yes ok idk what else to tag this with

What do you do when your entire healing process
feels like the beginning of a murder ballad?

I realized that what he had done was not right
in the middle of the night in some faraway June.

I somehow fell asleep after that. Woke up
the next morning, the floor below me

trembling, a kitchen knife in my hand
for a split second. There isn’t a way

for me to be honest and tell you
I haven’t ever wanted revenge

at the same time. I do remember his full name,
but I do not say it out loud. I scrubbed

any evidence of him out of me,
and now I reek of Good Survivor.

I am not supposed to fantasize
about dropping a lit match in his jeans.

I am not supposed to have imagined
my fist lodged in his Adam’s Apple.

So what does that make me? On his level?

Too angry? A girl in a song only preparing herself

to be left in the water? But I don’t think
I’m as hungry as I’m making myself out to be.

The truth is: if I ever saw him on the street,
I would cross to the other side and hide myself

in the nearest shop. That doesn’t mean
I still haven’t woken up every morning

thinking God has left a weapon in my hand
in hopes of the river inside of me

finally flooding.

—  Look Beneath the Floorboards, Lydia Havens

anonymous asked:

ok but: ennosuga. like suga decides he's comfortable enough with the team to come out in second year (and then eventually it spreads through the school) n everyone's pretty chill abt it, and of course there are some ppl interested in him, bc he's so cute?! but everyone is too intimidated by him to make a move buT then to everyone's surprise lil first year ennoshita just walks up to him and asks him on a date. suga says yes but he doesn't really know what to expect, (1/?)

like, he didn’t even know that ennoshita liked dudes?? but they go on their date and suga gets treated so right and everything is GREA. and when ennoshita walks suga home he ends the night by kissing suga cheek and asking suga if he wants to go on another date, sometime? and of course suga says yes. so they date and they’re very domestic in subtle ways and it hurts to look at them bc it’s too sweet + beautiful. always holdin hands n smoochin n idk i just think they could be so much more than

what a lot of the ennosuga tag is which is: “daichi is a taken so suga latches onto enno who is similar to him and enno is ok with that bc well, how else will suga be his?” bleh:( i am very much not abt that. i prefer my ships happy. but ya just consider a sweet and loving ennosuga please u will not regret

HAVE I EVER CONSIDERED ENNOSUGA? HAVE I?

*wails into the void*

I have considered them at length, anon. They’re actually one of my fave rarepairs, but for whatever reason, I haven’t got around to writing them. However, there is so much that is amazing about them, and this entire submission is one of them.

I think Enno and Suga are both the kind of people who, when people get to know them properly, intimidate those around them just a bit. However, Suga knows it, and Ennoshita doesn’t. Imagine Suga not only accepting Ennoshita’s feelings, but dedicating himself to cultivating Enno’s fierceness, as well. But they keep it on the downlow, as Suga doesn’t want any rumors of favoritism surrounding what he sees as the obvious choice to inherit Daichi’s role. So when they hit the latter side of Suga’s third year and Enno’s getting ready to take the reins as captain, nobody questions him or the decision because Enno is primed to rule.

But when the third years retire after nationals, it’s when they can finally be REALLY together. And the first thing that Suga does when they leave the gym after their last practice on the same team is to climb Enno like a tree, much to the gawking shock of Tanaka and Noya, and the general lack of surprise from a chuckling Daichi (he figured it out like…a year ago x.x ). 

So they walk to the clubroom hand in hand and leave it the same way, and then they go do adorable boyfriend things, like have fancy coffee since it’s cold af and huddle together for warmth at the almost abandoned public park so they can warm each other up. Suga talks about the college courses he’s taking when he starts classes later that year, and Enno talks about his experiences getting some of their new nationals friends to agree to appear in his films.

When he texts Akaashi later that night to officially confirm their status as a power couple, Ennoshita once again meets the utter lack of surprise. “Suga-san always had eyes for you, Chikara. I was just too afraid to ask.”

And that night, Enno falls asleep while thumbing through the thread of texts between him and Suga, watching the subtle ways Suga expressed his love —asking after his health when he missed a morning practice, before Enno even told him he was missing school for the day with a nasty cold; saying good morning every day without fail, even when they were at training camp and sleeping only a couple meters away from each other; smiling selfies next to the movie posters Yacchan made for him; and just everything.

So yeah, I think I have considered EnnoSuga. And sign me the hell up for any more EnnoSuga feelings anyone might want to send my way, so that I can hop on the nearest trebouchet and catapult myself into the hottest star this side of the galaxy so that I might burn a little less for them. *sighs*

Batman: Arkham Knight starters
  • “You look spooked.”
  • “You sound just like him.”
  • “You will bring death to all who follow you.”
  • “There is no savior. No hope.”
  • “This ends tonight.”
  • “I want you to imagine a city. A city broken and crushed under our feet. Take that picture. Hold onto it. Go make it happen.”
  • “Time to die.”
  • “I had him in my sights! I could have ended it right there!”
  • “What’s the matter? Lost for words? I expected more…. I’m hurt.”
  • “You can’t hide from me! I will hunt you down!”
  • “There’s no helping me!”
  • “Don’t pretend to understand!”
  • “Don’t call me that! That’s not who I am!”
  • “Look me in the eye and say that.”
  • “Stop! Stop talking to me!”
  • “You did this to me!”
  • “Nice of you to say, but you of all people should know, there’s plenty wrong with me. “
  • “Tell me something, dear. Have you ever had a really bad day?”
  • “It’s been you this whole time.”
  • “You don’t have to worry about us, or feel responsible. We’re fighting with you, not for you, ok?”
  • “No where to run. No where to hide. You’re all alone.”
  • “Do you see them? All the monsters you created.”
  • “Nature always wins.”