wow i told myself this morning

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"I’m an Iowa boy who spent his high school years in south Minnesota wishing he was somewhere else. I started writing music as an escape from reality and it soon grew from a hobby into a wild monster — a passion that has taken over every corner of my life."

3/16/15 plague

what a time to be alive.

6 am, awake, up and at ‘em

reminds me of high/middle school mornings.

i’d hang your blanket over my window,

but i want it down here with me.

i’d rather lay here awake with a little piece of you

than sleep without.

my core burns, my legs hurt

but i think i did a good thing getting up so early.

sean told me to be kind to myself,

to take care of myself,

so that’s what i’ll do.

i’m laying here and all i can think is,

wow, i love you.

wow, i mean it.

wow, that’s troubling.

shifting between broken thought patterns

and broken heart, baby, that’s me.

sifting through my own little sea of

fear,

god delusion,

and so much loneliness,

hoping to find what i need to get by.

it’s been proven i love what will destroy me.

so when i look at you and my heart

starts to flutter the way it did all that time ago,

forgive me if i flee,

but a broken promise is hard to swallow,

even if i’m the only one who remembers.

weighing experience’s value vs. my heavy heart,

i can see the divider line

defining what i want and what’ll do me good.

what’s the use of a stable home,

a good job

and all the attention i could ever want

if i’m not so lovingly daughtered?

anonymous asked:

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1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? sometimes

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? 3

3. The person you would never want to meet? probs hitler 

4. What is your favorite word? wanderlust

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be? palm tree

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? it’s too fucking early

7. What shirt are you wearing? a striped sweatshirt

8. What do you label yourself as? nerd

9. Bright room or dark room? bright

10. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far? 14

12. Who told you they loved you last? my mom

13. Your worst enemy? myself (wow that was deep)

14. What is your current desktop picture? a collage I made when I was 12 because I don’t have time to change it

15. Do you like someone? haha yeah

16. The last song you listened to? gonna get over you- sara bareilles

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? abu bakr al-baghdadi

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? my ex lmao

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? someone smart so they could do my homework and make me drinks while i chill

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional) my ass probs

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? im guessing my brother and id pee off a bridge and try to draw something with my pee

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it? im in drumline if that counts and i can watch and entire season on netflix in a day

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of? love which is ironic because i love love

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal. nutella

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it? my trip to europe this summer

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? the caribbean

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be? vodka citron i guess

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? don’t be a dick

29. What is your favorite expletive? fuck

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? my phone or my guitar

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? i don’t think i’d erase anything because it all made me who i am

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! england

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? my great-grandma

34. What was your last dream about? my ex

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]? i’d like to say yes

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? nope

37. Have you ever built a snowman? yeah

38. What is the color of your socks? not wearing socks

39. What type of music do you like? pop/rock/alternative/metal

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets? sunsets

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor? cookies and cream

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer) 49ers

43. Do you have any scars? yeah

44. What do you want to be when you graduate? doctor

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? i’d be less shy

46. Are you reliable? yeah

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? i don’t want to know anything

48. Do you hold grudges? no but i remember what people do so i’m more careful around them

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? dragon

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? a dildo that was about as big as a cd and we said that you wouldn’t be able to fart or control your poop

51. Are you a good liar? yeah but i hate it

52. How long could you go without talking? i can go a while but after i won’t shut up

53. What has been you worst haircut/style? i got really choppy layers that looked weird

54. Have you ever baked your own cake? yeah

55. Can you do any accents other than your own? british/australian/french sort of/mexican

56. What do you like on your toast? cinnamon 

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of? a snowman

58. What would be you dream car? idk a ferrari 

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. sometimes i sing sometimes i think

60. Do you believe in aliens? yes

61. Do you often read your horoscope? no but i read horoscope blogs

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? x

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? dragons (is that even a question?)

64. What do you think about babies? no me gusta