The realization that you were being ignored by Jungkook came
to you three days after him snapping at you. It’s now day seven of his
perpetual efforts to ignore you, this was absolutely the longest you two have
ever gone without speaking and it didn’t take long for all of the boys
including your brother to figure out that you two were in a ‘tiff’ as he would
You didn’t know what to feel, sure you two have argued
before but nothing has ever happened to make either of you completely shut the
other out. Your stomach tightened just thinking about how you could’ve upset
Jungkook, you didn’t think you said anything wrong. Just a friend. That’s all you two have ever been but now you weren’t
so sure. Hell, after what happened you were pretty sure you two weren’t just
friends but that’s what you had to tell your brother. Jungkook knew you had to
tell Jimin that, Jimin suddenly flipped the switch on you telling you that he
didn’t like the fact that Jungkook liked you and you panicked, you had to say
something or else Jimin would’ve had you go back home to your apartment instead
of spending the next week with the boys. You knew you had to go back home
eventually, seven days exactly but you were more focused on getting Jungkook to
talk to you instead of ignoring for what seemed like the rest of your known
You sighed again as you plopped down against his bed, you
decided that you needed to talk to him even if he didn’t want to. You weren’t
in the mood to be around all of the other boys anyways, they were rather loud
today and you were already feeling a headache form in the front of your head.
You let out a yawn when you realized just how tired you really were. You didn’t
get any sleep last night as you were up thinking, you honestly hated when you
did this to yourself. You’d always end up staying up until the wee hours of the
night thinking about things, whether it be things that happened in the past or
whatever was going on in your life now.
The sound of the door opening and shutting instantly had
your head snapping up and locking eyes with who you were waiting for. “Jungkook.”
It took maybe a good three seconds for Jungkook to realize this is where you
had been the whole time and instantly turned around to face his door, his door
opened and you realized he was trying to leave. “God, don’t avoid me.” You snap, you didn’t mean to but you heard all of
the attitude and frustration you had been trying to hold in come out in those
four words. Jungkook just simply closed the door, switching the lock on the
door and proceeded to lean against it. His arms crossed over his chest and you
had expected him to say something but he continued to stay silent. You let out
another sigh as you knew he wasn’t going to talk first.
When the frustration builds in you again you could almost feel
as if you were about to explode, you bit down on your tongue as you let out a
harsh breath of air. “Listen I’m sorry.” You start out, eyes leaving Jungkook’s
frame to go down to your fingers. You wanted to whine and rant out how it wasn’t
even your fault but you kept that part of you inside and refrained from another
argument you literally didn’t have the time for. You didn’t want to say words
you don’t mean and be hurtful causing you to end up losing him for good, or at
least the remaining time you had in the dorm. “I didn’t think what I said to
Jimin would cause you to ignore me for this long…or at all if I’m being honest.”
You raised your head quickly to find Jungkook’s eyes plastered on you, your
attention quickly went back to your hands. “I just don’t know why you’re so mad
at me Jungkook, I know you heard what Jimin said so you knew I couldn’t say-”
“Are we really just
friends?” Jungkook interrupted you easily, his words making you freeze for
a second before you found yourself more interested in your fingers than him
You’re good at making distractions for yourself, if it was
to distract you during school or in sticky situations that you always happen to
put yourself in then you could easily get yourself distracted. The truth is you
didn’t know what you were with Jungkook. Did you like him? Was what Jimin said
true? You didn’t even get a straight answer from Jungkook when he was in your
room a week ago, so you couldn’t help but have mixed feelings of the relationship
you and Jungkook now have. Was this all leading to a friends with benefits type
thing? You didn’t want that, you knew that already. You’ve dealt with stupid
boys who just want sex with no feelings attached and you just weren’t the type
of person for that.
“(Y/N).” His voice disrupted your thoughts, your head
snapped up and stayed up as you stared back at him. “I don’t know, Jungkook.”
“Well why not!” Jungkook instantly snapped at you pushing
himself off of the door and took a few steps towards his bed. He looked angry,
the frustration was taking over his body, and you knew that just by looking at
him. His hand clenched into a fist but you knew you had nothing to worry about,
Jungkook has never laid a hand on you or any of the boys, even when he got
angry he’d just blow off steam and leave the room. He had no choice to stay in
his bedroom with you so he had to stay angry with you right in front of him.
“I said I don’t know, don’t you under-”
“Then what are we?”
He interrupted you again huffing out the words in a single breath. He began to
shift the weight from each leg, while you did this when you were either
uncomfortable or embarrassed Jungkook did this when he was angry and couldn’t
walk away from the argument he was in. He had to hold back the words he really
wanted to say, he knew no good would come out of them and that he’d instantly
regret them later. He also knew his anger was only coming from him being hurt.
It wasn’t a lie that he had some sort of feelings for you, he admitted them
somewhat to you when he ended up waiting for you in your bed last week but he
even knew he wasn’t completely clear with you and the dream he had of you was
the only thing that was stuck on his brain. “You have to know because you
wouldn’t have waiting for me in my bed all this time if you didn’t-”
“I said I didn’t know!” You yelled now interrupting him, you
slapped your hands against your thighs in infuriation of him. “If I don’t know
then I don’t know!” Jungkook crossed his arms over is chest again and huffed
out a sigh, his eyes narrowed sending daggers down at you and you just felt
more anger fill up in you at the audacity he has at being angry at you. “You
know what Jungkook, whatever.” You rolled your eyes and quickly got off of his
bed. You didn’t want to deal with any of the argument that was still lingering
in the room, you two have barely been in the room for longer than fifteen
minutes and you already wanted to tear off his head as he just wanted you to
answer him. He watched you as you made way towards him but was left dumbfounded
when you passed him completely and reached for the door unlocking it and
opening it slightly.
Jungkook’s hand easily slammed the door shut when you opened
it. “You’re not leaving.” He spoke lowly, almost sounding like a growl. “You
wanted to talk so talk.” He said moving in front of you relocking the door and
putting his weight against the door now.
“I don’t want to talk to you anymore.” You simply said
staring back up to him. The anger in you was gone and you simply just didn’t care anymore. All of the fight you had
in you was drained out and that was something Jungkook instantly noticed. He
exhaled while he let his head fall back against the door and close his eyes
momentarily. Seeing you give up so easily caused his anger to diminish and the
urge for an answer rushed back into his mind. He opened his eyes and looked
down seeing you still in front of him. He pushed himself off of the door and
brought his hands to you letting them drop to your shoulders and run down your
arms. You felt the familiar feeling in your stomach and you wanted to step away
from him but you couldn’t. The only thing you could do was divert your eyes
from his and look at anything else but him. To your luck you couldn’t find
anything so you did what you always did and looked down at your fingers. You
felt Jungkook’s hands tighten around your arms slightly and you just sighed
“Look me in the eyesand
tell me you don’t have any feelings for me.” Jungkook said, his voice came out
quiet almost in a whisper as if he didn’t want anyone eavesdropping to hear.
You didn’t know what it was that was inside of you but you
couldn’t move, your whole body froze and you didn’t know what to say. Your eyes
stayed glued to your fingers though nothing was running around in your mind. It
was as if you completely shut down. You closed your eyes briefly and took in a
deep breath, you exhaled slowly trying to get the right words to come out but
you could only think of two before raising your head back up to Jungkook and
took a step back. “I can’t.” You said before taking another step back. “I can’t
because I do.”
hey guys!!! if you still haven’t gotten used to my new url, I used to be flowerboyeol! wow this is so long overdue but I honestly just felt like making this the other day so I did! my 2nd anniversary of this tumblr passed last month and so I would like to do this ff in celebration of that!! I honestly have no idea why I haven’t made this sooner!
sorry my edit is really crappy?? idk how to edit??? anywayssss
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