wow someone actually wants to do that

anonimo ha chiesto:

I feel so alone....I stopped cutting myself a month ago but I really feel like doing it again :'( I stopped eating...what can I do to make them like me? I hate myself ...I hate the way I look!!.....I wish I was dead

Sweetie, why would you ruin yourself just so someone else could like you ? It’s not worth it. They’re not worth it. You’ll ruin yourself just so they could say “Wow,you’re beautiful”, and for what ? What will that do ? Make you feel good ? For how long would that last ? It’s not all in looks,sweetie. Actually, nothing is. The “ugliest” person in the world can become one of the greatest geniuses of our time; He can be president, a professor, a police officer - whatever he or she wants. Why ? Because they are no different. Nobody ugly. I refuse to ever allow anyone to call anyone ugly in my presence. Nobody’s ugly. Just because you don’t look good to someone doesn’t mean that you wouldn’t look good to me or that someone else that I found beautiful might be someone ugly in your eyes. People are so obsessed with this that it’s insane. The only beauty that age doesn’t deteriorate is the beauty of a human heart. If you have that, you’re beautiful. I met people you’d call “beautiful” and I would never ever wish to speak to single sentence with them. Beautiful outside, yet such bad manners, such a egoistic upholding - simply disgusting. A heart is what needs to be beautiful. Of course, we should always try to look our best, but never destroy ourselves because we want to change who we are. You are who you are and you’re amazing *hug*


Oosh if you’re reading this I just wanted to say thank you. You’re actually the person who inspired me to make this blog. I was so impressed with markiplierswhatifs that I though “wow what if I could do something like that?” And I made this. Now here I am. I am so honored to call you my friend.

I feel sad, because...

…out of all the original girls on this show, being on it has hindered Mackenzie’s growth the most. 

Abby can’t teach ballet very well (although she does go on and on about legs and feet a lot for someone who can’t, but I digress…) so her little ones usually end up learning a lot of acro and doing acro solos before trying Lyrical and Jazz. 

Mack was still doing acro as a six year old when the show started. Like Maddie was at her age, actually (using Big Bow Wow as a reference). But then it built her an image of being a bendy little girl with pigtails and silly costumes and struggling to keep up with her older friends. And the producers have latched on to it. Abby has actually even said the producers want to keep Mackenzie looking cute and young, which is very creepy if it’s true…

But it makes me sad. I feel like Mackenzie could have shined in something we didn’t even know she could do if she wasn’t forced into that image all the time. C’est la vie.  


feeling lonely sucks :(

every once in a while u see pissed off people of X majority group because someone from Y minority said “wow fuck X people” or “i hate X” or something

and like

I don’t get hate for that because I don’t do it. It’s not because I don’t want to, it’s just that I was conditioned from years of abuse to the point where I have trouble expressing those things. 

So I use diplomacy instead, I write long polite explanations, because I grew up in a situation where if I didn’t do that, I would be literally actually abused by people with power over me. Because I am deaf and that made me, a child, almost totally powerless. I learned how to write perfect, polite English responses as a way to survive. 

But people like to see that kind of response, they look at it like it’s the norm and those “rude guys who get pissed off at X majority group omfg” are such bad people. 

But, no, it’s the opposite, can’t you see? I’m no less angry. And honestly, my answers aren’t how we should be responding. They’re the result of trauma and abuse, nothing else. 

I’m Deaf. We have reason to be angry and we live in a world that systematically works against us and tells us we don’t have the right to exist. 

So if we say “fuck hearing people” instead of politely muttering about how mean the Flavor of the Week ableist person was, I don’t care if it hurts your feelings.

We aren’t obligated to take care of you. You don’t get to be the priority here. And we aren’t any less good or right for being angry.

Amazing how much a single exchange can change your perspective on someone. And I’m not even talking about anything technically wrong in the information just…

“Well, being fat didn’t give me the flu I’ve gone to see the doctor for.”

“But it can suppress the immune system.” Said with a sneer.

Chemicals - Tigers Jaw

only the second verse becuase i was having issues playing.

i learned this song because someone told me to check out the album and this song played and i thought, wow i could learn this on the uke pretty quick. so i learned it in two nights and im pretty proud. i really just wanted to impress people 

actually i just got a collab offer from someone becuase of this. i really dont think its that good, but someone else did and they said i should post it because people ll like it, i dont expect even one person to listen to it, but if you do can you like it or something?

To the guy who struggled to believe in himself:

I remember the first time we talked. How could I forget it? It was full of your negativity about yourself. It started with you asking me for some tips on how to “ get good grades. I actually just replied with a laugh. How does one even answer that question?  All I could tell you was to be just be studious and pray. Wow, that answer was lame.But honestly speaking, that’s what I truly wanted to say. And that’s what I’m going to answer every single time someone asks me the same question. I kept on laughing when I noticed that you were actually writing it down. Then our conversation just kept on going and you kept on telling me that you are not that bright and that you still fail no matter what you do. “I’m going to fail” , my toes and fingers are not enough to count the number of times you told me that. And all I could tell you was that you’re not going to fail if you just do your best. If you fail, then maybe that was not your best. Maybe you just have to try a little bit harder.

Your seat was behind mine during one of our classes and whenever we had the chance to talk, you still kept on putting yourself down. I got annoyed most of the time but I felt the need to put a bit of positivity in you. I kept on telling you to not keep on putting yourself down because it won’t help you anyway. It gets tiring as it happens almost everyday until one day, you were talking bout how you were glad that you believed in yourself and you actually got a good grade on one test. And all I could tell you was, “I told you so”.

I am quite unsure if that’s going to last for a long time or not, but I do hope that it lasts forever. I hope you don’t, anymore, have to be pushed so hard just to believe in yourself. Rather, I hope you always believe in yourself first because if you don’t, why would anyone even believe in you?

So here’s to the guy who kept on putting himself down. Here’s to the days when you never believed in yourself. And here’s to the time you found confidence in yourself and in what you do.

Here’s to you

anonimo ha chiesto:

Oh, so if the girl next to you in class doesn't LOOK depressed she isn't depressed? That's what you're saying about Jensen.

Wow. I was actually going to do this, until you started completely erasing Jensen’s issues. You are not allowed to say someone isn’t hurting because they are less public with things. I am disgusted for even considering making a video.

(coupling these two together)

No, no I am not. Jensen himself has not said anything, so we need to respect that. He could be hurting, he could be depressed, but we do not know. And we do not need to know unless Jensen wants us to. He’s allowed to keep things personal. 

All I’m trying to do is make a video for Jared, who has been public with things. If Jensen were hurting and shared that with us, you bet your ass I’d do a similar thing. 

To the public and the fandom, Jensen is fine. If he wanted us to think he wasn’t, he’d let us know. 

anonimo ha chiesto:

Are you actually Serbian or do you just really like Serbian culture?

holy shit i cant believe i still get this question

its in my faq and on my blog 

im actually serbian

i would take a picture of my serbian passport as proof so i can stop getting this question but i really dont want you guys seeing my personal legal document 

i would not say i was serbian if i wasnt actually serbian. that’s super offensive. 

like imagine if someone who wasnt japanese said they were. thatd be shady and awful right? same thing here

So today I learned:
“Don’t ever ever ever ever EVER let stupid boys convince you to stop doing things you like.”

I started talking to someone I met from my real job and he was super cute nice sweet gentleman-y blah blah blah. I was like “Wow, I actually like someone. I wanna give this a try!” So we started hanging out and everything (while I’m still sugaring) and there were times I had to cancel to meet up with Porsche. Well he started to get upset that I was canceling dates and I couldn’t explain myself. Anyways, I decided that I wanted to tell him about my SD. He told me that he understood and he was cool with it. So I’m like “Damn! Perfect! This guy is great. Things will really work out!”

Well I don’t get a happy ending after all. Last week he started to talk me out of sugaring. He told me that we can work together and help each other out. So put Porsche on hold. Then today I found out he’s seeing some other girl… I guess he’s been seeing her for awhile.

So I might have lost my SD who is everything I hoped and dreamed for. For some stupid boy with pretty eyes and a nice smile.

Just remember ladies, this is your life. Do what you want. You don’t need anyone’s approval. No one needs to know your business.

Good luck out there,

anonimo ha chiesto:

You ever see a person with some sort of "ugly face" feature like they have a lopsided jaw, or down syndrome, or a cleft palette, and you find yourself saying, "wow, well at least their skin is clear and perfect," and feeling guilty for being envious of someone who might actually have a harder time than you do? *sigh* just wanted to share that...

Honestly I never stop comparing myself to everyone around me, no matter what they look like. I think it’s a common issue most derma sufferers have as we feel our skin is flawed and that everyone else has ‘perfect’ skin so there must be something wrong with us. All I can suggest is that when you get these feelings, think of something you like about yourself that is unique to you and concentrate on that 👍 xx

gatissed ha chiesto:

wow, you are so intolerant. Why do you reblog a gif set of Armitage as francis dolarhyde with your unnecessary opinion underneath if you don't even want to watch this show? I mean do you actually think only one second of the one who made that gif set? They like these things and you bash it. It's just not okay.

Wow. Ok. Well, let me just say this:

  1. I do watch and will continue to watch Hannibal.
  2. I made no comment whatsoever on the gifs, which are lovely, btw.
  3. I was actually, in a roundabout way, expressing the fact that I love Richard Armitage, and don’t want to be horrified by his playing a gruesome serial killer, because that shit is scary. If he were a serial killer, I’d be an easy target. That said, I’m certain he’ll knock it out of the park.
  4. I wasn’t bashing anything or anyone at all.
  5. Accusing someone you don’t know at all of intolerance on such meager evidence seems… um… intolerant?

Thanks for not doing this anon-style, though. This will be my one and only comment on the matter. Thanks for writing! :-)

royalty-and-lye ha chiesto:

Daisy, Carnation, Rose<3<3

Daisy: How old were you when you had your first kiss?
Oh ummmmm wow. 

So what’s considered a first kiss? Like just a press of your lips, or like full on make out? 

Because I’ve only had a press of lips. 

And I was 22. And I was drunk.

Carnation: If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?

Hmmmmm. Probably Panic! or FOB, or William Control, or Birthday Massacre. Somebody I’d really enjoy.

Rose: Are you currently in love with someone?

As corny as it sounds, I’m actually in the process of falling in love with myself. And it’s not something that you can do after a day or two or even a week; it’s a frustrating and hard process that takes a lot of work.

But I really am in love with myself.

“i don’t want to rush into a relationship until i fully know someone every side of them good and bad”

What are relationships doing that we aren’t ? It takes years to get to know someone. We rushed into everything else, time is the only thing catching up to us. I understand it, you don’t want a relationship. Just know that requires rules and regulations. I’m not gonna be at your place all the time, or give myself to you emotionally and physically. Bc those are all the things i’m giving to you now. The full real raw me. If you’re trying to get to know me, there will be limits. You want to see the bad and the ugly in me before betting into a relationship so you know what exactly you’re dealing with. So once you find something you don’t like about me you’re gonna dip ? My question to you is what is this we are doing and what is your definition of a relationship if what we are doing now is not the closest thing to it ?

iwantyoutofeelfreetoo ha chiesto:

do you know what i think about? i think about wanting to be dead, alot actually, then someone said to me, you're gonna make someone so happy one day, you will be someone's absolute world. its shit atm, but i just look at families being happy and i will have that one day, so will you. todays a crap day, and tomorrow probably will be too, but in the long run, you'll get your happiness, and so will i. just keep holding on.

Wow thank you, that was actually a little bit helpful so yeah thank you
You keep holding on too x