I knew I was too early to this concert. It started at 7 and I was here at 2. I wasn’t the only one though. There were about 50 fans already lined up to get in.
I promised my best friend Annie I would get there early and get us a spot in line, not that I was sure she would show up. I love Annie but she’s really flakey. If she found a boy she’d be gone for the night. That scared me about tonight. She was my ride home.
I stood in the blazing heat, worrying my ass off about tonight. Security started showing up and that only freaked me out more. I began sweating and breathing became harder. Shit, not here. I didn’t need a panic attack.
“Miss, are you alright?” A security guard asked. I shook my head. “What’s wrong?”
“Panic attacks.” I breathed.
“Oh I understand. My daughter gets those really bad. Would you like to come inside? Get a drink of water and some cool air?” He asked.
“Y-yes please.” I said.
“Alright follow me.” He smiled, leading me into the venue through a security entrance. “Here take a bottle of water.” He said.
I grabbed a bottle of water and sat down in a chair he had pulled out for me. “Thank you.” I said.
“Don’t worry about it. I’m sure it’s hard enough without the heat.”
“Yeah, I usually can handle it but this was really kind of you.” I smiled.
“Did you come here all alone?” He asked.
I shook my head. “No, well sort of. My friend is supposed to meet me here but I’m not sure if she’s actually going to show.”
“Yeah, but it’s okay. I mean-”
“Fuck you Matt! You’ll never catch us!” A familiar voice interrupted me. I turned my head to see Jack and Alex zipping by on a scooter. They back tracked and stared at me. I gave them a shy smile.
“Who are you?” Jack asked. Alex slapped his shoulder for being rude.
“My name is Natalie.” I said softly.
“Not to sound rude but why are you in the venue?” Alex asked. I slowly put my hands over my ATL bracelet. I probably looked like an obsessed fan.
“I um, it got really hot and I almost passed out.” I half-lied. Anxiety isn’t really something I like to talk about.
“Oh, are you alright now?” Alex asked.
“Yes, I’m fine, thank you.”
“No problem… Want to run away from Matt with us?” Alex asked.
“Am I aloud to?” I asked timidly.
“Why not? C'mon blondie!” Jack smiled at the nickname with an outstretched hand.
“Thank you.” I whispered to the security guard. He smiled and waved me off.
“Here, hop on we can share my scooter.” Alex smiled.
“I can just run.” I said. Any other girl would die to be on a scooter with Alex Gaskarth, part of me was. But the other part of me told me it was safer to just run.
“Nooooo get on the motherfucking scooter girl.” Alex said in a girly voice. I giggled and got on. I held onto the metal of the handlebars while Alex wrapped his hands around the grips.
“Away!!!!” Jack screamed and we took of speeding through the hallways of the venue. After about 35 minutes, Matt finally caught up with us.
“Boys! Stop, get back to the dressing room you know you aren’t supposed to be running around here!” Matt scolded.
“Who are you?” Matt asked, addressing me.
“Our new best friend, obviously.” Jack smiled as Alex wrapped and arm around me.
“Obviously,” Matt mocked. “But I asked her, not you.”
“My name’s Natalie. I was about to pass out from heat when a security guard brought me in here. Alex and Jack started talking to me as they zipped past on their scooters. I’m sorry, I know I shouldn’t be here, I can leave now.” I said, stepping off of the scooter.
“Awww don’t make her leave, Matt! She’s fun. Can we keep her?” Jack asked.
I blushed, “No I don’t want to cause you guys any problems. It was nice meeting you, good luck tonight.” I began walking away when Alex’s hand gripped my wrist. Alex gave Matt a look and Matt nodded.
“You can stay on one condition, keep these boys in check for me. They don’t listen to me, maybe they will listen to you.” Matt said.
“O-okay.” I said.
“YAYYYY buddies! To the dressing room!” Jack yelled as he began to scooter fast, past Matt, taking his hat.
“Jack you fucker!” Matt yelled as he began running after him. I giggled a bit.
“Aww you have a cute laugh.” Alex said.
“Um, thanks?” I whispered.
“You’re welcome, now c'mon, we need to get back.” Alex forced me onto the scooter.
“Ayyyeee.” Zack yelled a we arrived in the dressing room.
“He’s back! With a lady friend!” Rian teased.
“Fuck off.” Alex teased.
“What’s your name?” Rian asked.
“N-Natalie.” I stuttered, I hated meeting new people.
“And you’re a fan?” Zack asked.
“Um yeah. Been a fan for like 3 years or so. This is my first show though.” I replied.
“Holy shit, that long? Wow. But you’re so mellow.” Rian said.
No shit, asshole, I’m nervous.
“What do you expect? Me flailing around because I’m talking to you guys? I’m not that kind of fan. I’m lucky enough to even be back here.” I said.
“Truth.” Alex smiled, “But we like you so it’s okay.”
“Real talk though, who’s your favorite band?” Jack asked.
“Probably Blink or Green Day.” I said.
“Hell yeah, high-five for awesome music taste.” Alex high-fived me. We spent the next few hours talking and I was starting to get a bit more comfortable with them. As the show was about to start I checked my phone like I did every five minutes hoping Annie would say she was here.
I can’t make it tonight Nat! My mom has gone pyscho! Have fun though! Give Alex a kiss for me!
Shit fuck shit fuck shit. She was my ride home tonight. Now how was I supposed to get home? I decided to enjoy the concert from side stage with Matt before I started worrying myself.
“There’s a monster standing where you should be…” Alex sang. We locked eyes for a moment and he winked. I couldn’t help but feel a bit giddy. I told him this was my favorite song off of Don’t Panic and now they were playing it. Alex Gaskarth was playing a song for me, how do you expect me to feel?
The show ended and that’s when my worries flooded back. “That was fucking fun.” Rian yelled.
“You guys did awesome! Thanks for letting me watch from back here.” I smiled shyly.
“No problem! Hey, did your friend ever show up?” Jack asked.
I shook my head. “No she didn’t. She was my ride home too, but that’s okay. I can take a cab.” Honestly, I was terrified to take a cab home by myself.
“No, you shouldn’t do that. Cab drivers can be shifty.” Zack said.
I nodded in agreement. “Yeah well.”
“You should just crash on our bus.” Alex blurted.
“I mean we are staying in a parking lot tonight anyway because we have the day off tomorrow, you can just crash on the couch and I can take you home tomorrow morning.” Alex said.
“Actually that’s not a bad idea, maybe you can show him what to do on a day off here while he drives you home.” Matt said.
“Um…okay.” I whispered. My mom was out of town, it’s not like she would know, right? And they were really nice guys, it’s not like they are going to rape me or anything. Still, my anxiety was getting to me.
“Yay slumber party!” Jack yelled.
We spent an hour or so on the bus, all of us were drinking even though I am only 18, it didn’t really matter. Soon everyone was off to bed except for me and Alex.
“Do you want to borrow a shirt? I’m sure it’s more comfortable to sleep in then what you’re wearing.”
“Uh sure.” I said softly. He went to his bunk and grabbed a shirt. “Here, put it on. Take off your shorts or don’t, I don’t really care. I can turn around if you’d like.” Alex said.
“Would you please? I’m sorry it’s just-”
“No I get it. Go on.” Alex turned. I slipped on his shirt. I took off my shorts too. I got under the blanket and coughed to let Alex know I was done. “Ah much better.” He smiled sitting down on the opposite end of the couch.
“Yeah…y'know I’m not going to be able to wash this and give it back you in time right?”
Alex smiled. “Nah keep it, it looks better on you anyways.” I blushed.
“You’re really quite, you know that, right?”
I nodded. “I know. I can’t really help it. I just worry about everything all the time and it keeps me from saying much. I’m too anxious half the time.”
“You had a panic attack this morning didn’t you?” Alex asked. I shamefully nodded. “Hey, that’s nothing to be ashamed of, okay? It happens to me all the time. You’ve just got to find a way to my let it take over your life.”
I looked up at him, trying not to let him know how ashamed I was of my anxiety. “Thanks.” I said with a shaky voice.
“Aww come here.” Alex scooter closer to me and I did the same. He wrapped his arms around me and I instantly felt better. “You’re so pretty and adorable, you shouldn’t let this run your life.” Alex said. I blushed deeply. “I’m going to give you my number, anytime you have an anxiety attack, text or call me I will listen.”
“Thank you Alex.” I whisper.
“You’re welcome, Natalie.” He kissed my cheek lightly and I knew everything was going to be okay.
Hey, sorry this one isn’t perfect. I have Finals(Midterms) next week and I’ve been studying like crazy!! After next week I should be able to write more! Hope you liked it though.
REBLOG OR LIKE IF YOU WOULD LIKE YOUR URL AND/OR A LITTLE MESSAGE TO BE PUT INTO A BOX THAT WILL THEN BE GIVEN TO TYLER OAKLEY.... that was a long title...
So yes! I have made a box in pottery (above) that will be giving to Tyler on June 6th and I feel like it needs to be filled. So what better than to fill it with URLs and notes and messages and what nots?
Deadline: June 3rd
What to do:
If you would like your URL to be placed in this box: Reblog and/or Like.
If you would like a message for Tyler to be placed in the box: Message me your message and I will type it up along with your URL.
You may do both if you would like to!
If you have any questions, comments, and/or concerns feel free to message me. :)
I have tickets to Tyler Oakley’s Slumber Party July 16th, so REBLOG this if you want your URL in the book or send me an ask if you want any special message and you can send me a pic of you that I’ll put under ur URL!
P.S. I finally got my ask box working again so you can actually send me pictures of yourself. Yay!
Today Tyler’s YouTube channel will be 8 years old!!! I can’t believe how much Tyler has achieved in 8 years. He started his YouTube channel to keep in touch with friends, and 8 years later he has been on Ellen, has done an international tour, and is bringing out a book! Wow! Tyler has come so far and done so much. I can’t wait to see what he does next!