you are the finest

Darth Vader could have met with these guys in the hangar. It would have been easier and more secure–instead of giving these for-profit lowlifes a tour of the galaxy’s advanced Imperial warship, he could have met them in a more clandestine location and sent them back on their way. He could have even Space-Skyped the meeting, or just put out a Public Service Announcement. 

But no.

He needed to send a message to his subordinates while keeping them alive. The message was “Hey, guys, you really stink at your job, so here’s the replacement crew. Look at them. They’re going to take your jobs because I trust them more than you, my own crew, the finest in the Empire. I’m replacing you with a lizard, a robot, a bug, a bug robot, a masked man, and a guy wrapped in toilet paper. Maybe they’ll be better at this than all of you, who have disappointed me so much. Look upon them. Look at them and understand my displeasure.”

young me, horrified: who are you??
current me, sipping on a martini made from only the finest vodka, wearing a smile that could easily be mistaken for a snarl: i’m you but bitter

Character development from Ep 1-8
  • Yuri Ep 1: oh my god I can't believe Victor is here! I don't deserve this! I hope I don't disappoint him
  • Yuri Ep 8: I more than deserve. Tie my shoes and don't you dare look away for even a second, you're mine now Victor
  • luke skywalker is terrifying. 
  • no, shut up, come back.
  • you have to understand:
  •  to you or me he may not be; he may be all sunshine smiles and corngold hair and the biggest eyes this side of the galaxy, but imagine you’re Dagger (stormtroopers don’t get proper names), firing at a boy, only the bolts never hit. They sing to the side. You think that there’s something wrong with your blaster, maybe, but none of your friends can hit him either. Finest shots in the Empire, you are, but you can’t hit this boy. And he cuts you down. He wields a weapon whose name you’ve never learned and he cuts you down into smoking bloodless bodies and your friends die before you – only he leaves you. Knocks you out with a blow of the Force – and isn’t that a nightmare of its own, unseen hands blotting out your thoughts – leaves you there in the cooling blood of your squadmates.
  •  Imagine that you’re Cara Ilhyre and you’re a dancer for the Hutt and you hate it, of course you do, but it is a living, a living, and this boy comes in, fresh-faced and young and he says surrender or be destroyed only he and you both know that the Hutt do not and never have surrendered and when he says destroy there’s this grin on his lips, thin and sharp, and he’s kind, of course he is, but –
    • so you’re Cara Ilhyre and you’re a native of tattooine and like many of your specis you are force-touched and you were a girl, once, a very little girl, and your mother told you tales of krayt dragons who slumbered beneath the sands and gentled their young to their pearl-heavy breasts. krayt dragons are tender mothers, she had said, and it was meant to teach you something of the duality of nature, or to fear those with young to protect, or something; but all you can think is this boy, how he smiles as kind as your mother did, once, but you’re convinced that if you were to cut him down the middle you would find dragon-pearls in his ribs and fire instead of a heart
    • the boy cuts downs jabba’s goons like they are nothing, nothing, and afterwards, afterwards, you sense his sorrow. and somehow that makes it worse.
    • because you say, later, to your mother’s ghost (maybe) or to the desert, he knows that killing people is hard and that weighs on him and he does it anyway and –
    • and, you say, it isn’t as simple as: he makes the hard choices. he knew the hutt would fight. he wanted to burn them down, oh he did, and that sister of his –
my emotions
  • Bodhi Rook: my sweet innocent son don't you touch him don't you look at him do not hurt him you fucking fucks
  • Cassian Andor: he's been fighting this war since he was 6 years old my god someone hug him, perhaps on a beach while the world is exploding, good yes good i'm dying right now someone better start writing me alllllll the Cassian Andor backstory fanfic just in case lucasfilm doesn't deliver
  • Chirrut Imwe: the Force is with you and you are the finest Jedi to ever live i don't care if you're not a Jedi just a "dreamer" THE FORCE IS WITH YOU AND YOU ARE THE FORCE
  • Baze Malbus: the moment he rose up an started just wrecking those imperials was the pinnacle of "boy he bout to do it" and i ascended
  • K2SO: K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sobbing*
  • Bail "I trust her with my life" Organa: asdkjfjk;djkf;skj every moment he was on screen my interal screaming "baaaaaaaaiiiiiiil" like ok i'm suing for emotional damage AGAIN how many people from Lucasfilm am I suing now I can't keep track
  • Jyn Erso: I can't wait for "Stardust" to replace "I rebel" on all her edits like finally. good. also needs a hug. on a beach. while the world is ending. FUCK ME UP jeezus. she went from "idgaf" to outright weeping and would literally die for the rebellion in 0 to 60 flat because it was her father's dream and frankly i'm still not over "stardust" like no you don't understand father-daughter nicknames are my absolute weakness just shut up and don't look at me
  • Galen Erso: "I have so much to tell you" *drags hands down face*
  • Saw Gerrera: hats off to Forrest Whitaker for still making me care even after he put his hands on Bodhi. Those eyes tho... I'm still haunted by the expressions on his face. now that's microexpressions, folks. Everyone else can go home. I can't explain. will come back to this later
  • Darth Vader: my father who is disappointed in me and about to kill me probably while making a terrible pun and that's all she wrote folks
Bit of imagery for my loves
  • Aries: Freedom comes from the rush of energy, the rapid movement of your legs over hot coals, giving sparks behind you
  • Taurus: A hand caresses my back, you are covered in the finest white silk, you smile, then are still to take control as you gaze over the land
  • Gemini: A hurtling wind rushes over water and through cities, breathed in by everyone, taking in knowledge of all you encounter
  • Cancer: A watchful mother moon gazed lovingly upon her children dancing in the tides, gently lapping on the shore, enveloped in warm, silver light
  • Leo: Gold fires blaze from your eyes as you lead a nation, a laugh and a steely gaze proves you are the Ruler as you are at one with your audience
  • Virgo: Calculating steps climbing up a mountain side, freedom washes around you deep in the forest, as you wander through dense trees and lush green
  • Libra: Togetherness and synergy, you throw your head back laughing, leaning back into a warm soul where you feel at home
  • Scorpio: A dark photography room with that faint red light encapsulates you into the dimension, your images the only source of vulnerability and power, your love of your subjects displayed through them
  • Sagittarius: Bonfires and dancing, travelling with friends in the van as your throw your hands and head back to look at the stars, invigorated and expanded
  • Capricorn: Kind and gracious leader, driven by results, dressed in black with a smirk on your face at the witty conversation, proud of your home
  • Aquarius: Freedom and expansion, you sit on a rooftop as the sun rises from a night out, never tired, you stare at the fading stars and know you feel whole and loved
  • Pisces: a hand creating the universal knowledge and love, expressing the deeper knowledge you contain, dreaming into the night as you surround yourself with peace

“You guys been watching the news lately? What do you think of our candidates for the presidency of the United States of America?”
[crowd booing] 
“What do you think of ‘New York’s finest’, Mr. Donald Trump?”
[crowd booing louder] 
“No racism! No racism! No racism in this fucking room, I’ll tell you that right now. There is no white supremacy in this fucking room right now. We’re all coming together tonight, tonight here in New Jersey to call
bullshit on all the fucking politicians tonight!”

Green Day live at Starland Ballroom in Sayreville, New Jersey (9/28/16)