yeah i know i'm weird


“It’s NOT okay! You keep saying that but YOU don’t know what you’re doing! Now we’re going to suffocate or starve at the bottom of the ocean and only my parents will notice because no one else cares about me!“


‘’ The Dark Mage Zeref ‘’
first kinslaying

Okay, so this one will be a little morbid and dark, but i was thinking today, and i thought i will share this, becase i’m curious about your thoughts on this, or your point  of view. First you have to know that i studied biochem engineering, and i lean towards the biology part of it a lot, i actually made my thesis on a research that was mainly genetics and molecular biology. This is a completely unmportant info, it just may make more sense why i think about these kind of things if i put it out there. This thought actually came to me because i was thinking about a biological subject. 

So you know before the forst Kinlaying, there were actually only two death in the elves life ever, Miriel and Finwe. Miriel just silently faded into nothingness, and Finwe had a surprise stab attack. Because of this, i’m pretty positive that elves had no idea at all how they look like inside. Obviously there was no example before (i highly doubt they dissected the body of Finwe) and i’m sure that the ainur and the maiar didn’t hold biology classes. Obviously war is waaaaay more bloody, than any of those two deaths, they were unpracticed, they had no training in how to kill a person effectively, and even though they were all armed up, they had no idea how to kill. Sure you may say that they had hunters, but animals are not people and swords are not arrows and daggers. If you live all your life in a perfect society where no one hurts the other, you can’t make up an army from one moment to the other, because you have to build up a training from scratch, and that training is made on experience, which most of the don’t have (maybe some who were there in the awakaning  do have it, but that is a very small precentagee of the population in my opinion). So you have a bunch of people on both sides who kill (and see killings) for the first time ever. There will be hacking, and slicings, and all kinds of sloppy movements, and not much effective kills. I think they attacked how and where they could reach the other and i also think that most of them already were panicked, where a ‘fight or flight’ instinct took over. You won’t be able to convince me that these were clean kills. I think the first Kinslaying was a mess and an utter disaster where they could get their first look of the inside of the body, free of charge. And i was thinking: how did they react when they saw a person gutted for the first time: Were they disgusted? Where they surprised? Where they like: “Holy shit, what the hell is that?!” Even for us, and we know how our bodies are built up, something like that is very shocking. But because they saw a person like that the first time, killed the first time, saw this huge amount of blood the first time, i think the first Kinslaying was the most devastating, most unforgettable thing for all of these warriors, and i’m pretty sure this shook them to the core way more than any other fights that came after that. I think this was the actual battle that hounted most of them to the end of their lives. They had no idea what to expect and they got way more than that.

What do you think? I would like to hear your opinion/ point of view on it :)

A dream that you wish will come true ?

idk, i think it wasn’t obvious what i wanted to convey with the first one… so i made a .. ?? thing.

This is what happens when I take it less seriously hmmh

Wack as fuck
  • <p> <b>Lance:</b> I like your space shoes<p/><b>Keith:</b> These are my normal shoes??<p/><b>Lance:</b> Oh really? I thought since everything else up here is wack as fuck that's why your shoes are also wack as fuck<p/><b>Keith:</b> ...<p/><b>Lance:</b> <p/><b>Keith:</b> <p/><b>Lance:</b> <p/><b>Lance:</b> I fucking hate your shoes<p/></p>

An amedot quickie on a 3x3″ post-it note.

I honestly don’t care if they end up canon or not. Canon never stopped Kirk/Spock, Mulder/Krycek, or pretty much any other slash ships before. I’ll be shipping it either way.


SOOOO, I was tagged by @thoughts-of-an-x-factor, @deathmentality (twice), @pinhead-in-stilettos, @scarsoftheshatteredsky, @jplovecraft (twice), @livelikeanangeldielikethedevil (twice), @odinswarhorse and @misshammett to post a selfie, thanks folks!
I didn’t have much time and inspiration to take some decent pictures, so I hope these half assed selfies will do.

First picture was taken in university after my least but not last exam (I have one more to take and pass).
Second picture represents me for most of pats two weeks because my gods, I can’t take this bullshit heat, I even had to take some exams during +30C degrees and I can tell you, it is no fun. I guess you can tell it from my face lol, Oh and yea, this is my new pjs lol.

I’m tagging: @sheila-s, @a-wish-for-the-night, @cutefreakshow, @that-commie-witch, @ostpunk, @moveslikekeithrichards, @brainlessmvtant, @inexplicableky, @kingwitchofangmar, @kira-chwaaan, @hanfski, @goona, @f-uchsteufelswild, @damnedchild, @scorpion-flower, @cucumber-castle, @augmented-mind, @paradoxoftheflame, @type-ho-negative, @red-hot-sky, @vila-viridian, @wonderinghobbit and @themoontime