yeah idk what's wrong with me

me, giving the babadook his daily bucket of worms from 7 feet away in my basement: h-h-h-here y-you go m-m-mr. babadook i-i hope… i hope they’re to you’re l-liking…. 

the babadook, screeching inhumanly for a moment before stopping abruptly: ellie should i have stayed in the closet?

me, shocked at his forwardness to show his emotions, letting my guard down as my inevitable need to comfort others overwhelms me: b-baba, no… sweetheart don’t you ever think that… you are loved. you are valid. you are an inspiration to all of us. please tell me you’re not rethinking coming to pride?

the babadook, clicking his long, spindly fingers together and gently kicking the bucket of earthworms with his toe: i dunno… everyone just has this predisposed idea about me that i’m just like. a stereotypical gay guy, not that there’s anything wrong with that but it’s like… idk. i just wanna be accepted y’know? like i just love men a lot and it took me a long time to be able to say that… you know what i mean?

me, sitting down next to him and offering him a worm as we chill on the basement floor: yeah dude i feel you. tell you what… you think over it for the next day or two, and if you don’t wanna go i wont force you. but, those people who think those things of you are such a small minority that they hardly matter in the grand scheme of things. you’re important and loved and valid and you’re gay! and there’s no right or wrong way to BE gay, no matter what straight people say.

the babadook, slurping some worms: ur right ellie, thanks… ur a real one…

me, touching my hand to my chest in quiet contemplation, shaking my head gently: no i… thank You baba. really. thank You.


A Month of Spook - (17/31)

↳ What’s This? - Fall Out Boy

Juliette Ferrars throughout the series
  • Juliette in Shatter Me: I fucking hate Warner I hate him I need him to die he is such a terrible sadistic man ugh but omg Adam Adam Adam I love Adam he and I were meant to be and I love him omgggggg
  • Juliette in Unravel Me: Okay so maybe Warner isn't so bad but idk I still kind of fucking hate him but wait Adam isn't so good he's actually kind of a jerk but idk ugh why do I have such terrible taste in guys aND WHY AM I ATTRACTED TO WARNER WTF IS WRONG WITH ME HELP MY EMOTIONS ARE CONFUSING ME HELP IM DROWNING
  • Juliette in Ignite Me: You know what? Fuck it. Warner is hot. Warner is sexy. Idgaf anymore, the cat is out of the bag like omfg he is fineeeee. I love Warner, all he needs is love, all he is misunderstood he just needs to be loved and I love him so yeah. Also fuck you Adam I never liked you anyway k bye

can we talk about how illogical spock prime’s reaction to meeting jim on delta vega is though

so the first thing he says is

“james t kirk”

which okay makes sense - spock either recognised him by appearance (unlikely because yeah cpine and shatner look similar but not that similar) or idk the “touch of his mind” or his essentially kirkness or smth

and then he says

“how did you find me?”

okay hold the frick frack up spocko

you’ve just met a man who you know is kirk, but who is…considerably younger than the last time you saw kirk - who you know to be dead, by the way - and also has notable physical differences to kirk, such as the wrong colour eyes

what exactly makes you believe that this guy knew you were missing and followed you through the black hole and came looking for you? there is nothing logical or sensible about that conclusion

so can we take a moment to appreciate how soul destroying this illogic is?

that in the moment of his life where he is hurting the most, the most lost, the most confused, the most guilty, all spock knows is that james t kirk has somehow stumbled into his life again and, completely illogically, but emotionally, sentimentally, for a few seconds spock actually believes that james t kirk is there to do what he always does, what he is best at

he has come to find him and bring him home

TBT Pilot Script Notes

First off, the script introduces Kat as “gifted and overpraised as a kid” which i loved lol

When Jane is talking about the pitches she sent to Jacqueline while the girls are walking into the office there was supposed to be a line where she says “Do you think I’ll get to do the one about sexting the wrong number?” to which Kat replies “You did not seriously pitch something from my personal life!” KAT HAS SENT A SEXT TO THE WRONG NUMBER AND I AM LIVING LMAO i want @starchasertonight to write an AU ficlet where thats how she meets Adena

Richard is introduced as Richard “DICK” Hunter which i found hilarious until it said they call him that “because all the girls would like to get on his” ://

When Adena speaks Farsi when Kat shows up at her studio she’s supposed to say “Sorry, give me a second” idk if thats what Nikohl said but yeah. And Adena is actually a little bit meaner in the script. She starts off the convo by saying “I can’t believe I have to tell you this but: No means no.” Im glad they cut it.

Carl the driver tells the girls “I’ve been driving Scarlet girls around for 15 years. This doesn’t even come close to my weirdest day” lol I guess stalking exes is just a normal day at Scarlet

After Adena says “Those are illegal in my country” shes supposed to give Kat a smile and say “…but I’m well travelled” ( ͡º ͜ʖ ͡º)

So Katie was 100% right Im pretty sure the dildo packing scene was dark because they didnt have the set for Adena’s apartment ready yet. It wasnt mentioned at all that they had to do it by candle light lol

“Adena puts her hand over her own HEART. The girls make eye contact. It gets a little intense. Flustered, Kat looks away.”

After Kat asks her why she still wears the hijab Adena is supposed to say it liberates me “As do my tattoos.” which I wish they had kept.

“Kat and Adena stare at each other, a real connection forming. Who is going to be the first to look away? Suddenly, Kat’s cellphone rings.”

“They end with a firm but loaded handshake.”

“Kat turns and looks out the window. She’s thinking about her victory. But also still thinking about Adena. She feels like she has more she wants to say. Slowly she spins her chair so she’s facing away from her glassy office door. Then takes off her top. What the hell is she doing? Oh my God. She’s taking a TOPLESS SELFIE. Adena gets the picture from Kat. The message accompanying the picture says: You touched me here. Adena reacts in surprise when she sees the photo. Yes, Kat is topless. However, she’s drawn a PINK HEART over her chest.”

For the final scene where Jacqueline sees them drinking the champagne in the fashion closet theyre supposed to be making toasts. Jane says one about kicking ass at her dream job. Sutton says she thinks shes falling in love. And Kat says “I think I like a girl…”

i love danger days so much but i can never listen to it in whole because it’s just so sad to me, so nostalgic. maybe it’s because there’s so much ending in the album; the fab four is supposed to die, it’s the last album before my chem broke up. after vampire money i just feel so wistful for times i never even knew of when they existed. even just thinking about it leaves me a little sad and achy. 

now, don’t get me wrong, i totally jam to the songs. they’re bright and fun in the moment, but once it’s all over things turn melancholic. i wonder if that might be how it was meant to be listened to, or if it’s just me.

i dont know how to say this but… this fandom needs more gay content

New Heroes have been added! As well as a new chapter: Heroes of Dawn!

(p.s: not really, but since IntSys won’t do it ill take matters into my own hands)

(p.s.s: if theres anybody you want to maybe see in heroes hmu!! )

Prompt of “What if I kissed you right now?

Beca: Living with Fat Amy provided me acceptance of all the odd things in the world

Chloe: ?

Beca: Like, nothing can surprise me anymore

Chloe: Really?

Beca: She literally sent me flying out of a plane!

Chloe: What if you landed in the other side of the world?

Beca: Yeah, she already told me this story

Chloe: What if aliens landed in this side of the world?

Beca: I would be okay with that

Chloe: What if Lily had a twin she didn’t eat and they reverse days being here?

Beca: Told you, nothing can surprise me

Chloe: What if I kissed you right now?


Beca: That’s… that…

Chloe: Aha!

Beca: That wouldn’t surprise me either, okay?

Chloe: Really? Let me check out

anonymous asked:

Can u help me explain the difference between liking a founding father and glorifying them bc ppl keep saying that its wrong bc of slavery and what not but, yeah theyre bad but like, idk how to explain it

ooooooooooh fuck man i got a lot to say on this subject but im teaching the kids at my church rn so i’ll make it brief using jefferson as an example:

As a black woman, I hate Thomas Jefferson. As a historian, I’m fascinated by him. While it would be easier to forget my own morals and ignore the horrible things that he’s done, it wouldn’t be correct of me, as both a black woman *and* a historian.
A common misconception is that if we’re interested by a problematic figure, we worship them, but that’s not always the case. I take care to recognize and keep in mind Jefferson’s [many maaaany] faults, even when I feel like empathizing with him.
However, I feel like the more prevalent problem (especially from Hamilton fans) is actively choosing to overlook the facts (for example, Jefferson was a racist, a rapist, and a slaveowner). With Hamilton specifically, the line does become a bit more blurred, seeing as the majority of the roles are played by poc and the personalities of the figures are changed to fit the moral expectations of our current society (to put it more simply, they don’t mention “the whole slavery thing”), but what I see a lot are white fans who refer to the actual historic figures as well as the hamilton!verse ones as perfect human beings, free from fault, which simply isn’t true and can be very harmful to people of color like myself

“I’m nuts, baby I’m mad! The craziest friend that you’ve ever had!You think I’m psycho, you think I’m gone! Tell the psychiatrist something is wrong! Over the bend, entirely bonkers, you like me best, when I’m off my rocker. Tell you a secret, I’m not alarmed. So what If I’m crazy, the best people are..” - Mad Hatter, Melanie Martinez 

Everyone is mad in wonderland ^^ Wow, what a way to spend seven hours of my life. WORTH IT! 

Also he is saying something along the lines of, “Bonjour Princesse.” Idk, but I love him!



I looked cute af tonight. But I still get really uncomfortable when people come up and randomly compliment me on my looks. Like skin crawling fidgety uncomfortable. That happened a lot tonight and I didn’t handle it well 😔😔😔i’m hopeless.

anonymous asked:

What does Jappomutt mean


My dad is white and my mom is Japanese. When I was a kid, I didn’t get the fact that I wasn’t exactly white because thats what my dad told me I was.

He was a super racist dude and after a whole incident at school happened where I called two girls the N word with the hard ER (I was six, my dad is probably a KKK member, who tf knows? he’s not in my life anymore thank GOD!) and the school called my mom. She explained to me it was like when a boy from my school said “Your mom is a jab” and I kicked the shit out of him because it was wrong, making me come to the realization that my mom was Japanese, yeah I knew that, but that also made me Japanese.

Fastforward a week later and my dad and I were in a store, he called a mixed boy (black mother, white father) a mutt. I remember going home and sitting at the dining room table, staring at my parent’s wedding picture. My mom walked in and asked what I was doing,

I then asked her “Mom, am I a mutt?”


Jappo=I’m not gonna forget the fact I’m Asian just because my dad wanted me to (idk I also liked the O at the end its cute).

Mutt=Yep, mixed boy.

I’m a proud Japanese mixed boy and I won’t let people forget it the way I did.


I grew up among those who sold the illusion of love, and then I was trained to make my heart cold in favor of the kill. Everything I have been taught says what I feel is wrong. Yet I cannot help it.

Main Reason I'm Team Sucy

Hi it’s me. I love Sucy x Akko.

So the main reason is episode eight (if that’s the wrong number I mean the one where Akko goes into Sucy’s mind and they just yah you know??). Because that whole episode just gave us so much potential. which was sadly never followed up on but like if diakko ain’t canon idk what is

Anyway we’re here to talk about my otp not Diakko. Basically we’ll start at the cinema. You know when Akko goes to the cinema with the other Sucys and they’re playing back memories?? Yeah so we see Sucy playing tricks on Akko and in general, it’s kinda funny.

Akko is at first a little miffed but starts to laugh. Note how most of these memories include Akko.

Then we get to the big part. Akko’s confused and asks one of the Sucys what’s going on. And that Sucy acts happy and is like “Oh it’s always playing, I love it” ( or close enough to). So basically, the memory of Sucy meeting Akko is always playing. She just keep remembering it.

And can we appreciate how the style of the tv thing changes to be so much nicer, obviously how Sucy sees it. And all these parts of Sucy just sit watching it play and they all love it. You know what I’m getting at?? I mean like, this is the girl that tried to sacrifice them to get a chicken feather. If this ain’t something idk what is

And then we get to the kiss part. (can we appreciate that Sucy was in room 666 tho? I mean I haven’t seen much on that and it’s honestly the best ).

So the kiss. I mean like I understand Akko was under pressure but even she could have though to idk maybe pour the potions in Sucy’s mouth?? Because that’s the logical thing?? But no. She was like no I’m gonna kiss her. Which take anyway you want but yeah. You see.

Also, the dragon creature. It actually stopped and started like fangirling because Akko was going to kiss Sucy. Hahaha so funny, it’s us fans idk. But really if you look into it, I do think it implies Sukko.

Because no one can deny that that dragon wanted Akko to kiss Sucy. And this dragon is made up of parts of Sucy . So basically it’s parts of Sucy wanting Akko to kiss her.

Also (here comes the sadder part), this creature was made out of the Sucys that were going to be killed. Sucy was killing these parts of her off to survive but Akko saved them.

So basically this was Sucy killing off the parts of herself that want her to kiss Akko, to survive. And that just gives me feels.

Also the kind!Sucy was a part of this. Sucy was killing off the part of her that was kind. Why? She’s not a horrible person, she really cared about Akko and Lotte. So why?

Because this part of her, the nice part, was getting feelings for Akko. And she was getting rid of it.

The court scene shows that it wasn’t even up for debate. Kind!Sucy must die because Sucy needs to survive. Funny? Was it really? Or did it have a deeper meaning? Hmm….. (also Akko being protective over the kind side of Sucy, just fuck me up down and sideways)

Also I like to think these feelings remained because we never saw if the dragon died. Or what happened to those parts of Sucy. So for all we know they survived and so did these feelings.

Well that was my thoughts ^-^ Team Sucy ftw

anonymous asked:

hey i dont even know if u take prompts or anything and i know ur super busy with Ships and other things but when phil tweeted about watching baby driver and how he cant drive i just thought of him and dan going up to phils parents house on holiday and phil taking the car so they could go somewhere like grocery shopping or to get take out or whatever and them kinda freaking out and laughing bc phil hasnt driven in so long and. yeah. like maybe for future reference? if u need a fic idea? idk lol

This probably wasn’t what you wanted. I honestly intended to have them freak out or for something to go wrong but they just got all soft on me and then… yeah. This happened. 

Hope you enjoy it anyway. 

This was totally just for writing warm-up so it’s really rough and unedited and will only be posted here, not on AO3 :)

Also I always like having a bunch of prompts in my inbox just for occasions like this so - keep ‘em coming everyone!

“I’m really not sure this is a good idea,” Dan says, hesitating with his hand on the door handle even though he heard the central locking click under his fingers.

“It’s fine.”

The problem with Phil was that he bumbled into these things, over confident, flippant almost, joyful in this assumption that things would be fine. And it never seemed to faze him when they weren’t. Which worked fine for the moments he jumped too quickly on a computer game, sure he’d be okay to do it only to plummet to his death. Sure, it wasted a life and Dan could get eye strain from rolling them so hard but no one was actually physically harmed in all of that. This was a different matter.

“You haven’t driven in ages.”

He still doesn’t move, just looks at him over the car roof as Phil pulls the door open and ducks into the driver’s seat, out of his line of vision.

“So?” he says as he does.

Dan tries bending to look through the window but Phil is fiddling with the seatbelt and resolutely ignoring him so getting in the car is the only thing for it.

“So what if you have an accident?” Dan says sliding into the passenger seat.

“I won’t,” Phil shrugs.

“I want you to know that I’m putting my life in your hands,” Dan says clicking his own seatbelt into place as Phil starts the engine.

“I have driven before,” Phil notes sliding the car into gear.

“Yes,” Dan nods, “And I feared for my life then too. It was ages ago.”

“Shut up,” Phil says, lifting his foot on the clutch so the car begins to move backwards. “I need to concentrate.”

Phil twists in his seat to look out of the back window.

“You’re not meant to do that,” Dan reprimands, completely ignoring Phils request for him to shut up. “Use your damn mirrors.”

“I prefer doing it this way.”

Dan curls a hand around the seat and grips. It’s not going to do anything if they do have an accident, and he’s mostly convinced that it won’t actually happen, but he can’t help doing it anyway.

He stays quiet at they pull out of the drive. He’d known it was dangerous when Mr Lester brought it up over dinner the night before, but had managed to remain silent on the issue even as they were ringing up to put Phil on the insurance that morning, only because he hadn’t really thought Phil would go through with it. It wasn’t until he’d caught sight of the wildly enthusiastic look in Phil’s eye as his dad passed him the keys that Dan knew it was actually going to happen.

“You can open your eyes,” Phil says.

Dan hadn’t realised he’d closed them.

When he does open them he’s greeted with the sight of Phil competently moving the car down the road. Something about the way Phil changes gear and checks his side mirror at the same time as they navigate a junction makes Dan’s stomach flip.

“You like it now.”

It’s Dan’s turn to tell Phil to shut up, but he doesn’t.

“It’s fine, I know I’m all manly and stuff driving my dad’s Volvo.”

Dan snorts and whacks Phil’s bicep with the back of his hand. “You spork.”

Dan begins to relax as they navigate a few more junctions without incident, even leans over to fiddle with the radio.

“I’m glad we could get out today,” Phil says.

“Yeah, s'good.”

“I thought we wouldn’t be able to when the trains were cancelled.”

“I mean, it wouldn’t have been the end of the world if we hadn’t gone, Phil.” Dan points out, “It was just an idea.”

“No,” Phil insists, reaching a hand over to squeeze at Dan’s thigh, “I want to go. We haven’t been back in ages.”  

“Both hands on the wheel,” Dan admonishes him, but his voice is fond and his face is moreso.

When they get further into the centre of town it starts to get busier and Phil’s brow furrows in concentration as they make their slow way in, navigating around the one way system and roadworks that send them through a diversion at one point.

Dan slips his hand on to the back of Phil’s neck as runs his fingers into the short hair at his nape.

“I’m beginning to like the car thing,” Dan says.

“I’m not,” Phil squints, and Dan can see the telltale  signs of travel sickness setting in as Phil has to concentrate on the road. This is usually the point on the train Phil would close his eyes, stop trying to focus on anything at all seeing as how it’s the movement and focussing which tends to make him feel queasy.

“Can’t do this on the train though,” Dan says, fluttering his hand again, ruffling Phil’s hair.

Phil’s head pushing back in to the touch and he lets out a little hum.

“Keep doing it til we get there?” Phil asks shyly, “It’s helping.”

Dan nods thought Phil can’t really see him and keeps up the gentle rhythm of his fingers.

They make it to the car park and Phil sighs when he turns off the engine.

“I’m beginning to remember why I didn’t like driving,” he says, head leaning back on the headrest.

“We got here in one piece though,” Dan points out, “no horrific accidents or anything.”

Phil rolls his neck until he’s looking at Dan and pouts.

“Come on,” Dan encourages him, “Let’s go be stupid sentimental idiots and get coffee at Starbucks.”

“Think our sofa will be free?” Phil asks ever hopeful, even though it hasn’t been free the last few times they’ve come back.


“How did we manage to claim it every time back in the day?” Phil asks as they get out of the car, the central locking clicking again as the doors lock behind them.

“We must have just looked nauseatingly pathetic,” Dan suggests, “No one wanted to stop us being all weird and codependent.”

“We’re still weird and codependent,” Phil insists, “Just… with shorter hair.”

Dan smiles and shoves his hands in his pockets. He’s still hesitant about the public thing, probably always will be. Phil is too, he can just get away with looking a bit fonder every now and again because he doesn’t have a broody socially awkward persona to maintain.

They step into the lift of the multi storey car park and make their way down to street level, their feet knowing the way before they even think about it. The car is new, the destination isn’t.

“Will you be okay driving back?” Dan asks, drifting a little closer so that his elbow brushes Phil’s.

“Yeah,” Phil assures him, “Traffic should be lighter and I know the way now so I won’t have to concentrate as hard.”

They have coffee, and it’s the same as it always is and there isn’t much remarkable about the place except the memories that it evokes. They take the opportunity of being in Manchester city centre to visit a few other places and Dan buys yet another pair of shoes even though Phil insists he doesn’t need them. Phil ends up getting a jumper with whales on it that Dan rolls his eyes at fondly in the next shop so they end up even in the disapproved purchase stakes.

It’s dark by the time they make it back to the car, plastic bags swinging from their hands.

“I had a good day,” Dan says, smiling widely as they get in.

“Me too.”

Neither of them are surprised. Just being with each other has always meant it would be a good day, regardless of what they’re doing. The nostalgia has been nice though.

Dan feels his head sinking ten minutes into the drive home. The orange streetlights are flashing across his face at rhythmic intervals and it begins to rain so that the soft patter of it on the window is a comforting sound, bracketed by the soft swish of the windscreen wipers across the glass.

Dan lets his head drop against the window and closes his eyes, he feels himself begin to drift into sleep, relaxed and happy. He lets himself slide into unconsciousness, confident in the knowledge that Phil will get them home.

anonymous asked:

As someone who ships Shance I was v upset bc I saw this whole post of people basically saying Shiro was abusive to Lance in the show and that he purposefully puts Lance down by not giving him the "special attention" Lance needs and idk it's like they were tearing down Shiro to lift up Lance and I love them both so much and it's just... not true??? but yeah, anyway, point is. your Shance makes me super happy and thank you for your positivity 💕💕

they made a post about fucking what now with the what how. 

what the actual fuck.

I meaaaaaaaaaaaaan, okay, alright, okay, alright, …..alright okay. Each to their own, we all have our interpretations……..BUT COME ON. 

Shiro’s ?????Not?????Abusive????I’m????Perplexed?????


I just finished my apple slice and now im even more so in distress wtf. 

Okay, okay, okay, alright, okay. Anon, let’s focus on the fluff bc we DESERVE fluff after that post. 

Please imagine the following:

  • Lance resting his chin on Shiro’s shoulder as the older teen is scrolling down the tablet in his hands. Lance knows he has been at it for hours so he does the next best thin: he starts poking Shiro’s cheek with a finger. It goes for about five minutes, before Shiro’s mouth twtiches and Lance cheers in victory when Shiro fully turns around and tackles Lance in the couch, tickling the brunet’s sides with no mercy and both of them grinning wildly as Lance’s laughter echoes around. 
  • Lance after a long hard almost hopeless mission, hiding on his bed and then Shiro comes in, wraps an blanket around his shoulders and pulls him closer, keeping him warm, safe and reminding him that they are both together on this. Thye both cry and they both support each other, and they both whisper reassurances and praise.
  • Lance and Shiro sparing and it may look like Shiro is winning, but then Lance pulls out a trick under his sleeve, (not literally, he’s in a tank top, heeey yooo Shiro, his eyes are up there), and suddendly Shiro’s on the floor, with a sweaty panting Lance above him sitting on his stomach with a smug grin before he swoops down and covers Shiro’s face with kisses.(( “What is this?” “Your punishment for losing.” “I’m never buying you a dictionary so you can stay with that definition. Pls and thx.” ))

I’m so lame, lmao, I’m sorry??? I just needed fluffy shance. 

Ok but when Kara and Lena first start dating they’re not really gonna realize it at first? Like it goes from just friendly lunches to now they’re hanging out like every day and Kara is Lena’s plus one at events because she has no other friends and then one night one of them is Sad and so the other just holds them then they end up sharing a bed and waking up the next day like holding hands and then they like it so they just keep holding hands constantly and then there’s cheek kisses and forehead kisses and more cuddling and then all of a sudden they’re just kissing and they realize like “uhhh wait friends don’t usually kiss…” And they play that “ok what are we…?’ game until one of them is like “wait are we dating?” “Idk I was gonna ask you?” “Ok. Wanna be my gf?’ "yeah we already basically are….”

I love facts and soulmates

This thing is just my thoughts and im not saying its true, so read if you want to I guess lol

Look I know I might sound like a total jikook trash for this (which I am btw), but like you know how bighit and bts are and we know that anything can be a hint to something in the album. I believe we all noticed the many colours of the rainbow and all that gay shit that’s been going on in their photos (like that gay asf unicorn 🦄 jikook had a photoshoof featuring👀), Now in the pictures where each member was wearing different colours, jungkook was wearing yellow.
While watching Serendipity im pretty sure we all noticed the yellow balls and the yellow blanket and the yellow everything, what if these things are supposed to kind of represent jungkook in some way?

So I just tried looking for what blankets could mean and almost every site/ article I came across they had to do with security, comfort, and warmness (So like a place you go to when you’re stressed and need comfort). when jimin wrapped the blanket around himself, and then when he took it down he found himself on a roof top with a night sky so beautiful and full of bright stars.
I don’t really know what to make of when he pushed the small ball away and then it came back bigger so im not gonna talk about it (maybe it has to do with how their relationship was at first and how it progressed to what it is now? Idk).

❗NOTE❗ This is just me daydreaming about how my ship could be real, and is nothing to take seriously and get mad over (and if anyone has anything to add to this please feel comfortable to do so). Okay peace ✌✌