would you fix it for me

quick little announcement

I would just like to say that I am incredibly proud of this blog, despite being in charge of it for less than a week.
And though there’s a lot of asks where I am thoroughly confused and inexperienced, in general, I find that answering asks and helping people is actually making me feel really good and a happier person. So, I would like to take a second to thank you guys for changing my mental state in just a few days :)


Anyway, some plans I had for the blog:
-this weekend sometime, I plan to edit the theme a little bit and fix some links I noticed weren’t working
-along with the theme edits, I’m going to add an FAQ page and dig into the internet to find even more resources for you guys to use
-maybe edit the queue a bit; I might set up a poll and see how often you guys would like to see posts

& of course, if you have any other suggestions feel free to send me a message!

Him,

You broke something inside of me that I don’t know can be fixed. I used to be so full of love and affection and I would so full of it that I would not be able to contain it. You remember how loving and affectionate I was. After we broke up I was torn apart and forced to put myself back together in a way that you would not recognize.

In the process, I put so many walls up and kept my distance from people because I didn’t want to hurt them and even get hurt by them with the amount of love I had to give. It may be the worst thing that happened to me. I want to run from affection and anyone who wants to get close to me. I have always been good on my own until you showed up. Then everything flipped. When we broke it off, I had to learn all over again to be by myself. I learned a lot and found out that I will not give up being my independent self for someone else. I will not invest so much into someone like I did you. I won’t take the chance that the person will use me and not appreciate the amount of effort and time I use to show them how much I love them. Not again. You used me until you got bored and then threw me away and didn’t look back.

I still think about you obviously, but am I going to tell you anything that I am thinking? No. You have told me some of the things you thought about. Don’t do that again. It just brings back unnecessary feelings and memories. It hurts me. You laugh and smile at the memories but have a partner. You should be thinking about them. I have a partner for hells sake.

You messed me up so much that I cannot even be myself and be happy with them. I cannot even feel anything for them. I just got into a relationship with them last week and so far I am realizing that I cannot be what they need. I cannot be the person I once was. You messaged me a day before we got together and I my head was so messed up and I was just fine before you came back and wrote those texts to me. We always seem to talk about the same shit though. It is an endless cycle and I am finally going to end it, once and for all. I will be on my own and content with just that. I will finish college and show you and everyone that I can do so much by myself. I can live and be content and be strong and not need anyone by my side for that to happen.

You think I can’t do it? Look who stayed in the same position as they were when we left each other almost a year ago. Who keeps running and running. Who doesn’t even know what they want. I grew and am doing just fine without you. Go to hell if you think so low of me. I am almost a year clean of self-harm too. You thought I couldn’t do that either, huh? You don’t know me. I don’t want you to know this me. You’ll mess it up somehow.

It just sucks that some days I still miss you and want to see your face and want to hug you forever. I hate that so much. I hate that you still have a hold on me. Get out of my head and heart. Please. I am begging you. You don’t care or want me so I just need you to stop contacting me and stop getting under my skin.

I apologize for the long letter, but I needed to say these things. Even if it is all jumbled and a mess. I did it and I am proud of myself. Even if you don’t see this, I don’t mind. I will get the courage to tell you one day.

- Loveless

anonymous asked:

So im pretty new and I loved your video about rose, yet Im womdering if you have any plans to try and adjust the music because in some of the middle parts I couldnt hear what bismuth? and the others wer saying. Its basically completely flawless besides that and if you could fix that a little i would totally appreciate it?

Yea I noticed it too while rewatching it. I’m fixing the whole thing up today and putting it up on YouTube. Thank you for letting me know that it’s not just me that sees a problem x

coffee drinker: would u like a cup of coffee?
me: no thanks, 
coffee drinker: oh you don’t drink coffee?
me: well, i-
coffee drinker: i can’t get enough of the stuff. i am always itchin’ for me next fix. i love a nice hot cup of joe, i even drink it black as well. the stronger the coffee the more i enjoy it. i consume more cups daily of it than most people, which is how much i enjoy coffee 

sometimes you need to accept that yes i may have been a little bit manipulative. yes i worded something in a specific way that would make my friend/fp/SO feel a bit guilty. yes i could have handled that situation in a much better way. yes i am wrong.

Yuri on Ice interview translation - PASH! 2017/03 (p10-11)

The second part of the episode commentary by Mitsurou Kubo! I have now fixed it with all the italic & bold parts as in the magazine (in the magazine they are actually bold & bolder). If you have any questions please send me a private message and I’ll reply when I have some time.

You can find the first commentary about episodes 1-6 here.

Just a note: when she quotes lines from the episodes I’m not using any of the “official” English translations, I’m translating them as I would translate them myself, so they might not be like you are used to hear them, but I think you will understand which lines they are anyway.

The translation is under the cut because it’s long.

***If you wish to share this translation please do it by reblogging or posting a link to it***

***Re-translating into other languages is ok but please mention that this post is the source***

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After all the shit I’ve been thru, I never thought I’d have a good relationship. But then you came along and showed me what I should be treated like and I’m so thankful that I’ve been blessed with you
—  Unknown

I saw someone bring up the idea of Yurio skating agape to Once upon a December and I was like okay. But Yurio dancing agape to Once upon a December Russian version. So, i decided to attempt it! Sorry if its not super great im a complete novice at video and audio editing >-<’

edit: I was more specifically inspired by this amazing post by @hq-wingster but I lost the post so I didn't link it, but now that I’ve found it I thought it would be only right to link it

Truth or dare? you pick truth.
have I ever made you cry? have you ever felt like your lungs were closing the door and locking it and saying no no no over and over and over until there was only white fucking noise and no one around to silence it?

truth or dare? you pick dare.
i dare you to show up in a few months just to apologize and tell me you’ve missed me and you’ve kissed a lot of people but not me not me not me and you want to fix that so
you fix it.

truth or dare? you pick truth.
you must be happy are you happy? i would be happy if it wasn’t for my parent’s divorce and you and the constant fucking sound in my head that never shuts off it just buzzes and buzzes and reminds me of a fly trapped between a window pane both in the noise and the
imminent death.

truth or dare? you pick dare.
i dare you to miss me, I guess, even though it was never enough.

truth or dare? you pick truth.
what was the last dream you had about me? remember, no lying. it’s just a game.

—  call it something it’s not– lily rain
ANASTASIA SHOULD HAVE BEEN CURSED TOO!!!

(((Lost? Read my previous ramblings HERE)))

DISCLAIMER: There is indeed a curse in the film, but it was directed at Nicolas Romanov. Rasputin said to him: “Mark my words; you and your family will die within a fortnight. I will not rest until I see the end of the Romanov reign forever.” 

Then magic and the revolution happens, the royal family falls and Rasputin dies. But since Anastasia cheated death, Rasputin cannot rest in peace and is doomed to an existence in limbo. He feels the consequences of his curse, but Anastasia is in no way affected by it throughout the film. 

Yes, she looses her grandmother and suffers from hallucinations and amnesia for 10 years, but these things are not connected to the curse from the beginning of the film. 

Anastasia - “Let me go! Please!”
Rasputin - “You will never escape me child. Never!”

So - back to my random thoughts on this animated classic from 1997!! The more I think about this, the more frustrated I get. My problem with the magic in this movie would have been SO EASY to fix. The only thing needed would have been a curse cast on Anastasia, something along the lines of: “You shall forever be apart from all your family”

When the curse is first taking effect, that is when Anastasia is separated from her grandmother (instead of grandma just having a weak grip), and then Rasputin´s magic keeps her away from her family. There could have been a short montage her grandmother coming back to look for her granddaughter, but the curse is making it impossible for them to find each other.

Grandmother - “Hold onto my hand!”
Anastasia - “Don´t let go!”

Even Anastasia´s amnesia would have been more intriguing his way; the curse is actively forcing out her memories (instead of being the aftermath of an unrelated accident). But throughout the film the memories are trying to re-surface as best as they can in the form of hallucinations and dreams (que “Once Upon A December!!”). Imagine the ball-room scene slowly but surely becoming more and more green in color, as the curse is doing it´s best to hide the memories of her family. This way it would also make more sense why Anastasia cannot recognize her family (or even herself) when looking at the paintings in the palace (btw, why hasn’t all the shit been stolen during these past 10 years???)

It isn’t until Dimitri comes along and forces Anastasia to meet her grandmother again when the curse is finally broken. All in all: the whole idea of Anastasia being a victim of dark magic would have been more suspenseful from a storytelling POV, but this way we would also have had a much better connection between the main character and the villain. Not only are they both cursed, but now the magic that Rasputin possesses has been affecting Anastasia all this time.

Anastasia - “That face…”

As the movie is now, Anastasia is not in any way aware of Rasputin after she accidentally hits hear head as a child. And when they meet again in the movies climax he is simply the man who swore revenge on her family (and has been trying to kill her during the past couple of days without her having any clue about it)

But THIS WAY he would be 100% responsible for all her misery - her memory-loss,  the separation from her grandmother, her hallucinations - Everything would now be connected to Rasputin instead of being mostly based on a series of unfortunate events.

Rasputin - “And me… A rotting corpse… Last seen at a party like this one.”
Anastasia - “A curse!”
Rasputin - “Followed by a tragic night on the ice. Remember?”

Notice how all of these lines would have been more impactful if Anastasia was cursed too!! :o

The point of all this? 

IDK. It´s 3.30AM and this is what I do when I cannot sleep - Ramble on about animated movies. But admit that this should have been canon. :P

Do you ever think about how painful the Molly=John mirroring is during TFP phone call:

Sherlock, his hand forced, having to phone and ask John to do something for him, without revealing the threat to him: “I just want you to do something very easy for me and not ask why.”/ “Keep your eyes fixed on me. Please, will you do this for me?” 

But then it turns out the threat is completely set-up, designed to tear the both of them apart: “Oh, do be sensible. […] Why would I be so clumsy?”

The sniper would never have fired at John in TRF. Sherlock only had to think the threat to John’s life was real. The real goal was to drive John and Sherlock apart, burn the heart out of both of them.

And Sherlock can’t stand to think that those two years were for nothing:

“I won. I saved John Watson.”

“You didn’t win, you lost. Look what you did to him, look what you did to yourself. All those complicated little emotions, I lost count.”

Listen to me very carefully, 
stop asking yourself if they miss you.
Because even if they did, 
it’s not enough.
 Not enough to make amends. Not enough to fix things.
not enough to fight for you. 
Not enough to matter.
If they missed you they would be here.
 Proving it. But they’re not.
 Stop yourself when your mind wanders, 
and you start to think about what if’s. 
Sometimes all we want are answers, 
but honestly answers won’t stop the pain.
 Be strong and keep going.
—  David FontanezYOU DON’T NEED ANYONE TO MISS YOU
Prompts!
  1. “You’re really soft.”
  2. "You smell nice.”
  3. “You’re cute when you’re worried”
  4. “I think i’m in love with you, and that terrifies me.”
  5. “I would’ve had breakfast ready, but you were sleeping on my arm, and I didn’t want to wake you.”
  6. "I’m here for my daily fix of hugs and kisses.”
  7. "Is it possible to love too much?”
  8. “You’re the perfect height for me to rest my chin on your head.”
  9. "I don’t wanna get up– you’re comfy.”
  10. “I’m so in love with her/him, I don’t know what do do.”
  11. "I will always be there protect you.”
  12. "I’m cold. Come closer.”
  13. “You have something in your hair, umm… Do you want me to get it out?”
  14. "I love you a lot, but please stop trying to cook me dinner, you suck.”
  15. "I’ve never seen such gorgeous eyes before.”
  16. "I can’t stop thinking about you.”
  17. “You’re really hot, shame about the personality”
  18. "All I want is you.”
  19. “This movie is really scary, but you’re into it so I’m trying not to cover my face the whole time, but- WHAT IS THAT?”
  20. “You came to my room at 4am, to cuddle?”
  21. "I could never leave you, I love you too much!”
  22. "A fairytale with a happy ending always brings a smile to my face.”
  23. "I don’t think anyone could ever be as lovely as you.”
  24. “You look really cute in that sweater.”
  25. "You look incredible in that.”
  26. “Is that my shirt?”
  27. “You’re so clingy, i love it.”
  28. “No, like…. It’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”
  29. “Do you ever shut the fuck up?”
  30. "He/She’s quite stunning, isn’t he/she?”
  31. “Are you sugar personified or something?”
  32. “I look forward to holding you close in bed soon.”
  33. "Sometimes I just can’t control myself when around you.”
  34. "Do you believe in love at first sight?”
  35. "I think I’m in love.”
  36. "I’d like it if you stayed.”
  37. “You made these cupcakes for me?”
  38. “Have you lost your mind?”
  39. “You’re so fucking adorable.”
  40. “You’re my best friend’s sister, we can’t do this..”
  41. "People are jerks, but not you.”
  42. “All these new feelings are scaring me.”
  43. "I’ll share the blankets with you.”
  44. “I know I’ve kissed you like, ten times, but just like another ten, please.”
  45. "I have never felt this way about anyone.”
  46. “How do you always manage to look so captivating?”
  47. "I want this to never end…”
  48. “I’m a big girl, i can handle it myself.”
  49. “I can’t believe I got the first date, let alone a year.”
  50. “Can I kiss you?”
  51. “Don’t give me that puppy dog face.  How am I supposed to say no to that?”
  52. “So, are you guys dating or?”
  53. “There’s no way in hell i could fall in love with someone like you”
  54. "I waxed the floors, grab your fluffy socks.”
  55. “Could you hold my hand?”
  56. “Have you seen my jacket?”
  57. “Who changed the thermostat settings? I’m freezing to death.”
  58. “Can we just watch a movie and fall asleep on the couch?”
  59. “You can put your cold feet on me.”
  60. “You make me so happy.”
  61. “I can’t get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name and now you’re having breakfast with me in my sweater.”
  62. “Your stray red item turned my whites pink.”
  63. “A thunderstorm is rolling through town and you’re scared of lightening/thunder so I’ll protect you.”
  64. “Did they hurt you?”
  65. “You’re hiding under the blanket because you’re blushing?
  66. “Your lips are really warm.”
  67. “I just came home to you crying while watching a movie, please tell me what’s going on.”
  68. “That pet name was so gushy, but it was also so cute.”
  69. “I really love holding you, darling.”
  70. “You found me crying on the kitchen floor in the middle of the night surrounded by a shattered jelly jar.”
  71. “My parents are coming over in 10 minutes so please put some clothes on”
  72. “You look so comfy, and cuddle-able.”
  73. “We’re repainting the apartment and going to the hardware store together to pick out color swatches.”
  74. “IF YOU USE UP ALL THE HOT WATER ONE MORE TIME IM GOING TO BAN YOU TO THE COUCH FOR A MONTH.”
  75. “I want you to fight for me!”
  76. “Please don’t go.”
  77. “You can call me whenever you want… Even if you don’t have a reason to.”
  78. “It’s nice that your voice was the first thing I heard today.”
  79. “Quit smiling at me, I can’t stop messing up my sentences when you look at me like that.”

I decided to make a prompt list cause I’ve always been anxious about getting a prompt I don’t know what to do with so I chose to grab them from other lists that I was comfortable with (originals: x  x  x )

~ Clara

dating Sherlock would involve:

Originally posted by mama-het

(I posted this on my primary blog by accident hehe)


-him teaching you how to dance (“practicing” being an excuse to dance with you)

-little to no PDA

-“sherlock! you almost shot me!” “but I didn’t.”

-you punching Donovan for her insults

-having bad habits which Sherlock keeps pointing out

-him instantly knowing if you feel sad or angry

-him knowing exactly what to do to fix it

-shoving food in his mouth if he refuses to eat

-getting very jealous when irene comes around

-him indirectly assuring you he wouldn’t choose anyone other than you

-john freaking out when he finds out you two are dating

-john finding out by walking on you two having a make out session (which happens rarely)

-john threatens to kill Sherlock if he breaks your heart

-you occasionally punching Sherlock if he gets on your nerves with his attitude

-often slapping him to get him out of his mind palace

-you both trying to please each other

-because you both know you’d be depressed without each other

-although there’s little affection to your relationship you and Sherlock know you love each other dearly and neither of you would give the other up.

The OA Asks

Nina: Weirdest childhood memory?
Prairie: Would you say you’re mostly a leader or a follower?
Homer: What is the worst injury you’ve ever had? 
Rachel: What is your favourite song? 
Scott: Have you ever had an experience that changed your view on life?Renata: Do you play any instruments?
Buck: What is your gender and sexuality?
Steve: What do you do when you’re upset?
Jesse: What spiritual things (if any) do you believe in?
BBA: Are you the mum friend? 
French: How many siblings do you have?
Hap: How hardworking are you?

Apology Sentence Starters

Adjust pronouns as necessary.

“Please forgive me.”
“I didn’t want this to happen.”
“I was wrong!”
“I don’t deserve you.”
“Please – just hear me out.”
“You don’t have to forgive me.”
“You know I didn’t mean that!”
“I’m sorry.”
“That wasn’t my intention.”
“You don’t deserve this.”
“Let me make it up to you.”
“Please believe me.”
“I want to make this work!”
“Can’t we just talk it over?”
“How can I fix this?”
“I know I screwed up.”
"I did this for you/us/them!”
“If I could take it back, I would!”
“I didn’t mean for you to get hurt.”
"Tell me what I have to do to.”
“I just wanted to apologize.”

“Don’t get your hopes up” – ummm, fuck off?? I will absolutely get my hopes up? What, like years worth of hope hasn’t just been crushed and one more week is gonna change that? I’ve got one more week in me. I’ve got one more week of hope that groundbreaking television is coming. Fight me. If you have a problem finding hope, that’s fine, but I do not. And don’t coddle me to save my feelings. I die like a conspirator. I die knowing my version of events would make television history. I can sleep fine at night.