yet i love you at the same time

Try by Colbie Callait

SONG 5 

I know I haven’t written for some time, I’m sorry I got sick and I want to also thank the lovely anons who said nice things bout the last OS. Tumblr is fixing my ask box, so I’m sorry I haven’t thanked you personally yet. Slight warning, that this fic deal with insecurities as an issue and I just want to recognize two things, (1) April as a character has grown and her insecurities aren’t the same anymore - so this is AU, based around s8/9, and she doesn’t fail her boards nor have active battle with her religion. (2) Everyone’s journey with nsecurities are dfferent. This is based on my understanding how insecurities work, I’m sorry if anything is offensive. 


Put your make up on, get your nails done

Curl your hair 

Run the extra mile, keep it slim

So they like you.

Do they like you?

April’s not really sure how exactly she convinced herself to work up the nerve to do what she was about to do, but somehow here she was. She nervously fidgets around, pulls on her clothes, tidies up her sweater, and picks invisible linen from her pants. She straightens out her hair and places the curls gently on the shoulders. He’ll be here in the attending’ lounge soon. She’d made a quick check with him this morning in the on call room, to check what time he was off.

She wasn’t really sure when this whole sleeping together thing became their thing, but here they were, holed up in the on call rooms of the hospital, everyday, sometimes twice a day. She wasn’t complaining. Of course not, that wasn’t what this was about. Never in her most optimistic dreams did April ever expect someone like Jackson to want a…. whatever it is they were, with someone like her.

As the years went by, and having only had one boy in high school who’d taken her to the carnival and dumped her the next day because she was too ‘enthusiastic’ and 'didn’t know how to chill’ and a college boyfriend who’d called her a 'prude’ because she’d made it clear to him she was waiting until marriage, expectations of any kind of love dwindled down. She guesses she’s lucky she even has the kind of relationship she has with Jackson. She shouldn’t, couldn’t, expect more.

Some little girls, herself included, dream of white weddings, and sweet boys who’d love them and babies and white picket fence houses. The sad reality, April came to know as an adult is society will rise to the occasion to make sure that some of these little girls know, as they grow up, that there are a few shortcomings with them, that might make this dream impossible.

She was scrawny, had fizzy hair, braces, acne and pigeon toes. Apparently, boys liked only a particular image she’d never be capable of looking like. So, when she was old enough, she promised herself she’d try her hardest to look like that. Maybe then, someone would love her. So she runs every morning, goes to yoga on the weekends and swims every other day. She dyes her hair red, and uses a tirade of products, so that she always had long locks of shiny, bouncy hair. She fixes her teeth, and gets her braces off, and spends a fortune to get rid of the acne and torturously wears a leg brace for a year to and goes to ballet to get rid of the pigeon toes. She looks a lot different now than what she did. She’s still not perfect, she still refuses to look in the mirror and call herself beautiful nor does she expect anyone else to call her beautiful. She’d settle for 'not bad looking’ any day.

It doesn’t work. Turns out, they tell her, it’s not just the way she looks, it’s her personality as well. She’s annoying, neurotic, crazy, difficult to like. Her colleagues take the time out of their day to remind her that she doesn’t measure up. There’s something different about her they find hard to relate to. They let her know her voice is grating and her presence is unwelcome. She misses Reed in those moments, the only person to ever fully accept her, but she’s happy she at least has Jackson, that is until he tells her she be ashamed that she’s still a virgin. She never thought he’d feel that way, out of everyone else. She wasn’t sure how to go about explaining to them that she didn’t  want to lose her virginity in a one night stand, that even if it wasn’t after marriage, at the very least to would be to a man who loved her. She wasn’t sure how to let them know that it doesn’t come easy for some people. They’re beautiful, and smart, and interesting. They’re not her. They don’t understand what it’s like to love without being loved back, to lust endlessly, to convince yourself you’re happier alone, to convince yourself to let go of any dreams  because you need to start being realistic. So she calls them out, and feels a rush when Meredith tells her she’s starting like her more and more.

“Hey, I thought you were off an hour ago?”

Her thoughts get interrupted by the very person she’d been waiting for. She turns around to see Jackson walking towards her, and leaning down to kiss her. She kisses him back, and holds him there for a second, because sometimes she still can’t believe this is real. She’s still waiting for him to tell her this was an elaborate prank, that it was all a joke.

“Um, I was waiting for you.” She says, as he pulls back, and starts to change.

“Yeah?”

“I… um, wanted to ask you something?”

He nods, pulling on his shirt.

She’s not sure how to go about it now that she’s here. She practiced it in front of the mirror a million times, and she’s been imagining doing this for a good week now. She just needed to find the surge of unusual confidence she had yesterday and blurt it out.

“Will, uh, w-okay, so…. I was wondering if, you-I…. was thinking, well-” She’s stuttering and it’s not attractive. She can already tell that she’s making a fool out of herself, and that this was a terrible idea. She just couldn’t appreciate what she had couldn’t she? She just couldn’t be satisfied with only sleeping with him, could she?

“April?” He asks her, seemingly slightly amused at her reluctance.

She takes a deep breath, reminds herself the pep talk she gave herself. She deserved more, she deserved more, she deserved more. And if he said no, well, she’d settle for what they have, and love him until he left her for someone better. Then she’d try not to let it kill her.

“Will you go on a date with me?”

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Love of my life, kindest of kind souls. bravest of hearts and strongest of people. my soulmate, my other half, my best friend. how did i ever get so lucky as to meet you? i’ll never, ever know, and yet at the same time, it feels as if we were fated. i don’t know how i would have made it through so much without you these days. i don’t know who else i would talk to about the things we do talk about it. i cry sometimes just thinking about how lucky i am to have you, because you are that special to me. i want to keep you in my heart forever, i want to keep you in my life for longer, i want to have you around for always and never let you go. you are the person i would marry in a heartbeat if there was cause too, if our bf’s were not a part of the equation, just because i know i could be happy with you as a life partner easily. this… is the epitome of platonic love, and i hope to know you for a life time, my darling, my heart, my one and only <3

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So basically, I wanted to really surprise Seán with his gift, and hear him yell ‘Toriko’, so I was like ‘oh I’ll ask him to close his eyes, yell Trico, and then ask him to open his eyes, and like BOOM! Trico.’ As soon as I asked him the words ‘close your eyes’, I knew it sounded really creepy (fuck), but he humoured me, and it was lots of fun. I’m really happy he likes it! 

This is that moment:


I hope derka-derk is happy in Ireland with @therealjacksepticeye!

(also I’m almost 27 so it’s fine that he called me a girl, you think I’m an adult yet, hell no)


(and can I just say that I love that Seán’s voice for Trico in the unboxing video is the same voice Felix gives Edgar his pug, LOL)

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Mekke øl + mutually failing at talking to their crush because they’re nervous

we need to take a moment to appreciate how viktor nikiforov, inventor of being extra, completely misread yuuri and was firmly believing he would get laid on night one

first, yuuri basically barges into the room where viktor is minding his business and relaxing after his long travel

so he just sees that like: oh great! so you’re just as eager for this as i am? better bless you with a display of my hot bod yuuri i can’t stop thinking about you since the banquet i’m desperate

then all we know is that yuuri screams (same tbh) and then we get this bit of information on the next episode:

so they barely spoke??? yuuri fainted and woke up when viktor was napping??? we’ll never know

but then viktor wakes up, exuding extra realness:

VIKTOR YOU LITERALLY JUST HAD DINNER YOU JUST SLEEP AND EAT HOW DO YOU EVEN MAINTAIN THAT PERFECT BODY

or maybe it’s just hungry for dick which all things considered is a possibility

sO WHILE HE GETS HIS HUNGER SATED HE JUST ROASTS OUR BEST BOY

ouch, vitya, that was harsh??? but it’s also important to remember we get a lot of examples that show viktor isn’t really savvy when it comes about reading people and that he’s capable of delivering harsh truths with a hear-shapped smile on his face

BUT NO!!! YA BOY VITYA IS NOT DONE, as soon as they get some alone time he tries to drop some questionable hints

oh yuuri i’m so sorry i had to be like that earlier, i’m just going for angry coach on the streets, passionate lover in the sheets

which,,,,you know…

AND YET VIKTOR IS JUST LIKE “NAH IT’LL BE FINE HE’S JUST PLAYING SHY/HARD TO GET THERE’S NO WAY TO REFUSE THIS HOT SLAV BODY” AND HE FIRMLY BELIEVES YUURI WILL GO FULL HOMO WITH HIM THAT SAME NIGHT 

HE EVEN BRINGS HIS PILLOW I LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH??

if anything viktor nikiforov is a symbol of perseverance and has unshakeable confidence in what he does, bless him

ily: i love you

ilysm: i love you so much

ilysmichbilysmifligtaliomymmnbyammcrccahgmbcykmcfl: I like you so much, I can hardly breathe. I like you so much, I feel like I got thunder and lightning inside of me. You make me nervous but you also make me calm. Real calm. Calm almost how god must be calm, you know, Mylene? Calm from loving. 

Persona 3, 4, 5 Protagonists

Persona 3
Male MC

What you think he is: an anti-social character who hates everyone

What he really is: a caring character who wants to protect everyone with his life

Female MC

What you think she is: a carefree girl

What she really is: can date all the men she likes all at the same time including a minor without them ever finding out

Persona 4

What you think he is: a serious yet cool character

What he really is: a dork and a low-key perv

Persona 5

What you think he is: Nerd, calm, collected kid

What he really is: FUCKING SATAN

“You said, he loves you as much as you love him. Then, why the both of you are not still together?” he asked.

“We both love each other. Yes, yes. And I’m not really sure why we’re not still together.” she answered very carefully as if the words she said hurt her heart like knives cutting through her veins. “Some may say it’s because of our priorities in life. But some may say that it’s not yet the perfect time. But who the hell really knows? Is it me? Is it him? I don’t know. I don’t even understand. They say that opposites do attract each other, while same signs do otherwise. We’re like walking on parallel lines with an infinite spaces in between, that even if we run faster, we will never bump on each other at the finish line. No matter how hard we try.”

—  ma.c.a // And sometimes, the world seems to be against us
YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES ME CRY EVERY 1AM?

Knowing that Haechan is suffering quietly. The whole fandom knows he’s a savage and a little devil. But he’s the MOST sensitive among all of them. Yes he says he’s proud about his skin color, but it doesn’t mean that he won’t get hurt when people are saying shit about him. Okay, he’s not the type of handsome you’ll appeciate at 1st look like Taeyong, but the more you look at him the more handsome he gets. And now the rumour died down BUT THE DAMAGE HAS BEEN DONE MY BABY ISN’T SMILING ANYMORE. Then I’d remember the radio show where Jaehyun and Johnny chose Mark over Haechan. Like I mean I get that they’re the foreign swaggers so they have a different bond and I also know that despite that they love Haechan too. BUT DO YOU EVER THINK THAT DONGHYUCK WOULD LAUGH ABOUT IT BUT DEEP INSIDE HE’S LIKE “I know I’ll never be as precious as Mark hyung” BECAUSE I THINK ABOUT THAT EVERY 1AM. BUT DOYOUNG MESSAGED AND SAID HE LOVES DONGHYUCK JUST MUCH AS HE LOVES MARK. You know why? Because Doyoungie knows Haechan would get sad about it. BECAUSE JUST LIKE HC, DY IS A MOOD MAKER AND IS SENSITIVE TOO. HE KNOWS WHAT HC FEELS. Everyone knows that Mark is treasured by everyone even the dreamies but then they’d only think of Donghyuck as savage and quirky but never as precious as Mark. And after the controversy Haechan might be thinking that “I didn’t do anything bad but I got this much hate and I hate myself more because I let this happen and it reflects badly towards NCT. Why can’t I be Mark hyung? He went to School Rapper and made everyone love him and NCT’s popularity increased bc of him but me? I’m nothing” but then he’d catch himself getting jealous but he won’t be jealous because HE LOVES MARK SO MUCH. HOW CAN HE BE JEALOUS WHEN AT THE SAME TIME HE LOVES MARK LEE. SO. FUCKING. MUCH? And that Mark loves him so much too? Don’t you think Mark feels bad for Haechan sometimes bc he always get the spotlight when he knows Donghyuck deserves it too? Donghyuck worked so so so hard. AND YET HIS FANCAMS ARE THE LEAST VIEWED EVEN AFTER MY FIRST AND LAST ERA. He makes sure his good points are seen on TV to prove that he’s not only a little devil but a good dongsaeng and hyung too. He works so hard in singing, dancing & variety. Most especially variety bc it’s the only thing he might be number one out of all the members. It took him 2 debuts and 2 comebacks to earn people’s attention and love AND ONE FUCKING RUMOR ENDED EVERYTHING JUST LIKE THAT.

You know what? Don’t mind me. I’m just on my period.

Laucy VS Camren

Well, this is not a theory. I got up to these pics and they hit me like a truck. I’m not a morning person, but this even overpowered what an alarm could do.

I admit I wasn’t on the best state to see these pics because I just got my heart broken. So seeing the 1st pic posted on wildflyme’s instagram was breaking my heart even more because I’m a camren shipper af.

These pics are so sensual, yes. They both look really happy. With the fragile state of me right now, even the 1st pic had me so down and sad because my ship has lost in the middle of nowhere LOL. It felt as if my heart was ripped to two.

But again, this is media. One thing that is consistent about me wherever I am on social media (Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr) is that I don’t trust media anymore. MTV is one of them. I don’t even believe in Billboard, then how can I even trust MTV? This is the link

http://www.mtv.com/news/2995972/lauren-jauregui-lucy-vives-photoshoot/?xrs=_s.tw_news


After all, we all know, these are from a photoshoot in November 2016.

There are many possibilities out there, but I’m just gonna narrow them down to 2 possibilities here. If I list all the possibilities one by one, it might end up like a novel. It’s better to just focus on two.

1. Laucy did date just like what was mentioned in the article and Camren was NOT real or even if Camren might be dating at some point

2. Laucy did date just like what was mentioned in the article, but Camren IS real as well

You know, when you read these 2 possibilities, you will feel like, “No, I think..” or “Wait.. but..” Save it. Let’s just focus on these 2, because I know it’s a never ending debate if we talk about all possibilities.

But now, let’s see the big picture and let’s stop with “No, Camren is real” and “No, Laucy is real” debate. Let’s look at another point of view here. What if both ships are real?

For me, the 2nd possibility is what I believe. You know I don’t trust media anymore just like what I said earlier. But, what was mentioned in MTV is STILL one of the many possibilities, right? We can’t just exclude it just because we are denying that Laucy is real.

Laucy might be real at some point (or not). They mentioned they dated on and off for a few years. They have known each other since high school. The context of “a few years” might be around 2 - 3 years. That’s my definition. 4 years for a relationship for me is a long time. I can’t define it as only “a few” years. But, what if this happened before Camila and Lauren met each other? Or what if this happened before Camila and Lauren realized they fell in love with each other? For God’s sake, this might happened during the X Factor as well, and Laucy & Camren might be a complicated love triangle (okay, I’m delusional but this is one of the million possibilities out there, right?)

It was mentioned in MTV article that they did this photoshoot as part of their coming out. It was mentioned “They did really like each other” but there was no timeline mentioned about when they had the relationship. It was only mentioned “They dated for a few years”.

Those photoshoot pics might break my heart, but I’m not losing my Camren heart. No.. Why? Because of these.

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I’m sorry but they look really happy here as well? Or are you still gonna call me delusional?

Well, these gifs seem too friendly though. But these iconic moments will always be in our minds.

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Your other expressions can lie, but your eyes will never lie. These gifs are heart-warming to be honest.

Then, these indirects.

Lol, I’m sorry for being extra on this. But have you realized that the article confirmed yet killing Laucy at the same time?

I’m NOT losing hope on what I call as true love. I might be so lowkey about it on my instagram and twitter accounts cause I use those platform for another purpose. I never posts about Camren there. But here, in Tumblr, I’m quite vocal about it. I might not be as intense as the other Camren accounts, and I might be lowkey about it, but since the very beginning my fan account was made, I AM a Camren shipper.

You have your right to believe what you wanna believe, but I believe in true love and that revolves around Camren, because the way Lauren looks at Camila is love.

P.S. Guys, I don’t know why but on my phone the pictures shown are only a few. Even the indirect pics are only one which is shown. Is it like that in your phone as well? Because I posted this using my laptop. If you see it from the laptop or computer, you’ll see all the trolls lol

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asoiaf meme [4/4] quotes

“Allow me to give my lord one last piece of counsel,” the old man had said, “the same counsel that I once gave my brother when we parted for the last time. He was three-and-thirty when the Great Council chose him to mount the Iron Throne. A man grown with sons of his own, yet in some ways still a boy. Egg had an innocence to him, a sweetness we all loved. Kill the boy within you, I told him the day I took ship for the Wall. It takes a man to rule. An Aegon, not an Egg. Kill the boy and let the man be born.” The old man felt Jon’s face. “You are half the age that Egg was, and your own burden is a crueler one, I fear. You will have little joy of your command, but I think you have the strength in you to do the things that must be done. Kill the boy, Jon Snow. Winter is almost upon us. Kill the boy and let the man be born.”

Secretly dating Steve Rogers:

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• You are dating Steve for about six months now and you are part of the staff working for the Avengers in the new compound.
• You keep this relationship a secret because the super soldier is technically your boss and you both want to stay very professional, avoiding some delicate situations.
• You both try to keep a straight face when you see each other at work.
• Him actually swearing like a sailor. Basically, he’s always been the one who swears too much in the team and you like teasing him about it.
• Steve calling you ‘Agent’ and you, calling him 'Captain’. Sometimes, your tone may sound very suggestive to his ears, so you cough and walk away.
• At this moment, your boyfriend excuses himself and joins you casually…
• Quickies ensue everywhere: restroom, office, gym… and Quinjet. Everywhere.
• Passionate sex.
• Quiet sex. You’re still trying to not moan, though.
• You both stop yourselves from kissing when you are in the same room as your coworkers.
• Sweet pecks when nobody is around like he can’t help it.
• Slapping or groping his butt when you walk past him.
 - “Nice ass, Captain.”
• Steve trying to keep his composure when he sees you biting your lip as you work.
• You always spend too much time in the training room because your boyfriend working out is a real beautiful sight offered by the heavens. He isn’t a walking pair of muscles, though.
• Spending secret moments on the roofs when you are sure you would have peace:
 - “This is beautiful.”
 - “The sky isn’t as beautiful as you are.”
 - “Aww, Steve.”
 - “Stop laughing!”
• Making out!
• Begging Steve to bring the stealth suit at home.
• Feeling like you are hiding your boyfriend from your over protective parents and that makes you giggle all the time, which he thinks is the most adorable sound in the world.
• You, playing footsie and you know exactly when you have to.
• Him surpassing the urge of punching Tony when he sees him flirting with you. Let’s be honest, that’s in Tony’s nature, so it’s harmless. Nothing serious.
• Staying away from each other during the billionaire’s fancy parties, yet when everyone is very drunk enough, you stay glued to Steve and just act like a normal couple: laughing, kissing and holding hands.
• The first time he said: I love you was simply whispered softly in your ear, just as he was passing by the same hallway.
• At this moment, you dropped every paper you had in hands and rushed to join him casually…
• Lots of makeup to cover up the hickeys and other love bites.
• Putting on your best unemotional face when you see him coming back from a mission exhausted or injured.
 - “I’m fine, Y/N. Get back to work; I’ll be there when you come home.”
 - “Are you sure?”
 - “Yes. Now, go before I have to suspend you for flirting with a superior.”
 - “Oh, yeah?”
• Sharing an apartment outside the compound, but you obviously keep your previous address in your records.
• The team actually knows about your secret since the beginning, but they decide to act like they don’t know because you two are pathetically funny to watch.


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My heart is already tired.” she said putting her hand over her chest. Wanting to make herself believe that her heart is still beating. “But I just can’t stop. I just can’t stop caring and loving him. That it seems more than enough. It feels like drinking water and breathing air. As if I’m going to lose it once I stopped thinking about how he is. I’m still living in this fantasy, and reality keeps on reminding me that the world doesn’t revolve around him. It is so beautiful and destructive at the same time. Yet now, all I wanted is to wake up from this sweet dream of mine.
—  ma.c.a // Dreams of You

the true beauty and the beast ‘gay moment’

  • “who needs her when you’ve got us?”
  • “it’s never going to happen ladies”
  • “I’m not done with you yet” - “me neither”
  • LeFou looking dreamy and biting his bottom lip when Gaston says “picture it LeFou (…) adorable children running around while my love rubs my tired feet”
  • LeFou’s dreamy look turning into a frown the second Gaston adds ‘but what does Belle say?”
  • the whole Gaston song
  • “LeFou you’re the best. How is it no girl has snatched you up yet?” - “I’ve been told I’m clingy, but I really don’t get it” + the Look
  • the nose boop
  • the dance with Stanley at the end

basically pretty much all the lefou scenes were gay because he’s gay af it wasn’t even subtext it was obvious and subtle at the same time goodbye

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This week on The CW’s Supergirl, 40 minutes of anxiety built up to three little, yet momentous, words, as DEO agent Alex Danvers and NCPD detective Maggie Sawyer mutually declared their love for one another, after the former narrowly dodged death.

I love you, Maggie Sawyer.

I love you, Alex Danvers.”

I kept asking when this was going to happen,” Chyler Leigh, who plays Alex, shared with TVLine during our recent set visit, “and [showrunner] Andrew [Kreisberg] was like, ‘Oh, we’ll see. We’ll see.’ And then of course this is how it happens.

“It’s a pretty big next step for them,” Leigh continued. On the heels of Alex’s kidnapping, “You have moments of, ‘You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone,’ but at the same time, they hadn’t gotten this vulnerable with each other quite yet.”

Floriana Lima — who previously teased the ILYs as “a pivotal moment” awaiting the girlfriends — went on to say, “Throughout this season, we’re showing a relationship blossom. Not only did Alex come out, and there’s a lot of emotion in that, but there are so many ups and downs in a relationship, right? And in this episode, a very sweet, loving connection has been developed.”

read more at TVLine.

I still love you so much. But I cannot fathom how you broke me.How you swore I was your entire world,yet at the same time you destroyed mine.
—  Infidelity // Conee Berdera
When I first met you, I was drawn to the person you pretend to be… I was attracted to your confidence, your vibrancy and your happy-go-lucky persona… But as time went on, I got to know you better and I began to realize that you keep parts of yourself hidden because you think they’re not good enough for the world to see. I began to see that the positive, self-assured person you present to the world – the person that everybody else sees when they look at you – is not the same person you see when you look at yourself.
And like you – I too resent the person you see in the mirror… but for different reasons. Your resentment comes from self-doubt, and a lack of real self-confidence – but mine comes from knowing that the person you see isn’t real. It’s like you’re looking at yourself through a twisted fun-house mirror and I resent that your warped self-reflection takes away all the confidence you should have in yourself.And in a way I love neither the person you pretend to be, nor the person you see in the mirror – because neither of them are real. And yet in another way, I love them both… because the person I fell so completely in love with is, in a way, a part of them both and yet at the same time – nothing like either of them… The person I love may not be as confident as the person you pretend to be – but they should be … because they are a million times more beautiful than the person you see in the mirror.
The person I fell in love with… is the person you really are.
Body Language (One Shot)

A/N: This was a request from @ihavetwobuckystomyname a very long time ago, and I’m super sorry that this took so long to write, hun! I hope you enjoy it! There’s a song that goes to this as well and it’s right here if you wanna listen!

Body Language - Reader and Bucky have been in a relationship for a while, and she’s ready to take the relationship to the next level. But Reader has a small problem: she’s deaf. 

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Deaf Reader 

Warnings: Smut. Language. Slight mentions of past neglect. Bucky being adorable. NSFW!

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The true test of how much i love something is based on if I draw anything for it or not. (Although there’s exceptions since half of the time i don’t feel good enough to draw said thing/or embarrased).

Anyhoo i love @hernyart art

and especially the gals he draws (his main ones up there) on his sideblog (with one HELL of a lewd name). Featuring these ghouls (geddit?…no?….i’ll show my way out) who are super awesome….and lewd….yet sweet at the same time?

Funny thing about this is that I have never seen ANY of the shows these characters belong to. That’s what happens when you don’t have cable or got to rent cartoons from the kids section at blockbuster when you were a kid, (as I faintly remember seeing the box art for the ghouls school one)

Anyhoo, if I wasn’t totally broke I’d patron the hell out of a lotta artists like this guy.

Guys.

I’ve read so many fics lately my heart has been bursting with feels and i hAVE to share them with you! The writers below, god I love every single one of them and hope my writing is as good as theirs one day!!!

But in no particular order, here we go!

(** = favorites)

@workofteaguk

OK but honestly now, there’s a whole lot more so I recommend just following her and binge-reading her stuff cause they’re all so fluffy and heartwarming and gahhhhhh. Traci. You da girl. 

@inktae

This scenario made me feel all kind of ways after I finished it. It was one of those fics that I couldn’t just forget. Her writing is absolutely beautiful and it’s like I’m reading poetry. 

@dreamscript

  • run (college au) **
    • ok. ok. this. *cries* THIS WAS THE CUTEST THING EVER AND GOD MY HEART WAS ABOUT TO BURST AT LIKE EVERY SENTENCE HOMYGOD I STILL HAVEN’T RECOVERED. 
  • grow (fantasy au)

ok yes I’m aware that both of them are yoongi scenarios yes I’m yoongi trash ok? ok but god…dreamscript and your writings…FRICKING A+

@jhoseokslut

no its not smut. It’s actually one of the cutest, most adorable jimin scenario’s ive ever read and I’m not joking, I legit squealed.

@taesthetes

(is it just me or did I seriously just rec all her fics that start with an m….)

@an-exotic-writer

@syugatae

  • give you the world (streetartist au) **
    • God. GOD. THIS ONE. tHIS ONE IS BY FAR one of the best fics I’ve read. It held so much emotion and the plot was beautiful and honestly the story just felt so real to me, I’m amazed. Jen, you are the definition of writer goals. I LOVE YOU! <3

@btees

  • dearly beloved (2 parts) (READ IT) **
    • *SCREAMS* is an accurate represenation of me the whole time I read this, goshhhhhh Jimin scenarios are honestly my weakness and tie in the whole “I hate you and you hate me but I actually love you but my pride and ego won’t allow for that ha nope” 

@exoticarmy127 **

Yes I just gave her actual account stars because I have read (I’m not joking) every single one of her stories and loved every single one like her writing is beyond this universe and yet it’s so simple and beautiful at the same time. I can even say that Kaye was the reason I wanted to start writing because I wanted to be able to read my works one day and say that “i wrote that” and that wouldn’t have happened if it wasn’t for Kaye. THANK YOU SO MUCH KAYE for being an inspiration, an amazing and beautifully talented writer who manages to blow my mind every single time. 

For my followers who don’t know her, don’t even hesitate to read her works cause you will love them, a 100% guarantee from me. BUT I’ve still managed to compile my favorites from her writing below (probably the most difficult thing I’ve had to do lol)

  • cold & hold me tight 
    • these two were one the first scenarios I read of Kaye’s and they had pulled me in asdfghjkl it was just so cute and so angst and so ajdnififisn
  • as promised 
    • daddy taehyung has got me weak in my feels. 
  • you, me, & the little things in between 
    • I think I cried a good bit with this cause my heart was too fragile for all the angst and cutesyness. 
  • laws of motion and attraction
    • low and behold the holy grail of Kaye’s work. This one was a rollercoaster of emotions and there were surprises at every single chapter that I had never anticipated and in a honestly, this was a real piece of art. 

BUT that’s all for now guys! Once I read any more, I’ll definately update the list and let you in on the great fics floating around on tumblr. But if you guys have any recommendations for me ( I AM OPEN TO ANYTHING SEND ME ANYTHING I LOVE ANYTHING ), just drop them in my ask or message me and we can fangirl about it together once I read it hahaha! 

Hope you guys enjoy the list and don’t forget to check out the other works of these writers too! They’re all amazing and truly talented!

LOVE YOU GUYS!! 

Originally posted by ksjknj