you always come to me

i am going even if you’re staying because we live that kind of romance. because when i go, you’ll come and find me. you always do. that one time i left two hours earlier after school and you called me and asked me what i need for dinner. we are not a traditional couple who followed the rules of romance. we just love. we get lost and we find each other.
—  lovelykimtae 


Omg Jack, I am so proud of you for hitting 15 million subscribers! You deserve every thank you and loving in the world because you are just a wonder. You make so many people happy which makes me happy. You have also inspired me to do the same! People are always coming to me for advise and just coming to talk to me at school. You have taught me so many lessons that help keep me moving. I have HUGE procrastination problems so I have been holding off starting my love for art again. Seeing you successfully post 2 videos everyday motivated me to get my lazy butt up, buy an art tablet and start digital art. I decided to draw this as my first drawing so I hope you like it. Also, Wiishu really motivated me to because she is so sweet and dedicated to her art. I lastly want to say thank you to the community because it is absolutely amazing. There are so many kind people that are willing to help you when you are down. It’s amazing what the community and you have built and I just can’t help but say thank you. I am going to stop going on a ramble here so enjoy your day full of excitement. We love you Jack!


-Taylor Lee


ugh. fuck life sometime.

my friend just called. my goofy amazing hilarious loving friend. and told me his mom has pancreatic cancer. and I hate it because I’m awful at comforting people and I don’t know what to do or say that doesn’t sound like a cliche and it just sucks. I feel so bad and I have no idea why I’m typing this all out but I just felt like I needed to reiterate how badly life can suck sometimes and how much I need to remember to tell people I love them and live life while I’m still here.

so I love you guys. <3 I mean that whole-heartedly. and you can always come talk to me about serious stuff or funny stuff or things about our characters or about your life or whatever floats your boat. I’m here.

you are not obligated to
  • be someone’s counselor and help them with all their problems if its bad for your mental health
  • be there for someone 24/7
  • remain friends with someone who emotionally drains you
  • maintain negative relationships because you’ve been close for so long, because you’re related, or anything else
  • do anything that makes you unhappy or puts your health at risk
I wonder when I stopped being beautiful to you. I wonder when my stories stopped seeming interesting. I wonder when you stopped feeling inclined to tell how your day is going or to share something you’d know I enjoy. I wonder when you stopped feeling the need to tell me you miss me even when we had only been apart for fifteen minutes. I wonder when you started forgetting. I wonder when I’ll start forgetting.
—  two months later…

Things John thinks about while lying awake at night: 

  • It’s too hot.
  • Too uncomfortable to sleep, her body on top of me is making me sweat.
  • Is there enough shampoo left for the morning? I need to make a trip.
  • I’ll get the one with the mint… I used that kind a few times. When I would run out of wash before… his would always be minty. I like the way it makes my scalp tingle.
  • The flat was empty the other day when I popped over.
  • It was a mess. Worse than usual. 
  • He’s been odd lately, even for him. He’s hardly there, Mrs. Hudson said. She isn't seeing him sleep. Bringing up his morning tea to have him complaining about the chill that night. Even when he is there, she says, it’s like he’s not.  
  • Hardly contacts me…
  • I’ll ask him… I feel like I shouldn’t. Is it not my place? 
  • No, of course it’s fine. I’m his friend. That’s normal.
  • But…
  • I feel like I shouldn’t. Why is that not appropriate- asking what’s going on? Or is it more like I… that’s it.
  • I don’t want to know his answer.
  • It’s guilt, you cock. 
  • Shit, I’m so guilty. 
  • I can’t feel like this- like I did this to him. I’ve done nothing. 
  • His flat is so vacant and quiet… God knows he’ll go his entire life locked up with his own madness, by himself in that flat… 
  • Even Mrs. Hudson will eventually… no no, this is fine
  • He was fine before you came along. 
  • That’s a lie. What a lark
  • He was not ok. You heard. From Mrs. Hudson and Greg and Christ even Mycroft. Before I moved in he was… 
  • Even within the first month of my marriage he self-destructed.
  • God, I’ve done this to him. 
  • Get off it. He’s done this to himself, I can’t feel guilty for getting on with my life! He had died!
  • He left me!
  • Fuck. 
  • Does he even realize with that massive head that my stomach sinks when I see him sometimes?
  • Would he even be awake right now? 
  • Chances are he’s currently scraping petri dishes of bacteria and injecting toxins under fingernails. 
  • Quietly working under the kitchen lamp. 
  • I would come down for the loo and he would be doing things like that, completely immersed. Didn’t know I was there half the time. 
  • Shit, that one night I couldn't stop staring. 
  • The creases of concentration on his nose and his hands adjusting the fine focus. Rocking the ball of his foot on the floor, worrying his bottom lip. His hair was a mess- like he had been pulling and running his fingers through it all night. 
  • The feeling that came over me then. Like nothing else I had ever… I can feel it now. In my neck and my feet and my god-damned chest.  
  • God. Good God. Why do I still have to feel like… 
  • A wife, a child soon- and I can’t wrench Sherlock bloody Holmes from any part of me. 
  • So restless. I look at her and my fingers tremor. 
  • I look at him and… 
  • I’m… 
  • Bloody Christ.


the moment john is talking about

They’re watching baby animals videos

( @greyhairsowhat happy birthday dear !!!!  (ノ ´ 3 ` )ノ  ❤️️💕)

Sometimes I still get these urges to contact you.
It feels like pure desperation…  Like my skin is crawling and my eyes are burning and I just want you back in my life so badly….
And I don’t know why? Where these sudden urges come from?
Why do I still do this, even after all this time?!
It’s like I'm getting out, I'm almost clear…. and then suddenly I feel like I would do absolutely anything just to have you back in my life again.
Even for a single moment…. Just to see you, talk to you - ANYTHING!
It’s like I don’t WANT to be out, I still want to be in love with you because in my mind, loving you equates to happiness and I just want that back… just for one second.
But I have to remind myself it’s not healthy. 
Loving you is not like it used to be - it's not real anymore.
It’s not happy, it’s not positive…. and it’s gone and I can’t go back.
All I can do is put the phone down, blink back the tears … and keep moving forward.
—  Ranata Suzuki

Reparenting Affirmations for Child Abuse Survivors

  1. I am so glad you were born.
  2. You are a good person.
  3. I love who you are and am doing my best to always be on your side.
  4. You can come to me whenever you’re feeling hurt or bad.
  5. You do not have to be perfect to get my love and protection.
  6. All of your feelings are okay with me.
  7. I am always glad to see you.
  8. It is okay for you to be angry and I won’t let you hurt yourself or others when you are.
  9. You can make mistakes. They are your teachers.
  10. You can know what you need and ask for help.
  11. You can have your own preferences and tastes.
  12. You are a delight to my eyes.
  13. You can choose your own values.
  14. You can pick your own friends, and you don’t have to like everyone.
  15. You can sometimes feel confused and ambivalent, and not know all the answers.
  16. I am very proud of you.

its been so long but im still trying to figure out how you could go from “i love you” to “i don’t care about you anymore” in such a short amount of time

I got the chance to do a drawing of @ask-chimchim‘s flower shop AU Jimin ♡ He was super fun to draw, thank you so much for letting me! :D


Sometimes it makes things hard, but Kuroo doesn’t really mind