I came to Paradis with only one thing on my mind. Fulfilling my duty as a warrior and then going back home. It was unimaginable to me that I would ever care about a “devil” within these walls. Then, suddenly, you appeared and you saw right through me. You weren’t fooled by my uninterested facade or cold demeanor. Somehow, you saw what was inside of me. You saw a girl who was lost. A girl who was scared. A girl who just needed someone and I can’t understand why but for some reason you decided to be that someone. You smiled at me so brightly and even though I know the ocean is cold, your ocean blue eyes made me feel warmer than I have ever felt. Falling in love with you was the best and worst thing I could have done. I finally felt something. I finally felt ordinary and that’s all I’ve ever wanted to be. However, it made the pain of what I did unbearable. I hurt the people you loved and I hurt you. That is something I will never be able to forgive myself for and I know that you will probably never forgive me either. Even though it was short lived, I am happy that I could be a good person to you Armin. I will never see you again and you might never get this letter but just know that you made my final days, before the darkness, the happiest days of my life. I will always love you.
I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you.
(my first Aruani pic…not the best but still I was feeling things for these two and I needed to let my emotions out) <3