the trail to forever
Summary: Keeping a secret is hard, but keeping a secret from his best friend is even harder, especially when you’ve always seemed to know him better than he knows himself.
Pairing: Jungkook | Reader
Genre: Fluff; Spiderman AU
Word Count: 6,410
Author’s Note: Tom Holland filled my heart with too much fluff, so I did what I had to do.
There are moments where it still feels like dream, where the reality of the situation still hasn’t sunk in, where he can wake up and go to school and come home and think that perhaps his memories of that accident in the lab hadn’t been memories but mere dreams instead. Or even a nightmare, depending on how he wanted to look at it.
He would think that all the radioactive spider stuff as well as the aftermath had been in his head, at least, until he lifted a desk or caught something flying at him from unimaginable speeds or unintentionally latched himself to his bedroom ceiling—although it would be better not to ask, given that he still doesn’t entirely know how he had done it himself. The powers that had come from the acquisition of a mishap made sure to introduce itself to Jungkook in increments that he couldn’t control or wasn’t entirely aware of himself. Jungkook knows that he’s still trying to understand and learn the full capability of his techniques and abilities that he’s gained, trying to make sense of the situation as a whole, yet some days are harder than others. Especially since he has to undergo all of these things on his own, not really trusting other people to hold such a secret but not really having many people to tell the secret to.
He’s never been the type of person with an overload of friends or individuals he could count on and rely on, given that all his past friendships are messy and nonexistent; yet, it’s different with the handful of people who have stuck by him through thick and thin. With a secret so important, so life-altering, so dangerous, there’s so much more at risk than just an eye roll and a fight and a discussion about ‘making better choices’. Jungkook may not have too many friends, but the ones who are in his life are extremely important to him and the potential consequences has kept his lips shut for the past few months.
More than the abandonment, Jungkook is scared of the fear. He worries that upon the realization, upon the understanding of what he has become and what he is capable of, those by his side would no longer be there and he would truly be alone. He doesn’t think he could stand the shock, the wide eyes or parted lips, the tense silence.
Basically, the same look he’s getting right now—from you.
Wait a second.