is making me cry today. In every song I hear there’s a person attached to it.
I feel like a shattered flower vase someone tries to fix with tape to reuse it and pour more water into… little by little leaks start to get bigger… who’s gonna put me back together when I’m done breaking?
Beauty varies, in my opinion. If I were to be shallow, I would say a tall male with a beard. Piercings and tattoos are attractive depending on the person. There are just some people who weren’t made to sport tattoos, and I’m probably one of them. But I only notice these things when I’m just out by myself and I find myself attracted to a stranger. When it comes down to someone I DO know, I am NEVER shallow, not even a little. I’ve fallen in love with big husky guys, beard or no beard. I guess I could’ve made this shorter by just saying, A GREAT sense of humor, comprehension, and a sort of sensitivity makes someone pretty damn beautiful :p
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? yeh, I think he did. 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? definitely 3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? I can’t remember the last time those two feelings mixed.. 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? sure, I do it all the time. 5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? nope 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yeah, my parents’ rancheras haha aaallll the time >.< 7. What exactly are you wearing right now? jeans, a blue tee shirt, fuzzy socks 8. How often do you listen to music? as often as possible 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? uhhhh… jeans? 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012? too late. No it didn’t. 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? I think I’m pretty social. 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? no 13. What about ‘R’? nope 14. Can you drive a stick shift? I can’t drive, period :/ 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? not really. If they talked badly about me, I probably do the same to them. So its coo :p 16. Are you going out of town soon? nowhere in the near future, no. 17. When was the last time you cried? thursday i think >_> 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? yes 19. If you could change your eye color, would you? not really, I’m perfectly content w/ my shade of brown 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? I’m not so sure 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. I have nothing to do -__- 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? it happened once… it was cute 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? certainly NOT 24. What are you sitting on right now? picnic chair? Idk, its comfortable though 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? nope 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? story of MY LIFE 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? my mom 28. Do you get a lot of colds? not at all, lately anyway. 29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? the myspace building 30. Does anyone hate you? I hope not 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? of course not, they’re in the balcony 32. Do you like watching scary movies? yes, even if they don’t let me sleep at night 33. Do you want your tongue pierced? not really. no. 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2011. ALL OF IT. fuck that shit >_> 35. Did you have a dream last night? yeah, I dreamt I became a werewolf… that shit was crazy x] 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? january 9, like 1 or 2 in the a.m. 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? not a chance 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I really do. He won’t leave me alone 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? no I don’t 40. Did you have a good day yesterday? sorta 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? no i wasn’t 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? yeah for sure 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? yes 44. What’s the best part about school? lunch o,o 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? yea 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? no 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? everyday of my LIFE 48. Were you single over the last summer? for the second half I was 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? not one bit 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? homework 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? a little 52. Are you nice to everyone? I try to. Its like my policy 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? YES 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? if i ever last that long, yes i definitely believe i would remain faithful 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings? fucking PRO at it 56. Do you think you like someone? I KNOW i do 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? yes :) 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? guys. Most girls just don’t agree with me :/ 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? yeah i think so 60. Do you hate anyone? i wouldn’t say hate, but it is a strong dislike 61. How’s your heart? weak 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yes 63. Have you ever cried over a guy? plenty 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? nobody i hope 65. Are your toenails painted pink? NEVER O_o 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake? judging by my emotional vulnerability: yes 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? NO! who the hell loves it? Its like saying you’re glad he’s miserable >.> I’d rather find a way to make him stop crying, because happy is just a much better feeling than sadness any day of the week. 68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? nope 69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? jorge 70. How do you look right now? like I had a bad dream 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? not completely, no. 72. Can you commit to one person? yes I can 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? nope 74. Have you ever felt replaced? YES 75. Did you wake up cranky? not really 76. Are you a jealous person? hell yeah man, I have a problem 77. Are relationships ever worth it? I believe so, yes 78. Anyone you’re giving up on? I can’t find the strength to give up. so no. 79. Currently wanting to see anyone? absolutely 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow? go to school -_- 81. Last person you cried in front of? my mom 82. Is there someone you will never forget? yes 83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? YES. too much 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? contemplating whether or not I should forgive him 85. Are you over your past? not yet 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? yes he always has to be my best friend. If your partner is also your best friend, the bond could never be greater. And that’s beautiful =] 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? in the meantime, no 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? hell no. just no >.< 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? yeah 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? yeah, no one liked him lol 91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? i don’t see it happening 92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? yes i do 93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? no i haven’t 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? last january? like a whole year ago? yes I was. It wasn’t going very well. THIS january, I am not. 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? no i wasn’t. mainly because he had broken up with me -_- 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? I guess he’s OK 97. Who do you have texts from? Maximus (twitter)/ The fuzz (facebook)/ jorge/ marci 98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? “so what are you gonna do about that?” its what i always do. 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? YES 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you? in the background, i can only distinguish javier 101. Ever kissed under fireworks? nawwww 102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? yeah. but there was this one guy who straight up gave me pterodactyls… that was beast lol
He interrupts my life, asking to have a word with me about a certain topic later in the day, when my senses weren’t so hazed. I’m ecstatic. I think he wants to talk about US. Instead I hear the story about how long a crush he’s had on a familiar of ours. The story of two frightened lovers afraid to commit. Whilst hearing this story, with special interest, I think, “Is it possible they’ve both forgotten the severity of my emotions for him?”