wow ok im proud of myself

  • in one of those rare moods where i feel distinctly and inescapably good about every single thing in my life 
  • made this garland of pop-poms to hang above my fireplace before remembering that i don’t have a fireplace. still very much into it.
  • i think i’ve grown another two inches this summer and im suddenly too tall for 100% of my dresses
  • i get payed tomorrow!! and im gonna treat myself to a beautiful lamp from anthropologie which sounds silly but is absolutely not silly at all. 
  • filling etsy orders and listening to folk music and drinking coffee and occasionally stretching 
  • i work tonight from 5 to close which is only a 4 hour shift and actually i love those little tiny shifts where i get the chance to like make a couple of sales and drink some coffee and do my thing with closing the register and all, and im home by 10pm !
  • still dog sitting / house sitting which i’ve discovered that i love bc it’s money just for hanging with dogs and sleeping in a giant empty house which is somehow very comforting and nice
  • im so excited about my future! idk i just have this unshakable feeling like maybe it’s gonna be tuf and maybe i’ll be broke/lonely/in-over-my-head for a long time, but i feel like it’ll all be one big adventure 
  • when i get in these good moods i also have a sudden surge of passion for books like it’s so giant i can’t explain it i almost love books so much that i can feel it as an acute physical pain? like my stomach kind of hurts and i almost start to cry, which i know sounds melodramatic but wow i was born to read books and talk about books ! wow ! 
  • im really proud of myself more than anything bc for a while there in high school it looked like i wasn’t gonna be OK but here i am! im doing so much better than anyone would have expected and im working so much harder than i would’ve thought i could and i’m taking action and moving swiftly in the direction i wanna move in and im  putting it all together and even tho sometimes i feel very OVERWHELMED and STRESSED and DEVASTATED i always manage alright! i always hear that life just goes downhill from the minute you’re born and life is nothing but suffering etc. but i dont think that’s true for everyone i think we have a responsibility to put out good energy and to trust in the universe, like to trust that the universe makes no mistakes and that most bad things are good in the long-term-big-picture. this kind of blind optimism tends to be annoying a suffocating to most people but im not sorry. 
  • i hope everyone else is in a good mood too i love you!!!