We need to fight bigotry and hate and racism and homophobia and sexism at all levels. We are stronger together.

Nebby (Cosmog) aesthetics #2 (Pokémon Moon version)

“I don’t care if you’re the rarest Pokémon there is in the world or not!”
“If you’re not beautiful enough to be worthy of my love, then I don’t NEED you!” - Lusamine

“Children are not just THINGS that belong to their parents! Pokémon are not just THINGS that a trainer can do whatever they want to!” - Lillie

Be vulnerable.
Let yourself be deeply seen,
love with your whole heart,
practice gratitude and joy…be able to say ‘I am thankful to feel this vulnerable because it means I am alive’,
and believe 'I am enough.’
You are worthy of love & belonging.
—  Brene Brown, The Power of Vulnerability

I should have known that we could never last. You were one of God’s own angels. And I was just.. well, I was just me.

But how could I have known. You treated me like one of your own. You showered me love and affection that no mere mortal was worthy of. You incited in me feelings that I did not know belonged to this world. And it was that, that made me lose sight of who I was. And I was just.. well, I was just me.

You showed me what heaven was like. After all, you were only making yourself at home. But no matter how hard you tried, it was never enough. You did not belong here with me. Nothing I did could give you the things you wanted. I tried so hard to make you fell the way you made me feel. But I was just.. well, I was just me.

You missed home too much. All your ‘people’ were back there, and here, you were stuck with me. You wouldn’t tell me, but I knew. All I wanted was to make you happy, and home was what made you happy. It hurt so bad to send you back.

I miss you sometimes. But I am just.. well, I am just me.

atransientman
a note from a trans girl

dear trans girls: i love you and i want you to succeed. i think you’re beautiful and attractive, and whatever kind of journey you’re on and wherever you are on it, you are real, and worthy of respect. you’re important and lovely and you belong here, and i’ll spend my whole life fighting for you.

Show Me

Show me why I should stay
when all I can feel is confined
from the life and the experiences
i deserve to have

show me why i can’t be alone
even though i can feel it in my bones
an urge to prove to my soul that
i am more worthy

show me what to do
when you find yourself sitting
and thinking about that one person
you have no business belonging with

show me the reason why
I have become a whole new being
with lower merit and higher motivation
for the goals i never once had

show me the meaning of love
and all it’s ugly secrets
or else i will find a way
to find that love within myself

and before you know it
i’m gone
doing the things you hated
with the ones i love.

Aries: This moment belongs to you. Crawl out from beneath your covers. Show yourself off with the confidence you always pretended you had. This time, make it real.

Taurus: I see you. I see how you are. I see how you wish you could be. All of it is good. All of it shines in sunlight.

Gemini: One day, this will all be fuzzy and distant. Soon enough, you’ll be living a different life as a different person. How do you feel about that?

Cancer: Set your teeth on anyone who claims you must be beautiful to be worthy of love. Bite back. You don’t exist to be framed on a wall. You are all you must be.

Leo: Even when you feel your heaviest, like everything inside of you is anchoring you to the bottom of the sea, you’re lighter than air to us.

Virgo: Ghosts aren’t the dead ones you hear about. Ghosts are the things that live in your shadows, holding onto your shoulders and whispering beautiful lies into your ears.

Libra: Mature isn’t something you ‘are’ so much as something you find in your own security.

Scorpio: There’s a restless itching to go somewhere and do something–I notice it whenever I look hard enough. It knows what’s best for you. It won’t stop until you get moving.

Sagittarius: You’re haunted by all the people who left and all the ones you left behind. Sometimes they’re good. Sometimes they remind us of our good parts. This is not one of those times. You don’t have to forget them, but you must let them go.

Capricorn: Love arrives in a million different forms. It’s up to you to recognise it and accept it. The acceptance part is a little trickier when you don’t think you deserve it.

Aquarius: You’re breaking your own heart so you know no one else will. I’m watching it burn in front of me and wondering if this is for the best. It never is.

Pisces: They say you can’t be loved by another until you love yourself, but don’t worry. That was never true. Neither is easy enough to align with the other.

—  next week’s horoscopes, s.s.
‘I think midlife is when the universe gently places her hands upon your shoulders, pulls you close, and whispers in your ear:
I’m not screwing around. It’s time. All of this pretending and performing – these coping mechanisms that you’ve developed to protect yourself from feeling inadequate and getting hurt – has to go.
Your armor is preventing you from growing into your gifts. I understand that you needed these protections when you were small. I understand that you believed your armor could help you secure all of the things you needed to feel worthy of love and belonging, but you’re still searching and you’re more lost than ever.
Time is growing short. There are unexplored adventures ahead of you. You can’t live the rest of your life worried about what other people think. You were born worthy of love and belonging. Courage and daring are coursing through you. You were made to live and love with your whole heart. It’s time to show up and be seen.’
—  Brené Brown
The Petra Theory

You’re getting so sick of this. I know. But I just CAN’T LET IT GO. Jane the Virgin is a meta-telenovela that loves to make us gasp at every chance it gets, right? Well what’s more gasp-worthy than finding out Rafael’s babies aren’t REALLY his babies?! You got it: nothing! I believe there is a strong chance that Petra’s little twins actually belong to Roman Zazo.

Let’s rewind:

In Chapter 19, Roman Zazo kidnapped Petra and brought her to that icky swamp. Feeling trapped and helpless, Petra decided the best thing she could do was seduce Roman and then take him out.

Flash forward forward 3 episodes and around 2-3 weeks to when Petra steals Rafael’s sperm from the clinic and inseminates herself with a turkey baster.

Flash forward another few weeks, Petra is pregnant and already dealing with some crazy morning sickness.

Does anyone else think it’s crazy that Petra actually inseminated herself with a turkey baster? And it stuck? Is she really that lucky? …Let me go ahead and answer that for you: she is NOT that lucky. She is actually incredibly unlucky, so it would make more sense that the father of her children is actually an evil twin. 

Flash Forward again to Petra’s first sonogram when we find out she’s carrying twins. RED ALERT. As far as we know, twins do not run in the Solano family. Whose family does it run in?? The ZAZOS. I feel like the only reason the writers made it twins was to give us a MAJOR clue. Don’t worry guys, I got the message!

Let’s recap:

-Both the swamp hookup and the artificial insemination happened around the same time (ish).

-TWINS.

-Petra is unlucky as hell.

-So is Rafael, so it would make sense that his remaining sample has been totally wasted.

-This is a crazy, twisty meta-telanovela where nothing is as it seems.

I know I don’t have any hard evidence and this is mostly my cousin and I conspiring…but how fun would it be?

Okay my fellow JTV fans, let me know: Do you agree with me? Or do you think I sound absolutely insane?

alright kids listen up, i’m back to passive-aggressively blog about Things That Matter To Me

Feb 6, 2017 edition: Biphobia

that’s right! it exists! im not gonna fuckin point fingers to say who does it the most because that’s divisive and childish. it doesn’t matter who does it the most.

if you’re bisexual, you belong in LGBT+ spaces. that’s it, end of story. it doesn’t matter what gender or sexuality your partner is. this isn’t about your partner–it’s about YOU, and your lovely bisexual face.

being upset about biphobia within the LGBT+ community is not “playing oppression olympics.” you’re allowed to feel hurt, to feel angry, to want to change public perception of bisexual people. your problems are yours, and they don’t make you less important, or less worthy of protection just because they’re different from somebody else’s.

that’s all i’ve got for now.