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Not Your Average Zutara Fic Rec

So I’ve gone through a LOT of Zutara fanfiction, probably too much if I’m being honest, and finding good fics can be really hard. When looking up fic rec lists I’ve noticed that a lot of the lists are just the same select fanfictions recommended over and over (We get it, everyone and their mother loves ‘His Majesty Prefers Blue’ and ‘Stormbenders’ [I never finished HMPB, sue me]). 

So this list is for all of you who are in my shoes and can’t seem to find anything besides the same ten or fifteen stories recommended and are desperate for something new. Everything listed is complete! (If I listed the incompletes/abandoned stories I’d have a lot more chaptered stories listed… RIP ‘The Confrontational Approach’…) 

I have a lot of bookmarked stories that I have yet to read and am in the middle of (Almost caught up on @firelordandlady ‘s ‘Say Anything’!), so I’ll try to update this when I finish something I think deserves a recommendation. 

Chaptered

In the Same Candlelight by Like a Dove

In a world where there is no war, Zuko and Katara spend their summers together. Growing up is messy, embarrassing, and at times sad, but they think it might be okay because they have each other. Edited summary.

I know. I KNOW. I LITERALLY JUST SAID I WASN’T GOING TO RECOMMEND FANFICS THAT ARE ON EVERYONE’S LIST. But I NEED to mention this one. I spent so long not interested in this fic. I don’t like drastic AU’s, or modern AU’s. My taste is strictly canon divergence, so I didn’t think I would like this. I WAS SO WRONG. Trust me, if you are like me and don’t like big AU’s, read this anyway. I promise, you won’t be disappointed. Characterization is still so spot on, even with such a different take. Aang is precious. There is nothing but fluff, fluff, and fluff. It will melt you. You will probably die and your spirit will rise up smiling and beaming out rainbows and sunshine. That’s what happened to me. 

Lilacs and Lily Pads by sadladybug

A tale of clumsy courtship and calamitous court weddings, featuring awkward family encounters, floral mishaps, cultural complications, and good old fashioned fluff and conflict. Takes place in the five years following war’s end. For Zutara Week 2016. A prequel to Bones.

Clothe Me in Seasons, Dress Me in Snow is a very commonly recommended Zutara fic (And for good reason, I shed many tears reading it). But this two-shot (A companion to Bones, a smut one shot) by the same author is really underrated and beautifully written. It follows Zuko and Katara as they try to plan their wedding, as well as shows two scenes from before they got engaged that solidified the relationship to be one they knew would last. Just really well done overall and very very sweet. 

EDIT: I talked with the author and apparently it isn’t finished?? But they are apparently working on the next chapters so yay!! And each chapter is independent so it doesn’t feel unfinished.  

The Slow Path by Tazainian Devil

Eight years after the fall of Ozai, Aang returns to the friends he left behind - Taang, Zutara, Sukka

This is technically a Taang fic, and if I’m being honest I kind of just skimmed through the non-zutara chapters, but the Zutara storyline was good enough that I think it’s definitely worth the read. And the overall plot has a great premise. Be warned, it has a sequel that was never finished. 

Another Word For Alchemy by FanPanda13

Five years have passed since the Avatar defeated Fire Lord Ozai, and the members of the Gaang have all gone in their own direction. But when Aang invites them all to a Peace Summit at the North Pole and tells them of his new project, for which he will need their support, the group comes together again for adventure, fun and romance. AU. Zutara. COMPLETE.

So this fic is crazy for me. At first, it started as just really good natured fluff. The writing wasn’t anything fantastic (Although I loved how it broke the 4th wall and didn’t take itself seriously), and there were some definite OOC moments. But I had so much FUN with it. The plot (while definitely not the focus as everyone is more concerned about when Zuko and Katara will get together) was interesting, and there were some really sweet moments. It was also HILARIOUS and I had multiple moments where I genuinely laughed out loud. But then about five chapters before the end, the quality SKY ROCKETED. As the plot and mystery come together, the characters all come together in a moment that truly feels like it came from the show. Even the writing quality increases by a lot and I was genuinely shocked and impressed. Definitely recommend. 

Kyoshi Hold ‘Em by cupid-painted-blind

When a blizzard shuts down the fourth annual Peace Summit, the group has to find some way to pass the time. /Zutara, Taang, Jet/Mai, Jet/Everyone, Sukka

If you’re looking for a good crack fic, look no further. It’s post war and utter nonsense. Jet is alive for some reason??? No one questions it and he’s shipped with pretty much everyone. It’s funny, it’s decently written, there are drinking and sexy time shenanigans, and overall just lighthearted. Also, it does a great job of being a crack fic without crossing the line and becoming unfunny and just a trash fic. A lot struggle to find the balance and resort to going over the top and ridiculous, but this one does a really good job. 

Come With Me by Steamboat Ghost

Coauthored by fuzzytomato. Troubled over his newly restored honor, Zuko finds solace in the familiar guise of the Blue Spirit. In a chance meeting with the Painted Lady, a friendship is forged as the two heroes seek to help the Fire Nation’s neglected.

I’ll admit it: I’ve never gotten into Blutara fanfictions. I only read the first couple chapters of HMPB and dropped it after the tree scene. I don’t know, it felt really OOC for me and I may go back and read it again just because EVERYONE raves about it, but IDK. I’ve never been a huge Blutara fan because while I love the concept, I’d much rather see the Painted Lady and the Blue Spirit come together as equals. Most fics present Zuko behind his mask to Katara, and it feels imbalanced. There aren’t a lot of stories where we see their alter persona’s come together even though that’s the entire point of the parallel between the two. Insert this fic. I only wish there was a sequel dealing with Zuko in the Gaang after these events. Hey, a girl can dream. 

A Zutara Story Anastasia by LastSunset

Katara, the only suviving waterbender of the Southern Water Tribe, joins two con men, Zuko and Iroh, while a fearful admiral chases for her death. A Zutara Story. Based on the movie Anastasia.

So this isn’t so much a retelling of Anastasia but with Katara and Zuko as it is a fanfic version of the movie but with the characters names and world changed. It takes a lot of lines from the movie. But WHO CARES? It’s Anastasia and Zutara!!! What more do you need??? 

Oneshot

this burden you bear by cowlicklesschick

Word travels, and war stories will be told round campfires and on freighter ships until every person in the world knows what Master Katara did for the new Fire Lord. She fights the burning in her throat at the thought of people knowing why she had to heal him in the first place. Post-war Zutara.

This is an angst-with-a-happy-ending, which I say is the absolute BEST type of angst. Katara deals with the guilt of what Zuko did for her as the Fire Nation celebrates what she did to save his life during the Agni Kai. The two come together beautifully while struggling to see the feelings they both share. Really well written and like I said, it has a happy ending, which we all need. 

The Best of Me by Laririn-Shadow

The night before his eighteenth birthday Zuko wraps a bandage around his left wrist. He has a country to run and no time for frivolous things. It will make everything easier if he waits. Zutara Soulmates AU

Soulmate AU’s usually aren’t my thing (With the glaring exception of one Until Dawn Soulmate AU, but that’s besides the point), but I really enjoyed this oneshot. It isn’t sweeping or insanely romantic and the reveal isn’t “OMG I’VE LOVED YOU THIS WHOLE TIME” But it’s a subtle love that grows, which I really like. 

snuggling dysfunctional cats by emletish

Toph thinks Katara and Zuko were a ridiculously, incredibly, stupidly adorable couple. There is only one problem, they were not actually going out. This confuses Toph. could stand alone or be read as a companion peice to my stalking series

Fun fact: Before this oneshot, I had only ever read one fanfiction over 200k words, and had no desire to read another one again. And then I read this. This one shot was so fantastic that it was the reason I ended up reading the ‘Not Stalking Zuko’ trilogy (Also by emletish), which totals almost 900k words because this companion piece had me so sold. Yeah, it’s THAT good. 

my salvation, he’s not anything by sarsaparillia

Let’s run away and start another war. — Zuko/Katara.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ What can I say? I love the ‘Let’s run away together, consequences be damned’ trope. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The Time is Ripe by Casa Circe

ZUTARA WEEK 2012 Day Seven: Seasons. There are many stages that a heart goes through before it can finally be ready for the love it was meant to have. The road is often a rocky one but eventually, it leads you home.

A oneshot for the Zutara Week 2012 prompt ‘Seasons’. Not too much to say about it. Short, sweet, and well written. What more do you need? 

Serendipity by Boriqua-chan

Iroh goes hunting for tea leaves and finds something…interesting. /Zutara week, day 1/

Secret relationships! Fluff! Happiness! And all from Uncle Iroh’s perspective!! Everything I love in one great oneshot! 

Too Close for Comfort also by Casa Circe

ZUTARA WEEK 2010 Day Three: Pain. After watching “The Ember Island Players”, no one is in the mood for teasing. But a little slip of the tongue leads to the painful realization that the play was more accurate than they were willing to admit.

There are two Zutara plots/tropes that I am a complete and utter SLUT for. The first is the ‘Let’s talk about that EIP show’ trope. This is one of my favorites. 

The Color of Truth is Red by Mrs. Pettyfer

Written for Zutara Week prompt “awkward.” Zuko and Katara discuss the Ember Island Players.

Another post EIP oneshot

Enlightenment by Blade Quill

Choices are made on the day of Zuko’s coronation, and sometimes, enlightenment is just the simple truth at hand. Zutara. AU of the final moments of the Book 3 Finale

The OTHER plot/trope I’m a slut for is finale rewrites. LET ME SEE THEM COME TOGETHER AFTER HE TAKES LIGHTNING FOR HER. Ugh, I love it. 

Framework by profoundlycan

What if in “Sozin’s Comet” Katara had come into the room instead of Mai? Zuko/Katara. Prequel to Schema.

 Another finale rewrite! Let’s just get Mai out of the picture here… 

Lightning Shocks the Heart by drunkzutarafeels

Why do our hearts remain dormant until a climactic moment makes time stand still?

And here’s yet another finale rewrite. There is a really popular Zutara gifset that someone animated of the Agni Kai ‘Thank you’ scene, but Katara kisses Zuko after she hugs him. This is the fanfiction equivalent of that gif set. 

Sunrise by lewilder

The days go on and on, and even if she feels more comfort from the moon, Katara learns to cherish the promise of each new sunrise. Zutara AU, largely finale-centric. Oneshot.

LAST FINALE AU I PROMISE. Really sweet, starts right after The Southern Raiders and goes past canon. 

all the ghosts we cannot kill (we learn to love) by raisindeatre

Zuko and Katara; the moments we didn’t see. Or: Maybe we are all somebody’s ghost. And maybe sometimes we can be more than that.

“…My quarrel has only ever been with you, Zuko,” she says, his name sharp on her tongue. “This has only ever been about me and you.”

“You’re wrong,” he rasps, his voice rough in the late afternoon sunlight that falls around them, tangles them in golden nets. “This has only ever been about me and the Avatar. Not you and me. What we hold between us has nothing to do with it.”

This is a really beautiful one-shot that follows a battered, war torn and hardened Zuko and Katara through the scenes we DIDN’T see throughout the entire show. A Zutara must-read.

Drabble Collection/Series

And Other Fairly Stupid Tales by Advocaat

A collection of humorous and crack-tastic oneshots corresponding to the days of Zutara Month

Really great Zutara Month themed drabbles, and it contains the only body swapping plot that I’ve read and really enjoyed. Also the chapters ‘Potential’ and ‘Festival’ are some of my all time favorites. 

Zuko Was No Coward by hootowl

Zuko was many things, but a coward he was not. A collection of Zutara100 prompts. Title may change.

Definitely some heartbreakers and angsty drabbles in here, but all well written and thoroughly enjoyable. If you read ANYTHING from this list, read chapter two of this drabble collection. I MELTED when I read it. It’s perfection. Aunt Wu’s prediction has always been a plotline I’ve loved in Zutara fanfiction, and this one just does it PERFECTLY. 

Zutara Week 2012 by ichilover3

A collection of oneshots inspired by the prompts for Zutara Week

Not much more to say. The first, third, and fourth prompts are my favorite from this series. 

Zutara Week 2015 by bianca_anna

It started at a tea shop and ended with forever. My entries for Zutara Week 2015. I hope you enjoy them.

Oh my GOODNESS. So they’re Zutara Week prompts, but all set in the same universe. The Zutara!Family depicted in these drabbles has become my headcanon. I’ve seen many a Zutara family, but this one is by far my FAVORITE. This is now my official family for them. I want the very last chapter fully animated because it’s so good and epic and I want more of this families adventures. 

Why I Need You

Characters - Bucky Barnes, Reader, Tony Stark, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson

Pairing - Bucky x Reader

Summary/Request - Yay! Could you write one with Bucky? He and the reader are in love with each other but don’t know how to tell the other. Maybe some commentary from the other Avengers? Little smut if you’re not opposed to it ;)

Word Count - 4,441

Warnings - Smut…Fingering, Unprotected sex… A little bit of language, little bit of angst..and of course some fluff
(If you spot any other warnings I should add, please let me know so I can edit this post to include them!)

A/N - First ever Avengers/Marvel fic, so be gentle XD
Couple songs included are Think A Little Less, She thinks she needs me, and This Is Why I Need You
Huge thank you (again) to my sister Wren for helping edit! <3

Tags (Want on or off? Send a message/ask!) - @theimpossibleg1rl​ @charliesxora@amantedelcalcio@hushothermuses@i-stole-rudolphs-nose​  @officialbroski10-blog@thepalaceofmelanie@serzhantjamesbuchananbarnes@buckyywiththegoodhair
(tagged a couple people who I know write Marvel..and have said people can tag them…I would love y’all’s input since it’s my first Marvel/Bucky fic)

Story:

Working with the Avengers was a challenge to say the least.
An enjoyable one, but still a challenge.

This was why Y/N had opted to keep her apartment in the city. So she could have a safe, familiar place to escape to when things got just too… heroically crazy.

It was rare that she would stay at the Tower over night, but Tony had a room set up for her anyway.
When nights like last night came around, she was glad to have a bed to sleep in rather than having to crash on the couch.


Just like every morning, Bucky and Steve had gotten up before everyone else in the Tower and had gone for a run. When they got back, they were a little surprised to see everyone still asleep. Each went to their separate room, to shower and get ready for the day before finding their way back to the kitchen.

Steve and Bucky settled onto the island stools, the former man looking to the latter. “So,” he began.

They had been silent their entire run, but now Steve had Bucky in his clutches…

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For my fifty-seventh Evangelion book review, here is Hiramatsu Tadashi Animation Gashuu (Tadashi Hiramatsu Animation Art Book), published by STYLE.  This is a new book that just came out this week (although people who went to Comiket in December 2016 were able to get it sooner), and it is a collection of illustrations by Tadashi Hiramatsu, a key animator for the Evangelion TV series and movies.  As you can probably guess from the cover art shown above, he has also done work for various other titles, including character designs and animation direction for “Yuri!!! on Ice”.  Cool! Oh, and if you’re disappointed that there aren’t any Evangelion characters on the front cover, don’t worry… Rei Ayanami appears on the back cover, standing atop a cute drawing of some flowers.

This book is not available in English or French, but pretty much the only text is the table of contents at the beginning, then short descriptions accompanying each illustration, and then a two-page interview and the credits page.  So the book mostly consists of pictures, ranging from black-and-white production sketches to full color promotional art.  The dust jacket is also removable, and the alternate cover artwork hidden underneath is a small but charming illustration of the artist’s hands drawing a line.  As for an example of what kind of stuff can be found inside the book, check out this pic of Kaworu and Shinji playing musical instruments that look like the Spear of Longinus and Spear of Cassius:


Keep reading for the rest of the book review, plus a few more pictures!

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TransMarcoWeek, Day 1: Realization/Coming Out

I’m writing stuff for every day of TransMarcoWeek!! Yay! She’s so lovely and I love her so much and she deserves all sorts of writing. I’m going to be writing a little fic for each day of this week, tagging with #transmarcoweek, and either skipping or changing Day 3 because I can’t draw or edit screencaps lol.
(Also, until she realizes she’s trans, I use “they” pronouns for her)

Enjoy!


Marco blinked slowly, eyes transfixed on the screen.

“Hey Marco, whatcha doin’-?” Star came bounding in, pausing when she saw them. “Hey, are you alright?”

“Huh?” Marco turned to look at her and realized there were tears streaking his face. “N-no, yeah, I’m fine, are, um. Are YOU okay?”

“What are you looking at?” Star asked, peering around his shoulder.

“N-nothing, it doesn’t matter,” they laughed, forcing a smile as they reached to turn off their monitor.

“Marco… “ They winced, finger paused above the monitor’s button. “What is this?”

“It’s…” they sighed, defeated. “Okay, so sometimes I go on the message board for the company that produces my Princess Marco stuff and look through the stuff people say, cuz… I dunno, it makes me feel really good, I guess.”

“What kinds of stuff?” Star asked, pulling a chair up next to theirs.

“I… I don’t know,” they blushed, tugging at their neckline. “Just, like, how… inspirational Princess Marco is and stuff.”

“How inspirational YOU are,” Star corrected, poking his nose. “You ARE Princess Marco.”

“But, I mean…” they paused, sighing loudly. “It’s not like I COULD be a princess, you know? Like, I mean, I’d love to be princess, or even queen, but I’m-” They paused, seeing Star reading the comment thread Marco had pulled up.

“Who is Princess Marco?” the topic line read. “I’ve come to deduce that there ARE no more princesses in the Earth dimension, or there haven’t been for a long time,” the post read. “Whoever this is OBVIOUSLY isn’t an Earth princess, and from what I’ve heard, may not be a GIRL at ALL. Deep voice, masculine build - this is obviously some guy masquerading as a girl and trying to infiltrate OUR space as princesses!” Marco bit their lip, feeling tears well up, having read it again.

“Marco…” Star said softly, resting her hand on their arm. Marco took the mouse and scrolled down a bit, to reveal the dozens of comments below.

“Um, who cares?” the first comment read. “She’s way more of a princess than you, you judgemental hag.”

“My dimension doesn’t even HAVE genders, so Princess Marco is a princess if she wants to be!” read another.

“We love you Princess Marco! Screw all the haters, you’re beautiful and inspired me to be a princess just like you!”

“Is this why you were crying?” Star asked, cocking her head.

“I guess,” Marco chuckled, wiping their eyes again, more tears having streaked their face. “I- I mean… the first post is right, you know? I can’t be a princess, I’m not… a girl. I’m an imposter.” Star puffed, her cheeks flushed.

“Marco, first of all, that’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard.”

“H-huh?”

“Look at this,” she said, pulling up the site’s shop page, navigating to the Princess Marco section. “Look at this princess on this gorgeous looking bed spread. Who does it look like?”

“…w-well, me-”

“All that’s changed here is a ponytail and a dress,” she reiterated. “AND, oh, let’s go and buy one.” She clicked the button and it went gray, displaying “Out of Stock”. “Marco, look. All of your products are FLYING off the shelves. Princesses look up to you, you’re beautiful!” Marco felt more tears flowing and nodded, choking back a sob. Star frowned and threw her arms around your neck.

“W-what about J-Jackie?” Marco sobbed into Star’s shoulder. “I-if I’m a girl, can I still like her? W-will she still like me?”

“Of course you can,” Star nodded, pulling Marco to arm’s length to look her in the eyes. “And of course she will. If not, she’s not good enough for you anyway,” Star smiled, brushing Marco’s hair from her eyes. “Are you a girl, Marco?” Marco smiled, still teary-eyed, and nodded firmly. “Then you’re a girl. As simple as that.” Star hugged her tight, pulling her close as she wept softly, stroking her hair. “It’s gonna be okay.”

“How am I gonna tell my parents?” she asked, muffled by Star’s clothes.

“They were fine when Heinous came by, calling you a princess and stuff,” Star shrugged. “Didn’t correct her once. Maybe they figured she knew you better than they did, with all the magic stuff you’ve been doing.” Marco bit her lip and nodded. “You should just be open with them. They’ll understand. They’re like, the coolest parents ever.” She looked up and Star grinned down at her.

“Th-thank you, Star…”

“Don’t thank me, you big nerd,” Star smiled, pulling the weepy girl from her chest. “Now go tell your parents!” She nodded, grinning and wiping her eyes, armed with the new and powerful realization. She WAS Princess Marco.

anonymous asked:

Let us fill the gruvia tag with some positivity. What are your top 5 gruvia moments?

It’s the school holidays somewhere isn’t it. I like the idea anon! Let’s spread love and positivity for Gruvia :)) Thanks for sending the ask ^^

5 - Gray stopping the rain/their first meeting

I love that Gray had such a big impact on Juvia. She was blushing and FEELZ everywhere, she is precious. Then the moment she sees the sun is when her heart is forever with Gray Fullbuster, ahhh! I started rooting for her since, so you could say I’m complete Gruvia trash, honestly.

Gray was pretty in the zone of “saving nakama” and they were battling sure, but he was also very confused over her actions. Despite that he said he wouldn’t go easy on her, he was still respectable.

For any ship, I always love where and how it all started. Anime episode 25 and 26 have a special place in my heart, as are manga chapters 56 and 57 :)

4 - Gray saving Juvia from Ultear in Tenrou

Like he told Ultear, he followed her because he was suspicious of how truthful she was. However, he made himself known when Juvia was at risk. Why?

We’ll probably never know unless Mashima treats us to a glorious Gray-POV of everything, which is highly unlikely.

3 - Gray’s flashback to Juvia in Tartarous (Ch. 392)

I love this moment for many reasons. One, he thought of Juvia, and Juvia is separate from the likes of Lucy, Erza and Wendy (by how she was separate and not included in the smaller panels). Two, this is the first time we know/see anything from Gray’s perspective on Juvia through his eyes. Three, the fact that he thought of her the moment he casted iced shell, a spell he knows he won’t come back from. Meaning he knows he means a lot to her, and thus knows she’ll be devastated if he was gone. Something that is showcased again in chapter 522, and in 522 she was among the likes of Ur, Natsu, and Silver, so the distinction that Juvia is special to him is made even clearer.

That said, 392 was the catalyst, so it’s why I didn’t include 522, haha.

I have a tough time deciding the final two moments.

It’s a toss between 416 and 499.

416 - because Juvia reached the decision that she can’t love Gray anymore, that she had hurt him too much. Not in a “yay, I’m glad she’ll be goners” way, but more of a, “you are honestly too precious and too good for this world”. She was ready to give up her feelings for him, was ready for him to hate her and lash out at her. Can you imagine how much courage she’d have to have had in order to say this to him? IN PERSON?

And what makes this better? THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT SHE EXPECTED HAPPENED.

HE DIDN’T. HE HELL-NAW DIDN’T. HE PULLED HER BACK TO HIM AND HUGGED HER. SAID SORRY AND THANKED HER. AND WEEPED. AND GOSH IT’S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING. I CAN’T EVEN.

I won’t even get into how great the panels were placed during this scene, the anticipation and tension was well-built, and the fact that it was snowing added a touch of romance to it all. Their moment in 416 was great and all the things I could ever ask for and more.

I was also new to the FT Tumblr fandom back when this was released. I spazzed like nobody’s business when JUST THIS PICTURE ABOVE was spoiled, fangirled like crazy when the full chapter came, and reblogged all the edits I could ever find of 416 after that, it was amazing.

499 - Everything about 499 hurt me. It was angst in the most beautifully tragic way possible, in a SHOUNEN manga of all places.

We expected Juvia to sacrifice herself, it’s how she is and has been her shtick, but for Gray to think and act on a similar train of thought? Sacrifice himself for her? WHOA. If this isn’t the most tragically beautiful way of showing love for one another, I don’t know what I can say to convince anyone otherwise.

Just about everything Gray does and says in 499 made it clear that Juvia is special to him. He loves her but couldn’t tell her in time. His world falls apart and he rages at the man who “killed” her. JUST. ALL. THE. FEELINGS!!!


Honourable mentions:

GMG unison raid - I love the eye sex stares they shared! I loved that Gray initiated and encouraged her. Their unison raid moment was all about teamwork and just how compatible they are, in terms of fighting and magic. (If it weren’t obvious already) Then them STILL holding hands later, ohohoho.

413 Days - a whole omake dedicated to my OTP, the animated episode released on VALENTINE’S DAY. I couldn’t ask for more.

“I’m here with you” and 453 balcony scene - I’m a cheater and I know it, lmao. Oh man, how could I forget about these two moments!? For “I”m here with you”, it’s a very intimate moment, but said with so few words!?!?!?!?! HOW U DO THIS GRAY GAWD. I love that Gray said he is with her, rather than a very general statement along the lines of “nakama”… There’s a difference and I think it started here, or much earlier, I’m not sure.

Then 453, Gray is so honest!?!?!?! He is so frank and chill talking about his feelings!?!?! I LOVE THIS. I loved that Juvia is the person who brought out this side of him. I love that he’s like this WHEN IT’S HIM AND HER. And then him being flirty with Juvia?!?!?!?!? JUST!?!?!? *dies*

I chose to put these two together because both are rare insights into a very different Gray. Gray with Juvia is different from Gray when he’s with his friends.

Silver’s “take care of Gray” - as I mentioned in my shounen tropes meta, it’s everything that solidifies that Gruvia will happen, and it’s the Silver Fullbuster stamp of approval, no doubt about it. and I just really wanted to include Silver somewhere in this ok

Avatar/One-year timeskip - six months living together - A GOLDMINE OF HEADCANONS AND FANFICTION AHOY. Just what is Mashima thinking wasting opportunities NOT doing an omake or flashback to this!?!?! UUUGGGGHHHHHHH. There are so many things!

I cheated and this is actually a top 10 and not top 5, lmao. They have so many moments. So, so many.

anonymous asked:

Hiya gorgeous! I'm sorry that you're so stressed, but it'll all be okay! Can you please do a Gotham one shot where Jerome's girlfriend is so sweet and innocent, and he lies to her and tells her that he works at Gotham Gazette to keep her from his world but she finds out that he's a murderer? Thank you so so so much!

Pairing: Jerome Valeska x reader

Warnings: cursing and Jerome himself

A/N: YAY it’s my first request!!! AndI actually reallyyyy enjoyed writing it! I named Jerome James cause reader doesn’t know who he is! And at the middle of the text quote s started acting weird and I’m too tired to do anything about this (it’s honestly 2:25 a.m. and I reallyyy wanted to show(?) you this oneshot) I’ll edit this text tomorrow morning I really hope that you enjoyed this and if you did let me know!


You woke up cause you felt something moving in the bed. You opened your eyes looking at the ginger sitting at the edge of the bed.
«J?» You asked sleepy. «It’s so early»
«Yea sorry dollface, have to go to work early today» he placed a light kiss on your forehead «Go back to sleep, Y/N»
The last thing you saw before falling asleep was his smile.

You woke up couple of hours later and had to get ready to go to your own work. You worked at the art studio with disabled children. Art was your passion and you loved helping people so that was a perfect work for you.

«Hey Y/N!» It was Y/F/N. Your friend from work «Kate was looking for you, wanted to show you her drawing. By the way have you heard about that psycho that tried to burn the bus wit teens today?»
«What? No!»
«How can you not know about him? Your boyfriend works in Gotham Gazette!»
«We don’t really talk about his work» you mumbled
«Whatever, well his name is Jerome Valeska, he was in Arkham cause he killed his mother, but then he and several other psychos broke out, still can’t believe you haven’t heard of him!»

After work you headed home. When you came James (yes James…just keep on reading and you’ll understand) wasn’t there. You cooked dinner and ate it alone leaving a portion for your boyfriend.
You were sitting on the couch, watching tv, when you heard the door unlocking.
Your boyfriend quickly closed the door, locking it.
«James!» You stood up and ran to kiss the ginger. He was a bit angry but when you hugged him, expression on his face softened and a cruel smirk turned into a caring smile. «Is everything okay?»
«Hiya cupcake, yes everything is fine, did you leave some dinner for me or did you eat everything by yourself?»
«Nope! Nothing left for you! Should have come earlier!» You laughed a bit «it’s on the stove» you jumped on the couch again and switched to the news channel.
«On to the news. The infamous Jerome Valeska…»
«Hey J! Have you heard about this Valeska guy? He was sent to Arkham cause he murdered his mother, but then he broke out and…»
Ginger interrupted you «Of course I’ve heard of him, horrible case! Why don’t we watch something else?» James ran to the couch and sat besides wrapping his hands around you and grabbing the remote from your hands, quickly switching the channel.
«No! I want to be in the loop!» You tried to get the remote back but James didn’t let you
«And I’m already int the loop, have heard enough about it at work, and now I just want to do something else» He groaned and roughly pushed you down, kissing your neck. You instantly wrapped your legs around his waist «Think we should move to the bedroom, doll» J lifted you, going to the bedroom and then put you on bed.
You heard James’ voice through sleep «Right now? Are you fucking kidding me Galavan? NO! Just try and you will regret this decision…I’m coming» he put the phone down.
«Is everything alright?» You mumbled
«Mhm. My boss…told me to…to go to work» James looked angrily at his feet
«What? It’s like 3 a.m.!»
«There…there is an…incident»
«Is it Valeska related?»
«Yes…it is, I have to go there and…ask witnesses…questions» he crunched his nose for a second, anger and hate still in his eyes, few ginger strands of hair falling on his forehead
«It’s okay James, just…just be careful»
«I will be, dollface» James hugged you tightly

It was your day off. You slept till nearly 12 a.m. When you got up were too lazy to make breakfast so you decided to go to the cafe. You put on a sweater and jeans.
You bought waffles and started going home. When you were passing by the store you decided to buy Gotham Gazette, but when you came home you totally forgot about the newspaper.
You were sitting on the couch watching tv and eating a waffle with ice cream when the news came on.
«Maniax and their head Jerome Valeska are responsible for another terror that happened today in the morning. We remind you that Jerome Valeska and other participants of the Maniax escaped from Arkham several months ago. GCPD set a reward for any information about these people…» you didn’t listen any further. You were looking at the photo of ginger on the screen. It was your ginger. You dropped the waffle in to the bucket of ice cream. You ran to the newspaper that was lying on the dining table. You started flipping through the pages until you found the one you needed.
There was the picture. The same picture that you’ve seen on tv.
You felt a lump in your throat and tears starting in your eyes.
How could he? How could the only human that you cared about lie to you? Wait! No! He’s dangerous! You have to think about that! What if he finds out that you know who he really is? He will kill you! Of course he will! He killed his own mother! You have to run! You can’t stay here!
You ran to your room and started to pack your stuff. Your hands were shaking because of fear, but you still managed to pack everything rather quickly.
You opened the front door and got out of your flat, but then you saw red hair coming from around the corner.
«Hey gorgeous!» James…Jerome waved at you a big smile on his face, several strands of hair on his forehead.
You slowly shanked back, fear in your red from crying eyes.
«Y/N? Is everything okay?» Happy expression on his face changed to worried.
You quickly ran back into your flat and shut the door closed, locking it. Moments later ginger banged on your door.
«Y/N! Open the door!»
«No! I’ll call the police!» More tears started coming out of your eyes.
«Y/N OPEN THE GODDAMN DOOR!» Another loud bang «LET ME EXPLAIN!» His voice was frightening
«What do you want to explain Jam…Jerome? I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE!»
«Fuck Y/N! Please! Open the door!» Jerome’s voice cracked a little bit.
«NO!»
«I will break it» Jerome groaned and banged once again, but ten times harder than before.
You grabbed a knife from the counter and crawled to the couch in fear, praying that the door will survive the attack, but it didn’t and a few bangs later you heard scary cracking noise.
You shrank into the couch, trying to disappear. Your eyes shut.
«Hey! Hey Y/N. Look at me doll, just look at me» Jerome knelt near you, cupping your face with his hands. You squeezed the knife in your hand. «Look at me!» He shouted and you swung the knife in your arm. «Come on doll, you won’t stab me» He giggled, taking the knife out of your hand. “Look at me Y/N…please” he groaned quietly under his breathe.
You slowly opened your eyes and looked at him. “You’ll kill me?” You asked stuttering
“What? No! I wouldn’t kill you, cupcake! I love you!”
“You do?” You asked shocked.
“I do” Jerome smirked
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
“I knew that you would be scared”
“You killed your mother?”
“Yes I did, but that bitch deserved it!”
“Nobody deserves to be killed”
“Maybe you’re right, Y/N” he looked at the floor with mad fire in his eyes. “Will you forgive me?” He slowly looked at your face.
“I don’t know J… I’m…I’m so confused right now” you sobbed
“Please” Jerome touched your hand but you pulled it away. Ginger looked at you with pain in his eyes.
You hugged your knees and shook your head.
J stood up tears glistening in his eyes. He walked out saying absolutely nothing.
He was so angry at himself. He should’ve told you. Should’ve been more careful. Now you’ll break up with him. He will lose the only person he cared about, the last anchor keeping him sane.
He sat on the roof. Waiting for you to make a decision. Giving you some time to process everything that happened to you.
When sun set he decided to come back.
When he entered the flat it was dark there. He thought that you left and disgusting lump appeared in his throat. He went to the bedroom and saw you there. Lying under the blanket curled up in a ball.
He lay besides you hugging you tightly and burying his nose in your h/c hair. He closed his eyes and started falling asleep.
“I forgive you” you mumbled sleepy
“Thank you, cupcake…I love you” there was long silent pause
“I love you too Jerome”

Every Day

Every Day

Summary: UniStudent!Phil doesn’t really care to watch YouTube sensation danisnotonfire’s videos or live shows, and his uni class always ask why.  He always gives them the same answer: “it’s like he hears it every day.”  His classmates are about to find out why he always gives the same, dull answer in a way they never would’ve guessed.

genre: fluffu

wc: 1234 (yasss)

tw: poor writing, it drags a bit idk, cheesy title

[A/N] I know there are like 80 of these kinds of fics but I wanted one like this in particular and I wasn’t sure if any existed so here we are.

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It’s interesting because we’ve never had jrot write Clexa. Every episode that’s been credited to him has had NO direct clexa interaction. This was the first. And you can clearly see from the way she was written in this episode, that this is how he always saw her. A plot device. A pit stop. The one dimensional fantasy character that exists to help the hero on their noble quest and sacrifices themselves so the hero can move forward. Just a blip on the radar.

THAT’S WHY ALL THIS HAPPENED.

Everyone else on the writing team (production and directors as well) was developing Lexa as a multidimensional character, layering her, developing clexa, giving them true meaning, making it a real and true relationship with powerful characters, but jrot never thought of it that way and didn’t have anything to do with it. The minute his “idea” came in to take over with the AI plot we saw Lexa instantly erased and she become a plot device, flip her dead body over, cut out the AI, and ooooooohhhhh let’s all pay attention to that now!

Lexa in the finale (while ADC and Eliza did a great job in showing the affection and love and relief between the two to the best of their ability) was just written as a plot device to help Clarke out in the ‘matrix’ for a few minutes. “It’s a firewall.” Jfc. Really. Lexa’s gonna talk about firewalls and ALIE and software updates? She was written in to give Clarke a little boost along her journey, something for the fans to go “yay! lexa shows up!”, and it was so painfully obvious. He didn’t even believe they warranted an “I love you” parting until after shit went down with 3x07 and then ADR’d and edited the fuck out of this episode to try and ease some of the backlash. Sorry, but no. In his mind, Lexa was the little fantasy creature in an epic adventure quest to help the hero out in their time of need and when her job was done, she outlived her usefulness once again, and she was gone.

I’m not upset about it really because a) I already grieved for Lexa and b) it was SUCH a poorly written/edited episode that it’s almost comical. I mean, COMICALLY BAD. So I can’t take it seriously. But in Jrottenburger’s mind, Lexa was never anything more than someone to give Clarke a little boost over the fence.

I thank everyone on that writing staff who saw her as more and wrote her accordingly despite their boss’ shortcomings and utter lack of vision/creativity.

AN: An Nalu prompt for nalu week: secrets. Angst based inspired by Enzo. Self edited. Not sure if it’s good but here it is. I think this is my first angst oneshot. First time participating in nalu week. Yay!

Summary: Because what is life without one another, For Natsu, that was the end of everything.

Title: Past is the Present

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“No.” Lucy shaked her head. Was this the truth why the Hearfilia blood continued? Lucy looked at Acnologia’s silent eyes. Her hands twitched, not knowing whether to deny the claim or hug herself in pain of what he was saying.

“That’s crazy!”

Acnologia just smirked, the same knowing smirk Natsu often used on her. The mischievous one where he knew something and was teasing her before telling her the truth. On Acnologia’s cruel face, this was wrong.

“Really Anna? Ooops, nowadays you go by Lucy right?” the black dragon said offhandedly.

“What’s with these memories?” Lucy shut her eyes off in denial, hugging herself as she shook, memories of a long time ago flashing into her head one after another.

“It’s simply the truth. And you haven’t really change, haven’t you Anna?” Acnologia had a thoguthful frown as he crossed the distance between the two.

“Don’t-”

Any protests Lucy had was done as Acnologia wrapped his arms around Lucy, tucking her under his chin, his hands were just as calloused as Natsu’s did, weaving his fingers through her hair way too familiarly.

Lucy’s tears stopped, eyes’ widening at the very familiar way she was being comforted. The warmth, was it hers that felt the same or the one she and Natsu shared many times? Acnologia waited for a bit of time, waited for Lucy to stop her tears and get her act together. As soon as she did, Acnologia took hold of Lucy’s chin so the two could look at one another.

A watery smile filled Lucy’s face.

“How is this even possible?” Lucy couldn’t help but ask.

“Fate is sick.” was his simple answer.

Lucy gave a sigh at his response. “Fate? Huh?”

Confusion marred Acnologia’s face for a second. “What about it?”

Lucy pushed Acnologia away. “That’s why you gave up?” Lucy asked, sadness marred her face. Lucy knew that the sadness she felt, it was something Acnologia knew because he knew Anna. He knew that the sadness Lucy felt was for Anna’s as well as for him.

Though Lucy shared Anna’s memories and face, the celestial mage knew something Acnologia didn’t.

“I didn’t give up. I just understood what needed to be done.” Acnologia said with a frown.

Lucy’s eyes flared and shined with a knowledge she knew the black dragon wouldn’t like. The next words wouldn’t bode well for him. Or for her.

“It was unfortunate. And sad. Anna didn’t deserve what happened. Neither did you. But this Acky, this Acky, will not solve-” Lucy never finished her sentence as a tight hand wrapped itself to her neck, preventing any words to come out.

For the first time, a wild rage that was unseen showed itself.

“Do not call me by that name!”

Lucy tried to raise her arms feebly, her helpless self trying to claw at him. “It’s not…same… Anna… and I…you, it’s different!” Lucy gasped.

Acnologia laughed. “Saying all those things. You still haven’t changed at all Anna. Still same old Anna. Looking at me with those same fiery sparkling eyes. Still believing in people no matter the lies that you were fed with” He shook his head at her words.

“No…It’s not…late…Not Anna, …I’m Lucy…be…lieve in..Nat…su” Lucy struggled to say, hoped marked her eyes. even as the world was turning blurry for her.

“That dragon’s kid, END?” Acnologia scoffed. “He’s the last thing you would ever hope for. He’s the biggest contraction ever. Even more darker and will eventually be more twisted than me. But Lucy, I’ll at least ease you of your suffering, just so you don’t go through with what Anna experienced.”

“Natsu…?” Brown eyes gazed at nothing in particular, her body stilled as Acnologia tore through her stomach.

And this was the sight Natsu came to.

Lucy was bleeding.

A soft thud was all he heard as the girl most precious to him lay on the ground, seem to look at nothing.

Everything was just a blur to Natsu. Everything was supposed to be okay. He had trained so hard to make sure that the guild was safe, to make sure Lucy would be safe. Natsu didn’t want to see that ever again. Future Lucy’s tearful face as she fell to Lucy’s arms without her right arm. Igneel in front of him but unable to do anything. He swore to do everything to make sure that won’t happen. She was everything to him. The only thing that mattered was to see her smiling again. He wanted to see Lucy’s starry eyes, her shining gold hair, laughing and happy.

The world seem to think differently. Maybe it hated the good things. He didn’t care who or what was happening. Lucy needed him.  Natsu ran to Lucy’s side. All that mattered was Lucy.

Natsu put Lucy to his arms, hoping that this was just a nightmare. “Natsu… everything will be…okay.”

“Shhh, No. Lucy. You’re not going to die! Don’t talk okay? Wendy can fix you!” he said as softly, hands trembling. His body knew how too late it was to save her. Once again, he was late. Too late for everything. Too late to save the person he loved the most. Too late to save the person who mattered the most.

Lucy simply smiled, the lovely brown eyes that sparkled endlessly were now dull.

“Lucy?”

“Lucy?” despite what facts told hims, even as the thud of her heart faded, Natsu hoped that some twist of fate would save Lucy. Tears fell down his cheeks, some landing on Lucy’s cheeks.

Then next thing he felt was a strong kick that seem to take all the air out of his lungs. “There are strangely, still, seven dragon slayers left.”

Natsu raised his head to see the person who killed his Lucy.

In front of him was a man with wild silver hair, tattoos marking all over his body. He didn’t know the man but his scent was one Natsu recognized. It was the scent Natsu couldn’t forget. It was a scent darker than Zeref’s. It was a scent that emanated death. It was the same scent that ended Igneel’s life. This bastard ended Lucy’s.

The man looked at him with cold eyes. “I thought one of them died. I guess I’ll continue with you.”

“So you’re the one who killed Lucy?!” Natsu growled to which Acnologia seemed a bit happy.

“I just save your Lucy pain that she never had to experience again.” His cryptic words just made Natsu angrier. It didn’t matter what Acnologia said. Lucy was dead. Nothing would bring her back. His clenched his fists not noticing the odd darkness covering him. The usual vibrant red was turning a strange dark shade of red, odd black mixing with his flames. Two horns sprouted. A dark red tail tore through the back of his pants. His back aches as wings grew out on his back. His schlera turned black. These changes didn’t matter to Natsu. He didn’t feel anything but anger and hatred. Maybe Zeref was right. Nothing in this world mattered. Nothing mattered if Lucy was gone. He was never going to hear her voice again. He was never going to see those golden hair shine like the sun again. Natsu will just destroy everything. For the first time, he felt immensely strong. Like he could overpower everything. There was nothing he could not do. It was too bad this power didn’t come earlier when he needed it the most. It just goes to show how worthless everything was. This world took Igneel from him. It made countless people cry. It made Lucy suffer so much. He decided then that he will give back all the pain back. It didn’t matter who. Whether it was this bastard or Zeref, it didn’t matter. Natsu knew another guy would eventually come and cause a problem bigger problem.

Natsu’s irises became sharper. It was full of rage to which Acnologia had a twisted smirk on. He flexed his arms, Lucy’s blood on them which made Natsu see red.

Everything was a blur. His mind was black. There was nothing. He threw punch after punch. He gave whatever hell he could. Pain was nonexistent. Whatever punch, or kick Acnologia sent him, it didn’t hurt. Nothing was worse than the pain of Lucy being gone. He was faster, stronger. His body was more durable. Strength didn’t matter. What mattered was he ends everything. They exchanged blow after blow, not caring what they destroyed: forests, lakes, and people’s screams of terror went ignored.

Acnologia was nothing compared to him.

“Why are you smiling?” Natsu growls angrily. Both were badly injured. Burns, blood, bruises and cuts all over their body.

“Why?” Acnologia stated as he gave a belowed.

“In the end you proved to Lucy how wrong she was. And I was right all along.” Acnologia rasps.

Natsu steps on Acnologia’s abdomen. The black dragon coughs as Natsu watches as the black dragon struggle to breath.

“Now, you’ll be me! If…your Lucy was alive…, she’s going to do everything to stop you, just like Anna did. Now that you’ve done the deed by having me on death’s door, bathed in my blood that killed thousands of dragons, you’re something like me but worse. You’re beyond a monster, beyond saving. Lucy won’t be able to do anything for you Who knows? What if Lucy was alive?”

“What are you talking about!?” Lucy was dead. Life was gone, taken by this dragon’s hands.

“You don’t know much about her as much as you do. You’re forgetting she’s a Heartfilia.” Acnologia smirks weakly.

Feeling a rage at this, Natsu stabs his hand through the dragon’s chest. Acnologia’s eyes are the same as always, that tint that Natsu didn’t like, like he knew something that the fire dragon slayer didn’t. If Lucy was here, she would have known what to say. And that talk of her alive?! Natsu roars in anger. Tears fall his eyes and a loud wailing roar echoes through the sky. She was gone. Lucy was never coming back and all that was left was destruction and a monster.

An unsalvageable monster.

In the distance, a strange golden glow emanated. A golden haired woman sits up, her hands on her flat abdomen that exists. A sad smile forms on her lips and her fists clenches in pain. The sky now had a red hue as if it foretold a tradegy like no other.

“Natsu, I accept this.” she whispered to the wind.

She struggles to stand and her hand fingers her keys lightly. Her celestial magic had saved her. Her luck always had rotten timing. She whispers an apology on what she’s planning to do, brown eyes turning at the red sky. Her other hand clenches by her chest. Her eyes closes in despair on what’s going to happen. Was this what Anna felt when she was at the point that Acnologia had to be stopped?

No matter what happened, Lucy decided a long time ago that Natsu was her future, remembering Natsu’s face when he was suffering from tumor. If this was his decision, she will follow through even if it meant destruction for the both of them.

“After all, Natsu, it’s always fun if we’re together right?”

artyuta  asked:

hi i'm a new oor fan, can you pls recommend some videos to watch? c: ty, I love your account!! <3

Hi there! By “videos” you mean PVs? Or concerts? Or interviews? I’ll just give you everything I think of as relevant (which does hardly include their new stuff so apologises in advance lol) therefore this list is going to be subjective af aha.

Music Videos

  • Kanzen Kankaku Dreamer The classic OOR song, also my favourite. Their comeback song after Alex left the band in…2009.
  • The Beginning Probably their most known song I’d say. It’s worth the hype since it’s one of my faves as well (soooo subjective).
  • Liar Oh boy this is one of their heavier songs and OH BOY do they do a great job.
  • Deeper Deeper Literally one of my favourite songs to listen to while driving. Also the MV has Taka in leather pants so what else do you need.
  • C.h.a.o.s.m.y.t.h. This song is nothing but beautiful and I could die from happiness every time I see it live.
  • Be The Light This was written in dedication to the victims of the Touhoku earthquake in 2011. Very beautiful.
  • NO SCARED The song is SOO fun to listen to and so is the MV!
  • The Way Back The only newer song I’ll include because I think this one does sound like the old OOR at some points and it’s very cool in general.
  • Mighty Long Fall If you’re a fan of The Rurouni Kenshin movies you’ll probably know this one too.
  • Cry Out OK TBVH the song is cool and all but I listed the MV mostly for the reason of the boys being drenched in rain what.

Sudio Jam Session
Since Jinsei x Boku = OOR started to release a DVD with the limited edition of their albums including acoustic performances of 2 songs from the album. However, there have also been releases that didn’t come with a DVD but were uploaded only to their youTube channel.

Their upcoming Album Ambitions will release the acoustic versions of the songs We Are and Bombs Away in Studio Jam Session Vol. 3.

Live Performances (yay!)
OOR is good on the record but trust me, they’re even better live.

There are MANY more but these are the ones that I came up with immediately.

Full Concerts (because the Internet is a great place)

As for interviews…they aren’t really that exciting imo since it’s mostly Taka talking about the same things again and again. I’d recommend watching all the Monster Rock episodes featuring OOR because they’re hilarious (even without understanding everything) but since it’s very hard to find not only the episodes themselves but also the subtitles it’s all up to you. Edit: I just found some links lol.

Monster Rock

There are more MR episodes but like I said it’s very hard to find them and often no one has translated them yet. :(

I hope this was some kind of help to you (definitely took me longer than I thought lmao) and thank you for loving my blog!! <3

(Translation) Kare Pillow vol. 8

大好きな彼とHして腕まくらでピロートークされちゃう vol. 8 (R18! Proceed only if you’re above 18!)

CV. Hanae Natsuki


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Summary: You’re in a dance club and your kouhai fell in love with you, thus you guys started dating. One day you go on an amusement park date with him, which leads to spending the night and some pillow talk. ifyouknowwhatimean


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Big announcement (Loki x reader)

Title: Big Announcement

Pairing: Loki x Reader

Characters: Loki, Thor, Natasha, Tony, Steve, Bruce, Clint 

Warnings: none 

Word Count: 1,126

Summary: Loki and the reader decide to finally tell the team about their relationship 

Today was the day, your stomach twisted into powerful knots at the thought of revealing your relationship with Loki. The conclusion that the both of you had come to was that once you were serious in your relationship and were confident enough in your relationship you would tell the gang. You had decided a few weeks ago that it had to be soon, very soon. Now you had already arranged a meeting with everybody, you had made sure there were no missions and that everybody could attend.

It had been two years since the tragic event you appropriately nicknamed, New York. Loki had to stay in the tower at all times unless an Avenger went out with him, which didn’t happen much. This was his punishment, mostly because of the fact that Asgardian jail didn’t really faze him. The Avengers had warmed up to him but you could tell they didn’t have even a sliver of trust in him. Except for Thor of course who forgave his brother and now would trust him with his life. It scared you to think that they didn’t trust him, that they would try to break you up. You knew, of course, neither of you would let that happen, but you would never want to have to choose between your friends and your love.

You loved Loki with all of your heart and you could tell he loved you just the same. The way his hand would intertwine with yours when your hands touched or the looks he would give you when he was sure no one was looking. Just the way his demeanor changed when he was with you, showed you he loved you.

“Are you ready my love?” Loki called his voice steady and calming.

“Ready as I’ll ever be”, you say offering him a weak smile. He frowns. “I’m just worried they t-they-“, your voice caught in your throat, and tears welled in your eyes.

“I know I know my love”, he whispered cupping your cheek. His cool slender fingers caressed your cheek as he placed a chaste kiss on your lips. “But we must do this, I know you wouldn’t want them to find out any other way,” he whispered. You nodded smiling at him warmly.

You grabbed his hand and lead him out the door. Your heart began to pound as you thought of all their possible reactions. As you reached the end of the hallway you squeezed his hand, he returned the gesture in a comforting manner. Your heart raced faster still and you dropped his hand as you pushed the large cool door open.

“Finally”, Tony said with a loud sigh. You forced a small laugh and cleared your throat. The entire team’s eyes were on you in that moment and you felt so alone and small under their gaze, that is until you looked over at Loki and realized you’d never be alone in this again.

“Uh ok, so I didn’t call you all here just to talk about me, this is about Loki too”, you explained with a sigh wringing your hands together slightly.

“What have you done this time brother”, Thor’s voice rung out with an exasperated sigh, his hand already moving to rub his temple.

“I have done nothing wrong!” Loki exclaimed quickly eager to defend his honor against his brother. You almost chuckled at this, how a simple remark from Thor could turn Loki into a child.

“Yeah right, what did Loki do”, Natasha said rolling her eyes and directing her question towards you. You gulped again grabbing Loki’s hand; his long slender finger glided over the back your hand to soothe you as you tried to push the words from your lips.

“Loki and I just wanted to say we’ve been dating for three months", you said as quickly as you could not stopping once to breathe, you figured it would be easier to get out that way. And you were right it came out, but your body was still racked with nerves.

An uncomfortable science followed, the team stared back at you with wide eyes, confused looks, and somewhat hurt expressions. Tony cleared his throat. ‘Unsurprising’, you thought,’ Tony is the first one to comment.’

“You’re what?” Tony said venom oozing in his tone, an eyebrow raised and his face riddled with disgust.

“I don’t believe she stuttered Stark, (Y/N) and I have been in a relationship for many months,” Loki smirked but dropped it at the sight of your stern face.

“Good for you brother! “, Thor boomed standing up, and before Loki could refuse Thor brought him into a bone crushing hug. You did laugh, this time, you loved to watch the two brothers interact; they almost always made you laugh when they were together.

“Wait what? Hold on you mean super sweet, nice, caring, (Y/N) is dating Loki”, Clint said in mock confusion, tilting his head and squinting his eyes.

“And what is that supposed to mean”, Loki growled finding no humor in Clint’s attempts at lighting the mood, shooting Clint a death glare. 

“Yes, yes I am”, you giggle kissing Loki’s cheek. Clint sends an uneasy look to you and shrugs, looking mostly indifferent. Natasha walked the length of the room quickly, a look on her face to make even the God of Mischief tremble, and tremble he did.

“If you hurt (Y/N) “, Natasha said poking Loki’s chest, “I will slit your throat in your sleep” Loki gulped and put his hands up in defense. You smiled wildly; this was going way better than ever imagined. There was no physical fighting, or attempts at splitting you apart, just at the worst disapproving looks. Disapproving looks were something that you could live with.

Bruce opened his mouth to speak and your heart skipped a beat, you were nervous to hear what he had to say. You and Bruce were wonderful friends and you always valued his opinion, sometimes his over others.

“Honestly, I think it’s fantastic that there’s someone like (Y/N) to keep Loki in check. “, Bruce says pushing his glasses up face and smiling warmly, a simple statement that simply made your day. Bruce didn’t need to say anything else. Steve nodded in agreement after a moment prompting a larger smile to spread across your face.

“Welp, we have to go it is our anniversary after all”; you said hooking arms with Loki and starting out unable to keep the smile on your face.

“Happy anniversary!” Tony calls as you leave the room.

"That went better than I thought”, Loki whispered releasing a breath you didn’t know he was holding, that made you smirk up at him. You nodded in agreement cupping his cheeks as pulling him in for a sweet kiss.

A/N: Sorry this is bad and very rushed towards the end but I wanted to post for the 4th of July so here you go

EDIT: I cleaned this up and I will rewrite it someday but ugh its late and I need to sleep……lol I did rewrite it yay 

Drunken Halloween

A/N: Sooo this is my first request and i’m actually pretty excited about it, no one has really read any of my writing except for @cherrywhisp so i’m hoping her constructive criticism has paid off!! I hope you enjoy this @dontshootmespence!!
Request: “ Hey 👋 I’ll submit a request! How about a Spencer x Reader at a Halloween costume party! Games and candy and fluff and things ❤️”
submitted by: the lovely @dontshootmespence 😙
Warnings: unless you get triggered by cute and fluffy things you’re good 👍🏻 ,, included body shots, as i realized after i finished this and went to edit it, i realized that it was a little more steamy than fluffy, but i hope you like it anways; i felt it fit well with the story!
Rating: PG!!!
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“ Spence can we please please go as a cute couple pair to JJ’s party?” y/n begged her boyfriend, giving the best pouty face she could muster up
“ Y/n i hope you know that doesn’t work on me anymore, i’ve had 2 years to practice giving into you. but yes, we can go as a cute couple pair this year. ” Spencer replied kissing your forehead
“ YAY You’re the absolute best i love love love you so much!” She practically yells at him, kissing his cheek and pulling him onto the couch with her to start brainstorming.
Harley quinn and joker (?) nah everyone is gonna be that, kahlessi and drogo is a definite no-no…More of a derek/savannah thing
“ I GOT IT SPENCE! I can be the corpse bride and you can be Victor Van Dort. what do you think? ” Y/N asked him excitedly
He grinned at her eagerness, looking at the fire grow in her eyes.
“She is such a weirdo. But she’s my weirdo.” he thought to himself
“ How did I manage to get so lucky?” Spencer said aloud along with a nod of his head to the suggested costume idea.

…..

Y/N and Spencer knocked on JJ’s door, already hearing the sounds of laughter from outside.
Their friends had already gotten there and Henry and Michael had gone trick or treating with Joy, her husband, and son since she had offered to take them off their hands for the night.
“ Spence, Y/N, You guys look great! ” JJ said as she opened up the door, letting the couple in.
“ Pretty boy and his gorgeous as always bride-to-be. ” Derek said, kissing her hand making both y/n and spencer blush as the thought of being engaged.

“ Hey hey hey, get off her. ” Savanah came up, pulling derek away

“ you’re gonna ruin her beautiful costume. Y/N it’s so great to see you again, i feel like with the constant work of the BAU, we never really have any girl time. ” Savannah said hugging you with a sad smile.

“ ditto girlfriend, we must make plans soon. You and Derek look great by the way; i had a feeling you’d be Drogo and Kahlessi tonight. “Y/N replied just as JJ and Will announced the games were about to begin.

—–

“ FIRST GAME OF THE EVENING: BOBBING FOR APPLES, with a twist of course. ” JJ said with a smirk.

“ Okay, here are the rules, the apples all have a number carved on them, when you bob out an apple; you must drink the number of shots that your apple has carved into it. ”

Morgan went first, and got a number of 3 shots; he took it like a champ naturally. It was Morgan after all. Penelope followed and got 2, making a bitter face after she swallowed the drinks that followed with an extreme burning sensation. JJ went and got 6; Will 4; Savannah 5.
Next was hotch who had dressed up as darth vader, bobbed and got a number of 2.
Emily who had came as frankenstein’s Bride, “four shots” She said pulling the apple out of her mouth with disappointment laced in her voice- which led everyone to a laugh.
“ Y/N, Spencer you’re up. Who’s first? Boy genius or the Bride-to-be ?” Penelope asked
“ I’ll go. ” Spencer volunteered
He came up with the lucky 1. Spencer inwardly exhaled with relief.
Y/N pulled the last apple out and got, of course, a number 7. The highest number of the apples.
“ So y/n, how would you like your 7 shots? You can take them all the same or each one different. ” JJ asked as she grabbed our shot glasses specifically for her.
Y/N grabbed the first 5 and downed them without a thought and grabbed for a sixth.
She smirked and grabbed spencer’s hand, pulling him into the middle of the circle that had formed.
“ JJ may i please have the salt and a lime please? ” She asked with a sly grin on her face
Y/N put a bit of salt just below spencer’s jaw.
“ I need you to put this in between your teeth, and don’t move. ” Y/N told him in a stern voice
Everyone chuckled as she downed the second to last shot and grabbed the back of spencer’s neck, licking the salt off his jaw and pulled the lime from his mouth with her own.
Everyone cheered and a few whistled.
“ Alright Miss. Y/N here is your last shot, use it wisely. ” Will said as he handed her the last one, giving a small wink towards spence.
“ Alrighty Babe, ready for the last one?” Y/N asked confidently thanks to the liquid courage she had recieved.
Spencer gulped and nodded.
Y/N titled spencer’s neck up and quickly poured the shot down the side of his neck and licking it, up towards his hairline. Again grabbing the lime from his mouth her own but this time; he threw the lime to his side and wrapped her up in his arms and kissed her deeply.
Everyone around them applauded and whistled.
“I guess Reid has some tricks up his sleeves that we don’t know about.” Hotch said with a smile on his face.
The party continued on with more and more games, trick or treaters coming and Y/N and Spence flipping between Morgan and Savannah and JJ and Will, handing out candies to the children.
Y/N and Spencer had been having a wonderful time, dancing, eating candy, enjoying themselves and their friends, and suddenly y/n couldn’t feel the floor anymore.
She gripped spencer’s arm before collapsing in them.
Y/N awoke to Spencer stroking her hair away from her face, She sat up and ran to the bathroom throwing up whatever kind of contents her stomach held.
“ Don’t come in here- I look horrid. ” Y/N called out to spencer feeling embarrassed for having drank so much alcohol on an empty stomach.
Spencer walked into the bathroom where y/n currently sat and held her hair back as she threw up a bit more before hanging her head in shame.
“ I’m sorry i know better i shouldn’t have drank so much. ” Y/n whispered to him, tears brimming her eyes.
“ hey hey hey, you have nothing to be sorry for. We were having fun and neither one of us realized. and you still look extremely beautiful, even if you just finished vomiting. You’ll always be beautiful. ” Spencer told y/n kissing her forehead and helping her up.
He slid off her dress and helped her wipe off the makeup she’d had on earlier. He stripped her of her under garments and sat her in the tub of warm water, washing her body and her hair for her.
It had happened often enough where y/n would end up drinking more than she thought and it affected her quite a bit. Her family had a bad history with alcohol and she usually refrained from drinking more than 2 cups or shots of anything.
Spencer grabbed a towel and wrapped her up, leaving her to dry herself as he grabbed some clothes for her.
He dressed her in one of her favorite shirts of his and a pair of underwear. He brushed out her hair and gave her a glass of water and set two advil by her nightstand as she fell into a deep slumber.
Spencer kissed her forehead once more and climbed into his side of the bed and spooning her. He kissed the back of y/n’s head and whispered “I don’t know how a nerd like me got so lucky to have a beautiful creature like you to reciprocate the love i feel for you. I can’t wait to marry you someday. ”

Y/N turned around and wrapped her arm around Spencer’s small waist.
“I love you, my weirdo. I’m the lucky one. I can’t wait to marry you either. ” She half whispered half mumbled before falling back asleep in his arms.

Spencer smiled and he couldn’t imagine his life without the beautiful woman who had walked into the BAU 3 years ago, the one who never got tired of his endless rambling of facts, the love of his life. The woman he’d hope to be marrying in the next few months.

PODFIC RECS PART 8-- parentlock and kidlock

(by the way these are almost all really really long! Yay! more to love…)

PARENTLOCK

Nature and Nurture by earlgreytea68 read by axemeaboutaxinomancy

Mycroft appears at Baker St one day with a Sherlock clone baby, the boys adopt him. Really what can I say? EGT is in the top 5 fic writers in this fandom, this parentlock story is nonstop joy, and anyone who follows my recs knows I never shut up about how much I love AMAA’s readings so, yeah. I already knew I was going to do this rec post, and then when this came out and I was like, well now my theme rec post is truly complete. Favorite moment so far– dramatic reading of Oliver’s blog entries.

This story is amazing in that there’s almost no conflict of any kind, yet it’s impossible to tear away from. They’re happy by a few chapters in and spend thousands of words talking about how content they are and how everything’s fine– yet somehow the suspense of finding out what they’re going to do for dinner, or what present someone got someone, is completely edge of the seat rivieting. Science side of tumblr, please explain how this is possible! I’m ¾ of the way through this 20+ hour podfic and still totally into it.

Learning Curve by allfinehere read by sevenpercent

OMG how do I explain how adorable this story is without resorting to keysmashing? It shouldn’t work, it should just be cloying and overwhelming, but the author really reels you in. Sherlock is a loving single father to a child who refuses to speak, John a soldier turned kindergarten teacher. Sevenpercent is a prolific reader of sweet fluff, follow the link for more.

The Blog of Eugenia Watson by madlori read by lunchee

This recording is perfection, absolutely everything one wants from a podfic. I avoided this story for ages (main character an OC? Parentlock? ugh no no no) and then when I started the podfic I had even more doubts. The reader is from New Zealand which hey, awesome, but I was afraid I would find the accent distracting, confusing. I AM SUCH AN IDIOT SOMETIMES.

The story is fabulous and provides a masterclass level lesson in writing by proving that it is possible to have a story where we only ever see John and Sherlock from the perspective of John’s teenage daughter that still has more slashy romance and feels than 90% of the fics on AO3. SO MANY FEELS.

And lunchee is a genius reader! I fell in love with her voice and style in no time at all. She reads Eugenia like an actress nailing a role, the editing is great; everything about this is great. I literally both laughed and cried (not smiled and got misty LAUGHED and CRIED) in public during the week it took me to listen to this.

KIDLOCK

Family Affairs by s0mmerspr0ssen read by kholly

This is a super cute kidfic with some angst around issues of privilege, ableism, and class, but all the fluff and payoff you could desire for our precious babies. John is orphaned and sent to a children’s home; he is adopted on a trial basis by the Holmes family. Kholly is a great reader, very clear on the material and expressive but unobtrusive. She has another Sherlock podfic that’s very angsty but also really good. Family Affairs is recent so I’m hoping for many more to come!

The Frost is all Over by chryse read by aranel-parmadil

OK so full disclosure I haven’t actually listened to this one yet, but I bet it’s good! It’s one of the absolute best fics of last year read by an experienced podder. It’s an historical AU in which John and Sherlock meet when very young and have swashbuckling adventures galore…a tender, beautiful, and very exciting story.

A Study in Bwankets by lavvyan read by ideduceyou

The title really tells you what you’re getting; short, kidfic, super duper cutesy. Ideduceyou is a great reader with other podfics at the link, click the link for even more super duper fluffy fluff…

personal rambling disclaimer;

Once upon a time I thought I didn’t like either of these kinds of fics! To be clear, I think parentlock is the number one most OOC thing in a fandom that includes fawnlock and tunalock, and I prefer our boys to be the men they are, not children…and yet… I have at some point fallen right down that rabbit hole and I find myself reluctantly allowing that one after another fic involving kids is, in fact, quite charming.

In my actual life I do not seek out kid related stuff, but how many times must we remember that what we like in fandom is rarely anything like what we want in real life? For me, many. Do I think John Watson is the sexiest BAMF ever? Hell yeah! Do I actually want to get with a philandering military man with anger issues? Um, NOOO. So fuck it, bring on the kidfic….

ALL MY PREVIOUS PODFIC RECS

I thought a fun thing to do this Christmas Eve morning would be to go over the first issue (the first first issue) of Squirrel Girl this year, and give you a Writer’s Commentary of it: behind-the-scenes information on where things came from, how they ended up as they did, etc.  So let’s start!  If you go grab a copy of Squirrel Girl #1 you’ll follow this a lot better, but I tried to provide context if you don’t keep it beside you at all times. :0


PAGE ONE

SG singing her own theme song was part of my original pitch – I had the idea while repeating her name in my head, and found how quickly thinking “Hmm… Squirrel Girl… Squirrel Girl…” can easily segue into the first lines of her theme song.  I like putting music into comics and that’s tricky!  But here it worked really well because the Spider-Man theme is a song that most everyone knows, AND it’s a song that has a structure wherein you can identify the song by its lyrics and rhythm.  It’s basically an ideal candidate for something like this!


PAGE TWO

The theme song was slightly updated in every draft to make it EVEN BETTER, but the first few verses never changed.  Later on though, in my first version we don’t have “who’s her friend? / don’t you know / that’s the squirrel Tippy-Toe” but instead have “Can she talk to a squirrel? / Well, her name’s Squirrel Girl!”.  This was dropped because we’d hit the “she can talk to squirrels” note already, and Tippy is awesome! 

This may reveal too many “I’m not the smartest man” secrets, but it was very late along that I realized “hey wait a minute, SG singing her theme song also works as a unique, fun and very efficient introduction to this character, her abilities, her personality, and the tone of this book” instead of just “I think a theme song would be fun so I’ma write a theme song”.

Dan Slott (writer of many previous SG adventures!) got sent an early proof of the comic and suggested a few alterations to the lyrics, and IIRC he suggested changing my “All the powers of the squirrel!” to “Powers of both squirrel and girl” which I COMPLETELY LOVED and use all the time now.  Thanks Dan!


PAGE THREE

The character heads with bios used to be a thing in vintage comics and I always loved them, but my inspiration for it here was actually my friend Joey Comeau’s work on the Bravest Warriors series.  He did it in his first issue, and then his second issue, and I was like “Joey you can’t do this every issue” and he was like “Why not?  I’ll make up different stories for them each time” and I was like “um actually that’s a great idea and I’m gonna do that too”.  How long can it last?  WHO CAN SAY??


PAGE FOUR

The SG / Tippy exchange of “Who doesn’t like you?” “I dunno… jerks, I guess?” originally had a part afterwards where SG told Tippy not to tell anyone about her secret identity, Tippy said “I only talk to other squirrels anyway, so we’re cool” and SG checked herself out in the mirror and said “Man… we ARE cool”.  I dropped this because a) come ON, Squirrel Girl, slow your roll b)  we were already hitting those notes in a much more satisfying way elsewhere on this very page!  I said it in my somewhat-detailed review of “Steven Spielberg Presents: Back To The Future: A Robert Zemeckis Film: The Novel by George Gipe based on a screenplay by Robert Zemeckis and Bob Gale” but it remains true: first drafts are where you get all your ideas down, and second drafts are where you make sure those ideas are Actually Good.


PAGE FIVE

This page didn’t change at all from the very first draft, but I remember adding in the “casually stop a mugging with an acorn earring” bit because otherwise it would just be SG and Tippy walking and talking, and it showed up what I love about SG: her ubercompetency.  She’s just SO GOOD at being Squirrel Girl.


PAGE SIX AND SEVEN

Again, no changes from the first draft!  Tomas was always intended to be Chipmunk Hunk, but I thought it’d be fun for these people to meet without knowing they both have powers first.  SG first realizes what’s going on in Issue 6!


PAGE EIGHT AND NINE

Nancy was originally inspired by my friend Lucie, and that “there are three things you can do to get me to hate you” line that she leads with – and that so defines her character for me – is something Lucie actually said to me once.  Lucie also has a cat named Mew.  Apparently the secret to writing is just to have interesting friends.  

Don’t tell anyone.


PAGE TEN

SG’s Deadpool cards! I swear that originally it was just intended as fun little callback (in an older appearance she referenced having Iron Man Battle Series Vs Cards, but you couldn’t read them), but later on I realize, hey wait a second, these cards actually function as The Most Efficient Backstory Exposition Device Ever In Time.  One panel and everyone knows who Kraven is, what he wants, where he comes from, and what his deal is, because the cards tell you exactly that!  I wanted the comic to be accessible to new readers, and these cards do that with peak efficiency.  Thanks, Deadpool cards!


PAGE ELEVEN

EMBARRASSING STORY: my first draft for this book was 22 pages long, when it was only supposed to be 20!  So I am a big dummy.  As part of fixing that mistake, the SG / Kraven fight got condensed from two pages down to one.  Originally, DOREEN ran to confront Kraven while pulling out the Deadpool card, got mad at him, said “I’ll be right back”, ran to the bathroom to change, and then SG came out to fight him. Needlessly convoluted, and easily condensed down to a single page by just having Doreen change into SG at the start!  All that was lost was a conversation between SG and Kraven over what the word “hirsute” means (it means hairy, it was no great loss).


PAGE TWELVE – THIRTEEN

Erica drew the heck out of this fight scene, and I love that later when people were like “oh wow, you drew Kraven sexy, I love that” she was like “oh I always thought he was supposed to be sexy”.  HE’S PRETTY SEXY, NOT GONNA LIE.


PAGE FOURTEEN – FIFTEEN

SG needing a moment to figure out how to beat him mirrored my writing process here.  In the first draft, she just throws him up, realizes what to do, catches him, and solves the problem.  It worked okay, but after cutting out some material elsewhere, we were able to draw SG imagining other ways she could defeat him, which ended up being one of my favourite parts of this issue.  Yay editing!  And Erica drew it just beautifully - the panel of SG thinking surrounded by squirrels is still one of my favourites - and Rico brought amazing colours to the “what if” sequence.

The “stuff squirrels down his pants” idea was how she was going to beat him way back in my pitch, before my editor Wil was like “I always saw SG as being someone who’s good at solving people’s problems” and I was like “Um holy crap you have just encapsulated SG perfectly”.


PAGE SIXTEEN – SEVENTEEN

This reveals this whole conflict happened because Kraven angrily kicked a squirrel while musing about his current fate, which I thought was fun.  My original idea was “Kraven is tired of losing and so starts re-training himself in hunting, starting with the smallest animals and working his way up to the top”, which would have had him actually hunting squirrels on ESU campus.  That seemed a bit like gilding the lily, and him just angrily kicking a squirrel is so ludicrous that I liked it better.


PAGE EIGHTEEN

This page got compressed in a later draft too (there were six in total, not counting the one I marked “FINAL – not final”, but all we really lost was a beat where Nancy said she was okay with Tippy living with them if Mew was too.  I think it’s reasonable that Nancy wouldn’t allow it if Mew didn’t like it, but decided it was SO reasonable that Nancy didn’t have to say it, and we’d just make it clear that Mew and Tippy got along fine.


PAGE NINETEEN – TWENTY

In the first draft TT and SG had this “Galactus is coming” conversation in front of Nancy, but Nancy couldn’t understand Tippy’s parts and so just assumed SG was talking to her pet squirrel the way she talks to Mew.  That seemed to imply Nancy wasn’t as clever and good at seeing through people’s crap as she CLEARLY IS, so I rewrote it to what we have now: Tippy leaps onto SG’s face and stays there until SG excuses herself to go to the bathroom to talk out of earshot, which was way better.  

The last “Galactus is coming” cliffhanger ended up being a single panel, but we tried SO MANY THINGS before that, each with their own page.  First it was Galactus flying to Earth in space.  Then on his ship (where he was looking at different planets, including an lava one (too hot) and ice one (too cold) and Earth (just right).  Then he was on his ship talking to weird robots called “Punishers” that hadn’t been seen since the sixties.  Anyway they were all silly and undercut his threat, and the single panel works way better!  And I’m really glad we did it, because if we went with the “Galactus choosing Earth because of its temperature” than the big reveal about Galactus’s REAL motivations around coming to Earth in issue 4 wouldn’t work.

And that’s the issue!  Now you are familiar with the way worse version of this comic that could’ve been, if only we’d all stopped working on it part-way through.  I hope you enjoyed it!

The Phan Hug

Genre: Fluff with an anxiety attack thrown in

Summary: Dan and Phil are waiting to do their main stage performance at VidCon and Dan comforts him, which leads to the illusive phan hug (ooh how myserious)

Warnings: Phil experiences a panic attack

Authors Note: wow look I had enough motivation to do an extra fic this week yay go summer woo hoo

VidCon was great. You got to see all your friends from all over the world, visit a whole different country, and meet a bunch of your fans. Phil loved everything about VidCon- except for the public performances. He would much rather be filming a video where he could reshoot and edit and take out the parts he didn’t want in the video. With live performances, he didn’t get that. Whatever you said or did up on that stage was final. There was no going back and changing what’s been done. And that single fact is the reason why Phil got so nervous for live performances. To add to the discomfort, Dan and Phil were still a secret. Their YouTube friends knew of course, but keeping that secret from the millions of subscribers that they had between the two of them was a heavy burden to carry.

The couple were now backstage in the dark, and surrounded by more security guards and nameless youtubers than they could count. For most people, this is what would freak them out the most.  The people rushing everywhere, the hot, sticky air, and the dimness of the holding room usually did a number on people who were as naturally anxious as Phil. But the real issue was the inevitability of his stage performance. 

As much as he tried, he couldn’t stop thinking about it. With every passing moment, his heart beat faster and the air that he was breathing in was so dense and humid that it he felt like he was choking. These two things made Phil feel like he was gonna tip over the edge and pass out in front of everyone. The more he stood there, the more couldn’t decide if it was just the room that was getting darker or his vision starting to go black at the edges. Whatever it was, Phil just knew it wasn’t good.

“Phil, are you alright? You look like a ghost.” Dan asked jokingly, obviously unaware of Phil’s current predicament. Dan loved live stage performances like this. Everything that made Phil feel anxious, the people, the bright lights, and the room for error, was exactly what Dan loved most about conventions like this.

On top of everything, one huge issue still remained. Phil had never worked up the courage to tell Dan about his anxiety issues. It wasn’t too serious, as over the years Phil had learned how to control his nerves for most situations. But since VidCon only comes once a year, Phil hasn’t had the chance to become better at public speaking to this degree with this amount of people. Deciding to try and not worry Dan right before they went on stage, Phil replied as quickly- and as calmly- as he could.

“Ah, yeah I’m good.” Phil said weakly. Unconvinced, Dan put the back of his hand up to Phil’s forehead to see if he was sick.

“Phil you’re so bloody cold,” Dan whispered, leaning into Phil as if to try and transfer some of his heat to the other. 

“Are you sure you’re okay? It’s so hot in here, and you’re just… not…” Dan continued, looking up and down Phil’s body, worry lines spreading across his face. He looked back up to Phil’s face, and the realization of what was happening hit him like a train. The extra paleness in his face, the way he was shaking, how cold he was in a hot and stuffy room all led Dan to his realization.

Phil was having an anxiety attack.

Dan pulled his phone out of his pocket and checked the time. He had exactly five minutes to attempt to calm Phil down and go on stage and perform. 

“Hey Phil,” Dan said quietly as he reached down to hold Phil’s hand. It was dark enough in here for nobody to see his act of comfort, and even if they did see, Dan didn’t care. Right now all he wanted to do was make sure Phil was okay, well as okay as you can be while having an anxiety attack.

“Would it help to go outside somewhere? You don’t have to speak you can just nod.” Dan continued, trying to keep his voice as calm and reassuring as possible. He was trying to pull out every bit of knowledge he had collected about calming down panic attacks over the years, but was struggling to bring come up with anything. Dan ended up deciding that his best bet would just to be as steady and secure as possible and see where to go from there.

Phil nodded and that was all it took for Dan to lead them out of the room and into a corridor used for the hotel staff. They probably weren’t allowed to be in there, but at least it was calmer and out of the hot darkness of the holding room. 

After five minutes of whispers of encouragement and confused staff walking by, Phil finally spoke.

“D-Dan do y-you think you c-c-could ah-” He tried, voice as shaky as an opera singer’s doing vibrato. At first Dan didn’t understand what he was trying to get across, but then he saw Phil’s arms inviting him to hug him.

“Of course.” Dan said, going into hug him, but right before they could touch each other, the door that they came through flew open.

“DOES ANYONE KNOW WHERE THE HELL DAN AND-” The middle aged VidCon staff woman yelled, stopping once she saw Dan and Phil standing a couple feet away.

She gave the two a slightly dirty glance before ushering them as quickly as she could to the door that led to the stage. The whole time they were being marched to the place they would perform, Phil locked his eyes onto Dan. All he wanted was to have a sense of comfort from his boyfriend, but no, they were interrupted right before they had a chance to do anything. Dan caught his gaze and understood the mutual unhappiness between the two because of the fact that they couldn’t share a hug before they went on stage. 

From behind the heavy door that separated them from the stage, the couple could hear the booming voice of their friend Cat introducing them, followed by the deafening screams of the thousands of fans who came to see them.

Dan and Phil walked onto the stage and waved to the crowd, trying to adjust to the blinding stage lights as quickly as they could. Dan looked over at Phil to see how he was holding up. His condition hadn’t greatly improved in the last five minutes (as expected) so Dan decided to put out one extra push in effort to calm Phil down.

Right before they reached their seats that were set up in the center of the stage, Dan went over to Phil and hugged him. The crowd erupted into screams and he could feel the hundreds of iPhones being put up to capture the moment. The hug didn’t last long in the slightest, but it was all Phil needed. As they pulled away, Phil whispered in Dan’s ear just loud enough for him to hear over the noise of the fans. 

“Thank you so much Dan." 

4

AU/ Missing scene from 1x04 after Anne Bonny storms off in anger over Jack’s lack of compassion towards Max.

‘Ah, there you are.’

Jack came flaunting over to Anne, who was hunched away against a wall while managing a piece of wood with her knife. Jack had felt the urge to somehow make up for the little spat they’d had earlier, but knew all too well she needed an hour or two to herself before he’d bother her with apologies and false promises. 

He hunched before her and moved his fingers on top of her knee, all over to her thigh in a playful manner – a flirtatious manner.

'I know just the way to make things right, darling,’ he tried to persuade her in the smoothest voice he could muster. 

He was dissapointed to see she didn’t bother to spare him a single glance. Jack sighed, knowing he wouldn’t get out of this with just sex. So instead of playing around, he affectionately caressed her thigh with his thumb, not even really aware of what he was doing. It just felt nice. Only then did she stop moving her knife and instead chose to look up at him. His irritation over her outburst from earlier in front of Noonan vanished as soon as he saw her gaze. There was still anger there, resentment even, but other than that she just looked sad. 

'Oh love, if I’d have known – ’

'You do know,’ she interrupted even before he could finish his sentence. 'You know exactly how I feel about pigs forcing themselves onto women against their will.’

By now, her eyes were ablaze again, fury flaring in every single fiber within her being. Oh Jack did know, he knew all too well. And he shouldn’t have been so inconsiderate about her feelings, but the past few days had been aksing their toll. All he could think about was getting himself out of the mess, as Bonny would have no issue doing so, if only she didn’t so foolishly decide to stick with him. Through thick and thin, they’d once promised, underneath the black night sky and in between bottles upon bottles of rum. He cursed her for her loyalty.

He moved the hand that had been loosely resting on her leg up to his face and tried to rub away the tiredness, sighing exasperately. 

'Look, I’ll see what I can do for the prostitue, okay?’

Anne wanted to scoff at the false promise, piling up on top of the many others he’d vowed to her. Instead she chose to just nod. Translated, Jack knew that meant she wasn’t entirely convinced, but she hadn’t written him off just yet either. 

'Now let me try to make it up to you anyway,’ he grinned, though the fatigue specked through to his signature smirk. Yet she couldn’t help but return the grin, throwing the piece of wood and knife aside, tugging at his shirt and pulling him with her inside the tent they’d been sharing for the past few weeks. Falling onto the many pillows and blankets scatterd on the floor, he traced his kisses from her mouth to her neck, obliging her to moan his name. And with that, all her thoughts about Max dwindled into nothing more but Jack’s hands moving all over her body.

She hadn’t forgiven him yet. But he was getting there.