wow i want these really badly

this looks really bad but i trIED WH O OPS

 i wanted to animate thomas  really badly because like,, aghhghg 

HERE COMES SUMMER WITH AN EMOTION FILLED TEXT WHOOP 

hes a great person and all the times he’s said nice things about my art, its made me continue to draw, and since i started watching him everything in my life got so much better?? like wow aaagh ,,, recently he’s been saying suCH NICE THINGS about my art and it makes me so happy and makes me cry tbh because like,, he’s always there for everyone its so sWEET I CANT


so like,, thanks for lighting up my life, thomas 

everything you’ve done has helped me through so many dark times 

Because of you I joined a groupchat about you and it inspired me to make an actual Twitter account instead of a side one, and ever since all the people in the community have made me feel so welcome aaaaa


i’m gonna end this here because im ranting whoops,,, anyways i hope u like it ,, aa aa a @thatsthat24

Bar Hopping ~ Kim Taehyung

Originally posted by mvssmedia


2 DRINKS

* work sucked 

* i hate my job

*best friend is happily in love

*that’s gross

*life’s gross

4 DRINKS

*mom is on my case about marriage

*got a call from my landlord

*ignored

*old guy just winked at me

*i internally barfed

*gonna need more alcohol before i even consider getting with anyone

6 DRINKS 

*what am i even doing here?

*oh right life sucks

*ooh a cute guy just walked in..

*WAIT.. THIS SONG IS MY JAM.

*danced like there was no tomorrow

*he’s walking over here now

*says his name is taehyung

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*dang he cute

*i wanna give him a taehug

*gotta blast before i get too attached

*on to the next bar

7 DRINKS

*i like this vibe

*not as many old men here

*ordered a water so i won’t throw up

*WAIT i know him from somewhere

*oh shit its him again

*he still cute 

*so precious

Originally posted by taehanstic-baby

*i want to squeeze his cheeks

*i did it

*i don’t think he liked it very much

*he’s still here though

*he says he’s in a band

*i challenged the hotshot to a karaoke battle

8 DRINKS

*we took a cab to the nearest karaoke bar

*BOI he’s really goooood

*he’s letting me choose the next song 

*BANG BANG BANG (banga banga banga)

*he singing a ballad

*its so angelic

*i’m getting.. tire..d…

10 HOURS LATER

*yawn

*WHERE THE HELL AM I????????????

*OH MY GOD, ITS HIM

*DID I SLEEP WITH HIM???!!!?

*nah, I wouldn’t do that

*BUT WHY AM I WEARING DIFFERENT CLOTHES THAN I WAS LAST NIGHT?!

*he’s awake

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*he’s really cute 

* FUCK I NEED TO FOCUS

* apparently i passed out in the karaoke room

*he helped me get into my pjs??

*THAT AINT RIGHT HE SHOULD’VE LET ME STRUGGLE AND NOT UNDRESS ME

* i yelled at him

*he became very small

*i think he’s ashamed

*i mean i guess he was only trying to help

* i apologized

*he apologized

*we good

SEVERAL WEEKS LATER

* back to the bar again 

* life sucks

* i can’t even remember the last time i felt genuinely happy.

* oh wait

*the karaoke room

*that was the last time

*ah man i should’ve asked for his number

* it’s too late now 

2 DRINKS 

* ah the fresh taste of regret 

* i guess’ i’ll check my phone. there is nothing better to do.

* ew my friend texted me.

* s-she’s pregnant?

* wow i didn’t realize how badly i want kids.

* but good for her.

* yeah, good for her

4 DRINKS

* am i crying?

* wow i should probably stop.

* i can’t stop.

* this must look tragic.

*AH! WHO’S TOUCHING ME?

*oh! it’s him!

* he handed me tissues

* OH! his number, i gotta ask for it!.

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* he’s writing it down,

* holy smokes this kid is even more gorgeous than last time.

* how ? what kind of genetics?

* uh oh

* he caught me staring. 

* he would probably make beautiful children.

* i don’t really feel like drinking anymore 

* let’s bounce.

10 MINUTES LATER

* i convinced him to go to the park across form my house.

* we’re walking now

* it is so nice here at night

* the park is quiet, no children, no dogs, just peace.

* uh oh

* i caught him staring.

Originally posted by bangtanroyalty

* we sat down on a bench.

* i thank him

* he doesn’t understand why.

* he doesn’t understand how he makes me happy even when i’m depressed.

* he doesn’t understand that for some odd reason a stranger can completely shield me from any stress or doubts i’ve ever had.

* i told him that im thankful for his company.

* i’m gonna do it.

* i asked him to stay with me.

* he said yes.

2 YEARS LATER

I walk towards the park that was near my old apartment. So many things happened here. Depression, fear, fun, but most of all love. Little did i know that taking home a stranger from a bar would be the best decision i would have ever made. Soon after Taehyung and I got together, I quit my job and continued to do what I’ve always wanted to do. Photography. Now, I get calls from fashion designers, newly-wed couples, and even people who just want pictures of their dogs. I have never been happier. I look to my left and see my sunshine jogging towards me. He called me here today, i don’t know what for, but whatever it is it sounded important. Taehyung finally reaches me and wraps me in his arms. He points me toward a bench. “ Think back to 2 years ago. You dragged me out of the bar to this park. You caught me staring at you and i smiled knowing you were embarrassed. This is the same exact bench that we sat at when you told me you wanted me to stay. Well, now it’s my turn.” Taehyung knelt down on one knee and took a small box out of his pocket. “ Will you stay with me for the rest of our lives?” 

Originally posted by bwipsul

pros and cons of being pansexual

pros

-so many dating options 

-everyone is attractive

-so. many. hot. people.

-not worrying about having to change gender or pronouns in song lyrics

-being free to date who you like

-not being restricted by gender

- the sense of relief when you finally find a label you identify with

-being part of the lgbtq+ community

-sometimes when you come out you’re also educating people about it and idk it’s really nice to hear people saying ‘oh i didn’t know about that. wow that’s really cool’

-the pan flag is really aesthetically pleasing??

cons

-everyone is attractive

- ‘so you like pans lol?’

- people not taking you seriously

-no one knowing what pansexual is

- ‘so you’re bisexual’

-being afraid to come out to some family members because the term is a relatively new thing and they could react badly

- ‘that’s not a thing’

- people assuming you want to date them ??

- being excluded by some parts of the lgbtq+ community because apparently you’re not queer enough??

- not being taken seriously

- some straight people will make fun of you, especially when you come out

-coming out

-the pan jokes

The Magicians (show) sentence starters

season 1, part 2 of 3
episodes 6 through 9
75 starters
feel free to change gender pronouns
content warning: alcohol mention, cussing, drug mention, violence, sexual themes
[part 1]

  • “Okay, I take it back. Maybe this is a waste of your time.”
  • “That’s a pretty acrobatic form of denial.”
  • “I’m not done with you. Consider it a warning.”
  • “Please, don’t come back here again.”
  • “If I was you, I would be curious.”
  • “Hello? Is someone being creepy on purpose?”
  • “Secure the sacrifice!”
  • “Jesus, I’m not a virgin…”
  • “Wow, you’re really enjoying this, aren’t you?”
  • “I don’t even know what a chupacabra is.”
  • “I can already see we are immensely handicapped by your presence.”
  • “There’s a way. There’s always a way.”
  • “Oh, if you wanna insult me, you should try again.”
  • “If I had more, I’d give you more.”
  • “You ever want something so badly and then realize that it’s nothing like what you thought? And that maybe you are stupid for ever actually wanting it?”
  • “You look like your head’s about to pop off.”
  • “Celebrate the world you’re in, dummy.”
  • “_____, did you roofie me?”
  • “Can we skip down to where you realize you no makey magic here?”
  • “I am literally losing the will to live.”
  • “Look, talk to me. What’s going on?”
  • “Ask me something harder if you want us to get somewhere.”
  • “Ask me why I’m nice to you.”
  • “I had noticed you’re a tad brusque with everyone else.”
  • “I’m scared to tell you this, because it’s true. I’m falling in love with you.”
  • “I flirted with you that first day because you looked useful, and you were.”
  • “I’ve been using you this entire time.”
  • “I really didn’t see this coming.”
  • “I always hold back, _____. Every single day. I mean, I have no idea what I’m even capable of.”
  • “I don’t want to lose it… how it felt.”
  • “Sit. I do not ask and I do not order twice.”
  • “You think you know how to do this. I assure you, you do not.”
  • “A great magician is magic in his bones, blood, heart, and dick. Or lady parts. Whatever.”
  • “Why don’t you two just fuck?”
  • “Blood’s not gonna come out of that sweater. You should just throw it out.”
  • “Where you think you’re sticking that?”
  • “This magic gin better make us see unicorns that fart rainbows.”
  • “I don’t have to tell you anything.”
  • “You are lucky you’re pretty.”
  • “Why is your face making that face?”
  • “I’m going to go take a nap and pretend that this entire conversation never happened.”
  • “Can we just talk about this seriously for a second?”
  • “Are you in love with me?”
  • “Hell is real, and it smells like Axe Body Spray.”
  • “Leave before I start screaming.”
  • “You stay out of my ass and there’s no blood fued necessary on my end. But come after me, and I will kill you and everyone that you care about.”
  • “I made a horrible mistake asking you to help. Please, leave.”
  • “Maybe we just need to accept the world for what it actually is.”
  • “I hate magic.”
  • “I think about stabbing you all the time.”
  • “Please! You can’t keep doing this to me!”
  • “How is a voodoo doll supposed to help me?”
  • “What we love can be as important to us as our lives.”
  • “That’s kind of a personal question for two people who aren’t supposed to be in the same room.”
  • “Predictable’s not bad, _____.”
  • “Don’t bother with the performance.”
  • “I wouldn’t dream of fooling you.”
  • “You know I never wanted this. You forced my hand. I wish it could be any other way.”
  • “I don’t need to tell you how fucking pissed at you I am.”
  • “I don’t understand why we fell apart after being friends forever.”
  • “I’m working on forgiving you.”
  • “I’m going, and like it or not, _____, you should come.”
  • “_____, I’m stuck! Someone get me out of here!”
  • “This house is haunted as balls, is what that is.”
  • “Okay, this is a little kinky, even for me.”
  • “Some things just aren’t fair. We can’t make sense of them.”
  • “If the world goes after you, take it as a compliment.”
  • “What do you think redemption looks like, _____?”
  • “What if there really is a Hell and this takes me there?”
  • “Well, that bought us about ten minutes.”
  • “Let’s go dig up a dead body.”
  • “You can’t seriously be thinking of leaving them there.”
  • “This is exactly the kind of thing that we should be able to fix.”
  • “Life ain’t fair. Why in the high, holy fuck should death be any different?”
  • “Thinking that you can change anything… It’s such an act of monumental ego. I mean, who the fuck do you think you really are?”
Notice Me [Chapter 4]

Originally posted by oompa-oppa

Chapter 4 of Notice Me

Series Genre: Fluff/Smut/Angst at times


“Y/N! Are you awake?” Jackson asked, still knocking at your door.

Mark rolled off the bed and grabbed his clothes from the floor, tiptoeing to hide in your closet.

You quickly threw on a t-shirt and shorts, peeking back to make sure Mark was out of sight. You took a deep breath to try and settle down.

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My Seventh Deadly Sin | Envy

 [chapter 1]

  •  pairing: jungkook | reader
  •  genre: angst, smut
  • ∘    word count: 4,426

Jungkook is having difficulty with a dance move. You upset him by wanting to go out with his hyungs instead of staying and helping him, so he reminds you who you belong to.

Your name: submit What is this?

Shallow breaths. 

 His fists tensed up, his toned muscles visible through his tight black shirt. He was sweaty from dancing, which you were thanking God for- Jungkook’s amazing body wasn’t the only thing you loved about him, but it was definitely a bonus. He stared at you from across the room with a deadly smile. Gritting his teeth, he tries to hide his anger by focusing on a different section of the dance. 

It wasn’t exactly hard to figure out why Jungkook was angry. He was generally a good tempered man, but when it came to athletics.. 

“Again.” Seongdeuk said. Seongdeuk was BTS’s choreographer, and they were learning a new dance for their comeback in a month. Jungkook was usually really good at picking up dances easily, but today he was just out of it. He couldn’t get this one move right. 

Meanwhile, Jimin and J-Hope were doing it perfectly, and that infuriated Jungkook even more. If there was anything Jungkook truly hated, it was being inferior in skill. Especially to those two. He respected them with all of his being, but when he couldn’t get something right, he was immediately slaughtered by everyone for not living up to his nickname, ‘Golden Maknae.’ 

 It wasn’t that he disliked the nickname, it was that when the nickname started appearing, the other members became jealous of him. Every time he slipped, every time he had a voice crack, every time he wasn’t in perfect position, someone had to make a comment. It was ridiculous, and he was extremely close to having enough. 

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anonymous asked:

Sorry this might be long but I just want to vent to someone. I understand that some people not like sjm's books for various reasons (mostly the lack of representation), but what I don't get is that there's an actual fandom of anti-s*j*m. Never before have i ever seen an actual fandom of people who are anti anything, or blogs solely dedicated to hating someone's work. Authors are human too. (1/2)

Just compare her to JKR. She had 7 books in her series and as far as I can remember there’s one, maybe 2, canon black characters throughout the series, and theyre hardly seen, and I’ve never seen an anti-jkr fandom or blogs only dedicated to hating her work. I just don’t understand why anyone would make a blog dedicated to hating a person. These people are human. (2/2)

I understand what you’re saying. SJM is hardly the only example of a book that has bad PoC representation, and few prominent LGBTQ characters. But for some reason, her work inspires anti blogs whereas other books, that have the same issues don’t. It’s something that has struck me as odd as well. 

That’s not to say that reading with a critical eye is not important. It really is, and we definitely do need to be demanding more from authors in terms of good rep. (I know this might seem contradictory to my whole “i read for enjoyment” thing but I’ll get to that in a second.”) What bothers me about antis is that they…build this entire identity for themselves that is based around hating something? And I don’t think hatred is the best emotion to have when going into critiquing something. 

Similarly, it’s not as if antis are these people who just disliked a plot line or something in an SJM book and put the series down. No, they are clearly people who have read all the books, and keep reading them, and in some way are actively participating in the fandom. That’s what I don’t get. I respect anyone’s reason for not enjoying Sarah’s books- not every book is for everyone, and I can easily see how someone might read Nehemia’s death in CoM, roll their eyes because of how utterly offensive and badly plotted it is and then put the books down forever. And I respect that. What I don’t understand about the anti mentality is that they keep coming back, and reading, and engaging. There is of course room for posts about why we don’t like a certain book, I’ve obviously hated books before too and I’ve definitely complained about things. So when I say anti i really dont mean people who just criticize the things they disliked in acowar or something, I really just mean people who have an entire blog dedicated to hating something. But in order to keep that blog fueled with hatred they have to keep reading the thing they hate and it’s like…wow almost as if you even enjoy that thing???

It’s almost as if engaging in anti discourse is how they make themselves feel better for enjoying portions of this problematic thing? And that’s why I’m a big proponent of reading whatever you want for enjoyment—you should be able to enjoy whatever it is you enjoy without feeling badly about it. Because frankly, no book you read is going to be “unproblematic” in some way and no book is going to be perfect and without valid criticism. It’s almost as if antis enjoy SJM’s books in some ways, but feel guilty for enjoying it, so in order to cope with that guilt, they trash her for everything, and anything. For instance, I adore LOTR, and am not going to feel guilty for enjoying it, but I also acknowledge that the way Tolkien handles people of color (namely by making them orcs…) is shit and racist and not something that we should ever see in any fantasy novel again. You can…enjoy something and also know that it has problems. My blog is generally geared towards focusing on the things about books that I enjoy, because Idk, I got tired of all the hate after acowar, and am finally reemerging into the sphere of critical discourse. 

I also think that the anti mentality comes from people enjoying these books, then going on tumblr and seeing what other people have to say that is negative, and then thinking oH SHIT I NEED TO HATE THESE BOOKS TOO. Except…you enjoyed them for a reason, and you can’t…get rid of that enjoyment, all you can do is say “hey well there are some not so great things about these books and here’s why.” 

You shouldn’t…blindly hate someone for writing things in a way that you dislike. SJM has creative license and it’s seriously not up to us what happens in the book. I’m not talking about people with valid critiques of how she handles marginalized characters, I’m talking about the antis who HATE how Chaol and Aelin were written, who dislike the way characters develop, who want to burn SJM at the stake for DARING to write characters who don’t act perfectly all of the time. That’s the anti shit that really pisses me off. You can be critical all you want, and call out the things that need to be called out but…you don’t really have a leg to stand on if your discourse starts with “I can’t BELIEVE how she wrote Celaena’s character after CoM, Aelin is the fucking worst, I’m pretending that Aelin doesn’t exist.” I mean whatever, sure, but ultimately people do need to realize that authors get to make their own choices about how their characters developed and uh…whats in the book is ultimately who the character *actually* is and it’s not always going to line up with who the readers thought the character was but…um, sorry? That happens. And yes you’re allowed to be dissatisfied with a character but if you hate her that much, put the book down??? 

Finally, I think that SJM’s books inspire anti-ness because they are so so SO dramatic as to be polarizing. She’s constantly taking tropes (like the bad boy turned hero) and stretching them to the extreme. She is constantly beating her characters down and heaping trauma on them. There are a lot of *gasp* moments in tog and acotar. A lot of crying. A lot of screaming moments as well. And…while someone like me LIVES L I V E S for drama, a lot of people react negatively to it in the extreme. The books are polarizing because they are laden with emotion and melodrama and that doesnt work for everyone.

tldr; actual critical discussions of sjm are great and we should acknowledge the problems in her books especially in terms of marginalized characters. idk why there is an entire portion of this website dedicated to hating her, but i tried to give you some pseudo-psychological explanations for it. 

Preference "How they react when you start talking dirty to them" (NSFW)

(So i’m still going with the NSFW theme XD Hope it is as requested and you all like it!! Yay for our fav being turned on…well most of them XD PS. I still took out Carl, Ron and Enid for this one…Gifs not mine/Found them on google/Credit to the original owners.)

Negan- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d be way more than turned on but still he’d try to keep it together for a while. However, he’d always fail to go through it completely and would just pin you down under him. “Careful Y/N…Saying things like how badly you want to ride me and how you’d be my dirty slut doesn’t come cheap…I’ll fucking make it happen…Oh yeah! I’ll do it…”

Daryl- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d get distracted by you and would slowly stop doing whatever he was doing to grab your wrist and pull you closer to whisper in your ear. “You better stop it Y/N…stop it right now…I swear if you keep this up…Everyone will know about how much of a slut you are…right here…right now…”

Rick- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d get turned on and let you keep going. He’d honestly felt somewhat flattered hearing you express this way and pull you closer to whisper. “You really have a way with words, don’t you, Y/N…you know exactly how to get to me…And let me tell you this…you might regret saying all those things right now…”

Merle- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d get immensely turned on and would just want to make everything you were saying a reality. It wouldn’t even matter where you were, he’d start to undress. "Alright baby…let see how badly you want me…Talkin’ about getting on your knees for me…and being a slut…you think i’m just gonna let that slide…oh fuck no…”

Glenn- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, you’d peak his interest and he’d listen closely to your proposition, being interested that for once, you were the one initiating it. He’d then pull you away and say “Really, Y/N…is that all you’re willing to do for me…with me…getting all…and…You know what…let’s do it…now…”

The Governor- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d smirk and slowly feel himself getting more and more turned on. He’d then turn to you and aggressively kiss you to shut you up. “Y/N, stop it…you know I can’t handle you talking to me like this…I’m going to have to do something about this…Get on your knees…”

Abraham- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d find it endearing of you and actually think you were being adorable. He’d chuckle looking over at you and suddenly pull you into his lap . “Damn, Y/N…never expected you to be this turned on over me…I’m used to it being the other way around and you always being the pure and innocent one…Guess I was wrong…”

Eugene- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d be surprised and would gulp and gasp at every word you’d tell him. However, he wouldn’t ever tell you to stop as he’d actually encourage you to keep going.“Wow…really…Oh my god…Y/N…you’re not usually like this…Oh…but I didn’t tell you to stop though…I wanna know more…”

Jesus- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d wondered as to what would get you in such a mood and try to figure it out. Only to slowly forget and get caught up in your words. “Y/N, what did I ever do today to get you all hot and bothered? I mean you wouldn’t really do all that right here and now…With me…right now…right?”

Dwight- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he wouldn’t be able to handle it and wouldn’t even try to deny it to you that he’d want to do you. “Fuck, Y/N…You really think i’m not gonna do anything after all that…Every fucking time you do this!…I just want to…and after you told me how badly you want me to touch you…No…Get over here…right now!”

Morgan- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d slowly feel uncomfortable over the fact you were both out in the public and grab your arm to warn you. “I’m flattered, Y/N…I really am…but this isn’t the right time for you to tell me that..you should keep that to yourself when we’re out…And remind me later in our room…”

Shane- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d immediately talk dirty back and just walk towards you to corner you while actually try to win over you. “Oh yeah…that’s what you’d do…Did you ever think about what I’d do…I’d rip those fucking clothes off and get you on the floor…then i’m gonna make you my slut…want me to tell you how…or should I just show you…”

Milton- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d get flustered and try to keep his mind to his work but the more he heard you, the more he couldn’t take it. “Y/N, please stop it…you’re really distracting me…go away…You know what, let it go! Don’t leave! I’m serious, don’t!Just lock the door! I-I want you badly, now! Hurry, get over here…”

Aaron- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d be impressed by everything you were saying and be in slight disbelief you felt that way over him. “Really? Wow! You want me to do that? That badly? Y/N…are you really serious about all of this? I mean I know you like me and all…but this…this is a whole different thing…”

Gabriel- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d try his best to not listen too much and think of anything else while telling you to stop but in the end always fail and give in. “Y/N, please stop it…it isn’t right…You shouldn’t be saying these kind of things to me…We’re not like that…Wait! I-I change my mind…don’t tell anyone…let’s go…”

The Wolf- The moment you’d start talking dirty to him, he’d smirk and feel confident about himself and just want to do everything you’d want him to. “Is that really what you want, Y/N? For me to do…and…all that…right now…Alright…get over here…I can do that! I’ll make it happen…”

Michonne- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d give you a warning look and listen to all you have to say before actually giving into you. “Is that all? Are you serious Y/N…you want me to do all that…just because you…feel that way…Alright then…Show it to me…Now…Here I thought you were an innocent one…”

Maggie- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d be amused by it and would smile and chuckle to every word you have to say. “Y/N, this is going to sound strange but…that is so sweet of you…I’m serious…I love knowing that you’d get on your knees for me…and do all that…I also like knowing that you’re willing to do all that right now…”

Andrea- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d be turned on and grab your wrist to pull you along with her. “Get over here Y/N…You really think i’m just going to let you go…after you said all that…Oh no…Believe me…I’ll even make you regret saying those things…”

Jessie- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d be stunned and shocked to hear you speak that way. She’d try to get you to stop and tell you “Oh my goodness Y/N…Stop it…we’re out in public…it’s not the time to say those things…keep it for later…Imagine if anyone else heard you…aren’t you embarrassed?

Beth- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d freeze and wouldn’t be to sure of how she feels about it. She wouldn’t hate it but she would’ve preferred to not hear so much. "Uh…well…I don’t know what to say after all that…It’s nice of you Y/N but…I don’t think it’s the right time for you to say all those things…”

Sasha- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d chuckle and laugh, shaking her head in disbelief over everything you were saying. "Wow…what’s gotten into you Y/N? You’re not usually like this…I’m used to you being all shy and innocent! What happened to that Y/N?! Well, it’s not like I don’t love this new side to you…”

Rosita- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d be entertained by you but would sarcastically reply only to further provoke you to make you talk even more. “Really, is that all you’ve got?! Come on, Y/N! I know you can do better…i’m sure you have dirtier things to say than just that…So say it…go on!”

Tara- The moment you’d start talking dirty to her, she’d start getting flustered and wouldn’t want to believe you were talking to her that way. “Oh…you’re serious? Like you want me to…and you’d do all that for me…If I…Wow Y/N…this is…a lot to take in…I don’t hate it…but I’ve never seen you like this before…”

anonymous asked:

hi! what are your thoughts on Magnus using Bahasa, whether in fanfic or on Shadowhunters? (didn't read the books so don't care about them) - @defender-and-destroyer

Hi, there!

First of all, bahasa means language in Indonesian. So “speaks bahasa” is literally translated as “speaks language” which is pretty weird. Unless you say Bahasa Indonesia, which means Indonesian language or you can just use Indonesian.

(I have to say this, because of non-Indonesian—mostly white people, tbh—love to refers Indonesian as bahasa and I get frustrated because it literally means language. Just use Indonesian or Bahasa Indonesia.)

I have a lot of feeling about Magnus speaks Indonesian in fanfictions. I’m not going to lie, they’re mostly bad. After Magnus’ ethnicity was confirmed in City of Lost Souls, I found a lot of fanfictions with badly google-translated Indonesian. I stopped reading fanfics after that because I couldn’t stand it. I only started reading fanfics again after season 1 aired. Some fanfics with sloppy Indonesian are still here and there and they still make me want to pull my hair honestly. Usually, I immediately close it since it really is ruined the mood. However, I once read a fanfic with really good Indonesian and I was like, “wow, whoever write this did a good job, I love them!” and I’m definitely not upset.  

As for the show, I don’t mind if they want to make Magnus speaks Indonesian. But I really can’t trust a bunch of white writers and producers in doing this, especially after a lot of things go downhill this seasons. Not to mention that most of western TV shows or movies rarely do justice when they make a character speaks in another language. Have you ever heard a character in TV/Movies speak in your native language but you don’t know what they’re talking about until you read the subtitles? I don’t want it happens.

In short, I’m completely okay with Magnus speaking Indonesian as long as it’s done correctly.

If you want to write Magnus speaking Indonesian in your fanfics for whatever reasons and you know zero Indonesian and have no one who knows the language to help you, I really don’t encourage it. Especially not with google translate. (If you try to translate a full sentence from English to Indonesian with google translate, it definitely ends up in a clusterfuck. Trust me). But, If you insist, maybe you can seek a help. There are few of Indonesian fans here. I don’t know if they’re willing to help you, but I prefer help you with some translations rather than seeing sloppy Indonesian in your fics. I’m tired of seeing that.

Oh, while we’re at it, in the book, Magnus only speaks one sentence in Indonesian and I guess everyone in Malec fandom know that.

First Love Part 14

Originally posted by loveblushes

Title: First Love

Pairing: Reader Yoongi

Genre: Fluff and Angst

A/N: This is is, this is the last part I am writing for this. I will be doing an epilogue to wrap things up but this is pretty much it. I am happy and sad that this fic is coming to an end, but I am really excited to finally not leave you guys hanging anymore. I hope you enjoy this.  ♡

Part 13 / Epilogue 

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Yoongi’s Perspective

“God Dammit,” I groaned as I tossed my headphones on the desk. Leaning back in my chair in defeat. I couldn’t write a damn thing.

It has been two weeks since the Christmas break and I have been spending as much time as possible in my studio so I could avoid the other members, and more specifically Y/n.

Going home to my family helped, but coming back was the hardest thing I have had to do in a long time. Knowing I would have to see her again, to be in the same room as her after she clearly rejected me. I felt like such a fool for thinking that she really felt that way about me.

Namjoon walked in and sighed, “You know if you are going to break your stuff maybe you should just take a break?” He sat down in the chair next to me and looked at the computer screen, picking up the headphones and listening to what I was working on before taking the headphones off again. “You’re forcing it Yoongi, take a break man.”

I nodded in defeat, I knew he was right. I have been struggling for a few days on this song, and the longer I sat here the worse it’s gotten. “Alright, I guess I can take a break.”

Namjoon smiled, patted my back, and stood up “Let’s go get some food, then if you are feeling better we can come back and I will help you with it.”

I nodded and stood up, putting my computer on sleep mode as I grabbed my jacket and snapback, running my finger through my hair and putting the hat on. “Sounds good to me.”

We drove to a small cafe outside of town, this was where Namjoon and I always came when we were having a music block, and the owners always made sure to give us the most private area so we didn’t have to worry about fans.

I took my jacket off and sat down in the small booth, looking at the menu. Namjoon sat down across from me, texting on his phone. “Don’t forget we have a full run through of the tour tonight,” he said as put his phone on the table and opened his own menu.

“I know, I am not looking forward to it,” I said as I flipped through the menu, deciding what to get.

“You can’t avoid her forever Yoongi, she has been worried about you.” Namjoon looked up from his menu and over at me.

I rolled my eyes. “I have a hard time believing that. I mean, you saw she pretty much flat out rejected me.”

Namjoon shook his head, “She didn’t say no did she?” He placed his menu down and looked at me. He has been trying to pry the story out of me for weeks, knowing only a few details about what happened. I haven’t told him because I just wanted to move on and get over it, but he won’t let it go.

“She didn’t say anything, she just said my name, then you interrupted us.” I placed my menu down and glared at him.

“Well, I apologize but you looked like you were about to lose it. She looked completely confused. I don’t think she meant it as a rejection, I think you just surprised her, but you were so quick to jump to conclusions that you took it as immediate rejection because she didn’t respond. It takes a minute to process something like that Yoongi.”

I pursed my lips and rolled my eyes. “I realize that Joonie.” I closed my menu and looked at my hands trying to think of what else to say. “I just don’t know how to talk to her, I feel like she feels the same way too. Like she doesn’t know how to talk to me about it, and that’s why she hasn’t said anything to me about it.”

“I agree,” Namjoon replied, “I understand that talking about your feelings is something you don’t like to do, but she has been struggling without you. And all you have done is sit in the studio for two weeks struggling over the same song because your mind is on her. Taehyung has been telling me she wants to talk to you, badly.”

I wrinkled my nose a little, “Tae? Since when has he and Y/n been close?”

Namjoon chuckled, “Wow you really have been locked up in your studio. She and Tae have become quite close since we all got back from break. He has been helping her deal with this whole mess, as has Jimin and Hoseok. The three of them have been trying to make her happy. They have been taking turns staying late at the studio to make sure she is alright.”

I frowned and sighed, “She is really that upset isn’t she?”

Namjoon nodded, “Yoongi, she really likes you, scratch that, she loves you Yoongi, you should really just talk to her, please. She needs you.”

I nodded as the waitress walked over to take our order. After she left I opened my phone to her number and looked at it for a moment before I closed it and went in the group chat with all the members.

Me: Ok, I have had enough, are any of you with y/n? Minus Namjoon since he is with me.

Jimin: She is with Tae, Hobi and me. We are getting ice cream. Why? Are you finally going to talk to her?

Tae: Seriously, if you aren’t don’t even bother asking, You are hurting her bad dude.

Hobi: Easy Tae, she will be at the studio after the run through tonight, if you want you can stay late with her tonight instead, and talk to her.

Jimin: That is if she even wants to talk to you.

Jin: If She won’t I will make her, You both need to work out your problems, Joon back me up on this.

Namjoon: I second Jin’s statement.

Jungkook: Luna and I third and Fourth Jins Statement.

Tae: Well, I did tell her I would arrange something, Yoongi, I have an idea.

Namjoon: Should we be scared usually your ideas are bad.

Jin: Yeah I would feel better if we let me handle this.

Tae: I GOT IT! Trust me!

Me: I trust you Tae, What do you need me to do?

Reader’s Perspective

You walked into a small theatre, where the boys would be doing their prep rehearsals before the show, tonight was the first time being with the live band and the first practice run through.

Walking up to the stage you started talking to one of the backup dancers when you feels arms wrap around your neck and someone jump. “Yah what the!” you yell as you grab their legs and look over your back. “CHIMCHIM!” You yell before you both fall to the ground laughing.

“Y/n! You’re supposed to hold me, not fall!” he laughs as he lays on top of you trapping you underneath him.

“I wanna join,” Taehyung says as he runs over and lays on top of Jimin, Hobi following and laying on top of Tae.

“Guys! I can’t breath!” You laugh loudly only to see Jungkook and Luna also pile on as well. “Seriously I can’t breath!”
Namjoon tries to lay on top of Jungkook only to have the whole pile fall, everyone laughing and screaming as they all fall to the floor.

“Yah! Children! Be careful” Jin scolds as he and Yoongi watch everyone rolling around on the ground.”

You smile wide until you roll over and see Yoongi looking at you, a smile on his face. Quickly you look away and stand up. “Luna, we better get to the practice room and get warmed up. Join us once you guys get set up!” you say as you get up and practically drag Luna to the practice room and away from Yoongi.

Luna rolls her eyes as you enter the small practice room. “Avoiding him forever is going to be impossible, especially since you two have to dance together later today.”

You sigh, you had been avoiding practicing First Love since before you left, too scared to have to dance with Yoongi. “Don’t remind me,” you mumble as you start to stretch.

“He actually seemed happy to see you today, so maybe he wants to talk to you finally.” She goes down into the splits and reaches for her leg.

You nod and bend down to touch your toes. “I know, I am surprised. Tae said he was going to arrange something to get us together, but I asked him to wait till after these rehearsals, I don’t want to be stressing about that right now.”

Luna rolled her eyes. “So avoiding it is gonna make it less stressful, honestly y/n…” She starts to speak before she just stops and shakes her head. “I am tired of your excuses.”

Biting your lip you look over at her and sigh. The rest of the warm ups went by in silence.

Both of you walk back onto the stage, the director says he wants to practice the boy’s solos first. Much to your dismay, First Love was first to go.

You and Yoongi both stand in the middle of the stage, an awkward space in between the two of you as the rest of the members and Luna watch from the seats.

The director explains about the entrance, after practicing that a few times they turn on the music and you and Yoongi both start dancing together, his touch burning your skin with every graze he makes as he holds you.

You try to think back to the first time you both danced to it, trying to get that feeling so it looked believable even though you knew the two of you were very disconnected. The song started to get to the ending part, the part you dreaded the most, where you would have to look him dead in the face, you closed your eyes as you turned to face him his hand landing on your chin and bringing up upwards.

“y/n,” he says in a deep breathless whisper, making you snap your eyes open to look at him. His face was close to yours, closer than you thought, his chocolate eyes staring deep into yours.

Your eyes darted away from his face, desperately trying to look anywhere but at him. The song ended and the director began to speak, you saw Yoongi’s face scrunch before he moved away, leaving a cold vacancy where he once was.

“The dancing is good, but there is a lack of chemistry between the two of you, please work on that tonight since we don’t have time to do it now.” Both of you nod and head off the stage, Taehyung stands up and opens his arms for you to hug him, you hug him quickly and bury your face into his chest when suddenly he lets go, grabbing your arm and dragging you to the backstage area.

“Tae what are you doing!” You gasp as you stumble behind him trying to keep up with his fast pace. Behind you, you could hear someone that sounded like Jin telling off someone.

Tae opens the door to a small dressing room and pushes you in and closes the door behind you. “Tae! What are you doing!” you shout as you try to open the door only to find that he locked it. His footsteps already distant as you could hear him walking away.

You sigh and walk over to the mirror and look at yourself in the mirror, sitting down at one of the stools and put your face into your palms.

A few minutes passed when you heard two voice bickering back before you hear the door unlock and someone entering, falling to the ground as the door slammed and locked again.

You put your hands on your face, knowing exactly what was happening. The members were going to make Yoongi and you work out what’s going on.

Behind you, you hear shuffling as the person stands up and sighs, “God dammit, those assholes ” he mumbles as he looks over to see you sitting there, you peek through your fingers to see his reflection in the mirror, he freezes and stares at you.

“y/n,” he says finally after what felt like a century of silence. Humming in response he slowly walks over and sits next to you and looks at you.

“Uh, are you um, okay?” he whispers as he reaches his hand out to touch your shoulder but stops and lowers his arm and looks down at his feet.

“I honestly don’t know Yoongi,” you say, not taking your hands off your face, trying to take in what’s happening.

Yoongi glances up and grabs your shoulder and turns you to face him, then he grabs both of your wrists and moves them away from your face. His brow furrows slightly when he sees your expression.

You look back at him before you close your eyes and take a deep breath. It’s time to get this over with you thought as you open your eyes and begin to speak.

“I am sorry, for the way I reacted at the Christmas Party. I was just in shock. I had no idea that you felt that way, well no that’s a lie, I did have a feeling that you liked me but I kept denying it. So when you finally kissed me, I just freaked out. I am sorry Yoongi, I wasn’t rejecting you, because…..because I like you too…” You look up at him, worried about his response.

This time, he looked at you in shock, panic reading across his face as he tried to comprehend what you just said. “Wh..Wait… You ..” he stuttered out.

“Yes, idiot!” You said, adrenaline running through your veins as you grab him by the jacket and pull him in and press your lips against his. Causing his body to stiffen before relaxing and placing his hand against your burning cheeks, pulling you further into the kiss.

You try to break the kiss but he shakes his head and pulls you back in. “No, I am not done yet,” he mumbles as he kisses you harder and moves his hands from your cheeks to your shoulders and runs them down your arms till he holds both your hands.

A few more minutes pass as you both passionately kiss, eventually breaking for air. Yoongi smiles widely.

“We really are idiots, aren’t we. How long have we been avoiding this, three months?”

You chuckle, “That sound about right.”  You both start laughing, as you stand up, still hand in hand.

“I am sorry I lost my cool and thought you rejected me. I am just horrible at this whole, love thing.”

You blush and hug him tightly, “It’s okay, you’re an idol you are busy and you aren’t as good at showing your feelings as some of the others are. I am not mad at you. That’s just who you are.

He places his hands on your waist and kisses your forehead. “You know me too well y/n.”

You hum as you rest your head against his chest. Both of you stand there for what feels like forever when suddenly a knock makes you both jump.

“DID YOU MAKE UP YET!” Jimin yells.

You look at Yoongi and whisper, “They will probably interrupt us if we say yes.” Winking you raise your voice slightly, “You seriously are delusional Yoongi, why would you think such things.”

Yoongi smirks and plays along, “Delusional I think you are delusional for thinking I kissed you because I was drunk.”

You both hear Jimin sigh loudly and walk away. You start snickering until the hallways are silent again.

“He is going to dramatise that so bad,” Yoongi chuckles and kisses your forehead again.

“Well yeah, that’s Chimchim for ya.” You both chuckle again.

Yoongi’s face goes serious as he moves one of his hands to your chin and raises it to look at him. “A piano was my First Love, but you are my first actual Love. Can you please be mine, I don’t know if I can continue to do this without you. I have been an absolute wreck the last two weeks without your smiling face and embrace. I can’t write, I can’t sleep. I need you, please.” He looked at you with pleading eyes.

“Yoongi…..” You smile at him and place your hands on his chest before kissing his lips. “Do you know how long I have wanted to hear you say that you want me to be yours?”

His eyes opened wide, “Tell me, how long?”

“For months,” you says as you try to look down, your cheeks red, but his hand on your chin prevents you from looking down.

“Is that so?” He kisses your nose and lets go of your chin and hugs you tightly, biting his lip.

You nodded as you started to tear up. Causing him to jump back in worry. “whoa whoa! Why are you crying?”

You smile. “Because I am so happy, I want to be yours Yoongi, I really want to be yours.”

He smiled and wiped your tears. “Well, you are now.”

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Masterlist

dID yOU mISS mE?

i mISSED yOU. 

vERY mUCH.

Alrighty so ever since @markiplier ‘s Valentine’s Day special came out I’ve been DYING to cosplay Dark!!! So here it is!!! >U< I had a lot of fun with the glitch editing too!! 

When Jack finally made Anti a thing on his channel, I’ve wanted Mark to bring Dark back so badly, and WOW I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN I GOT TO SEE HIM AGAIN!!  OH MAN I WAS SO HAPPY!!!! Everything about the special was so well made and I loved each and every moment and every different outcome. I know they all worked so hard on making it, and it turned out phenomenal. Thank you guys so much for working so hard on everything. It really paid off, and each moment was just amazing!! We all really really do appreciate all the work you do for us, and it means a lot to know how much you care about all of us. Thank you so much. >U<

WEEK SIX progress/recap/goals/blah/blah/blah

I did mostly OK this week but pretty terrible this weekend, meaning if I run six miles today and eat well I’ll get my 3500 deficit and mayyyybe hit 125 pounds next week. I’ve said it before I’ll say it again: I hate the scale and hate what it means to me. I think I’ve lost like 5 pounds since I started this but my inches are way down and those 2 pictures look pretty different to me. My waist is really volunteering as tribute here, and I am not upset about that. I guess 5 pounds in 6 weeks is good, this pace is also something I am getting used to.

I had been doing a lot of private talking on here with people about maybe abandoning keto, and this week I decided to give it a “final” shot. And wouldn’t ya know, now I want to keep at it. I need, and love, the structure and the strict planning and logging-without it I go off the deep end. I’m pretty obsessive about weight loss, and keto+CICO just keeps me weighing and doing the math and pre-planning. I love it. Plus I’ve decided to jump into some veganism with my partner this summer, reduce my footprint. I’m really looking forward to it. The summer, wow. I cannot fully express how badly I want to hit my goal weight by the summer. 5 pounds in 6 weeks. 20 pounds in 16 weeks? Does that work? 

Six weeks! That’s like…halfway to three months? I don’t really feel like this is my halfway point. I feel like 50 days will be. Gahhh I wish I didn’t have to celebrate milestones on the weekend anyway. I had some PIZZA last night and I don’t feel accomplished blah. One cheat (those gyozas on thursday) always begets another. The weekend, man. It makes me a crazy person. Husband ordered pizza and so it was free pizza. I didn’t even have that much but I still feel bummed.

Next week: 1100 net cals. Keto! Net carbs under 20. TRY and hit the gym after work despite my insane hours. Up the weight on the deadlifts. Longer runs. More water. Less wine.

   I wanted to point this out really badly, so here’s this video! In this video, you can see Buster Moon talking about how he’s going to wow the audience, that it will bring them in like the good ol’ days, etc. This is something he says VERY OFTEN. I didn’t put all the times in this video, because I wanted to keep it short. But after his theater crumbled to basically nothing, and he had no real hopes anymore, Meena helped drag him out of that funk. Even still, he was talking about a “real audience,” and how he wanted to see her perform in front of one.

   However, after they built up a stage from the ground as a team, and Moon sees the audience, there’s only two crowds: Rosita’s family and Meena’s family. Of course, he’s all like “that’s all?” but that just brings us to our next point: when Buster gets everyone’s attention.

     He talks about how there “isn’t much of an audience” out there. Yet, he says “it doesn’t matter.” This is major character development, I think … for before, all he mostly tried to do was bring the theater back to its original glory … about saving it on account of his FATHER who “worked his tail off for thirty years” just to buy the theater for Moon in the first place. He didn’t want to quit so he could have his father see him fulfill his dream of running a very popular theater that brought dreams to life.

     But that’s what it was ALWAYS about before: Moon wanted to bring dreams to life, on his stage, in his theater. It was always his MAIN GOAL AND DREAM. But with the stress of the theater failing, his friend not even having confidence in him (at first), everyone’s talents not being all that great (apart from Mike’s), the fact that he was going to lose his home/theater any day from the bank, etc. … HE FORGOT ABOUT IT

     Yet, now once that all of that is taken away, he’s reminded of his real dream, of his first real passion, and the audience? It doesn’t matter as much. They are here to fulfill their dreams TOGETHER, and that’s why Moon is so incredibly proud … so incredibly glad to be “a part of this with them”.

     So, despite Buster not having a theater anymore, and how their talents alone brought in the audience (and not Buster’s fame), he is still PROUD ENOUGH and no longer seeing this as a FAILURE to talk to his dad about it (where beforehand he said he was “glad his father isn’t here to see this” when he was washing cars):

     BECAUSE HE REMEMBERS HIS TRUE PASSION AGAIN.
          AND WHY HE FELL IN LOVE WITH THE THEATER IN THE FIRST PLACE.
               AND WHY HIS FATHER WORKED HIMSELF TO DEATH FOR THAT DREAM.

It's 1am and I thought this was a good idea

“Wow! You’re really cool, Dr. Ziegler!” Hana, or better known as D.va, said.

“Ahh, thank you!” Angela exclaimed, smiling at the young girl through her mech.

“You’re a miracle worker!” Hana exclaimed childishly, a soft giggle escaping her lips.

Angela couldn’t help but giggle as well. “I’m not a miracle worker!” She exclaimed. “Well,” she began, her gaze shifting towards Genji as he talked to a fellow teammate. Her mind travelled to how she had helped him. She remembered how badly she wanted to help him live. She remembered how much joy she was filled with when all of her hard work paid off and she pulled off the impossible of almost literally resurrecting Genji.

“Not always.”

anonymous asked:

TLD was what pushed me over the edge. I'd known who Benedict was since 2007, but his acting hadn't really impressed me before (w. the exception of Sherlock & Khan) + couldn't understand why ppl found him attractive. TLD though... WOW. His pain was so palpable, his mania was so frightening, his smugness was so delicious... and my god, he was SMOKING HOT and for the first time ever, I wanted him BADLY! It'll be the crime of the century if he doesn't take home a BAFTA at the very least for that.

i love how people still arrive at BC at different points… in a similar way, i saw him in forty something, then amazing grace (thinking he blew ioan gruffudd off the screen but no further reaction) and of course sherlock (noting his unqiue persona) but my tipping point was khan…

he was a supernova in the lying detective; i absolutely agree with you.. astonishing. and your words; “ pain was so palpable, his mania was so frightening, his smugness was so delicious” yes.

Top 10 Bias List

I was tagged by my (evil, making-me-pick-out-my-top-biases-even-though-it’s-insanely-hard) love, @rudeboywonho (shockingly I also have a thing for rappers??? this is weird)

Imma tag @memecook (this one’s gonna be rough for you, sorry Julianne!!), @21stdopecenturygurl, @jeondulce, and @malikscofield if ya wanna do it!!

1. Kim Namjoon - my love and heart and soul. My sunshine. I about died at that vlive he did yesterday and the way he was smiling at the camera and singing Drake just fuckign fucked me UP hfdjhfbdfdk

2. Jackson Wang - ooooooo this boy has been doing some DAMAGE lately. I always think about Jackson too, like why?? I’ll just think about him at random points in the day and ugh I adore him he’s such a gentleman but also hilarious and is REALLY giving Namjoon a run for his money

ok I have to put two because there are two sides of Jackson Wang and I love them more than I love myself bye

3. Lee Jooheon - he is the literal embodiment of cuteness and I cannot handle it, how tf am I going to deal at the Monsta x concert in July??? plus like, his dimples ruin me

4. Moonbin - I CANNOT with this boy. He makes my heart flutter and his laugh. his fuckin LAUGH. I WILL ATTACH A COMPILATION OF HIM AND HIS LAUGH HERE BECAUSE HE IS SOMETHING EVERYONE NEEDS IN THEIR LIFE 

5. Kwon Jiyong - ask @memecook, I am LITERAL and UTTER trash for G-Dragon. That is all

6. Kim Taehyung - Now I UNDERSTANNND that I already have Namjoon on here but Taehyung has wrecked all of my bias wreckers…..knocked Jimin out of his spot, then threw Yoongi out the window so I think Tae deserves a spot here. There are a shit ton of reasons why Taehyung is the most beautiful soul on earth but..you get it

7. Kim Yugyeom - Here’s another from Wreck7, who continuously wrecks my entire bias list on the daily. Yugyeom makes me feel some typa way and idk what it is, but I want to hug his giant maknae ass 24/7

8. Kim Byungjoo - ToppDogg is not really active, but B-Joo will always be active in my heart ok

9. Shin Hoseok - worming his way into my heart honestly and I find myself thirsting over his beauty and also his sincerity towards Monbebes threatens to rip my heart out

10. Chae Hyungwon - an awkward tall bean like me and I love how adorably sweet he actually is and I want to hug him??? so badly??? wow Monsta x is ruining me

So I finally got to watch Rogue One for the second time...

1. I was hoping the ending would magically change a second time around but NOPE.

2. Bodhi’s suffering and nerves in the beginning are so much more heartbreaking the second time around and I desperately want to bring Saw back to life just so I can kill him a second time for doing this to him.

3. I thought that perhaps, since I only saw the movie in December and have only had fanfic and gifsets since to tide my obsession, I might have exaggerated the rebelcaptain interactions in my head and it wouldn’t be as compelling or obvious the second time, but NOPE, holy crap, Jyn and Cassian had absolutely no concept of personal space or not making eyes at each other.

4. Kay is still hilarious and his interactions with everyone make me so happy.

5. As much as I think Lyra might have been a cool character (I need to read Catalyst to hear more about her), I will never agree with her leaving Jyn to go back for Galen. I’m sorry, but the kid should always come first, and what exactly was her plan? Like, for real?

6. Chirrut and Baze still make me smile so much, they are amazing, and my heart breaks for them every single time, both about Jedha and freaking Scarif.

7. The subtlety of Diego Luna’s acting for Cassian just blows me away every time, I know lots of people have pointed it out, but when Jyn’s attitude flips about Galen you can see just how despairing he looks, like he wants to just fall apart right there.

8. On that note, GOD I LOVE how Felicity Jones plays Jyn, all hard edges and mercurial but she still saves that little girl and jumps in front of Kay and saves Cassian from an explosion and talks to Chirrut like he’s not a bother and interacts positively with Bodhi just people can have so many different facets of themselves and she does so well with portraying this.

9. Still submitting to the theory floating around that Bodhi has interacted with Vader, due to his reaction to Saw’s inhaler thing.

10. ON THAT NOTE, WOW IS BEING A DRAMA QUEEN A REQUIREMENT TO BE A RANKING IMPERIAL OFFICER? I mean really, Krennic parked his ships obnoxiously far just so he could walk a distance and have his impractical white wannabe-Vader cape fly in the wind, and why is Vader living on the planet where he lost his limbs and was burned alive? And seriously, the fog machine while he walks out to meet Krennic all swag just WOW GUYS, CHILL.

11. Bodhi does so much and gets so little appreciation, I love him so much he deserves better. Riz Ahmed is the current love of my life and I want to see him in something where he doesn’t die so badly, because he portrays Bodhi in such a compelling manner, with the jerky mannerisms and wide eyes.

12. My sister refuses to watch the end, and I suffered through it only because now I have go-to fics for my denial.

13. Baze taking up Chirrut’s mantra is still gut-wrenching, I have trouble breathing when it happens.

14. DO NOT TELL ME BODHI COULDN’T HAVE THROWN THAT GRENADE OUT OF THE FREAKING SHIP THIS IS WHY I’M WRITING A FIX IT. The look on his face when it lands and “This is for you Galen”…*i’m not crying you’re crying*

15. Admiral Raddus the Bad-Ass ya’ll, going to fight even before he knew about Rogue One, like, I want more of him, bring him back.

16. BAIL DON’T GO TO ALDERAAN MOTHER OF GOD!!

17. THE ELEVATOR AND BEACH SCENE ARE STILL SOME OF THE MOST ROMANTIC SCENES I HAVE EVER WITNESSED THESE TWO STOLE MY HEART SO BADLY.

18. Vader cutting up the Rebels is still bone chilling. Leia’s appearance still lifts me up, especially now, with Carrie Fisher in the stars smiling down at us and flipping us off, I miss her so much.

19. BUT SERIOUSLY THE ELEVATOR AND BEACH SCENE, SO MANY MORE FEELS THAN I REMEMBER WHY???

20. I still would watch an entire mini-series about these characters in a heartbeat, I want them all to reappear in various shapes and forms, someone make it happen, I don’t care if it’s parallel universe stuff, I WANT BODHI TO FIND HAPPINESS.

In conclusion: yes this is out of order and disjointed but Rogue One has still torn my heart to shreds and changed my life so we’re even.