Plot - Y/N struggles with panic attacks. Finn is the only one who knows this.
Pairing - Finn Wolfhard x Reader
One plane flight, and two interviews. That’s all I have to do today, so why am I so stressed? I can’t stop moving. I’m still at home, waiting for Noah to pick me up so we can go to the airport together. We were heading to LA for stranger things 2 release. It was about 10 days away and we had to fly out early for all the interviews we had to do beforehand.
It was about 3am, we had to fly in as early as possible so we can get to our first interview. I had music blaring through my earbuds as I paced back and forth. I was so worried I would forget something that I checked, and rechecked my luggage about 100 times in the past few hours.
Noah said they would be here around 3, but when my phone read 3:30, I started to worry and my mind started racing. I thought about every possible thing that could’ve made them late. I started pacing and my chest became heavy. It got harder to breath as I watched the time slowly passed.
And this, is what I call the beginning of a panic attack. A few tears fell off my face as I thought more irrational thoughts. A full blown panic attack was just around the corner when I heard my phone ringing.
“Y/N? Hey, were about 5 minutes away, sorry we’re late, I forgot to pack my carry on.” Noah’s voice rang through the phone and into my ears. “O-okay, I’ll be outside.” I stuttered, trying to calm myself. “Are you okay? You sound like you were just crying.” He asked, concerned. “Yeah, yeah i’m fine.” I lied. “Okay… see you soon, bye.” Noah replied, hanging up.
I quickly opened my messages and texted Finn, he was the only one I talked to about my panic attacks and anxiety.
Y/N: Finn, I know you probably are asleep but I need to talk to you.
Y/N: I had another one.
Y/N: well, almost. Noah called me before it could get to a full blown panic attack.
Y/N: I’m starting to get scared.
Y/N: They aren’t getting better, they are getting worse.
Y/N: I don’t know what to do.
Y/N: i’m guessing you are asleep, and Noah is here now so, i guess i’ll see you at the airport.
I locked my phone and went outside to look for Noah. about 2 minutes later his car pulled up. “The trunk is open.” Noah yelled from in the car, mentioning towards my luggage. I got into the car, Noah sitting to the right of me. “Are you sure you’re okay? You look like you’ve been crying.” Noah asked, concern lacing his words. “Yeah, yeah, i’m fine, just tired.” I lied, once again. “You’d tell me if you weren’t right?” Noah asked, looking me dead in the eyes. “Yes, of course.” I mumbled, trying to avoid his eyes. The rest of the car ride was mostly silent.
“Okay you two, once you land, go straight to baggage claim. Millie and Finn are supposed to meet you there. Then take a taxi to the hotel, David should be there already. I’m pretty sure he flew in with Gaten and Caleb. Heres cab money.” Noah’s mom informed us, handing Noah some money. “Stick together and stay safe!” She smiled, walking off.
Once we got to our gate Noah started a conversation. “What song are you listening to?” He asked. “That one song from panic!’s first album.” I replied, showing him the insanely long song title. “Ohh thats a good one.” Noah smiled. “Im listening to LA Devotee.” He added. “Hey! There is this super cool guy in that music video, I think his name was Noah… Noah, snap? Yeah that guy’s pretty cool.” I joked. “Uh excuse me, it’s Schnapp. Wow, what a fake fan.” He scoffed, but laughed immediately after that.
Once Noah and I got off the plane, we did as we were told, and went to baggage claim. I turned my phone off airplane mode and a text immediately came through.
Finn: holy shit Y/N im so sorry I didn’t answer, i was asleep. I just got off my plane though, i’ll see you soon. Stay strong. *heart emoji*
Knowing I was going to see him soon, I didn’t bother to reply. Noah spotted his luggage, and took it off the conveyor belt. “Do you see yours?” He asked me. “No actually… it’s really obvious, it’s orange.” I told him, walking around a few people to get a better look at the suitcases. “Is this it?” Noah asked, pointing to an orange one. “Yeah, thanks.” I smiled, walking over and taking it.
“Y/N! Noah! Over here!” I heard two people yell. After I saw who it was, I ran right over to them. “I’ve missed you so much.” I mumbled, hugging Finn. “Are you doing okay? I’m sorry I couldn’t text back in time.” he replied, holding me closer. “Yeah, I feel a lot better now that i’m with you.” I smiled into his chest. I felt him softly kiss my forehead, making my heart skip a beat.
“My god Finn, let me have a chance to hug her!” I heard Millie remark, making us pull away. “Ive missed you…. Bitchh.” Millie laughed, pulling me in for a hug. “Shall we go to the hotel?” Noah asked.
We called a cab and all squished inside it. It was about a 20 minute ride from the airport the hotel. About 5 minutes in, Finn wrapped his arm around my shoulder, making me blush a bit. “Can we talk about your panic attack once we get there?” He asked, whispering in my ear. “I want to help you.” He added. I nodded and looked up at him. “Thank you so much, Finn.” I replied. “Anything for you.” He beamed.
“What are you two whispering about?” Millie asked, poking Finn’s shoulder. “Probably about their secret relationship, and about what they are going to do in the hotel.” Noah replied, wiggling his eyebrows at us. “Shut up Noah!” Finn laughed, hitting him on the shoulder. “Noah!” Millie and I gasped at his dirty joke.
“CALEB!! GATEN!” I yelled, running into the hotel, hugging them both. “Heyy! We’ve missed you!” Gaten smiled. We all hugged and caught up on everything. “Alright kids, we got three rooms, pair up and I give you the keys.” David ordered. “Just, no boys and girls in the same room.” He added.
“Hey, Millie, can I be with Y/N?” Finn asked, coming up to us, his voice lowered, so david couldn’t hear us. “David said no boys and girls together.” Millie protested. “I know but let’s be real, you know you’d rather be with noah. So, when he hands out the keys you two will be standing next to each other and then when we get to the rooms, we can switch places.” Finn explained. “Is Noah okay with it?” She asked. “Duh, he’s your best friend.” Noah laughed, joining the conversation. “Alright, i’m in.” Mille gave in. “And I guess I am too?” I added.
“Finn, if we switched rooms just so we could talk in private, you know there is alot easier ways to do that.” I pointed out. “I know, but I also know I’m the only one whos knows about your panic attacks. I didn’t want you getting one in front of Millie.” He replied. I grinned, blush making its way to my cheeks. “I want this bed.” I mumbled, putting my luggage on the bed.
“We have about 20 minutes before our first interview, want to talk about the panic attack?” Finn asked me, sitting down on the bed next to me. “Uh, yeah, yeah.” I answered, looking down and lowering my voice. “Noah, was a bit late to picking me up, I was already nervous, and that just kind of added to it? I don’t know. But my mind thought of every bad thing that could have happened, and why they were late. I was pacing and I started to cry, the normal build up to these. I could feel myself getting more and more, i don’t know the word, heavy? Yeah, heavy. I was about to scream, or break something, or just have a full blown panic attack when Noah called.” I explained, tears silently falling down my face. “Y/N, im so sorry. I wish this stuff wouldn’t happen, but listen,” Finn whispered, taking my face and making me look at him. “I will always be here, next time, when i’m not around, call me instead of text, then if i’m sleeping, i’ll wake up. You aren’t alone in this, okay? I will stick with you and help you figure this out okay?” He told me. “Okay.” I whispered, believing every word that came out of his mouth. Finn kissed my forehead, and pulled me into a tight hug.
I could feel Finn and I’s friendship grow stronger with every hug, every forehead kiss, ever serious conversation, but I was also feeling something else. There was a pit in my stomach, and oh so familiar one. And no, this time is wasn’t anxiety. It was different, nicer, but also possibly heartbreaking. I liked Finn.
me: sure here’s all the members real names, stage names, positions in the group, hair color each member has had, personality traits, every TV program the group as been in, 37 fancams of each member, every single song, music video, solo performances, dance practices, vlogs, memes, twitter posts, instagram posts, mnet link, naver link, directions on how to stream music videos properly, tumblr blogs to follow, and schedule for every month…but yeah thats just the basics I just really like them idk :)
I'm trying to imagine you sitting on your computer or in front of a piece of paper like "Okay. My schedule is clear. Everything is clean. Everything I need is right here. NOW LETS DRAW SOME PORN OT TRY TO MAKE MY VIEWERS CRY FOR HOURS ON END! This is my what I do... It's amazing ;u;"
You guessed it partly right, I only draw once I finished my routine :) but my brain will whisper weird things so I have to listen to music to keep my brain in a trance, that way it will focus entirely on the story that I’m working on.
For example: Mr Han valentine was created with combination from “Rude boy” “S&M” by Rihanna; Kinky Zen was created with “Work” by Rihanna ft Drake; Sucker for Pain yeah thats the name of the song. And guess what, “no hope no fear” was created by hours of listening to Baroque music lol
What's the most exciting thing in life right now?
Uh, the new album. Coming out third of March.
What are you completely tired of right now?
Uhh... I dunno. Walking Dead. I can't seem to get into it. I'm on season four and it's just, I haven't-
I'm there as well! Which episode are you on right now?
I'm on like episode five? They're all ill and they're coughing up blood, and-
Oh, yeah. It gets better though. Keep on watching it bro.
See, everyone's been saying that, but I've watched like sixty episodes now, and I'm like, I can't quite... so yeah, I'm trying to get through it.
What song took you the least amount of time to write?
Thinking Out Loud.
What's the first thing that you do when you get an idea for a song?
Uhh, I shut the doors and go away from people.
If you could teach one subject at a school, what would it be?
Music. I'm actually going back to teach music at my old school soon.
Beautiful, I like that. Did you ever have detention during growing up and going to school?
'Course, all the time.
All the time? Every day?
All the time.
What's your favorite drink?
Uhhh... beer. Ale. Like ale. Good, good English ale. Does Finland do good ale?
I don't know about that. Not so good. It's okay, but I think it's better in England.
Yeah. You can't drink too much of it though 'cause it's so heavy, it just, I just fall asleep. So I have three and I fall asleep. But the first one is like... glorious.
What's your favorite food?
...Fish and chips? I reckon. Fish and chips. If you give me a fish and chips and an ale, pfft, game over. That's my day.
That's perfect. That's heaven. What's one thing you need to have in your fridge always? No matter what-
Ketchup? With fish and chips.
I've actually refused to eat fish and chips when there wasn't any ketchup. I just think it's a travesty.
I get that. What's your favorite movie of all time?
Oh that's a good one. Classic. Favorite TV show?
A show called Love/Hate actually. It's an Irish TV show, like Gangland Dublin. It's amazing.
What's the funniest thing you've ever read about yourself on the internet?
That I introduced Adele and her husband Simon. Um, 'cause I do - I now - know them, but like when that came out I, well I'd met Adele, but I'd never met Simon. So I don't know how I could've introduced them.
Would you love to work with Adele?
Yeah. I don't think anyone's going to work with Adele. I think Adele kind of doesn't want to work with anyone. I think she does her own thing. So yeah, I think I'd say yes but I don't think it would ever happen.
What's the best way to relax for Ed Sheeran?
Sleep. Always a good way, yeah.
That's what I do as well. Name one thing you can't live without.
Um. My cats.
How many cats do you have?
Two. And they're GREAT.
Are you thinking about getting a third one?
I think it'd be unfair. They're sisters, so if you add another cat into the mix it might get weird.
What scares you the most?
Uh, heights. Yeah.
Me too, I'm afraid of heights. Have you ever done a bungee jump?
I did, yeah. I hated it. Have you done it?
Really, you did it?! So you've probably beat that then.
No, no it's made it even worse. Even worse, yeah. Never do it.
Really? Okay, I'm not gonna do it then. Thanks for the tip man.
Oh god, I'm just remembering falling down that, like oh god, it was horrible.
What was your first job?
My first job, I worked in a pub. I washed, I did the washing up in a pub.
If you could travel to any place in the whole world, where would you go?
...Iceland. Iceland again. I love, I love, I love Iceland.
So you've been there, like-?
Once. But it was one of the best places I've ever been to.
Have you ever been to Finland?
Yeah. I've been to Finland, yeah. I think I played a small show in Finland once.
If you were in a boyband, what would the band's name be?
[Laughs] Wrong Direction, I love that. What's the best piece of advice you've ever received?
Always be nice to people.
That's cool. It works out every time. If you could work with any artist in the world, who would it be?
Beyonce. Beyonce. I have worked with her before, but not on an original song.
Could you name three things that make you happy right now? This Wednesday.
Uh, my cats. Pictures of my cats. And hearing about my cats. I like my cats. Three things.
[Laughs] What's the biggest no-no purchase you've ever bought?
No-no? Astin Martin. Astin Martin, yeah. I only drove it a couple of times.
Really?! How much was it?
It wasn't cheap. I feel like, I felt... I got it, and I felt cool. And then I felt like an idiot. I don't think sports cars are for me.
Do you still have it?
I do still have it, yeah. I let my manager's wife drive it. She uses it.
American knowledge of the States, as known by an American
everyone knows us best for being the most difficult about desegregation
the biggest state and the most ignored-essentially Canada
hot hot hot dry as hell ha ha ha this is hell
Little Rock Nine- also, we are not an extension of Kansas, like at all
LA, San Francisco, the most chill hippy liberals you'll ever meet mixed in with warring druglords, the richest people in the nation, homeless people sleeping on the sidewalk, and a flamboyant gay night scene
we legalized weed and now ppl won't shut up about it
the c is silent asshole
old people, alligators, and an interesting blend of liberals and conservatives shooting swamp monsters
somehow we're more racist than Alabama
lol school, what school
fuck off and don't make fun of my name- also, potatoes
stop illinoying me, haha- there's nothing here
HOOSIER COLLEGE BASKETBALL, home of the angry religious road signs
you fly over us sometimes when you're visiting California
Wizard of Oz and the Westboro Baptist Church
yeah yeah go on, make your jokes about chicken but let's see you resist it bitch
parlez-vous français,salope now enjoy our fucking crawfish
lobsters and commercials about our famed lobster
the most liberal conservatives you will ever meet
boston tea party, boston massacre, we don't pronounce our r's and that's all anyone remembers
we hate Ohio and most of us work for Ford, General Motors Or Chrysler
we're like Canadians but American
it takes like five different songs to remember how to spell our name
our name sounds like misery because that's what it is to live here
montana, mountain, geh it?
half of our state is like Children of the Corn but with less activity
Las Vegas and nothing else, literally nothing
taxes are for communists
we're shaped like a dollar sign, also new york city is totally ours don't believe what anyone says
every one of us has seen a UFO and Spanglish is our official language
we have more than one city you know
biscuists, sweet tea, south carolina is just a knockoff of us
lawnmower races, lol jackets are for the weak, "how are things" "eh, not so bad."
shut up about Glee and we're not fucking iowa, cheap beer, and fuck CNN
We can and will deep-fry anything we want, just try and stop us
the Oregon trail game.
ya want some pop? also, i just hit a deer with my car, wanna come over for dinner, we have deer meat
size don't matter, this is the best state, and you probably only know us cuz of family guy but whatever
Praise Jesus! shrimp, grits, and conservatives, and Southern hospit- wait, what the fuck did you just say about North Carolina?
we're below another Dakota
nashville is fun to say and that dumb pickup line, oh my god, i get it, you're the only ten-i-see, fuck off and shove the bible right up your
trip onto my lawn and I'll blow your head off and it's my god-given right as an american goddamnit burn a flag and i'll be shovin' it up your yuppie ass later
Mormons and that little smudge on the map that's a lake
skiing and the NRA loves using us as a misrepresented statistic
the confederacy didn't win the war, but we sure as hell didn't lose it *burns textbook
it rains. and sometimes twilight fans come to brood.
we split off from Virginia and we thought we were cool but now no one notices us- NOTICE US VIRGINIA
cheese is a valid form of US currency shut up
Another year had came and gone and Joseph Sugg was turning another year older. As an annual tradition for every member of the Buttercream Gang, the boys were taking Joe out for the night with the main goal of not letting him go home alone.
The boys had been planning Joe’s birthday activities for a few weeks leading up to his birthday, in hopes to make the oldest member feel young again.
When the night of Joe’s birthday finally rolled around, the boys started the night off with a nice dinner, ordering a few pre drinks before their night really took off.
ok SO a few months ago i made a fandom family page for hitting 1k and since then ive gained quite a few more followers and im rly close to another follower milestone so i decided to redo my entire fandom family and uhhh yeah here we go:
So I was bored and decided to check out Google Trends cuz i dont have a life or anything significant to do with my time :’)
I checked out the global top charts of 2016 and went throu all the categories (Pokemon Go was number 1 on trending searches….why am i surprised?)
Then I go down to “Musicians” ….
and i go throu the list and the last one at number 5 is a Japanese name.
Obviously that’s gonna peak my interest cuz this is the GLOBAL charts meaning these searches are trending AROUND THE WHOLE WORLD. So to have a Japanese musician trending in 2016 and for him to be number 5 on the google top charts means this guys song is either a fckn meme of some sort that blew up some how or…. its legitimately good.
so obviously im gonna search him up cuz wtf?!
AND GUESS WHO THIS GUY IS?!
YEAH THATS RIGHT!!!
HISTORY MAKER?!?! LMFAOOOO WHY DIDN’T I GUESS THIS BEFORE WTFF!!! :’)
Of course some ppl might have recognised his name but I DIDN’T!!! Cuz i NEVER searched up the artist for ‘History Maker’ so I didn’t know his name in the first place so you can imagine how chocked i was when i realised why this guy was trending in 2016….AND I LAUGHED SOO HARDDD!!!
i asked my brother some questions after newsies live
“ill give honest… dont get mad at me if you dont like what i say”
whos your favourite?
“UH… um……. can i say top 3? well my favourite is les… jack…then.. .then… daney. davey. but my favourites les. OH. CRUTCHIE. crutchie’s third.”
what do you think of race?
leans back “… hes, um… hes a funny character, but hes probably gonna get cancer"
"dont get mad at me. hes funny, hes a funny character- hes gonna get cancer. and one more thing- how come every time he put the cigar in his mouth, no smoke came out? he just put it in there, then took it out”
what do you think of romeo?
“romeo… what i think of romeo? its hard to say… GOOFY. hes goofy and hes funny i like romeo and he was like ‘HOWD SHE KNOW MY NAME’ when she was just saying romeo…and juliet. so hes goofy and funny… hes like goofy and goofs around”
whats your favourite song?
“my favourite song… ah thats hard ………
OH SHIZ!!!! …………….
i remember enjoying one… but i dont know which one i enjoyed ….
my favourites crutchie… yeah. crutchies solo. and then… crutchies solo is my favourite, but i still like the one at the start- with crutchie and jack. and every other song. crutchies my favourite. crutchie’s song is my favourite. les doesnt have a song”
what do you think of medda?
"oh! um! i like her… shes really nice because shes really nice to jack… starts playing minecraft vid by accident and she was giving jack money! for what he enjoyed to do- draw”
what do you think of katherine?
“katherine… who was katherine?"
"oh katherine. oh katherine. um… hm. OH. katherine was like sassy and shed joke aorund and make jokes and i liked how she like betrayed her father to go on jacks side”