Welp, it’s been a long time coming, but here it is:
I don’t enjoy riding anymore. I don’t want to go riding. I haven’t for a very long time. Hell, I don’t even want to go to the barn but I drag my ass out anyways because I have a responsibility. Not because I enjoy it. Any passion that might have been there fizzled out a very, very long time ago.
Fuck dressage. Fuck jumping. Fuck western. Fuck trail riding, and lunging, and everything else.
And ESPECIALLY fuck everyone who thinks growing up in an equestrian family would be a grand ‘ol time because I’m telling you right now it’s fucking bullshit. You will NOT be put into the saddle for the love of horses. You will be there because it’s expected of you and you will be expected to perform, and to perform well. Any less and you’re a fucking disappointment.
I’m done. I quit. Fuck this.