wow i actually look like i lost weight in this

I’M DEADDDD either from protecting myself from not dying physically by the girls and boys shoving me around or the fact i saw wanna one. Y'all wanna one is short and I don’t know what to believe anymore. My 176 cm ass now knows she towers over like 9 out of 11 of them 😢 but they really are good live and the audience went berserk for them. They have amazing stage presence and like the songs live were so much better than i thought they’d be. their introductions in english were cute as hell. Like everything they say about them is so spot on like EVERYTHING. They look healthy and not starved which is always a good thing. Daniel is no joke. Like when you hear knetz say he oozes charisma it’s true. His stage presence is crazy and he just knows how to be sexy without trying (unfortunately for me considering i’m really trying not to stan him yaknow…the struggle is real)! HIS ENGLISH IS SO FUCKING GOOD YA’LL…. But I don’t believe he’s 180cm at all. Maybe my height and his legs are like 160cm but boy is THICK. I didn’t expect baejin’s face to be the size of a fist but it is. I didn’t expect woojin to be as adorable as he is but he is and he looks real young in person even if he trying to pretend he older than he is. Jihoon is smol too wtf his height always was misleading to me (and i always for some reason assumed he’d be my height but nah) but he is smol but yo each of his thighs are as big as my waist. I didn’t expect mama jisung to be as good looking in person but he’s really really pretty like too pretty LIKE DELICATE PRETTY?!?…. Hwang minhyuns visuals are really no joke…like he looks like a guy every Korean mom would kill to have as their son in law. Daehwi is cute as hell and definitely the actual maknae of the group and does cute shit 24/7 and a walking smiley face emoji like even the way he speaks you can literally hear rainbows and unicorns and happiness vomiting from his voice…like he just seems like a happy kid ya know while guanlin seems shell shocked like literally he is this emoji 😳. Jaehwan lost a lot of weight since p101…like I know he’s dieting but wow. Sungwoon is smaller than I thought…so he definitely maybe 163cm ha but everything else is true he’s got the face of porcelain china that only gods can bless you with. I didn’t expect to leave a ong stan but I did ㅠㅠ he is so unreal in person like his features and everything are perfect and he’s tall and his body moves so nice like real nice….it’s like his long limbs just know what the fuck to do…he can wear those pants and do that one move grinding with his hand during energetic every day for the rest of my life… BOY….THOSE PANTS….hid nothing. excuse me, I’m drooling again. But they’ve been blessed in every way wow…i really couldn’t be prouder of them. Literally started and ended in a blink of an eye though 😢  …oh and I forgot to add ong being a special mc did me in.

I’m having one of those rare days where body dysmorphia isn’t taking over. I woke up this morning, looked at myself and thought “wow I actually LOOK like I lost almost half of my weight today.” Which is weird because most days I still see the 330lb person in the mirror. Today I am very proud of how far I’ve come, mentally as well as physically, and here’s a picture to celebrate that. 💚💚💚

Jackson ( Got7) GQ article

TRANS] Jackson @ GQ Interview ( FULL )

GQ: Have you ever read GQ?

Jackson: Yes, I know about this magazine. In fact, I did a photoshoot with JQ before.

GQ: JQ?

Jackson: A US magazine that is similar to GQ. I was honoured. This is the very first time I have a solo photoshoot, so I think I can focus more about me. When we GOT7 modelled for magazines, I look pretty ugly. When I was taken photo with other members, I look like an MC or an extra. The guys are all good looking, they have small faces and long legs.. Let’s put it this way. when I stand next to them I look like a watermelon next to apples.

GQ: *Sigh*

Jackson: But it’s the truth. Besides my nostrils are big, no basically you cannot see anything except my nose, it’s pretty bad . And to be very honest I’m not confident about my legs, they are not long at all.

GQ: How’s about your height?

Jackson: Firstly I’m quite short, secondly my leg are not long either. So they are already 2 weak points. I couldn’t wear skinny jeans last time, coz my thighs are big. Now I can start wearing those, I’ve lost 9kg.

GQ: Wow!

Jackson: When I was filmed for Roommate, I’m a little bit chubby (T/N: Jackson was 72kg, now he is 63kg), so I decided to start keeping track on my weight. Actually I wanted to lose a little bit more, but I don’t think it’s a good idea. Coz my face and my height can’t be changed, if I keep losing weight like that I’ll become a lollipop lol [T/N: The lollipop that keeps shrinking.]

GQ: Another weak point?

Jackson: Haha, it’s true. But after I lost my weight, it seems like people think I’m getting more good looking. Hm let’s be honest I actually never thought I don’t look good. I’m just me. When I was on diet, the company asked me to dye my hair blonde. Initially I didn’t like it at all. I never has blonde hair before so I feel it’s not like me. So after dying my hair I called KangNam hyung (M.I.B), “Hyung, I dye my hair just like you!” *laugh*

GQ: So you are normally like this? You keep talking!

Jackson: Yes, when I was filming or taking flight, I talked too. When the staff were about to sleep I’ll come to them and say “Hyung, don’t sleep yet, let hear my story!”. I’m always like that, but the seniors are like “Jackson ah, hyung is tired”.

GQ: Wow it’s hard not to be closed with you.

Jackson: Yes, I’m the type of person who is fast to be closed with somebody. But it has the negative side as well.

GQ: Why is it so?

Jackson: Isn’t there a time like that? Honestly I’m very easy to get closed with someone and I really mean it, so it’s easy for me to get hurt as well. I thought we are closed, but it’s ended up “ah, actually we are not closed”. For instance, when I was filming some variety shows, I met a lot of good seniors. People all helping each other to film and the atmosphere was good. But the next meeting, they will all just said “Ah, everybody has worked hard”. But I still keep calling them hyung, noona. And I thought about the good time we spent filming, we were all happy weren’t we? *laugh* I suddenly feel sad and a bit hurt just like that.

GQ: Was it also like that when you were in Hongkong?

Jackson: Not at all. I was closed to the friends in school. I attended international school so I hung out with Hongkong friends and US friends. But here … well.. it’s exactly like “No mercy” *laugh*

GQ: Do you want to change your character?

Jackson: No, I don’t think so. I realise and feel bad about the time people feel uneasy because of me. Last time after a shooting I used to give a bro hug or high five to the PD, but I don’t do that anymore. At that time people told me “Are you crazy? Get a hold of yourself!” When I first came to Korea, I was considered disrespecting another trainee hyung who is a year older than me; I was scolded for that a lot of time. So now when young trainees do the same to me, I told them to fix immediately. “You can’t just yeah like that to hyung!” *laugh*. So now in GOT7 I act like Korean the most. When I’m dreaming I also speak in Korean.

GQ: Not sure why I feel sympathy you towards you. Are you closed to foreign idols?

Jackson: We are super closed. I talk time to time with Henry hyung, Amber, Fei and Jia noona in Miss A, Rap Monster (T/N: I’m not sure why RapMon is mentioned but Jackson said he always thought RapMon is foreigner when I first met him), KangNam hyung, Zhang Yuan huyng (T/N: Zhang Yuan from Abnormal Summit), we are all closed. It seems like I’m closed to almost everyone *laugh*. If I keep thinking like this I may get hurt again. What if they get asked in an interview “I heard that you are closed with Jackson?” and then answer “No, I don’t really know a lot about him”? *laugh*

GQ: You are very opened and straight forward, is there any time you feel weak?

Jackson: Yes, I used to express my weakness. If I’m worried I would say something like “I’m sad, I’m worried about this”. But I’m not like that anymore. If one day all my close friends leave me, what can I do to solve my own problem alone? I haven’t found the answer for that question, and I don’t think I can find that answer any time soon. However, I do believe if I can overcome my weakness, I’ll become stronger.

GQ: It sounds sad. Have you heard about netizen reacted recently?

Jackson: “So you don’t go on variety shows lately?”, or “Jackson isn’t it the time you should be back on variety show? You’ll better be there instead of being a singer”. Quite a number of comments read so.

GQ: How would you feel of these comments?

Jackson: Should I switch to Jo Se-ho huyng’s company? “laugh”. I’m not very sure (how I feel). I always love hiphop. I wanted to be like Usher and Chris Brown.. and I’m still trying now. If I’m well prepared, opportunities will come.

GQ: “Cool Kiz on the Blocks” and “Law of Jungle” are going to air soon.

Jackson: Yes, I actually love going on show. But then people only recognise me as a gag man but not an idol. I feel a bit … There was a time I was eating in a restaurant, the owner told his friend “I just got the signature from a comedian”. And I suddenly feel I want to join a “real” reality show.

GQ: Is it ok if you are being honest like this?

Jackson: It’s not a problem. If I just go on show to do greeting stuff like “hello sunbaenim, yes yes”, it isn’t me. If I try to act, I feel sorry towards my audiences, it’s like I’m telling lies. I’m just being me and try to be true to myself. I know a lot of people don’t like me, but how to be liked by the whole world? I’m Jackson. I don’t want to wear mask on camera. If somebody hates, me, I’m sorry about that. If somebody loves me, I’m sure they love the true me. The people who love me for who I am will make me become bigger (T/N: Jackson actually made a mistake here, he means his trust will be built up by those who love the real him).

GQ: Trust becomes bigger actually is not a bad way to describe it.

Jackson: When I was doing fencing, I wanted to become this and that. I trained hard to succeed like my admired fencers. But one day I started realising if I keep chasing to be like someone, I won’t be able to become them for my whole life. I need to challenge myself and overcome my own self, break the obstacles and limit. After being accepted to train in Korea, I still keep that life motto.

GQ: But even when you have strong belief, the negative comments like that …

Jackson: I didn’t pay attention to them at first, I didn’t even know how to read comments, like what to do after you go to Naver. Because I appear on several shows, I want to know what the audiences think. I wanted to go read comments on GOT7 gallery. But then I thought, I was really enjoying the time with all seniors there, why I need these confirmation? There was a time I read those comments, they were all like “Why don’t you get you a** back to China yet?”, “Eww, you have those stomach hair, you are disgusting, I wanna puke”. Oh my, so what is wrong if I have stomach hair?

GQ: You seem go through a lot of pressure.

Jackson: Yes, I do. Maybe I shouldn’t appear on show anymore. I have just started joining variety shows and it could just end up like that. The truth is I encountered a lot of bashing and hatreds. What did I do wrong? Should I go on SNS and write a reply to those comments too? I wrote to Kwanghee hyung, he called me up after that. “Hyung, I’m tired”. Kwanghee hyung said to me “But why? Oh, you got bashed; I was bashed for multiple times”. It’s just like that *laugh*.

GQ: So you are in charge of rapping in GOT7? But I heard you don’t like diss rap?

Jackson: I don’t really understand why it has to be diss rap? Of course I understand dissing is a part of Hiphop culture, like “I’m the best and unique”. But is it necessary to keep dissing? I’m excited and nervous to watch “Show me the money”, I always have the thought “If I were them how should I rap?” There are multiple genres in Hiphop as well, like Hiphop mixed with R&B, with meaningful lyrics, it’ll be more comfortable to listen to.

GQ: What is the thing that GOT7 is doing well recently?

Jackson: We debuted as hiphop group, but now we turn into boyfriend-dols. *laugh*. We are closed to each other, the group atmosphere is great, we have natural bond. We are trying to find our own color step by step.

GQ: If you can write a wish list, what would be in there?

Jackson: *lean himself toward the recorder* I want to join variety shows. I’m hungry, very hungry, I’m STARVING. Treat me food! Ah, GOT7’s going to come back with a new album, we really hope to be successful once!

GQ: Have you ever thought of a Korean name?

Jackson: It’s Jaegeun. A fan was typing too fast, so he made a typo in my name as “Jaegeun”.

GQ: Oh it suits you!

Jackson: Really? Everybody says I’m adorable, and very childish, very cute and 4D. But I actually think I act manly. But noona, why you start laughing at me? ~~—-

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Cre: GQ Magazine

Engtrans by @JacksonWGOT7VN

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Light Up Pine Tree's Past, Shooting Star (Part 4/?)

This was only supposed to have three parts…

As well as being a mini story…

Now it was taken over my life.

Warning: I have the inability to write actions and fight scenes so… Bear with me here. Also, this is kind of a filler part… ONWARDS WITH THE STORY!

-line break-

“You okay?”

Pine Tree slowly opened his eyes to Mabel, smiling brightly and wearing a Shooting Star sweater.

“Shooting Star?” Pine Tree mumbled in slight shock, getting up.

“Uh, yeah, Pine Tree.” Mabel smirked and slapped a blue-and-white trucker hat onto Pine Tree’s head, obscuring his vision. “Grunkle Stan says to get up early, Mystery Shack is opening soon.”

Pine Tree pushed the cap out of his eyesight, seeing a flash of bright colors exit the room.

“Hey-o, Pine Tree!" Bill appeared next to Pine Tree as he got out of bed.

"Bill!” Pine Tree gasped with delight, but Bill quickly placed a finger over the boy’s mouth.

“Sh! Shooting Star and Stanford Pines don’t take a liking to me, I wouldn’t draw attention." Bill warned, confusing Dipper.

"Wait, Mabel doesn’t like you? And who’s Stan-”

“…that’s why I’m hard on Dipper— to toughen him up.”

Pine Tree’s footing stumbled as the memory flashed through his head.

“Remembering something, aren’t you?" 

Pine Tree looked up at Bill. “I… I don’t know anymore.”

"Well, I’m gonna go check up on your sister. Have fun, Pine Tree!”

“Sister?”

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[TRANS] Jackson GQ Interview (FULL)

“If I keep chasing to be like someone, I won’t be able to become them for my whole life.” - Jackson Wang.

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GQ: Have you ever read GQ?
Jackson: Yes, I know about this magazine. In fact, I did a photoshoot with JQ before.

GQ: JQ?
Jackson: A US magazine that is similar to GQ. I was honoured. This is the very first time I have a solo photoshoot, so I think I can focus more about me. When we GOT7 modelled for magazines, I look pretty ugly. When I was taken photo with other members, I look like an MC or an extra. The guys are all good looking, they have small faces and long legs.. Let’s put it this way. when I stand next to them I look like a watermelon next to apples.

GQ: *Sigh*
Jackson: But it’s the truth. Besides my nostrils are big, no basically you cannot see anything except my nose, it’s pretty bad . And to be very honest I’m not confident about my legs, they are not long at all.

GQ: How’s about your height?
Jackson: Firstly I’m quite short, secondly my leg are not long either. So they are already 2 weak points. I couldn’t wear skinny jeans last time, coz my thighs are big. Now I can start wearing those, I’ve lost 9kg.

GQ: Wow!
Jackson: When I was filmed for Roommate, I’m a little bit chubby (T/N: Jackson was 72kg, now he is 63kg), so I decided to start keeping track on my weight. Actually I wanted to lose a little bit more, but I don’t think it’s a good idea. Coz my face and my height can’t be changed, if I keep losing weight like that I’ll become a lollipop lol [T/N: The lollipop that keeps shrinking.]

GQ: Another weak point?
Jackson: Haha, it’s true. But after I lost my weight, it seems like people think I’m getting more good looking. Hm let’s be honest I actually never thought I don’t look good. I’m just me. When I was on diet, the company asked me to dye my hair blonde. Initially I didn’t like it at all. I never has blonde hair before so I feel it’s not like me. So after dying my hair I called KangNam hyung (M.I.B), “Hyung, I dye my hair just like you!” *laugh*

GQ: So you are normally like this? You keep talking!
Jackson: Yes, when I was filming or taking flight, I talked too. When the staff were about to sleep I’ll come to them and say “Hyung, don’t sleep yet, let hear my story!”. I’m always like that, but the seniors are like “Jackson ah, hyung is tired”.

GQ: Wow it’s hard not to be closed with you.
Jackson: Yes, I’m the type of person who is fast to be closed with somebody. But it has the negative side as well.

GQ: Why is it so?
Jackson: Isn’t there a time like that? Honestly I’m very easy to get closed with someone and I really mean it, so it’s easy for me to get hurt as well. I thought we are closed, but it’s ended up “ah, actually we are not closed”. For instance, when I was filming some variety shows, I met a lot of good seniors. People all helping each other to film and the atmosphere was good. But the next meeting, they will all just said “Ah, everybody has worked hard”. But I still keep calling them hyung, noona. And I thought about the good time we spent filming, we were all happy weren’t we? *laugh* I suddenly feel sad and a bit hurt just like that.

GQ: Was it also like that when you were in Hongkong?
Jackson: Not at all. I was closed to the friends in school. I attended international school so I hung out with Hongkong friends and US friends. But here … well.. it’s exactly like “No mercy” *laugh*

GQ: Do you want to change your character?
Jackson: No, I don’t think so. I realise and feel bad about the time people feel uneasy because of me. Last time after a shooting I used to give a bro hug or high five to the PD, but I don’t do that anymore. At that time people told me “Are you crazy? Get a hold of yourself!” When I first came to Korea, I was considered disrespectful another trainee hyung who is a year older than me; I was scolded for that a lot of time. So now when young trainees do the same to me, I told them to fix immediately. “You can’t just yeah like that to hyung!” *laugh*. So now in GOT7 I act like Korean the most. When I’m dreaming I also speak in Korean.

GQ: Not sure why I feel sympathy you towards you. Are you closed to foreign idols?
Jackson: We are super closed. I talk time to time with Henry hyung, Amber, Fei and Jia noona in Miss A, Rap Monster (T/N: I’m not sure why RapMon is mentioned but Jackson said he always thought RapMon is foreigner when he first met him), KangNam hyung, Zhang Yuan huyng (T/N: Zhang Yuan from Abnormal Summit), we are all closed. It seems like I’m closed to almost everyone *laugh*. If I keep thinking like this I may get hurt again. What if they get asked in an interview “I heard that you are closed with Jackson?” and then answer “No, I don’t really know a lot about him”? *laugh*

GQ: You are very opened and straight forward, is there any time you feel weak?
Jackson: Yes, I used to express my weakness. If I’m worried I would say something like “I’m sad, I’m worried about this”. But I’m not like that anymore. If one day all my close friends leave me, what can I do to solve my own problem alone? I haven’t found the answer for that question, and I don’t think I can find that answer any time soon. However, I do believe if I can overcome my weakness, I’ll become stronger.

GQ: It sounds sad. Have you heard about netizen reacted recently?
Jackson: “So you don’t go on variety shows lately?”, or “Jackson isn’t it the time you should be back on variety show? You’ll better be there instead of being a singer”. Quite a number of comments read so.

GQ: How would you feel of these comments?
Jackson: Should I switch to Jo Se-ho huyng’s company? “laugh”. I’m not very sure (how I feel). I always love hiphop. I wanted to be like Usher and Chris Brown.. and I’m still trying now. If I’m well prepared, opportunities will come.

GQ: “Cool Kiz on the Blocks” and “Law of Jungle” are going to air soon.
Jackson: Yes, I actually love going on show. But then people only recognise me as a gag man but not an idol. I feel a bit … There was a time I was eating in a restaurant, the owner told his friend “I just got the signature from a comedian”. And I suddenly feel I want to join a “real” reality show.

GQ: Is it ok if you are being honest like this?
Jackson: It’s not a problem. If I just go on show to do greeting stuff like “hello sunbaenim, yes yes”, it isn’t me. If I try to act, I feel sorry towards my audiences, it’s like I’m telling lies. I’m just being me and try to be true to myself. I know a lot of people don’t like me, but how to be liked by the whole world? I’m Jackson. I don’t want to wear mask on camera. If somebody hates, me, I’m sorry about that. If somebody loves me, I’m sure they love the true me. The people who love me for who I am will make me become bigger (T/N: Jackson actually made a mistake here, he means his trust will be built up by those who love the real him).

GQ: Trust becomes bigger actually is not a bad way to describe it.
Jackson: When I was doing fencing, I wanted to become this and that. I trained hard to succeed like my admired fencers. But one day I started realising if I keep chasing to be like someone, I won’t be able to become them for my whole life. I need to challenge myself and overcome my own self, break the obstacles and limit. After being accepted to train in Korea, I still keep that life motto.

GQ: But even when you have strong belief, the negative comments like that …
Jackson: I didn’t pay attention to them at first, I didn’t even know how to read comments, like what to do after you go to Naver. Because I appear on several shows, I want to know what the audiences think. I wanted to go read comments on GOT7 gallery. But then I thought, I was really enjoying the time with all seniors there, why I need these confirmation? There was a time I read those comments, they were all like “Why don’t you get you a** back to China yet?”, “Eww, you have those stomach hair, you are disgusting, I wanna puke”. Oh my, so what is wrong if I have stomach hair?

GQ: You seem go through a lot of pressure.
Jackson: Yes, I do. Maybe I shouldn’t appear on show anymore. I have just started joining variety shows and it could just end up like that. The truth is I encountered a lot of bashing and hatreds. What did I do wrong? Should I go on SNS and write a reply to those comments too? I wrote to Kwanghee hyung, he called me up after that. “Hyung, I’m tired”. Kwanghee hyung said to me “But why? Oh, you got bashed; I was bashed for multiple times”. It’s just like that *laugh*.

GQ: So you are in charge of rapping in GOT7? But I heard you don’t like diss rap?
Jackson: I don’t really understand why it has to be diss rap? Of course I understand dissing is a part of Hiphop culture, like “I’m the best and unique”. But is it necessary to keep dissing? I’m excited and nervous to watch “Show me the money”, I always have the thought “If I were them how should I rap?” There are multiple genres in Hiphop as well, like Hiphop mixed with R&B, with meaningful lyrics, it’ll be more comfortable to listen to.

GQ: What is the thing that GOT7 is doing well recently?
Jackson: We debuted as hiphop group, but now we turn into boyfriend-dols. *laugh*. We are closed to each other, the group atmosphere is great, we have natural bond. We are trying to find our own color step by step.

GQ: If you can write a wish list, what would be in there?
Jackson: *lean himself toward the recorder* I want to join variety shows. I’m hungry, very hungry, I’m STARVING. Treat me food! Ah, GOT7’s going to come back with a new album, we really hope to be successful once!

GQ: Have you ever thought of a Korean name?
Jackson: It’s Jaegeun. A fan was typing too fast, so he made a typo in my name as “Jaegeun”.

GQ: Oh it suits you!
Jackson: Really? Everybody says I’m adorable, and very childish, very cute and 4D. But I actually think I act manly. But noona, why you start laughing at me? ~~—-
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Cre: GQ Magazine
Engtrans by JacksonWGOT7VN

For those of you who are struggling with a start to a healthy lifestyle and weightloss.

There is this sense of pressure to do everything perfect when changing your lifestyle to a healthier one and losing weight. Well I’m here to tell you NO LONGER! When I started my Journey I started slowly by walking an hour a day and slowly making changes to my diet. I didn’t expect it to happen over night, I just took it easy and a couple weeks passed and the next thing I knew, walking an hour a day was just something that was apart of my life. It was a shrug of the shoulders when someone asked if I liked to walk an hour a day… it was like someone asking me If I liked to buy my groceries at a certain market… it was just apart of my days and life. A couple of weeks in.. I actually started to see my clothes becoming more loose, and I stepped on the scale and saw I lost a bunch of weight, I had people saying “wow, Krystal you look amazing”. I even noticed a change in myself, I became more confident, I became more happy, and I received this sense of power I never knew I had. I wanted to now workout more, and eat healthier foods, and then I lost the 55lbs. And honestly, the amazing thing about it, was I didn’t let it consume me. I didn’t obsess if I missed a day of walking, I didn’t get crazy if I missed a vegetable in my salad. I just made these better changes slowly, I didn’t have a gym, I didn’t have a nutritionist. I had me and the knowledge I was learning along the way. 

 So if you can’t afford a gym membership? Don’t stress… you don’t need one! If you feel like you keep “falling off track” or “missed the gym” Don’t stress. Because you came this far by acknowledging something needs to be done, just owe it to yourself to know that it won’t happen over night, weather you worked out for 5 hours, you still won’t be at your goal tomorrow. So take it slow and leave the stress behind. The more you stress and let it consume you, the more you’re going to resent this Journey, embrace every step of the way, and notice the little changes you see happening along the way. You can do this. 

When people are like “WOW you look so good! How did you do it?!” .. As if you found some magical pill or trick to look good. Actually, no… It’s called busting my ass , running even when I don’t want to, eating healthily 85% of the time.. And being consistent. I’ve been working my ass off for 4 months and i’m basically the same weight.. I don’t look good because I lost weight, I look good because i’m fit and healthy. Hard work pays off. Researching quick fixes is a waste of your time. Don’t diminish my hard work, I got up and worked for this!