Walking out of buckys room is harder than you thought it’d be. All you want to do is turn back, throw your self in his arms and sleep there . But that’s just not how the cards played out this time .
Did she just- she left . We finally did it , we had mind blowing sex and she just left ? Did she not like it? Pshh there’s no way she didn’t like it, I’m fucking awesome .
Maybe this was only a game to her , but everything else says otherwise . What is her deal ? Ugh. If this is what she wants , then this is how it’ll be . Atleast until I can make her realize just fucking isn’t what I want . I should probably just spit it out and tell her how I feel , but even I know I’m too much a pussy to take that risk. Not until I know for sure how she feels.
The next day
You spent the rest of yesterday locked in your room , you couldn’t handle seeing bucky again just to have him act like nothing happened . Today you have to leave your room though , you have a meeting and then training . Calling Steve and faking sick crossed your mind, but you’re better than that , you’re better than letting someone affect your life like that .
The entire team was at the meeting , apparently all of you need to be present for some big announcement. You’re the last one to arrive , and the only seat is next to Bucky . For fucks sake . You slide into the seat as Tony begins speaking
“ you all met the fantastic four the other night ,correct?” He received various forms of ‘yes ’ from all of you . As you answer , you feel a hand on your thigh, and you immediately recognize it as buckys cold metal hand . Wtf? His finger slide between your thighs, pushing them slightly apart so he can nestle them between your legs. You shoot him a wide eyed look but he keeps his eyes on Tony , his face 100% emotionless . Why the fuck did I wear a skirt ?How is he staying so calm?!
“ well, me and reed agreed that Incase the situation ever should present itself for us to have to fight together , we should all learn the others techniques and skills. So we can work is harmony instead of having absolute chaos trying to work together on a mission.”
As tony speaks buckys fingers lightly brush over your core , making you squirm at the friction on your underwear against your clit . As the other discuss Tony’s decision, bucky only gets bolder . He’s rubbing rough circles into your covered core, but swiftly dips his fingers underneath your panties . You suck in a harsh breathe when he inserts a finger and starts slowly thrusting , while his palm works against your clit . Holy shiiiit, why is he doing this to me . He picks up the pace, and your hand shoots down to grab onto his to try and still it . It doesn’t work how you want , it only encourages him .
“ the others being here means a lot more risk of injuries , and Helen is still out of the country. Y/n you can handle this though right ? In case hot head accidentally burns someone or Ben ends up tossing someone through a wall? ”
“ uh- ye-yeah tony , I can handle it !” You’re tone is a Barely even , but with your advancing orgasm it’s the closest to calm you can get .
“ perfect ! Anymore questions ?”
When no one spoke up, tony dismisses everyone , you rip buckys hand away from you and storm out of the conference room.
“ y/n wait !” He calls after you . You stop dead in your tracks , making him nearly crash into you. After checking to make sure you’re the only two left in the hall , You whirl around and push him until his back hits the wall
“ what do you think you’re doing !? We were in a meeting Bucky! That was totally-”
“ hot ?” He asks with a grin . Your brows furrow in confusion.what is he playing at ?
“ you know , you’re even cuter when you’re angry doll.” He removes your hands as he steps forward , not stopping until your back is against the other wall. Well fuck .
“ I thought I told you this game was over for me , I don’t want to chase you anymore . I just want you doll.”
The way he’s looking at you is odd, his eyes hold a mix of anger , confusion and sincerity all at once . Maybe he does have feelings for me ? Why wouldn’t he just say it then ?
You don’t get the chance to reply , his lips overtaking yours stops any coherent thought in your mind . The kiss is sweet , filled with passion and it’s making your body tingle . Your hands fist in his shirt , pulling him until he’s flush against you. Why does this feel so right ? Why does it feel … so real ? Does he kiss everyone like this ?
He finally backs away for air , your eyes never leaving each other .
“ the fantastic four have arrived and are waiting with the rest of the team for your arrival . Miss y/n you have been requested to be there also , just as a precaution.” FRIDAY announces .
“ c'mon doll. We’ve got work to do .”
Watching the teams fight each other is giving you anxiety . Every time Johnny uses his powers against someone you have to try not to close your eyes , Someone’s going to catch on fire , his aim is messy. Ben managed not to throw anyone through a wall, and reed & sues powers are addicting to watch . One minute she would be infront of Natasha the next , poof, empty air . So cooool . And reed is so … stretchy .
“ what’re you thinking about princess?” When the hell did Johnny get over here?
“ do you think reed is stretchy , everywhere?” you wiggle your eyebrows
“ gross he’s married To my sister dude ! I don’t want think about it !” His have scrunches up in disgust and you can’t control the laugh that escapes you . You hear a loud boom and look up to seem bucky flat on his back with Big orange ben standing over him laughing
“ I didn’t mean to knock you that hard Barnes ! Keep your head in the fight though! ” buckys eyes find yours , jealously& anger clear in his expression .
“ so I take it things didn’t go well with terminator the other night? What a shame . You know I’m still free babe .” Johnnys tone is playful , but you can sense he actually means his offer .
“We - uhm - it went well. Just not exactly how I wanted .” You admit shyly
“ anal?” He questions
You make a fake vomit noise and elbow him “ no you jackass . Gross. I just thought it would be more than sex , ya know? But I was wrong .”
“ by the way he keeps looking over here , I don’t think it’s just sex to him . He looks like he wants to ram me up bens ass . ” at that Johnny raises his hand to wave at bucky, then winks .
“ you’re asking for trouble storm . He probably just doesn’t want to share me .” Makes senses , I don’t want to share him either . Ever . But for entirely different motives
“ I think you two are just misunderstanding-”
“ storm your up against Barnes now !” Tony calls over , oh shit. This is going to be interesting.
Johnny leans over to place a quick kiss to my cheek before skipping over to Bucky on the mats . You watch the two conversing but can’t hear what’s being said .
Fucking storm . Why the hell did he kiss her cheek? And why does he look so
Fucking giddy to fight me ? Prick .
“ you know , she might be blind but I’m not .” He says quiet enough for only me to hear .
“ what the fuck are you talking about ?”
“ you’re infatuated with y/n, not in a ’ I just want to fuck your brains out ’ kinda way. Because if it was you wouldn’t look like you’re planning 200 different ways too kill me when I speak to her . If you have feelings for her tell her , because beautiful girls like don’t wait around forever grandpa . ” with that the starting whistle goes off and we begin sparring , maybe Johnny isn’t that bad .
Thankfully Bucky didn’t kill Johnny , or get set on fire , and no one needed medical attention . Makes my job a hell of a lot easier .
You bolted like a bat out of hell after training , locking myself away in your room before anyone could even try to talk to you . If buckys done with the game, it could mean one of two things :
1.) he has feelings for me .
2.) he just wanted to skip all the foreplay and get right to the fucking .
If he does have feelings for me, why wouldn’t he just straight out say it then ? I mean I didn’t exactly voice mine , but … whatever . I think it’s option #2. Just the sex , which I can’t really complain , it was fan fucking tastic. I’d gladly continue that, but will I be able to do that and keep the feelings at bay? Or will it make it worse ?
Your inner battle gets interrupted by rapid knocks on your door .
“ doll I know you’re in there .”
Your heart jumps at buckys voice , but you hesitate before opening your door . I’m a big girl , why am I acting like a scared baby? You open your door, eyes connecting with the familiar pools of blue .
You don’t speak, instead you inquisitively raise your eyebrows at him . His mouth falls open and snaps closed a few times , and you can see him struggle to get whatever he needs to say out
“ bucky what’s wrong ?”
“ n-nothing’s wrong , I just- uh- ”
You grab his hand and haul him into your room and shut the door behind him.
“ listen , if you don’t wanna.. ya know , repeat the other night again I get it . It’s not an issue-”
“ NO , that’s not - fuck. I’m done with this entire game y/n , I’m not fooling around anymore.”
“ yeah , you mentioned that earlier , but what the hell does that mean Barnes ! ” you snap , you’ve had enough of this . When he doesn’t answer right away you let your annoyance take over
“ it either you either don’t want to have sex with me, want to have sex with me, or you have fuckif feelings for me! So which one is it because I’m not a damn mind reader and I’m sick of trying to diffuse this situation!” You growl .
His eyes widen at your words , but a wide smile plays at his lips too.
He steps closer, making you take a step back for everyone one he takes , until your back hits your door .
“ well doll, I can definitely tell you The first option is out. I can’t wait until I’m between those beautiful thighs again .” His hands land on your thighs , squeezing them as he continues , “ I’ve never had someone feel as good as you sweetheart . The way your pussy clenched around my dick, was absolutely intoxicating . And the way your lips feel against mine , -” his lips brush over yours gently making your breath hitch .
So it is just Sex for him . Your heart falls at the thought .
His fingers gently tilt your face up towards his, he must of seen tour face fall from his words
“You know what makes sex with you so perfect ? The fact that it isn’t emotionless, the fact that my heart leaps out of my chest at even the smallest touch , the tiniest hint of a smile or your beautiful laugh, sends waves of warmth through me . It makes me crave to see your lips curve into that dazzling smile, andto hear your addicting laughter. Everything about you is - breath taking y/n. You made it absolutely impossible not to fall in- ” he pauses quickly “ not to have feelings for you .”
Whoa- what just - did he -
He has one hand cradling your cheek, the other gripping your hip.
I need to answer him , but I- Did you ever get so frightened, that you couldn’t even scream ? Couldn’t even make a sound , the fear just over takes your entire system? Welll apparently shock and pure fucking happiness has that effect too.
His eyes are filled with uncertainty and fear now, you watch as his eyes trail over your face , taking in your deer-in-headlights expression at his confession.
He steps back, his hands leaving your body .
No no NO .
You launch yourself at him before he can take another step , and thank fucking god your bed was close enough to catch the two of you as you topple backwards . You land on top of him , straddling his hips as he looks up at you with confusion .
“ I- you- I thought- ” you stumble through your words , still not fully comprehending buckys confession.
“ doll you don’t have to say anything , I don’t want you make you feel like you have to recipro-”
“ do you ever shut up?” You chuckle , a bright smile dawns on your face , the words you’ve been searching for finally come out ,“ you are an insufferable asswipe Bucky Barnes . ” his face drops , and as he goes to speak you stop him “ I’ve been trying to figure out what the hell has been going on in that mind of yours ; whether you just wanted me as a reliable fuck , or if you actually cared about me like I care about you, I’ve been going fucking nuts! ” You laugh at yourself , the tension finally leaving your body .
“ then why’d you leave ?”
Things shift, Buckys face showing just how your exit affected him the other morning .
“ I may of been a little harsh-”
“ harsh?!? I asked you to stay and you said'fuck no’! That’s a little more than harsh-”
“ I didn’t want to get hurt ! I thought- seeing in your arms , waking up next to you , those are intimate things for me- bucky if this would of been just sex to and I would of stayed that night I would of been wrecked . I couldn’t risk-”
He sits up , with you still on his lap, and cups your face with both his hands ,
“ hey , breathe . I get it , I feel the same way, that’s why I asked you to stay, it was my of kinda trying to get you to realize I wanted more than just sex , y/n I WANT to fall asleep with you, and wake up with your crazy morning hair and bad-”
“ If you say bad breath I swear to God Barnes.”
He chuckles , then pulls your lips to his in a quick , sweet kiss.
“ you know , i never thought falling in love would be this -”
“ you love me? ” you question with a smirk.
His cheeks turned bright red , and he tries to hide his face in your neck but you don’t let him.
“ no way, you’re not hiding from this Buck. I think we’ve had enough communication issues to last a life time . Do you love me ?”
He shyly nods, barely meeting your gaze.
“ you know ,it would of been really awkward if you didn’t . Because I sure as hell love you Bucky Barnes .” There is no doubt in your words, your tone full love and confidence .
His face brightens at your words, and his lips crash into yours, pulling a shocked yelp from you . He smiles into the kiss, while you giggle against his lips. As the kiss heats up, your body moves against his , your hips moving on their own accord as they grind down onto his hardening lap .
The more intense the kiss gets , the faster your hips move , you pull apart to gasp as his hips push up into yours . Bucky takes the chance to suck your bottom lip into his mouth , a moan pouring from you at the feeling.
“ bucky please .” That’s all it took for him to flip you over and shed the clothes from both of you . The second his shirts off , your hands move to trace the lines of muscle across his chest . How is his body so fucking perfect ?
He moves your hands above your head , releasing them so his can roam your bare body . His lips are kissing and sucking down your neck, and you know he’s leaving bruises as he goes . His mouth finally makes it down to your chest , and He pays equal attention to each of your boobs . His mouth sucking and nipping at one , while his hand rolls and tugs at the other nipple . You’re pretty sure you can come undone just from the feeling . You feel a fresh wave of wetness between your thighs , and you rub them together to try and get any friction you can .
His hand grabs onto your thigh, sliding between them to part them.
“ don’t even try it doll , be patient .” He warns , you groan and toss your head back .
“ bucky please , I -oh!” As you speak he plunges two finger into your slick heat .
“ you what doll?” He smugly asks. “God, I love the noises you make, did I make you this wet for y/n? ” cocky bastard
His fingers speed up, the wet smacking noises of his fingers fucking into your pussy adding to the pleasure . You whimper , nodding you head in response to his question . Speaking was not an option right now, coherent thoughts aren’t even possible for you.
You roll your hips down on his fingers as he curls them right against the sensitive spot in you.
His entire body moves down , and his mouth suctions right onto your clit as he finger fucks you. You whimper as your release closes in, right as your on the verge of cuming , his mouth and fingers are gone .
“ you fucking-”
His lips cut you off with a rough kiss, his tongue tangling with yours right away . You both moan into it, and you glide your hand down your body until his hard cock was in your grasp . He groans into your mouth as you start to pump him slowly . You guide him to your entrance, letting him take over when his tip rubs against your dripping pussy . He pushes in slowly , swearing under his breath when he finally bottoms out. He gives you a minute to adjust before pulling back and thrusting roughly back in . You know you both aren’t going to last long , you’re both too wound up. You wind your finger through his hair, tugging him down for a kiss as he pounds into you . His pace is relentless , both of you chasing your releases . As you get closer his hips slow down , instead of smacking into yours , now they are slowing bumping together .
You whimper his name , and he flips the two of you . He has you sitting in his lap , your chest pressing against his as you behind lifting yourself up .
You drop back down onto him , your pace equally as slow as his were . You realize it went from fucking to … well making love . Your hands are on his neck , holding him to you as you passionately kiss him , moaning into his mouth as you ride him .
“ I love you.” You say , your lips hovering over his as your pace begins to pick up a little
“ I love you too doll.” His hands grip your waist a little tighter , allowing him to thrust up into you . You throw your head back at the feeling of him meeting your thrusts and it isn’t long before moans are pouring through the room as both of your orgasms rip through the two of you . You stay on his lap, his softening dick still in you as you blissfully ride out hot highs.
With one last slow kiss, you lift yourself off him and roll to lay beside him. Both of you are on your back , still trying to even your breathing . The only sound in the room is breathing , but it isn’t an awkward silence , but a welcomed one .
A few minutes pass before bucky turns to you , a goofy smile stretching across his lips ,
“ Stay?” He asks , you turn , mirroring his dorky smile .
So, in this pretentious, flamboyant restaurant filled with dignified
people, Ash suddenly climbed atop the table much to Johnny’s (and the
fellow customers) shock. Dark soda knocked over and spilling across the
pearly white canvas in the process as she made her way over to Johnny.
sound of the table jostling and glass hitting the table with a thunk
caused Johnny to look up. Wide brown eyes lifted to hers in obvious
confusion of what exactly was happening yet before Johnny could even
utter a word out of that cute mouth of his, Ash shut him up with her
The shock of feeling’s Johnny’s mouth under hers was shocking
to say the least - for damn, did it feel a helluva lot better than
those previous times the unwarranted thoughts flitted through her brain.
Her hands were less than gentle as she grasped onto the fur on his
cheeks and tilting her head against his mouth.
Ash became instantly aware of two things in that moment - One, this had to be Johnny’s first kiss for he didn’t know what the hell he was doing. Two - she didn’t care because it felt that amazing.
It was sloppy; his mouth completely unsure as he maneuvered to try and
perfectly fit it against hers. Ash couldn’t help but smile against his
lips and pull him closer out of sheer need to have his warmth closer.
Large hands trembled only for a second as they skirted firmly over her
hips before grasping lightly onto her sides and back and holding her
tight as she grasped onto him.
sorry this is hella late but i just really wanna (try) and support the lgbt+ community even though i feel like an asshole for not doing more!!!!!! okkk also ty @wrenpity for the bokeh tutorial lol it helped a LOT godbless,,,,, well this is it im p boring with text and whaTnOTS!! xoXOXOXOXO, love each and everyone of yous <33
HE SAID YES!!! I mean, it just sort of happened- I kissed him! And he kissed me BACK!!! And then everything was blurry and my heart was pounding and we were running through the castle. And I asked if he would be my boyfriend and he said he would!! Yours truly is now the official girlfriend of Mr. Ronald Weasley! I wonder what his middle name is??? I’ll ask him tomorrow!!! Off to dream of my boyfriend now!!! Xoxoxoxoxo!
“See, Wallace. Piece of cake. Told you we’d make the flight.”
Wallace shook his head at her. “You’re never boring, Veronica Mars.” He wrapped one arm around her shoulder and gave it a slight squeeze.
“Hey, Fennell, you trying to get fresh with me?”
At the front of the plane the flight attendants had begun their safety demonstration, but Wallace and Veronica ignored them, instead talking softly amongst themselves. Wallace looked at her with a look of concern that Veronica didn’t appreciate. “How you feeling about heading home?”
“It’ll be fine. I mean, it’s only been a year. Not like I’m the prodigal daughter or anything.”
“I’m just saying that somehow I managed to visit my mom three times in the past year, and this is your first time back.”
“Are you saying you’re a better son than I’m a daughter?”
“I didn’t say that. Did you hear me say that?”
“Shut it, Fennell.” She threw his travel pillow forcefully into his chest. “And take your travel pillow.”
“See, this is why you have to sleep. Otherwise you get all cranky.”
so, this fucking happened today. i have never in my entire life met someone so unbelievably humble and grounded; someone as talented, or beautiful, or perfect. his laugh and his smile and his eyes and his jawline are even more impressive i person, lemme tell you. that man smiles and i could curl up in his fucking dimples.
i caught the 7am train into nyc after not sleeping bc of the sheer adrenaline, stood in the pouring rain with deanambroseofficial for over three hours, our boots filling up with rainwater and trying desperately not to look like drowned cats in our dorky little ponchos, and it was so, so worth it.
i haven’t told this story before but i feel like now that i’ve told dean himself, i’m ready to talk about it perhaps a bit more publicly. when i was 17, i was diagnosed with a heart condition, generalized anxiety, and depersonalization. all are very treatable, but it meant that for an indefinite amount of time, i couldn’t kickbox. and anyone who knows me knows that kickboxing is/was my entire fucking life. it gets me outta bed in the morning, and it gets me into bed sore, bruised, and happy at night. and all of sudden, it was gone while i went through treatment.
eventually, losing kickboxing pushed me into a severe, severe depression. it was the only thing i had, the only thing i was crazy passionate about. i couldn’t get in the ring, i couldn’t step on the mat, i couldn’t do anything that i enjoyed; hell, most days i couldn’t even leave my house. so on those days when i couldn’t leave or when i was in the hospital, i watched kickboxing videos and indie wrestling videos. five years ago, i was sitting in a hospital hooked up to an ekg machine surfing youtube when a video popped up in a search– ’unbreakable jon moxley pre-match’.
i watched it and a few things happened at once. 1.) i was entertained bc i mean, dean ambrose is a fucking gift to the wrestling world; 2.) i forgot i was in a hospital bed surrounded by beeping machinery and loaded up on anti-anxiety medications and anti-depressants; 3.) i felt alive and i felt like myself again for the first time in the year since my diagnoses. i started to remember who i was, what i was, how passionate i used to be, how spontaneous and fun i used to be before those diseases ruined my fucking life.
after watching that video, and the dozens i marathon-ed that same day, i changed. something about him– his passion, his talent, his determination– sparked something in me. for the first time since my diagnosis, i started making progress. i started kinda clawing my way outta that dark place i let myself slip into and i swore i was going to get back into that ring and back onto that mat if it killed me. and soon, i will be.
it’s been five years since i first watched that video and i never imagined i’d have the opportunity to stand in front of him and thank him but today, i did. i walked right up to him and had him sign a screenshot of that same hwa video, which he did gratefully and he listened to my story and let me thank him and when i handed him a little thank you note, he smiled and stuck it in his pocket. we took these pictures and after, he practically whispered in my ear that he was happy i was better and that he was proud of me for getting back into my training. (he was sO CLOSE i almost passed out– his eyes are beautiful and i cannot get over his fucking jawline.) but goddamn, he said he was proud and i haven’t been able to say that part out loud bc i got home and just started sobbing bc that meant so. fucking. much.
but man, he is truthfully one of, if not the, most down to earth person i’ve ever met. he has this calming presence about him that i can’t really explain but i know i can’t be the only person to notice that today. sure, i almost lost my mind but he’s just such a warm person and he smells so nice and he’s so kind.
if anyone ever tries to say that dean ambrose is anything but a wonderful, humble, calming, kind individual, i will personally fight them because he is a fucking gift and he deserves the entire world.
The cat boys would like to volunteer their services as your valentine. Sample conversation: “His name is Wendell (Hugo), we met online, you don’t know him. He is very cute (handsome).” They understand if you have more than one valentine, they do too. XOXOXOXOXO 💖💕💕💕.
Taylor, do you see these people? These are all the people YOU brought into my life. I met them because we love your music and we love you, and I could never thank you enough for bringing them into my little world.
On that note, I don’t know what I’d do without you guys- Hen, ML, Tree, Liz, Karl, Kale, Al, Lolo, Moscato, Tor, Rav, Jilly, and my boyfriend Mark. I have never talked to anyone so much in my life and I know we will all be friends for a long time, no matter how far apart we may live. The fact that 13 very different girls can all connect and become best friends so quickly seems crazy, but we did it and I’m so thankful for it. I can’t imagine a day not talking to you guys, because even when I’m annoying or moody you still love me. I can’t wait to see you all SO SOON for Gillette. We’re going to have such a fun week together and I know it’s just the beginning of something magical. And Tor, even though you won’t be there for that concert, I can’t wait to eventually meet you (hopefully in October) because I can’t live without Tay’s shiny bright light. All 13 of you are amazing friends and I love you all.
Taylor, if you ever read this, I hope you know how special these people are. I hope you know that we will NEVER forget you as long as we live, and we will never forget how you brought us together. It’s weird because you said “these songs were once about my life, now they’re about yours,” and now I understand what you mean. Your words always helped me when I was feeling alone, but now, because of the friends you’ve given me, I’m never alone. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
My life will never be the same because you’re in it, and I honestly couldn’t imagine it without you. Even when I’m 87 and you’re 89, I will still remember the country sweetheart with curly blonde hair who stole my heart at 14. I will NEVER forget you and the things you have done for me Taylor. I am proud to call you my inspiration and most of all, my friend. I just cried when I wrote this because I’m honestly so emotional right now thinking about how blessed my life has been because of you, Tay. I know my friends probably feel the same. On behalf of all of us, thank you eternally. Love you.