wow i feel stupid when i tag my posts with so much stuff

Yoongi As Your Boyfriend

so this was requested. also, yoongs would be a great boyfriend, getting that out of the way. also, my friend’s bias is yoongi. get wrecked bish.

request: Can you plz do yoongi as a bf?? ..ur writing is just so good and literally wow god bless👌❤️❤️ 

also, thank you for the compliment ^^ i’m trying my best

here’s my masterlist, and requests are open~

Originally posted by meanyoongis

  • he’s perfect bless him
  • if he’s your boyfriend then you won at life
  • like no joke at all
  • you slayed existence
  • hmm, i don’t think this gramps would be able to strike a conversation with a stranger, so, uh, let’s say you are a friend of the boys but like, not super close with yoongs k
  • he’s the guy who would admire from distance, he doesn’t take initiative, and he’s kind of content with the relationship he has with you
  • ok not really
  • “namjoon, set me up with them” “what? why?” “because i said so”
  • he isn’t as smooth but he gets the message across lmao
  • hmm, i imagine you’d go to a music shop with namjoon and yoongi tags along and suddenly where’s namjoon
  • but it’s okay, you got yoongi with you
  • tbh he seems pretty cold and intimidating
  • but you ask him about some album or artist and his eyes literally light up and he starts rambling and he got this cute lil smile on his lips the whole time and he’s gesticulating and you’ve never seen someone be so excited over talking
  • and by the time you guys are over with talking about music, the shop needs to close so you get evacuated really smoothly but you don’t even realize, you’re still talking
  • you even forgot about namjoon, poor guy he’s 10 feet behind you guys, patting himself on the shoulder bc “great job nams”

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Post your last selfie along with 10 FACTS about yourself. 💕💕

i was tagged by!!! @kageyama-tobiyo some furry friend

i tag: @glaspaladin @kcgane @ackersmith @kingkoganes @pureren @taovol @zaevran @twomillionfreckles @commodorecliche @quiiiznak @myfirstlovestory @uhhuhlistenboy @wishingsebastianstanwasmyman @captainkaltar feel free to ignore <3

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bags under my eyes and coffee in my hands

Word Count: 3 000

Genre: fluff, coffee shop au (yeah, yeah, cliche, I know), alternate universe

Warnings: swearing, insomnia

Summary/Prompt:

Phil works at a 24/7 Starbucks and Dan just can’t get any sleep.

A/N Fic idea from my friend @danielleworld. (The coffee shop au only one person asked for hah.)

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100  Questions Nobody Ever Asks - And Now I Know Why

I was tagged by @simsomedia - thank you, Mel! - and because I was too lazy to do replies I decided to procrastinate and do this instead. Like, wow, this was long… and kind of anticlimactic. Anyway, enjoy… Oh, also, in case I don’t finish the replies today: Blue Moon Update up for tonight! Bye! 


1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? What closet? 

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? Nope. I§m very particular about scents and the hotel ones usually smell bad.

3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? Everything on my bed - me included - is a mess so everything just kind of flows around… to end up on the floor in the morning.

4. Have you stolen a street sign before? Yep. Don’t ask. 

5. Do you like to use post-it notes? I wallpaper my walls with them. Great for writing stuff down and forgetting about it later.

6. Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? I don’t cut out coupons. I only read fiction and there are no coupons there :(.

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? Bear. I just kind of feel it sounds manlier when they say you have been mauled by a bear, rather than killed by a bee. I’m all about being kickass when I go down.

8. Do you have freckles? I wish.

9. Do you always smile for pictures? Nope. I don’t like taking photos so I usually just make stupid faces to hide the fact I’m not photogenic.

10. What’s your biggest pet peeve? Oh, man, so many. I’m super lazy and try to halfarse everything, so probably that.

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Too much effort.

12. Have you peed in the woods? I just returned from a month of trekking so take a wild guess.

13. Have you ever pooped in the woods? Now this is where I draw the line. Viva la gas stations.

14. Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? There is always something playing in my head, so why not dance to it?

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? I used to… then I graduated to nails. So much better. 

16. How many people have you slept with this week? Slept like in bed or slept like in Zauglom’s stories? I’m not even sure why I need to specify. 1. 

17. What size is your bed? The usual size. I don’t know bed sizes. I fit in?

18. What is your song of the week? Drain the Blood - The Distillers

19. Is it OK for guys to wear pink? As long as I don’t have to it’s okay for anyone to wear whatever the hell they want to.

20. Do you still watch cartoons? Is there something else to watch? 

21. What is your least favorite movie? Oh, man… touch one. I don’t know. I usually just don’t watch things I don’t like. Maybe the TMNT remake? You know that one with Megan Fox. Like WTH was that even? 

22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? I’m not telling you my hideout! Piss off! 

23. What do you drink with dinner? Beer or wine for when I’m feeling faaaaaancy. 

24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Barbecue sauce. 

25. What is your favorite food? Greek, seafood.

26. What movies could you watch over and over again and still love? Mr Right, Guardians of the Galaxy, Surfs Up - because I do watch these over and over again.

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you? There was already a question like this on here wasn’t it? Anyways still the same 1.

28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? No. But I was a renegade. Does that count? :D

29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Nah. I’m a self conscious skeleton of a girl. Anyway, the only magazine that would want my nude photos would be like The Skeleton and a Bone or something. Or Long Legs and Skinny Arses. 

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? Last Christmas…. I gave you my heart but the very next daaaaaay, you gave it awaaaaaay… (this escalated quickly…) 

31. Can you change the oil on a car? I can’t even drive one, why would I change oil in one? 

32. Even gotten a speeding ticket? See above. I just don’t drive. I only have a licence to show people at bars if they refuse to serve me booze. 

33. Even ran out of gas? Seriously? -_-

34. What’s your favorite kind of sandwich? grilled chicken or something spicy and mexican

35. Best thing to eat for breakfast? Full English breakfast.

36. What is your usual bedtime? Midnight.

37. Are you lazy? HOW DARE YOU! It’s the Queen of lazy for you, Mr! 

38. When you were a kid, what did you dressed up as for Halloween? We don’t celebrate Halloween in Eastern hellhole where I come from so nothing much. We only started dressing up for Halloween when I was a teenager and we had parties. Usually I went for something superhero, or someone from a horror film. I’m not very creative. :D 

39. What is your Chinese astrological sign? Dog, I believe.

40. How many languages can you speak? English, German, Slovak, Czech (no kidding, I learned the grammar because I was sick of asking my BF for advice every time I had to write a goddamn letter), and a bit of Irish which has gotten much better thanks to this trip! 

41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? Just a fantasy/sci-fi magazine I love. 

42. Which are better: LEGOS or Lincoln Logs? (What are Lincoln Logs?) <–This was actually Mel’s answer but I feel like it fits pretty well. Huh? 

43. Are you stubborn? ME?! NEVER! I WOULD NEVER EVER EVER DO SOMETHING JUST TO PROVE I’M RIGHT AND SOMEONE ELSE IS WRONG! NEVAAAAAAAAH! 

44. Who is better: Leno or Letterman? Who are these people and why should I know them? DO they make ice cream? Or sandwiches? 

45. Ever watch soap operas? I’m a soup opera so… in a way.

46. Are you afraid of heights? No, but I do have great respect of free falling.

47. Do you sing in the car? Nah.

48. Do you sing in the shower? All the time. I think the falling water and weird acoustic make my lack of talent sound better.

49. Do you dance in the car? How is that done? Like in the front seat? Or passenger? Isn’t that dangerous? Now I want to go and do it, thanks, weird questionnaire. 

50. Ever used a gun? Yes and we won’t talk about that because we are not giving my father that satisfaction. 

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? My sister is an amateur photographer so… like all the time. 

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? Of COURSE I DON’T! I love them. I’m the kind of person that thinks that if people could just burst into a song in the tram life would be a brighter, more colourful place!

53. Is Christmas stressful? Nah. Sit back, relax and watch the civilisation fall down behind the window. *Takes a deep breath* That’s the smell of Christmas. 

54. Ever eat pierogi? Huh? There are a lot of things I never heard of in this questionnaire. Does it think it’s smarted than me? WHAT?! YOU THINK YOU’RE SMARTER THAN ME? YEAH, YOU THINK YOU’RE SMARTER THAN ME, QUESTIONNAIRE?! HEEEELL NO! SOMEBODY HOLD MY HOOPS!…

Oh, wait, I googled it. It’s my fucking national food. Now I just feel stupid. But hey, cut me some slack it’s spelled pirohy in Slovak. :D 

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? Chocolate.

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Fashion designer. Rocks star. Vet. 

57. Do you believe in ghosts? Sometimes. 

58. Ever have a deja-vu feeling? All the times.

59. Do you take vitamin daily? Nope.

60. Do you wear slippers? Actually, I’m a world renown slipper thief. My sister and BF were always complaining when we lived together that I kept stealing their slippers… to stack them under my bed and never wear. Soooo kind of?

61. Do you wear a bath robe? No. It would steal attention from my sexy black batman pyjamas.

62. What do you wear to be comfortable? My sexy black batman pyjamas.

63. What was your first concert? Heľenine Oči - I’m so glad you people don’t know who that is… otherwise I would have to feel awkward about this :D. (It’s all my cousin. He introduces stupid music to me and then makes me go to concerts with him.) 

64. Walmart, Target or KMART? Sooo, we don’t have wither of those. Lidl I guess? :D 

65. Nike or Adidas? SPORT IS EVIL! KILL SPORT! SPORT IS UGLY AND THERE IS NOT ENOUGH LEATHER!

66. Cheetos or Fritos? Aaaaw, just come on. Lays. 

67. Peanuts or Sunflower Seeds? Peanuts.

68. Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? As per usual, snarky questionnaire, no. I have not. Happy now?

69. Ever take dance lessons? Yes. Sadly. They made me in High School. Worst week of my life. 

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Yep. Bring me food. My future spouse is already perfect.

71. Can you curl your tongue? *tries* Yep.

72. Ever won a spelling bee? We don’t do that. You know, if the word is spelled the same way you pronounce it… spelling bee would be extremely pointless here. 

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? No. But I scream a lot when happy. 

74. Own any record albums? Many.

75. Own a record player? No I just stare at my records like an idiot, duh.

76. Do you regularly burn incense? Yep. I’m a new age freak… or maybe I just like liquorice.

77. Even been in love? No. I have been tragically trapped and lied to in order to manipulate me into a deep emotional turmoil and constant worry and pain that I feel for this one idiot who likes free solo climbing… like that one where you don’t use a rope. It’s not love it’s torture. Don’t do it at home kids.

78. Who would you like to see in concert? Brody Dalle? Back in the Distillers times? I have been listening to Distillers a lot lately. 

79. What was the last concert you saw? Hmmm, let me think… Good Charlotte. 

80. Hot Tea or Cold Tea? HOT. 

81. Tea or Coffee? Only tea. Tea forever. Tea is life. 

82. Sugar Cookies or Snickerdoodles? What the hell is that? 

83. Can you swim well? Masterfully. 

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? There are people that can’t? 

85. Are you patient? Hahahaha….no. 

86. DJ or Band at a Wedding? Band! Something punk rock! 

87. Ever won a contest? Yeah. I got to meet TDG backstage once thanks to my contest winning abilities.

88. Have you ever had plastic surgery? No. They said they can’t take out my brain and replace it with Stephen King’s. 

89. Which are better: Black or Green Olives? Definitely black. Sweeter.

90. Can you knit or crochet? Both. My grandma told me that if I ever want to find a good husband I have to know these things. She also told me to never drink beer because a lady does not do that. In retrospect my grandma was wrong about many things. 

91. Best room for a fireplace? Bedroom.

92. Do you want to get married? Never did. Now… thinking about it. 

93. If married, how long have you been married? Like two years. But they did not give me a marriage certificate yet despite slaving away under this pressure of committed relationship. 

94. Who was your high school crush? Hey now! I already told you guys this awkward story. He was a cute jock, let it go!

95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? Ehm… since I only have to have my decisions approved my good old me who would I cry in front of? A mirror? 

96. Do you have kids? A furry one. She likes to lick my face. 

97. Do you want kids? Just furry ones. They like to lick your face. 

98. What is your favorite color? It’s still black. It wil never be anything but black. Give up already. 

99. Do you miss anyone right now? My furry baby. My BF went to Moravia to get her today and soon they will come home! We spend month apart and I can’t wait to see her jump around happily again! 

100. Who are you going to tag to do this tag next?

Hmmm, let’s seee… who do I hate enough to make them go through all this? Who deserves this torture for all they have put me through these last months? Who would… @zauglom @zauglom @zauglom @zauglom aaaaand @zauglom There. I’m done. Now I’m going to reply to everything you threw my way, Daria. I will cry. It’s your fault. 

anonymous asked:

hey just wondering what are your favorite astro blogs? funny post, gives advice ect 🌞🤗

Interesting, I was just about to make a post about this! Hopefully I get everybody and I’ll probably forget some people fml

PS: LONG POST YOU’VE BEEN WARNED

@thenatalchart - I have learned SO much from this blog. Welp, I’m not the best with names, but I think her name’s Pam. She’s SO straightforward and informative with her asks, and there’s ALWAYS something new to learn!!

@sexandtheastrology - By far, this is the only blog that has quality drags. Wanna put yourself in place? Go here. This blog is just FULL of honesty, and it’s quite funny! (esp the hoe stories hehehehe) I go to this blog for the laughs!!

@astrologyscorpio - Marlexa is so cute and so nice!! I love all of her posts and she’s so kind and sweet in her asks! She’s also GORGEOUS AF OMFG. Another blog I love!!

@terriblegemini - honestly one of the most savage astro bloggers on this terrible site lol. She writes really informative posts about the planets and she’s just so fun to talk to!!

@astrologymarina - SOSOSOSO sweet. I love reading her posts and her observations! (and her cute rants) Her blog posts are definitely worth a read, and you just learn SO MUCH.

@astrology-addict - Probably one of the sweetest and helpful astro bloggers ever! She’s always so sweet when she’s answering questions and she’s so informative!!

@scorpio-astrology - I love looking at his posts because they’re not the typical, silly astrology memes (lmao rip @ my posts) I love looking at his blog time to time because he has the real stuff. Not the silly, stupid memes haha. His Youtube videos are pretty informative too!

@astrolocherry - literally the astrology queen tbh. all of her posts are literally food for the soul, not gonna lie!!

@jupiters-dreams - POSTS ARE ON POINT. SERIOUSLY. Maybe it’s because her posts are totally my aesthetic, or maybe because they’re actually really pretty AND informative!

@29thdegree - Amazing post that has so much information. I just recently discovered this blog and I’ve been lurking like a creep for hours. I don’t care if it’s creepy, I fucking love this blog.

@mysticaltaurus - BEST COMPATIBILITY AND DESCRIPTIONS BY FAR. If you want a description or have a compatibility question, THIS IS YOUR BLOG.

@weirdastrologicalcoincidences - not a blog that necessarily teaches you about astrology but it’s definitely a blog to look at for the silly things astrology always proves right, like deaths, and notable beauties, etc. it’s a one of a kind blog!

@zodiac–signs - LOVE this blog. Honestly the only blog that goes through the trouble of having all the sun x moon combinations as tags! Everything just feels more personalized on her blog!!

@starlilium - LOVE THIS BLOG. THIS BLOG IS LITERALLY MY AESTHETICS LOL. She has a lot of informative posts (I particularly like her post on intercepted houses/signs) and I’ve seen her call out some people lol, it’s admirable

@astraltwelve - Super informative blog. If you’re gonna start anywhere, start on this one. You won’t regret it. I lurk on this blog a lot to learn new things!

@astroalive - I think this was the first astrology blog that really got me into astrology! I think I learned the majority of my astrology from this blog! Have I not seen this blog, I probably wouldn’t make this blog at all!

@peachystrology - AHHHH I LOVE THIS BLOG SO MUCH LOL. I remembered I used to lurk on this blog going “wow, blog senpai” ya I’m a dork, but her posts are A+, 100% recommend!!

@astrologanize - This is the one blog that I’ve learned a LOT from. There’s been multiple discussions from this blog on astrology and it’s just so fun reading all their posts! Very informative blog :’)

Hmmm, I think that’s it. If I forgot anybody, I’m sorry, I tried LOL, but these are definitely the first blogs that come into my head + the blogs I lurk in my free time, which is basically how I learned astrology in the first place lol

Erwin’s Guilt Complex

The discussion about this has turned downright stupid. Everyone is crying about poor Erwin this and poor Erwin that. Okay, I get it. Y’all like Erwin. Me too! Which is why I’ve given him lots of thought. Because a complex character like Erwin Smith cannot be boiled down to ‘he feels guilty’ & ‘that’s sad! what a tragic figure.’

Erwin has every right to feel guilty for asking people to sacrifice themselves for humanity when all along he’s only wanted to know the secret of the world. If you want to dig even further down, it’s starting to seem like he doesn’t even want to know this to save humanity! HE JUST WANTS TO KNOW BECAUSE HE WANTS CLOSURE. FOR HIMSELF. (This is because of his father. He needs to know if his father was just a whack conspiracy theorist put down to avoid civilian panic, or if he was really onto something for real all along and silenced because of that–because Erwin opened his big innocent mouth and told all his friends. But because he feels guilty about opening his mouth, we know that this is 100% something he’s in for for himself.)

Erwin’s admirable trait isn’t that he feels guilty: it’s that he knows exactly what he’s doing. He’s very self-aware.

What people should be asking is this: does Erwin really feel guilt for what he’s done?

The answer is yes, but the next question is: what does this guilt mean?

And the answer to that is: nothing.

The reality is as follows: the guilt has always been overshadowed by his longing for the answer he’s sought most of his life. Because of this, he will sacrifice all his friends and subordinates for his own selfish goal. And he’s aware that this is what he is doing. He’s aware of the people he’s hurt–that have died for him. People he liked and trusted (Mike, Nanaba, Gelgar). Yet his caring is not enough to overthrow his obsession.

Because obsession is what it is! He’s literally at a point in his life where he needs to know the truth of the world before he dies and he doesn’t care about anything or anyone else–not enough, anyway.

Erwin has been consumed by his end goal. THAT is what’s sad. Not his guilt.

His guilt is nothing in the face of his obsession with wanting to learn the truth about the world–in seeing his father’s theory proved true (or not, but we know he thinks it’s true).

I won’t deny that he’s sacrificed a lot for this…but some of what was sacrificed? Was not his to sacrifice.

And we can argue day and night about how those who join the SC are adults and can make their own choice, but were tricked into it (to an extent). They believed in his speech. Hell, he admits that sometimes he was able to believe in it, too–in his own constructed myth of what the Survey Corps meant under his command. He admits that he took a position of power and used it for his own selfish gains–just because they are not monetary gains doesn’t mean any less. He fooled even those he considered his friends (I mean come the fuck on he tricked LEVI into believing it! Levi! Who watched his friends die in front of him!!!!) and encouraged people to lay down their lives not for humanity’s sake as they believed, but for Erwin Smith’s sake. So he could reach his goals.

That’s scary.

This is not an attempt to discredit Erwin. The Survey Corps was beating their head against a wall (pun intended I guess) for too long. They needed Erwin’s long-range scouting formation because ultimately it did save lives. They needed his fresh ways of doing things.

And it’s not as if he was in this mindset all the years of his command, either; for a very long time he had nothing to go on. His first hint of something was Eren. After that point is most of what we (the readers) see of Erwin, and so really only in the last handful of months has he truly been acting with selfish intentions in mind. Before this, his goal aligned pretty much with everyone else’s in the Survey Corps: fight for humanity (because in doing so I may learn the secret of our world that my father died for)!

But after Eren’s abilities are shown, Erwin’s obsession manifests itself–and quickly. It’s hard to hate him for it, even though it’s terrible of him to be so absorbed in his own fucking world at this point that he doesn’t even involve his ONLY living friends (Hange, Levi–hell, even Nile). The reason for this is probably because we know why he gets obsessive. We know about his past–about his father, about that pre-existing guilt and the desire that his father not have died for naught.

And like I said: no one can deny that he did the Survey Corps a world of good. When his arm was ripped off, he was ready and willing to die, telling a soldier that he was ‘replaceable.’ Erwin doesn’t take pleasure from the deaths of his subordinates. So it’s not as if he is 100% selfishly obsessive.

But right now in Chapter 76, that’s exactly what he is. Go look at it again. He’s standing there: this mission might fail BUT at least I’ll probably have time to see MY GOAL accomplished. Okay. I get it. Wow. No thanks. Come on, man. Really?

Audree goes to DallasCon (plot twist) and survives!

I’ve actually felt really overwhelmed about starting this all morning like… to the degree that I’ve ignored it. I have no idea why, but right now as I’m typing my eyes are welling up so… I guess I was trying to keep myself from crying in front of my students during study hall???? Hahahahah.

No, I’m super tired. I slept mayyyyyybe 3 hours Saturday night and obviously not much last night, and now I’m at work. So I’m emotional but also I’m just exhausted and barely holding it together, but I’m happy as I can possibly be, so even just running on fumes is A OKAY WITH ME CONSIDERING! (I keep staring at my photos and smiling like an IDIOT you’d think I was like… in love or something????)

So below the cut is a recap of the con day by day with pictures, keysmashing, and capslock. Prepare your eyes. I think I may do a voice memo recap this week, too, if I get a chance. (Today is a no go for that because I can barely speak, haha.)

SIDENOTE: I asked my dad if he saw my pics on FB and he goes “Yeah who was that big tall movie star?” and I laughed idk it was just really cute. 

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Title; tokyo vlogging

Description; Dan and Phil vlog while on a vacation to Tokyo, they come out and do cute couple things together in the vlogs. Everybody explodes.

Wordcount; 1700+

A/N; prompt I got from anon somewhere and also I’m sorry I couldn’t post this yesterday but it’s the morning here in Australia so I’m still going to hope that it’s the 5th in every other country in the world ever. But nevertheless heRE’S THE FINAL DAY of 15days !!! (also its my bday yayayyyyay)

15 days of drabbles; day 15

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anonymous asked:

Why do you even cosplay, buying all this resin and fabric and whatever along with going to super expensive cons and the like when you're clearly in a financially disadvantaged situation? Oh wait. Maybe you can afford it all with your 'surgery' money. Nobody believes it any more.

wow. 

If you actually know anything about me, which is pretty easy considering I basically liveblog my life, you’d know you’re fucking dumb.

Maybe because I make a business off of cosplay, I quit my job to make props and costumes because I can do it on my own time when I’m feeling up to it. I have my EIN and am officially doing business legally in the state of NY. Did you see my post about sorting reciepts for taxes for my business the other day? Oh right, no you didn’t because you’re a piece of shit.

A resin re-order of all materials costs about 500$, two big helmets and a little one cover that cost. I can make twice that amount of props with the materials (there’s other costs too, but whatever, cost is recouped and profit still being made). It’s called math, learn you some.

I went to school for fashion and costume design, a huge amount of the fabric I have was purchased with grants, taken from the free student stockroom, or purchased years ago as I have been sewing for eighteen years. I occasionally clean up at Joann’s when they have 50% off red tags and they have stuff that I continually sell and can profit on. I’m working through old stock, and even costumes I make for myself are for sale - if someone is my size and has money it’ll be in the mail in 24 hours.

I am not going to a single convention this year that I have not been either invited to (free), or paid to attend. This is the important one. Surprise, I’m more successful than you. Going to conventions is a net win; there has not been one yet wherein the amount of money I’ve made due to networking, appearances, sales, and the like has not allowed me to at the very least break even, some of them have been profit in the four-digit range. Oh my god, it’s like its my job or something.Also most of the cons I go to are within a few hours drive of my house. It’s also not glamorous when it isn’t nearby, we pile like eight people into a hotel room and bring our own food from home so as to minimize cost and maximize profit.

I don’t actually own anything I sell on my shop. Yep, it all goes to customers. You know how many times I’ve sold a Lady Loki helmet that I made special for myself because I needed money and cosplay is a luxury? I cannot afford to have and keep most of the costumes I make on my blog, taking commissions allows me to do what I went to school for and make money while working with materials I could not afford. All of my ‘main’ costumes now (har har all two of them that weren’t made with random shit from the back of my closet) have recouped their cost and made profit via cash prizes for costume contests - it’s like it’s *gasp* profitable if you’re skilled. I’ve sold my Loki, my Thranduil crowns, my Margaery dress.

I don’t even remember half of DragonCon 2014 because I had issues on wound upkeep and had to have oral surgery the day prior to leaving and was high as balls on codeine the whole time.

“Nobody believes it anymore” It’s really not that hard to go back through my history and watch me get sicker and sicker as I fail at life.  Me and my husband have made the informed decision not to have kids because I am not well enough to do so and burdening a child with all my genetic issues is cruel. There’s even a fair amount of hospital selfies. I used to be a competitive and touring dancer. Now I can’t always get out of bed and have such severe intestinal problems from all my medications that I’m shitting blood. Yep, totally doing that for attention. It’s also a LOT of fun to have six root canals and four teeth pulled and worry about losing your jaw. Oh, also ever have shitty dental insurance and have work done without novocaine because its expensive when not covered? I suggest you try it, super relaxing and gets you loads of sympathy, amirite?

I just got this fun shit in the mail today. My oral surgeon felt so goddamn bad for me that she held back billing so it fell into a new calendar year so that part of this would be covered by insurance and I’d have time to save up money. That and she didn’t want me to skip treatment because then the situation could escalate.  Luckily half of that got covered, so like 500$ is on me. I am going this week and it’ll cost ~500$ to me after insurance again. My dental insurance covers 1k of copay per year. i have 3k (after insurance) of surgery left after.

I’m not financially disadvantaged as a whole. My hubby has a decent job and I work from home. We’re both paying off student loans, which is loads of fun. No one who is not obscenely rich is ever, ever prepared for a serious medical emergency in the US (I distinctly remember my mom crying and talking about re-financing their mortgage when I had to be hospitalized for testing and surgery for two weeks as a teenager). We were saving for a house, all of that money went directly into my face, and set us back about four years. Four years of mutual savings. Four. Years. Do you even have four years of savings? I actually have a screencap on my phone of my bank app prior to all this shit going down, because I was really proud/impressed that I’d managed to save that much money and might be able to move somewhere cool. Now I’ve got ~100$ that isn’t already ear-marked for the 2/3 of surgical costs that I’ve managed to put aside myself since September. And that 100$ is shipping money for people’s orders. So really I don’t have any money.

I’ve sold lots of my cool toys. I used to model, and had fun stuff from it. I’ve sold ALL my designer clothing, lolita clothing, movie props, even any normal clothes that Plato’s Closet will take on consignment. I ebayed lots of books I didn’t need. My husband sold his Harley, some Warhammer armies, his PS3, etc. I’ve kept a couple of my swords and things that have sentimental value, or are so long discontinued I’ll never be able to reacquire them once I climb out of this pit. 

In closing:

Shove your stupid opinions and false accusations up your ass.

I hope you’re a cosplayer too, come up to me at a con and I will gladly show you my scars and unfinished dental implants, punch you, and then proceed to be a far more successful and happy person with all my problems than you will ever be without them.

anonymous asked:

OH PLEASE. It's not like anyone is putting a gun to your head and FORCING you to play Voltage's games. If you want a stronger MC, go play Voltage USA's games instead of bitching about it. So please do leave the fandom since I'm tired of hearing whiny ass rants.

First of all, I want to thank you for letting me use this gif:

You know, what I don’t understand is why did you have to be so rude about it. We could have discussed it like mature people BUT NOOOO, being polite is too mainstream I suppose?

Anyway, this will probably be a long post so i’ll cut it.

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anonymous asked:

Oh wow, this is really getting sad. The submitted stuff is almost as stupid and ooc as your own now. :(

And that is basically how anon would look like if there was no anonymous option~!

ok, this was just a comic relief, actual reply is under the cut because it’s long and I don’t want to clog anyone’s dash lol

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Gratitude

Out of curiosity, I spent last night going through all my followers here to see who I recognized, and was familiar enough that I had something I could say about them. God, do you know how many people I personally owe my mental well-being, in some way or other, this year? How many people whose names (or usernames at least) I know, and have feelings of genuine care for? Of course I even appreciate the strangers, but the percentage of my followers on this site that I feel personal gratitude for is shockingly high. I’ve met more people I’ve developed a personal investment in this year than I think I’ve held onto in the last decade. And some of them I haven’t heard from in months, and may have moved on at this point–that’s okay, that’s life–but that doesn’t stop me from remembering what they did for me as a writer, a fan, and a person.

So I think the least I can do is to tell each and every one just what they did, and how as a result, my life was touched in a positive way. I think it’s important that people know when they’ve made the world around them better. I’m cautious about posting these publicly because I don’t want to give the impression that it’s a popularity contest–sincerely, no one I mention is more important than anyone I missed–and I don’t want people I have sadly overlooked or forgotten about to feel left out or slighted, or like they can’t talk to me, like I have some impenetrable clique of friends that surround me. I promise, I don’t bite! If you ever want to say hi, or want to show me something, don’t be afraid to. At the same time, don’t feel pressured to respond in any way. This is as much an exercise for me, to take the time to acknowledge and think about all the good other people have done for me and my life this year.

So, here we go!

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