you are far more eloquent than i

taken from the book  ‘ the gay science ’  by friedrich nietzsche

❛ their whole nature fails to persuade ❜
❛ they have never remained silence about any of their good deeds ❜
❛ he always carries a biscuit for cerberus ❜
❛ either we have no dreams or our dreams are interesting ❜
❛ let those who have ears, hear ❜
❛ before the effect one believes in different causes than one does afterward ❜
❛ anyone with a very loud voice is almost incapable of thinking subtleties ❜
❛ the purpose of punishment is to improve those who punish ❜
❛ the sacrificial animal does not share the spectators’ ideas about sacrifice ❜
❛ our eyes are also intended for hearing ❜
❛ the mistrustful speak empathetically ❜
❛ how can one constantly admire without constantly feeling contempt? ❜
❛ is that not a blasphemy against your ideal? ❜
❛ in applause there is always a kind of noise ❜
❛ they are running away from people ❜
❛ one hears only those questions for which one is able to find answers ❜
❛ they know how to make things simpler than they are ❜
❛ this is by all means a matter of taste, nothing more ❜
❛ i’d sooner have people steal from me than be surrounded by scarecrows & hungry looks ❜
❛ thoughts are the shadows of our feelings ❜
❛ all voices sound different in solitude ❜
❛ who has had the most convincing eloquence so far? ❜
❛ i spoil the taste of their party for everyone ❜
❛ some people need open enemies ❜
❛ they are in a bad way ❜
❛ we are always only in our own company ❜
❛ in a moment they will be ready with a lie ❜
❛ in the end one finds more than one might have wished ❜
❛ why not be defeated some time too? ❜
❛ all is lost if we fall ❜
❛ you have no idea what you are living through ❜
❛ to have a virtue one must really wish to have it in its most brutal form ❜
❛ happiness is not nearly so contagious a disease ❜
❛ even one’s thoughts cannot reproduce entirely in words ❜
❛ there is no selflessness in my soul ❜
❛ you are beyond all embarrassment ❜
❛ i do not want to have people imitate my example ❜
❛ no victor believes in chance ❜
❛ what we do is never understood ❜
❛ those who have greatness are cruel to their virtues ❜
❛ with a great goal one is superior even to justice ❜
❛ you shall become the person you are ❜
❛ what do you love in others? ❜
❛ i still live, i still think ❜
❛ we were friends and have become estranged ❜
❛ few people have faith in themselves ❜
❛ there is yet another world to be discovered — and more than one ❜
❛ at the very bottom of my soul i feel grateful to all my misery ❜
❛ i have given a name to my pain ❜
❛ one must learn to love ❜

anonymous asked:

I love Philippe and i find to Chevalier very fun, but in this season 2 Chevalier is Psychotic. His jealous and childish behavior has wrecked this ship for me. He does not let Philippe have his space, he is jealous of the whole world and he is so stupid ... he does not seem the same of the first season. He is literally a superficial character, stupid and empty. i´m very dissapointed with him, why he does not take their relationship in a health way? i hate him taking drugs. omg and the money...

Alright Anon, we are going to have a nice little chat. 
Warning: SEVERE SEASON 2 SPOILERS

His jealous and childish behavior

If you go by history, the Philippes have known each other since they were teenagers roughly 15 years old. They were together basically since then until the year that Monsieur died. In the show it is show canon that they have both announced their love for each other as well as shown it through various interactions including sex, spooning, and crying over one another and protecting one another including saving each others lives. In season 2 they have been seperated for 4 years (2 historically) during which time Chevalier was held in THE worst French prison,  Château d'If. I don’t know if you have ever experienced being scared and alone in a foreign country and questioned by the police but let me tell you anon IT IS SO SCARY YOU COULD JUST PISS YOURSELF, and poor Chevalier was in this nasty prison without furniture or windows. It’s quite possible as soon as he was out of there or even before he took up the drugs to deal with it. 

He does not let Philippe have his space

Again, they were separated for 4 years, they were and are in love, THEY FUCKING MISSED EACH OTHER. Philippe and Palatine both specifically state int he show that he is only keeping to her bed until she becomes pregnant, it is nothing to do with love on their part, but if you ARE NOT A PSYCHOPATH it is extremely painful to listen to the one you love having sex with someone else, especially when the other person is sweet and charming and in your opinion even better for them than you are yourself. Chevalier was hurting so deeply.

He is literally a superficial character, stupid and empty / is a psychopath.

Sooo a Psychopath is basically someone completely lacking in empathy or remorse. Basically someone unfeeling - and you are calling THE CHEVALIER a Psychopath…right….are we watching the same show here? 

I’m just going to answer this one with pictures.

Here is him cheering up Philippe when they are both on Cloud 9 from Chevalier’s return to France

Here is Chevalier’s face when he is out of Philippe’s sight as he reads the wedding plans, definitely not looking sad about his emotional attachments here nope. Note, he is upset about the wedding before Palatine even arrives because their short short little honeymoon after his return is going to be cut short so soon.

Here he is, yes, doing drugs - I am not supporting this as a coping mechanism BUT THATS WHAT HE IS USING IT FOR. This is during Philippe’s wedding night and he thoroughly believes that Philippe is having sex with Palatine at that exact moment and that when he wakes up tomorrow he will have forgotten him. He is afraid that the person he has loved for YEARS is abandoning him. Of course he aches, of course he wants to forget.

After he heard Liselotte and Philippe having sex, he thought that it was the final straw, that he had completely lost Philippe’s love despite her trying to assure him otherwise. He is crushed. Completely and utterly crushed. 

He is terrified that after waiting for him for 4 years Philippe doesnt want him anymore, and the reward he gets is Philippe sleeping around with Palatine and Thomas and not HIM (from his point of view). If he didn’t love Philippe so much he could marry for money, for power, for influence, for his place int he court, but he LOVES Philippe and he will not. Without Philippe, he loses everything. He is driven to the brink and when he turns to Philippe, he is cruelly pushed away by Philippe’s cold dismissive attitude and it pushes him to suicide, but Philippe stops him. THAT is how badly off this “psychopath” is over love in this season.

Thomas Beaumont KNOWS that Chevalier will be an obstacle in trying to get rid of Philippe, and so he tries to have Chevalier killed. In the end, Chevalier kills a man to save Philippe’s life. HOW MUCH SHIT does Chevalier have to go through before you and everyone else believes the true depths of his feelings for Philippe?

How come he doesn’t have a healthy relationship you ask?
Because he and Philippe are trapped in the grand scheme of power play in Versailles, by Louis’ hand and the politics of all of Europe. Because France needs a backup heir to maintain stability - Philippe has to marry a woman and have a child and that unfortunately means, the man who loves him has to suffer for it, they both have to suffer for it. Its not healthy of course it’s not, but it’s real.

Why the money? Because Philippe was ignoring him and that was one sure fire way to get his attention in a world so caught up in it.

Why the drugs? To cope with the pain.


tldr: Chevalier deeply, deeply loves Philippe and would kill or die for him and that is why he behaves as he does in season 2

[[MOD]] If you want more information and insight into Chevalier’s character, Evan Williams describes him far more eloquently than me and really gets into his head. This interview is a good start: http://www.myfanbase.de/serien/versailles/interviews/?pid=25076

As I’m sitting here listening to Star Wars soundtracks while doing paperwork, I’m reminded of one thing that really bugs me.

The ReySky folks who are like “’Binary Sunset’ played when the lightsaber flew into Rey’s hand! That proves she’s Luke’s daughter!”

And, well, there’s a few things there. 

The most obvious being that it’s not “Binary Sunset”. It’s “Burning Homestead,” a.k.a. the muted, mournful reprise of “Binary Sunset” that plays as Luke is looking at the charred remains of Uncle Owen and Aunt Beru. Yes, a version of “Binary Sunset” swells triumphantly as Rey and Luke stare each other down on Ahch-To in the closing moments of TFA, but when Rey takes up Anakin’s lightsaber, it’s “Burning Homestead”.

I think most people know that at this point. I just like to mull over the potential importance of that music choice. 

“Burning Homestead” is the moment that Luke’s hero’s journey begins. He goes from not wanting to get involved with Obi-Wan’s mission to losing everything he has left and deciding to become a Jedi and join the Rebellion. It’s about his conscious choice to leave behind everything he’s known and finally pick a side. 

And I think that’s far more of what the JJ & co. are conveying in that moment than “LOOK IT’S LUKE’S MOTIF, THAT MEANS REY AND LUKE ARE CONNECTED.” I took it less as that and more as fully hammering home that in this character’s story, this is the moment of acceptance. Her family isn’t coming back. She’s not going back to Jakku. Her only friend in the world is gravely injured, possibly dead, and a wild-eyed murderer is staring her down. 

And Rey, whose entire life up until this point has been about self-preservation, puts everything she’s known behind her and takes up arms against Kylo. 

In its original context, “Burning Homestead” conveys death, both literal and figurative: it plays over the death of Owen and Beru, which then leads to the “death” of Luke’s previous existence and frees him to go down a different path than the dead-end one (no pun intended) he’d been on. 

It accomplishes the same thing for Rey: Finn may not be dead, but she has no way of knowing that in the heat of the moment, and it cements what Maz had basically told her earlier. The path behind you is closed off now. Your family isn’t coming back to you. You have to move forward and face your destiny. 

Now, I could easily see someone saying, “Doesn’t that prove that her story is deliberately evocative of Luke’s and that they’re setting them up to be related?” 

And, well… no. Luke Skywalker’s story is one of the single most iconic examples of the Hero’s Journey in modern film history, and his are some very big shoes to fill. I found it interesting that Mark Hamill expressed surprise that when the lightsaber flies past Kylo, it goes to Rey rather than a suddenly-appearing Luke. 

TFA was a “safe” movie, in a lot of ways — it kept the familiar, particularly in terms of borrowing from TFA, to soothe fans before leading them on more creative paths. And I think that’s essentially what they were doing with the Force-sensitive hero of this trilogy (i.e. Rey), borrowing heavily from the elements that typified the beginning of Luke’s journey to establish that heroic path (and her status as one of the main “heroes” of these films) before taking her character in different directions. 

Also, in a more general sense, the motif in both “Binary Sunset” and “Burning Homestead” is known as the “Force theme,” so you could argue that it has far less to do with Luke than the musical cues signaling that Rey’s latent Force abilities are now very much awakened. I don’t know if I’d go that far — I think Luke’s heroic journey and the trope of heroic journeys altogether are deliberately invoked — but it’s very likely a part of it. 

All of this has definitely been discussed at far greater length by people much smarter and more eloquent than myself. I just find it an interesting choice considering how irrevocably associated with Luke “Binary Sunset” is, and how if the filmmakers were trying to leave musical breadcrumbs about Rey being his daughter, they chose a piece of scoring that conveys so much more about Rey’s possible path than just being subsumed within a legacy character’s journey. 

anonymous asked:

Can you elaborate on the dragon maid discourse? What made it controversial?

i’m gonna tl,dr it because everyone else has said these things far more eloquently than i could, but the author of the manga it’s based on is a complete and utter creep who’s drawn literal toddler-fucking hentai

the dragon maid manga featured a lot of gross ecchi aspects involving loli/shota characters - the anime toned them down quite a bit, but there’s still enough there to make a lot of people uncomfortable

so now with the anime, you’ve got a show that is for the most part a silly slice-of-life show, but with weird little nuggets of uncomfortable pedo shit sprinkled in

add to that the fact that it’s made by a very popular and renowned studio (kyoto animation), and you have all the ingredients for a show that leaves a trail of discourse in its wake

anonymous asked:

can i ask some jungkook werewolf scenario? with fluffy and smut please?? ❤️

this got long and slightly out of hand but boy was it fun to write!!
word count: 3.5k

Sometimes Jungkook doesn’t know how you put up with it.

As a werewolf himself, Jungkook can barely put up with the other members of his pack, often choosing to escape and hide at your apartment for days on end when the pack was being too loud at home, or when they were planning the next retreat that would only take him far away from you, or when one of the other boys went into their heat. Seokjin had scolded him for it several times by saying Jungkook should let you live your life, but you always left the window unlocked for him.

It was exhausting dealing with werewolves all the time, but you took it in stride. You let any of the boys into your apartment if they wanted to visit, offered your couch if they needed to stay over, hell you even baked all of them cookies almost every damn week. And even though Seokjin couldn’t be around you for long, your scent disgusting to Seokjin but perfect to Jungkook, you didn’t mind, and you and Seokjin sometimes used Jungkook as a messenger to share food and recipes.

Not to mention the werewolf quirks you have to put up with. The enhanced strength; (Taehyung had ripped your doorframe clean off the first time he came to visit.) The enhanced sense of smell; (you were constantly giving Jungkook his sweatshirts back once they smelled sufficiently like you so he’d stop whining about missing the smell of home when he’s away.) The heats; (which, like everything else, you handled like a fucking pro.) Or the way Jungkook had confessed to what he was in the second month of dating you, three days before a full moon and the day he’d disappeared for a week to deal with it, spitting the words from clenched teeth while trying to hide his claws and fangs. On nights that stretch too long, Jungkook’s still thinks about how surprised he’d been when he saw you waiting up for him after that, when you’d stayed with him.

It was exhausting, but truly it was worth it.

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Man on a Mission

Hanzo Shimada was no stranger to operations. He was considerate, and though there had been days where securing his next goal was more important than his life, his well-being, and the health and safety of those around him, those days were more in the past. He’d gotten to a point where the people he worked with had gained value, where the looks of concern whenever he pushed himself too hard or took too large of risks. 

No, he’d gotten to a point where he was beginning to accept Overwatch. Beginning to feel more at… home, he supposed. Healing was a tumultuous process but he’d found support among the team, among those he once sneered at (and still, sometimes did). It was a slow process, reclaiming a life that had never really been his, but he was beginning to enjoy the freedom he’d found in forgiveness. He was able to pursue his own interests, express himself (as the apparently shocking haircut and piercings could attest), and begin to take advantage of his second chance.

Of course, there was one thing he’d been yet unable to do. Which was why, after two days of silent deliberation and reluctant speaking with his brother, Hanzo Shimada was on a mission.

He was going to give McCree a compliment.

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anonymous asked:

How do you make your screenshots look so perfect!!!!

!!! THIS IS THE SWEETEST, LEGIT! Thank you!!! 💚💚💚 As far as how I do them… I answered one of these asks privately unfortunately and I wish I had saved it to do it publicly so I’m going to write up a very short and hopefully understandable tutorial on how I edit that’s more eloquent than before (with any luck.)

First things first!

I adjust my in-game lighting before I do anything!! I set the color intensity of ALL indoor lights to “Warm White” and I dial back the intensity one notch so that it’s not all the way up! of course, if you’re working in a place like a nightclub where the lights are dark or need to be colored, go crazy and get colorful. mood lighting, yo.

Second thing: I use Photoshop CS3 to edit my pictures with! just so you know what program I’ll be talking about through this.

On to the editing!

So after I’ve opened my screenshot that I want to edit, I resize my imagine down to 800x419. I know you’re supposed to wait until the very end to resize or crop your pictures!! but at this point its a force of habit to do it first thing and i can’t stop myself. I don’t crop, I just resize!

Next, I run the TS4 Color Pop action from this awesome set by woohooligan all the way through and it works magic for the brightness of my dark screenshots.

But I’m still not 100% satisfied with where it looks, so next I go to Layer > New Adjustment Layer > Hue/Saturation. A little menu pops up about creating a new layer for this mask, and I say okay! What comes up next is a small menu for adjusting the hue/saturation of the layer, and I work by integers because for me they’re solid and concrete and uniform every time! So if I’m working with an indoor screenshot, I boost the Saturation by a number of “10″ and if it’s an outdoor screenshot, I boost it by a number of “12.” Feel free to adjust this number as you might need!

For this next step, I use this “Warm” action from this set by the wonderful Meisiu. For me, it gives the overall screenshot a cozy feeling that I really love and it ties everything together!

Optional step!

Sometimes, especially with indoor pictures, I have a problem with the screenshot looking TOO warm and yellow. If I have that issue, what I do is make a new layer and fill it with this color:

#ac9af1, or some approximation!

When I have the whole layer filled and it takes up all of my canvas, I change it to an Overlay and drop the opacity to around 10%! That will take the yellow edge off by cooling down the screenshot.

One last step!

The absolute last thing that I do, anon, is make sure my image is flattened and is all one layer together! With it brightened and the colors popping, I can finally go to Filter > Noise > Reduce Noise. I do this for EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY PICTURES!!! And I think it’s what makes my screenshots look the way they do.

Noise (and noise reduction) can be kind of tricky to play with, so here are my settings!

Strength: 3
Preserve Details: 1%
Reduce Color Noise: 0%
Sharpen Details: 62%

Sometimes I fall out of love with the way my screenshots look and I play with these settings. Over the course of my editing, I’ve gone down from a strength of 5 to a strength of 3! So feel free to tweak any of these so that your screenshots look perfect to YOU!

Finally!

I save my edited screenshot into a new folder that’s easy to get to, depending on the project I’m editing for! My Zambrano ISBI has its own folder, with subfolders within it for easy sorting! After its all said and done, I delete the originals from my screenshots folder so that it’s clean and ready to go for my next round of gameplay! And that’s it!! I hope this helped you, anon, and if anyone has any suggestions, feel free to let me know!

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lacommunarde  asked:

I'd just like to say thank you for the excellent commentary on the Harry Potter and Dudley post. The post upset me deeply, and you said why in far more eloquent a way than I could when I first saw that post this morning.

I’m glad I was able to offer some clarification on it (and also sorry if it was my initial ficlet that contributed to any distress, it was a random tangent thought that came into my head when the gifset went over my dash) and also maybe explain why certain things from the fandom and canon are…upsetting, to read with hindsight. 

As a child I didn’t notice anything wrong with the behavior of the adults, it all seemed pretty standard to me, up to a point. Which…yea…now I have realized some things I understand how deeply and pervasively messed up that is.

anonymous asked:

What's wrong with the HP movies? I've never seen them so...

Anon darling, I would like nothing better than to answer this question but I have to leave for work in fifteen minutes, and that is NOT enough time, believe me!

However, I’m sure there are plenty of things written on the internet by people like me who have serious problems with the HP movies as adaptations of a book series they loved, and I’m sure they can all lay it out far more eloquently than I can!

But…I do have time for just one example, which for me epitomises my problems with the Harry Potter movies: the scene in the very last movie where the trio are escaping from Gringotts bank after their daring heist on a bank vault. They free an imprisoned dragon to escape, but in so doing the dragon burns to death a goblin - an employee of Gringotts who Harry had earlier been forced to put under the Imperius curse in order to force him to help them.

And Ron says - and I quote - “That’s unfortunate.”

You can see a clip from the scene here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UwJ73V0-wLY

It’s portrayed as a comedic moment. The brutal, painful death of a totally innocent character, who is only in that situation due to our heroes performing an UNFORGIVABLE CURSE on him and dominating his mind, is played for laughs. Because, presumably, he’s a goblin, and therefore not worthy of sympathy or basic compassion.

I understand that this is only one little scene, and this is all a fictional story, but to me that just spits in the face of EVERYTHING the Harry Potter books stood for. 

And that’s just an example - throughout the movies there are plenty of little changes that annoy me plenty, but what actually makes me mad are the huge, sweeping tonal changes that completely undermine the messages that made Harry Potter such an engaging and genuinely affecting read for me. Whole plotlines cut, whole characters diminished to clunky stereotypes, whole moral dilemmas and ethically dubious issues reduced to the most basic black-and-white…well, you get the idea.

Now I have to go to work, but I will say that I will fully admit to the HP books having their issues - no work of fiction is perfect. But for me personally, the movie adaptations were lacklustre at best, and actually insultingly bad at worst. I appreciate the hard work, talent and money that was poured into them, but they are not, and never will be, Harry Potter to me.

The older I get the more I’m think JKR made the Wizarding World waaaaay too small. Even in England, there should be a bigger population, more towns, more schools, more teachers at the schools (two or three per subject tbh), more families, more newspapers, more infrastructure in general, even accounting for JKR admitting she’s bad at math*.

Like even in the UK there should be specific state Wizarding Schools of Scotland, England and Wales etc. established when Hogwarts started to run out of room, left and right-wing newspapers, not just the Daily Prophet, a Wizarding University and constituent colleges of Oxbridge, another Wizarding Hospital or two, some kind of state care for orphaned, abandoned, otherwise guardianless magical children, perhaps some commercial Goblin banks with Gringotts as a central bank given that its been under Ministry control at times, actual legal representation, JKR where the fuck was Harry’s lawyer in book 5, where the fuck are all the lawyers, did anyone even defend Sirius in 1981? because if they did, they’re a useless shit and should have their licence revoked, does the Wizarding World have a supermarket or department store? what about Wizarding grocery shops, surely those are a thing? or theatres, museums, magical cinema, because that would be easier to hide than television (imagine how incredible magical cinema is), are carriages drawn by Thestrals or Winged horses like the Beauxbatons one normal, do more Purebloods have them? we know Newt used Muggle transport to get to the US because it was easier to fool their customs officers, but are there official Wizarding methods of international travel, y’know a question that fanfic has bandied about for donkeys years, ooh Festivals and annual holidays (besides Christmas and Halloween) and all that jazz, I wanna know about that particularly Wizarding Festivals, those sound amazing.

Wizarding London, for instance, are Diagon Alley and Knockturn Alley the only parts? If they’re not, where are the residential areas, where’s the more tourist-y bits, is there a public park, again, are there theatres, museums etc. are there Wizarding enclaves all over London or is it all clustered around Diagon Alley, what about Wizarding parts of York, Bristol, Edinburgh, Cardiff, Penzance?

It’s all just too little, what we’ve got is so wonderful and often so imaginative and tangible, but its still really small and contained, and I wish I was clever enough to come up with Wizarding World expansions tbh. That would be nice.

*For one thing its stated at some point (don’t ask me when, the Wiki doesn’t say) that there’s 10 times more muggles than Wizards, even if we take this as a gross underestimate, it would still mean the World Wizarding pop should be in the millions, way higher than JKR’s estimates, personally I headcanon that Britain’s magic population is in the low hundred thousands, and that we don’t hear about more than a certain number of people for simple reasons of storytelling (no seriously, its far more believable that there’s a bunch of people in the background whose names Harry doesn’t know than any theories about birth-rates and what have you, and other people have said this more eloquently)

I had been schooled in verse
far more eloquent than my years,
a faithful scholar to the Song of Solomon.
Yet you placed upon my lips,
the wafer of your body,
the blood of your love,
and I had not felt like kneeling before.

I had been faithful to the teachings,
but had not learned that love
exceeded faith,
transmitted feeling beyond
conscious thought.

You taught me to walk in darkness,
to intuit our footsteps
without light
To love unseen,
to feel without touch,
to transcend the mind
for our hearts.

sight unseen // Rhapsodyinblue45

Magic Fingers - A followup

So to the Nonny who asked if I was going to write more, I am sorry to have lied to you but I swear, at the time I had no intention on writing more. But then I got struck by an idea and like many seemed to want more for some reason? (Are the spa aus new coffee shop aus???) so yeah i did write more xD

There is is still 0% facials or spa-related stuff in it, but 100% panick-y Eggsy who thinks he has fucked up with 100% flustered Harry who thinks he has fucked up too.

@virgosista @gentlekingsmen @agent-eggy @lady-mephistopheles @insanereddragon @zombiisheep @agentdagonet

Magic Fingers - Followup

It is a complete coincidence that Roxy is still at the front desk when Mr Hart comes out to pay. The only reason she’s so sure that it is him while having never seen him before is only because she knows all the other clients that are around today. That and she has to admit Eggsy was right.

The man is very handsome.

However, he seems to have none of the confidence she had expected him to possess from everything Eggsy had been telling her for weeks now.

Not that he looks shy exactly as he walks up to the counter to pay, but rather sad and resigned.

What the hell happened in that room?

“I am terribly sorry to bother you with this, but could you be so kind and tell Eggsy that I am sorry to have put him in such an awkward position. I have no excuses for my behavior, just assurances that it won’t happen again and that I won’t be bothering him again. I can just hope I didn’t cause him too much distress.”

The only reason she gets away with staring blankly at the gentleman (in that suit, there is no way she can think of him as anything else) and doesn’t feel rude about it is because he is looking at anything but her.

“What?” She is usually far more eloquent than this, but Mr Hart is clearly becoming more and more nervous as she went without saying anything and she is still not sure what happened. Is she supposed to be mad at Harry or Eggsy right now?

The question makes Mr Hart look even more flustered if that was possible, but strangely enough, it’s also what makes him looks up to meet Roxy’s gaze for the first time.

She doesn’t know what he makes of her expression, but he nods at her like a man condemned before starting to explain.

“I know it wasn’t appropriate at all for me to ask him to dinner while he is working and I don’t kn-” He trails off before shaking his head. “No, I know exactly what made me forget myself and ask him out, but my feelings for him doesn’t entitle me to anything. I am sorry that he felt he had to flee the room, but I don’t blame him. Just tell him I am sorry to have misread the situation so completely and that he won’t have to worry about seeing me again, even at the cafe.”

The silence while she processes what Mr Hart is telling her must be getting to long for his comfort because he honest to god starts shuffling on his feet, like a schoolboy meeting the principal over a prank gone wrong.

“Of course, if there are any consequences to my harassment, I am not trying to escape them, all the contact information you need should be on file. I-”

As soon as she raises her hand, palm up, he stops talking and she feels kind of bad at the way he gulps, but it’s clear she has more urgent matter right now.

“Could you just please wait here for a moment sir?”

She’s never seen one, but she feels like this is what a man walking up to get executed would look like.

“It’s not, it’s not bad, just wait here.”

Her words don’t seem to reassure him, but her priority is to find Eggsy and shake some sense into his dumb head.

She doesn’t think Mr Hart would try to leave, he seems far too honorable for that, but she still stops Amelia in the corridor and asks her to make sure no one makes him pay and that he stays put. Who knows how long it will take her to convince Eggsy to get out of his hiding hole.

It takes a couple of minutes, but she finally finds him in a supply closet, hugging one of the very large and very soft towels to his chest.

He doesn’t seem to be having a panic attack, simply in need of some comfort and she takes a few calming breaths before going to sit down at his sides. She might want nothing more but to grab him by the shoulders and shake him until he starts being sensible again, but she knows it won’t actually help either Eggsy or the poor Mr Hart.

“So mind telling me why you’ve just broken the heart of the bloke you’ve not shut up about since you first saw him?”

She nudges him gently with her elbow, but that only makes him curl up tighter around the towel.

“I’m such an idiot.”

There is a long silence, where she waits for him to expand on it, but it soon becomes clear that he’s not going to open up yet.

“I hope you’re not waiting on me to deny it, because you’ll be waiting a long time.”

“What? No, I wasn’t- I am an idiot.” He’s looking at her now and she would call it an improvement if only he wasn’t looking so much like a broken man. “I don’t know why I was thinking I could have something good…”

His words make her fear that maybe Mr Hart hasn’t been entirely honest with her, that more has transpired in that room then simply the gentleman asking Eggsy out for dinner and Eggsy fleeing the room, something far more “inappropriate” and if it is the case she will go back at the front and gut him with her bare hands.

Before she can do more than think it though, Eggsy continues and prevent her from maiming a man on a misunderstanding.

“The fantasy was nice, but really once we go to dinner, he’ll see I’m just a pretty face. Maybe good enough for a quick roll between the sheets, but that’s not what I want…”

He trails off before hiding his head again and the desire to shake him comes back even stronger.

“So wait let me get this straight. The man you have been talking with for months, and when I say talking, I do mean talking, the kind where he knows all about your obsession about musicals and where you know he’s got a dead dog in his loo,” she stops there for a moment, because she is still waiting for Eggsy to agree with her that the dog thing is fucking weird. But, he must still simply think it a cute gesture of a man who loved his canine companion very much even in death because he doesn’t say anything. “Anyway, that man you’ve nearly spend more time with than you did with me lately, for the first time you make a move so that the two of you would see each other somewhere else than that cafe. And not anywhere, but at your workplace. And the man comes, is clearly interested in you more than your sweet arse and when he invites you for dinner, you flee the room because you don’t want to be another notch on his bedpost? That’s what happened, right?”

“Yes- No- I… Roxy, I’m a sham, a fuckup, maybe he thinks he likes me, but once we’re on a date he’ll see me for who I really am and he won’t want anything to do with me. It’s better if I- Hey! Give that back!”

Instead of giving him back the towel she just wrenched away she throws it the other side of the room and puts her hands on Eggsy’s cheeks to force him to look at her.

“Gary Unwin, you are not a fuckup, nor are you a sham. Sure you had rough time, but when your mum got pregnant after your stepdad got sent to prison you turned your life around to provide for her and the baby instead of washing your hands off of both of them. You’ve got a steady job, you’re actually saving up now that you’ve paid your debts and your sister probably thinks you’ve hung the moon. Heck you probably would have if it wasn’t already up there if it meant she would smile. You’re sweet, you’re funny, you’re responsible and reliable. You might not have told him everything, but you haven’t been leading him on and you haven’t lied to him either. Sure either of you might realise it’s not doing it for you down the line, but that’s what dating is all about.”

Eggsy seems far calmer now, but it’s plain to her that he’s still not back to his confident self. His next words only confirm it.

“But I’ve never dated before… Not seriously.”

“Then tell him that. Seriously Eggsy, the man seemed more worried about you than anything else. If you weren’t interested, it wouldn’t matter but you are and he makes you happier than I’ve seen you in years.” Whenever he is back from one of his coffee non-date, he has the look she has titled the “Cloud Harry Look”. That he’s never complained about her teasing is enough to tell her he’s got more than just a simple crush on the man. “You deserve to be happy. And I might not know about Harry, but he deserves at least a chance.”

Eggsy closes his eyes, but he’s not trying to escape her this time, instead he leans closer until their foreheads are pressed together.

“You really think so?” She forgets sometimes how young he still is, that for all his bravado, he’s got his own insecurities. That sometimes, he needs to borrow others’ strengths too.

She forgets, but whenever she’s reminded, she’ll gladly lend him some of hers.

“I really do.” She breaks their hold, but just so she can press a kiss against his forehead. “Now go put that man out of his misery and enjoy a nice dinner, yeah?”

There is a new resolve shining in his eyes and he even manages a small smile before he gets up and help her to her feet.

She follows him out of the supply closet, but she lets him dash off alone to the front desk after he’s given her a quick hug.

She’s done whatever she could for him now. It’s his turn to work for his happiness.

It’s quiet, a little too quiet.

Let me start by saying I’ve had a great weekend. I’ve met up with friends, I’ve eaten great food and I’ve seen a ton of great stuff in the hotel. New people playing roles with incredible energy and some favorites, including one of my all time faves playing new characters, this is what I love about this place, it just keeps on giving.

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MUSICAL SENTENCE STARTERS.
  • ❝ Uh, do whatever you want, I'm super dead! ❞
  • ❝ You have a symmetrical face. If I took a meat cleaver down the center of your skull, I'd have matching halves. That's very important. ❞
  • ❝ Ring ring, hello? Oh, hold on, it's for you - it's second place. ❞
  • ❝ You know that I ain't bragging. ❞
  • ❝ I'm reading this from Wikipedia, so it has to be true. ❞
  • ❝ Let's hatch a plot blacker than the kettle callin' the pot. ❞
  • ❝ I bet I've got til lunch at least before everyone sees I'm a spaz! ❞
  • ❝ I'm not very hungry - just gimme a double Polar Burger with everything and a cherry soda with chocolate ice cream. ❞
  • ❝ Missed your midterms and flunked shampoo! ❞
  • ❝ Hey turn around, bend over, I'll show you where my shoe fits. ❞
  • ❝ Is that unfair? -- Oh wait, I don't care. ❞
  • ❝ The truth is that you're such a dork, you kinda make it cool. ❞
  • ❝ We got more balls than the team we cheer for! ❞
  • ❝ Miss Goody Two Shoes makes me wanna barf. ❞
  • ❝ Even mocking cheerleaders cannot hide the emptiness in my soul. ❞
  • ❝ They're dogs! No! Lower than that, they're fleas on dogs! ❞
  • ❝ I'm a trust fund baby, you can trust me. ❞
  • ❝ The dinosaurs choked on the dust, they died because God said they must. ❞
  • ❝ Happy kitties, sleepy puppies, tiny duckies, sparkly ponies... ❞
  • ❝ My teen angst bullshit has a body count. ❞
  • ❝ Give my love to the leprechauns. ❞
  • ❝ I thought you were a spoiled, rich, uptight little white bitch now I think you're just white. ❞
  • ❝ I am tired of living alone with my cat! ❞
  • ❝ You drink a lot of Red Bull, don't you? ❞
  • ❝ If I get blood on the carpet my mother will kill me. ❞
  • ❝ Some say that I'm a pompous creep - somehow I don't lose that much sleep. ❞
  • ❝ Such a blunder. Sometimes it makes me wonder why I even bring the thunder. ❞
  • ❝ Shakin' at the high school hop. ❞
  • ❝ I've got lots of experience with not fitting in. Do you need some pointers? ❞
  • ❝ Ugh. You've got a left hand, use it. ❞
  • ❝ Showing up here took some guts, time to rip 'em out. ❞
  • ❝ Keep that pelvis far from me! ❞
  • ❝ Thanks, but I don't need voices in my head today. ❞
  • ❝ You don't wanna hear all the horny details. ❞
  • ❝ I gotta go get my asthma spray... ❞
  • ❝ Your perfume smells like your daddy's got money. ❞
  • ❝ Does your mommy know you eat all this crap? ❞
  • ❝ Jesus, you're making me sound like Air Supply. ❞
  • ❝ Language, honey child, please. ❞
  • ❝ Like a beautiful blonde pineapple. ❞
  • ❝ I don't rat my hair! ❞
  • ❝ My dog speaks more eloquently than thee. ❞
  • ❝ Damn, you're in worse shape than the national debt is in. ❞
  • ❝ You're my last meal on death row. ❞
  • ❝ I've got a big butt, well so what? It's good as any other! ❞
  • ❝ I led a protest march against insensitive cartoons! ❞
  • ❝ Some people are SO touchy. ❞
  • ❝ Mama gave birth to the hand-jive. ❞
  • ❝ It's hot in here and kinda smells like someone wet the bed... ❞
  • ❝ Oh... I wanted to answer the puppy question? ❞
  • ❝ You're absolutely right - should have shot him in the mouth, that would've shut him up. ❞
  • ❝ I haven't slept since 1992. ❞
  • ❝ Malum in se is an action evil in itself. Assault, murder, white shoes after labor day. ❞
  • ❝ You need a cite a more specific grievance. Here's an itemized list of all these years of diagreements. ❞
  • ❝ Donate my car to crippled kids, or to those ghetto moms on crack. ❞
  • ❝ I'm, like, gonna cry - I got tears comin' outta my nose! ❞
  • ❝ Keep your filthy paws off of my silky drawers. ❞
  • ❝ Color me stoked. ❞
  • ❝ Yo, who the f is this? ❞
  • ❝ You've got the best friggin shoes! ❞
  • ❝ Keep it positive as you slap her to the floor! ❞
  • ❝ Come on! Let's go krunkin' in the parking lot! ❞
  • ❝ I've come of age to be a raging castrating bitch! ❞
  • ❝ I'll be Socrates throwing verbal rocks at these mediocrities. ❞
  • ❝ Really stick it to the phallocentric war machine! ❞
  • ❝ Must we all descend into madness? ❞
  • ❝ It's a work of genius. I couldn't undo it if I tried.... and I tried. ❞
  • ❝ Dear God... it's scented. ❞
  • ❝ Fuck me gently with a chainsaw. ❞
  • ❝ So go on, here's my head, just hit it with a rock. ❞
  • ❝ I want a devil in skin tight leather. ❞
  • ❝ You've come so far why now are you pulling on my dick? ❞
  • ❝ You know, for a greasy little nobody, you do have good bone structure. ❞
  • ❝ You ain't never caught a rabbit. ❞
  • ❝ Honestly, it's kind of draining... ❞
  • ❝ I just did what you wished you could but you don't have the balls. ❞
  • ❝ I'm dazzling! Magnificent! I am the one percent! ❞
  • ❝ Now what I'm going to say may seem indelicate... ❞
  • ❝ I'm gonna French kiss with tongue like I dreamed I'd do - and not just with my pillow! ❞
  • ❝ It's like hearing a ticking sound coming from unmarked packages! ❞
  • ❝ Someone's had their morning coffee... ❞
  • ❝ We're what killed the dinosaurs! ❞
  • ❝ I don't know what you heard, but whatever it is, they started it. ❞
  • ❝ Fine, okay, I'm gay! ❞
  • ❝ You can set my bones and I know CPR. ❞
  • ❝ Immigrants - we get the job done. ❞
  • ❝ Man. What rich, romantic planet are you from? ❞
  • ❝ Whaaaaaaat. ❞
  • ❝ What can I say? I'm a sucker for a happy ending. ❞
  • ❝ Fuck me gently with a chainsaw. ❞
  • ❝ Awesome... wow. ❞
  • ❝ I'm bigger than John Lennon! ❞
  • ❝ I will kill your friends and family to remind you of my love. ❞
  • ❝ If you're going for mediocre, you've done great! ❞
  • ❝ Alright, we can't break out of here, but we sure can break a sweat! ❞
  • ❝ Gotta be going to that malt shop in the sky. ❞
  • ❝ It's got groove! It's got meaning! ❞
  • ❝ When I fight I make the other side panicky! ❞
  • ❝ That is a metro hetero jerk! ❞
  • ❝ Love is like forever this is no time to economize! ❞
  • ❝ Their thinkin' is stinkin' and a little outdated. ❞
  • ❝ I'm probably too cool for you, so friend request denied. ❞
  • ❝ You're on Jiffy Pop detail. ❞
  • ❝ I don't have to always be right - when I'm with you, I just am. ❞
  • ❝ I'm raisin' hell and I'm a felon in a four foot frame. ❞
  • ❝ Guys who wear that get beat up on my street. ❞
  • ❝ It's like making love to you all night, NO WAIT! It feels so much better! ❞
  • ❝ No sleep for you, better chug that Mountain Dew. ❞
  • ❝ All I got was a running nose and Asiatic flu. ❞
  • ❝ You ain't no friend of mine. ❞
  • ❝ We have fought on like, seventy-five different fronts. ❞
  • ❝ I'm not freaking out, I'm really okay, I'm totally chill. ❞
  • ❝ If your Irish boy tires of you, you're allowed to shoot him in the knees. ❞
  • ❝ You ever see somebody ruin their own life? ❞
  • ❝ The more you jump around and scream, the sexier you seem. ❞
  • ❝ Peachy keen, jellybean. ❞
  • ❝ Both your hair and shoes are flat. ❞
  • ❝ Lookin' hot, Cream of Mushroom! ❞
Visitation pt III

Thanks to everyone that has been reading/replying/reblogging/etc both here and on Ao3! It really means a lot to me. And a super extra special thanks to @kijilinn for beta-ing and helping me out so much. In case you need a refresher: Part I and Part II. And here’s the last chapter: Part IV.

Title: Visitation

Pairing: Negan x OFC

Rating: SFW (Major Negan language in this chapter. Cursing, discussions of sex and violence.) 

*Spoilers for TWD comics post All Out War*


A few days later Tallulah was finally headed to her first visit with Negan. She was escorted to his basement cell by Rick and Michonne, both of whom were carrying guns, and was surprised to see two more armed guards already down there. Apparently, they weren’t taking any chances.

“To what do I owe the fucking pleasure, Rick?” Negan asked with a grin. Tallulah was still hidden in the shadows behind Rick, so she got to see Negan before he saw her.

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anonymous asked:

dude so English is not my first language and my first understanding of the word Gothic was black everything but now after following u & seeing ur Gothic posts im like ??? and ive search the meaning but im just not understanding it :( could u pls explain 2 me ? ps ur blog is a+

omg okay that’s completely fair. so full disclosure, i don’t entirely know myself? it’s more of a feeling, a vibe that the word “gothic” evokes to me rather than a set definition of parameters (though those do exist). gothic focuses on the uncanny, the unsettling. it’s haunting, focuses on themes such as decay, betrayal, revenge. it’s sinister and ultimately, creepy.

the term gothic in relation to fiction comes from the genre “gothic fiction.” this was named for gothic architecture, which is pseudo-medieval, given that original gothic fiction tried to emulate the creepy abandoned castle vibes that architecture gave off and base their stories around this (think thunderstorm at night and the heroine in a white dress being chased through the countryside by some sort of evil man… that’s very original gothic). and gothic americana are those same ideals being shifted into modern day, and adapted for a contemporary regional setting.

i think of modern gothic as still being inherently tied to architecture – in suburban gothic, it’s about the houses all in a row, so alike and the sheer terror in the idea that these houses are almost like a poison for us to live in them, and they keep spreading. it’s like taking what already exists and considering it through a “horror” lens, and that idea of terror coming from something mundane.

okay this is probably the worst explanation of all time and i truly apologise for that but i advise you to check out these pages for people far more eloquent than i

anonymous asked:

What are your thoughts on the ban?

Without too much depth because I’ll write for hours

- ”costs too much” my ass

- I am scared for what this means for the LGBT community as a whole but especially my trans friends that I consider to be my brothers and sisters. (Also, if he is willing to go this far I don’t see why marriage equality isn’t on the dart board for the Trump administration) 

- I want Trump to meet me in the fucking pit along with all the trans veterans that are astronomically more pissed than me

I’ll be blogging posts I agree with and from there I think you’ll see a lot more articulate rants I don’t have the eloquence to make right now

anonymous asked:

I've been following you for a good long while but I had to unfollow because your love for a series about a white slave master/POC slave and their Love Affair is quite frankly fucking disgusting and you should be ashamed.

hello! I’ve gotten a couple of messages like this recently, so I thought it was time to stop thinking my reply in my head then deleting the message and actually respond.

on the surface, to someone who isn’t familiar with the books (or perhaps gave up somewhere during the first one), it does look like a white slave master/POC slave and their Love Affair, but that’s not what it is. Captive Prince is an escapist fantasy written by a member of a specific ethnic minority about a character who is a member of that specific ethnic minority. it’s incredibly nuanced – a lot more nuanced that the blurb makes it seem. I’m gonna quickly run through a couple of things people who haven’t read all the books can’t know.

you don’t have to agree with me, you don’t have to like the series, you don’t have to like me for liking the series – you don’t even have to read this if you don’t want to, but I’m writing it. sorry in advance, probably. 

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