yeah this is what im doing with my time

anonymous asked:

i hate talking to people abt food because people dont believe i have an ed since im a "normal" weight so most of the time i just say haha yeah im a picky eater lol and that works most of the time cos im skinny so no one cares the my eating is fucked up but then i get to the vegans who dont believe i have an eating disorder and tell me im a monster for eating meat like... thanks what the fuck am i supposed to do then guess ill just die lol

lol, this is basically my life, except when I tell them I’m a picky eater they call me childish or like, pressure me w “just try it”/“you’re so difficult”/“why don’t you grow up?” so it makes it even more anxiety inducing.

I’m a “normal” weight as well (but if anyone actually studied me they’d see that I have a distended belly bc my body is constantly in starvation mode so it stores fat to try and preserve itself) so they don’t believe me if I say I have a problem.

ANyway yeah, that’s basically it. I need to eat meat 2 live, otherwise I won’t eat anything else, because meat is one of the few food groups I know that I can eat from consistently and get enough protein and energy for the day, so I feel Pretty Shit when ppl try to force me to do something else or accuse me of animal cruelty when like

what am I suppose 2 do Aimee? live off bread forever?

  • Dan: well played Arin
  • Arin: what
  • Dan: as, as that last episode ended, i was like, "oh, can i..." hehehe... "do you mind if i respond to this text message?" and Arin was like "sure go ahead." and as i;m - as i'm texting, i get a text FROM ARIN that says,.. wehehehe, it says -
  • Arin: no, i said, i said ill take the time to respond to a text of my own
  • Dan: oh yeheheh thats right! and then i get a text from arin that says, "yeah hes responding to text messages, wasting my fucking time" followed by "sorry wrong person"

My beloved Natasha Bedingfield - These Words ♥ The video is so adorable, the colours are amazing, this had to happen :>> i’ve never drawn anything like this before idk what i’m doing halp

Otayuri Week - Day 1 - Confessions

im so sad i probs wont have time to finish my other days this week i have something i need to prioritize i criii… i’ll post them one day i swear to glob

♪no repost/edit etc pls♪

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A bubble and a goth

It keeps bothering me that they decided to show that galra shield in Sendak’s ship to the audience through Keith, when they could very well have used Shiro or Allura, people we know has a past with the Galra empire, or even Sendak himself.

Okay, that sounded confusing, so let me try to elaborate. English is not my first language, so it will be a bit hard.

On the first episode, after Shiro and Pidge casually ditched Keith to his own luck on finding Red, we see him running around until he find himself in a… A…

He has two paths to go and doesn’t know which one to take.

You know, this

Now, the composition on this scene is interesting. You have the galra symbol hovering above Keith, who is right in the middle. It’s almost like it is pointing at him. 

Scratch that, the whole scene seems to be pointing at Keith in this one. No matter where you look, the lines take you back to our favorite Red Paladin. 

And then, this happens.

His whole body language changes when he sees it. He straightens his back, his arm falls to his side and I do wish I had HQ screencaps of this moment, but I don’t, so bear with my rushed kisscartoon misery.

And then he actually stares at it.

He stares at it for sometime, and only stops when he hears the galra soldier coming. His whole expression is… I don’t know how to put it. fucking language barriers, dude. If I were to name it anything, it’s almost of somewhat familiarity. 

As if he’s seen it before.

And then we see his expression changes yet again as he hears the soldier approaching and remembers why he’s there.

And not once the galra symbol leaves the screen in this brief moment. It’s always there, pointing at Keith, above Keith, on Keith’s visor…

Now, after three years hearing my teachers saying over and over again that nothing in animation is there just because, that everything was throughout planned to be there and be the way it is, I can’t help but wonder what were dreamworks and studio mir’s intentions with this one.

I mean, there’s the obvious one: to show the viewers one of the shields of the Galra Empire. To know that, whenever this symbol and others similar to this appear, it means that it’s related to the Galra in one way or another.

The thing is… Why do it through Keith, out of all the characters?

They could have done it earlier with Shiro’s flashback, as he remembered that he was in that ship before, at one point of his time as a slave from the galra empire. 

They could have done it with Sendak, since, you know, it’s his fucking ship.

They could have done it even with Allura, when Sendak first contacted the castle, and she could have recognized the symbol from the time Altea was being attacked.

But they made the deliberate choice to do it through Keith’s eyes.

They sat down in a room, discussed over this scene, made the storyboard, and decided that showing a Galra symbol through Keith, going even as far as keeping the reflection on his helmet’s visor when there were very few other times they used reflection to show anything in this show.

And here’s my guess on their not-so-obvious reason on to why they made this choice:

They want us to associate the galra with Keith, even if in the back of our minds.

The last time I saw a show giving this sort of hint was in the really fucking good anime Erased. In the op, for a very brief moment, you see the reflection of the killer in the shattered glass.

It’s not a really obvious reflection, for you still have a hard time associating the face with any named characters before the great and majestically composed reveal. And it lasts not even a second, so, unless you’re an obsessed theorist who lives in a shack in the desert and went through the op frame by frame, you barely notice it.

But is enough for you to make out a black suit, and now it’s imprinted in your mind that you cannot trust the man in the black suit.

SPOILER: And, as it turned out, the only character who used a black suit in a regular basis was the killer.

And just like in Erased they wanted you to associate black suit with the antagonist through the reflection, I feel like Voltron is trying to do something similar in here with Keith.

They aren’t straight out telling us, but they aren’t exactly keeping it from us. At a first glance, it’s just another in between scene before Keith gets to his lion.

But when you put it together with all the other slightly more obvious pieces of evidence…

… I dare to say it’s a quite brilliant hint.

TL;DR: Either Keith is a galra and they want us to associate one of the galra symbols directly to him as a hint, or I’m going completely crazy here.

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there they goooo

~*~Bath Time!~*~

Here is my list of tips and tricks for of bathy goodness. This is just what I like to do and have done in the past. Keep in mind it can all be taken with a grain of salt [literally!!]

Preparing the Bath

🛀🏻 HOT water. I find it super cleansing and sweating is really good for you. I like to sit in the bath and my face sweats and im like YEAH lets cleanse this bod inside and out. pls dont burn yourself though peeps.

🛀🏼 Oils! My go-tos are lavender + coconut oil. I do 7-10 drops of lavender and one or two spoonfuls of coconut oil. Lavender for smell and relaxation and heavenly goodness, coconut for super smoothness of skin. If you are going to use other essential oils please do your research and make sure they are skin-safe! I also generally tie up my hair to keep it out of the oiliness.

🛀🏽 Epsom salts if you got em!

🛀🏾 Candles + crystals can line the tub as desired. I usually have all the bathroom lights out + 4 candles going at the foot of the tub. dont light your towel on fire.

🛀🏿 Cup of tea on the side! I like this for the added internal + external cleanse of the bath. Hot + nourishing on the outisde and hot + nourishing on the inside.


This is what I do and think about in the bath!

💧 oh my gosh water how healing you are, how cleansing, how warming.

💧 the water and oils im sitting in are literally soaking into my skin right now. the essence of this tub is entering my body

💧 touch your body. you’re naked right? perfect. time for some self body love. tell yourself you love your legs, while touching them. “i love my little toes.” “look at how nice my hands are.” “i love my pretty/handsome face.” “my brain is so smart and quick and calm.” “i love every little hair on my body.” “i have the coolest belly button” tell yourself things that you dont instinctually believe. go after the parts that you’re self conscious about “i love my tummy” “my bum is amazing” “my arms are the perfect size” “this is my favourite flabby bit” etc.

💧 drinking the tea if you have it- the heat and intent of that tea is permeating through all your internal organs. feel the heat through your mouth, esophagus, stomach, feel it blend in with the heat from the water entering your skin. full body heaty hot heatness

💧 the other day when i was in the bath i put my forehead/third eye on the faucet and pictured the vast network of pipes around the city supplying water to everyone. I thanked the water source and sent my energy throughout the pipes to hope that everyone was using it for good and healing and nourishing ways

💧 deep deep breathing. this is cool if your chest is below the water because when you exhale it sinks down and when you inhale it rises up. you can sync this motion with a prayer, mantra, chant, intention, whatever you wish!

💧 meditation. feel the heat, listen to your heartbeat, imagine all the little water molecules full of heat energy, vibrating, sending you their little blobs of heat energy into your skin, fueling your own little internal fire

💧 my FAVOURITE thing is the end of the bath. I sit in it, sometimes cross legged or curled up in a ball with my head on my knees and unplug the drain and stay like that while the whole tub drains. I picture the water whisking away all the negative in me and draining away. It’s like a re-birth! you can slowly feel your body get heavier and heavier as the water gets lower. Keep picturing the water taking away the bad and keep thanking it for cleaning you and nourishing you and healing you. seriously, how generous of the water to not only GIVE YOU it’s nutrients and warmth and thirst quenchy goodness, but to also take away all your badness, all your negativity, all your dirt and grime and leave you revitalized. water is so selfless. water is the best. thank you water.

💧 now that you are reborn as a new human (or otherwise) you can breathe and feel the differences in your body and just marvel in the smoothness of your skin and warmth of your body and heavenly bathy feelings that just soaked into you.

💧 another thing that might be cool is to weigh yourself before and after the bath. Your weight will go up like 2 or 3 pounds after you get out of the bath, which i find super cool. PROOF that the water is literally entering your body through your skin and staying there to heal you up real nice.

The most important thing IMO:

Do what comes to you naturally. all of this stuff just came into my head at different points in bath time and felt right for me to do. meditation might help you connect with that intuitive part of you that tells you what you need. if you get an urge, follow it. if your brain/body/soul tells you to stand up and sit down a bunch of times, or to dunk your head in or to blow bubbles or to splash with your feet, DO IT! just be safe and don’t hurt yourself or light anything on fire.

🐳The End🐳

OK sorry this post got out of hand but as you can tell i really like baths and water and bath meditation. This is something i’ve been doing for a while and it all came to me kind of naturally so forgive me if it is not specifically inclined toward a perspectives or approaches that you normally adhere to. I’m open to questions n things <3

ENJOY PALS!!

  • friend: so, twenty one pilots?
  • me: yeah. I mean they're pretty good. you might like them. whatever.
  • friend: show me a song
  • me: *puts on car radio*
  • me: I mean yeah this is a cool song. whatever.
  • friend: what are you doing
  • me: FILL WITH FIRE EXHALE DESIRE I KNOW ITS DIRE MY TIME TODAY
  • friend: COME BACK INSIDE AND PUT YOUR CLOTHES ON

photo credit to the original owners, i just turned them into polaroids xx

Photograph

Ignis Scientia X Reader

Warnings: angsty, SPOILERS IF YOU HAVEN’T FINISHED THE GAME

A/N: just so y’all know I haven’t actually finished FFXV yet, so if the plot isn’t exactly how it is in the game I apologize! I know what happens at the end, just not really what happens in between so pleeeease bear with me. I just wanted to make it hit close to home sooooo yeah. I really hope you all still enjoy though!!! This is my first time writing for videogames so hopefully I do it some sort of justice. This is also based off Ed Sheeran’s song, Photograph. I ALSO DIDN’T PROOFREAD IM SO SORRY I HOPE IT MAKES SENSE!!!

I also wanna dedicate this fic to @anngard and also @thatonedaydream for encouraging me to do this and also because they love Iggy. So I hope you guys enjoy. <3

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  • kanaya: vriska do you and terezi share a room
  • vriska: what no!
  • vriska: we just hang out a lot ::::p
  • kanaya: ive quite literally never seen you apart
  • kanaya: its not that important i was just curious as to whether or not we could repurpose that room
  • vriska: wait what???????? are you taking my room from me fussyfangs
  • kanaya: im not trying to do that but lets be honest youre never in it
  • kanaya: if you prefer spending every moment you have with terezi it doesnt seem like a terrible idea to use the room assigned to you for another purpose
  • vriska: yeah but it's mine!
  • kanaya: well in that case
  • kanaya: perhaps maybe you could sleep in it or spend some time in there occasionally
  • vriska: but why....... would i spend time in my room?
  • vriska: terezi's not there
“phone=heart” metaphor

so i was going through the sherlock & johnlock tags as i have been doing since the new content came out, and i stumbled across this for like the third time:

most everyone is speculating about the name of the baby. however, upon reading the daily mail’s new article, this stood out:

“Others suggested the line about Sherlock being ‘always on his phone’ was a hint at the upcoming storyline.”

“…he hasn’t helped us with this at all as he’s always on his phone.”

i haven’t been able to fully read all of the latest meta and tjlc findings, so correct me if i’m wrong, but here’s the thing:

if we follow the phone=heart metaphor, which we spotted in the very first episode when sherlock handed his phone to john upon first meeting him, this correlates as well. if sherlock is using his phone a lot, he is using his heart. instead of paying attention to the outer world, his attention is directed inward, to his heart and emotions instead. since the birth, john’s most likely busy, and sherlock has taken to himself and wallowing in the emotions he’s feeling.

he isn’t giving enough outside information or releasing these emotions just yet, since he’s on his own phone, but his heart is bubbling with emotions and wild with activity.

this statement was an exact metaphor for something else and is most likely why they included this in the obituary.

this also correlates with all of the other meta about sherlock’s emotions this season and of course, the iconic “i love you.” ^U^ (aka my christmas miracle)

if anyone has anything to add to this, please do!! 

Tweaker thoughts

Things I think to myself while im high:

“Hell yeah that hit got my high”
“Fuck I wish I could not feel the need to hit the pipe every 10 minutes bc my tolerance level is so damn high”

“What the Fuck is this bitch even saying to me right now, totally stopped listing after the first word and a half”

“Where the did I put the pipe”

“Why do i loose my lighter 137 times a day”

“What the Fuck does she keep looking at? Wonder if she can tell im high? Are my eyes dilated? Am I even making any sense when Im talking to her? What the fuck did I do with my phone?”


“Ok gotta clean the living room up. This brush goes over here in this drawer, so does this pen, HMM haven’t looked through this drawer in forever , oh there’s my notebook better take that to my room, hmm better clean this room up to, wait why is my computer making that sound? Better take it apart to see what’s up., can’t find the problem ill put it back together later I need some music on, wait where is my phone?”

“Damnit did I forget to eat today?”

“Hmmm what can I tweak on now?”

“What was I about go do I totally forget”

“Damnit Where is my phone?”

Y’know what, we really need to appreciate tentacle monsters outside of the sexual and horror aspects. Tentacles, with or without suckers, thin or thick, most of the time they’re squishy, flexible, really good for wrapping around stuff , yeah?

Do you realize how fucking great that would be for cuddles? YOU COULD EASILY GET WARM SQUISHY FULL BODY CUDDLES. YOU COULD GIVE WARM SQUISHY FULL BODY CUDDLES IF YOU HAVE TENTACLES. YOU COULD EVEN POSITION YOUR BODY TO BE THE BIG SPOON AND THE LITTLE SPOON AT THE SAME TIME. OR JUST BE ENVELOPED IN A GIANT CUDDLE PILE OF TENTACLES. THAT WOULD BE SO COZY??? 

Enoch O’Connor Imagine (Miss Peregrine’s Home For Peculiar Children)

Anon asked, “The reader is a peculiar at the home but gets killed by a hollow and it really hits Enoch hard (cause of what his peculiarly is)”

A/N: Yes…this sure is something. I wrote it in the car- ?!! And I was so proud! ?! because like- I was able to write out in the open instead of hiding in my room, so- yeah. I hope you like it though! (because i sure do :”D) Reader is Female btw.

Word count: 893


It’s been a week since your death and Enoch was still a mess. All the children had cried when you died, even Miss Peregrine teared up a little, but they knew that they couldn’t be upset for so long.

Enoch on the other hand hasn’t come out of his room except for dinner time and even then he would rush through it and go back to his room. Today he didn’t even bother to eat dinner, and Miss Peregrine sent Claire to see how he was. She knocked on the door and Enoch yelled for her to leave, so she did, but got the other children to try something.

Enoch got it the worst. He was in denial at first. Saying things like, “She can’t be dead! She can’t! She promised to not leave me!”. Then came anger. Wanting to kill all the hollows… he tried to accept the fact that you were no longer there, but he couldn’t.

All of the children tried something to get him to come out of his room, but nothing worked. Miss Peregrine went to attempt and he opened the door, but wouldn’t show his face. He laid back on his bed with the pillow covering his face. “Enoch… It has been a tragedy for us all, but you can not just live like this.” said Miss P. “I know you loved her the most out of all of us, but you need to accept it.”

He didn’t respond. Not even a nod or a thumbs up, or a shift of his body to show anything. “Enoch, I’m talking to you.” said Miss Peregrine. Enoch just mumbled something into his pillow and Miss Peregrine sighed. “She’s in the room where Victor is…” she said under her breath, but because of how quiet it was, Enoch heard her anyway.

He removed the pillow from his face, but still did not show Miss Peregrine how he looked. “What?” he asked confused. “You heard me Enoch O’Connor. Don’t act like you did not. Before you go and see her, clean yourself up child.” she answered and slowly got up, leaving the room.

Enoch slowly sat up sighing and running his fingers through his messy, unwashed hair. He stood up and looked at himself in the mirror. He shook his head and rubbed his face a bit. He decided to go wash up like Miss Peregrine told him, since he hadn’t in a long while.

Once he got out of the shower he smiled to himself in the mirror. He was thinking about you. He was going to bring you back to life. To talk, to see you smile, to be happy.

He didn’t want the other children to see him going to the room you were in, so he was very sneaky about it, but got to your room. You were dressed in white with your hair let loose, falling on your shoulders. He smiled softly looking at you. He remembered to carry a few hearts in his overall pockets to try and bring you back to life.

Enoch made an attempt and it didn’t work. “Come on…” he muttered getting frustrated. He made a second attempt…nothing. “Please…” he begged starting to make a third attempt. Nothing. He only had one more heart. “Work, ya damn thing.” sighed Enoch.

He looked at you hoping to see something and your eyes fluttered open. “(Y/N)!” he said excitedly. You slowly looked at him and gave a soft smile. “Hi Enoch.” you said quietly.

When the hollow had killed you it didn’t totally slay you like crazy, it was a quick death that didn’t cause much pain, so now to you weren’t feeling much pain either.

“I missed you so much…” he said holding your hand that felt cold. “I know. I saw.” you said casually. “You did?” he asked and you nodded. “Enoch…you’re gonna have to let me go.” you sighed.

It surprised Enoch that those words had come out of your mouth. “What?… Why?” he asked. “You know why… You can’t keep bringing me back. I love you, and that means I want you to be happy. Just accept the fact that I’m gone. You can do this once in a while so we could talk, but you need to let go.” you responded.

He looked at the floor. “Everyone’s telling me to let go, but I can’t seem to. It’s hard.” he sighed. “I know. It’s gonna be hard, but if you love me, you’ll do that for me.” you said rubbing his hand softly with your thumb.

He looked back up at you and nodded. “I’ll try.” he replied. “Good.” you smiled. “I don’t think I have much time left.” you sighed. “No…please stay.” he said sadly. “Let go, Enoch.” you replied letting go of his hand.

You put your hands back together and closed your eyes to go back to your peaceful state. Enoch began to tear up and he kissed your forehead leaving tears on your face. He wiped them off. “For you? Anything.” he sniffled.

Enoch stood up and smiled (with tears still present) at both you and Victor, who was also in the room. He opened the door. “I love you.” he said mostly towards you, but he loved Victor too. He walked out and closed the door behind him, starting to slowly let go.