you are all really cool people who i respect and think are just generally wonderful

anonymous asked:

Hi! Why do you think harry chose pink for his album? I don't think it's because "its rock&roll color" is it? In the french interview he said it MEANS something to him but hmm.... do you have any idea ?

I do have an idea. My answer involves a lot of speculation, so take it with a giant grain of salt. My quotes on the Quotidien interview is taken from this transcript. The video is here.

Stepping back a bit, I do feel conflicted about speculating on a question like this. As the interviewer said, millions of people (including me) dissect Harry’s every tic under a microscope. I don’t think I could be 100% consistent under that kind of scrutiny. Yes, he is a celebrity– and the promotion of his creative work inevitably involves revealing something of his personal life, so that his audience can feel more connected to him. Allowing access to stalkers is part of this strategy– to make him seem reachable, intimate, yet iconic and larger-than-life. They are loathsome and invasive. But they are also useful.

We’ve all been discussing the Harry Styles™ mystique: Harry’s quality of never being completely known or understood, his way of saying nothing while saying something and vice versa, his desire to separate his professional from his private life. This is why audiences are obsessed with whether he “presses the Instagram button with his own finger.” We want to eliminate a layer of uncertainty in the speculation, to know that we’re one circle closer to the real Harry Styles. 

He’s mentioned that Sign of the Times has a personal meaning to him, but explains its meaning in vague, general terms. The lyrics, while seemingly personal and urgent, are not specific to a circumstance. We circle and hover, but never get closer. 

What about Cameron Crowe’s Rolling Stone article, stating in no uncertain terms that the album is “ten songs” about “women and relationships”? Here’s what Harry says

  • I: You said to the Rolling Stone magazine that most of the album was inspired by a woman. Really?
  • H: No I think, honestly, the album is much more about me than it is about anyone else. I think if I said the album is about a woman it kind of feels like, I don’t know, I put a lot of work into this. I don’t feel like it involves around woman. It’s a lot about me and things I’ve never said before. It’s more about me.

It’s not about a woman. His first word is, “No.” Then he softens his statement by redirecting it to himself (personal life), then his hard work (professional life), things he’s never said before (a mixture of the two). In a Harry way, he circles the question back on itself– my music is about both me and my music. It’s a statement about nothing. But in saying that, it answers something– it’s not about women. 

So let’s see what he says about the color pink:

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Osomatsu-San Extra Stories Translation ‘Karamatsu of Dreams” Part One

Another translation from the Extra Stories (Bangaihen) novel. This time about Karamatsu and his dreams of putting on a live concert. Quite a lot of painfullness, as you would expect. Doing it in two parts this time.

Cultural note: The Nippon Budokan is a big indoor arena in Tokyo that was originally built to host martial arts contests. It’s also a well known concert venue, and it’s considered very prestigious to play here. An artist or group playing here is a sign that their career is on the up.

Karamatsu of Dreams - Part One

Beneath the blue sky –

Karamatsu was sitting on the roof of the house clutching his guitar.

“Heh… the Goddess of Music is fickle.”

He wasn’t playing the guitar, and he certainly wasn’t singing. From the outside, he didn’t look like he was doing anything other than basking in the sun.

His whole body was bathed in sunlight. He felt as if he were shining like the sun itself.

“Oh, Sunshine! What are you trying to do by heating me up even more? After you’ve lit my heart on fire, you’ll only end up burning yourself, aha?”

He faced the sun and put on his sunglasses.

“I’m dazzling, aren’t I? You can use me, Sunshine!” 

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One Piece 858 thoughts

Finally I find the time/mood to make another review! And couldn’t be a chapter for it. 

My wifi hates me, so not many images today. Let’s start with the wonderful, glorious, cover - The first one, because we even have two. To all the people who said Luffy shouldn’t forgive Sanji, the rest of the crew is still angry with him… here’s your answer. The crew has many different characters and responses on all kinds of situations, but this doesn’t change: they have the utmost respect for their captain and will follow his judgement. 

This is actually something that evolved after the timeskip: Luffy is now clearly more mature. The death of Ace had him forcefully realize that adventure and friendship  is all good and so on, but at some point you must stop and think. Luffy before timeskip was about to tell Usopp to leave the crew and lose Zoro’s respect. Luffy, now, asks questions - to Sanji - and listens to answers - that he thankfully understands as lies. 

As for the second one… well. 

You lost because you didn’t win

English-speaking people must have a difficult time realizing how it feels to learn a bit of English in middle school and starting to write random cool phrases that mean eveything but als kinda notjing worth saying like “I love you” or “Be yourself xoxo” on each other’s diaries. It’s a teenage thing - or maybe not, since I still write poems on my walls -, it’s a phase, it passes. Apparently Oda- sensei isn’t out of it yet. And likes tautologies. 

By the way I lpve this cover because it literally supports every ship possible with Nami: Sanami, Zonami, Lunami… but in particular SANAMI BECAUSE THE FRICKING NUMBER ON HER SHIRT IS A 73. Whatever. Leave me alone. Other than that, as per @sanjiafsincedayone‘s posts we know that 73 and 32 rapresents Sanji and Nami. So I guess the other numbers have some meaning as well. 

I don’t really get the point of this page… to show that the wedding is approaching - as per the clock…? - nor the point of this new character. Oda generally gives everything a meaning, but sometimes he doesn’t… I think. 

Pekoms is being held prisoner back by Jinbei’s crew not to let him spill a word of the plan to Big Mom - this dude is way too loyal, that witch doesn’t deserve him. I like seeing some strange races every now and then and I just looove Praline’s design, I’d let her step on me - something she couldn’t do, given the fact she has no legs lol - but every time I see her, I fricking wonder: HOW DID BIG MOM GIVE BIRTH TO A MERMAID. To be more specific: HOW DID SHE CONCEIVE HER

But One Piece is kids-friendly so I guess we’ll never know, uh…

Big Mom leaves her  underlings quite a bit of freedom, letting Bege even have his own castle. Vito the evil fanboy - in contrast to Bartolomeo the good fanboy - meets them and tells them to have a bath. And Luffy’s the one staying focused on the most urgent matters, can you believe it??? But Sanji and Luffy look at each other and agree they do quite stink LOL

The boys get some fanservice and we get some hints and recap. For us hardcore fans of One Piece this is quite useless, but since all the friends I have that don’t read OP say it’s because it’s too long and there’s too much stuff to remember …I guess it makes sense. And with what Carrot says here, I’m more and more convinced she’ll join the crew - or at the very least be with them for a while longer. 

Lola’s was asked in marriage by the the Giants’ prince, Loki - named after the Northern Mythology god of deceit Loki, but this is tumblr and Tom Hiddleston exists, I don’t really need to tell you right? -, here goes the double gag, cause

A. She was asked in marriage - because of her personality I guess, but jokes aside, she was really a good girl

B. They still understood Lola=/=Chiffon, I don’t know how.

And by the way for the Sanami shippers here, Nami is impressed at the mention of a prince

So my theory of Mama needing Ceasar’s help because of her hatred towards giants was partially correct. She wanted their army and now wants to get the Vinsmokes’. Also, she’s an abusive parent, but nothing new here. 

Here’s just how big Sanji’s heart his. Personally, I would side with Chiffon, I don’t think she’s cruel or anything, many would side with her, and I can tell because so many thought not only Sanji would let his family die, but even kill them himself. And instead…

They beat him. Verbally and emotionally abused him. His own father tried to kill him, and now are using him… and even so…

Getting to the gag stuff - which, as always, I love - Brook did in fact have a fierce battle, Luffy! And yet again, how is the level-headed one… I’d never thought I’d put “Luffy” and “level-headed” in the same sentence ….

What the hell is up with your bodies!

We all ‘ve been wondering hon. W’all ‘ve been wondering. 

Next up, the Mafia runaway! I love how they look, so 20′s … but why didn’t they give Sanji a suit as well? I know it’s what he wears all the time, but he’ll end up looking unelegant in comparison, and I cannot have that. Carrot’s so adorable with her hat, but Pedro just feels terribly uneasy, you can tell, and not because Ceasar’s sitting right next to him. 

Ahhhh he’s wearing shorts! He couldn’t be that elegant I guess. Pity. 

So…

For once!

And 

Is no-one going to say anything at Luffy wearing two hats? Okay…

And then the mess happens. Poor Jinbei. He’s astonished. 

Yup.  We all wonder. 

substition bride with Nami please? 

Horizon: Zero Dawn, Please Platonically Marry Me

(&:) We’re breaking our long repost/shitpost/unnecessary comment tradition for the sake of the most awesome game we’ve seen in a long, long time. ChristopherOdd’s LP of Horizon: Zero Dawn just ended today and we’ve been licking the bottom of the barrel to try and find new things to watch because the emptiness in our souls is real and profound. This game is so fucking good. It would be pointless to try and list off all the ways in which it is so, so good. If you can get your hands on it, it’s amazing. If you’re broke like us and just like watching vids while eating, COdd’s LP is quite pleasant. (His work is generally a restful breath of fresh air compared to most other LPers I’ve watched.) OMG, it HURTS, how good this game was. It is so overwhelmingly good, all the damn time.

Do you know what one of the most unexpected and wonderful parts of the plot was? NO ROMANTIC SUBPLOT. AT ALL. NOT EVEN THE OPTION TO START ONE. The main character is just an incredibly skilled, attractive, 19-year-old woman who has WAY TOO MANY IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO TO BOTHER WITH THAT RIGHT NOW, AND IT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I HAVE SEEN A MAINSTREAM PLOT DO IN AGES.

THAT DUDE: Gosh, thanks for saving my life, Aloy. You’re amazing. I made special armor just for you. I worked really hard. *___*
ALOY: Wow, nice. Good craftsmanship. Thank you.

THAT OTHER GUY: You are such a mighty warrior that you might even be a mightier warrior than my mom. I am constantly stunned by your badassery. You’re even favored by the local deity. Please allow me to follow faithfully wherever you lead. *_____*
ALOY: Sounds good. How about you manage our defenses out yonder. I’ll be counting on you in that one battle.

THAT SUBPLOT GUY?: Girl, I have never seen anybody who looks as good splashed down in the blood of evildoers as you do. We should partner up together and spend our lives happily taking out human trash all over the world. Also, I look fucking scrumptious in this armor. ;D ;D ;D
ALOY: Wow, you’re kind of creepy and sociopathic. I hope I never have to see you again.

OTHER OTHER GUY: I may be a bumbler with motivational issues, but I have a heart of gold and a lot of enthusiasm! Thanks to your guidance, I’m turning my life around and growing to become a better, more effective human being! How are you amazing like how my sister was amazing?? *______*
ALOY: Good for you. I have faith in your ability to do well from now on.

THAT TOTAL BABE: Allow me to openly hit on you, you super cutie.
ALOY: Allow me to not acknowledge that because I have to fix a civil war and kill robot dinosaurs.
THAT TOTAL BABE: My, I love how you get things done. If I come through here again, I’ll have to Thank You Appropriately~~~
ALOY: *pulls out to-do list and starts plotting map coordinates*

ACTUAL KING OF THE CIVILIZED WORLD: I know my love interest was horribly murdered, but you’ve supported me through my time of trials and I wonder if we could work toward more intimacy.
ALOY: Gee, if you really loved your love interest, perhaps you shouldn’t instantly rebound hard enough to get whiplash.
ACTUAL KING OF THE CIVILIZED WORLD: Damn, you’re absolutely right.
(much later)
ACTUAL KING OF THE CIVILIZED WORLD: Hey, I apologize for hitting on you before. That was really unclassy of me.
ALOY: We’re cool. Just don’t let it happen again.

EVIL SPARTAN VOICED BY CRISPIN FUCKING FREEMAN: HRRRGHH I HATE THIS WOMAN IN THE DEPTHS OF MY BEING AND YET SHE IS SO POWERFUL AND MAGNIFICENT THAT I MUST BECOME OBSESSED WITH SNARING HER AND FANTASIZE ABOUT HOW WE ARE DESTINED TO DESTROY EACH OTHER HRRRGH RRGGGHH
ALOY: You’re being an obstacle, you inadequate scrub. *stab*

CUTE ENGINEER: Your tech-savviness is painfully charming. I am dazzled despite myself.
ALOY: Your enormous weapon is great for killing all kinds of things. Really nice work!
CUTE ENGINEER: I may be a fiercely independent isolationist, but please come back and see me lots.
ALOY: Probably not. Got stuff to do.
CUTE ENGINEER: Well, don’t mind me if I accidentally turn up to fight and possibly die for you at that one big battle. *_____*
ALOY: Reinforcements are always appreciated!

I don’t know if this might be called a canon asexual character. I think you could spin it that way if you wanted to, but I also think that a character shouldn’t have to be asexual in order to just have rational priorities and to thus understandably rate flirting/romance/hookups as really low on the list compared to genocide and world-ending. I really, really like both explanations. I LOVE the lack of an obligatory romance. I EXTRA LOVE how they deliberately included all those characters who crush so hard on Aloy so that she can be completely unconcerned about their dokidoki. I FUCKING ADORE THIS GAME TO PIECES. NUMBER ONE NON-ANIME WAIFU. WILL NOT PRINT ON A DAKIMAKURA COVER BECAUSE I RESPECT ITS UNIQUE INTERESTS AND LIFE AMBITIONS. MY HEART~~~~~ TTT_____TTT

anonymous asked:

How about the RFA + V + Saeran and a Model MC? Like, ruby rose kinda style model?

Hi! Sorry for the delay! Thanks so much for this request it was interesting to think about although I think the conclusion of all of them would be very similar! ❤❤


✨Zen is sOooooooo amazed
✨He loved MC before seeing them of course, and when he saw them he was swoooooooning, that alternative edge had him shook
✨He loves MC with his heart way more than his eyes and he makes sure they know it! Although he compliments their looks plenty he also makes sure to compliment deeper things about them bc he knows what it’s like to feel like ppls interest in you is skin deep!
✨He mentions someone he worked with to MC once and they say they modelled with them once and that’s how it comes up
✨He’s honestly not surprised that MC could model!
✨Though he prefers acting jobs to modelling he totally respects MCs preference and comes along to shoots when he has time and they occasionally do couple shoots
✨Selfie game: expert. Whether it’s laughing and cuddling in bed, or when out on cute walks. Whether they are flawless or they both look ruffled to heck. (The cute homely ones like that are his fave and mostly they stay away from the public so he can treasure them!!!)
✨looks amazing whenever they borrow his shirts or jackets but when they fish out his leather jacket, and anything else from his bad boy days he will lose his mind. dead. RIP.
✨2 models with a friend who is a photographer??? Selfie game: above expert?? V is always happy to catch special moments~
✨The hottest couple in the limelight!!
✨sometimes the public seem to just think they are in the relationship for the others looks and the publicity but as they are together for longer and longer, and they are consistently such a cute couple that this stuff generally dies down!

⭐️Yoosung is so embarrassed at first! He thinks about how bad he must look a flunking student who always plays games…
⭐️Once he’s reassured he’s perfect for MC he is so excited? his partner is a p well known model?
⭐️He shows off to his friends a lot at first
⭐️Honestly it makes no real diffference of course but he’s still so amazed that a model loves his geek ass
⭐️Can get pretty jealous? MC meets some of the most good looking people around and has people touching them to move them around and maybe see them in various states of undress….
⭐️He does work on his jealously though since MC always tells him they only really have eyes for him!
⭐️Really supportive and if anyone makes any comments that are dismissive of MCs job he’ll fight them, and enlist the help of the others if needed, especially Zen, Seven and Saeran!
⭐️Definitely has all the modelling shots he can find of MC on his wall or something, and loves to show off how amazing and talented and cool as well as wonderful they are!!!

🚀Seven already knows ofc but keeps it on the down low out of respect
🚀quite worried that MC is so in the public eye when he is the exact opposite
🚀worried about them being seen together much in case it sparks attention about where he lives n who he is not that he leaves the house all that much…
🚀He’s extra cautious of MCs safety, keeps an eye on any comments etc about them or their work
🚀Best not be too rude or u will start experiencing some…. technical difficulties
🚀makes silly jokes all the time about how the secret agent always gets his lover, and how the superhero always gets the happy ending
🚀Pretend catwalks and photo shoots with MC and Mary 👀👀👀
🚀When MC was at the apartment he would have been joking about them strutting down the hallway for the camera and lost his mind when they would go all out!!!!

☕️Honestly Jaehee is basically dying
☕️Thinks it’s amazing that MC got such a dream job kind of lifestyle
☕️Doesn’t see how they could find her so interesting and amazing??? Is always worried she’s too plain or boring
☕️Fangirls over all of MCs work, and is so so proud of her partner!!
☕️Zen / MC both her faves and both are good looking and talented. Jaehee is in heaven and avidly keeps MCs shoots just like she keeps Zen’s performances etc.
☕️Really is just always amazed at their dedication and how amazing they are and loves to talk to everyone about them.
☕️If they don’t have one already, sets up MCs fan page or else joins it!!!
☕️loves how unique MCs look is and admires that they are true to themselves!

💼Jumin honestly is not that phased, he’s been set up on dates with models before
💼He loves the edgier look that MC has! He is taken aback at first but thinks it speaks volumes of their tenacity and independence
💼Will always offer for them to model for his business ideas if they are between jobs, although respects if they don’t want to
💼When he first heard MC had a job he told them they could quit because money wasn’t a problem, but when they said it was modelling and they loved it he understood
💼Tells them they don’t need to ever take jobs they don’t want to though!
💼He can pull some strings to help get them shoots they are excited about as well
💼everyone calls them a power couple! But he’s not at all phased by the modelling or the fame he just loves MC for understanding him… though he sure isn’t complaining about their looks!
💼Finds more revealing photoshoots hard to understand at first, possibly commenting that MC was cheapening themselves etc, but once MC/the others set him straight he apologises for any such comments!!
💼pleased there are other amazing pictures of MC so that his shaky pictures aren’t all he can frame for his office (though some of them and Elizabeth 3rd are his favourite and are on his desk anyway)

🕶SuDDENLY more of Vs pictures have a person in…..
🕶loves taking picture of MC. Especially taking them travelling to find some beautiful aesthetic places to photograph.
🕶finds it too much of a neat and tidy coincidence that a photographer and a model ended up together, it’s absolutely got to be fate
🕶loves MCs image! Thinks they look super unique and expressive and interesting
🕶Is happy to use his contacts to get them more work etc, or use his photos of them to add to their portfolio
🕶Loves taking artistic photos of them in their underwear or less!
🕶But has a special passion for taking candids of them with his high quality camera but when they’re like, in one of his jumpers and some pants and drinking milk from a cereal bowl.
🕶thinks they are wonderful regardless of looks of course!

🔪Saeran doesn’t care at all??? MC is gorgeous and anyone who doesn’t realise that must be ridiculous as far as he’s concerned, of course they are a model?? But that isn’t what matters at all!
🔪Struggles with his jealousy! He’s grown attached to MC as he’s been healing, and he feels nervous about them being so out there- what if they find someone less damaged, with less baggage etc??
🔪Honestly just whatever makes MC happy as long as they are safe and happy and come back home to him he’ll work on reigning in his jealousy
🔪Loves the look, thinks it’s super hot to be honest
🔪He probably is too shy to come along to many shoots but if he does he watches with such admiration
🔪similar to 7, keeps an eye on comments about them etc and if there is any rudeness there will be hell to pay

All of these boil down to: they think it’s cool and love MC, but ultimately it wasn’t the looks that are most important to them!
I hope you enjoyed this!!

Is A Muslim Magical Girl Offensive?

Anonymous asked:

Question!! mod kaye, i know you touched a little bit on the topic of magic being taboo for muslim characters… i wanted to write a magical girl story in homage to a genre i love, with a diverse cast of young women, including a hijabi muslim character. now i’m wondering whether this is sketchy. the magical girls’ powers, in-universe, don’t derive from “magic” but from alien technology/quantum physics/something like that, and to separate her further from anything fantastically “magical”, the muslim character’s powers incorporate electricity and computer technology (as one of her mundane hobbies is programming, this is amplified as a source of her power). is it still inappropriate to create such a character or expect her to be received warmly by muslim audiences? should i consider rewriting the character as a non-magical ally or just scrapping her? i don’t want to lose her, since i like the character and i think the magical girl genre should celebrate all kinds of girls and girlhood. but i want to check myself and be cautious. (i’ve seen artists on tumblr draw hijabi magical girl fanart and stuff too, but i know it’s different when it comes from an outsider/oppressor.)

Hello there!

First of all, may I just say how lovely it is to have a question written to me and so sweetly? Thank you just for that and for your concern about writing a Muslim character correctly!

Like every mod has noted before, no people are a monolith, and as I’ve noted before, Islam is understood and prescribed and practiced in different ways by different people. I’ve said before that even more liberal Muslims I know don’t like the idea of magic as it is used by a Muslim character.

Even with the Beauxbatons headcanon, sorting into Hogwarts houses and – as you pointed out – the new obsession with drawing hijaabis as magical girls and even magical creatures (that, I must note, is not always done respectfully or with the idea of proper representation beyond that hijaabi being used as an “exotic” change) – I still often see a consensus of leaving magic alone when it comes to Islam or else treading carefully, and I think we should respect that.

Of course, in the same vein, there are Muslims who don’t have a problem with it. We’re not a monolith and I’m just noting that so that I’m not erasing them.

(In Islam as I’ve been taught it, magic is viewed as having repercussions of evil and only used for ill purposes. There are several stories where someone was taught magic as a trial of faith, and when they proceeded to abuse it, as expected, they lost their faith and were led astray.)

But, to be entirely honest, I also have a magical girl story, and – in the name of representing the girl in me who loves her magical girl animes – there is a Muslim girl who is a hijaabi. I’ve written down this idea as being possibly magical realism, which would then make the entire world have a dream-like state that, I would hope, would cancel out the whole onus of magic being focused on that one Muslim girl character. It’s definitely still a work in progress, and even as a Muslim girl, I want to do the best by my faith and by my own heart.

That might be one possibility to circumvent any problematic aspect, and I think you’ve already done that: playing around with the atmosphere of the world at large. Reading through your idea, I don’t see anything innately problematic about the idea of this Muslim magical girl and her particular talent. If anything, it reads like a superhero origin, and we all know Muslim superheroes that are accepted and do quite well with Muslim readers.

Personally, I often see magical girls as a brand of superheroes. If we can have Kamala Khan – who, as a side note, is wondrous – wearing her suit and transforming and being awesome as a Muslim heroine, I’m pretty sure there’s a way that we can have our magical girls, too.

I agree with you that the magical girl genre celebrates girlhood and I appreciate your concern with representing different girls, so I hope that in some way, this answer helps you. If anything, my primary suggestion would be to continue to write with an eye for making that Muslim character as full-fleshed and real as you can and keep asking respectful questions from people of the Islamic faith when you need to. If you feel you’re stepping away from the more superhero origin story,

I wish you the best of luck! (And if you ever want to talk magical girls, now you know which mod to look up!)

- Kaye

Generally, I would stay away from Muslim characters doing magic unless it’s established that magic is a norm in the universe you’re writing? Like in Harry Potter, it’s just something that exists and I personally (just me here, not trying to speak over anyone) think there’s nothing wrong with, for example, having Muslims at Beauxbatons. I mean, I actually did like that headcanon, and I was thinking about how it would mesh with them being Muslims. I thought maybe they just wouldn’t do divination because knowing the future seems like it would be something that’s haram no matter what? I don’t know - I mean, I’m a revert and even though I’ve studied Islam a lot, there’s still a lot I don’t know. 

-Tasbeeh

I think the gaining powers from technological incidents is a really cool idea and circumvents the magic thing but still gives her powers, and if playing around with technology was a hobby of hers, all the better! - Yasmin

Imagine being Barba’s daughter and helping him learn some Italian so he can surprise Sonny at their wedding

This part of an un-chronological Barisi series

Part Two is Here 

(A/N: I couldn’t help myself. Hope you all enjoy!) 

Imagine being Barba’s daughter and helping him learn some Italian so he can surprise Sonny at their wedding

“Dad!” you called out with a sigh and putting down your pen.

“Yeah.” he responded almost immediately coming into your room as if he was just in the hallway.

“Do you need something?” you questioned, sitting up on your bed and automatically gathering up your papers that you had scattered across the bed as you attempted to complete your Calculus homework.

“No.” he answered with a strange supposedly reassuring smile as he leaned weirdly on your doorframe.

“Then why have you walked passed my room five times in the past ten minutes?” you fired at him, watching him and his peculiar behaviour closely.

“I was just coming in to ask you how your day was?” he made up on the spot, expertly and if you hadn’t known him your whole life you would have believed him.

“Good.” you offered typically, going over your Wednesday in your head, still suspicious about his real intentions.

“What you working on? he inquired walking into your room now and sitting on the upholstered trunk that you kept by the foot of your bed.

“AP Calculus. Want to help?” you smirked.

“No thank you.” he said quickly which made you giggle.

Then a silence fell over you both. You eyed him up while adverting his eyes. It was strange behaviour, for him. It was like he wants dot tell you something but didn’t which was weird considering your Dad to loved to talk. Your Grandma has a theory that one if the reasons he became a lawyer was so he could talk. Also you’d never really seen your Dad nervous. Even when he proposed to Sonny. He hid all of the usual somewhat expected worries that any normal person would of had and just played them off.

“Dad, is there something wrong?” you asked suddenly, breaking the silence because your curiosity was getting the better of you.

He went to say something and then your curiosity turned to fear. You began to worry.

“Are you dying?” you spluttered out.

“Y/N…” he went to interrupt.

“Because, if you are,” you interjected cutting him off, thinking logically about your apparent new situation, “I want to stay with Sonny. I mean I love Aba and everything but I can’t go to her school in the Bronx or live there for that matter. I’m comfortable here.”

“I’m not dying.” he stated, shaking his head at you.

“That’s good.” you sighed, “Why would you scare me like that?”

“I didn’t say anything. You went off and assumed. Just like your Mother,” he argued gently, “And I would hope so that me not dying would be good news to you.”

“Then what’s wrong with you?” you asked.

“Nothing.” he stated adamantly.

“Then why are you here?” you questioned.

“Where?” he shot back confused.

“At home. On a Wednesday. At 4:00pm. Why aren’t you at work and why are you in my room asking how my day is. You usually ask at dinner when you usually get home after Sonny does. ” you interrogated.

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Anon: i’ve always wondered how kfans and non kfans see jimin as. for example, i get the impression that koreans see jimin as a pretty fairy? they always praise his feminine beauty considering i’ve heard fans and non fans actually call him those names or names similar to that on forums and translations. is that true? or is it more of a mix response due to his intense stage presence? i just know he’s really popular so i just wonder :)

Anon: omg faldksj “make married men sweat kind of pretty” that’s the best description of jimin i’ve ever seen. i’ve noticed so many kfans describe the other members as cool and handsome but when it comes to jm it’s usually pretty and cute and i relate. im just amazed by the discrepancy between kfans and ifans bc ifans are always arguing over who tops and bottoms in km but kfans seem to all just agree its jk. i mean im sure there are top jm fans but is it the maknae on top thing or just physically?????   

Anon: Did you ever receive comments saying you just like bottom min for his appearance? Because I heard plenty of it, how I just I like it because he is shorter and smoller than Kook, but honestly? To me physical appearance has nothing to do with preferences in bed. Anyway, If you ever did received comments like that how did you reply to them?   

Not going to lie, I sometimes just like to sit back and see how international fans view members, how they describe them in real life, and how they’re represented in English fanfics. There isn’t a stark difference, but it’s sometimes noticeable enough that I pause and go “huh.” I may not necessarily agree with everything but it’s cool to see how people think.

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Dauntless: I Love You

Eric x OC
Warnings: Language, feels


Stupid head.

I sat sulkily on the bench, my feet propped on the one across from me as I watched Eric talk to the new female initiates. One of them was getting on my nerves, and although Eric didn’t seem to notice, she was outright flirting with him.

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Highlights from the Eion Bailey, Sinqua Walls, and Robbie Kay Panel (Lee Arenberg moderating) at Creation NJ

  • Question for Robbie:  Was it hard to take yourself seriously playing Robert Carlyle’s dad?  “Yeah it was a constant struggle to try to take that seriously.  They didn’t actually tell me I was 250 years old in the show and Rumplestiltskin’s father until about three episodes in.  About three episodes into filming they were like ‘oh by the way this is happening now and you are part of the ever growing family tree….’ and I was like thanks for telling me now.  But yeah it was kind of weird to wrap my head around.  We got used to it.  But Robert Carlyle is good to be around and he is a professional while we’re working so that made it very easy.”
  • Question to the Group:  Favorite scene:  
    • Sinqua: the first one for his character.  The entire first episode with Snow and Charming in 2.03.
    • Robbie: the end of 3.01 when Pan reveals himself to Henry.
    • Eion: showing up into town on the motorcycle in 1.09.
  • A general conversation about the difference between acting in film and tv where you know the entire arc of a character versus being cast and you may not even know who you are playing.
  • Sinqua:  About his casting:  “When I went into do it I read for a totally different character.  I said I think you made a mistake.  No you read for the right character they just never told you the name.  It was very covert.”
  • Lee Arenberg: Now a days they’ll just give you a scene from something to see what you do that isn’t what you are going to play.
  • Sinqua:  “Or they’ll give you a scene from something that doesn’t even exist.  They’ll give you something that says like… Rescue Rangers… I don’t know how I’m going to play this but I’ll be the best chipmunk I can be.”  Eion: “Did you say chipmunk?”  Lee:  “I think he said Rescue Rangers.”
  • Question to the Group:  If you could put one episode of Once Upon a Time and put it in a time capsule what would it be:  
    • Robbie:  The pilot.
    • Eion:  “I’ll say, when Mars is colonized, you take the box set and send it out on the discovery mission to Mars and it gets planted in that red dirt…  When earth is no longer… plants have risen and taken over Manhattan… a new form of dinosaur is roaming the planet… over on Mars some Mars-o-naunt is going to be like terraforming some hydroponic tomatoes or something there is going to be Once Upon a Time the entire series and people are going to be like that’s what it was like there and they’re going to think earth was like Once Upon a Time!”
    • Sinqua:  “I can not… I can not… he goes to Mars-o-nauts …”
    • Lee:  “You are going to play a Mars-o-naut as a chipmunk…”
    • Sinqua:  “I say chipmunk and everyone’s crazy but he goes Mars-o-naut and everything is cool?”
  • Question to the Group:  You all have pretty established fairy tale or legendary characters.  How did you go about makign the part your own?
    • Robbie:  Found it freeing to take a character who was generally considered nice and put an entirely new spin on it.
    • Lee:  Complimenting Robbie on the charm to his evil.  And on his acting chops.
    • Eion:  When he found out he was playing Pinocchio he had to think “what does Pinocchio want?  He wants to be a real boy.  So I could translate that to wanting to be authentic and true and the desire to be authentic and true and finding yourself not.  We all desire to be more something than we are because there is some aspect of our selves that we respect and appreciate to further and nurture.  And that one was something that I could understand too.  Like I sometimes catch myself being inauthentic at times when meeting someone and afterwords I think ‘fuck why was I not more real?  My true self?  Why was I politicking… or presenting an idea that is not truly myself?’  Once I find as an actor that core element is very much like the character and the characters aspirations than it’s a simpler process.”
    • Lee:  “Did you know you were Pinocchio early on?”
    • Eion:  “No.”
    • Lee:  “That was a great mystery on the show even those of us working on the show.”
    • Eion:  “I was reading a scene where I was in the diner talking to Emma telling her a story about having been on these travels in Nepal and in Nepal there is ruins of a monastery and around the monastery there were jumping these lemurs.  And I knew lemurs don’t live in Nepal they live in Madagascar.  So I wrote to Adam and Eddy.. like could they really have not known that?  And I wrote the two writers and said ‘you probably know this but lemurs don’t live in Nepal just thought I’d let you know.’  And they wrote back ‘no, you are not being truthful.’  And there I knew.” [Editor’s note:  He’s told this story several times before and he is mismembering, it’s Ruby and it’s the scene at the beginning of 1.15]
    • Sinqua:  “I had the biggest cheat sheet.”  Because there were so many people who have played Lancelot he could look at all of these performances.
  • Question for Robbie:  How did you like playing a villain, isn’t it a twist on Peter Pan?  “I loved it!  I can’t say that enough.  I had such a good time shooting Once.  Such a good time playing it.  You know it’s cool getting to be the hero and being the good guy but being able to walk on set every day and act along side people who just looked like they wanted to kill you all the time.  That was an element of satisfaction in that.  Having said that it was nice having a respite in the episode when I switch rolls with Henry and actually got to play a role where people didn’t look they wanted to kill me.  That was nice too.  The cast were all wonderful and I had such a good time shooting the show.”
  • Question for Robbie:  What would have happened if Pan, Felix and Henry united in the underworld?  “That’s a good question  Where was Felix?  Why wasn’t he with me?  The fucker.”  He said it would have been interesting and to expand what was happening between when Pan died and when we meet him running the Underbrooke pawn shop.
  • Question for the Group:  Favorite costume:  
    • Sinqua:  “I was fortunate that the armor was not as uncomfortable as it looked.  They found a good little compromise for how to make this metal, chain metal, plastic concoction not completely feel like I was dressed uncomfortably all the time.  I could go to the bathroom really easily.  I was amazed how quickly I could take the belt off go to the bathroom and put it back on. […] I really loved all of my costumes.”
    • Eion:  “It’s always funny to go into that costume shop because there is Eduardo who comes out in a cape or something and all these people are bent over these tables sewing machines and they look up like… like some sort of sweet shop.”
    • Robbie:  “Like he comes out of a warden’s office… ‘BACK TO WORK YOU… how are you?’  And you are like ‘Are you okay?  You get paid right?’
    • Robbie:  One of his favorite costumes was the pied piper costume from 3.04 because it was different from the green Pan costume.
    • Eion:  “All I ever wore was a black leather jacket.”  At some point Bailey bought a black leather jacket because he doesn’t want to look like August in the world.
    • Robbie:  “I have the same issue with my costume when I wear it out in the world.”
  • Question for Robbie:  Who in the acting business did you piss off that you keep dying?  “I’ll give you a list.”
    • Eion:  “That’s an amazing question.  Very bold.”
    • Robbie:  “I came back before maybe I’ll come back again.”
    • Lee:  “I actually think it’s the opposite.  Instead of pissing someone off it means they’re really investing in your death it means you are really radical.”  That deaths are great moments we remember.  “Like Sean’s death on our show.”
    • Audience:  “TOO SOON!”
  • Question for the Group:  Eion speaks a made up langauge he talks to his son.  Robbie speaks some french.  Sinqua just starts giggling and speaks really bad Spanglish.  
  • Question for the Group:  Who would you want to be on the show.
    • Robbie: Rumplestiltskin.
    • Sinqua: Rumplestiltskin.
    • Both praise Robert Carlyle.
    • Eion:  “Back to language for just a moment….”  Eion tells people to try and make an effort to learn a little of a language when traveling.
  • Question for the Group:  Favorite fairy tales:
    • Robbie:  My own.
    • Eion:  “Ditto”
    • Sinqua:  “My favorite fair tale has always been Beauty and the Beast.”
  • Question for Eion:  How did you film the nose torture scene from 4.15?  “It’s done after the fact.  There is nothing practical there… well what they did do is they made a wooden nose in three different lengths so I could see what they were going to do….”  and to set up focal lengths.  “It’s just straight up acting like my nose is growing and it’s painful…”
  • Question for Robbie:  Were you nervous to play Peter Pan?  “It’s a little daunting to go into a role that is so iconic.  Better not mess this up.”
  • Question for the Group (which only Robbie answered):  Most memorable moment:
    • Robbie:  “Trying to go to the loo.  There were plenty of wonderful moments for me.  Being able to work with a fantastic ensemble cast.”  Always laughing.  The crew and the cast.  “They are very Canadian in their political correctness.”
  • Question for the Group:  Favorite person to work with:
    • Sinqua:  Everyone he worked with on the show.  “I can honestly say that Once Upon a Time goes down as my favorite filming experience.  The producer are great, the cast is phenomenal, shooting in the city of Vancouver is amazing.  Every aspect of it …  I didn’t have a favorite because I loved every aspect of the process.”
    • Eion:  After season 1 started airing seeing the 150 or more fans who came from all over the world filming and it turned it into doing live theater.
  • At this point Sinqua discovered his baggage claim ticket stuck to his jacket.  There were a lot of jokes about how he traveled in the luggage compartment.
    • Sinqua had a traumatic experience going through TSA because he had been doing push ups in grass the day before at a bbq and the fertilizer set off the TSA bomb detection equipment.
    • Eion:  “Word to the wise about TSA.  And someone is going to be glad I said this.  I went though security just recently and there was something found like a bottle of water and I was like yeah get rid of that and then they swabbed it and they said you are going to have to go further checking.  And after they finished with my back I asked what the red flag was and they said the ‘a substance, a residue of something came up in your bag.’  And I was like what are you talking about?  And then I realized oh I keep herb in here in this bag.  And there it was the tiniest little crystals of green I realized I better not…  they patted me down my angles my arm pits my everything.  And I realized right there that either I need to get a whole new set of bags or not travel with these.  If there are any stoners in the room…”
    • At this point Robbie Key looked like he wanted to find somewhere else to be…
  • Question for Eion:  Where has August been?  “He left Storybrooke and moved to Japan.  But he has a special place in his heart for Storybrooke, you never know he might go back at some point.  But it’s another realm he crossed that barrier.  He crossed the town line… but if the town folks asked him to come back he might just come back…”
  • Question for Eion:  Who would you be shipped with?  “I don’t know if you know this but I was always working a little side angle, it was never in the writing, giving a kind of wink to Granny.  You know August likes those older ladies.  There is so much wisdom in an older woman.”  Audience suggests Old Leather as a ship name.
  • At this point Eion asks the audience to explain shipping.  The audience goes crazy.  
    • Robbie:  “Don’t ask don’t ask don’t ask…  Didn’t you hear the way they responded to that word?”  Robbie looks at the audience “Ship” *makes an arms in the air motion* *audience screams* “It’s like if you just mention Lana Parrilla out of the blue.”  *audience screams even louder*
    • Eion:  “So there are certain key words that just evoke pandemonium.”
    • Audience shouts a bunch including ship names.
    • Robbie:  “See what you’ve done?”
    • Eion:  “Swan Queen there is another.”  
    • Audience cheers, other ship names are shouted.
    • Eion:  “Old leather is the best.  I kind of have a crush on Beverly Elliott.  Is she here?”
  • Question for the Group:  If you could be on another show who would you want to play:
    • Robbie:  “I’d love to play someone like Jon Snow.  I love that show.  It’s one of my favorite shows on tv right now.  I just need to grow my hair out a little bit.”
    • Eion:  Confused Highlander and Outlander.  Mostly apparently wants to wear a kilt and fight the English.
    • Sinqua:  “Cast me on Shameless.”
Chronicles of the book re-read: Voyager

Voyager was one of my favourite books in the series the first time I read them, but I found myself oddly apprehensive to re-read it. I’m not quite sure on the impetus for this fear. Perhaps that re-experiencing it with an awareness of the imminent adaptation of the material for season 3 of the show would paint it a different way in my brain? Perhaps just that I had remembered it wrong? This turned out to be partially true: I had forgotten quite how crazy the final third is. But I am delighted to report that overall I still loved Voyager the second time around. I also re-read certain sections multiple times immediately after reading them, which is why this book took me longer than Outlander or Dragonfly In Amber. Yes, I am a ridiculous person.

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On Kakuhous, scent, and sex

Spoilers ahead, be warned! 

So I was just reading Ikuma’s story from the first TG Novel and when he meets Kaneki he describes that he smells both like a human and a female ghoul. This makes sense because he has Rize’s kakuhou. But this gave me the realization that a ghoul can identify the sex of a kakuhou and it made me wonder about the Qs. During the surgery, was Chigyou specific in giving them kakuhous from ghouls of their respective sex? What would he have given Mutsuki?

This is just a train of thought I’m really interested in, I feel like there’s a lot of cool things to discuss on this topic. (As a disclaimer, everything below is just speculation and my own thoughts that I had just now with very little research associated). See, if Kaneki had both a human and a ghoul’s scent, wouldn’t the Qs also? Wouldn’t that make Operation Mask largely unsuccessful/not useful when ghouls with good senses of smell could immediately recognize that they weren’t “normal” ghouls? A ghoul might be able to shrug off having a human’s scent as having recently eaten, but what if their kakuhou’s scent didn’t match their perceived sex? A ghoul could identify a human-ghoul hybrid easily if they could get past the initial confusion.

But consider if Chigyou was careful to match similarly-sexed kakuhous to the Qs. Wouldn’t everyone notice that Mutsuki is biologically female by his smell? At the very least Saiko and Urie would because of their sensitive noses.

Which brings into question this little blurt that people tend to discuss. Saiko could have been expressing knowledge (Or just being Saiko, hard to tell). For those who don’t know, generally the -ko ending to Japanese names is for girls (there are exceptions, hence the debate).

And also, with Urie’s clear investigative intellect (he knew about Torso’s occupation long before Sassan had a lead), wouldn’t he have considered such a thing as well had Mutsuki smelled like a female’s kakuhou? He clearly hadn’t, shown in his surprise in this scene I’m sure you all recognize.

Which leads me to believe that Chigyou must have put a male’s kakuhou into Mutsuki. That leaves two options. First, that sex of the kakuhou was not taken into consideration, but this is a risky possible way to reveal the Qs identity to a ghoul with a good enough nose. Also - considering possible physiological and internal biological differences - perhaps not a very safe operation relative to that of the same sex, and Chigyou’s surgical work has recently been revealed by Kanou as nothing short of extraordinary. A skilled and intelligent surgeon like Chigyou probably wouldn’t do such an unnecessarily risky thing.

The other option is that Chigyou did opt for same-sexed kakuhous but he took Mutsuki’s gender identity into consideration during the surgery (he must’ve known his biological sex for medical reasons, or been able to see it during the operation). This is a nice thought, way to go Chigyou on being trans-friendly. He might have weighed the risks of Mutsuki appearing like the scent of his kakuhou against the possible surgical implications (which were probably negligible because of Chigyou’s skill) or he was sensitive to Mutsuki’s identity which I would like to believe is the case, or at least part of his influence.

I dunno just something to think about, I don’t think my case is quite bulletproof, but I do think it’s an interesting jumping-off point for discussion. If anyone has additions, rebuttals, or answers to this I would love to hear them.

The First Date: Aftermath

Soooooo I thought I’d try my hand at a little fanfiction writing. This is a first attempt so….yeah. Some of the dialogue at the beginning is directly from the date quest so Pixelberry gets credit for that! Anyway I hope you enjoy it! Could maybe be more than a one-shot but we’ll see :)

Warnings: Some language
Around 1,200 words.


Alex walked into Hunt’s Monday lecture not quite sure what to expect, as amazing as the date was, nearly being caught by Jenni brought the reality of her and Hunt’s relationship to the foreground. The risks were real, and after all the time she spent trying to persuade Hunt that they were worth it the tables had turned. Hunt was very convincing in his “I’m in this, I’m all in” speech –plus that kiss, damn that kiss,— but over the last couple days Alex had spent too much time going over every possible scenario in her head and they all, for the most part, ended in flames. She sat next to Addison who shot her a mischievous grin, “Ready for today?”

Feigning ignorance Alex replied, “What about today?”

Addison rolled her eyes. “Oh come on! It’s the first class since the big night! Don’t act like you haven’t been thinking about h—”

“Addison!” Alex whispered dangerously

“–im the whole weekend, I know I would be,” she finished with a dreamlike expression on her face.

Alex gave her a look. “Seriously, Addi you nearly gave me a heart attack. We can’t talk about that here.” Scanning the students around her Alex concluded that everyone was too wrapped up in their own drama to even notice the exchange. This relationship was really going to test her nerves.

Just then, Hunt walked into the class and cleared his throat. As the class began to settle he looked up at Alex and gave her a quiet smile before beginning his lecture. Her heart gave a flutter and she couldn’t help but smile back. Relaxing a little, Alex directed her attention towards Bianca and Jenni who had just sat in front of them loudly discussing what sounded like a fascinating conversation on the best tactics for stalking someone on social media. Hunt glared up at them. “What? It’s not like we missed anything,” Bianca snapped.

Addison raised her eyebrows at Alex and mouthed “wow”. While Bianca generally had a bad attitude, she was usually respectful towards Hunt; Alex was surprised by her brash response. Maybe Daddy reduced her credit card limit she thought smirking. Hunt wasted no time putting Bianca in her place; he looked down at the paper in his hand, a little smile pulled at his lips, a look that Alex knew meant he was about to verbally devastate someone.

“Well, perhaps not today, Ms. Stone, but clearly you missed some of the main points of recent lectures.”

As he handed Bianca back her paper Alex saw the ‘C’ emblazoned on top; she loved the way he could do that.

“A 'C’!? Do you even know who I am?” Bianca demanded.

“Believe me I’m well aware” Hunt responded, unimpressed.

Alex was reveling in the fact that her Hunt just shot down one of her least favourite people when she saw Bianca glance at Jenni, a triumphant grin spreading across her face. Oh shit.

“Well, Professor, I hope you’ll take a moment to reconsider. I may not have understood every part of your lecture, but I do know a very interesting tidbit about you and a certain someone dancing on Catalina Island.”

Alex’s stomach dropped and Addison shot her a panicked look.

“I saw you and her on Saturday night when I was at my uncle’s wedding!” Jenni added.

The class erupted in excited whispers. Alex’s mind was racing. She was trying to catch Hunt’s eye but he was staring furiously at Bianca and Jenni.

“I don’t know what Jenni thinks she saw, but I would advise you to reconsider your attitude right now, Miss Stone. The faculty does not look kindly on students who attempt to blackmail their teachers. You’re far better off studying than spreading silly rumours.”

Alex thought he must’ve lost his mind trying to call her bluff; she looked nervously at Bianca who surprisingly backed down. The matter settled, Hunt continued handing back papers. Once he was turned away from Bianca and Jenni, they started whispering; Alex leaned in to catch what they were saying.

“OMG, I can’t believe Hunt burned us like that. Not. Cool,” Jenni whined.

“Ugh, whatever. He’ll wish he’d changed my grade once we’re through with him. All we have to do is show everyone proof,” Bianca said confidently.

Alex was glad she could count on Hunt to be calm and collected, ever the professional, she thought smiling; but at the same time she hated that she had no idea what he was thinking. Was he actually worried? What did this mean for them? What was their next move? Alex had a million questions racing through her mind and before she knew it everyone was standing up. “Uh, Alex?” Addison said cautiously. “Time to go. Class is over and we’re meeting Ethan for lunch, like now.”

Brought back to reality she looked for Hunt. He was discussing the likelihood of him granting Jake an extension on their latest project and judging by the way his brow was furrowed the chances were not good. “Go ahead Addi, I…um…need to…”

“I figured.” She smiled encouragingly. “I’ll cover for you with Ethan”.

“Did I ever tell you how awesome you are for going along with all this insanity?” Alex said gratefully.

“You could mention it a little more often…” Addison pouted jokingly.

“Well, you are. I owe you a drink…although after this I might need more than one.” Alex saw that Jake had left. She suspected he’d received a brutal tongue lashing on time management and the reality of Hollywood’s deadlines.

“Good luck!” Addison squeezed her arm and left.

A few students were still milling about as she approached Hunt.

“I’m sorry, Jake but having a concert to go to isn’t enough to warrant a—oh”, his face softened. “How can I help you, Alex?”

“Um…Professor I was wondering if I could talk to you about…"—she paused fabricating a reason—"my grade on the most recent assignment.” Real original, Alex.

“Of course. Do you have a free period now? If you wouldn’t mind discussing it in my office I believe there’s another class starting here any minute.”

“That would be fine. Thank-you, Professor.”

The minute Hunt closed his office door Alex started, “Holy shit, wha—"and then she felt his lips, gentle but with purpose, against hers . Alex melted into it for a second before pulling away. Flustered, she tried to remember why they were there in the first place. "As wonderful as that was, not to mention bringing a significant number of fantasies regarding this office to life, I think we have some more important issues to address.”

Hunt raised his eyebrow. “Fantasies? Please, do tell.”

Alex rolled her eyes. “Another time. We need to discuss what happened in class.”

Hunt sighed. “I know we do, but, I wanted to remind you why we’re doing this in the first place before…well…before you tried to end it.”

Even though that’s exactly what she had been considering Alex was taken aback. “And what makes you think I’d try to end it?”

Hunt locked eyes with her. “Honestly, I’d be disappointed if you weren’t. It’s the logical choice. We both knew that there’d be risk involved with us. Having our fatal flaw exposed so early in our relationship is probably a giant, neon sign telling us to stop while we still can; while it’s still conjecture and rumour; while all Bianca and Jenni have what is most likely a blurred photo. It’s safer…” She felt a knot in her stomach as he said this. It was all trueIf they ended this now, they could both get out of it unscathed. “But,” Hunt stepped closer, his face inches from hers, “in spite of all that, I hope you’ll stay.”


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Something that has annoyed me so much but made me discover the most amazing thing...

So, I’m not one to blog extensively about ‘life’ stuff, but this thing has been niggling at me recently and it is getting worse, but an amazing realisation has also overcome me. I think blogging is an amazing way to get stuff out, write things down, and express yourself, but obviously I’m pretty conscious because I know people who follow this page of mine are more than likely doing so to see music related things. So i’m sorry if you don’t want to read these kinds of things, but hopefully some of you guys can take something from it. Maybe.

This will be lengthy, but stick with me on this one, I promise!

Before I vent and try and explain what’s annoying me so much, I just want to say that of course we all look at blogs, websites, instagram accounts etc. and think 'Wow. Their life is so awesome. Everything they post is so cool which means 100% of their life is the best ever!’ I’m a culprit. I do exactly the same thing when I’m aimlessly browsing the internet. BUT I’m also on the other side. I have an Instagram account where I post pictures, and of course I’ll only post good stuff, why would I post a photo where I look bad? Or A photo of me cooking? We all filter what we post and I think we should all bear that in mind before judging ourselves and not being grateful for our own wonderful lives!

That leads me onto part of my annoyance. I’ve noticed recently, that (not naming names, i’m not that cruel!) but people that I once called very close friends are trying so painfully (and embarrassingly!) hard to stay relevant, 'cool’ and 'desirable’ by using the internet. Posting heavily edited photos of all the MEGA FUN they’re having just to let you know that maybe they’re having a better time than you’ll ever be having. When we all know in reality that they’re only doing said activity purely to post the picture online, and then resort to spending the remainder of the day twiddling their thumbs waiting for the next Facebook notification so they can talk about the COOLEST TIME EVER with their 'friends’.

The thing about this that annoys me most, is not that they’re posting what they’re doing online. I LOVE to see what my friends are doing. It’s the fact that its so painstakingly obvious that they’re not having a good time. They don’t love what they’re doing for the right reasons because if they did they wouldn’t be trying so hard to make sure everybody knows about it. 

Next thing (this is all connected i swear. Stay with me!) is people’s incapability to accept they’ve made a massive mistake, accepted they’ve potentially ruined a lot of their opportunities and relationships. Ive seen it a lot recently. Someone’s made a mistake, and instead of feeling guilt and sympathy for the person or people they’ve hurt, their main priority is what they are going to be losing as a result of this. And they wonder why they feel so bad about what they 'love’ doing all the time. (!?)

Ive seen people recently hurt someone and then put themselves first. Instead of trying to build bridges or maybe just completely stepping away, and having enough respect to realise it’s not their place anymore, they try to find different ways back in so that they are still connected to what they’ll be losing. Whether it’s suddenly being pally with people who do the job that you want, people who do what you do, people who have some kind of status, names that you can drop to make yourself seem important… It makes me feel stupid for once admiring these people that were manipulative, it makes me feel used and naive, but its made me a whole lot wiser.

It leads me back to social networking. Would these people who are trying to get to somewhere and don’t care who they’re hurting actually befriend these people if they worked in, lets say, Greggs? No, they’re befriending them because they are a stepping stone closer to what they want or where they want to be. Is this facebook status really what’s on their mind? No, they just want to still be relevant. Do they actually really love what they’re doing? No, they just want to be in on something and they’re worried their mistake is taking it away from them so they’re desperately trying to have their eggs in as many baskets as possible - Regardless of self respect or pride for their work. They’ll take whatever they can get.

For example, would someone who loves music and creating so much go online to post negative things about an artist and their work? No! They do it for the reaction. They know there’s at least one person who will agree and think they’re the coolest person ever.

I’m constantly making sure that of all the mistakes I make, I don’t put myself first and feel sorry for myself for feeling guilty, but feel sorry for the people I could potentially have hurt. And to see people I know not take their passion or the people around them seriously and fairly while accepting their punishment for what it is does make me wonder.. In the music industry it’s hard to stay focussed and I’ll admit that. For example I love fashion, I think it’s an incredible way to express yourself, and I just generally love putting colours, patterns, textures and shapes together. I love being creative! But I’m aware there is a fine line between loving fashion for those reasons, and just loving it so people can compliment you on how good you look. The same way that an artist loves the act of painful pleasure they get from painting some that means something to them more than the compliments they receive after. The same way there’s a fine line between a musician loving to play and craft words and melody purely because it makes their soul feel good, and just being fanned by endless people who worship you as a person, not for what you create.

It feels like I’m going nowhere here.. but what I’m trying to get across, really, is that people are constantly wondering why their dreams aren’t coming true, why its so hard to create what they want and I really believe it’s down to the reasons you’re doing it for. If you want to be a musician because you just want to be famous, then great! But don’t expect it to make you feel fulfilled, wholesome and happy. 

Basically, loving what you do will make your dreams come true. I’ve realised this. If you’re complaining about how much you want to be a successful musician but it’s just not happening, your writing doesn’t seem to be going where you want and it’s frustrating you and you can’t stop thinking about what you get at the end of it then DING DONG you don’t love it. And it’s not going to happen.

If for example, your dream is to be, I don’t know, a painter, and you enjoy painting so much that you’d happily smash up your painting when you’re finished and not even show anybody then your dream has already come true. You can sit and paint all day long and no one will ever see your work but you don’t care, you’re a painter. You’re the happiest when you paint.

Same with music, if you can happily write a song that you loved writing, loved creating and loved singing but happily hide it away never to be heard and not feel like you’re wasting something, then you’ve succeeded. 

I have hundreds of songs that no one knows about. Literally hundreds. I think some of them could do so well, but I don’t care. No amount of success, money or fans could match to how good I felt to just create it in the first place. And that’s why I’ve succeeded. My album could’ve charted at number 12456779935784 instead of number 2, and I’d still be happy as larry. Because I did it for how good it makes me feel to just be a creator.

I hope any of you guys who have trouble with your hopes and dreams can take something from this, and manage to step away from our ever towering and blurred expectations of ourselves given to us by the media to really appreciate what you do and why you love to do it. Love is the source of happiness, success and abundance and it’s something that’s become so fluorescent in my life.

Big love everyone x

This is a translation of KENN’s interview that was included in VAW! You can find my scans of the magazine here ^^ In this interview, Kenn talks about his school life and what influenced him on his path to becoming a seiyuu!


VAW! (Voice Actor World) Vol.02 No.2
“Every day is a new day.”

Interview with KENN: “Walking towards my dreams every day”

In the media, of the many people who are presented as ‘celebrities’, this person has been recognised [as one of them] for the breadth of his work. When you think of the name ‘KENN’, the image that is brought to mind is of a person with a multitude of professions. Since his debut he has been through a wide range of different media, and has presented himself in a great variety of different forms. Voice actor, musician, stage actor… [In this interview] we explore the origin of his activities, and particularly how he has done more as a musician and acted as many different characters in recent years.

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THE HOLY FANART LINE: A Guide to Survival as a Fanartist

* DISCLAIMER: I am not an experienced artist - heck, I don’t even want to call myself one until I have found a style uniquely my own and established a good following and many connections. BUT I’M GETTING THERE. And that’s all that matters. This is just to share my thoughts and experiences so far in the world I chose to be in and you can take my advice or respect it and move on. Otherwise, enjoy and thanks for reading!

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⇥ HOW TO BECOME A SENPAI ⇤

By: iamnotyoursenpaii (get it? No? Okay ._. )

1) Stalk With Feeling It means the world to get wonderful comments, but ending them with “F4F?” is rude and I tend to ignore and delete those comments. We all want followers. But going to everyone’s accounts and literally asking for them isn’t going to help. Tell them what you feel about their art, and if they’re willing to start a conversation then they will. If you’re an active and respectful follower, senpai really does notice you (believe me man - I know from experience)!! If you want your comment to stand out among the hundreds already there, bring up something specific about the piece. “I really like the texture on the hair! How did you do that?” will probably be answered faster, if not at all, than “WOW 👍👍👍👍”

2) Let Senpai Notice You There are three ways I find out about new fanartists:

  1. Their icon is an amazing piece of theirs
  2. Their username either pops up a lot on different fanart accounts or there’s literally the word “ART” in their username
  3. They pop up in my Suggested feed

Also, post art often with enough BUT NOT AN OVERLOAD of tags because senpais check those and look for new people to stalk too 😉 You need to art to have other artists notice you, duh. Make it obvious that you are a fanartist too, which leads us to the next point:

3) Balance the Content of Your Posts If you post more selfies/personal stuff than art, YOUR ACCOUNT IS NOT AN ART ACCOUNT. Sorry man. If, like me, you decide to mix both personal and art-related posts because your account is not only open to senpais but IRL friends and family, then all I can say is be careful. My life is not interesting enough to post a selfie every day so I art. But I cater to my non-art friends and don’t mind sharing with my art friends the occasional life update post. Same with private accounts - if we can’t even see your work without following you, then why even bother? (Some fanartists with large followings have had to go private due to rude comments/art theft, but that’s a different story) Generally the rule is, for me, 75% art, 25% personal. Senpai won’t mind seeing your face; just dont spam them with it.

4) Art is Stealing, Theft is Not It’s okay to make appreciation posts. It’s okay to be inspired and make art similar to senpai’s style or use the same medium as senpai. Literally reposting senpai’s stuff and claming it as your own is NOT. COOL. P E R I O D. Think of it like this. You draw a poop and scan it and post it and it gets a lot of notes/likes/etc. You’re proud of it, your friends are proud of you and so is your family. You even inspire lil fetuses and maybe even senpai to draw poop too and make the world all pretty. Then the next day you wake up and find that someone took a picture of your poop, reposted it, claimed it as theirs and they too got attention and pats on the back from family and friends. But not senpai, because you and I both know senpais follow each other and have holy friendships and can either be a network of support or an angry mob with thousands of followers in tow. They noticed you enough that you were the one who made that poop, not some kid trying to be you. The likes and reblogs don’t even matter anymore, you got copyright issues on your hands. If you wouldn’t want ppl stealing your poo, don’t steal senpai’s poo. 💕💩💕

5) Credit When Possible Remember that you are creating FANart. This means you most likely used images of idols/characters that aren’t yours. I know a lot of fanartists do not credit the images used (me included 👉👈) but SOMEONE had to work hard to get that perfect angle and take the picture. Generally fanart of photoshoots, SNS posts, and screencaps don’t tend to get yelled at but that’s just what I’ve seen (if anyone is willing to add to this/correct something I’m totally up for it). It’s the HQ fantaken photos/edits that one needs to either ask the owner or credit thoroughly or they will find you and send an angry mob after you. Not kidding. Now, there are some companies that are strict about their content and may take down process/speedart videos using their music and more. As with animations/comics/video games/ocs, most of the time people draw the characters in their own style and state where it’s from. I’m not sure how else would characters be referenced(???) Just do your research and be careful.

6) Know Your Art Trades/Commissions/Requests You know that I know that you know the difference, but there are people who do not. Or they do know and they misuse the term. So let me explain it one more time for those confused:

    Art Trade:

    when senpai likes you enough to draw for you IF you draw for them. Usually you will be contacted first but if you’re feeling risky, ask for one! Senpai (maybe) won’t bite but remember steps 1 & 2.

      Commission:

      when you love senpai enough you’d be willing to support them financially by purchasing their work (ง°▼°)ง For a monetary fee, senpai can create anything your heart desires (within reason) 💕💕. Holy prints and holy originals of past artwork by senpai may also be available. Remember that the price senpai asks for is what they feel their hard work is worth, so respect that. If you’re thinking of taking on commissions yourself, consider the time you spend on your pieces, your skill level and intended audience, and cost of supplies.

        Request:

        This is a good way to start off an art account. Requests are what they are: free art. When taking requests, be sure to SPECIFY your specialty. Do you draw male Kpop idols? 3D modeling? Anime? Furries? Celebrities? One thing I learned was to set limits on what exactly and the amount I could draw, because just being like I’M TAKING REQUESTS will have the requests go from chibi oc’s one day to realistic dragons the next. Yes, it’s happened. #deviantart The same goes for senpai. If they magically one day announce they’re taking requests, don’t ask them for a million things and don’t ask them for things out of their comfort zone. Senpai is holy, but senpai isn’t God. And please don’t spam senpai with DMs/stalk their personal accounts wondering when your request will be done. Be patient. Senpai will be busy and they have the right to turn down requests. BUT things will get done.

        7) READ THE DESCRIPTION It’s painful to see how many times captions/descriptions are ignored despite the all caps/flaggers/flashing signs and arrows. If senpai’s hurt, don’t ask them for art. What the heckie. Good followers are good listeners. Good listeners make good senpais. It’s crazy how people I once admired from afar now are my IRL friends or super close friends from different parts of the world. And that’s because I read their posts and cared about them when life punched their holy faces. So read them and care about them. There might even be a secret giveaway buried within long posts like this one. I will leave a lovely doodle and note in the ask box of everyone who reblogs this with a chicken emoji in the tags. Not kidding. So read the descriptions foo.

        8) Good Heart = Good Art If you’re respectful, you will be respected too. Duh. Senpai loves you and sees you supporting them. So be confident and take pride in your own skill, and you will be a senpai. No, you already are one. I’ve never seen an account that has 0 followers. That one person that likes your art fo sho probably looks up to you. Be thankful for them and continue doing what you do. Senpai may seem out of reach but you never know when they will reach out to you (っ´▽`)っ ♥

        Have a wonderful day senpai 🙋

        Dating Med Students + my response + male perspective

        Hello guys! Last week I posted my response to Cosmopolitan’s article “14 Things You Should Know Before Dating Med Students” and recently I asked a friend whose girlfriend is a med student, but who doesn’t go to medical school for his perspective. I have compiled both of them for your entertainment (?). I’m just going to call this the Med Student Dateability Research Study..  

        GuyWithMDgf: Okay, but before I start this I must say I am not complaining.  have dated my girlfriend for 2.5+ years (and counting) and I wouldn’t date any other professional (except a VS angel, but did I mention my gf looks like one?)

        1. She’s a listening pro. She spends all day listening to patients, lecturers, residents, attending doctors, so she’s basically a professional listener. So if you spill your deepest, messiest emotions, she’ll accept them and try to understand them. Unless it’s the day after a 24-hour call day, in which case haha, no, she already fell asleep.

        CM: Garbage, garbage, garbage. If there is something my bf complains about, is that I am a terrible listener. Not on purpose of course, but after a long day sometimes I can’t help but have a hard time focusing. Or I’m just thinking about the gazillion things I didn’t do/still have to do. It just happens.

        GuyWithMDgf: Oh yes she does listen, she really doesn’t pay attention or understand, but she does listen and her answer may be pretty accurate if she makes the effort.  (you may want to drop delicate information, just record for future reference)

        Originally posted by rrclash3847

        2. Plan every date at least 10 years in advance, if possible. See no. 1. Sister’s 18th birthday? Best friend’s wedding? Casual cup of coffee? She can’t make it. She has a test tomorrow and every day x 1,000 forever.

        CM: Not necessarily, but prepare for me to arrive late once in a while. It doesn’t matter if you planned it yesterday or 10 years ago, stuff will come up. Clinic will run late, impromptu research meetings happen, maybe I will panic and decide I REALLY need to stay in and study for that quiz (which is 3 days from today but you still wont understand).

        GuyWithMDgf: 10 years in advance?? Really?? It can be 100 years doesn’t make big difference, I wouldn’t bother just go with the flow.

        3. You’ll only see her once a year at, like, 2:45 p.m. for 10 minutes. Because even once she finishes finals, there’s always another final. And a final after that. And then a presentation and an oral exam and a 500-page review textbook to read. Basically, “I love you but I’ll see you in five years” is something she’s told you as a joke that was not a joke at all.

        CM: A little exaggerated, but I agree with this one. Long weekends don’t work for me, because stuff is usually schedules for right after. We have to wait til Christmas, Spring Break, Summer, Thanksgiving, and so on.

        GuyWithMDgf: And lets not mention  RESEARCH or some other med student (or lab rat who has a crush on her) invite her to some I-don’t-know-what event or school or hospital or lab thing where he makes her look important just to try and steal her. Sorry bro not happening.

        Originally posted by somewhereonlyyou-know

        4. You’ll assume she can fix any medical problems you have and you will almost always be wrong. If your throat hurts or your back is spasming or even if you have a small paper cut, you will automatically assume she can fix it with her med student magic. In reality, she probably has no idea why you’re having leg cramps, but that doesn’t matter because she will pretend to know anyway. Hint: She will just give you aspirin and a lot of the time—it’ll fix everything.

        CM: Yeah I know nothing. (maybe the Kreb’s Cycle)

        GuyWithMDgf: Totally ! and nope she doesn’t pretend she will just say “Heyy, I am part MD how am I supposed to know?”

        5. She gives terrifying new meaning to the term “type A.” Med students and doctors generally have some form of OCD or, at the very least, a seriously regimented routine, and you better get used to it because she is physically and emotionally incapable of altering it in any way. If she gets a muffin at 6 every morning from the same place and you ask her to try a new place, she might have a breakdown, so just accept it and move on.

        CM: I am a nice person. But I do have to say, I’ve been told I am Type A and OCDish. I may not have a breakdown, but I do prefer to do somethings my way. “Emotionally incapable” is too much.

        I do however, seat on the same exact seat on the test center. If I arrive to the test center and you are in my seat, we may have to take it outside.

        GuyWithMDgf: We haven’t got that far.


        6. Prepare to hear about nothing but work. Whether it’s a cool patient she saw that day, a surgery she observed, the size and quality of a poop her patient had (no, but seriously, check out the Bristol stool scale), you’ll hear about it. You will then think you had the most boring day ever by comparison and also wonder WTF the Bristol stool scale is. (Don’t worry, she’ll happily tell you.)

        CM: You’ll hear about some work, but mostly I’ll be asking you how your day was because it was probably more interesting than me sitting in the library all day.

        GuyWithMDgf: Not way! I will just pretend the relationship is over. Stool? really? Is it necessary?

        Originally posted by baba-saaein

        7. You could fart and have diarrhea at the same time, and she wouldn’t flinch. She feels totally comfortable talking about pee, poop, UTIs, periods, and anything else you find gross. To her, it is her job, and an everyday occurrence that she talks to people about. This is actually great since you are a human with a normal body and honestly, everyone should feel this OK about these things.

        CM: I love you, but please don’t fart or talk about your poop with me and I wont talk about anatomy lab with you.

        GuyWithMDgf: I have tried the fart, but it hasn’t worked as planned.. it still a taboo.

        Originally posted by robert-carr

        8. Be prepared to move because surprise! She has to move now. If you happen to stay in a committed relationship during “the match,” aka when med students find out what specialty and residency they will be working, be prepared to move with her. The field is damn competitive, and every spot for residency is coveted. It’s a sacrifice, but hey, you may end up marrying a doctor/someone you really love.

        CM: ^^^^ This one guys ^^^^^

        GuyWithMDgf: As long as we move to some cool place where I can have fun while she is under a 80-hour week, I may be ok.

        9. Med students can be diiiiicks. High stress + competitive people = bad attitude. Find one who is more laid-back (aka, not any type of aspiring surgeon. Seriously. Do not date an aspiring surgeon. I’ve talked to aspiring surgeons who told me not to date aspiring surgeons, so I know what I’m talking about) and you’ll be fine.

        CM: I am not the nicest person when I’m stressed, but mostly because of stress and not competition. Also, I don’t want to be a surgeon. Do however, take everything I say during exam week with a grain of salt sugar.

        GuyWithMDgf: Ohhh yes they can be! you may just want to close the door and make a trip to your nearest bar.

        10. Medical residents work 24-hour shifts that may turn into 28 or 30 hours. She has a great ability to stay up beyond what is humanly possible. This also means she needs to sleep, and often at weird hours. If she has Saturday off after working a 24-hour day Friday, yeah, she’s not going to wake up and go to brunch Saturday because she will be in bed all day.

        CM: I barely went through first year, but this also means there will be days were despite the time difference, your SO will go to sleep first.

        GuyWithMDgf: Thank God she doesn’t fall at sleep in a restaurant or while she drives.

        Originally posted by dope-gif

        11. Her drive and motivation are contagious. This will push you to work your hardest and to be your best, which is second nature for her. Go for that promotion or that job you never thought you’d get! She will stand behind you and respect you for it, you know, once she looks up from studying.

        GuyWithMDgf: That’s a perk I agree with.

        12. She still parties like a college freshman who’s never had booze before. After all the tests and group projects, she will still inevitably go out and get wasted like she’s a freshman in college. Few people drink as hard and fast as med students after exams, god bless ‘em. They are so sleepy and psyched to get hammered.

        CM: Well, I went out only about 5 times during the whole school year, but that week after the last final…….

        13. She won’t freak out if it doesn’t work out between you two. She’s been through years of rejection from med schools around the country so you not being ready for a relationship right now is unlikely to send her in a tailspin.

        CM: Welp. I wouldn’t say med students are immune to rejection.

        GuyWithMDgf: I don’t understand is this a trick question?

        14. She works so hard at what she does, so she’ll work hard on your relationship. Most med students are generally perfectionists, so as hard as they’re working on changing the world and helping other people, they’re going to work just as hard at being the best girlfriend they can possibly be. You know, unless you date a surgeon, which I already specifically warned you about.

        CM: haha what’s with the surgeons in this article??! I think there’s something to say about this one, because in my case, as much as I work super hard I now I can’t give my absolute best 100% of the time, because there’s generally alot of things going on. But I will give the 100% I can give that day. This means sometimes we’ll talk on the phone for hours, other times we’ll exchange a couple of texts, and other times we’ll just text each other “goodnight”.

        GuyWithMDgf: Check answer 13. ( but she doesn’t work hard on it ;) )


        PS- I would love to hear your thoughts and perspective in the comments! What do you think?

        Finn’s Girl by shannwin

        summary: Bellamy Blake thinks all is fine in his new New York City life. He has a job, he’s studying a subject he loves, and he even has a decent roommate. However, he soon finds himself entangled in Finn’s complicated love life when he becomes a bit too close to Finn’s second girlfriend: Clarke. He struggles with his feelings as he grows to like his roommate’s girl and with his conscious, as he wonders if/when he should tell Clarke about Finn’s other girlfriend, Raven Reyes. 

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