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Halloween and trick or treating is completely dead in my neighborhood. It’s 8 PM and I don’t think our doorbell has rung even half a dozen times tonight. What happened to all the trick or treaters? I remember my block used to be HELLA crackin’ with hundreds of kids roaming the streets. Now there’s barely anyone out, it’s so sad! My mom has a funny head piece on and she’s sad that there aren’t any kids coming to our door because she bought a good amount of candy. Has the paranoia of parents ruined Halloween or is trick or treating not cool anymore?

Sometimes I miss you

Day 23: Some days, some feelings. Some people. Some things you don’t forget. Ever. No matter how bad the aftertaste, some memories are just so good. They now and then tend to resurface. Sometimes it’s not even fair but this is the way our brains are wired. Sometimes I miss you. Quickly I have to remind myself of all the pain, but still sometimes I miss you. But just sometimes.

Avengers: Age of Ultron

Avengers: Age of Ultron was kinda just okay… It was cool and fun to watch in the moment, but at a certain point all these superhero movies are EXACTLY the same in formula. A new threat appears, build up the threat, eliminate the treat; rinse, wash, and repeat. I saw a Tumblr post that was like “I’LL KILL YOU IF YOU SPOIL AVENGERS AGE OF ULTRON” but I remember thinking “Spoil what? Is there really going to be anything worth spoiling?” and I was pretty much right, nothing all that important happens in this film. Ultron really just felt like a placeholder between the first Avengers when they introduce Thanos and when they finally get to fight him, that’s about it. Are there cool action beats? Yeah, like a ton of them, but eventually everything just kind of becomes mindless destruction and chaos. Also, I feel like after all the shit Man of Steel got for the endless destruction and lack of care for innocent bystanders they were REALLY concerned about saving civilians and we spend like 20-30 minutes of the film just watching them either save one or two people running around like idiots or saving people by escorting them to a safe zone, like do we really need to see all that? lol. Overall I had fun watching it but it was a bit underwhelming to say the least.

Holding hands

Day 73: We were sitting next to each other, watching a movie. The movie didn’t matter. There was electricity between us and it could be felt by both of us. It’s not like we were actually touching in any way but the magnetic force between us was enough to feel the tension. From the corner of our eyes we kept looking at each other hands. I decided that if he didn’t make the first move before…

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Chris Pratt is Hollywood’s new “IT” guy. Hollywood goes through phases, it used to be Brad Pitt, Channing Tatum, Jeremy Renner. Basically a white dude who did really fucking well in a smash blockbuster gets this IT guy treatment every year. Every single role that’s being cast right now has Pratt at the top of the wishlist. I mean I love the guy but he doesn’t need to be in everything, right? 

關於菸和同志婚姻

菸害防制法又有新招,立法院今天早上院會三讀通過道路交通管理處罰條例部分條文,癮君子未來騎機車、開車時抽菸影響他人安全,可處新台幣600元罰鍰。消息見報,一片歡聲雷動,臉書上的許多朋友拍手叫好。

又來了。

如何界定影響他人安全?那是否在不影響他人安全的情況下即可吸菸?如此模稜兩可難以界定的答案真讓人不得不懷疑這樣的法條真的是定來令某些人高興而又讓某些人心酸的。

忝為吸菸族的一員,多年來眼見得自己的位置被限縮的越來越小,終於快要變成一個不折不扣的home smoker,每每遇到類似像這樣的新法案或法條的出現,我總是悶不吭聲的多──為什麼?因為人權啊。因為不吸菸族有不吸菸族的人權,所以,理所當然的,吸菸族的人權當然應該被犧牲。誰叫我們喜歡吸菸呢?因為我們吸菸,所以我們活該不該享有人權,對,我們活該,因為做了被公認不道德的事,所以我們注定是二等公民。

現在,請把上面這段文字中的吸菸族代換成同志,不吸菸族代換成異性戀,最後再把吸菸代換成愛同性,從頭到尾再唸一次看看。

我知道上面的類比可能會招致某些人的抗議:同志不比吸菸族,從不招誰惹誰更沒有傷害誰,怎麼可以拿來相提並論?但我要說的是,至少在中華民國現行的法律上,同志和吸菸族一樣,都是合法存在的公民,就像我認為身為同志我應該享有跟異性戀完全一樣的基本人權一樣,我認為吸菸族也應該享有吸菸族的基本人權。

但是既然被視為二等公民,所以有沒有人權又怎麼樣呢?二等公民就是該死。因此我真心希望中華民國趕緊立法,規定所有的吸菸行為都是標準犯罪,所有吸菸者都是絕對現行犯,所有的香菸販售行為更是等同於販毒,並且全國雷厲風行,讓不吸菸族的人權得以伸張,中華民國千秋萬世得以乾乾淨淨國泰民安。

現在,再請把上面這段文字中的吸菸代換成同性戀,香菸販售代換成同性婚姻,不吸菸代換成異性戀,然後也唸一次看看。

我想,很多護家盟的傢伙,心裡應該都是這麼想的吧。

中華民國真是不帶種啊,不敢成為亞洲第一個同志婚姻合法化的國家,好歹可以考慮成為世界第一個吸菸犯罪合法化的國家吧。

或許這樣我就順便可以戒菸了。

Truly

Day 14: We probably have all said it once or twice in our lifetime, “Now I know who my real friends are”. Something most people go through is losing friends or get disappointed by them so much, you expect nothing much from them anymore. I have had quite a few friend losses, up to a point I didn’t want to make any new ones. But this is not about discovering who “your real friends are” but about appreciating the people you have in your life. I used to be afraid when I got sick or was very down, that people would ditch me. Some of them did. But being sick the past few days has made me realize what a wonderful family of friends I have. And like always my amazing mom. The people around me have basically taken turns to taking care of me and I’m amazed at it. I am usually the one taking care of others but I’m happy to see how many are either worried about me or caring for me or both. So to you loving people, my own words come up short so I’m stealing these: “For a friend with an understanding heart is worth no less than a brother” - Homer

So tomorrow morning is do or die time for me. I have to pass my HESI exit exam in order to graduate next week with my diploma. I didn’t pass it my first time around back in October by maybe just a question or two, which was excruciatingly heartbreaking. This is my last chance. I feel sick and physically exhausted from studying and worrying, hoping and praying that I pass this exit exam and finish nursing school for good. For some of you who have followed me for a long time have been here since I was taking prerequisites just to get in to nursing school. If you could just keep me in your prayers and send good vibes my way, I would really appreciate it.

Purpose of life ...

Day 6: A lot of (smart) people have made a search for the purpose of life and I’m going to take a stab at it myself. But warning, do not expect something profound or deep, like world peace or preserving the planet for our future generations. Unlike some, I’m willing to admit that we might run this planet dry and there will never, ever be world peace unless it stops existing altogether (hey, the two might give each other a hand). Anyway my perspective is that the purpose of life is, there is no real purpose. Maybe the only thing we can do is to enjoy it while it lasts, try not to make the same mistakes that our parents made and hope you didn’t hold back on life. How much weight will be lifted from your shoulders if there was no pressure to be ANYTHING? Just living life should be enough.

The Diving Bell and the Butterfly

I had of The Diving Bell and the Butterfly constantly within film circles ever since I really started to get into film. It’s a 2007 biopic that has been praised to the high heavens by most who have seen the film, basically calling it nothing short of a masterpiece. I’m no different, The Diving Bell and the Butterfly is a truly stunning film. The story of this man’s life is simply amazing.

Jean-Dominique Bauby at the age of 42 has a stroke that leaves him with a rare condition called “locked-in syndrome,” which essentially paralyzes him from head to toe. He eventually manages to communicate through the use of his one good eye, speaking to others through morse code by blinking his eye. He then dictates a book on his life and living with locked-in syndrome.

This film is simultaneously a gut punch and a shining example of the possibilities of life. It captures so poignantly the tragedy and beauty of life, showcasing our struggles and our ability to overcome monumental odds.

As someone who watches movies constantly, I always give a film credit when it does something new and The Diving Bell and the Butterfly feels so unique in its approach and filmmaking. The first person perspective and inner monologue could never fully replicate the idea of being “locked-in” but it shows the immense difficulties of the condition and hints at the true terror of it.

The Diving Bell and the Butterfly is a the kind of film that I love the most, equal parts entertaining and profound. It shows the lowest depths that our lives can take us to and also the moments that make life worth living. I would highly recommend that everyone seek this movie out and watch!

Wonderland

Day 95: I wish I could live in the land of fairy tales where happily ever after is guaranteed. Where true love breaks any spell and is stronger than magic.

“It’s not that simple. It’s messy. It means arguing, and making up, and laughing, and crying, and struggling. And sometimes it doesn’t seem worth it. But it is. And at the end when you’re in love, no matter what happens, you forgive each…

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The train tracks on The Wire...

*Note: This post contains no major plot spoilers for The Wire*

The creator of The Wire, David Simon, has publicly stated that no critic has ever gotten the reason why McNulty and Bunk drank by the train tracks correct and I just wanted to throw in my two cents. I haven’t really read any critic’s take on the train tracks so this might have been said before and much more eloquently, so here goes…

The ultimate message of The Wire is about institutions and the way that nothing ever seems to change on a grander scale. There are always people who are benefited by the system and choose to back that system up instead of advocating for better.

How does the institution tie into the train tracks? I see the train tracks as the system itself. No matter what anyone who rides the train does, they cannot sway from the path that the tracks leads them to.

There’s a scene in The Wire where McNulty stands on the train tracks as the train heads towards him. The only two options he has is to move out the way or let the train kill him. Either way the system to continues on or the system kills him, there is nothing he can do to prevent the system from continuing the same way as it always has.

Another big theme of The Wire is how life is cyclical. Similarly, a train essentially only goes around in circles or follows the same path. It is impossible for a train to travel anywhere that its tracks does not take it. The path that it takes is firm, rigid, and set in place, there is no other alternative. Trains are orderly, exactly the way that many institutions in America are.

The railroads in America go so far back that they predate the ban on slavery. The railroads were built on the blood, sweat, and labor of immigrant and slave workers, the same way that the very same institutions running America today continue to exploit not just minorities anymore, but the working class. The common man and woman serve as nothing but tools to keep those in power in control. We don’t have slavery anymore, but in a way we are still enslaved to those who run the system. What greater representation of things not changing is there than the railroads of America?

Anyways, that’s just my theory on the train tracks. I really ought to look up some critic’s views, because this show is just endlessly fascinating. I finished the series months ago and I still can’t stop thinking about it/discussing it with people I know. If you haven’t seen The Wire, I would highly recommend that you do whatever you have to do to watch it. Trust me, you won’t regret it!

Shakespeare says it all

Shakespeare says it all

Day 93: When a poem says it all…even better if it is said by Shakespeare.

No more be griev’d at that which thou hast done:
Roses have thorns, and silver fountains mud,
Clouds and eclipses stain both moon and sun,
And loathsome canker lives in sweetest bud.
All men make faults, and even I in this,
Authorizing thy trespass with compare,
Myself corrupting, salving thy amiss,
Excusing thy sins more…

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